#Whose secret could it be

[aroaceleovaldez]

my notifs recently got me thinking about the very random concept of "what if there is a second, secret CHB. directly below normal CHB." and i ended up brainstorming it in the discord.

context for how this originated: one was just a random notif on my post talking about the tunnels under the Hephaestus cabin, and the other was some tags from @drksanctuary on my fake readriordan article mentioning the idea of a chthonic demigod camp.

so. my brilliant (read: "smashing my 2 brain cells together") idea: the elaborate and seemingly infinite tunnels under cabin 9 are remnants of an abandoned underground CHB that exists directly underneath camp. It's basically just normal CHB except in a big cave system, probably connected to the labyrinth somewhere and has the separate tunnels, and instead of the Olympian cabins it has chthonic cabins. there's probably also some infernal nymphs and etc down there too. since all chthonic demigods can learn to shadow-travel they probably used that to get down there, and a lot of chthonic demigods probably have geokinesis just by nature, ergo the tunnels (for when they don't want to shadow-travel, or can't).

in brainstorming with the discord we decided it could be cool if some of the cabins lined up with the above-ground cabins, either for thematic purposes or associations or whatever. Like there's maybe a Hermes and maybe Poseidon cabin in the chthonic CHB too that just link to the above-ground ones, but also like Persephone cabin lines up to Demeter cabin because of course it does. and maybe Hecate cabin lines up to Cabin 8 cause Artemis is sometimes 1/3rd of Hecate. Maybe Angelos cabin is beneath Cabin 1, and Zagreus cabin is beneath Cabin 12. Things like that.

The other ones i thought of were either Hypnos or Thanatos cabin lines up with Apollo, because twins, and the other is just right beside it (because twins). And Charon's cabin is beneath Cabin 9, ergo why the tunnel system connects to it (because Charon. Ferryman. Surface access. It makes sense in my brain).

#pjo #riordanverse #headcanon #headcanons #au #< go figure which you wanna classify it as #this is entirely silly musing but it actually kind of works out nicely cause there's far fewer chthonic deities #than there are technical-olympians #so honestly you could get away with having the secondary chb only having a few extra cabins compared to the 12 usual cabins #it definitely wouldnt be any more than the 20 cabins it has by TOA #also for silly thematic reasons i do think itd be funny if despite everything cabin 13 is still inexplicably cabin 13 in underground chb #like. it shouldn't be. that doesnt make sense. but it is. what's the numbering system for the other cabins? who knows #negative numbers would be interesting. cause theyre underground #i do already have the hc of there being a secret extra cabin aboveground in chb nicknamed ''Cabin 0/Zero'' #that's a little ways into the woods and kinda run-down cause it goes unused and basically why it exists is because #the ''12 olympians'' is actually inconsistent throughout ancient greece so there's a non-zero chance they could have a demigod show up #whose parent *is* technically one of the 12 olympians but they dont have a cabin for them - like Enodia. ergo: spare cabin #anyways all this musing is intentionally very silly #i just think itd be funny for chb to find out there is a second. more goth chb that is otherwise identical #literally directly below them. for no reason. #''why'd they made a second chb directly below the first one?'' ''idk underworld/chthonic reference i guess''

[anaalnathrakhs]

i feel it's so fucking stupid and ungrateful but it still hurts a little when someone gifts me something i just don't like. i don't know. i know it's dumb and inaccurate to astrain that much meaning to a simple gift, but it feels kinda like they don't know me. i guess it feels like people don't see me, like a reminder that the person i reflect and the person i feel like are incredibly different.

#two fairly recent examples jump to mind #last year my class did a secret santa #the guy who got my name barely knew me so instead he asked our litterature teacher for tips #i was doing an effort to participate a lot in her classes and discuss stuff and i felt like she was an adult i could really trust #and adult who Gets It #and she picked just. the wrong gift. a classical philosophy essay. #stuff i hate reading. stuff i hate thinking about. #i said thank you to both of them and tried to read it during christmas break still. but i was right. i hated it. #and this year's christmas #recently i tried patching things up with my parents and we are a lot more communicative now #so they've opened up that my demand not to receive any gifts was painful to them #so we had an agreement: we write open-hearted letters to each other on christmas. #and they can gift me something if they'd like but no pressure if they don't find anything they feel would be a good gift #bc i myself opened up about the whole ''inaccurate gift'' thing being one of the reasons i dislike receiving stuff #and guess what. christmas comes. they got me a printed card from an artist whose work we saw at a local art thing earlier that year. #that artist does mainly either plants or nice architecture. stuff i love. #they picked the ONE work of hers that doesn't look like that. some reinterpretation of the great wave of kanagawa #a piece which i dislike with a passion for aesthetic reasons #i had promised i'd be honest if their gift missed the mark but tbh i couldn't. it's just an aesthetic thing it's completely begnin. #it's not like they spent lots or tried to pick something that was USEFUL #so i smiled and the picture is hanging with other stuff in my room #and i thanked them and i can't express how genuinely glad i am we have a better relationship #but man i felt my heart break a little under the tree in that moment #idk #i know it's silly but it makes me feel weird. and cold. #broadcasting my misery #vent

[catwafers]

nyello @worldwright some millydira for you ;3

(for the @holidayspirits-on-gunsmoke event)

#millydira #holidayspirits on gunsmoke #worldwright #milly thompson #elendira the crimsonnail #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun fanart #very glad i could draw this ship bc i dont think i would have if not for this event c: #idk what milly's drinking but it's spiked LOL theyre both tipsy and flirting <3 #theyre at a christmas party probably idk whose or where or if this is an au or anything #christmas def exists on nml right like they have christianity so they must have christmas #i dont think ive ever drawn an actual christmas themed artwork for any secret santas ive done in the past LOL #my art #artists on tumblr

[cordrazine-official]

“The Abandoned” (3x06)

Not to be grim but... Julian came up with that theory pretty quickly...

#did he go into medicine to try and learn everything he could about what was done to him? #is genetic engineering one of his secret professional interests? #is that why he's so knowledgeable about it? #there's no reason why he (a random starfleet doctor whose research has never been about genetic engineering) #would recognise it so fast in a patient #julian bashir my beloved #ds9 #julian bashir

[dykedivorce]

if any other bitch in konoha had been gay apart from sasuke none of this would have happened to my son naruto.

#pussy from the turbotron edgelord 3000 and his whole life went up in flame. NOT worth it #no but fr it's insane how he bamboozled every fan into thinking he was so interesting and cool and badass when . #at the point im at in shippuden hes by far the least interesting of the main characters. one track mind (vengeance) and no depth beyond that #like the other characters rn : sakura coming in to her own ; finding her path and her strength + sharing a connection so deep with naruto #over their common loss that they both just Know although they absolutely cant talk about it #yamato: the only survivor of orochimaru's monstrous experiments on children; kakashi's stand in thats so different from kakashi #it makes you wonder what it would have been like with him as their teacher from the start; #a mystery thats clearly trying his best but whose mission truly is A Lot #SAI: A BRAINWASHED SPY A PAWN FOR A SECRET ORGANISATION WHO CLINGS TO HIS HUMANITY NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES HES BEEN PUNISHED FOR IT #WHO FELL IN LOVE WITH NARUTO FOR MAKING HIM REALIZE HOW DEEP THINGS COULD BE FELT AND HOW DEEP RELATIONSHIPS COULD RUN #WHO HAS BEEN DRAWING A BOOK FOR HIS DEAD BROTHER FOR YEARS EVEN IF HE'S FORGOTTEN WHAT HIS BROTHER LOOKS LIKE #WHO DECIDED TO SPARE SASUKE BECAUSE HE'S LOVED. WHO JUST WANTS TO LEARN HOW TO LIVE A HUMAN LIFE. #MOST AUTISTIC CODED CHARACTER OF ALL TIMES HAS NEVER SUCCESSFULLY MASKED A DAY IN HIS LIFE. #sasuke: sasuke #anyway. im not touching on naruto because i could be here for days #BUT while sasuke on his own so far is very whatever. the narusasu dynamic is truly one for the ages #bc i just saw the ep where sasuke manages to see kyuubi inside naruto and wooshes him away and it's very like. #oh so hes literally seeing naruto's demons and banishing them even as hes telling naruto they dont matter to each other anymore. #oh ok cool cool cool cool this feels normal and not something to obsess over #jesus christ why am i typing all this. who here cares #naruto thoughts

[monstersqueen]

anyway though. about ango and betrayal, since metas and reactions depends more and more on treating it as fact

????

if what happened in dark era was that it seemed like ango joined mimic but in fact he was spying on them for the mafia and the reveals stopped there

no one would say ango betrayed mimic

given that what he was doing in the mafia for the special division IS what he was doing in mimic for the mafia, we shouldn't say he betrayed the mafia either

moreover, the current special ability division betrayal isn't on either; given the situation, the special ability division has been taken over by its own enemy - or at least ango has cause to think so. he's still acting as a special ability division, just independently/outside of orders

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there's a truth to this idea that ango has betrayed every organisation though. it's that he betrayed his friends. that is a lot more difficult to explain, but for everyone involved - ango included - it does count as a betrayal

plus the fact that we the readers/viewers are constantly misled as to which organisation ango belongs to 'oh he's a mafia member - wait no he sold the mafia to mimic - oh no he IS a mafia member - WAIT WHAT HE WORKS FOR THE GOVERNMENT' and 'of COURSE he's a government agent the seventh division IS a government agency - oh actually he is working with dazai ???' i get why it's popular

but ango is not actually a chronic backstabber, there's just no reason to assume we actually KNOW what he truly is loyal to

especially since. as i said previously. he DID betray the special ability agency way back in dark era :p

#myposts #...yeah i'm going to rewatch the break up scene now... #bsd march 2023 not lb #sakaguchi ango #sakaguchi ango (bsd) #also. from the inside. i don't doubt ango consider some of those actual betrayal #just because the other items in his dislikes list are all-nighters and working overtime which we KNOW he does all the time #it makes sense betrayal is ALSO something he does regularly #which. given. (let me dig up the ango quote i use ALL THE TIME) #'Dazai¸ Odasaku #I am no different. As part of an underground organization whose duties must be kept secret¸ as a skill user who hunts other skill users¸ #I have been engulfed in the darkness of the government for too long. I shall never walk in the light again.' #MAKES A TON OF SENSE #but if we're going to consider it all betrayal of the same level #then i wish more time could be spent thinking about ango's time in mimic #because if it's all betrayal and ango dislikes betrayal #(and consider the core of his work 'a skill user who hunts other skill users' to be betrayal) #then he must have disliked bringing mimic to ruin not just because it killed odasaku #and so. did he feel sympathy for their tragedy? or understanding for their goals ? did he make friends there too ? #LIKE. WHAT WAS MIMIC LIKE FOR ANGO #anyway this was my monthly ango rant.

[befuddled-calico-whump]

based loosely on a dream 😌

#so BASICALLY a bunch of people were trapped inside this giant steampunkish amusement park for decades and eventually just made a city there #and there were a bunch of secret tunnels and underground machinery rooms but no one could find a way out #and if they got close an official stopped them #anyways the girl whose eyes i was watching from got lost (?) in the tunnels looking for an answer #and found out that there was an entire group of people who'd been basically enslaved to keep the city alive by working on it underground #and lowkey joined them to start a revolution #they wore blue hazmat-ish suits #the dream was hazily vivid i also remember a part where one of the underground dudes was being tortured by an official just for fun #whump #whump art #whump comic #tw bruising #character whump #this guy looks too much like Melchior lol #just cause it's uncolored though #he has a darker skintone and dark hair #the girl is named sonia #calico is befuddled #calico's oneshot archive #dream log

[a9saga]

i completely forgot that tao from exo used to ask other members to shower with him, which i thought was the most hilarious thing when i was 16.

#most members of exo admitted to having showered with him #he does make a point in that with 12 of them it does save time to shower together #i cant imagine waiting for 11 other people to shower i would definitely not like to be the last in line #that does sound correct i mean it did then but especially now #what i thought was really funny was that most of them would do it #i also think... mm here's the thing #super hot take i know but my first instinct is that i would prefer not showering with other people #i get some people think you have no secrets if you live with someone might as well be naked in front of them #i think i would err on the side of 'i feel like i need my privacy' too bUT but but #i think now at the same time #if i were living with someone who had showered with the majority of the other several people we were living with #i think i could very well be swayed to the idea that showering with said person is the least strange thing one could do #friends... would you shower with tao? nonsexually i mean #you guys dont shower naked do you?? #if i were exo in 2013 i would simply shower w my clothes on #diana and i watched the old episode of happy camp they were on in 2013 today and generally i had a lot of fun #other than glaring at the face of someone who is now sitting in prison whose crimes are totally unrelated to his time in exo #man fuck that guy #anyway #exo #tao #shut up kaily #what is tao from exo up to now anyway is he doing well #he's 30 jesus #he's like a week younger than my brother #i cant believe how young all of exo were when i got into them #i got into exo like the very second he broke his leg and went on hiatus with the group #he played that hiatus very curiously looking back but i hope he's doing better now

[storyweaverofgondor]

So Padme most likely indirectly saved Grogu, huh?

#the mandolorian spoilers #the mandolorian #star wars #i mean in the scene where grogu is rescued from the temple that jedi and him escape on a ROYAL NABOO SHIP #a ship the jedi KNEW the location of #a type of ship only PADME is allowed to have #a ship whose guards were expecting jedi #a ship that was ready and waiting to go #whose guards immediately began firing on the troopers to give the jedi a chance to escape #I know believe that padme contacted the temple secretly #which considering she had a SECRET RELATIONSHIP WITH A JEDI FOR THREE YEARS #she definitely could have done #You can't tell me Padme didn't try and help the jedi #YOU CAN'T #So therefore! Padme indirectly saved Grogu!

[unproduciblesmackdown]

though i eventually got to read some, in earlier years goosebumps books would be the kind of series where i'd just ponder the cover art, and i always liked the drama of the monster blood illustration (the lighting/colors....sure nothing's happening in it but i felt it evoked the drama of "what if you're downstairs and something's upstairs" much like "what if you're upstairs and something's downstairs") like well too bad i guess i never got around to reading i at the time. but as of a recap yesterday i'm surprised to now be at least 90% sure i read part if not all of it, and thinking i hadn't may be due to how kind of nothing happens in it

#absolutely nothing familiar until ''there's a dog named trigger & the kid at one point has to rescue trigger from choking'' like Aha #for sure still remember various Events & Details from gb books i Know i've read.... #welcome to dead house; the ghost next door maybe my most well absorbed ones lol. lot going on in those definitely #let's get invisible. some choose your own adventure varieties. calling all creeps. oh the haunted mask ofc; all time classic.... #definitely hadn't read the phantom of the auditorium; reading it as an adult was a delight #things on the other side or the middle of the stairs it's just like skinamarink heck for real #itself like well that's absolutely the horror of being kids if not ''kids' horror'' lol #but that aspect is always inherently present in kids' horror...always surrounded by mysteries & lack of power/autonomy & fairly isolated... #anyways had a parent whose Disapproval Mode could be set off by various media available to kids my age so that was a minefield #(same parent thought it was inappropriate for some tv 14 rated programs to be available in a house solely ft. adults so there you are) #at least at first was of the ''horror for children?? inappropriate'' approach about it. i didn't check the books out of libraries ever #but eventually must've calmed down abt that b/c we Did own some & that's how i read most of ones i did #too late i was always a kid intrigued by / seeking out horror materials....john bellairs books which got pretty wild.... #much less so as an adult b/c horror gets worse (& not in any good way) aimed for teens / adults like lord. You Do Not Get It #anyways turns out monster blood is probably riffing off the blob mostly but it's like not thee blob until way later #so most of the book wouldn't really be that memorable if it's 80% ''and then here was another weird thing abt the gunk'' #but i would remember like oh no the dog is in mortal peril :( nooo trigger (trigger was fine) #sure didn't misremember that in welcome to dead house the dog went missing & was implicitly killed over Sensing The Deadness #appreciated that element in phantom of the auditorium where they're hanging out at zeke's & he has a dog #& secret but really just chilling painting sets & very corporeal ghost brian is like ''aw cmon...'' at that dog Not Liking Him #which is some barking & not being enthused abt brian's efforts to play fetch w/a ball lmao #but only to a mild degree like yeah he's not doing anything. brooke & zeke witnessing this simply like lol lmao #that trio is sooo funny. ghost just hanging out; So nervous; ending up dragged into the friend duo absolute menaces hellions lmao.... #the paint on his shirt bit. just the way the whole back & forth of 4 ppl goes; it kills Me....

[unbornwhiskeyy]

nothing makes me sadder than finding a fellow trans girl utterly insufferable on the internet but i guess that means we’re really all just people ;_; 

#she clearly writes nonsense for cis approval tho #i could not tell you why i find the 'kurt cobain was trans' discourse upsetting #but i just like distrust all forms of backward projection especially when it is impossible to talk to the person in question #and i don't find it helpful or even necessarily interesting to think of a person whose art i love as a secret trans person #the art itself? i love thinking of that as trans #sure #i'm really just thinking in circles here #anyway #viscerally upsetting to me to muse on whether a person we don't know is trans would've not committed suicide #if they had access to gender affirming healthcare at the time #why is this so upsetting to me #well #no one can seem to make a case for his transness without extremely fucking targeted projection #and 'been a son' is a VERY important song to me ok #so again #idk #i'm just upset #and i wish the person who was making this case wasn't such a bad writer #(i'm the only person on earth who thinks she's a bad writer)

[sylhea-raemi]

fucking sobbing at nero's words towards makia about gt9 they're so precious to him all the silly memories they've done i'm gonna cry

#SOBBING CRYING HE LOVES THEM SO MUCH #they're his family... his home.... #the thing is since being adopted kanon and shatoma probably aren't counted as 'family' to him due to how distant they seem? #he's not that close to kanon sure but he's not *that* distant either #he respects him and appreciates the help and care he gave to him #i'm sure shatoma at some point also took part in taking care of nero #but both kanon and shatoma have their own things to deal with #him looking at the sky in ruschia... he's either kept away from the outside for a long time or frezier's sky isn't as blue as ruschia's #anyway sobbing gt9 might be his first friends and a group of people he could call 'home and family' #he treasures them a LOT. he knows the four of them will be split up due to circumstances but he believes in the future where #where the four of them will be together laughing besides each other again #sob....... nero.... #sylhea talks maydare #nero being the first gt9 member to be introduced other than makia and being the last member whose secret is revealed means a lot to me #gt9 being a family is not an exaggeration. although makia have her family back in her hometown she never had friends growing up and only #and only had thor who suddenly got seperated from her #frey had a nice childhood despite the lack of love from his biological mother until gil's mother died and him being stripped away all #his rights as a prince so he goes from place to place never finding his own home..... #lapis who lost her clan that was betrayed by some members and even lost two of her limbs #and nero whose country was taken over and his family killed just when he was 6 years old #like fuck what the hell is the range #firsy from makia whose whole family alive then to frey whose biological mother and the consort he sees as his own mother died but #his father the king alive as well as his brothers to lapis' clan taken over and/or killed to nero's family killed and his empire taken over #country/empire uh anyway *hands in head* holy shit now that i look back to each member's lives before entering lune ruschia and gt9... #of course makia also lost so much and might've been more from her two previous lives #anyway also fucked up how not only was her ex-bestie been chosen by her killer as the savior but one of her friends is his killer's brother

[j-esbian]

thinking about the time i was criticizing a male fantasy author for not including many female characters (and all but one were incredibly generic) and people were really like "be nice to the author, he's said he doesn't know many women in real life :/" like. yeah i can tell

#mine #delete later #cause im not trying to start shit #it was on tiktok so like all of that tracks lmao. i dont know if that's even true but if so. INSANE. #idk what made me think of this #but my dude if youre in your 40s thats not an excuse #tbh i feel like the book in question would have been completely forgettable and id just kind of roll my eyes and move on #if not for the fact that people whose taste i trust!!!!! recommended it!!!! #like what the fuck. the betrayal #like im still driving myself crazy thinking about it years later and trying to figure out what i'm missing #honestly could not say if the rest of the book was good bc imo the way the narration treated the female characters was too distracting #'this one is Mom. that's her whole personality.' #'this one is the hot older woman but she likes me anyway bc im the specialest smartest boy in school. #it's weird cause there's barely any women at this school anyway. she even tried to seduce me but im too in love with Main Love Interest' #'this one is the Main Love Interest and she's so pretty and sexy everyone wants to be with her. she has a tragic secret past #she wont tell me why but we cant be together and she also spends most of the book seducing other men. But I Know She Doesnt Mean It #i will learn her secret and wear her down so we can be together because we vibed pretty well a few years ago' #and then there's the cRaZy OnE #and that's it. those are the only female characters #apparently the last one has gotten her own book. maybe that's what people praise this guy for? but i am not willing to give it a chance lol #p****** r******* meet me in the pit

[aesterea]

I've been meaning to ask for a while, how did you come up with your tagging system? You seem to have a lot of fitting quotes for a lot of categories and I'm just curious how you came up with that

i've always tagged extensively (and maybe a little obsessively), but using quotes as categories was not really an original idea. i saw other people doing it first, and it seemed like a fun and very pretty way to tag for themes.

it had also pained me for years that a lot of beautiful, poignant ideas would get lost in my "words" or "favorite words" tag (there are literally hundreds of pages of "words" on my old blog, and already over a hundred on this one). i wanted to be able to find the things that really struck me and stuck with me, and i wanted to be able to group ideas together so i could return to them, read through them, and chew on them sometimes. so i started tagging for "love and death" and "love like religion" and "monstrous women," but even those weren't precise enough. so i started using quotes that got at specific things. lines of poetry, pieces of prose, song lyrics that struck any chord that just kept singing inside me (a couple of them are actually my own writing).

also, i have this tendency of reading things and going, "oh, this is reminds me of this other thing!!" so i enjoy drawing those connections and quietly sharing them for anyone who enjoys reading them.

an added bonus is i can use a quote to refer to Something Important To Me that i don't want to mention publicly. also!! i can use them for my friends, and every time i tag something that reminds me of someone, i get to tell them i love them!! (see: "a heart that beats. a voice that speaks the truth" and "i know i have found a friend forevermore" and "love you to the moon and to saturn")

i've lost track of all the ones i use at this point (i have several dozen listed on a doc, but not everything is on there), but i'll list a few of my favorites in the tags of this post! unfortunately, there won't be a whole lot here, since i remade my blog just a little over a year ago. there are a ton on the old account. maybe i'll do something similar for the old one, if anyone is interested in that. it'd be pretty convenient for me, anyway.

#replies #anika speaks #okay some of my favorites (excluding the ones linked above): #a bookmark near the end #the horror was for love #you taught me a secret language i can't speak with anyone else #the mortifying ordeal of being known #you are the knife i turn inside myself #there is nothing else to love #nothing in me was not made by you #a machine for loving you #where can i put it down? #how rare and beautiful it is to even exist #you are what you love #where you invest your love you invest your life #find what you’d die for and live for it #find what you love and let it kill you #please don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh i could recognize anywhere #the name of a person you love is more than language #i am stardust gathered fleetingly into form #love at second sight #the lover is the loser

[tachiisms]

@withoutpeer​ sent “  say  goodbye  to  me  now ,  &  leave  before  i  wake  up . ”  ( meme , accepting )

There is still a war raging through the galaxy. No matter the confessions they have made to each other, the words they’ve spoken that they’d both kept buried for years (no matter how they know now what they had not understood as teenagers when they had given each other up and locked away their love for the sake of being Jedi) there is a war, and their lives are even less their own than they would be in times of peace. At one time they had given each other up for the sake of service to the galaxy, and now they must again choose the galaxy over love. 

They have only allowed themselves this night because either of them could die in any battle, and because she is alive in spite of that. She can feel his fingers gently tracing over the fresh new skin of the still-healing blaster wounds that she’d impatiently ripped the bacta patches off of earlier in the evening. She’s never liked the smell of bacta, and she hadn’t liked the feel of it, not tonight, when she’d wanted only to feel him. This once may be all they have. His hand leaves her body only long enough to reach over beside his sleep couch where she’d tossed the bacta patches, and it’s only because she loves him that she doesn’t protest when he carefully presses them back in place. 

“Say goodbye to me now, and leave before I wake up.” He whispers the words into her ear. She hasn’t been cleared to leave the Temple yet (she hadn’t exactly been cleared to leave the Halls of Healing, but she doubts if anyone had expected her to follow those instructions) but he’s leaving in the morning with his battalion. 

She doesn’t want to, but she nods. She would rather stay all night, so that they can wake up beside each other: this once may be all they have. But she can’t. Their resolve may crumble by morning; it may be too much to ask to part ways in the morning, when they still must give all of themselves to the galaxy instead of each other. And Bant will never let her hear the end of it if she stays away from the Halls of Healing all night.

“Go to sleep,” she whispers, moving a hand up to run her fingers through his hair as he tucks his head into the crook of her neck, kissing her shoulder. “Go to sleep.” 

She waits until she can hear it in his breathing, and feel it in his Force signature, that he’s sleeping soundly before she carefully slips out from beside him, careful not to wake him, pulling on the soft tunic from the Halls of Healing before bending down to kiss his temple. “Goodbye.”

#withoutpeer #(you sent this. I just want us clear on whose fault these feelings are.) #(because I could absolutely see these two being like 'we have to wait until after the war for feelings' if she'd lived through Secrets) #v:: full of sound and fury ( remainder of the clone wars ) #meme response

[ghostbustermelanieking]

which fic would you rewrite and publish as a novel?

probably none, honestly! that's kind of what i was musing over in the tags of one of the last posts i reblogged. for me personally, fic has always been an exercise in transforming/reinterpreting/rearranging canon, and so the stuff i wrote is so heavily intertwined with canon that i don't think i could divorce it from that. and lately i've been getting a lot of original ideas, so reusing fic stuff hasn't been at the top of my mind. i mostly made those posts bc i'm curious what fics other people would want to see me rewrite as a novel.

however, one thing i have done is taken some more original concepts from fic and channeled them into new stories. the biggest example is an au i never wrote for the magnus archives -- the "georgie barker sees dead people" au. i had a lot of ideas about how that would change canon, but since i never wrote it, i mostly just had a lot of rants stored up about how horrible it is to see dead people everywhere. and when i started my current novel -- a ghost story surrounding a family who spent a lot of time in haunted houses, wherein the younger sister has always seen ghosts everywhere, but kept it from her family due to obsessive interest in ghosts, and feeling like she'd only be a mouthpiece to communicate with dead family members.... i unconsciously channeled a lot of my concepts for that original au. like there's some rants about the sixth sense that i think i lifted wholesale asdgghkklll. and the secrecy of the ability, etc etc....

another exception is the spooky scarecrows in snow in april-- i took those scarecrows from a real life experience, and it's still so deliciously spooky i think i'll probably reuse it someday, but i'd probably change a loooooot about the premise. i feel like since i want to write horror, and i wrote a lot of fic for horror properties (txf, tma, IT), i'm gonna end up channeling a lot of those experiences in the future. but i honestly can't think of a fic that would work in a relatively unaltered plot state as a novel. however, it's been a long time since i've really read or wrote fic, so if you have one you think would be fun as a novel, lmk! hypothetical writing projects are so fun

#writing #that au was gonna feature things changing significantly (idk how but) bc georgie could talk to og sasha and relay messages #it would've been fun #but i love the arcs of my reluctant mediums in my current novel (disaster 20 year old and confused 11 year old keeping secrets from the #medium aunt who centers ghosts in every conversation and whose house is so ghost saturated that her nieces found it absolutely miserable #...... but she has her reasons #addgghkkllll sorry i love this disaster family sm