#We slept for 3? hours?

[lenaellsi]

so you're anthony j. crowley, long-time exile from heaven and recent exile from hell, and you've finally figured out that the mess of overwhelming and infuriating and intoxicating feelings you've been harboring for the only being in the universe you've ever been able to rely on might, whoopsies, be something a little bit like love. but not love the way you remember heaven loved you, or the way they told you god loved you (they lied), but love like the humans do it: messy, and awkward, and incongruously infinite, and so, so fragile.

and, well. okay, you think. this'll be horrible. embarrassing for both of us, probably. but i'll tell him. you've never been a coward, no matter what the other demons might say. screw your courage to the sticking place, or whatever. macbeth. aziraphale loved that one.

so you talk yourself into it, you gather every scrap of courage and honesty you've got left, and you say, all right, angel, i've got something to say, only aziraphale's got something to say, too, and--

aziraphale doesn't love you back.

or. he does, but he loves the ghost of the angel you used to be, not the person you've made yourself since. he loves you, but he loves you like god did--loves you good, and quiet, and dull. he loves you without your grief, or your anger, without even that first bite of the apple. he wants you like that again, he says. defanged, like the Antichrist's domesticated hellhound.

(you worked for hell for a long time, and for god for a long time before that. you're intimately familiar with what it is to offer someone everything they've ever wanted, and then to twist it, to mutilate it, into an unrecognizable hell of their own choosing. you're not sure why it surprises you anymore. you're not sure why you keep letting the surprises hurt.)

and so you do the thing you've done since the beginning, because you've never been able to stop yourself: you push. you push hard, and you grab him, and he's so angry and you kiss him and you don't think about it, don't think about it, this is the most important temptation of your life, the only one that's ever mattered--

and he forgives you.

so you leave. at least that way you can do it before he does. you've always been a step ahead and to the left; stupid to think this would ever be different. stupid to think he might choose you, with all of heaven and earth spread out in front of him. nothing lasts forever, not even the stars.

he told you that a long time ago.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 spoilers #gos2 spoilers #good omens s2 #good omens meta #ish? #aziraphale #crowley #oh god. crowley #is that all the tags. i dont know. ive slept 3 hours in the past 48. #how we feeling. i for one would love if michael turned me into a pillar of salt.

[caliartcat]

vampire boy

#i've probably slept like a total of 3 hours the past 3 days but fuck it we ball #klavier gavin #ace attorney #牙琉響也 #逆転裁判 #aa4

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Pride month everyone B*) Allow me to reveal a little behind the scenes detail behind my Banner and Icon. Love was always winning <3

#I don't know what to tag this one to be honest #probably a #delete later #I have made a solemn promise that any icon and banner for this blog must be done in a pair. They Cannot Be Separated. #They have had too much of that already #But yes; they have always been together on the same canvas #they originally were just barley not holding hands so I fixed it <3 love wins #I'm hoping to change them out every new season I start so these guys are probably in their last month of life B'*) #can you believe wwx used to have different bangs? blasphemy #Once again throwing out meta content so I can make up for the fact I am running on fumes #starting out pride month by engaging in another sin (sloth (I slept for more than my usual 4-5 hours (this blog functions on insomnia))) #comic tomorrow cause the next batch is 90% done I literally just ran out of time. #I'm in a toxic relationship with The Grind but in a homoromantic/erotic way. #We (the grind and I) would have long metas written about how we are bad lgbtq rep and spark heated debate within the community.

[mitamicah]

Meow there and happy five months on T 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

Thank you Jayyy 😄😻😽

#here is a cute jure for you ^_^ #tbh i had sort of forgotten i had my 5 months day this close to my last week anniversary and birthday when i replied to your last ask #so i guess i lied saying you would two (bo)jures this week - you get three xD #i only slept like 3 hours max on two turns and my voice is half gone #but i am content and blessed and full of stories i am looking forward to tell about yesterday #so we will see what/when things happen xD #until then thank you again :D #replies

[ghost-in-my-backyard]

guess who burnt her hand lmao

#so we have to fo this assignment #and i had to burn the corners of a paper for it #and i used my hand to extinguish the fire #and now i have burns on it #it's almost 3 am #i've only slept for 5 hours in the last 3 days #i wanna die #ghost posts

[maochira]

Yooo Barou in Italy

#we still have 2 more hours to drive but #we're in italy now #i slept like 3 hours #💟 maochira talks

[zukkaoru]

i love when i wake up at 5am after ~6 hours of sleep and my brain is like yeah that’s all we need ^.^ have fun being awake until 11 again on just this 🥰🫶🏻❤️💕

#i was awake from 3:30am to ~11pm yesterday . AND ALL YOU CAN GIVE ME IS SIX HOURS????? #i hate it here. genuinely why can my brain not just sleep until we’ve actually slept enough #instead of waking up after the bare minimum and being like wheeeeeee time to be awake today🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #if we crash at 5:30 bc it’s already pitch black by then oh well ^.^ #i hate you i hate this i wish you were dead #hello grace here

[kiki-strike]

PTSD is so stupid saw a jar of biscoff cookie butter at the store and went ha that’s the brand they had in res. (Completely unaffected). Then went home and had a panic attack about it (????)

#first of all. how is a jar on a shelf that you didn’t even touch harming you at all??? #second of all. now that I know that chain Carrie’s bidcoff cookie butter I’m never going there again. let’s leave those worms in their can. #(sees a food) huh. cookie butter. (the ptsd gremlin cooking up a nice panic sequence for me) well probably staff are trailing you right now #and they just left that there on accident because obv they keep cookie butter with them. and they’re going to restrain and sedate you and to #you’ll wake up tubed xoxo #<- INSANE ITS A JAR OF BISCOFF COOKIE BUTTER CALM THE SHIT DOWN #I only slept an hour last night and didn’t sleep at all the night before so like that might have something to do with it but I feel like we’ #were gunning for day 3 here with the cookie induced paranoia #don’t buy belsomra guys belsomra is a ripoff that I’m pretty sure is just sugar pills #although I am abnormally resistant to pretty much every sleep med like iv ambien just makes me a bit lethargic the doctor who gave me it sai #said that was really weird and then ordered another piss test bc he thought I was on speed LMAO #nope just my brain. rotten. gone. #day 3 is usually when the insomnia hallucinations come out so like pray for me if you see this #though I did get an hour last night so maybe that counts

[ashmp3]

we arrivedddd boni’s first (and probably last) dip… We let her swim but she’s so short she is not meant to be a beach girl…. it was stressful. It’s my moms birthday today so we are going to dinner 🧘🏼‍♀️ she loved her gifts and as a matter of fact she put the pearls on for tonight 🤍

#we have been in the car since 2pm yesterday and we arrived today at 5pm (we slept over in macedonia but still) waited for 3 hours at the #border 😮‍💨 i feel so bloated and heavy but let me relax let me take a deep Breath #boni #diary

[yuelun]

Have I stated that I love Guizhong (Haagentus) of Liyue yet today? Because I do, more than I can say in normal and coherent words. I don't know why adding 'of Liyue' got me feelings extra things, it's okay.

#[ it's a problem really. an actual problem. ] #[ the last 3 mornings (even yesterday morning when i'd slept only 4 hours) i've been waking up thinking about how-- ] #[ elements reform. her death doesn't get rid of /what she is/. ] #[ it's her corporeal form that is gone. but /she/ isn't. she's still living in each particle of dust that stretches across teyvat. ] #[ dust. ash? we all return to dust? ] #[ 😭😭😭😭] #[ can we just think about that for a moment? she's there-- somehow. not even just her spirit. but /her/. ] #[ who isn't to say she can reform after a very long period of time? could zhongli's gnosis' aid in 'hastening' it? ] #[ not saying that's why he gave it up. but. but. but. ] #[ what if it's just something it /could/ aid in doing. not its main purpose-- but one of the things. ] #[ hell we don't even know the extents of what those gnoses do or are capable of. ] #[ but if they can power something as immense as a vessel for scara-- why couldn't it consolidate energy? elements? ] #[ i'm losing my mind thinking about her potentially being linked to alchemy-- especially alchemy in khaenri'ah where... ] #[ dust is at the very basis of life. LIKE YOU KNOW? ] #[ i was told by two people to go get coffee-- so let me do that. maybe it'll make me more coherent. ] #[ but also-- please remember if you follow me; you'll be subjected to how much i love guizhong. ] #[ and i think that's a rational thing to say. :) ] #[ ooc. ] wherever her spirit may be among the countless grains of sand and specks of dust between the harbor and the mountains…

[apple-brees]

i might log off for a nap or sum cuz i feel myself like partly going to sleep

#i think i only slept 3 and half hours #my bsf still aint up yet. #its nearly 11. #(we were up till 4)

[meowonhao]

my ticket finally came!! 🩷

#i rarely have to use my full english name unless it’s stuff like this that i have to verify myself #and it always reminds me just how long it is ajshsbsjsk #like especially in korea but honestly even by like american standards #think it’s like 26 characters total including the two spaces since i have to do my first middle and last name 😅 #long ass line blacking it out taking up half the ticket #diamond life #anyways story time! #no one knows the stress interpark has put me through in the process of actualy receiving this ticket…. #was supposed to be mailed out like within a week of buying it #took forever to do that #Then they finally did like sometime last week and said expect it to come 3-5 days #and it came thru the post office and i was like okay probably next week because they don’t deliver on weekends #or so i thought #anyways that was like thursday i think? then i get a text like friday afternoon #saying oh we tried to call you to come deliver the ticket (bc i have to sign for it) but you didn’t answer so #even though i did not have a single call that wasn’t a saved number all day #so i immediately called the number that texted me and they were like well it’s too late to come today #(it was like 4pm) #and it’s about to be the weekend so we’ll come on monday just make sure you answer the phone this time #even though they literally never called me in the first place 🙄 #pretty sure they were just pretending so they could go home early on a friday ahsjsks #but the thing was. i wasn’t even expecting it until this upcoming week so they could have just waited and i never would have known #ANYWAYS so i was like okay fine i’ll make sure someone is here to get it on monday #tell me why i slept in bc it’s sunday and i don’t have rehearsal and i was woken up by a call #they’re like i’ll be coming to deliver your ticket in about an hour! #like it is literally sunday and you said you couldn’t deliver on weekends…..but whatever i was like oh 네 감사합니다 you know #then dude came like. 5 mins later i’m still basically half asleep and look like a mess #but anyways none of that really matters now bc i finally have my ticket but #it put me through so much unnecessary stress bc i’m always paranoid about stuff like this until i have it physically in my hand #even though i knew it was gonna come and be okay

[mayberealmaybenot]

i had this super detailed dream in which henryk was a playable contestant and his entire kit was just an incredibly complicated card game and i kept dying to literally everything

you started with like 3 cards and had x3 per encounter or you could attack normally but it sucked ass i managed to recruit someone once and they brought their own cards to my deck and you could combine the card effects once per encounter but it costed a turn

after a while i just got mad at the mechanics and switched to marcoh and the game crashed (aka i woke up)

maybe god is telling me to get better at card games idk

#funger termina #fear and hunger termina #i guess? #i heard that all dreams take place in around 3 seconds but this felt like at least 2 hours tbh #idr what or who i recruited i feel like it kept changing tho? probably dream shinenigans #after this i slept and had another dream where i was going to school by the train but we all had to sit on the roof of it #and there were a bunch of ladders and platforms and someone was on top and we were all trying to reach them but idr much else #going to school was probably the scariest part tbh

[thethingything]

our brain really just went "okay it's Taylor's turn to deal with source shit now" and I have to pretend everything's normal while I deal with the most ridiculous bullshit in the innerworld while everything that can go wrong today does go wrong because we can't even get a break from everything else while we deal with the absolutely batshit stuff our brain decides to do for whatever godforsaken fucking reason

#personal #thoughts #🦋 post #vent post #we have barely slept and it's been shitty interrupted sleep for 3 fucking days in a row #and I've had to deal with a bunch of source trauma and weird innerworld shit that I do not know how to deal with #we keep trying to sleep and waking up all the time and then when we finally fall asleep properly it's around when we'd normally wake up #and then we end up waking up properly way later than we wanted to and we feel like shit because of it and our routine is fucked up again #we've been awake for an hour and a half (the alien abduction day post earlier was scheduled at some point this morning just to clarify) #and in that time I've already nearly ended up screaming out of frustration several times because things won't stop going wrong #we got a couple of days of feeling relatively good and then immediately just went back to whatever the fuck is normally going on

[izvmimi]

Living for you being in your kny phase 🙌🙌🙌

gail if i tell you how long i was avoiding being invested in this show djflkaj;dsfasdf;aj;a

anyway the plot is so fun!!!

#actually the first time i watched kny was when i was like dying of lack of sleep on a rotation #and i only got through a couple episodes #like all the misery and i was like what are yall on about cuz i hadn't slept more than like five hours in a 3 day period #i tried to revisit it a few time but i was like if i simp for t****ro it'll just be embarrassing because truly no one will be surprised #and here we are today #anyway hopefully this passes #mimi replies #treasures: gail

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <333

#ehehe #i slept in a little #but it's daylight savings (so i lost an hour anyway) #so technically i'm up earlier than usual (if we look at the old time) #but anyways #that means it's literally almost time to go get breakfast :3 #other than that my plans remain as usual #mostly just my usual dailies and whatnot #and then maybe i'll write again :3 #hehe #anyways #i hope you'll have a good day/night!! <333 #morning rambles