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m1d-45 · 1 year

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Occasionally I’d play music in the background while playing the game. Now on this fine day, I’ve played ‘The Plagues’ from the prince of Egypt. I have a certain two brothers on my team. One of them being my main, Kaeya. “This seems too familiar,” I said aloud. In SAGAU, what would their reactions be?

plagued

a/n: voidless, words cannot describe the jealousy i feel knowing you are a diluc haver. also, i had kinda a hard time with this one, so let me know if this isn’t what you wanted!

word count: ~2k (the song itself is abt. 300)

-> warnings: major spoilers for kaeya and diluc lore, biblical references (quotes from the song are used, which itself is an interpretation of the bible), the brothers think you’re the ‘lord’ being referenced, heavy angst, this got so sad so quickly—

-> lowercase intended!

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taglist: @samarill || @thenyxsky

i don’t think it would register the first 10 seconds or so. they might be interested from the haunted whispers, or wonder how your device managed to capture a choir. they would pause on ‘this saith the lord’ but would get over it quickly. naturally, they would assume it was referring to you, and everything after carries a bit more weight. what if it was a command of yours?

‘Since you refuse to free my people

All through the land of Egypt’

they’d be curious about where ‘egypt’ was, and whether or not you lived there. why were the people captured? were they prisoners of war? they knew how deadly a fight between gods could be- was your world in the midst of war?

‘I send a pestilence and plague

Into your house, into your bed

Into your streams, into your streets

Into your drink, into your bread’

all of a sudden very worried. they’re gonna assume the worst case scenario and worry that you’re suffering through a plague. diluc’s making plans to offer more food the next time he has dinner at the manor, and kaeya’s concerned you might get sick from the poisoned food. they don’t have the most advanced medicine, and certainly not medicine fit for a god.

‘Upon your cattle, on your sheep

Upon your oxen in your field

Into your dreams, into your sleep

Until you break, until you yield’

this will give them pause, if only until they think it over. cattle? ‘oxen’? how could your world be so advanced as to have a device to peer into theirs and yet rely on these animals? they quickly get ahold of it though, don’t worry: naturally, your device was a holy item, only to be used by you, a god. it made sense that the people you ruled over would rely on cows and sheep to live. but then.. was this song one of warning? warning whoever the other party was of your divine retribution?

it makes more sense to diluc than it does kaeya.

’I send the swarm, I send the horde

Thus saith the Lord’

this only cements in their minds that it’s a song of warning. your people there must call you their lord—it made sense, perhaps they should adopt it?—and you were threatening to send a swarm of… something. they hoped they would never have to know. the haunting beauty of the chant is not something they’re keen on ever experiencing.

‘Once I called you brother

Once I thought the chance to make you laugh

Was all I ever wanted’

this hurts.

badly.

horribly, an ache immediately burning their chests. the tired, saddened voice of the brother will echo inside of kaeya’s head, likely long past whenever the song ends, and diluc’s tripping—literally, if you’re mid-battle his model will freeze in place for a few moments—over the realization that this is a hymn meant for brothers.

they refuse to meet each others eyes, each focused on the task you’ve given them. the other members of your party look away, giving them space even if they’re not the type to usually do so. i ask that you leave the brothers off-field, as they’ll surely be delayed in following your commands and will likely get hurt because of it.

’I send the thunder from the sky

I send the fire raining down’

the eerie enactment of your voice suddenly carries so much more weight. in your world, at some point, two brothers had fought over ‘egypt’, and you had sent down plagues in punishment. surely you knew this, right? was this a warning to them? were you angry with them?

’And even now I wish that god had chose another

Serving as your foe on his behalf

Is the last thing that I wanted’

you can’t see it due to the camera being permanently set behind the character—provided he’s on the field—and diluc certainly can’t, since they’re facing away from each other, but kaeya’s eyes are quickly turning glassy. it hurts, the weight of his promise to khaenri’ah, to his father—to both of his fathers—manifesting as a hollow ache in his chest. it’s getting harder to breathe through the block in his throat, and he wonders if you’re intentionally playing this because of him. it wouldn’t be so surprising; he knows he’s not the best or the most devoted, he knows that you likely look down on his lying and secrecy, he knows, he does, but please don’t remind him of it. it already haunts him when he tries to sleep.

‘I send a hail of burning ice

On every field, on every town’

diluc has a better handle on his expressions—read: he’s better at suppressing them—but anybody who looked could see he was distressed. his jaw is tense, every muscle in his body taught. he didn’t move an inch when he was off-field, and he relied heavily on the binds of your device to move him on-field. he feels like a live wire, buzzing with energy and yet no way to vent it. he can’t cope with these feelings the same way he normally would, he can’t throw himself into paperwork or into battle. he can’t stomp through mondstat’s plains, he can’t call flame to his fingertips and burn out the pain. your presence, the heavy air of divinity around him, barely does anything to soothe the ache. if anything, it only burns brighter.

‘This was my home

All this pain and devastation

How it tortures me inside

All the innocent who suffer

From your stubbornness and pride’

oh.

it’s like the words were handcrafted, bent into a hook and cast on a line that swiftly caught kaeya’s soul. he tries to remind himself that it’s not about him, it’s not about diluc and it’s not about khaenri’ah and it’s not about crepus, it’s about some nation in your world called ‘egypt’-

he can’t. the words resonate with his very essence, the core of his being shaking alongside the swelling music and tragic melodies. he feels like a glass in the hand of an opera singer, quivering in place and unable to move an inch, just waiting for the right frequency to make him shatter.

as he chokes on his own air, he wonders why you played this song specifically. did you know how much it would rip him apart? did you realize how much it hurt, to see himself reflected in its lyrics? did you know that it would send him back to his youth, did you want him to relive that pain?

over the turmoil, he can hear your voice. “this seems too familiar..”

so you were aware.

he supposed he deserved it.

’I send the locusts on a wind

Such as the world has never seen

On every leaf, on every stalk

Until there's nothing left of green’

diluc also caught your little comment, and he might have laughed would it not have come out watery. of course you knew. of course you chose this song specifically. of course you put him on the team with your beloved, of course you made him work with his brother, the one you’ve poured the most of your time and effort into. of course. of course. this was all just a jab at him, wasn’t it? perhaps he was being a touch self-centered in that assessment, but really, it wasn’t that far-fetched. he knew his brother was your favorite. he knew that, despite his own feelings about him, your opinion stood higher than any other. no matter how hard he tried, he would always fall to second place.

it made sense that you wanted to remind him.

’I send my scourge, I send my sword

Thus saith the Lord

You who I called brother

Why must you call down another blow?’

cryo vision or not, kaeya’s skin is burning. his heart is thundering at twice the pace it should, his skin flushed with both blood and embarrassment. he couldn’t help but feel like you were directing this at him specifically, like you had picked this song specifically to get under his skin. he didn’t doubt that diluc was affected as well—time apart didn’t change either of their habits—but didn’t dare to look over. surely, if he saw how disheveled mondstat’s cavalry captain had become after a simple few verses, his words would once more line with fire and flame. he knew his brother resented his position as the one in your favor, but now, with this further context…

it feels like you only picked him to fix him.

‘I send my scourge, I send my sword

Let my people go

Thus saith the Lord

Thus saith the Lord’

dilucs mind is racing, trying to pick out the meaning behind the song. it’s a tale of two brothers, that’s obvious enough, and it’s clear you mean for a parallel to be found between those sung about and him and kaeya. maybe- maybe if he can find it, if he can find the message you want them to learn, he can act on it and maybe he could fix whatever you hated so much about their relationship. he wanted to, desperately, because surely there was a reason you chose to play this with them on your team. there had to be meaning in this, there had to be a reason you insisted on placing him besides his brother even when you made it clear which you favored, there had to be a way to fix whatever he did to anger you. he refused to believe otherwise.

‘You who I called brother

How could you have come to hate me so?

Is this what you wanted?’

no, no, it wasn’t, kaeya never meant for this wedge between them to drive so deep, the chasm that separated the two brothers was never meant to be deeper than his pinky was long. he wanted to reconcile, he wanted to reconnect, this was never what he wanted, he never meant to dissolve his relationship with his brother like this. there were days he spent at the bar, bottle in hand and filled with regret over his decisions, wishing for anything to fix it. he would never want this. but of course, as always, your omnipotent presence dared to accuse what mortal men could never speak.

‘I send the swarm, I send the horde

Then let my heart be hardened

And never mind how high the cost may grow

This will still be so’

diluc’s eyes close, his thoughts a swirling mix of the words he’s hearing and memories of stormy nights. memories of blood on his hands and the glinting light of a fatui insignia burn behind his eyes, the implications of your playing this song knowing that it resonated with the two of them lost in the chaos. his mind echoes words back at him, an apparition only there to eat at him. ‘never mind how high the cost may grow,’ it spits, taunting, and he doesn’t have the energy to retaliate. why would he? hes in no place to protest, not when it’s right.

’I will never let your people go

Thus saith the Lord

I will not-‘

they ask that you never play this song again.

‘Let your (my) people go’

#voidless has EXCELLENT taste by the way. this is a banger #genshin sagau #sagau #genshin #genshin impact #self aware genshin #sagau kaeya #sagau diluc #words cannot describe how much i wish i had a diluc ughhhhh #i have his artifacts i have his talent things i have his boss drops i have a weapon i have everything BUT A DILUC >:(#*sad in jean and C1 mona*#and KAEYA? i have a c1 lisa and c1 amber #neither of which i use. i’ve built my kaeya so well but nope #don’t deserve a constellation. 4blizzard 7-7-7 talents and lvl 90 means nothing ig #bitter.#kaeya angst #diluc angst #what is love but making those you cherish suffer?#cw: religious themes #cw: religion #< tagging that on this one because it explicitly references the christian bible #then again i AM a sagau writer so…..#future me here saying: i have a diluc now!!!!! very cool!!!!#(but at what cost……)

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spaceratprodigy · 4 months

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✏ WIP Whenever ✏

Thank you for the tags @captastra @darkfire1177 @the-lastcall @hibernationsuit 💖💕

Haven't been working on too much personal art lately so not many new things to share

Have a lil sneaky peeky at these tiny sketches for the next few faith and max smoochy prompts in my ask box tho :]

open tag to anyone who wants to jump in!

#next week is gonna be great for faith and max enjoyers it looks like #just wanted to get a couple of these sketched out before I leave for the weekend #since they've been really nice (and much needed) stress relievers #I promise I haven't forgotten abt the other prompts in my ask box!!#I just have bigger ideas planned out for those and haven't had the time to work on them!!#but believe me I have been SO excited for when I can get back to them #they're literally all I think abt in terms of what I want to draw next!!#those and p&p au AND western au okay!! I have all the ideas planned out in my head but no time yet!!#2024 is gonna start off with some banger art fr fr #ily friends thank you for tagging me sorry I've been super slow getting around to everything #my mind has been all over the place and it's just that time of year ya'know #much love to y'all always <3 #my art #faith and max

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w1tchybusiness · 18 days

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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

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thenatashapulleyuniverse · 9 months

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Jem Castlereagh and Being the "Other"

The other night, I got into a discussion about Joe's racial and queer identity, and how these two things must have brought on a sense of guilt when he used to be Jem. It was such a fascinating topic to discuss that I want to share it here.

Joe is a white-passing biracial man. His mother is white, his father is Chinese. I want to specifically talk about Jem, since in that life, Jem was able to rise up to a high position with substantial power: The House of Lords.

On the topic of racial identity, Jem chose to be like other racialized white men, which in turn might have caused him to develop identity issues and guilt along the way. It's only speculation on our part whether or not he was gently persuaded/pushed/forced into this role, but this type of action brings about a sense of betrayal. He felt like he was betraying everything his family stood for.

Let's say his mother really did choose to go ahead and elope with a Chinese man. Jem's family history in of itself is already a betrayal to the fundamental order of things. His parents being a mixed race couple in the 19th century raising two sons, it couldn't have been easy for them. Toby (I don't think Jem mentioned an older brother but let's say Toby is also consistent with every Joe in every timeline) isn't white passing, so we can assume he's had his hardship of discrimination. So Jem knowing that he's "other" and that his family is "other", chooses to masquerade as a person who looks and sounds and fits right in with the group of people who would hurt his mother and father and brother for less than nothing just because they're a family. His family must be proud of him for being able to get opportunites they never would, but Jem carries that guilt because he knows he has to abandon his culture, his race, and inevitably his family just so that he can keep them all safe (him included). Jem choosing to use his mother's maiden name too is fact of this. Throwing away your true family name to fit in/to become somebody new is a reoccuring theme within the Kingdoms---Kite does it to appease to the English Navy, Agatha does it because she doesn't want to be connected to Lawrence anymore.

On top of that, he's a queer man. It's evident that he has a fondness for Madeline, but at the core of it, it wasn't a satisfying marriage because he's still playing the role of a heterosexual man to fit in. His queer identity basically ties in with what I'm saying about him betraying his family. I can't really imagine them being, you know, acceptable of gay people given they are a product of their time. At least with Jem's racial identity, he isn't alone. He has his brother. He has his father. He has a support system when it comes to being a racial minority. But being queer goes even deeper than that, because he's alone with all of that. You don't go to the asylum for being half-Chinese, but you can for being gay. Can you imagine how deep he must have suppressed that when he marries Madeline? How utterly alone? That is, until he meets Kite, another deeply repressed gay man. In his head, Jem must have had his reservations. His guilt, this time, is not only directed towards his mother and father and brother, but as well as to his wife and son. On paper, he's the ideal Englishman and they have given him everything to hold up that ideal. Yet the minute he finds somebody who understands what it means to be "other", he throws away everything his family had given him and goes with Kite to be "other" with him. My explanation here makes Jem wanting to go back home and be with his son even more symbolic and even sadder, because once he has thrown away everything to be the "other" there was never a world where he could have gone back unscathed, where he could have had his son and Kite too. So he loses everything when the timeline shifts. I think he knew that too, somewhere deep, deep inside, and so we can't even begin to fathom how deep his guilt goes regarding his racial and queer identity.

Of course, all of this is still speculation and we know nothing about Jem, Jem's family, and Madeline except from Kite's POV and the letters. However, all of this places even more importance on just how essential Kite is to Joe/Jem's person. He was willing to share his real name with Kite, willing to reveal his biracial heritage to him (I can't imagine that he shared that information with Madeline or his son Edward in his rise to power). At the intersection of Joe's character, between his race and his queerness, is just a man who wants to keep everybody he loves safe---whether that means having to hide who he really is, or joining the side of the "other" despite everything.

#i would love to hear what everybody has to say on this!#am i making sense do people understand me. everything makes more sense when im cooking something up in a frenzy in a public discord server #somewhere here is a banger essay topic on the themes of choices and decisions in the kingdoms #as i wrote this up it really reminded me of thaniel's character and watchmaker's themes of choosing for yourself vs fate #and you know i love me some parallels between novels. its about the overarching themes. its about the symbolism.#its about the inherent struggle of the pulley protagonist #theres also a banger fanfic idea here about joe/jem with imposter syndrome can somebody get on that #okay ive said my thinkpiece #the kingdoms #natasha pulley

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dreamedofyou · 8 months

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New Arm Share episode? Possibly? Maybe? 🤔

#their last arm share episode was such a banger I don't think they'll be able to top it #I rewatch that ep regularly; it has everything from horses (who correspond to each person's personality lmao) to taking lovestagram pics to-#-coming up with hilarious stories (that somehow first always makes gay at some point) to first getting called out for the 'cute' comment in-#-safe house to first crying about khao (ONCE AGAIN; plz get a grip sir) to khao saying he sees first as family (😭)#anyways what was I saying?#ah yes.... they're possibly filming an arm share episode again? 👀 maybe for first's bday this time?#(speaking of his bday is literally a day before mine 💁🏻‍♀️ slay)#can't get over the matching sunglasses either #(I know a bunch of actors own these by now but just the fact that they're wearing them at the same time is 😌 )#first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #arm weerayut #firstkhao

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letthefairyinyoufly · 13 days

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#the tudors #the borgias #I'm bored so what show do you prefer #I'm The Borgias fangirl myself #I'm still stuck on The Tudors season 3 I think #but the intro song is a banger #and this fucking show has Henry Cavill #but there is no ship to ship and no likable characters so that's why I haven't finished it #but The Borgias has it all #cesare x lucrezia #machinations #everything what my heart desires #Poll

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hauntingblue · 1 month

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Franky saving nami and her calling him big brother..... the connotations of this... big day for me especifically

#yamato shogun actually fits the oden theme akshakaj.... but momo.is the rightful heir and all that......#yamato just carrying luffy again ahsakanak #YAMATOS CHAINS MAKING AN EXPLOSION TO ENTER THE ARENA AJDHAHAAHSJ YEAAAHH!!! YOU TAKE CARE OF KAIDO!!!!#they are waiting for the samurais.... hell yes.... DAMN KINEMON!!!#THEY GOT HIM!!!!! kaido is so fucked up he is seeing oden and all.... wooow.....#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 995 #BANGER MUSIC FROM THE JUMP!!! HELL HEAH #the oden isnt oden without being boiled theme its there too omg #nami and zeus akdjaksja together again......#kinemon reciting prophecy while they stab kaido...... banger #kinemon trusting luffy to bring the sunrise to wano and to be the king of the pirates.... hell yes #episode 996 #what is law doing... searching for the poneglyph???#episode 997 #<- not many thots #i feel like we've been trhu so much with the pink haired samurai.... if he dies i am crying #yamato is such a character.... strong and violent and hates his father and he LITERALLY IS kozuki oden... DO NOT GET IT TWISTED #SHINOBU!!!!! AND EVERYONE JUST STARING!!! DO SOMETHING!!!#OHHH MOMO IS FREE!!! TUNR UNTO A DRAGON!!!#oh his fear of heights.... WHATS THAT as queen said lmaoo #sanji??? protecting momo??? about time he arrived also #and sanji died cut in half.... so sad.....#'its only natural... he is my son' YAMATO ABOUT MOMO AJSKAHSKAJQKAJWKS #one ikoku for luffy killed 1898 samurais... goodbye brave soldiers ajdjsksb was that worth it luffy... the dodge...#nami saying she has never lied in her life ajdhsksjsk #FRANKY!!!!!!!!!! and he is singing and everything.... RUN OVER BIG MOM HELL YEAHHH NAMI CALLING FRANKY BIG BROTHER YEAAAAHHHHH YEAAAAAAHHHHH #you guys dont know what this means to me. i could cry. i am cheering and hollering. i am ripping my shirt off and swinging it.#episode 998

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worstloki · 2 years

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Thor and Loki often have similarly styled pants but no one seems to go 👀👀👀😳 over Thor's and I for one find that very funny

#like idk maybe it's just me and the besties but Loki's outfits always go so hard like d*mn there's some good design there #and then Thor walks in in the next movie with the same design with extra leather straps and it's like well ok I guess it works :/#there's just always something up with the pants fr #Thor1 Thor and Loki's ceremonial pants look to be of the same thin material but Loki's crotch was CGI'd out half the time for vague reasons #Thor literally does a whole getting dressed scene where he's doing up his Earth jeans and I'm like huh ok thot #while Loki flashed the jotunheim scene outfit for maybe 3 minutes of screentime and it lives in everyone's heads rent free #like Thor in Avengers 1 was trying so hard with his upper body with the chain sleeves and going sleeveless etc.#and Loki's there in full armour - you can't even SEE most of the details on his stuff half the time #but everyone's constantly joking about the crotch flap bc they put him in a long tunic for the whole film #and I have SEEN people going >.> to zoom in on the pants especially bc there's metal and seams and stuff to look at #to be fair on that one though Thor's pants look like something cap would wear on tour so that one is understandable #Thor's TDW outfit though!!!!! Like SURELY that one is a banger -- we've even got Thor in casualwear with the wrap around and all #but nooooooo it's all about Loki in prison and then in the slightly changed armour with no helmet #THOR TRIED SO HARD IN THAT MOVIE #he LITERALLY has a metal design on the lateral side of his leather pants and everything ! the armour that movie looks GOOD #but no one cares because Jane's got an Asgardian fit and Loki is right there :(#he's got ALL the good outfits in AoU but everyone is like ohhhh look at his hair look at his coat -- WHAT ABOUT HIS PANTS AND BOOTS #everyone appreciating Loki's entire fits while Thor only gets attention when he's Extra Special like #can u recall Thor's ragnarok gladiator outfit from memory? be honest 👉👈#it has a whole bunch of straps along his arms and yet #everyone focused on Thor's face and upper body armour in Endgame too like #this is incredibly funny #what is going on #is it because he wears lots of nondescript pants? possibly #i'm going to keep pretending it's because no one likes his pant choices

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vancilart · 1 year

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if not your love, at least i have your hate

#the final advent just has a banger song after banger song #god my back HURTS #or my shoulders bc im hunched like a gargoyle #thats a big art piece oof ouch #there should be treats downstairs i should get some #oc stuff #stuff in space #i have a lot of thoughts abt them #they just need a good talk instead of just. vikas rolling over to expose his vulnerable stomach so raven doesnt feel so threatened #man feels threatened about everything #he just cant move past what happened but he really should #but vikas doesnt feel like its his position to tell him to move past it when hes the one who caused it #how do you encourage someone to move on from something you did #but one thing is certain is that they cant keep up with what they have #vikas wants to date and he wants to stay overnight at raven's and make him coffee in the morning and be like it was in the old times #as it is now he cant even talk to herah about his love life and he talks to herah about everything #and if raven isnt comfortable with dating and love and such then why keep trying #let the man heal in peace #vikas would just want to be a support if he cant be the boyfriend but neither is sure if thats possible #and raven is just dealing with all the emotions he never managed properly coupled with the abandonment trauma hes had since childhood #ALSO his health issues which include anxiety and paranoia #vikas is like well if i turned myself in would that bring you closure?? and raven's like noooooo dont do that youd go to prison nooo #he needs and wants support but the only person he can get support from is his ex who betrayed him most brutally of all #and he loves vikas he really does but he wants his love but he also hasnt moved on and doesnt know what to do #its a problem. they need to work on it

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pinkfilmcamera · 2 years

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okay tw hard vent ig

#first let me start by saying i am in my pms so im sensitive #also im a year behind cuz i was born in the summer #anyway #man first of all fuck covid cuz it only made processing these things harder #literally having a breakdown cuz my last day is in 8 days #im in both my ‘she’s just trying to graduate’ and ‘has no idea what she’s doing in college phase’#i feel that a lot of people might ridicule me for this but :(#i genuienly do not want to leave #its going to be so hard and im already drained from all the crying that’s going to happen #its so hard :(#im also literally doubting everything ive done in my life #and i keep beating myself up for wanting to write but not having any ideas/feeling completely unmotivated #also my existence here is absolutely pointless #sometimes talking to yourself is glorified #this is the moment where nobody by mitski hurts and its not a banger anymore #i feel so so shitty #not like anybody cares :/#white ferrari �� gee rants

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cedarbranch · 27 days

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🍉, 🥝, and 🥨!

omg thank you!! these are such fun ones hehe

🍉: Are you a pantser or a plotter?

plotter. 10000% plotter. for everything i write i have a planning document sketching out the progression of scenes, Especially if it's one of my longer fics (i.e. over ~50k words). i approach storytelling primarily thinking about the overall structure, so it's easier for me to start by figuring out pieces and shuffling them into a whole picture as opposed to building each piece off the previous one! often times though as i start writing i figure out new things about what the story wants to Be, so then i just have to adjust my plans/make notes in the doc for how i'm going to change things in the second draft lol

🥝: Who are your literary influences, and have they shaped your own writing?

it depends on what i'm writing! but since most of my writing is fic, my influence primarily comes from other fic writers (and often specific stories). in chronological order across the years and fandoms, some of my biggest influences have included: dear_monday; scarredsodeep; still, a great deal of light falls on everything by s0dafucker, muzzlemess (rustywrites); water closet by stillmadaboutpetra; haunted house with a picket fence by erce3; emungere, and zipegs. the latter two are my biggest inspirations rn, aside from the source material of nbc hannibal itself which is having a Huge impact on the way i write! it's the first time i've ever been so influenced by a tv show but it fr unlocked smth in me when it comes to improving my writing

🥨: How do you overcome writer's block?

on a short-term level, by taking breaks and focusing on absorbing other people's art (reading fic instead of writing it, reading books, watching movies, etc). but in the long-term it depends on how far into the fic i am tbh... if i've already sunk a ton of effort into a story and am over halfway through (which for me usually means i've already written 40k+ words), then i'll brute force my way through a lack of inspiration if i have to. i will survive based on pure willpower. if i lose my steam before then though i might end up abandoning that work 😭 (this is usually what happens if i try to take on too many wips, i write SUCH long shit i can usually only complete 1-2 fics for a fandom before the hyperfixation-fueled motivation leaves)

this got very long lol but thank you for these! i love to procrastinate on my writing by talking about writing!!

ask me fic questions!

#rip to the two BANGER stranger things fic ideas i started and abandoned #realistically they are never getting done now that i've got hannibal stuff on the backburner too but GODDD they were gonna be SO good #but yeah i love talking about the writers who've influenced my fic hehe :3 #scarredsodeep's work was what got me to realize how much i love lyrical prose... water closet has affected my narration style...#fences (hiiiii apple) got me thinking about when to abbreviate or extend a scene...#zipegs' hannibal fic is like. Everything i want out of my own work rn #such a perfect balance of dialogue where every word counts + rich prose and metaphor #anyway #answered #n.txt

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