#WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT IT IM SOBBING

[apollosfavkiddo]

⛧° you promised you’d come back

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content: jason grace x pluto!fem!reader blurb

warnings: angst, not a happy ending, interrupted friends to lovers, death of character, really short.

a/n: i know, i know, i have to post the leo fic first. whatever?? i wrote this late night in the hospital in my phone and i cried, so you’re gonna read it and cry too. this one doesn’t even have wc or song cause i literally left it just like i wrote. shits really short. good luck 🫡

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You didn’t have any news on how the damn quest was going.

No Iris message. No letter. Absolutely no indication that your best friend was still alive. lt was a mix of emotions together, but especially fear.

Fear that maybe he wasn’t alive anymore. Maybe he had finally succumbed to one of those damned quests that your parents put you through, because somehow, they can’t do it on their owns.

But you had to cling to the small light of hope that was alive and that he was okay. After all, he promised you he’d come back.

“Of course i’ll come back, y/n/n. I always do.”

And maybe when you do came back, you thought, i’m finally be able to tell you how much i love you.

But all that hope was completely and totally crushed down the moment that Nico came to your apartment, along with Lester, Meg and Piper.

All of them had a dark and intense gaze, but especially Nico.

You obviously knew about the growing friendship that Jason had with the younger boy. Gods, Jason even talked about him like an older brother talks about his baby sibling.

And that’s when you knew. That’s when it hit you, that’s you’d never see Jason again.

“Y/n… can i come in?” Nico asked, his voice cracked. He instantly cleared his throat and stand up straight, swallowing a lump. “I mean- we. Can we come in?”

You just nodded, the tears already welling up in your eyes.

“Hm… Im really sorry to say this, Y/n, but… Jason didn’t make it. Caligula, he-“ Apollo - Jason’s half brother, cause nothing could be better - said, but you interrupted him with a raise of your hand.

“It’s okay. You didn’t have to come all the way here to talk to me about this. You have a quest to continue, i get it. You can go now.” You said, your voice trying to sound firm and certain.

“Y/n, are you-“ Piper said, reaching out a hand to you.

“Yes.” You said, taking a step back away from her. You and Piper never had the best relationship, and you just thought that she was the last person you’d want around in a moment like this - the girl who first killed Jason. “I’m fine. Really.”

You tried to sound reassuring, but Nico quickly caught in your facade. He cleared his throat again and looked back at the trio behind him. “It’s fine.” He said, and they finally backed off.

Meg was the only one who didn’t. She achtualmy took a step forward and pulled you in to a hug. She was a few inches shorter than you, so it was hard for her, but the hug was very appreciated. You quickly reciprocated, and she finally pulled away. She had puffy eyes and a pout on her lips.

“I’m sorry about him. I know you were close.” She said in a whisper, only to both of you hear, and you smiled. She was sweet. You nodded and whispered back a small ‘thank you’. And then, they finally left.

When you closed the door, you immediately broke into sobs. Your brother was quick to cradle you into his arms, and you just sobbed.

Not that far after, you felt his body also shaking. You didn’t think you ever saw Nico cry, but this was understandable, at least. He was his best friend. He was the best friend to both of you.

“W-why, Nico? It’s- it’s not fair! He’s- he was too young, he-“ You groaned as you sobbed into Nico’s old jacked, damping it completely. Bit you couldn’t find it in yourself to care, not when that happened.

He nodded, caressing your back.

He was gone. Jason was gone. Your Jason. Your best friend. The man you were in love with. The person that you grew to admire, looking up to how kind, generous and intelligent he was.

Your favorite person. Your soulmate.

In the end, all that’s left is a broken promise, a crossed heart and a shattered soul.

#all my love 🍀 #postcards from leah #jason grace #jason grace angst #heroes of olympus #pjo hoo toa #jason grace x reader #jason grace x y/n #jason grace x you #heroes of olympus x reader #pjo

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Arthur: Without ugly, there would be no beauty in this world.

Theodorus: Thank you for your sacrifice, Arthur.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp incorrect quotes #ikevamp arthur #ikevamp theodorus #ikevamp theo #ikevamp dazai #(if you squint) #honestly this one speaks for itself #every time i see them together in the game im just like 'the girls are fighting!!!!' #vincent erasing the number and replacing it with a zero on a board that reads #'it has been __ days since theo dumped beer on arthur's head at the bar' #longest he's ever gone is 14 days #on the flipside why can i see theo like 'finally useful for smth' at the prospect of vincent shining all the brighter #in accordance with the analogy #and arthur's just sobbing about his troubles to the cpr mannekin/skeleton #he was talking to dazai but we all know dazai and his commitment to the bit #that open window be speaking volumes #source: incorrect quote generator

[grumpy-nyks]

The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Agnes edition

Who would have thought? 🤭

Agnes "Nes" Sigrún 🌑RO: James Corvin

Personality: sincerity // cautious // friendly // merciful Traits: heart // compliance // believer Past affinity: writing [horror stories] Primary ability: empathetic impressions Past susceptibility: receptive

☀️Fernweh: She never really thought about leaving Fernweh… It was her place, near her family and friend(s). She felt good there and assumed she’s gonna spend her whole life happily in this little town. Even if Fernweh brings back devastating memories, she’s curious about what’s happening in Fernweh now, in her true home. It’s always been her dream to work in Turn The Page, and during her ‘short’ stay in Fernweh, she started thinking about it again. Why not stay for longer…? She would love to carry on her grandfather’s work and bring his legacy justice. 

☀️Grandpa Jóhann: When she was young, she had an amazing relationship with her grandpa. They were completely honest with each other, and she loved him wholeheartedly. Some people thought that making her grandpa proud was her main hobby. She used to tell him all about her dreams that she had, which were always wild... and also about the nightmares… It took her by surprise when her grandpa, one of the most important people in her life, started being less involved. She was hurt and began to wonder if she had done something to cause the distance between them. His decision to move her out of Fernweh so quickly after this tragic event made a huge impact on her mental state. She needed time to cope and be with her closest ones, especially her grandpa...but after all she didn't blame him. She often heard that she looked exactly like her mother…like her grandpa's daughter... She assumed he could not look at her, without thinking about her... And she could not blame him for wanting to escape that pain. Agnes knew it was the best thing that her grandpa could do for him, and she accepted it, too eagerly. She always too eagerly took the blame for everything.

☀️Beckett Warrick: After what happened in Fernweh after James she had even more trouble interacting with other people and making new friends… However, Beckett was an exception. He was the first person who got to truly know her after the events in Fernweh. When she got the letter about her Grandpa, she considered hiding the truth from him, because she knew deep down that he would be there for her if she needed him… even if he would not particularly enjoy it. It's a good thing she’s such a bad liar… Her main concern is about Beckett’s well-being. She noticed that this 'little' trip made a huge impact on him. He wasn’t supposed to be here, and it’s because of her that he–... She needs to make sure that nothing happens to her friend. And she will somehow manage to bring him back to his home.

☀️Reese Verner: They had an unconventional relationship. Reese saw her as a rival, while Agnes thought of him as a friend. She was confused about why Verner, someone of great importance, would even look at her see her as a rival. She knew there were better candidates for his games. She had only one question on her mind - “why?”. Despite Verner's playful teasing, Agnes always remained polite and friendly towards him, even when he attempted to push her boundaries. Girl knew how to keep her true feelings behind a warm smile she still does. If I can be completely honest… Agnes was rather shocked that Reese still remembered her… and was actually looking for her, which sounded so unbelievably. His concern for Milton's well-being made her see him in a slightly different light. Of course, she already knew Reese had a good heart, but his behaviour really touched her. Additionally, Agnes noticed that Reese and James’ relationship became stronger and deeper… It’s for the best. James deserves someone as dependable as Reese. He will always be there for James. 

☀️Sofia Dorran: Their bond was formed over a shared admiration for books and... the color blue. It may sound funny now, but these things became central to their lives and deepened their friendship. Sofia was the first person Agnes entrusted with her writing, and valued her honest feedback, knowing that Sofia would not make her feel bad if something needed improvement. They frequently borrowed books from each other's collections. Agnes yearned for the days when she and Sofia had reading sessions together, sipping on their favorite beverage. The only issue back then was when the book ended poorly or their library didn't have any new positions for them to read. She's willing to know how Sofia's taste toward books shifted (if shifted) and how she changed as a person. She's also extremely grateful because her grandfather received constant care from Sofia and her mother.

🌑James Corvin: …Do I really need to tell you that James was her first crush? And that she never found the courage to tell him so? maybe now will be the time? Agnes and James were always together, wherever one went the other followed. They were inseparable. Agnes even used to bake oatmeal cookies for James with her mother's help. They dreamed of their idyllic life together. As friends, obviously. Seeing him again after all those years was much harder than she anticipated. Agnes felt overwhelmed with stress from the moment she stepped out of her car. Every time she heard his surname, she unknowingly flinched. Her mind was full of questions about his well-being, life, and changes. She couldn't help but wonder if he would be happy to see her. …she did manage to hold his hand for a moment, I can consider it as a success

☀️Alex Corvin: Agnes has always looked up to Alex for their adventurous spirit and their willingness to embrace life to the fullest. She has always wanted to adopt a bit of Alex' wild side. Whenever they are around, boredom and dullness seem to disappear. They both share similar values and support each other's life goals. If I would say which person Agnes was the most willing to meet during her stay in Fernweh that would be Alex. She was confident in their friendliness towards everybody and was sure that their kindness had not wavered. Agnes was touched when she heard that Alex was looking after her grandfather's bookstore… It appears that Beckett has a new admirer, which Agnes wholeheartedly approves of.

☀️Mal: Agnes has a sense that Mal might be suspicious, but she is quite naive and doesn't believe that he could mean trouble. Although she is wary of him and finds him a little untrustworthy, Agnes believes in being kind to everyone, and she is willing to give Mal a chance, not judging him by her own impressions of him.

☀️Goldie: Agnes is grateful that her grandfather had a furry companion like Goldie, who probably managed to brighten his spirits. She fondly recalls how her grandfather would tell her stories when he once had a dog, when he was younger and how his eyes would light up with joy as he shared his story. Agnes is committed to taking excellent care of Goldie and ensuring her safety.

#don't get me started how she is BLAMING herself for the situation Beckett is rn. she needs to go back for her theraphy sesions right away #that's why she went with him into the woods looking for Milton and not James even so she wanted to spent every single second with him :sob: #she's conflicted. being with James is something that she dreamed of but in her opinion he deserves someone better //obviously// #...that's why she's cheering for James and Reese lol. Look she just wants James and Reese to be happy and she can see how those two care of #-each other. She's happy : ) #she's an idiot 🙂 #is there a potential happy ending for the three of them..? maybeeee. we'll see what the story will bring 👀 #im totally confident that Sofia and Agnes had their own shared little library #Agnes wrote a poem for James when she was young but it wasn't really her forte. that's why she showed it to Sofia because she knew she will #-help her. //Agnes didn't want to tell for who it was but Sofia figured it out anyway. they both knew that the other knew but weren't- #-talking about it out loud. XD it was hilarious -- for me and I assume Sofia but Agnes was terrified. XDD// #....cough James never saw this poem anyway cough... #I have this headcanon that Agnes made up amazing horror stories that James was willing to hear (for a bunch of oatmeal cookies) when- #-they had a sleepover //those stories were from her nightmares but she never said that to James knowing he would only worry about her// #btw her parents called her 'little star' and James must have heard it and (maybe?) asked Sofia to make a necklace... Sun and Moon. #did you know that Agnes had her piece of the Sun as her necklace for the WHOLE TIME. but she hid it away under shirt... x"D she was looking #-if James had his Moon somewhere... but she did not see it. anyway she wears it always. #omg i finally made it. there's also one in my drafts nearly finished and three more to go. XD #sooo curious about book two <3 #fernweh saga #my art? #Spotify #oc: agnes sigrun

[todayisafridaynight]

so magical that yakuza 1 and shadow the hedgehog came out the same year........ 2005 the best year for sega honestly.....

#snap chats #AND DAYS APART TOO IN JAPAN (rgg1 dec. 8 while shadow was dec. 15) #the gap is significantly wider for US releases but thats not important..... #japanese kids were winning on christmas i swear #'snap why are you bringing this up' isnt it obvious. i am playing shadow the hedgedhog #and i keep thinking about daigo playing shadow and then later down the line just talking to mine bout it cause he can be a lil sillay #i hope he had dreams where he and shadow got to be besties. and by Him And Shadow i mean he dreams himself as sonic #because obligatory Same VA Joke Is Obligatory IF WE CAN GET ONE (1) W FROM RCS VOICING DAIGO. LET IT BE THAT AT LEAST. #for me..... let it slide for me..... yes ik it was jason griffith voicing sonic (and shadow) back then but let it slide this once.. #i refuse to acknowledge modern shadow. unless it's from that one uhhh fuck what was the cartoon called #its on netflix Point Is the one time shadow was actually like his old self girl i sobbed. too bad sonic was a dipshit though #a soul for a soul ig.... i think its ok just this once.... #im getting so off topic but this is how i inflict my other interests upon you lot #i trap you into reading a post vaguely about rgg and then i make it about something else :) #look at my pfp you fool. i legally have to talk about shadow the hedgehog like once a month ok let me have this #while im here. like /i/ know this game is nine years long but sometimes i forget HOW long #326 endings and for what. because they love me thats why. #fym 'revenge at last' is only ending 11 that seems like the third route or so you'd take (only black doom missions) #ok ive talked long enough. anyway bye im gonna uhhhh god idk.... i keep getting distracted #i started watching kagerou while my sister was playing mysims the other day but i got too engrossed by her playing to continue #mysims was like. A White Whale of sorts in my house for a while since it was one of like five games my sis actually played #and it was her fave but one day 1.) we lost it 2.) our wii stopped working. since that day she's blamed me for losing it #WELL then i found it and i got the wii u working SO all that can stop now 👁️👁️ ok ive fr gone on too long #unfortunately i cant talk about EVERYTHING i want to lest i just turn this into a general games blog. but i wont i prommy #for now. bye fr i think my sis just got home actually LMAO

[hauntingblue]

The marines calling Roger the worst man of the world is something but considering ace renounced him and luffy kinda blindly admires him bc we don't really know much about what he has done past his travels....

#like i know he wasnt but why then #bc he opposed th government and thats it #and now theyre going to kill his son just because they can #also surprised the d came from aces mother (well considering what she could do...) but i really thought it was bc of roger #even if they keep writing gold roger and not gol d roger but alas #tbh idk if thats just a theory or it has been confirmed but im not there yet #also i wanna know more about aces mom #and the fukcing bubbles of saboady keep haunting me!!!!!! #why is the people so sure that roger was bad what happened #and why is rayleigh alive if rogers family is dead like damn #also fuck!!! the marines know about dragon being luffys dad when iva san said to keep ot quiet!!! because of fucking garp!!!! #like lets kill rogers son but dragons is alright i guess #not like i want luffy to die but considering the revolutionary army you know #a newborn doesnt carry any sins just as boats arent good or evil. thats what im talking about #there arent any love stories in one piece and like i get it but it would be nice to know why ace was even born you know #OH ACE LOOKS LIKE HIS MOTHER OOOOOOHHHHH... THATS A DEATH SENTENCE #he has his mothers eyes what if i shit and cry and throw up #this is sickening also #the hunting pregnant women #the orange clouds looking like fire when ace is born. what if i start to sob #nono gol d ace now.... so they are both d names.... is that like a curse because damn... #also ace being held by his mom with the orange clouds behind again..... i am telling you he is like jesus christ you wouldnt get it #mary did you know your womb was also a tomb etc etc #god.... rogers rivals raising his son. whitebeard wanting him to become pirate king.... his rival's son... old men do not make me cry #buggy opening the doors like moses lmao #ace surprised whitebeard is coming for him.... and not believing luffy came for him either #that was good i cant wait to see more flashbacks but how many episodes will we be here until the thre hours are past. i fear for aces knees #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 460

[poltergeist-coffee]

*stares longingly out my window* I’ve gotten attached to yet another duo/pairing that has zero crumbs

#💬 one new message #…alright to be fair Insaneduo isn’t that bad but there aren’t enough people on here who talk about them #so I make up majority of that tag AMNFHJABFHJ I’m sorry I’m unwell #slimeriana… I don’t want to talk about it #uh….. yeah those are my two (2) main ones #the newest addition is pactoiles / pacmanduo if you couldn’t tell from like the past two nights lmao #AAAGH WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF TT #SOBBING AND WAILING WHY CANT I BE NORMAL !! #I ALMOST FORGOT PHILEVER #GRANTED THEY DO GET CONTENT OCASSIONALLY… MORE SO THEN THE OTHERS SO ITS OKAY…. BUT IM ALSO SILLY ABOUT THEM

[thegreatestheaver]

planning courses for the next semester is not for the weak

#WHY IS EVERY SINGLE CLASS GOING ON AT THE SAME TIME. #WHY DO WE ALL START AT 9AM AND NOT GO PAST 11AM. PLEASE #please just strart at 1pmplease plase palseasee #i dont wanna take only 3 classes next semester but like erm. #mostly because im a little picky abt my professors. less so for electives but classes im worried about (SPEECH) #ive been pushing speech off for the longest time because i have crippling social anxiety 99% of the time. so i made sure i got a good prof #uhgghg #theres this one prof who does a lot of erm i think sociology classes yeah #she is so chill and nice and uses my prefurred name and pronouns (i really need to get my name chaged in the system uhghgh) but she did uh #the reverse grading and i hated it. everyone did. she was so nice and understanding.. #one time i went 2 talk to her about my missing work (chronic pain and fatigue had me bed bound for days on end) and she literally just said #erm u have an A so u dont have to do it. #>@>>@>/1/1/?!?!? #live saver. i had a breakdwon in her office i was literally sobbing telling her about my health issues. it was really hard because i never- #-really talk about it. i didnt realize how hard it would be when i finally did #anywasy what was i saying. yeah i love her so much but not her grading and teaching system. but idk maybe ill try it again she has a gender #-and sexuality class i kinda wanna take because im a professional faggot

[microfeelings]

I finished reading Dungeon Meshi in a week...

#i am crying.. the amount of times this manga made me sob #i am an emotional bitch tho so its not like its hard to make me cry lmao #i have many thoughts #spoilers in the tags i guess #good ones regarding the manga itself #bad ones regarding the fandom but thats normal about every fandom so im not even surprised #youre telling me that marcille has such a complicated backstory regarding her lifespan #and having had to watch her father. her only friend. wither and die before her eyes #and shes terrified of her loved ones dying and leaving her alone and that fear is what kickstarts everything #and all the fandom reduced her to was cringe fail lesbian? :) #dont get me wrong i love when shes pathetic but the more i read the manga and the more we were revealed my first thought was #'why did i see like five essays for laios and not a single one for marcille?' #i see more posts of people paying attention to chilchuk cause hes a divorced dad and making angst about that #than about everything marcille has been gone through #god shes such an interesting character #AND I NEVER WOULD HAVE FOUND OUT IF I HADNT READ THE MANGA #not a single post about marcilles character thats isnt talking about how shes cringe fail or a lesbian in the tag #ended up giving up scrolling through it #i swear if this tags attracks people with no reading comprehension

[ialpiriel]

me, the coyote who's just gotten out of the leg trap after five months: man, why do i feel so fucking bad about everything this week?

#del gets personal #five fucking months #i was suicidal! there were days i had Thoughts! #and now im like 'man why do i feel so shitty after class which kidna sucks right now' #im up liek three hours past my bedtime. ive made some mistakes tonight lmao #tbc im like safe and stuff. im just up way way too late for havign work in the morning #just fucking. theres no way to talk about [thoughts] about Five Months In The Shop without it sounding like a sob story #and i dont think il lget any actual useful advice from anyone in person. i think they will tell me to get therapy or suck it up. #already been told the second one several times in several ways by several people #anyway i need to go to bed now. three hours late.

[lorileopard]

When TF does dunkin open and who let me stay awake this long alone in the dark

#ptsd has a way of seeping in and attacking me when im alone #in the dark #on little sleep #todays is less violent #its the time i was 8 and got home early from school but no one knew i was going to be out early #house was locked #dad was out #and it was downpouring #i walked and ran two towns over before i mistook a stranger as a family friend #sobbing and gross i told this lady my dilemma and she offered to drive me the other half of the way to my sisters aunts house #i was masking so hard and calmed down on the surface to give clear directions and make it to Paulas #damn...why why make me remebwr being smol rn #sorry this is like #huge and personal #i dont ever get to talk about things like this

[art-of-mathematics]

*taking a deep breath to reflect upon whether I'm human or not*

*philosophical sob*

*takes pen and makes a tick*

*contemplates about whether it's lying or not when you don't even know the answer, or the actual answer is too nuanced and complex and doesn't fit into a binary margin... also, they didn't define what they mean by "robot", thus this uncertain ambiguity makes further measurements of your answer obsolete, and it doesn't even matter at all what you reply, because the terms are not defined. *

#im not a robot #lol #silly and useless philosophizing about useless shit #well... that's how i basically waste 300% of my time #and i don't even exaggerate with that... #welp #my brain is in a 24/7 high and it becomes terribly annoying #i guess it's normal if you are pushed out of society for decades despite actually liking to engage with people #sob #serious social deprivation is like... awful... forced isolation... and people wonder why i talk with myself lol #i have serious problems i suppose #but i guess it will improve one day... such phases come and go and I have learned to make the best outta that madness #learning is a process #and processes are not constant but fluctuate #creative processes are especially fluctuating and turbulent #whatever #indulging in nonsense

[nomaishuttle]

the way i balance staying true to my tumblrina nature while also having a job and bills and rent is that at work while cleaning a room ill think of something id like to post and then repeat it over and over in my head and refine it until it sounds right and then i either post it as soon as i get a second to Or i forget it bc i think of anew post to make. and they always get 0 notes but its ok

#not a lot to post abt in a retirement home. its like yep this room is exactly the same as it was last week and the week before as well. #2day we mughtve had a missing resident idk. i also fink i saw her like 2 seconds b4 she went missing so im sure they found her #i was just sitting in the lunch room Seething and Coping ( iwas 40 minutes behind and had just found out i had an extra room on top of that #btw i didnt get out until 4:30. my shift ends at 330 but my ride leaves at 4 and due to The crisis my boss said i can stay clocked in until #4 so that i can do liberty and get overtime et cetera. whats hard is sometimes when i say et cetera i want you to read it as et cetera but #other times i want you to read it as E.T. cetera. but what can you do. #anyways where was i. right i was in the lunchroom oh also my ride didnt leave without me bc marians my bestie. anyways. i was in the break #room idk why i keep calling it the lunchroom im not a highschooler. its a breakroom we just sometimes eat lunch in there when im not outsid #or hiding in Closet <3333333333 #aaaanyways what was i talking abt. a good thing abt desktop tumblr is that i can read through all the tags so far #mobile its like a whole debacle basically. idr how but its like. whatever ider what i was talking about hold on #oh right. so i was in the break room and there was a nurse in there and on the walkie (they all have walkies. brenda also has one) i heard #someone go Sooo 245 wasnt in her room and she wasnt in the cafeteria :worried: im gonna look around 2nd but keep an eye out.. #and then like a minute later that nurse got up and quickly left idk if she got a different message bc i was listening to starstruck by sorr #and trying to figure out how expensive (indian restaurant) is. the answer is very ughhh i just wanted butter chicken and garlic naan and #rice and that wouldve been THIRTY DOLLARSSS :sobbed: it is very very good food though #i caint get it anyway my check hasnt come in. Tee be honest i might go ahead and order it anyway once my check does come in i rly rly want #butter chicken rn. if in being honest. #also the nurse was playing like a kids cooking channel youtube video rly loudly and the guy in it was obnoxious and i was having such a bad #day i was just sitting there hunched over in a corner forehead against the counter it was diree guys. #the way i made 'yeah i overheard on one of the nurses walkies that they couldnt find a resident for a couple minutes' into a 10 paragraph #debacle. this is what i mean when i say i have to be a tumblrina do you know how dire it would be if i had a social life and went outside #somebody would be like hey how has your day been! and id make it into a 15 hour long historical reenactment. lord

[the-acid-pear]

Yall dont even know how badly down i was for this guy back in the day. Mf had me eating off the palm of his hand.

#luly talks #im pretty sure hes the main reason why im so into eyepatches in characters #at least one of the reasons at least #he was so hot AND FOR WHAT #TO SPEND HALF OF THE GAME JUST PUKING BLOOD #i remember close to nothing about this game but that scene had little kid me like sobbing and screaming and ripping my hair off #im exaggerating but not entirely im sure i cried when it looked like he was going to die #fucking okegom itself had me eating off the palm of their hand when i was a kid which #ITS BAD I KNOW LMAO but man. zany emoji but man. these silly little characters had me ON MY KNEES i swear to god #i dont actually remember if i was down as bad for anyone in wadanohara i guess. idate? and the octopus #but it was NOTHING like what me and wodahs had. or nega. although w nega it was platonic love i didnt wanna fuck that thing #i spoke of nega before the moment he died was one of the hardest blows kid me took #i mean they fucking crucified my man. they nailed him to the fucking cross. i was like 8. #my 8 year old ass did NOT need to see my at the time all time fave be fucking crucified i literally was crying so fucking hard #this sort of *grips table* way of interacting w shit did carry me to UT where when papyrus died i was like NOOOOOOOOOOO #bc i used to be a papyrus girlie yeah #part time sans girlie too i mean who wasnt back then but it was platonic never wished to fuck him #i dont remember if i didnt wanna fuck paps tho #i DO remember wanting to fuck grillby tho KFAJDHBGJH #when i got into lisa i was already too old and too normal to go as crazy anymore #no games ever managed to make me as emotional as Mogeko Castle and TGG just cuz of wodahs tho

[transgender-catboy]

I love my friends

#i think im just going to talk in the tags for a moment. got a lot on my mind #for starters. the fnaf movie comes out soon. really looking forward to that. think its gonna be awesome and amazing and I'm super excited!!! #secondly. waiting on funds so i can buy that mask i saw the other day and some Halloween candy from Walmart #i . want to do little goodie bags for the kids in my building. but im too scared to go up to their parents and ask candy preference and #allergy concerns. so. idk. maybe I'll just save it. I think it's a cute concept but it makes me feel like my mother. #she loved to do little gift things for people. but it was always people that didn't like her. i don't want to be that way #i know my value. i know my time and energy means something. i don't want to waste it on people who don't give a shit. ya know? #not saying the kids are those kinds of people. not what i mean. but just as an overall thing. i don't like being like her. #...yeah. i dunno. you get raised by one person your whole life. you pick up some of their characteristics #i can't sob without sounding like her. safe to say i am a little emotionally constipated. so i seek other means to relieve that feeling. #like yesterday when i threw up. i played it off like that was a blunder on my body. but i know what i did. #hey. at least it's not the other method. right?. .. yeah. okay. i know. not great either #but it hurts. and I'm so fucking sick and tired of crying over her. genuinely. it's exhausting crying all the time #but that's the only way I can get those emotions out #I've tried to do the counseling thing. but other things made that impossible. then i moved. #and i tried the grief thing but instead i just got a talking buddy? he helps me get out of the house yeah. #but we dont talk about her #... i dunno. I'm just here. #guess i waited long enough. now you get a mini secret. every time i make an i love my friends post. I'm reminding myself why I'm still going #I'm usually sitting around somewhere in my apartment (desk couch bed) crying. alone. thinking about you guys. #so uh. thank you. #i love you guys so much. and i don't know where I'd be without you #probably dead. #💖 #vent

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

bestie is coming home on 1st im having thoughts

#obviously i missed her and would love to see her but seeing her brings so many complicated feelings and i hate it #i realised somewhere in the middle of a metro surrounded by a crowd that my bestfriend loves her boyfriend more than she loves me #i saw them flirt and hug and ive known her since we were 11 okay i had never seen her be so happy and calm and peaceful and CONTENT #and it made me feel yuck disgusting gross that i could never give her anything like this in years of our friendship so ofc she loves him #more than me #i used to be annoyed at her telling me about him what he did down to evey detail but there's one i can remember really well #how she was upset with him and he got angry too very angry so she thought he was breaking up with her and she started sobbing so #uncontrollably on the phone itself because she couldn't lose him and so he at like 11 pm?? he left his pg and showed up at her house told #her to come down just to give her a hug and then they went to have ice cream to make her feel better #and i just. #obviously she loves him more ivy you don't even talk to her unless she talks to you you talk once in like 2 months #she has made me realise so many things about love 😭 #i think i get it love means showing up being there when the person you love needs you no matter what #like i get it's not always possible real life problems but #like he did have real life problems going out so late getting an auto not even being sure if she would come down cause she has very strict #parents #he was willing to put in all that effort just cause she was sad and that's why she loves him more than me it makes sense #but this is why i feel so scared im not even 2% of the person he is i always feel she is going to realise im an asshole and leave me #but we talk so less it wouldn't even affect me realistically #but then i would have lost all my childhood friends everyone who knew me when i was happy better than present atleast #i would have lost all friends period since i don't have any irl friends 😭 #this is why i feel conflicted 😭😭😭

[naisaa]

okay i. didnt expect you are so not invited to my bat mitzvah to actually make me cry real tears. ???? the adam sandler teen comedy movie??? was good???? and genuinely funny??? and made me so emotional?????

idk maybe im surprised bc the last time i watched an adam sandler movie was in like 2012 and i never rly liked any of them. and with this one Some of the humor and over-the-topness was a toned down version of the same type of not rly my thing... but i liked and felt for the characters and the overall tone was so. charming?

i feel like if i was a teen i'd've haaated this movie bc of how it portrays teens. like i assumed the 'ha ha look at the silly slang and behaviors of Kids These Days amiright' would start to annoy me v quickly at the start of the movie... and i do think there were a FEW moments of it being like that. but overall i was so surprised that it just felt very loving, more like lighthearted teasing. i'm sure it'll grate on actual teens anyways (and fair enough) but as an adult the more remarkable thing was rly the palpable empathy.

'look i dont understand all of this and think a lot of it is silly or even worrying and i will make fun of it a little bit, but i can see you're struggling and i care and feel for you regardless.' like. im not even a parent but that was the vibe of the whole movie and it was. genuinely rly touching. and i did not EXPECT THAT

#you are so not invited to my bat mitzvah #i just. did not expect this movie to be what it is or for this type of story to make me FEEL THINGS #it looks like a movie id roll my eyes at bc of the schmaltzy teen drama romcom-ish tropes but?? #it just felt earnest and that made it work for me #the no spoilers big thing at the end... #listen i dont normally cry during movies and when i do its like a singular tear. So When I Tell You I Was Sobbing #also sarah shermans character and entire wardrobe was a delight. bless. #N ALSO. im not jewish but currently trying to learn more abt it so idk how to put this but. i just rly liked? the jewishness of it all? :D #the setting just being like everyone here is jewish just roll w it but we do have one (1) model minority token christian kid was so funny #the fight between stacy and her dad sdkjfhfkjgdf #THATS WHY WE FOUGHT THE NAZIS?1 SO YOU COULD HAVE A MOJITO BAR?!! #pls i was on the floor #but also the only religion im personally familiar with is christianity and im so like. intrigued by how different the approach feels to me #idk why but i never feel particularly comfortable hearing christians talk about god and religious concepts #and to my surprise i dont have that at all hearing jewish ppl talk abt it? #like to bring it back to this movie. there was obv a LOT of talking abt that but instead of alienating me it feels more like #oh wow i can listen and engage with those topics without clenching my whole body for once? #and even discover that i LIKE a lot of the concepts and approaches #maybe its the absence of personal baggage? but also i just think its neat dot meme im INTERESTED i wanna know more #much to think about much to learn u__u anyway go watch it its on netflix