#When facing the things we turn away from

[gaycheeseandcrackers]

Me just minding my business:

Ashton starts teasing new solo music:

Luke starts teasing new solo music:

The band announces a new song:

Conclusion:

#seriously tho wtf #5 seconds of summer #5sos #luke hemmings #Ashton Irwin #Calum hood #michael clifford #im not well #5 seconds of summer show #5sos5 #luke 5 seconds of summer #5sos memes #luke 5sos #ashton 5 seconds of summer #superbloom #when facing the things we turn away from

[entertwinedsewntogether]

Long, long time | L.H

luke hemmings x reader

summary: you don't know how much longer you can cope with luke being on tour

warnings: panic attack, anxiety, angst with comfort, hurt/comfort, fem reader, reader is really going through it, very brief mention of lack of appetite, bit of poor self hygiene, not proofread

a/n: first time posting on tumblr despite being on here for years. literally terrified, also how god damn good is the feeling of falling upwards live album. i started levitating, don't get me started on os/co i could write a whole essay. also the ending is so rushed it's not funny but i couldn't think of an ending.

plus, the ending was my grandparents wedding song and i think it's so romantic so i put it in.

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It was early. The night had kept you awake, closing your eyes meant seeing every mistake you had ever made play in your mind. The curtains on your window were left open, the empty street and faint stars mocking your every move. The dim streetlight was your only source of light, and something about it was wrong.

It had been two weeks of this, of constantly shaking hands and always looking over your shoulder. Showering took more effort than it should, you had a never ending stomach ache, it felt like you didn't need to eat or drink. Your brain had been on constant overdrive for so long that it didn't know how to switch off, and it felt like there were rubber bands, squeezing around your chest and your brain, getting tighter and tighter by the minute.

For two weeks, you had done the same thing each night. Sitting up in bed, crossing your legs under your thick blanket and rocking, back and forth and back and forth. Your hands found your hair. It was greasier than you realised. How long had it been since you washed it? Stretching out your fingers, they felt wrong. They look different then you remembered. How long had it been since you had looked at yourself? Your hands find your knees, gripping onto them as you continue to rock.

You really don't want to. But you know you should. Where is he today? What even is the date today? When did you last talk to him?

Oh, his voice. His sweet, sweet voice. What would he say if he saw you like this? And this bed. This bed is far too big without him in it.

Luke is worried as well. You last spoke three days ago, and it was only texting. Usually you facetime every night, but he hasn't seen your face in just over a week. He wonders if you are busy, are you seeing your friends, are you working more?

If you squeeze your eyes shut, you can see him. He is sitting on the bed in front of you, he is holding you, he is smiling that gorgeous soft smile that he sends your way whenever you feel down. You can feel his hands rubbing up your arms in a soothing manner, his lips pressing against your forehead as the sweetest act of comfort.

You raise a hand to his side of the bed, dragging your hand along his pillow. No. No. The corner of your eyes prick.

Standing up on shaky legs, you stumble through the dark until you find your phone, face down on your floor, next to some discarded clothes. When did you let your bedroom get this filthy? The hands digging at your chest begin to dig their nails in. You kneel down, sitting on your heels and click your phone on. It's far too bright, it stings your eyes, but nonetheless you gaze lovingly at your lockscreen. At Him.

His beautiful blue eyes, warm and loving, and his gorgeous eyelashes, god he is blessed. His beautiful smile, halfway to a laugh, bringing a sad smile to your lips. Your eyes blur as you touch his cheek through your phone screen, a ragged breath coming from your chest.

You unlock your phone, blurry eyes and shaky hands pressing his contact, and the big green call button. It rings once, twice, three times, four times.

"Hey honey! You ok? Isn't it early at home?"

You don't respond. Your mouth hangs open in shock. He's alive. He's breathing. He's real, and you haven't imagined him. His voice is coming through your phone, he is on the other end and you can almost feel him.

A deep breath.

"Luke," You sob, "Luke."

"Oh, my girl."

You can hear voices becoming louder, and some clattering, a door closing and finally, just him.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

"It hurts, Luke. It really hurts."

"What hurts?"

"My chest. It's too tight and I can't breathe properly, and my brain is so sore, every time I move it stings and burns. And my skin is too tight on me, but it's too loose in some places, and I don't recognise myself and I'm so scared. I'm so tired, and I'm so scared, and I can't sleep, and the bed is too big and the house is too silent, and I need you."

You say it all in one breath, trying hard to regulate your breathing as you hold onto the phone for dear life.

"Ok, can we take some breaths together? Nice and slow. You're ok. You're safe."

You try to breathe, and eventually your chest opens up a bit. You open up your mouth to talk, but suddenly it's all mush. You sit together in silence for a bit. Speaking is too difficult. You click the phone onto speaker, and try to make your way back to bed.

"I'm right here baby, I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere."

You manage to groan out a response, pulling your blanket over your shaking body. Another sob escapes your lips, and you wrap your arms around your middle, pretending that you are anywhere else, that you are anybody else, that you have your boy with you.

"I'm so proud of you, you're so brave, can we keep taking some deep breaths? Just copy me."

You listen to his breathing through the phone and try to copy it, the pressure in your throat easing slightly.

"I love you so much. And I'm home so soon. So soon."

"Yeah. Not soon enough." A shaky inhale, a shaky exhale.

"Do you want me to sit with you for a bit? I can be quiet, or I can talk, whatever you need honey."

He is so patient. He is so kind. The first time he saw you have one of these, he sat in the dark in complete silence with you for threehours.

"Talk to me. I need to hear your voice."

And so he does. He talks about what you will do when he gets back. He talks about hearing you in all of his songs, and how he can't wait to hold you.

"I need you to come home soon, Lu. I think I'm fading again. I can't sleep. I need you."

He hears the tremor in your voice, your desolate tone, your sniffles, your slight stutter. He feels his heart break in two, knowing that he isn't there to hold you, to put you back together and smooth your skin.

"I know baby. Not long now, and I'm all yours for as long as you need, okay?"

"Okay. I'm really tired. Can you sing to me?"

And he doesn't hesitate. You swear you can hear the slight smile in his voice,

"Always."

"Never thought that you would be, standing here so close to me ,there's so much I feel that I should say, but words can wait until some other day"

His voice is sweet. His words linger in your head and your eyes drift closed.

"Kiss me once, then kiss me twice, then kiss me once again. It's been a long, long time. Haven't felt like this, my dear since I can't remember when. It's been a long, long time"

Your heart feels warm. You know that it will not be easy. You know that the next two weeks will be hard. But you know that you will see him soon. And you know that you can live when you're with him.

"You'll never know how many dreams I've dreamed about you. Or just how empty they all seemed without you. So kiss me once, then kiss me twice, then kiss me once again It's been a long, long time"

#luke hemmings x reader #luke hemming imagines #luke 5sos #luke hemmings #calum hood #michael clifford #ashton irwin #5 seconds of summer #5sos #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #5sos x reader #luke hemmings fluff #5sos imagine #5sos imgaines #5sos fan fiction #5sos fluff

[sierradeaton]

"It is definitely emotional and brings up a lot of good and bad memories and feelings but there wasn't anything I wasn't open to because, from my brain, it needed to happen. It was like a need to write this and a need to express this feeling and make the music around it have the same sort of sonic feeling." - Luke Hemmings, Rollercoaster

WHEN FACING THE THINGS WE TURN AWAY FROM - Luke Hemmings (Released August 13, 2021)

#luke hemmings #lrhedit #5sosedit #5 seconds of summer #5sos #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #lh1 #*

[gotnoshame]

i’m on my way to wonderland

#luke hemmings #5sos #5 seconds of summer #when facing the things we turn away from #calum hood #michael clifford #ashton irwin #baby blue will always be his color #also baby blue eyes by rocket to the moon will ALWAYS be his song #anyway #edit #digital collage

[confusionmeisss]

luke hemmings just sounds absolutely ethereal when he sings & writes , like i don’t think u understand how much i love his voice & writing style.

#ali’s thoughts & opinions 📼 #5 seconds of summer #5sos #luke hemmings #luke 5sos #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #lh2 #calum hood #michael clifford #ashton irwin #music #song writing

[chmpagn13]

·˚ ༘ Luke Hemmings for Ladygunn magazine pt.3

#5 seconds of summer #ashton irwin #calum 5sos #calum hood #luke 5sos #luke hemmings #micheal clifford #ashton 5sos #micheal 5sos #when facing the things we turn away from #calum 5 seconds of summer #5 secs of summer #5sos

[aestheticslyrics]

diamonds // luke hemmings

#luke hemmings #diamonds #when facing the things we turn away from #luke hemmings lyrics #aestheticslyrics #aesthetics #lyrics #lyric aesthetics #i'm so much older than i ever thought i would be

[basslinecal]

i'm on my way to wonderland (i wanna stay here forever)

#luke hemmings #moodboard #5sos moodboard #when facing the things we turn away from #5sos #5 seconds of summer #waheyy #mine #luke hemmings moodboard

[hrryshoney]

to all who celebrate

#taylor swift #luke hemmings #new year’s day #when facing the things we turn away from #reputation

[inanearlieround]

inside your dreams tonight, oh no, oh no, can’t shake this feeling

#shakes is my no 4 most streamed song ever #it’s been out for three days #shakes is everything #luke hemmings #when facing the things we turn away from #fanart #illustration

[lip-rings-and-quiffs]

I haven’t seen these before..?

#one of these days he’s gonna give me a heart attack #but I don’t mind #he’s so gorgeous #ahh my angel baby #luke hemmings #lh #lip-rings-and-quiffs #5sos #five seconds of summer #lrh #luke 5sos #lukey #luke pics #luke robert hemmings #luke 5 seconds of summer #5secondsofsummer #wfttwtaf #lh1 #when facing the things we turn away from #model!luke

[prfctplvces]

cool, baby blue

#5sos #5 seconds of summer #lukehemmings #ashtonirwin #michaelclifford #calumhood #calum 5sos #michael 5sos #ashton 5sos #luke 5sos #five seconds of summer #5sos moodboard #moodboard #aesthetic #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #Spotify

[merigoldesigns]

HAPPY SHAKES RELEASE DAY TO ALL !!!!

#IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS SONG #can’t wait to cry #luke hemmings #shakes #shakes luke hemmings #when facing the things we turn away from #luke 5sos #5sos #5 seconds of summer

[erasawordsmithofsorts]

ive been out of the house all day and i wanna go home and play wfttwtaf

being overstimulated is so great bc laying on the floor blasting superbloom and wfttwtaf are the only cures.

#5 seconds of summer #5sos #5sosfam #ashton 5sos #luke 5sos #luke hemmings #ashton irwin #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #superbloom #ashton irwin solo music #luke hemmings solo music #-era #era posting #era's blog

[bettermcn]

it's friday, i'm in love!

#luke hemmings #5sos #5 seconds of summer #luke at the fonda #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #flashing // #flashing tw #tw flashing #*

[confusionmeisss]

second verse of the veiw between villages by noah kahan gives when facing the things we turn away from vibes. it’s just very lukecore to me. also very akin to the theme of take my hand

#5 seconds of summer #5sos #luke hemmings #luke 5sos #when facing the things we turn away from #wfttwtaf #noah kahan #the view between villages #michael clifford #ashton irwin #calum hood #ali’s thoughts & opinions 📼