thinking about yassen gregorovich instead of sleeping (because i love him) and how he is a catalyst. yassen stabbs ash -> ash kills john rider -> ian rider raises alex -> yassen kills ian rider -> mi6 blackmails alex into becoming a teenage spy.
i have so many thoughts that i can't properly articulate. obviously this is a simplified chain of events, but yassen and his choices set off a chain reaction of the world's most unfortunate dominos. especially when you read russian roulette. to be clear im not necessarily trying to blame him for everything because that feels very mean. he was also just a 14 year old kid when everything in his life went wrong, just like alex. only difference being yassen literally had no one.
i think i should write an essay about this because i haven't even gotten into my thoughts about what yassen and alex's dynamic would look like past eagle strike. i would imagine it'd be similar to ellie and joel from the last of us part 2.
where obviously yassen loves alex and alex on some level cares for yassen back but struggles to reconcile that with the fact that yassen is responsible for his uncle's death. a very unforgivable act. it would be so messy and complicated and angsty, because on one hand here is an adult who truly cares about him and has a connection with him through his father. yassen could tell alex about john, and trust that yassen truly wants whats best for him. but he killed ian, and he cannot take that back.
while alex reels from those feelings, yassen is also trying to reconcile his love of alex with the knowledge that he on some level is responsible for the suffering alex endured at the hands of mi6. and possibly even the fact that alex's godfather is the one who killed john and helen.
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Hi, can you please explain what's going on in the HOTD fandom. I love your blog, it's like a safe switch and if there's drama I feel like I can filter through it on your blog and avoid going through the tag without being stressed tf out
Hello yes welcome I am desperately trying to maintain that feel because my blog is ALSO my safe space.
So there was a whole thing the past two days about someone who started claiming they were posting 'deleted scenes', much like the script draft snippets being posted by the user Darksvster (who had gone to the WGA library to look at the previous drafts of the hotd scripts).
And basically they came out and said 'why did no one believe me but you're willing to believe that other person' and there was a lot of mess how because Darksvster likes Daemyra, they were faking the content to show... Daemyra positively? As if the show hasn't been clear from day one that this is the ship of the show?
And now people are just making dramatic fake script things and it was funny at first, but now it's just the wave of exhaustion.
I think for me, as someone who did come from generally positive fandom environments in the past that survived during long waits (looking at the old days on Fiction Alley), I would really just love it people stopped screaming and yelling about things that just don't matter. Please engage with other fandoms, find something new you like to get through long hiatuses and breaks.
Because Anon, I feel the way you do - and yes, I'll comment on what I see, but I see a lot of people who are just unhappy. And It's not something I think will go away when the new season airs. It's going to be screaming and fighting about how the show contradicts headcanons and ideas that people have, what they've adapted from the book, massive amounts of disagreements.
And while yes, we can and should approach our stuff with critical thinking and analysis when we choose, I'm just tired of the yelling. I'm tired of the fighting. I'm tired of people getting beat up on. I have never seen anything like this before. It's baffling to me.
The TL;DR of it is: I wish I could understand outside of 'I think everyone needs to go and get some other hobbies so their whole interests aren't just revolving around this one thing' because I think it's driving everyone insane.
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Watching the figures, all the saints, but mostly sinners
Come and go and some are desperate, but the others have
The sense that they do belong
And I do not belong
- notre dame, paris paloma
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😊 day one of being back home and everythings already so nice. i know i already started doing some work to prepare for a new life like applying for jobs and all that, but i also started doing work for something that i really want to pursue and its making me feel so giddy,,, i really hope it goes well but it wont happen till end of may
i'm a little wary about may since... all the stuff that happened last may so i feel like ill be very antsy this upcoming may BUT i have things to look forward to! we just gotta flush out the bad stuff with new good ones :] like hsr anniversary and this course coming up
spring brings new beginnings. im trying very hard to make mine
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strange gloom weighs over me today. like a shroud, heavy and absolute, and with no apparent reason - or rather, fueled by reasons which remain unchanged for a longer period of time and yet today seem to be more overwhelming.
maybe there's something in the air, as they say.
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So baejax was an actual dude?
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Ajax the Greater is a (mostly) mortal man of Greek legend. I started calling him Baejax as a joke.
Whether the cast of the Iliad were actual dudes is up for debate, but their legend has lasted three thousand years and their stories have been told and told over again, so Ajax the character has enough reality conferred to him by collective imaginations that his historical realness isn't important to me.
As a character of legend, I find Ajax fascinating both in his persistence-- it's a name that most people are familiar with even if they don't know anything of his myth (maybe because there is a household cleaner named after him in my country, among other things)-- and in how little people actually know of his story. I find the second part especially interesting because as the second strongest of the Greeks, he was overshadowed at every turn by Achilles, and once Achilles died, rather than rising to the occasion and finishing the assault of Troy, Ajax died immediately after, ignobly.
Now Achilles chose to go to Troy and die in glory in order to gain immortality through epic poetry, and he succeeded in that. We all know his name and some version of the story. Ajax? Not so much. There weren't any prophecies about him, and his death was completely unnecessary and, in my opinion, tragic. I also think most people (including Sophocles) got his death wrong, but it makes sense to me that this overshadowed man's memory would be warped and incorrect because that is what he wanted in the end--to be forgotten.
Ajax's enduring legacy has been his size and his stupidity. He carried a great shield that nobody other than him except Achilles could lift. He was the tallest of the Greeks by an entire head. And he has been called all sorts of names over time, including Shakespeare's "beef-witted."
I've read the Iliad. I've read the play "Ajax." I've read academic papers about him and looked at ancient art, and I simply don't find much evidence supporting him as an imbecile. This seems to me more of a stereotype than anything--big, dumb, friendly man who can't do anything right dies stupidly and needlessly.
He wasn't simple. He wasn't stupid. He was a tragic figure. And for better or worse, I love him.
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