#Wylan being a dumbass

[rainydaymiscellaneous]

I hate to ask again but I had and idea. Also the last one was so cute thank you. If you can can you please write a Kaz Brekker x reader where the reader is in love with this book but no one has read is so they have no one to talk to about it so Kaz reads it and starts a conversation about it with the reader and they get really happy and start ranting about it to him and he’s just happy to sit and listen to them and make comments from time to time

Dude, send me all the requests for our boy Kazzle Dazzle your ideas are so creative!

Book Club (Kaz x reader)

He needed an opening. Just one solid reason to actually talk to you. You had been in the Dregs for years now and Kaz was still struggling to even breathe around you. He had this crush on you that he refused to admit was there. Inej saw it, even dumbass Jesper saw it.

You'd assume that Kaz was mute if it hadn't been for your presence in the Dregs. You had been there for a long time but disappeared on a mission far off for three years. The room above Kaz had been vacant and then suddenly it had life. Kaz had no idea anyone even lived above him until you knocked on his door your first night back and asked him to join you for tea.

There you sat on a nice couch with a cup of chamomile. Kaz was perplexed by who you were and why the fuck you wanted to drink glorified leaves in water.

"Why am I here?" He asked.

"You tell me." You said, sipping from your cup. Kaz furrowed his brow.

"You asked me to have tea with you." He said, watching you with those daggers for eyes.

"You didn't have to say yes." You shrugged.

"I did."

"You did not." "I did." He said. "Okay then, why did you have to accept?" You asked. He sighed, looking at you with his gloved hands gripping his cane.

"Because I needed to know who was suddenly living in the room above me." He said. You rose a brow.

"You could've asked Inej to investigate." You said. He blinked.

"You know Inej?" He asked.

"I've been in the Dregs for three years, of course I know your main lot. Inej, Jesper, Nina, Wylan and that off-putting convict Mattias." You said.

Kaz was confused. How did you know so much but he was ignorant to you? How did he not know who you were?

"I'm a sharpshooter. I use that-" you pointed to a rifle on the mantle "rifle to kill whoever you want dead." You said.

"Why do I not know you?" Kaz asked.

"I was off in Shu Han for Haskell." You said. "For what?" Kaz asked.

"You do your business, I'll do mine." You said.

He liked that response. It meant you'd keep any secret that slipped through your ears. "I will work for you when you need me. Say the word, I will be there no questions asked unless one of ours is bleeding." You said.

"Why tea?" He asked. "We easily could've done this over something less detestable."

You chuckled. "You've not had the right tea then." You said with that smile.

That fucking smile. From that moment on Kaz was hooked. He couldn't help it. It was hard to not fall in love with someone like you. You were always there when he needed you, apparently you had taken some training on stealth from Inej, leaning to be one with the dark making you even more deadly.

But for the deadly persona that the streets simply knew as "the bullet", you were a gentle person. Kaz often noticed you with stray animals, seeing that kind smile. The one that made Kaz at a loss for words. You'd often make that same smile at Kaz when you'd pass him with a gentle "hi boss."

Sure, technically Per Haskell was the "boss". You however knew damn well Kaz was the brains behind everything. You had become close with the other members of the Dregs, including Inej who called you a sister. She loved being around you. You gave good advice and that was probably why the rest of the group would flock to you.

So there you all were, your head in Jesper's lap as you read. Kaz had noticed your sudden interest in this, everytime he saw you, you had that book in hand now. Wylan looked over at you.

"Care to join the game?" He asked.

"I'm good." You said, turning the page.

"You've been reading that for two weeks now, come up for air." Inej said.

"I need to know if Alistair lives Inej, the prophecy is strongly implying he will die and I don't think Cousland can handle him dying." You muttered, reading.

"None of that made any sense." Nina said.

"It'll make sense if one of you would at least read it." You said.

"We're all too busy. Kaz keeps giving us stupid b&e's.(breaking and entering)" Jesper said.

"Not all of you are busy though. Wylan?" You said.

"Kaz has been training me for lockpicking." Wylan said.

"He take you to the financial district?" You asked, looking up.

"Once or twice." He shrugged.

"Course he did. Best place to practice." You said before going back to your book.

"Alright, who's in?" Jesper asked.

Inej noticed Kaz at the bar, occasionally looking over at you. "I'm out." She said.

Inej made her way to him and he cleared his throat, turning back to his drink. It looked like scotch but the smell... it wasn't scotch it was tea.

"Didn't you say that tea was just leaves in water that is hot?" Inej asked.

"I hadn't drank the right tea." Kaz said, looking at the glass with vacant eyes. Inej recognized the expression. Kaz was at war with himself, as usual.

He never handled his innermost feelings well, especially the ones that left him vulnerable. And what was more vulnerable than love? You were a plague to his mind, always there. When it wasn't your face that he was smiling internally at, it was your laugh. When it wasn't your laugh it was your smile and so on. He wanted so badly to talk to you like he once did over tea but he didn't think it was a good idea.

You were just so perfect in his eyes. So beautiful, so smart. If he tried to converse, he'd make an ass of himself. He needed an opening something fierce. Something to give him a reason to talk to you instead of "hey, your face is anestheticly pleasing to look at, which I do. Frequently. Without you knowing."

"You're staring at your glass mighty hard there." Inej said. Kaz looked up. "You should just talk to her." She said.

"It's not that easy." He muttered.

"I do it all the time." Inej said with an eyeroll.

"Because you are friends. You know her. I am not that lucky." He said.

"You do know her." Inej said.

"Not like that. I know her from afar. Where it's safe." He said, drinking the glass.

"Kaz, she's right there. Just talk to her." Inej said.

You got up, stretching with a yawn. "I'm heading out " You said to Inej.

"Kaz will go with you!" Inej volunteered.

If looks could kill, Inej would've been six feet under at that moment Kaz glared at her.

"Alright..?" You said confused. Kaz sighed looking at Inej and then you before standing up.

He walked out with you, noticing the dark clouds that hung in the sky. "Looks like it might rain" he said.

"Good reading weather." You said.

"You're usually reading nowadays." Kaz said.

"It's a nice escape from things when they get too intense." You shrugged.

"What is it that you're reading now?" He asked.

If you were a dog, your ears would've perked up. "It's amazing- it's about this girl who joins this legendary army and has to rebuild what was-... Sorry." You cleared your throat.

"Why are you apologizing?" He asked.

"Well apparently everyone thinks I talk too much about this book." You said.

"Who said that?"

"Well Nina." He'd kill her

"And Jesper." He'd shoot him with his own guns

"And Inej." Wait what?

"And pretty much anyone who asks me." You finished.

"Wow." Was all Kaz could muster for words.

You shrugged. "I wish they'd just listen to me and read the damn book." You said.

"Why do you think they haven't?" He asked.

"They're all busy. They have their own lives and I have mine. It's nothing personal, I know. But I just wish sometimes I could talk to someone about it and have them actually know what I'm talking about." You said walking.

Kaz then realized this was it. This was his perfect excuse to get closer. "What's the name of the book?" He asked curiously.

"Rise of the Grey Wardens. Why?" You asked.

"I figured I could read it." He shrugged.

Your eyes lit up and Kaz felt intense joy. He made you happy. He actually made you happy. He didn't mean to but he did and my god were you adorable to him when you were beaming. "Then I know where we should go!" You said walking ahead of him.

Instinctively he followed. "Where are we going?" He asked.

You looked back, a breeze blowing your hair in such a beautiful way as you turned to him. "My favorite place in Ketterdam."

He asked no more questions after that, just following you quietly through backstreets. Kaz watched you approach a side door to a building, knocking on it rhythmically. The door open, an older woman smiling at you.

"Weren't you just here a few days ago?" She asked.

"I brought a friend." You said with a smile, stepping back and motioning for Kaz to introduce himself. Kaz couldn't help but feel a little giddy of your use of 'friend'.

"I'm-"

"I know." She said. She didn't say it with disdain though, which shocked him. "You're the reason we're still open. Come on in Mister Brekker."

He didn't know what that meant but accepted the invitation, walking in. "Do you have another copy of 'Rise of the Grey Wardens'?" You asked.

"I do, why did you burn through your other copy?" She asked.

"Mister Brekker wishes to read." You said with a grin. Kaz's eyes adjusted to the dimly lit room. Bookshelves lined the walls both on the first and second floor of the building. There must've been thousands of books in front of Kaz.

"Here you are mister Brekker." The woman said.

"Thank you er..."

"Miriam." She said with a nod and a kind smile. She gave off the feeling of a doting grandmother with how fond she seemed of you. "Right! Y/n dear, I made some sugar biscuits if you'd like to try them" she said. You seemed to have found your way upstairs when you responded back with a

"Be right down!"

You returned with a new book in hand and Miriam grinned as Kaz took the book. "I see you've found the sequel." She said. You had the biggest grin.

"I had no clue it was a series." You admitted.

"The second one tends to be slow but it is vital for the third." She said, handing you a cookie.

You smiled, taking it. "Thank you. How much do I owe you?" You asked.

"Nothing. It's on the house." She declared.

"Miriam, if you ever wanted to apply for sainthood, I do believe you to be eligible." You said making her laugh.

"Thank the saints you didn't know me in my youth." She teased making you laugh. Kaz couldn't explain it. Usually smalltalk annoyed him but something about this was nice to him. You and Miriam seemed to have a tight bond.

"We should go, it does look like it'll rain." You said, peaking out a window. Kaz nodded but Miriam held her hand up before handing you and Kaz paper bags.

"For the road." She told the both of you. You gave her a kind smile before walking back to the door. "One moment Mister Brekker." She halted. Kaz turned around as Miriam motioned for him to lean forward for them to whisper. "Keep her safe, will you? There's not many a good person in Ketterdam but she's one of them." She said.

Kaz with possibly the sweetest look of adoration he could muster simply said "I will, Miss Miriam." Before he followed you out. The two of you began your trek back to the Slat. "How long have you known Miriam?" Kaz asked.

"Going on ten years now. Saved her cat from a town fire, she's been grateful since." You said, opening the paperbag and pulling a cookie out. Miriam gave you both cookies. Maybe Miriam was just a village grandma.

"Has any of the others met her?" He asked.

You shook your head. "You'd be the first I've shown to the Archive." You said.

"Why me?" Kaz asked as a crack of thunder sounded off.

"Because you asked me about what I read." You said before walking into the Slat.

Kaz winded up spending a good week reading that book. You were right, it was an amazing story. When he finished, he had that same urge that you did to discuss it.

All of the crows were back in the club, this time Kaz and you both playing a round of poker. Jesper hated this. You were way too good at poker and kept winning, hand after hand. You had a nice stack of chips. Inej seeing your smirk as you leaned back in your chair.

"I win again!" You said.

"Why is this so hard?" Wylan asked.

"Because Y/n is way too good at this." Jesper groaned, smacking his head on the table. Nina sighed.

"I need a drink. A very large one." She said.

"I've got my own little army of chips." You said, stacking them.

"You could rebuild the Cousland estate with your winnings." Kaz said, you looking up slightly shocked. "Course, I could always pull a Howe and, y'know. Knock it down." Kaz added.

You looked bewildered as Inej rose a brow.

"Kay, is it just me, or did none of that make sense?" Jesper asked.

"You just made a reference." You said.

"I did." Kaz nodded.

"You finished it."

"I did."

"And!?"

"You were right. The book is fantastic, I could not put it down." Kaz said.

Inej and Jesper exchanged a look.

"Fuck poker. We need to discuss the book NOW!" You said excitedly.

"Yes! Put me out of my misery!" Jesper said.

Kaz looked at him and then you. "Let's have tea." He suggest. Nina's eyes went wide as she realized what was happening before her, her looking at Inej who had a smile on her face.

"I'm grabbing my coat! Let's go!" You said getting up. Kaz followed you as you practically bounced out the door with excitement.

Nina gaped. "How long has he been in love with her!?" She asked as the door closed.

"Oh a while now, like since she got back." Wylan shrugged.

Jesper and Inej looked at Wylan as he moved your chips.

"You knew?" Inej asked.

"It'd take a blind man not to see."

You ended up back at the Slat, sitting cross legged on your sofa. You two must've discussed the book for hours, Kaz loving every moment of it as he heard you passionately talk about the story.

You sighed with a smile. "It's funny, I didn't think you liked me." You said, looking at your empty tea cup.

Kaz rose a brow. "Why did you think that?" He asked.

"You just seemed so... I dunno. Angry that I returned." You said.

"I wasn't."

"But you seemed it."

"I didn't know who you were. I was on my guard" he said. You rose a brow.

"You're not anymore?" You asked. Kaz bared a gentle expression that made your heart almost explode inside your chest.

"I'm not. You're one of the few I trust. The only I'd trust with my entire being." He said. Kaz didn't have faith in a lot of things. But he had faith in you and it showed. He looked at you. "Do you trust me?" He asked.

You gave him a look of pure adoration. "Of course." You said. You had spent your life reading books about the greatest romances of all time. You'd get lost in those stories of how the man always loved the girl but she didn't realize it until a pivotal moment.

"Kaz... you said you trusted me." You breathed. "Please. Please let my intuition be right." You thought to yourself as Kaz gave you a questioning look. "Do you... love me?"

Your question hung in the air for what felt like the longest minute of your life. Kaz definitely seemed caught way off his guard by the question, his eyes widening the second he realized what was happening.

This entire time he has been hoping for an opening to talk to you. A moment to truly get to know you. Well he got one. And he fell in love with every bit of you. He swallowed hard.

"Forget that I asked, I am so sorr-" "I do." He said.

You blinked. "What?"

"I love you." He said. Your jaw must've hit the floor. You knew how guarded this man was. You heard that any semblance of vulnerability was practically impossible from Kaz and yet here he was. Being the most vulnerable he could be with you.

You looked at him before getting up. He thought his words might've done something bad. Maybe you didn't want his love. Maybe he had misinterpreted everything, maybe he was a fool for thinking there was-

You kneeled in front of him. "Kaz, may... Uhm... May I touch you?" You asked. With hesitation he nodded as your hand gently held his cheek. The touch of humans was deeply unsettling to Kaz. That feeling brought him back to a place he never wanted to be in ever again and yet somehow...

Somehow your gentle touch made him feel safe. If it had been anyone else he'd probably be in the process of murdering the fool who touched him. But it was you. You were like an angel on earth to him.

"When I look at you, do you know what I see?" You asked softly.

"No." He muttered.

"I see someone else who's been through hell and came out on the other side." You held his hands, Kaz looking in your eyes. "We've suffered long enough and we deserve to be happy." You said softly.

Kaz had a momentary loss of control. He kissed you, you leaning into his touch. He pulled away with wide eyes. "I am so sorry-" "shut up and kiss me Brekker."

The next day you were at the crow club reading at the bar next to Inej. Jesper yawned. "It's a boring day. Wish Kaz would give us something to do. By this point I'll take a fucking b&e." He whined.

Kaz, as if he were summoned, walked through the doors of the crow club, sitting on your other side. For once, Inej watched you put your book down as you gave a gentle smile to Kaz. "Hello" you said.

The dead give away that something had changed was the fact that Kaz smiled. He actually smiled back at you. "Hello." He said softly.

Inej and Jesper swapped shocked looks. "Y/n, do you mind helping me with this? It's a rifle mod and I wanna make sure I've got the measurements right." Wylan asked. You looked over.

"Alright." You said walking off.

Jesper and Inej looked at Kaz who now had a drink in his hand. "What the hell happened last night!?" Jesper asked.

"Nothing important." Kaz shrugged.

"We just had tea."

#kaz x y/n #kaz brekker x y/n #kaz x you #kaz brekker x reader #kaz x reader #kaz brekker x fem!reader #kaz brekker #grishaverse #six of crows

[6point5crows]

If you seriously tell people they can’t headcanon a character as trans, queer, ace, or anything along those lines, I’m going to need you to shut the fuck up and learn to let people deal with their suffering and lack of representation.

“But the character lore-“

“But the author said-“

“But I headcanon-“

I don’t care.

These headcanons exist because if those characters can be those labels and still look like that, still find happiness, then maybes there hope for the rest of us.

If Wylan van Eck can look that much like a boy and be trans, then maybe there’s hope for those of us so desperate to be seen as a boy.

If Kanej can still flourish and exist while still being ace, then maybe there’s hope for those of us who desire the same respect and type of love.

If Kuwesper can exist and be seen and work out their relationship dynamic, then maybe there’s hope for those of us who are poly and wish to just be seen as valid for a single fucking day.

Let people have their headcanons even if they differ from canon (that’s what a fucking headcanons is, dumbasses) or from your own perspective on the characters, because you may have no clue how much that headcanon may mean for somebody.

#six of crows #grishaverse #kanej #wylan van eck #inej #jesper fahey #ace #wesper #ace kanej #kaz brekker #kuwei #kuwei yul bo #kuwesper #polycrows #headcanons #lgbtqia #transgender #queer #polyamorous

[wh0refornikolailantsov]

Prompt: "You’re jealous, aren’t you?”

For Nina x Reader please!!

Couldn't Love Anybody Else - Nina Zenik

Content Warnings: Insecurity And Doubt. No Beta/Proof Reading.

"I think it's best that I go," Nina tells Kaz, "we know I can be very persuasive." You smile, knowing exactly how persuasive Nina is capable of being.

"No," Kaz says plainly before looking to you, "you will go."

"Why?" You ask, and bite your tongue at the snapping rate of the question.

"Because you have the expertise to get you in," Kaz says, "and you're exactly his type."

"I resent the way you said that Brekker," Nina says. "Besides I am everyone's type."

"Nina, I need your skills elsewhere," Kaz says, "now go home, get sleep, tomorrow we have a job to do."

You know better than to argue with Kaz Brekker, but that doesn't stop Nina from trying. Once she finally exhausts herself from arguing with him, you hold the door open for her and start the short walk back.

Jesper stops you on the way, asking if either of you have recently set eyes on Wylan, Nina is uncharacteristically quiet, clearly thinking something over and over. "What dumb thing have you done now?" You ask. Jesper tilts his head side to side.

"I didn't do anything dumb," he says, and then upon some contemplation, "but I did say something dumb."

"What could you possibly say that is dumber than things you've come out with before?" You ask, trying not to let your gaze linger on Nina's blank expression too long.

"I was talking about missing Milo," Jesper explained. You nod.

"The goat," you say. Jesper rubs his neck all sheepish.

"Yeah, I am glad you recognised that, turns out that might not have been so obvious to everyone," Jesper says. You sigh.

"You didn't prefix it with, by the way I am talking about a goat?" you ask. Jesper takes his head.

"I would clip you one if I didn't think you were faster than me," you warn him.

"It's stupid, I know, and now I can't find him to explain," he says.

"I'd check the night market," you tell him. Jesper frowns.

"We have a night market?" he looks deeply unnerved.

"In the nice side of Ketterdam, he sometimes goes there when he is stressed, they make good snacks, and they sometimes import good powders," you explain. Jesper scans you up and down in a glance. "Yes, I listen to your boyfriend, now go and apologise while he is still your boyfriend."

"Received," Jesper says before dashing off into the dark.

"Dumbass," you whisper, you look to Nina, hoping for a smile, but she is scrunching up her nose in discontent. You don't try asking until you make it back into your kitchen, and offer Nina some hot chocolate. She shakes her head, not even really registering the question and that's more than enough to have you worried.

"What is it?" You ask.

"Hmm?" Nina says, looking startled out of her thoughts as she looks across the room to you.

"You don't think I can do this job?" you ask her.

"I know you can do this job," she assures you. "I don't like it any though."

"Why spend so much time arguing with Kaz, Nina, you knew it was pointless," you say, leaning against the counter.

"Had to try," she says.

"Why though?" You ask. She presses her hands together and then looks up at the ceiling, she is searching for a reason, a reason that isn't the truth, a reason that sounds more reasonable than the truth, but she fails to find one. "You're jealous, aren't you?"

You had meant about the job, about Kaz putting you in the centre, and asking Nina to pull some background tricks to keep them moving, but the second the words reach her the look of guilt on her face reveals a whole other kind of jealousy, a type you hadn't dared consider. She's jealous that you have to seduce someone as part of the job.

"No," Nina's voice is sturdy but her conviction is lacking. She won't meet your eye as she says it.

"Nina," you sound out her name soft and slow, and she quickly mistakes your empathy or pity and throws you a look. Her arms crossed across her chest and doing her best not to pout.

"Look, you don't have to look at me like that," she says, "I know it's part of the job."

"Nina, I am not looking at you like anything," you defend. She eyes you, not yet convinced. She has flirted her way through jobs before, she has flirted herself out of trouble more times than she can count. But with you it's different, because you didn't flirt for fun, or for the sake of it, you weren't like Nina and Jesper, you'd never got your kicks from watching someone else blush and buckle under the weight of your attention. Flirting was something you'd grown to do, a response to Nina and her charm, a charm that flourished your own. So the idea of Nina watching you work that same charm on someone else, it made her jealous, jealous in a way she hasn't ever really known before. But also protective.

"With your eyes like that," she waves a hand at you before returning it to her side. You've never seen Nina Zenik, Queen of Smiles and Charisma, so... unsure.

"I am looking at you the way I always look at you Nina," you tell her.

"You always look at me with such pity?" she asks. She huffs slightly, moving to cross her arms. "I had always thought it was awe in those pretty eyes of yours, but thank you for correcting me."

"Nina," you tell her, closing the space between the two of you to place your hands gently on her arms. "I never look at you with anything less than utter admiration, and complete reverence."

"Really?" she asks, smile creeping into her pout.

"Nina for a while now, I have been nothing short of ridiculously, and rather desperately, irrevocably in love with you," you say, "have I not made that abundantly clear?"

"Well," she shrugs a shoulder gently, "maybe not abundantly."

"That is on me then treasure, and all I can do is beg your forgiveness for such an egregious duplicity."

"You're just trying to distract me with words now," she teases, "keep going it's working for you."

You laugh, her arms move from being crossed to wrapping around your waist, holding you close to her, as she smiles at you, all forgiven, all argument disarmed. "You know this is just a job to me Nina," you tell her, "this will always just be a job, Ketterdam is not my home, and admittedly neither is Ravka, you are my home, and I will always return to you, you are my only loyalty."

#shadow and bone #grishaverse #six of crows #grisha #nina zenik #nina zenik x reader #nina x reader #six of crows x reader

[moondal514]

Can I just say I love the way you format fic rec lists! I love the structures and themes you give them! 🩷 Out of curiosity, do you have any fic recs for six of crows rarepairs?

Aw thank you!

Unfortunately I don’t read Six of Crows fic all that often (I’m actually kind of an imposter in that fandom…I haven’t read the books 😅) and when I do I tend to stick to the popular pairings. I don’t want to leave you with nothing though anon, so here are a few of my fave Six of Crows fics I’ve read so far:

still on that tightrope by alltheworldsinmyhead/ @alltheworldsinmyhead

In Fjerda, Ravka, and Shu Han alike, mothers tuck their kids in, kiss their foreheads, and start their goodnight stories with the words: "the Crow Circus always appears out of thin air."

No announcements, no fanfare, no advertisement; just a tidal wave of excited voices spreading across each and every town when, at the dawn of a completely unremarkable day, someone would spot the tents that rose on some field or by some riverbank the night before.

And when the clock strikes midnight; it’s time for magic.

Love love love the dreamy atmosphere in this one, it’s gorgeous

it isn't bad work by demigodbeautiies/ @jackwolfes

It isn’t bad work, really.

He’s lucky to be at the House of the White Rose. Pale skin like yours fits right in, Onkle Felix had said, pinching his cheek when he first stopped in asking - begging - for work. He hadn’t even known it was a high end Pleasure House when he stepped through the doors, flute in hand, ready to ask about a role as a parlour musician. They had laughed at him for that, but seen him through anyway.

And now he was here.

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Alternate canon where Wylan finds work after leaving home on the West Stave. What other options does he have?

I adore this one for being a wonderful execution of the type of au I don’t usually go near, but also for the absolutely fantastic nonlinear structure of the main story, which I find inspirational and would love to replicate in my own writing

Dirtyhands Regardless by Serene_Victory_77

A Canon Divergence AU in which Kaz and Jordie both make it out of the Reaper's Barge alive, but Kaz still becomes Dirtyhands. Insights into Kaz's childhood and why he became Dirtyhands while Jordie doesn't, and how Kaz becomes close to the crows.

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One of the letters is from Jordie and Kaz stops and stares.

“What?” Inej asks him. She doesn’t look at the scribbled words on the back of the envelope until Kaz tilts it towards her to read, and when she does, her face morphs into one of pure confusion.

Kaz Fucking BREKKER or whatever your name is, if you don’t reply to this letter you are going to be in so much trouble. You’re in trouble regardless, but be prepared, you dumbass. I am so fucking mad at you. - Jordan Rietveld, Lola’s Inn, Lij, Southeastern Kerch.

Nothing gets me like sibling feels and Kaz and Jordie’s relationship in this one really truly gets me

people like us float by ilgaksu/ @ilgaksu

If what we are is what we want to be? What does that make him?

One word: untouchable.

A jaw-dropping gorgeous little Kanej piece

Now We All Are Chosen Ones by endoftheworld/ @endoftheworldhere (WIP)

Kaz Brekker is reaped for the 71st Annual Hunger Games, kicking off a line of Victors that will change Panem forever.

Probably the best Hunger Games crossover ever (and also the fic responsible for me reading Six of Crows fic even though I haven’t read the books 😂), like I have never read a crossover so dedicated to its worldbuilding as this one and it’s fantastic

#anon #ask tag #fic rec #fic rec list #soc

[iambecomeyourvillain]

#shadow and bone season 2 #shadow and bone #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #six of crows #wesper #kanej #the darkling #nikolai lantsov #danielle galligan #jessie mei li

[jackwolfes]

Pirate au? (Wesper ofc bc I'm getting the feeeeeling you like them a bit) I'm imagining inej's crew but maybe jesper is the only pirate of the two and wylan is a hostage or smth idk tELL ME YOUR IDEAS YOU HAVE GOOD 'UNS <3

[AU ask game]

iiiiii don't know if i can think of another pirate au that doesn't go "pirate jesper falls off the side of a ship like a dumbass and falls in love with a merman" but if i did it would probably include wylan being held at knifepoint again 😌

#asks #anon

[oh-munda-kukkad-kamaal-da]

Yk what i like the most about Kaz? Its like hes a guy who'll pretend to be the most ruthless person to exist who only cares about money and greed and nothing else but secretly he loves and cares about all his friends and would give up all his money, would burn down cities and what not just to protect someone he loves.

Someone: what's your true love?

Kaz: kruge

No dumbass, you dont love money so much, stop lying. Its so beautiful how he secretly works in shadows to give every happiness to his friends. He even found Inej's parents and made Wylan meet his mom. Like he does everything for people but instead pushes them away when they love him back. The biggest irony in books probably is Kaz being called too greedy, cause in fact, he's the most selfless man in Ketterdam.

#kaz brekker #six of crows #soc

[wesper-ao3feed]

College AU

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/FyNgYGl by Sky_Full_of_Ghosts A crossover modern AU between the marissa meyer books, all the grishaverse books, and Aurora Cycle. All characters have been aged up so they're all in between 19-25. The Crows, Squad 312, the Renagades, the Anarchists, and the Rampion Crew. All in one city. And for what you might ask? College. Follow these dumbasses through an adventure full of secrets, lies, drama, and kidnapping, to figure out what the Anarchists are planning and what stupidly dangerous, and dramatic thing Kaz will cause next. Words: 3108, Chapters: 3/30, Language: English Fandoms: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo, The Aurora Cycle - Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff, Renegades - Marissa Meyer, Lunar Chronicles - Marissa Meyer, Shadow and Bone (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M Characters: Mal Oretsev, Alina Starkov, The Darkling | Aleksander Morozova, Nikolai Lantsov, Zoya Nazyalensky, Genya Safin, Kaz Brekker, Inej Ghafa, Jesper Fahey, Wylan Van Eck, Matthias Helvar, Nina Zenik, Nova Artino | Nightmare, Adrian Everhart | Sketch, Crescent Moon "Cress" Darnel, Linh Cinder, Scarlet Benoit, Kaliis Gilwraeth, Aurora Jie-Lin O'Malley, Scarlett Jones (Aurora Cycle) Relationships: Mal Oretsev/Alina Starkov, The Darkling | Aleksander Morozova/Alina Starkov, Nikolai Lantsov/Zoya Nazyalensky, Kaz Brekker/Inej Ghafa, Jesper Fahey/Wylan Van Eck, Matthias Helvar/Nina Zenik, Nova Artino | Nightmare/Adrian Everhart | Sketch, Kai/Linh Cinder, Kaliis Gilwraeth/Aurora Jie-Lin O'Malley, Scarlett Jones/Finian de Karran de Seel, Saedii Gilwraeth/Tyler Jones Additional Tags: alive cat, kaz and inej being angsty, cat being a third wheel, Caution, helnik in hell, kai really shouldn't be ruling a country, kanej eye contact, kidnapping of a ginger, saedii being batshit crazy, grishaverse shannegians, Help, Crack, literally wrote this in six grade, i don't ship darklina anymore, crackfic read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/FyNgYGl

#wesper #wylan x jesper #wesper fanfiction #wesper ao3feed #ao3feed #fanfiction

[arillusionist]

shadow and bone ep5 reaction its been 3 whole days since i watched this show 🤯🤯 also i started reading the s&b book!! its pretty good but obviously like the show its v predictable and definitely not on the level of the soc books

we starting off with the crows?? im being blessed omg 🥹🥹

LMAOO JESPER AND INEJ'S FACES WHEN THEY REALIZED THEY COULDNT BRING THEIR ICONIC WEAPONS

ketterdam mention (me when im insane)

also genya and alina have chemistry I CAN SEE IT theyre actually pretty cute

help not me saying this right before genyas crush comes in 💀💀 (well hes her crush in the books idk if they changed it)

oh my god alina looks so cool using her powers 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

ok yeah he definitely is her crush also not alina just rejecting the glove like that?? damn 😭

i cant take kaz seriously he looks so. stupid

honestly i kinda forgot the crows are literally trying to capture alina help

theyre giving jesper a temporary 2 second love interest because wylan isnt here

i feel so bad for inej why are they always doubting her 💔💔

i NEED some conflict in alina's plot like girl why are you always happy!!! wheres the angst!!!! 😐

IM CRYINF THEY WHITEWASHED ALINA 💀💀💀

"new guy" STOP ACTING LIKE HES ACTUALLY PART OF THE CREW BECAUSE HES NOT

he just wants him and inej to be together

everytime alina and the darkling are in the same room i feel so. ugh like GET AWAY FROM HERRR

STOP NO DONT KISS HIM 😭😭 they better reveal him as a villain fast because i cannot handle a love triangle

jesper is way out of that stable boy's league i mean cmon but his flirting is so funny

"shes suli" TELL THEM!!!!! 🔥🔥also finally zoyas here i missed her

"is it my size?" "you have to ask" STOP THEYRE LITERALLY MARRIED 😭😭 i love their banter sm im glad its not all angst

the way inej just walked away 💀💀 girl is not in the mood to listen to his blabbering

inej is so ready to prove kaz wrong

awwhjffjkg the look on inej's face 🥹🥹 i love her sm also she should punch kaz

...how long was jesper fucking that stable boy

need this old man to shut up

ughhh here comes the classic banter between the two love interests PLEASE REVEAL THE DARKLING IS A VILLAIN ALREADY 🙏🙏

yes yes i can feel the real plot finally coming

LMAO DUMBASS HE GOT THE WRONG GIRL.

i keep forgetting how fucking smart kaz is!! of course he would know there was a double

ok yes thank god he was planning to ditch that "new guy" he was annoying i didnt want him

not the darkling ruined the crows plan so he can make out with alina 💀💀

oh my god how long is the kiss scene

ok YES this is the reveal scene i have been!! waiting!! for this!!

YESSSSS 🔥 thank god i dont have to see anymore darklina makeout scenes

ok but if baghra is the darklings mother why does he keep her around?? wouldnt he know she can go around telling people his true intentions??

or maybe he doesnt know she knows his true intentions

idk tho he seems like the kind of person who would

lets be honest kaz looks so good when hes murdering people

OH MY GOD

SHE KILLED HIM??

SHE REFUSED TO KILL BUT SHE DID IT

IN A FUCKING CHURCH TOO

SHE DID IT IN A HEARTBEAT FOR KAZ 😭😭😭😭😭

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER???? LIKE SHES A SAINT OH MY GODDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i love them so much oh my god

"you saved my life" HHDHHFGHKGHj

ALINA JUST CLIMBED INTO THE BACK JUST LIKE THAT??? HELPPP 💀💀

soo im assuming this is where it deviates from the books!! i better have time to watch the next episode tmrw

#shadow and bone #grishaverse

[okaybutmakeitgayer]

Wylan, arguing with Kaz: if you make one more crack at me, I am gonna— do something!

Kaz: oh yeah, merchling? What are you going to do?

Wylan: I’m gonna— kick your— head

Kaz: my head?

Wylan: yeah!

Kaz: not my ass?

Wylan: ...yeah!

#incorrect quotes #six of crows incorrect quotes #six of crows #six of crows duology #wylan van eck #kaz brekker #Wylan being a dumbass #because he is #and I love him #crooked kingdom #yes I got this from StarKid #tgwldm

[catlaila]

THE VAN ECKS are a well established family in Ketterdam made up of wealthy mercher Jan Van Ecks, his wife Alys, son Wylan, and former wife Marya Hendriks. 

@wylanvanheck asked ⟶ the van ecks + tarot

#wylan van eck #marya hendriks #alys van eck #i dont remember the dads name ..... dumbass bitch? rat of a human being? who will ever know #soc #socedit #six of crows #ck #ckedit #crooked kingdom #lbardugo #scar's concept series #mine #manacries

[girloikawa]

thinking about the time elliot stabbed himself with a fork to get out of a conversation............

#another fucking red haired midget being a dumbass #how many are there?????? #neil wylan elliot francis #ugh...dumb gingers...gotta love em #elliot schafer #in other lands #iol #elliot x luke #idk their ship name but i loved th em

[callisto1221]

Love these parallels

“What’s the easiest way to steal a man’s wallet?” “Knife to the throat?” asked Inej. “Gun to the back?” said Jesper. “Poison in his cup?” suggested Nina. “You’re all horrible,” said Matthias. Kaz rolled his eyes. “The easiest way to steal a man’s wallet is to tell him you’re going to steal his watch. 

 “Where do you think the money went?” he repeated. “Guns?” asked Jesper. “Ships?” queried Inej. “Bombs?” suggested Wylan. “Political bribes?” offered Nina. They all looked at Matthias. “This is where you tell us how awful we are,” she whispered. He shrugged. “They all seem like practical choices.”

#grishaverse #thecrows #kaz brekker #wylan van eck #inejgayfa #Matthias #inej ghafa #nina #i love their friendship #leigh bardugo #the crows being dumbasses #i want this in the show

[love-strawberry]

in my defence, i'm stupid

summary : in which they're all chaotic dumbasses.

pairing : nikolai lantsov x reader

warnings : language

author's note : kazthebreaker - kaz, knivessankta - inej, gunguyfahey - jesper, wylanvansunshine - wylan, ninazwafflez - nina, matthias - angstykristoff, aleksanderthedarkguy - aleksander, alinathesunbeam - alina, iamablade - mal, nikolaiherguy - nikolai, y/n_ - y/n, redheadtay - genya, mcthunderqueen - zoya, fedoraaa - fedyor

tagged : @mrs-brekker15

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y/n_ lovely day with my wifeys <3

tagged knivessankta ninazwafflez alinathesunbeam

535 comments

iamablade you all look so beautiful <3

-> y/n_ it's okay, you can say just alina

kazthebreaker hm

-> y/n_ *narrowed eyes* call her an investment and i'll beat you to death with your own cane

angstykristoff nina <3

nikolaiherguy i miss you, please come back soon :(

-> y/n_ it's not even been an hour

-> nikolaiherguy i miss you :(

mcthunderqueen please hurry up

-> y/n_ on our way bby

fedoraaa alinathesunbeam are those my sunglasses?

-> alinathesunbeam no comment

-> y/n_ alina...

-> alinathesunbeam i'll give them to you back

redheadtay you all look so lovely <3

-> y/n_ ILYSM <3

wylanvansunshine 🤍🤍

-> y/n_ visit us soon please!!

gunguyfahey looking good damn!!

-> y/n_ bdhxhjsnccb thank you

aleksanderthedarkguy 🙄🤚

-> y/n_ keep on dreaming grandpa

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knivessankta the most happiest day with my loves

tagged alinathesunbeam ninazwafflez y/n_

526 comments

iamablade alina <3

-> knivessankta alina days stop being a weirdo

kazthebreaker lovely

-> knivessankta :)

y/n_ i love you

-> knivessankta i love you more

angstykristoff <nina3

-> knivessankta simP

gunguyfahey BEAUTIFUL DASHING HANDSOME LOVELY ETHEREAL ANGELIC

-> knivessankta stopp ily

redheadtay love you beauties

-> knivessankta ilysm ❤️

fedoraaa guys please, come back. we have a seminar in an hour

-> knivessankta omg we forgot about that, on our way!!

mcthunderqueen you all look hot ;)

-> knivessankta that we do ;)

nikolaiherguy please let y/n go

-> knivessankta never

ninazwafflez looking so good

-> knivessankta yesss :)

alinathesunbeam 🤍

-> knivessankta 🤍

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y/n_ i love these dumbasses <3

tagged alinathesunbeam mcthunderqueen redheadtay ninazwafflez angstykristoff fedoraaa kazthebreaker knivessankta gunguyfahey wylanvansunshines aleksanderthedarkguy

598 comments

aleksanderthedarkguy says you, the biggest dumbass of us all

-> y/n_ honestly feeling so attacked rn

angstykristoff that pic of us has high meme potential

-> y/n_ what were you even doing?

-> angstykristoff don't ask

kazthebreaker delete that picture of me smiling, i have a reputation to uphold

-> y/n_ delete it after sending it to you, right?

-> kazthebreaker ...whatever

knivessankta i love you so much, even tho you're a pain in the ass

-> y/n_ 🔪 ily

redheadtay 🦋🦋🦋

-> y/n_ 🌼🌼🌼

nikolaiherguy and i am not in this post why?

-> y/n_ obviously gonna make a post about just you 🙄🤚

-> nikolaiherguy as you should

ninazwafflez 🛐🛐

-> y/n_ 😌

fedoraaa says the one who pulled a push door

-> y/n_ that was a long time ago

-> fedoraaa it was yesterday

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y/n_ he bullied me into posting this

tagged nikolaiherguy

538 comments

aleksanderthedarkguy adorable

-> y/n_ i just know you're making that disgusting face

angstykristoff 🤎

-> y/n_ does this mean you approve of us

-> angstykristoff no.

ninazwafflez awww you're both sickeningly cute

-> y/n_ umm, you and matthias?

alinathesunbeam love you both <3

-> y/n_ we love you <3

nikolaiherguy i DIDN'T bully you

-> y/n_ shore..

kazthebreaker cursed my eyes by posting this

-> y/n_ blessed*

mcthunderqueen leave him, let's get married

-> y/n_ omg yes ily let's goooo

redheadtay <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

-> y/n_ love love love love love

knivessankta 🤍🤍

-> y/n_ 💛💛

gunguyfahey he better be treating you right

-> y/n_ he's the best!!

wylanvansunshine AWWWW you both are so cute

-> y/n_ thank you but that's all you and jesper!!!

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#social media imagines #social media au #social media fics #nikolai lantsov x reader #nikolai lantsov imagines #nikolai lantsov #nikolai lantsov x you #nikolai lantsov x fem!reader #shadow and bone x reader #shadow and bone imagines #shadow and bone #six of crows x you #six of crows x reader #kaz x inej #jesper x wylan #nina x matthias #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #wylan van sunshine #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #nina zenik #matthias helvar #zoya nazyanelsky #aleksander morozova #genya safin #lora <3 #kazzle dazzle #shadow and bone modern au #shadow and bone au

[thedelusionreaderbitch]

The Crows as parents headcanons: Their kid comes out as transmasc

A/n: I've decided to make this a series because why not

Request: Hey! If you're still taking requests, can I request headcanons for the Crows as parents? Maybe their kid comes out as transmasc? (Requested by anon)

Pronouns used: no pronouns

Warnings: Mentions of transphobia, I think that's it? You have been warned!

Wesper:

- it didn't really take you a long time to come out

- like because you were dropping hints along the way

- just because you knew they'd be supportive but you didn't want it to come as too much of a shock

- cause sometimes they can be a bit 'overexcited'

- cough, cough jesper

- that doesn't mean that you don't love them though!

- you just wanted them to be mentally prepared

- thank the saints you did

- because when you came out your dad (jesper) was jumping to the ceiling and your pa, (wylan) was trying to calm him down, congratulate you all without withholding the urge to smile and laugh giddly

- wesper didn't raise no straight kids okay?

- later when everyone's calm you all talk more in depth about everything

- all in all, it goes pretty well

Helnik:

- complete and utter mess when you tell them

- "You're what?"

- they say all the wrong things at first

- "Don't worry Djel still loves you!" "Matthias!"

- eventually the stress level goes from a 10 to a 4 when they see you laughing at them

- "Are you laughing at us little one?"

- honestly watching them trip over themselves trying to find the right words to say is hilarious so yes, you were laughing at them

- nina and you talk about all the shitty things about society related to being transmasc

- matthias tells you, you can have a wolf, and also tells you he loves you while ruffling your hair

- organizes a coming out party (only if you want one) to come out to your extent family aka the rest of the crows

- they love you then, they love you now because you're still the same person you've always been you've just revealed another part of yourself

Kanej:

- it's really hard to keep things from the dirtyhands and the wraith

- but when you came out they weren't really expecting it

- for a split second you were scared they were going to kick you out because of their blank faces

- finally their parental extincts came back into overdrive and they were telling you they accept you, bla bla bla

- you know the bare minimum but society hates us lol

- right away they talk in depth asking questions like;

- "Have you told anyone else?" "Is there anything we can do to help?"

- they talk about if you want a binder that they'll get you one specially made so it's the safest that they can get you

- talks about safely binding again if you want to use one

- also talks about if you want to medically transition and what that will mean

- really they just want to make sure you're okay

-thedelusionreaderbitch

Grishaverse taglist: @kaqua @rika90 @thefandomplace @musical-theatre-obsessed-dumbass @gallysonegoodlung @navs-bhat @sumsebien @dontjudgeabookbythecover @brekker-zenik @alohastitch0626 @brekkers-desigirl @emmsamultifan06

#kaz brekker #inej ghafa #nina zenik #matthias helvar #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #the crows #the crows as parents #the crows as parents headcanons #you come out as transmasc #kanej #helnik #wesper #grishaverse #shadow and bone #six of crows #kaz brekker x reader #inej ghafa x reader #trans #transmasc #transgender #nina zenik x reader #matthias helvar x reader #jesper fahey x reader #wylan van eck x reader #the crows x reader #the crows imagine

[liberty-barnes]

Alright

Kaz Brekker x Reader (pronouns and descriptions not specified)

Summary: You’ve been flirting with Kaz ever since you started working as his bartender. Systematic rejection gets tiring after a while, but sometimes all you need is a good chat and a large bottle of vodka.

Warnings: mentions of child abuse, PTSD, touch aversion, but it’s still overall kinda cute. Well, I mean, it has a happy ending. Oh, and drinking. Not underage, though, cause 19 is of legal drinking age in Europe and I’m saying that Ketterdam follows the (much superior) European drinking laws

Word Count: 3.2k words

Estimated Reading Time: 13 minutes

A/N: I am a weak, weak human being, and broken hot guys will be the death of me. I tried to resist it. I failed MISERABLY. I blame Grace.

Now for the actual important shit: The plot is basically all Netflix series but I added Wylan cause from what I’ve read about him he’s awesome and basically all of the location knowledge and stuff came from the Grishaverse fandom Wikipedia thing. Also, I can’t actually remember if the Crow Club has a bar but given that every club/casino type thing I’ve gone to has a bar, I’m adding it in. If there isn’t one, just imagine there is. I haven’t read the books yet but I will DEFINITELY get on it now that I have the time soooo, yeah.

Masterlist

Being a bartender for the Crow Club wasn’t too bad. Sure, it had its downsides, like working much later than many other bars, being in gang territory and most of your customers being gang members, and some of them showing up with blood-stained faces, and blood-stained knuckles, and blood-stained shirts, and blood-stained everything really.

But the upsides highly outnumbered the downsides. For one, the pay was amazing. Kaz Brekker may be a known and feared criminal but he was a just employer and made sure to pay his staff well. Obviously, since you worked, lived, and served Fifth Harbor, you were under Kaz’s, and by association, the Dregs’, protection, which was a very good advantage. You were safe, protected, and financially secure, which is more than most of the Barrel’s inhabitants could say.

All in all, pretty solid gig.

“So, (Y/n), ready to take off your ban, now?”

You looked up from the glass you were cleaning to stare at the one and only Jesper Dumbass Fahey.

“Absolutely not.”

He sighed and tried to win you over with puppy dog eyes, as he always did, but you were above that.

“Come on, love, don’t be mean to me.”

You set the cup down and squinted your eyes at him.

“He’s too pure for you to just destroy, leave my little brother alone.”

“You’re not even related!”

“Did I ask?”

“And you’ve known him for like, a month!”

“I repeat, did I ask?”

“We’ve been besties for two years!”

“Which is exactly why I’m keeping him away from your filthy hands!”

“Oh, hey guys, whatcha talking about?”

You straightened up immediately and smiled at Wylan, ruffling his curls affectionately.

“It was nothing, don’t worry about it, Sweetie. How’d your little expedition go?”

His blue eyes sparkled as he told you all about his day’s events, most likely dramatising some things but you’d let it pass. As the youngest member of the Dregs, he hadn’t yet been completely pushed over to the dark side and still remained the bubbly happy kid the group dragged in a little over a month ago.

“Well, it sounds to me like you did an amazing job, Sunshine.”

Jesper seemed to not want to keep him kind, sweet, and innocent, however, as he was hell-bent on shagging him, which you would not under any circumstances let happen. You’ve seen your fair share of women and men buy a drink just to pour it over his head as revenge. There was no way you’d let him become just another one of his conquests.

“Oh, um, thanks Jes, that’s really nice of you.”

Except that your poor little angel was falling right into that incubi’s trap. Damn hot guys, they’ll be the death of you.

“(Y/n), get me a drink.”

Speaking of hot guys.

“Oh hey there Kaz, fancy seeing you here.”

You smiled and blinked your lashes at him, already working on getting his usual. Inej hid her smile from behind her drink, while the two boys watched your interaction with rapt attention, as per usual. Kaz, for his part, just clenched his jaw and attempted to look as bored as one could.

“Well, it is my club, or did you forget who pays you?”

“How could I ever forget the handsome devil that keeps me warm and safe?”

You set his drink in front of him and rested your elbows on the bartop, lips pulled into a bright grin and eyes full of mirth. He stared at you, still as unreadable as ever, and downed the drink in one go, gaze never leaving yours.

“I have business to attend to in my office, so unless the Harbor suddenly catches fire, I don’t want to be disturbed.”

And with that, he left, much to your disappointment.

“And that’s day how many of failing to flirt your way into his pants?”

You kept your eyes on the empty spot he left behind, lips pulled into a pout.

“Five-hundred and fifty-eight, not that I’m counting.”

Inej answered and you straightened up glaring at the two Crows.

“You guys are awful friends. This is why Wylan is my favourite.”

The aforementioned blonde smiled at you.

“Don’t worry, (Y/n), I bet it’ll work someday! You’re an awesome person, there’s no way he wouldn’t wanna date you.”

Bless his innocent heart.

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“(Y/n), my usual.”

You smiled and pulled the bottle label ‘For The Boss’ from the shelf. No one but him had the right to it.

“Right away, sir. Also, I think you should invest in some better alcohol.”

He frowned and stopped with the tumbler halfway to his face.

“What do you mean, is anyone complaining about the drinks?”

You pursed your lips.

“Well, not yet, but I wouldn’t want them to start attacking you once they realise you’re the most intoxicating thing here.”

You smiled at the barely-there blush on his cheeks, and couldn’t stop your disappointed pout as he made his way into his office, tumbler still in hand.

“Day five-hundred and ninety-seven was unsuccessful.”

You turned your head to see Jesper much too close to Wylan and took your water-filled spray bottle, spraying the older one’s head and upper body until he was at a respectable distance.

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“My usual.”

You dropped it in front of him, already having started to prepare it the minute he walked into the club.

“You know, I don’t understand how you can still be so energetic every day. Don’t you get tired from running through my dreams all night?”

He locked his jaw, but you noticed how he was biting the inside of his lip as if trying to suppress a smile. That’s progress, right? You tried harder and harder to convince yourself of that as you were faced with his back once more.

“Six-hundred and three.”

You took the glass from Inej’s hands and drank it all in one go.

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“Are you a Heartrender? Cause when I saw you, my heart stopped.”

“Six-hundred and eleven.”

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“Are you a Saint? Cause you answered all my prayers.”

“Six-hundred and twenty-two.”

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“Is there an Inferni in this club, or are you just that hot?”

He set his jaw and turned around, leaving his drink on the bartop. You finished it.

“Six-hundred and thirty-eight.”

That’s it.

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“(Y/n)-”

“Your usual, coming right up, boss.”

You poured the drink and set it in front of him, keeping your lips tilted up and your eyes downcast. As soon as he was served, you moved onto the other end of the bartop and started cleaning it.

From where you stood, you couldn’t see the clouded look on his face, but you could hear Jesper’s voice.

“Uh, (Y/n), are you doing alright?”

You turned to him and conjured up the brightest smile you could, something that looked blinding to any other patron, but faker than a glass diamond to those who knew you.

“Of course, why wouldn’t I be?”

Jesper tried not to worry at the way you didn’t even scold him for having his hand on Wylan’s waist. Kaz failed miserably at it. When he finished his drink and could no longer drag out his stay without being suspicious, he retreated to his office and asked one of his men to keep an eye on you.

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You were just getting ready to go to bed when you heard a knock at your door. You covered your mostly bare body with a silk robe, a gift from the Crows for your last birthday, and opened the door.

“Kaz.”

You blinked at him in shock.

“May I come in?”

You opened the door further, an invitation to enter your safe haven. Your apartment wasn’t much, just an open kitchen and living room, small bathroom, and a bedroom big enough for your bed and closet, but it was your home. You always made sure to buy the nice-smelling candles to mask the otherwise putrid scent of the Barrel’s streets, and you kept a religious cleaning schedule so as to not let this apartment become the mess it first was when you moved in. It’s not much, but it’s home.

“I’d ask how you know where I live since none of you guys has ever been here, but that would be pointless so just… what are you doing here?”

He looked a bit lost in your living room, everything decked out in soothing sage and creme colours, while he was wearing black, head to toe.

“I came to see if you were okay.”

You closed the door behind you and crossed your arms in front of your chest.

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

He stood a good ten feet away from you, more awkward than you’ve ever seen him, but somehow still maintaining that superior air to him, as if anyone else were mere mortals and he was the god ruling over them all. Maybe he was.

“You’ve been acting… strange, lately.”

You quirked a brow.

“How so?”

He seemed to be measuring every word that came out of his mouth, seemingly unsure about his very existence, which was a sight rarer than the birth of a Sun Summoner.

“You’ve been acting distant towards my Crows. Colder. And you seem to smile less, too.”

You huffed out a laugh and stared him down.

“Well, I’m sorry that I can’t just heal from a broken heart at the drop of a hat, boss. I’ll do my best to pretend to be happy for the crew’s sake. Was that all?”

He frowned and the hand around his cane tightened.

“Who’s the bastard?”

“You are.”

His stance faltered.

“What?”

You rolled your eyes and leaned against your kitchen counter.

“What? You thought you could ignore me for two years and have me go on as if nothing happened? After a while, it starts to take its toll. I deal with systematic rejection about as well as everyone else.”

“But that was just you joking. You weren’t actually serious.”

You dropped your head into your palms and sighed.

“Really? I’ve already decided to stop, you don’t have to ‘let me down gently’ or whatever the fuck it is you’re trying to do.”

He huffed.

“I’m not trying to do anything. It was a joke, you’re probably still joking right now.”

“For fuck’s sake, Kaz, will you stop that? It wasn’t a fucking joke, literally everyone in Ketterdam can see that I’m in lo-”

“Don’t you dare finish that sentence.”

You looked at him, eyes glassy from holding back tears.

“Why? Scared to hear the truth?”

His face was stone cold, pulled into a frown.

“That’s a lie I don’t ever want to hear.”

This man-

“I’m not fucking lying, Kaz!”

“Yes, you are.”

“And why, pray tell, would that be a lie?”

“Because you can’t fall in love with me!”

He yelled, and for a moment, you felt scared. This wasn’t Kaz, the man who gave you a job and a roof over your head, anymore. This was Dirtyhands. The Bastard of the Barrel. The cold-blooded murderer leading the Dregs.

“No one can. It’s impossible.”

He looked away from you, eyes trained on the carpet.

“Why would that be impossible?”

There was no answer, only his erratic breathing and the noise from outside.

“Kaz, why do you think you can’t be loved?”

Cause that’s what this was, wasn’t it? A deep-rooted, wrongful belief that he isn’t worthy of someone else’s affection.

His eyes never left the carpet, as if looking at you brought him too much pain.

“I don’t think, I know.”

Irrationally, it made you quite self-conscious. The carpet was second hand, found at a thrift shop, and the spot he was looking at had a wine stain that you had never fully managed to wash out.

“I can’t give you what you want. Contact, affection, sex. Hell, I can’t even touch someone’s skin with my bare hands without spiralling into a fucking panic attack! I’m fucking broken, (Y/n). I can’t be what you want. I’m incapable of loving, and unworthy of anyone’s love, much less your own.”

Thunder rumbled in the distance and when you looked out your balcony doors, the rain was pouring steadily. You opened the cabinet directly over your sink and ruffled through it until you found an unopened bottle of vodka.

“Come on, with me.”

You made your way out and into the balcony, sitting on the padded patio chairs, your greatest finds. You were lucky to be on the second floor, the third floor balcony protecting you from the rain and leaving you in a nice shelter, to enjoy the thunderstorm.

Kaz sat next to you on the only other chair and watched as you opened the bottle, flicked the cap to the streets below, and took a large swig directly from the bottle, handing it to him as an offering.

“I love thunderstorms. The smell of fresh rain replacing whatever disgusting thing is usually floating around, the grumbling of the thunder drowning out idiotic drunks. It’s like you’re in a whole new world.”

He passed you back the bottle and you wasted no time in drinking again.

“My parents never wanted a child. I was an accident, not meant to happen. But I still did. The kids at the village always reminded me of how lucky I was to have both my parents still, that neither of them were lost to the Fold. They weren’t ready for me, is the thing, they had no idea how to raise me.

“If they weren’t beating me, they were smothering me. If they weren’t smothering me, they were degrading me. All of that done 'for my good'. I flinched every time either of them raised their hand, and I still hate having anyone stand behind me, cause that’s when it was worst. When I couldn’t see it coming.

“It got even worse when they found out I was Grisha. It was an innocent mistake, really. Just a prick of my embroidery needle and all those secrets came spilling out. You see, the thing they don’t tell you about Grisha testing is that you can do it yourself. One sudden jab of pain and you don’t even need an amplifier.

“My parents hid me from everyone when they found out. Told them some story about me drowning in the lake. Turns out that having a Tailor child was quite useful to them, but they didn’t know how to train me, so they just went with the first thing they thought of. If pain manifested them in the first place, then maybe the pain was the key to me mastering my powers. For nine years, I endured whipping, cutting, starving, and insults thrown at me at every chance.

“When I was seventeen, I waited for them to leave for the yearly town fete, took any money they had, broke a window and ran. I hid in one of the skiffs and crossed the Fold. I figured that if I died, it would at least be quick, and if I didn’t, I’d get to start a new life.”

You turned towards him, a single tear cascading down your face. He followed it with his eyes before focusing back on yours.

“That’s when I met you and you offered me a job. A place to call home. You saved my life, whether you knew it or not.”

He cleared his throat and brought the bottle to his lips.

“I didn’t know. There are so many lost souls in the Barrel, after a while, you just become kind of numb to them. It’s routine.”

You nodded. That much was obvious.

“But anyway, I still can’t let anyone stand behind me, I hate the sound of screaming and shut down almost every time someone insults me. When anyone raises their hand, I have to forcefully remind myself that they aren’t going to beat me, and every day I fight off the reminder of my mother telling me that ‘no one would ever love a useless Grisha’. I understand your struggles, better than anyone could, probably, cause they’re very similar to mine. The difference is that I don’t let my trauma control my life. I’m too stubborn for that.”

You made sure he was paying attention to the next part.

“I’m just as broken as you are, Kaz Brekker, so telling me you’re unworthy of love would make me unworthy of it as well.”

He looked down at his lap.

“There’s still a problem. I myself am incapable of loving someone.”

You shook your head.

“That’s not true. You do it all day, every day. You love when you take away Jesper’s money so he’ll fight off his addiction. You loved when you bought Inej from the Menagerie so she’d be safe. You loved when you took in Wylan, despite not knowing anything about him, cause he had nowhere else to go. You love when you tell your crew to be safe. You love when you pay your employees much more than any other bar would cause you want them to have a good life. You love when you put yourself in danger in order to protect all of us. You love with your whole being, in a million different ways, and it’s a shame that people don’t see it for what it is, you especially.”

With a particularly large gulp, he finished the bottle and set it onto the floor.

“Do I love you, then?”

You smiled softly.

“I think you do. You always have me escorted home at night so I don’t get assaulted, you gave me the job that saved my life, you let me borrow your coats when I forget mine, you came to check up on me cause you noticed I was acting different and you wanted to change that… It sounds a whole lot like love to me.”

He stared into your eyes for a little while longer and the corner of his mouth quirked up.

“Alright.”

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“(Y/n)-”

“Your usual, already done.”

You smiled at him and for once, he smiled back. Close-mouthed and carefully turned away from any low-level employees, but he still did.

“Thank you, darling.”

“Anything for you.”

You turned back towards where the Crows were now gaping, looking between you and their boss with unrestrained glee.

You stretched the faucet sprayer until it was far enough to reach them and sprayer the entirety of Jesper’s torso.

“Paws off my little brother, you rascal.”

Alright! So that was all for my first Kaz fic. The idea kinda came into my head and then it wouldn’t fucking leave so I spent four hours writing it and another hour trying to FUCKING PUBLISH IT CAUSE MY STUPID COMPUTER WOULDN’T LET ME

So anyway if you liked it, don’t forget to like/comment/reblog, I’d appreciate it

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-Love, Miah <3 edit: Okay, I read it over and fixed any obvious mistakes on my fucking phone cause my computer died before i could do that, it barely let me post this part. So, as soon as I get to my mum's, I'll steal her laptop, edit this properly, and update my masterlist as well, maybe, sounds like a good idea.

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