Novel quotes: wei wuxian having feelings/thoughts about jiang cheng
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However, Jiang Cheng was gone.
Holding steamed buns, flatbreads, and fruits in his hands, Wei WuXian felt his heart skip a beat. He forced himself to calm down. Even after he searched through the neighboring streets, he still didn’t see Jiang Cheng. He finally began to panic. Grabbing a cobbler on the side, he asked, “Mister, there was a young master about the same age as me sitting here. Did you see where he went?”
The cobbler licked the thick end of a thread, “The one that was with you?”
Wei WuXian, “Yeah!”
The cobbler, “I was in the middle of doing something so I didn’t really see. But he kept on spacing out, staring at the people on the street. And then when I looked up at where he was again, he suddenly disappeared. Maybe he left.”
Wei WuXian murmured, “... He left... He left...”
He probably left for Lotus Pier to steal the bodies!
As though he had gone mad, Wei WuXian sprinted immediately toward the direction that they had come from.
[...]
He gave himself a harsh scolding in silence—he was stupid, useless, ridiculous, it was bizarre, unimaginable. Yet, he was alone, without a sword or any tools, and on the other side of the wall there were thousands of Wen Sect’s cultivators, perhaps Wen ZhuLie as well.
He wasn’t scared of death. He was only scared that after he died, he wouldn’t be able to save Jiang Cheng and betray the trust that Jiang FengMian and Madam Yu left him. In such circumstances, the only one he could place his hope on was a person of the Wen Sect whom he had met only three times in total!
[...]
Wei WuXian’s gaze turned from Wen Ning toward Jiang Cheng, whose body was covered in blood and eyes were tightly shut. His fingers couldn’t help but clenched into fists.
Chapter 59 Poisons—Part Four
Jiang Cheng’s expression was rather strange. It was calm, almost too calm.
He stared at the ceiling, as though he wasn’t at all interested in the situation that he was in, as though he didn’t care about where he was either.
Wei WuXian didn’t expect him to react in such a way. Sadness, happiness, anger, shock—he had none of these. His heart skipped a beat, “Jiang Cheng, can you see me? Can you hear me? Do you know who I am?”
Jiang Cheng glanced at him. He didn’t say anything. Wei WuXian asked him a few more questions. Arm supporting himself, he finally sat upright. He looked down at the mark of the discipline whip on his chest before laughing bitterly.
If the discipline whip struck, it’d be impossible to wipe away the mark of shame. Wei WuXian comforted him despite this, “Stop looking at it. There has to be a way to get it off.”
Jiang Cheng slapped him. His strike was so weak, so powerless that Wei WuXian didn’t even flinch, “Hit me. As long as you’ll feel better.”
[...]
If Wei WuXian were the one injured or if somebody else had saved them, he’d immediately say farewell and leave at once, full of determination. However, right now, Jiang Cheng was the one who had been injured. Not only was he injured, he had lost his core as well. He wasn’t in his right mind. No matter what, Wei WuXian couldn’t find any determination.
Chapter 60 Poisons—Part five
Out of the blue, Jiang Cheng spoke up, “Not to do what?”
Wei WuXian paused in surprise, turning to him along with Lan WangJi. Jiang Cheng covered his wound with one hand, his voice chilly, “Wei WuXian, you’re such a great, selfless person. You did the best things possible, and you swallowed all the suffering and didn’t let anyone know. What a touching story. I should kneel down and cry in gratitude, shouldn’t I?”
Hearing the mocking tone that lacked any courtesy, Lan WangJi’s face grew cold. Jin Ling saw the displeased expression and immediately stood in front of Jiang Cheng, scared that Lan WangJi would kill him with one strike, “Uncle!”
Wei WuXian’s expression worsened as well. He never expected Jiang Cheng to make up with him after he found out the truth, but he didn’t think his tone would be as unkind as ever, either. With a moment of silence, he replied, voice muffled, “I never asked you to thank me.”
[...]
In the beginning, it was precisely because he didn’t want to see such a Jiang Cheng that he decided not to tell him.
He remembered every single thing he promised Jiang FengMian and Madam Yu—to help and take care of Jiang Cheng. If someone as unhealthily competitive as him found out about this, he’d be dispirited his whole life, too tortured to face himself. There’d always be something he could never overcome, reminding him that he could only reach where he was because of another’s sacrifice. It wasn’t at all his cultivation and his achievement. No matter if he won or lost, he’d long since lost the right to compete.
Afterwards, it was because Jin ZiXuan and Jiang YanLi died for him that he had no face to let others know. To tell Jiang Cheng after what happened then would be like shirking responsibility, hurrying to demonstrate that he’d contributed as well. It’d be like telling Jiang Cheng, don’t hate me, look I’ve contributed to the YunmengJiang Sect too.
Chapter 102- Hatred - Part Five
At this point, somebody on the side suddenly called, “Wei WuXian!”
Wei WuXian answered immediately, “What?”
Only after he answered did he realize that the one who called him was Jiang Cheng. Wei WuXian felt somewhat surprised. Jiang Cheng didn’t respond directly. Instead, he took something out from his sleeve and tossed. Wei WuXian caught it by instinct and looked, only to find a black, gleaming flute along with a crimson tassel.
It was the ghoul flute, Chen Qing!
As he felt the flute that he was more than familiar with, Wei WuXian didn’t even have the spare time to feel surprised.
Chapter 108: Concealment - Part Two
After a pause, he asked again, “How have Sect Leader Jiang and Jin Ling been?”
Lan JingYi pouted, “They seem pretty fine. Sect Leader Jiang is the same as before, always lashing out at people with his whip. Young Mistress’s temper has been getting better. In the past he could talk back thrice to his uncle after he scolds him once. Now he can do ten times.”
[...]
Hearing Lan JingYi say so, Wei WuXian relaxed slightly. In truth, he knew that these weren’t what he really wanted to ask. But as it sounded like Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling had been doing quite well, there was nothing left to say.
Chapter 116: Extra—Banquet - Part Three
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hey. hey.
what if the crew remembered everything the baron did but luffy forgot everything (#repressionmoment) how dyou think the crew would feel about that
Honestly, I thought the angstiest concept for this movie would be the one that already happens. You know. With the crew being the ones who forget everything and Luffy having to deal with the burden of remembering all that trauma on his own. However, I've thought about this and-- This is equally as angsty. Think about it:
Everyone is fine. Everything is okay. So Luffy just smiles and considers the adventure done and he does not want to talk about what happened. Like. At all. The others are-- Saying they're fucked up after what happened would be an understatement. They do some apologizing between them for things they did and they go through a rough time because that's not something you forget easily. But especially they're all worried about Luffy. He's badly wounded (because what the fuck he just turned into a human colander with the number of arrows that went through him) and he acts like nothing has happened. They keep asking and he keeps saying it's fine. That it's alright if they're alright. Of course, with how many times he says so, they have to end up trusting him. But I personally think Nami would be the most worried of all and the one who would want to talk things out, and even go to Zoro to see if he can get something from him. The first days I think Luffy has nightmares about it. Like- Very fucked up nightmares and he keeps hiding the fact that for some reason he keeps throwing up whenever he sees something that kind of, sort of reminds him of that experience. They're all extremely concerned. Like- He's not fine. But he refuses to talk and keeps on saying it's okay. And, well, I think he'd end up forgetting. Like pretty soon after the experience he just! Poof! Forgets it. Not really, because he does still have an uneasy feeling with him, but the nightmares are wayyy more abstract now and he doesn't really know where they're coming from? He knows something happened, of course, he doesn't have total amnesia but he can't remember anything about it. It's just like a blurry picture, you know? So he stops thinking about it and starts living normally. But Nami? Nami wants to talk things out because she's sure that forgetting what happened can't be okay. She even asks Chopper and he says that this is common when going through traumatic experiences, but she doesn't- She doesn't want Luffy to forget without talking about it because,, What if someday, for some reason, he ends up remembering? What if it hits him like a ton of bricks? What happened while they were trapped that made Luffy like this? He often leaves the past in the past, but forgetting it is something else. She has to let go of it, at the end of the day, and rely on other people to talk about this. Luffy would be so concerned for them too, because he doesn't remember but he feels like he should, and he knows that whatever is making his crew all sad is probably his fault somehow.
Zoro keeps an eye on him, more than usual. Nami and Usopp are extremely close. Like- Codependency levels because they can't stop feeling guilty for what happened and if they lose sight of each other they're probably gonna go insane. Robin and Chopper are more or less like that too, but Robin handles it better. Keeps it to herself. Chopper goes to her for comfort more often, though. Sanji wants to deal with it on his own but he can't, because guilt keeps making him be with Zoro more even if he hates the idea of it. And Zoro has to be honest too and admit that they both fucked up and he doesn't like the idea of Sanji being on his own after this. Also, I think they're all very sensitive to darkness and sharp objects now, not to mention that Nami loves her beautiful tangerines but the thought of a flower that is not one of hers growing there makes her anxious. They're very careful not to let Luffy sleep alone because, even if he doesn't remember, nightmares are a thing. And he doesn't tell anybody but they know anyway.
I think he'd feel so guilty for not remembering because he knows he should and he knows there's something wrong, but he can't quite put images to it. I think he'd go to Nami one day while she's alone and say something like: "I'm sorry" / "Mm? For what, Luffy?" / "For not remembering" / "I told you. It's okay. It's not your fault. These things happe-" / "They shouldn't happen! Not to me! I am your captain and I'm the one who should protect you! And instead, I made you go to that island and- And- And I can't remember anything-" / "Luffy. Listen to me. You got us into that mess, yes, but you got us out too. You always do. We're fine" / "You're not... Liar" / "Yeah, no. We're not. But we will be. Eventually. So don't worry about things you can't change" / "Do you- Do you wanna talk bout it? You always seem like you want to tell me something and you can't" / "Not- Not now, okay? Maybe some other day" / "Can I stay with you?" / "Idiot. Yes. Of course".
And I guess they would move on past that but the trauma is still there. It's not something they can easily forget. Now just think about how Water 7 goes next! Luffy's going to suffer even more. You're welcome.
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Shiv weaponises her vulnerability to victimise herself to force Tom into forgiving her [1][2] + doesn't respect his boundaries [3][4] when he needs space from her.
1. In 1.10 Shiv comes clean to Tom on their wedding night about her cheating on him, AFTER their marriage (despite Tom asking her beforehand and giving her a chance then). Shiv weaponises her vulnerability into forcing Tom to forgive her, bringing up how when they met she was a "mess" and in a "very bad place" and how she needs him and also tries to gaslight Tom about their relationship never being monogamous. He forgives her because he's in a difficult position (divorce on the same night as marriage?? She didn't give him an out to call off the wedding beforehand and waited until after he was secured), he loves her, and he's forced to sympathise and accept things.
2. Shiv only apologises to Tom when she sees how cold he's being with her in 4.8. There's real danger he's actually done with the relationship. The kicked dog isn't returning to heel. She apologises. He doesn't accept it (you don't have to accept an apology, especially if you're still upset and someone is tryna force an apology on you because THEY feel bad and want to alleviate their guilt and return things to something that THEY'RE comfortable with). She uses the fact that her dad just died, which doesn't change the fact that everything he said in the prior fight was true. Their relationship had been shit for ages prior to Logan's death, therefore Logan's death doesn't excuse the rest of the relationship, and he's still immovable. Damn, he's always comforted and folded to her before, he's not doing that right now. Shit. Bring out the heavy. I'm pregnant and it's yours! The ultimate card to reel him back. He wanted a baby right? But he doesn't even believe her now... Why should he care anyway? How much has she ever cared about him?
3. In 4.7 Tom walks away from Shiv and goes to the balcony, needing space, telling Shiv he's tired. She doesn't respect this need for space and corners him on the balcony, literally not allowing him any reprieve, and actively mocks him for being exhausted, pressing and pressing him until he snaps, despite the fact he didn't even want to fight in the first place. He needed space and wasn't allowed to have it.
4. Tom is exhausted and stressed out of his mind in 4.8 with his job (something that means the world to him and yet also something Shiv has never taken seriously - and how could she understand the importance it holds for him when she's a nepo baby). He asks Shiv to talk about this another time and that he can't do this right now. She doesn't respect his request and presses her needs above his and takes him aside again and isolates him, and then acts surprised and offended when he doesn't respond how she wants him to. Ironically if she had actually respected him asking to talk another time when he wasn't so stressed, she might have gotten the results she wanted: Tom back in her pocket.
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