#YES GUCCI KING!!

[cupidsrrott]

𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙡; NEYMAR JR.

𝙄𝙉 𝙒𝙃𝙄𝘾𝙃, neymar is dating an actress and it’s seen through social media posts.

author’s note; someone requested this but i cant find it in the “my activity” so i really hope they see this!!

your stories

your posts

yourusername

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yourusername i’m honoured to be wearing this vintage gucci designed dress for the 75th cannes anniversary. so thank you to all of my stylists and designers you all are angels on earth❤️

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neymarjr meu anjo (my angel)

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neymarjr what’re we having for dinner tonight?

| yourusername takeout?

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| neymarjr sim😁(yes)

| user1 i need a relationship like theirs😭

badgalriri gorgeous babyy!!

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| yourusername i miss you gorgeous!🤍

user2 i want to be herr😩

blakelively beautiful girl💞

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netflix 😍😍😍

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yourusername this weekend ft. ney and my new mule friend

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neymar eu te amo anjo (i love you angel)

| yourusername você tem meu coração (you have my heart)

| user3 i can’t with these two❤️😭

| user4 i’m so done i need what they havee

phoebedyvenor cant wait to see you on set next week!!

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| yourusername ahhh me too!!💗

gigihadid khai misses you i better see you soon💘💘

| yourusername ugh i miss my goddaughter too😭 i promise i’ll be there in new york next month💗

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footballwags Neymar jr. and long time girlfriend, actress Y/n L/n yesterday evening in Brazil

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user5 they are soo perfect

user6 i’m obsessed with them

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user7 i need her wardrobe

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yourfan2 Y/n at the PSG vs. Montpellier match on Saturday (she looks so angelic i love her so muchh🤍👼🏼)

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user8 she’s literally the prettiest

user9 this girl has it all omgg

sportswags if her and neymar break up i literally will never believe in love😭😭

| yourfan2 me too!!😭❤️

neyfan3 the way she looks at the pitch to ney🤧💗

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his stories

his posts

neymarjr

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neymarjr feliz aniversário meu anjo🎂 (happy birthday my angel)

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yourusername obrigado, eu te amo ney (thank you, i love you)

| neymarjr get ready for today anjo🤍

| martinezvini i need to see some birthday updates😭

samaracosta happy birthday to a literal icon

psg 🎂🎂🎂

lucaspaqueta feliz aniversário bêbee🎉 (happy birthday babyy)

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neymarjr

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neymarjr ontem à noite na cerimônia de premiação, serei eternamente grato!!❤️❤️ y/n pediu a um vencedor do prêmio (eu) para carregá-la escada abaixo 🙄❤️ (last night at the award ceremony, i will be forever grateful!! and then y/n asked an award winner (me) to carry her down the stairs)

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yourusername my feet were hurting🙄

| neymarjr yeahhh i’m sure anjo

| yourusername i was in 5 inch heels

| gabily leave the girl alone ney her feet were hurting😭🙄

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nike 🙌🙌🙌

leomessi amo vocês!!!🙏🙏(love you guys)

user10 what a king 👑

yourfriend love you both together💛

#footballer x reader #world cup #football imagines #football one shot #neymar jr imagine #neymar jr x reader #neymar jr #instagram au #football #psg

[drefear]

Hail to the King (prologue)

Summary: Miguel O’Hara is the head of the biggest mafia family in Nueva York, scaring almost all of its citizens. Except you. And that’s exactly what he needs.

The restaurant was on 5th Avenue, between Gucci and Balenciaga. Miguel stepped out of his SUV and buttoned the suit jacket he had on, glancing around at the glittering lights of the street, identifying certain faces he knew and familiarizing the ones he didn’t. Walking into the restaurant, he glanced at security at the front and they just nodded at him as he walked in towards the hostess stand. The girl looked up at the 6’9 man, intimidated as she kept her eyes down once she realized who he was, and led him to a table towards the back.

This was a normal night for him once a month, taking a specific meeting here to discuss imports and exports to the city and the competition of the other families.

Miguel O’Hara was a name that many feared in this city, The head of the O’Hara family, a facade for the mafia that ran Nueva York, he was in charge of most organized crime within the metropolitan area and some of the biggest drug trafficking rings within the state. Being a mafia boss aside, the man was huge. His hand could wrap around an average man’s throat and crush it without flexing more than his hand.

He walked to his table without really needing to be led, the girl placing the menus down and walking away without a word. He sat and spread his legs a bit, leaning one elbow on the table and thinking quietly. Another presence made him stand and reach forward, shaking the man’s hand.

“Nice to see you again.” He spoke and sat with the man, talking about some business.

You were new. Very new. Your second night. You’d just moved to the city to become a writer, loving the scenery and hustle of the lives here. Visiting when you were young was always the best feeling, your parents showing you around and bringing you around to see the staples of Nueva York.

You had just finished serving another table for a lovely couple visiting the city as you saw someone get seated in your section. Walking towards the table with a skip in your step, you smiled at the two men and waved. “Hello! I’ll be your server tonight, how about we get started with-”

“Where’s Gwen?” Miguel glared at you as he raised a brow, as if you’d disrespected him in some way.

“Oh, uh. She’s not working tonight.” You added, intimidated.

“I only order from Gwen.” He deadpanned as you scrunch your nose in confusion. “Go get Peter.” He demanded, to which you began to boil a bit. How dare he speak to you like this? Yes, this was a very high end restaurant, but no one was allowed to treat you so terribly, to speak down to you. Your mother taught you never to accept that type of behavior.

“I don’t think I will.” You answered, with the same insulting tone he did, the man sitting across him staring at you with wide eyes. “At least, until you learn to speak to me correctly.”

“Do you know who I am?” He hissed, eyes boring into you and standing in front of you with a towering stature, but you didn’t care. Big or small, no one got to demean you.

“No, and frankly, I don’t care. I don’t give a shit enough about a 15 dollar tip to tolerate your rudeness. Learn how to speak to people before you walk around like some bigshot.” You leaned up towards him, eyes narrowed with anger that mirrored his.

Someone rushed in between the two of you and placed a hand on both of your shoulders. “Hey! Miguel, hi, how are you? I forgot to tell you that Gwen wasn’t feeling well today and called out sick. Hopefully, our new little beauty will suffice.” Peter, your manager, spoke with a friendliness in his voice, a familiarity he must have had with Miguel.

The hulking man stood up straighter, still looking down at you with a snarl still evident on his face. “She won’t be working here anymore.” He spoke in a cool tone, as if just asking about the weather. Your jaw dropped and you glanced between him and Peter.

“You can’t- I don’t-” You stuttered in disbelief and watched him unbutton his suit jacket, taking it off. “How dare you?” You got louder now, calling attention from the few hidden tables beside you.

“You have a disregard for who someone is, and you have no patience for others who try to put you in your place.” He announced, ignoring your angry chatter. “You start to work for me right now.”

“What?” You and Peter gawked as he sat back down and handed you his coat.

“I do not work for you.” You growled with hatred dripping from your lips.

“Well, you don’t have another job anymore, isn't that right, Peter?” He flashed a look of Warning to Peter and he looked between you two before giving you an apologetic smile. “Glad that’s understood. Go wait in the car and I’ll be out in ten minutes to take you home and give you your new assignments for tomorrow.” he waved you off and everything in your being shook with rage. You removed your apron and threw it at the large man.

“Fuck you!” You shouted before exiting the building.

Chapter 1

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[ham1lton]

fight for this love.

pairings: jude bellingham x f1 driver!reader

warnings: nothing!

faceclaim: bella hadid.

summary: jude meets you at a promotional event for a brand you both have a deal with. after the first meeting, he’s smitten, but there is a problem. he never got your number.

— part three of my 500 followers celebration ♡ —

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vogue: gucci’s newest ambassador, footballer jude bellingham, spills the beans (no pun intended) on his fav outfit combo, his ideal type and his favourite kebab place back home in birmingham.

user1: NEED HIM SO BAD 😍😍😍😩😩😩

user8: brb going to buy out gucci rn.

user7: WAIT…. his ideal type???

-> user9: it’s lowkey kind of boring. specific but not specific. he says he loves girls who are focused, smart and have good relationships with their friends and family.

-> user7: check, check and CHECK 😩 brb calling up my deadbeat dad rq just for u jude 😘😍

user6: gucci king we love him.

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yourusername: gucci loves me and i love gucci ♥︎ thank u to the whole gucci team for having me alongside the other ambassadors at today’s event! it was so much fun!

oscarpiastri: you had the entire gucci catalogue to choose from and you still chose to dress like an ailing grandfather.

-> yourusername: drip or drown baby!

-> oscarpiastri: you’re the latter.

user1: i met you today at the gucci event!! you were so sweet. i was the one who gave u the bracelet! 🫶🏼

-> yourusername: yes!! thank u sm!! it was so cute and matched my outfit so well. i’m still wearing it!

logansargeant: when are you hooking me up with free gucci 🤨😒 we’ve been friends for more than a decade ms l/n….

-> yourusername: lemme work my magic 🙈✨

user78: she should have been a model instead of a formula one driver!! so pretty!! that bone structure 🤤

user7: did you see jude looking at her throughout the whole damn event? omg. he’s down bad.

-> user63: bro was simping 😭 i don’t blame him. i mean… it’s y/n.

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judebellingham: took these pics last night. whoever my midnight muse was, please message me.

oscarpiastri: i know her mate. it’s landonorris.

-> landonorris: yes ‘tis i, your gucci girl 🥰

logansargeant: it’s yourusername, man. thank you for this. now she’ll stop talking about you in the gc 🙄🙄

-> user7: american and british solidarity.

user8: need a man willing to do a worldwide search for me.

-> user26: commit a crime, flee and you’ll get a whole fleet of men doing that for you <3

user12: oh to be jude bellingham’s midnight muse.

user90: how does bro not know the current world champion and first female f1 driver to break many barriers in the sport?? like she’s a household name 😭

-> user25: chronically offline 😭

yourusername: hi!! it’s me! these photos are gorgeous! yes, please message me <3 also ignore oscar, logan and lando in your comments please. they have no home training.

-> logansargeant: you could have stopped me if you had given me the gucci u promised 🤨

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yourusername: i felt like my paddock outfit just wasn’t appreciated enough today.

oscarpiastri: this is all you post after your win?

-> yourusername: i put a lot of effort into this outfit! only charles said something. 😔

-> oscarpiastri: wow! y/n! jeans and a t-shirt! revolutionary!

-> yourusername: i’m gonna pretend that wasn’t sarcastic 😝🥰

user728: oscar doesn’t see the vision. this is super cute!!

user267: her posting this after she just hard launched her relationship with jude?!

-> user128: like girlie straight up jumped and kissed him after her win and hasn’t even acknowledged it???

judebellingham: u look so good.

-> user682: you couldn’t have texted her this shit? lmaoooooo.

user516: i appreciated it!!

-> yourusername: i love u sm 🫶🏼😍

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yourusername: tried to find out if blondes do truly have more fun. answer tbd.

— 📸 creds - my bf.

judebellingham: that’s ME in the caption btw.

-> yourusername: we know babe 😁🥰😝

gucci: i guess we’re matchmakers now?

-> logansargeant: YASSS 😩 now can i get free gucci or no 🤨

-> oscarpiastri: crazy emoji use man 😭 is it ever that serious.

judebellingham: i love you so much.

-> yourusername: love u forever. glad to be urs. 💕🫶🏻

user1: she ate this down we love a bad bitch and her supportive bf!

user71: him flying her out after she wins the championship!!! we love this for her!!

user16: why can’t i have a hot gf, be sexy, be rich, one of the most promising young athletes currently and be lounging on a beach somewhere…

-> user72: why can’t i have a hot bf, be sexy, be rich, one of the most promising young athletes currently and be lounging on a beach somewhere…

user68: we love a blonde moment!

-> yourusername: halfway through our holiday, i saw zendaya, rihanna and beyoncé go blonde and got extreme fomo.

-> judebellingham: she made me dye it. i was terrified.

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author’s note: reader here is heavily based off of what it would have been if nepo!sis reader was the driver instead of o/s but in that universe, she never would have dated lando. so… small blessings ig?

#jayde’s works ☆ #ham1lton 500 ☾ #f1 smau #jude bellingham x reader #jude bellingham #jude bellingham x you #football x reader #jude bellingham smau #jude bellingham fluff

[mouschiwrites]

Potential series(?)

Scott Pilgrim - Dating Gideon Graves Headcanons

He wasted no time in asking you out

He first saw you at a massive party; in the ocean of people dancing and chatting, for some reason you just caught his eye

He found out who you were via Julie, who knows everyone ofc

He approached you with full confidence and asked you out flatly

He had a really messed up backup plan if you said no, but thankfully you said yes

The first date (and many dates after that) took place at a five-star restaurant, followed up with a movie in a private theater

He refuses to let you drive anywhere by yourself; he hires a private chauffeur just for you

He doesn’t like you working (unless you can work from home), one: because he wants you to be available for him 24/7, and two: because he wants to be the provider in the relationship

He really likes wearing the pants in the relationship

You’ll have to fight for it if you want dominance in any given situation

His love languages are showering you with expensive gifts and doing bougie stuff with you

Fancy restaurants, trying on everything in the Gucci store, helicopter flights, buying gold like it’s gas station gum…

And high society parties, naturally

He loves dressing you up all nice and showing you off to his billionaire friends

He also loves talking trash with you about said billionaire friends as soon as they walk away

He’s toxic like that,,

You guys don’t really do too much “normal” couple stuff

He doesn’t like holding hands or being all domestic

He prefers your ridiculously expensive (and hence abnormal) life as the 1%

He does like smooches though

His favorite place to kiss you is your lips, but he also might kiss your forehead/hair if he’s trying to avoid messing up your makeup

He takes you everywhere with him, so you’ll get to travel a lot (and spend hours in boring meetings…)

It’s not often that you guys end up asleep in the same bed at the same time, but if you are he’ll absolutely cuddle with you

He also likes to cuddle when alone on long flights or when watching anime together

He’s the big spoon—he’s not going to argue about it

Nicknames for you include “doll,” “babe,” “sugarplum,” “sweetheart,” and “princess”

He likes to be called by his first name, “my prince/king,” or “big man”

All in all it’s not the most affectionate or emotional relationship, but if Gideon likes you then he REALLY likes you and he’s not going to give you up anytime soon

Take that as a blessing and a curse…

You may or may not end up being cryogenically frozen

Thank you so much for reading!! I might make this a series if y’all are interested (maybe for characters outside Scott Pilgrim too)!

Take care lovelies!! <33

(divider by saradika)

#scott pilgrim #scott pilgrim takes off #spto #scott pilgrim takes off x reader #spto x reader #gideon graves #gideon graves x reader

[stealingpotatoes]

ask answering post!!

i woke up to Several asks (u guys were busy last night goddam!!) so ur ass is going in the ask multipost! featuring a followup ask, ani&vader adventures, and skywalkers apart au! also some asks from yesterday bc i forgor,

OH PHEW OK ask is no longer weird. look ive been on the internet too long (or just the gency fandom in like 2017-2019, y'see there was this Guy there,) and i see someone immediately thinking of pregnancy and i assume the worst ok

Ani: wow you look like my mom and this angel I met called Padmé

Leia: oh... thanks?

Vader:

Vader: wait a second--

Bail, shoving Leia out the room: ANYWAY lets talk about your Empire!!

LMAOOO YES the greatest anakin meta ever. he fishes scrap out the bin bc "it still works!" and then spends a king's ransom on gucci sliders. he is a man of multitudes

@abucketofweird aww thank you so much!!!!! my approach to colour palettes is 90% of the time "im gonna make this about 200x pinker than it needs to be"

@freshmiraclecheesecake loll omg if you leave your keys in your spaceship while Luke Amidala is nearby then thats simply on you!! you were asking for it to be stolen!!! he'll give it back in alright-ish condition once his mum angrily calls him

tho spacecrafts are EXPENSIVE i dont think you'd get many ppl giving them stuff like that aside from like... suitors or the current queen of naboo helping her senator

anyway it's gonna get even worse when he reunites with Leia and Anakin, bc you KNOW they're teaching him how to hotwire a ship loll

@yourfreindlynighborhoodspycrab loll yes, its like the opposite of the rise of emperor augustus of rome where he had to pretend everything was republican when everyone knew it was imperial

@thatsalamanderguy omg that looks so cute will check it out!

@phoenixyfriend LMAO LOVE THAT bodyguard against the bodyguard. also love the idea bail just doesnt ask who the kid is and has no idea its baby vader

@hypnosofastar aww thank u!!!!! if you're so happy, I'M so happy you found my blog too!!!

#thanks for the ask! #vader n ani adventures #skywalkers apart au #⋆

[fourteenfifteen]

may i request some friends at the table fic recs? i haven’t ventured really into the tag

HELLO ANON yeth you can.

i am not an expert and have not read everything but i have some faves! which i will sort by season for your convenience : ] also i have not finished sangfielle so i can't help you there lo siento. if you want more fics i would say a good place to start is @arwainian's fic marathon project. he has been reading everything in the tag and recommending things as he goes there's probably as many recs as u could want right there

ALSO stating at the top that i also write fic! not going to rec any of mine but i'm kind of a hottie i won't lie to u so that's there

OK recs under the cut

these are not in any particular order within seasons!

pzn/pld [at the top bc i have a palisade fic agenda]:

bad endings by elanoides

the stellar combustor arc but a time loop. amazing writing and an instant fave as soon as i read it. i mean come on dude it's a time loop fic come onnnnnnnn

i will reveal you by rozecrest

a recent addition to the tag that i really liked very fun brnine/gucci fic. where's that post about wanting every fic to also be a literary analysis essay that's me rn

use you as a focal point by joeysnowy

theeee crysanth/SI fic which ok it's a niche market but this is just a great one

party 2nite @ bc, rsvp capt. kb by fangirl_squee

VERY fun fic where the blue channel hosts a halloween party. i was giggling bro i won't lie to you

tm:

the cat who got the whipped cream by bluecloak

how often do you get to say that the most kudosed fic in a tag totally earns that in terms of quality? lovely and funny and absolutely gorgeously written

my place to land by lady_mab

yes it's the longest fic in the tag yes it's worth the time. total au that still manages to hit that tm vibe

as many times as it takes to get it right by theorangewitch

i just read this for the first time within the last couple weeks and oof it's a great one. very funny and creative and sweet reincarnation fic

excerpts/yours/beloved/signet.asmblg by kalcifer

signet and belgard twine fic!! great shit this one goes out to all the divine likers

c/w:

rising water by yellow

in lieu of a summary i'm just going to say that i'm actively not a cassmako person but i have read this fic a dozen times

light up the way by harpydora

damn i love these crazy kids. very good fix it fic for the ppl who cried at the end of counter/weight (everyone i assume)

hieron/marielda:

moving shadows / moving light by waveridden

uhh ok so do you know the reality show naked and afraid. ephrim and throndir on that. my secsam gift from last year which was a PRIVILEGE

champions of the world by fangirl_squee

an elaborate hieron hockey au longfic. very cozy and well-thought out

presque vu by fangirl_squee

ok this one is odd and hard to describe but very cool. genuinely have read very few fics like it. read if you like: hieron's tone, weird aus, and magical realism

and i follow just to find you by angstandcaffeine

oh my godddd i love this fic. the cw's supernatural WISHES

the killing of the king god's car by the traitor prince maelgwyn by thunder_rolled_a_six

a total classic that probably everyone would recommend to you. marielda high school au but ok i don't usually like that kind of thing so trust me on this one

fits and starts by luckydicekirby

augh. oh my god. does anybody else like crying. totally amazing samfam fic that really digs into god weirdness in a way that i love and also yeah it broke my heart

making something new by harpydora

love the samol characterization in this one also i just think it's fun

other?:

who put love in my head? by kaynara

does anybody else remember half past and flashback and absolute territory? no just me? ok well in any case this fic is so fun and the character voices are so great

ok that feels like a good list! i could absolutely generate a dozen more but i'll leave it there lol generally i will say the fic generated by this fandom is pretty high quality and you'll have a decent experience just looking around in the tag like there's some good stuff in there. worth taking a chance on things (esp recent stuff!)

#ily anon hope u enjoy. apologies for taking a minute #i have a job and also need to watch doctor who or i'll die #also. for the public. i AM taking fic recs myself esp palisade fics #and anything that is gross/weird/scary. bc that's what i like #cool b does cool things #fatt #friends at the table #fic recs #ask tag

[pleasingsatellite]

could u make a fake ig with billie eilish as the fc 💗

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yourinstagram I’m a Gucci girl now

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y/nfan1 beautiful, inspiring, show stopping, iconic

y/nfan2 well now I have to find Gucci money

y/nfan3 you’re amazing

harrystyles welcome to the club, I’ve been a Gucci girl for years.

↳yourinstagram wow I’m so lucky to be amongst such a icon 😍

alessandro_michele my love!

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y/nupdates y/n was spotted backstage at the Harry Styles concert tonight! There’s a rumor he’s bringing her out as his special guest for tonight’s show!

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y/nfan1 NO FUCKING WAY

y/nfan2 shut up right now don’t do this to me

y/nfan3 I’m going to the concert and if this is true this will be my last day on earth

harryfan1 whatever they sing together is going to slay

↳y/nfan4 what do we think they’ll sing?

↳harryfan1 I hope it’s a cover that would be iconic

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yourinstagram thanks for having me love 🫶🏻

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harryfan1 LOVE? EXCUSE ME

y/nfan1 y’all killed it omg

y/nfan2 literally the most life changing concert I’ve ever attended

harrystyles thanks for coming to my house, you’re welcome anytime.

↳yourinstagram an open invite into the house of harry? count me in.

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harryupdates Harry with a fan backstage after the show tonight!

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harryfan1 this was such a slay outfit I’m obsessed with the pants

harryfan2 he’s so cute even after sweating on a stage for 90 minutes 🧐

harryfan3 that’s me! he was so sweet and I also met y/n backstage and she was the nicest!

↳harryfan4 omg were they together?

↳harryfan3 yes! they were hugging and she was congratulating him on the show and he kissed her forehead and told her she did a great job it was so cute!

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harryandy/n THEY’RE SO CUTE AND SUPPORTIVE OF EACH OTHER

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harryfan1 the cutest couple ever

harryfan2 she was the first person he approached after his name was called i’ll cry

harryfan3 the hug 🥺

harryfan4 when he thanked her in his speech? I’ll cry

↳harryfan5 what did he say?

↳harryfan4 he thanked her for being such a huge inspiration for him and for being so supportive!

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yourinstagram waiting on you

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y/nfan1 imagine looking this good just sitting in your car?

y/nfan2 I need a makeup routine immediately

↳ yourinstagram I stay just putting random stuff on my face tbh

harrystyles I’m going as fast as I can.

↳yourinstagram hurry I need coffee king

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y/nupdates y/n in the pit tonight at Harry’s show!!! Harry shouted y/n out tonight “my girlfriend is in the audience tonight can we all give a warm welcome to her?”

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y/nfan1 STOP I LOVE THEM

y/nfan2 she was literally dancing all night it was adorable

y/nfan3 imagine harry just shouting you out mid concert I’d lose it

y/nfan4 she’s so cute I can’t

y/nfan5 I can’t wait for her to go on tour and harry’s in the audience every night

↳y/nfan6 I swear they do opposite touring schedules just for that reason

↳y/nfan7 they do! y/n said in an interview that to make their relationship work they have to tour at opposite times so they can be together!

can I confess that anytime I saw people say they’re “hillie” stans I thought that was a harry and millie bobby brown stan until like a month ago not a harry and billie stan 🫢

#harry styles fake social media #harry styles fake ig #harry styles fake instagram #harry styles one shot #harry x you #harry styles fluff #harry styles blurb #harry styles x reader #harry styles au #harry styles imagine #harry styles fic #harry styles

[jamiesfootball]

Does Jamie put hats on the cat? This is crucial information.

1st thought - Well yes! He definitely has a little cat crown, since Big Ben is the Real King of England after all and with his squashed orange little face he looks like he could sit for a Tudor era portrait

2nd thought - Oh you mean like hats-hats? Like professional gucci little hats to go with his cute gucci collars that match Jamie's actual fucking jewelry like Jamie wears the dangly cross earring and there on his fucking cat is a matching dangly cross hanging off his fucking collar. Big Ben is doing numbers on social media and Jamie's brands are tripping over themselves to get in on the band wagon. One brand, not understanding just how ginormous this cat is, offers to make Jamie one of those backpacks that he can carry his cat around in outside. Jamie is not opposed

3rd thought - He has a matching ICON hat that says ICAT

#i'm so sorry this is so stupid #don't get me wrong I don't feel shame #I just feel the need to let people know that I also know this is stupid #jamie tartt #give jamie tartt a cat #ask box is always open #the greater Richmond pet acquisition

[guessimatarotgirlienow]

Would Harry ever date a thick girl?

Is SM thick or average not the typical supermodel type?

Yes. I don’t care what the cards say, I’m saying yes. Thick girls are hot.

He’d be an idiot not to.

As for SM:

KING OF CUPS sounds like a full body to me. I’m getting gorgeous lush curves and confidence in them!

Also hot take: what’s the point of models? Anyone can wear clothes? Like their whole job is their looks.

I want an add campaign with Bill Nigh the Science Guy in Gucci not some skinny white girl.

#harry styles #tarot reading

[wheredafandomat]

Kingpin

Bit of a mob boss Loki x female reader

A/N - I just had this thought and thought I HAVE to share it 🤣🤣 contains smut. Mob boss AU

Making your way towards the back of the mansion, you sighted Loki having one of his meetings with some of his associates through the window. Already you could recognise some of them including the reformed Tony Stark and of course his brother Thor as well as Steve Rogers who all worked closely with Loki. When you had left earlier, Loki had assured you that they’d all be gone by the time you got back home and yet here they all were still sitting by the large pool and talking. He looked tense meaning that whatever new business move that was supposed to run smoothly probably hadn’t which explained why they were all still present. Opening the glass door, Lokis eyes met yours before he flashed you a quick wink. Stepping outside, you rid yourself of your kimono, revealing the cutout Gucci swimsuit underneath that left little to the imagination before heading towards the pool.

“If we’re going to make a move, we have to do it now.” Steve insisted.

“We must tread carefully.” Thor interrupted.

“Carefully? Where’s careful ever gotten us?” Stark scoffed before his attention was caught by the sound of a splash in the water, turning, he was met by the sight of you in the pool as you swam.

“Thor is right.” Loki spoke, directing his stern tone at Tony who was practically gawking at you. Turning away, Tony’s eyes met Lokis once more. “If we’re too loud, the others will catch on to what we’re doing.”

“That’s the problem boss.” Steve started, looking at Loki who was now focused on you in the pool. He stopped talking as Loki called your name, clicking his fingers. Seeing Loki gesture for you to come towards him, you swam towards the steps leading out of the pool before beginning to exit it. One by one, each of Lokis friends turned their heads, gaze focused on you as you walked towards them, body glistening in the sun as droplets of water cascaded down you, dripping from your hair and beading on your skin.

“What’s the matter baby?” You asked once you reached Loki, massaging his shoulders oblivious of all the eyes on you.

“Come and sit on my lap.” He prompted.

“But I’m all wet.” You giggled.

“Sit.” He repeated more austerely before you sat across his lap. One of the guys cleared their throats as Loki positioned you more comfortably over him before taking one of your hands in his and bringing it to his lips. You could only assume it was Thor as that was the only one Loki wouldn’t extinguish without a second thought.

“Do you like my nails?” You asked excitedly, presenting them to him, remembering you had gotten them done earlier.

“Yes.” He nodded with a small smirk.

“Look they match.” You added, leaning further backwards as you raised your legs, showing him the result of your very expensive pedicure.

“Very pretty.” He praised. “Now are you going to sit quietly like a good girl whilst we discuss business?”

“Yess.” You nodded.

“Good girl.” He smiled, nudging your nose with his before kissing your neck and resuming his meeting as you sat contently in his hold. You tended to not really pay attention to Loki whenever he spoke business, deciding you’d watch the trees in the distance instead. You were happy observing nature until you felt Loki begin to run his hand up and down your thigh, continuing to speak. When his hand delved higher, meeting your inner thigh as he clutched you tighter against him, you decided to turn towards the crook of his neck as you started kissing the exposed flesh.

“That really is a you problem and just like all you problems I’m expecting that you’ll deal with it.” Loki spoke, rolling his eyes as he looked at Steve.

“But I—” he began to argue, eyes flicking from you to Loki.

“You’ll what? Do as I say whilst I fuck my gorgeous girlfriend in our Alaskan king bed wrapped around our Egyptian cotton sheets?” Loki interrupted leaving no space for arguments as his voice grew sterner, colder.

“Yes boss.” Steve decided, looking down.

“Excellent.” Loki cheered, giving you a quick kiss on the lips before standing up, still holding you “well, that concludes our meeting for today. I expect you can all find your own ways out.” The guys nodded, looking away from Loki as he stepped past them, holding you bridal style as he made his way back inside.

“I can walk myself.” You giggled.

“Yes but I prefer it this way, can’t ruin your pedicure darling.” He grinned causing you to smile wider. “We’ll test if they did a good job.” He added, looking at your feet.

“How are you going to do that?”

“We’ll see how smooth they feel against my shoulders.” He teased, hoisting you higher as you began to slip, laughing at his words.

When you both reached the bedroom after Loki insisted on carrying you the whole way, he dropped you on the bed causing you to bounce slightly against the mattress. You smiled up at Loki who then settled above you, capturing your lips in a passionate kiss. Your hands ran over his back as you gripped the hem of his shirt, pulling it up. Leaning slightly up, Loki raised his arms, helping you to pull it off before his lips latched back onto yours. Hands now free to roam his bare back, you grinned against his lips as he groaned into the kiss, scratching his back lightly.

“Get me out of this.” You smiled, breaking the kiss as you gestured to your swimsuit. Eyes darkening, Loki began lowering the straps, pulling it down your body as you shimmied out of it. Positioning himself lower, between your legs, Loki leant down, kissing your hipbone as he pulled the material lower. “Enjoying the view?” You called, watching Loki as his gaze lingered between the legs you had purposely widened once he had rid you of the swimsuit.

“Don’t I always.” He snorted, settling back above you, kissing you again as one of his hands found your clit. You moaned into the kiss feeling him circling it with two of his fingers.

“Ohh fuckk.” You breathed, head falling deeper into the pillow beneath you as Loki began entering you with his fingers.

“You like that beautiful?” He asked, kissing your forehead as you started slowly bucking your hips up. Feeling Lokis growing erection against your leg only strengthened the need to feel his cock inside of you. Reaching down, you ran your hand over his clothed length causing Loki to sigh contently.

“Off.” You pouted, opening your eyes.

“Very well.” He grinned darkly, pausing his administrations as he undid the button of his trousers before pulling them down, leaving them at his ankles. “Enough?” He asked, raising his eyebrows.

“Noo.” You answered, fingers running under the hem of his Calvin Kleins.

“Want to take them off for me?”

Nodding, you hooked your fingers further underneath as you pulled them down, Loki helping you.

“Better?”

“Yess.”

Pulling Loki back down, you pressed your lips to his as his now bare hard cock nudged your leg. One by one, Loki wrapped your legs around his waist, his length gliding against your core.

“I almost forgot.” He interrupted, breaking from your grip causing your legs to fall limp against the bed. “You were supposed to show me where all my hard earned money went today.” He spoke, lifting one of your legs and kissing your ankle before resting the leg against his shoulder leaving you open and exposed.

“They m—” you began, reaching forwards to grip his cock.

“Match, yes.” He finished, smiling down at you.

“Do you like them?” You asked, wriggling your fingers as you settled back down, one leg still on his shoulder. You had asked him earlier but you loved showing them off to him.

“I love them.” He uttered, stroking his length before guiding it towards your entrance. “Fuck.” He exhaled, entering you slowly. Tapping your other leg, Loki prompted you to lift that one too. Doing so, you felt your walls stretching as he stayed still, throbbing inside of you. Pulling out, Loki left no time before he entered you again causing you to gasp. You were full to the hilt. Trying to gain some sort of traction, you bent one of your knees, your foot resting flat against Lokis chest. The pedicure wasn’t for nothing.

“Please move.” You near begged when he remained still. Smiling wickedly, Loki began thrusting in and out of you as you moaned loudly. The sound of his skin hitting yours as well as the headboard banging into the wall replaced your sounds as he continued slamming into you. Despite vaguely hearing the door knock, you continued to scream Lokis name thinking he’d ignore it.

“Come in.” Loki shouted above you causing your eyes to widen as you tried to cover your bare breasts with your arms. “I’m extremely busy, what do you want?” Loki questioned the person that entered as he continued pounding you. If Loki hadn’t angled his hips slightly differently allowing him to hit that perfect spot each time, you would have quickly pushed him away and hid under the covers but the sensation was too good, you fell victim to it. All you could do was lay and pant as your eyes rolled back.

“It’s an emergency Sir.” Jarvis answered, looking away from the explicit scene in front of him.

“And can’t you d-deal with it?” Loki questioned, gritting his teeth as he fucked you.

“It requires you I’m afraid.”

“Fuck sake.” Loki cursed.

“Urgently.” Jarvis quickly added.

Huffing angrily, Loki pulled out of you, lowering your legs causing you to snap back into reality before you scrambled for the duvet.

“Duty calls my love.” Loki sighed, picking his trousers up before putting them on, sighing again at his erection. “Love the pedicure though darling.” He winked, grabbing his shirt before he left.

Random I know 🤣

Tags:

@lokisninerealms

@lokisgoodgirl

@mochie85

@lokiprompts

@mischief2sarawr

@lulubelle814

#loki x reader #loki x female reader #tom hiddelston loki #loki fanfic #loki (marvel) #oc fiction #loki fanfiction #loki smut #loki x you smut #loki x f!reader #loki x y/n smut #loki x y/n #loki au #mob au #mcu au #mcu smut #loki laufeyson smut #avengers au

[ssasukewasright]

Jujutsu kaisen fashion headcanons

Nanami:

only wears tailored pieces

is very subtle, like you know he's wearing designer but is not loud

a sucker for good fabric

Watches

always been a suit king TM

haibara once gift him a handkerchief, he still has it

Tom Ford

Gojo:

terrible fashion sense. IM KIDDING but he sometimes shows up in the most flashy things just to fuck around

He loves shopping

a lot of sunglasses

he has a lot of clothes still with the tag on

expensive jewelry, a sucker for thin white gold chains and rings

also back when he was student he got matching rings with Suguru

a lot of dark colors; black, navy blue, dark greys

would own a few vintage pieces

Shoko:

had a avril lavigne phase in high school, Gojo still make fun of her.

owns a few suits, all of them tailored

YSL

it's just like nanami in the way that her fashion sense it's not flashy but you can tell

a lot of silk

she's very unique with her style but i also can see her being influenced by utahime.

she stole one of Suguru's leather jackets back in jujutsu tech and she still has it, never wears it but it's in the back of her closet

expensive lingerie

Geto:

easily best dressed

has a very unique sense of style

had the whole james dean vibe when he was younger

i can see him being a rick owens boy

layering king

the lion gucci ring

everything is black, maybe only a few white pieces

would 100% wear matching outfits with nanako and mimiko

boots, the high heel rick owen boots? yes

everything is baggy, pants, shirts, big coats etc

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #satoru gojo #gojo satoru #shoko ieiri #ieiri shoko #nanami kento #kento nanami #geto suguru #suguru geto #jujutsu kaisen headcanons #jjk headcanons

[widthofmytongue]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers (ू•‧̫•ू⑅)♡

I have answered this several times before I think, but in order to keep up and spread the positivity, let's gooo.

1) Reconfiguring my outward aesthetic appearance to better reflect my true self. What I will say about having pink hair and wearing a keffiyeh and a jacket covered in queer and Jewish and leftist badges and carrying a trade union bag is that young people of colour with non-British accents smile at me and are comfortable approaching me to ask directions and stuff. Having spent the 2010s presenting as a white male hipster nerd, no one really approached me, and I did receive occasional comments that I looked like a middle class twat (usually from people who were more middle class and definitely more twat-ish than me). Returning to my roots as a visibly queer, Jewish, commie punk puts the right people at ease.

2) Working from bed. This is obviously not about working, especially as I don't think the work I'm actually paid to do is super meaningful, but the freedom to WFH (work from home!) three days a week is amazing. Awhile ago I watched the LOTR trilogy while running reports and updating spreadsheets.

3) Making delicious food for myself and eating it in massive quantities. During lockdown I got into the habit of living almost exclusively on ready meals, and aside from some (amazing restaurant-quality) omelettes, I only recently got back to cooking for myself. Also turns out that a lot of the food I think of as staples are very Jewish? I guess I kinda knew that, but like goyische potato salad sounds boring af y'all are missing out.

4) Deviant sex. I'm not sure I want to elaborate on this too much, but I am very glad of my engagement in d/s and how strongly I lean into T4T stuff.

5) Gotta say my animal buddies again. A couple of my avian neighbours were recently moulting, and when they grew their feathers back, they looked like dinosaurs armoured with spines. So cool. Also my feline housemates train me to do things in the dumbest but sweetest forms of symbiosis.

I'm gonna keep going.

6) Stimulating conversation on deep and complex topics. I've had lots of interesting and invigorating interactions lately with people on tumblr and in person about Palestine, Jewish values and identity, community organisation, gender, King Crimson, John Carpenter, Star Trek, London, the intersection of poststructuralism and historiography, and of course postcolonialism.

7) Union work. As mentioned above, I do not think the work I get paid for is especially meaningful. What I do think is meaningful is being a hard leftist (and yes, also queer, Jewish, immigrant, neurodiverse, erstwhile lumpenproletarian) voice in my professional environment. I think it's both important for me to represent union members, uniting their concerns with systemic initiatives, and also to provide a more outright Marxist approach on my union branch's Executive Committee.

@derdra @gucci-shinigami @comm1e-dyke @thottacelli @jewishdumbass @verticalceiling @deanorino161 @thewindstealsyourvoice @lizardbytheriver @xocomilxolo @oh-youprettythings @anyone else reading this who fancies taking part.

#original #ask

[starburstsobsessions]

KING MIDAS

For the FREE day I took it a little different and headed down to Greek mythology which isn’t always considered a “fairy tale”, but I pass around the story just like one to my friends and family as if it were a common household story. I talk about Greek myths with my young sister a lot more than I do classic fairy tales. (Theseus and the Minotaur + icarus are definitely favs)

I LOVE the story of king midas in all its forms. Finding out just where you place and the dawning realization of pure regret for greed that can only be repaired by begging the GODS themselves. It’s so fucking good.

I like the versions where he turns his very own daughter to gold in an effort to comfort her of his own greed and thus losing all that he cares about instead of merely his feasts and luxuries. Like yes get it boyyyyy suffer Gucci!!!!

Kai did similar, huh? Submitted to an almighty power only to live his life in regret because of what he thought he needed? It’s cool. I love the story of king midas. I just DO

tysm @lacunasbalustrade for hosting this event I love it SO MUCH and I wish I’d worked more on it as it came along, but I’ve done my best!!!!! I might continue to put out a few things late so 🤭

#cfvlegendrank #cfv #cardfight!! vanguard #greek mythology #kai toshiki #starbursts art

[silversdragonemporium]

Hello! Welcome to this edition of "Silver just rants and rants and rants about the worldbuilding of a fanfic". Why not start things off with my most elaborate fanfic?

This is an outfit reference I made for Dimitri to use during the Ethereal Moon Ball in Wolf Lord.

Aka: "the outfit he was supposed to wear when he was going to propose to Byleth but then he didn't do it at the last minute", whoops.

I wanted to imagine what kind of clothes Dimitri would use when not at Murder School, so something that might fit in at court, but is taken up to 11 for a formal event. Since he's A Literal Prince, he gets to use ermine fur (a symbol of royalty). His cape is "princely", a hint of his future High Lord and Great Lord outfits with his big, swishing King Cape. Also he gets to have boots with the fur (the fur!!!!)

Also yes, he has the Crest of Blaiddyd embroidered in silver string out on his belt and surcoat, as well as part of his clothes' clasps. Fun fact: embroidering precious metal string is called goldwork and requires highly skilled and specialized manual labor. That belt and trim are a splurge. Kinda like him wearing a gucci belt. But, compared to Claude (who is wearing cloth-of-gold which is "I'm so fucking rich my threads ARE GOLD") and Edelgard (who has a SOLID GOLD EAGLE HAIR STICK that is btw super fucking heavy but she's dedicated to the look, with HAND MADE BLACK LACE DETAILS AND GLOVES with some pearls tastefully sewn on the wrists....... she's giving that "romantique vampire qween of several millennia of accumulated wealth" levels of loaded), you can tell that he's not THAT rich. Note to self: maybe actually draw the others' outfits because I spent months looking at GOT costuming videos and details and have a bunch of ideas that would look cool but then promptly never described. Or maybe make a post later. IDK might have to think it over.

Anyway back to Dimitri: as royalty, he wears an ermine fur collar and trimmings. This is also another splurge that is cost-effective, since his territory IS known for luxury furriers. They don't mention the pelt/furrier industry in 3 Hopes, I think? But it makes sense for Faerghus to make bank with furs and good-quality leather. He might be a prince of the least wealthy country on the continent, but he is still royalty.

Dimitri himself didn't choose this outfit, but his Good Uncle Rufus (unironic, Rufus is actually a good dude in this fic) helped him pick out the outfit to give that "wow" factor that would match well with Byleth's outfit so that when they came back from the proposal the whole club would be lookin' at them the future King and Queen of Faerghus would look nice together...

Anyway, POV you're Rufus and you just spend weeks on end coaching your nephew to make a good impression on the only woman he has shown any kind of romantic interest so when he proposes she won't just go like "👁.👁 what" and then you get a letter saying "hey uncle lmao guess what i forgot to propose 🤪"

I'll upload Byleth's outfit with another batch of brainworms tomorrow, I wrote this entire post in a mad dash of inspiration (which is tbh the best way to Tumblr amirite) so it might have typos and weird jumping around especially at the end with all the flo-rida song lyrics, apologies but I am a mere vessel of the dimileth gods thatse it i cannae help it..........

#silverfic:wl #silvercoldbrew

[bteezxyewriter12]

Reaper

Pairing- Tae x Named Reader

Word count- 5.4k

Includes- Angst, mentions of suicide, amnesia, mentions of seizure, sex, oral, face fucking, face riding, riding sex, pussy eating, love making, missionary sex

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Tae POV

I'm sitting in my office, looking over the list of people who are scheduled to die today

This of course doesn't include accidents where the person isn't scheduled to die yet

There's a lot dying today

I'm going to be so busy

I sigh, getting up and getting the scythe

This thing is stupid

I haven't had to use it for centuries

But I have to carry it so people know it's me

I gave up wearing the robe

I hated it to begin with and now I opt for suits, mostly Gucci

But when I wear suits, the dying soul think I'm just another person coming to see them

Hence the scythe

I look at myself in the mirror

I hate this job

I didn't used to

Not when I was first asked to take over for the last reaper

He was the first death reaper but he got tired of doing it

He wanted a chance to be human

He was searching for a replacement for a long time

Then he came upon me six centuries ago

I was a soldier in what is now Daegu, South Korea and I was fighting in a war for my king

I was stabbed with a sword and as I laid dying, death came to me and asked me if I would take over his job

I was young, twenty four years old and I didn't want to die

And the concept of living forever was appealing to me

So I said yes, he trained me and I became death

I loved this job so much, up until about a year ago

I push the thoughts away

I can't dwell on it, I have a job to do

I turn and leave the office

Just as I close the door, she suddenly appears in front of me.

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J POV

Where am I?

I look around and it seems like I'm in a office

How?

I was walking to work one second and now I'm here

I turn around and I have to stop a gasp

In front of me is the most beautiful man I have ever seen

And he's looking at me

He looks like he was sculpted by an artist

Tall, Curly black hair, sharp jaw, an cute beauty mark on his nose

And his eyes are such a beautiful dark brown

I feel myself falling into them

Suddenly he shouts, "I thought I told you to get lost! You can't keep dying to meet me. We are over, you hear?"

I blink confused

I don't know who he is

Why is he yelling at me?

"Uh who are you?", I ask

He stares at me in anger

"Cut the shit Joanne. I told you we can't be together. I told you I don't want you anymore!"

Ok, apparently he knows me?

And we dated I guess?

"I'm sorry but I don't know you. What's your name?"

"Joanne what the fuck kind of game are you playing? I told you last time you tried to die that we're over!"

Last time?

That means...

"Oh I see.", I say, "We must have known each other before my amnesia"

His eyes widen, "What the fuck are you talking about? Last time you said you'll keep doing whatever you had to to see me again."

I did?

I don't remember

"Oh uh well you see when I woke up in the hospital a year ago, I didn't know who I was or where I was. I didn't even know what happened. I couldn't remember anything. I was told by a woman who said she's my mom that my name is Joanne and I tried to commit suicide"

I remember the fear of waking up and not knowing anything

Not remembering people or any of my whole life

Twenty three years gone

"You tried to commit suicide?", he gasps

"Uh apparently. I don't remember. My mom said that I took a whole bunch of pills then left my apartment. I guess I was getting woozy or sleepy and I walked into a busy street. A car hit me and I was taken to the hospital. They saved me but I had a lot of damage to my head and it caused amnesia. The doctors don't know if it'll ever be fixed", I explain

His face pales as I tell him this and he looks shocked

"You don't remember anything?", he asks

I shake my head

"No. Just bits and pieces that come back to me when I look at a picture or smell something or hear a story. But I've never seen a picture of you, so I can't even recognize you from that."

"I'm sorry, I didn't know", he chokes out

"It's ok. It's not your fault. I've just been trying to get back to normal for the last year. But I don't know how I got here"

"You're here because you're dead. Or about to die"

I blink

Seriously?

How am I dead?

And why am I not more panicked?

"How? I was just walking to work and now I'm here."

"Something must of happened for you to die", he answers

I think about what could cause me to die

"Maybe I got a seizure and fell somewhere"

"Seizure?", he gasps

I nod, "I developed seizures after I woke up a year ago. I had a lot of them when I first woke up. But they found the right medication for me after a few months and I haven't had one in seven months"

"Then why would you think you had one?", he questions

"Well because the medication helps to prevent them but doesn't stop them completely. I can still get one every once in awhile"

He's silent, with a look of distress on his face

"Well uh, you're not scheduled to die today, so I'm going to send you back"

I'm not scheduled?

There's a schedule?

But I guess this is good, I get another chance of life

But there's something I want to say to him

"Ok. Thank you. But there's something I want to say first"

He nod, "Go ahead"

"Look apparently we know each other and we were together. And I just want to say I'm sorry if I hurt you or did anything bad to you"

He blinks, "What?"

"Well you seem very hostile towards me and I'm guessing that's because I did something to you. And I just want to say I'm sorry. I don't remember how I used to be but I'm not that person anymore."

He's silent

"I'm sorry if I hurt you.", I finish

"Uh ok. Thanks.", he says questioningly

Well there's nothing else I can say

"I'm going to send you back now", he tells me

"Ok. Thank you"

He nods and I see the office fade away

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Tae POV

What the hell is going on?

She has amnesia?

That's why she's stayed away from me for a year?

She doesn't remember me

I need to sit down

I almost passed out when I saw her again

I miss her so much

She's the reason I hate this job

I love her so much

And the miraculous thing is she loves me

I'm death and she fell in love with me

Even after I told her who I was, she didn't care, she just wanted me

And we had an amazing relationship for three years

But I knew it couldn't last

She's human and I'm not

She'd age but that doesn't bother me

What bothers me is that I'd have to take her when her time came and she'd be away from me forever

And she could never have a normal life with me

Never have children, never have a family.

I didn't want to take that away from her

She didn't care but I couldn't do that to her

So I ended things

And I had to do it by making her believe I didn't want her, that I didn't love her

The things I said to her hurt her so much

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"I don't want you", I snapped

"What? You're not serious Tae?", she said, panic in her voice

"I said I don't want to be with you. I don't love you"

"Tae what's going on? Why are you saying this?", she asks, tears falling down her face

It hurt so much to tell her these things

"Because I fell out of love. I'm death and I'm going to live forever. Why would I want you when I could have any girls I want?"

"But I love you Tae", she whispered

"Well that's too fucking bad"

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She tried to keep me from ending things but I had to

Seeing her cry like she did that day killed me

It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life

And she just apologized for hurting me now

That was a punch to my heart

She never hurt me, I'm the one who hurt her

But she apologized anyway

When she just told me the last time she saw me was because she tried to committed suicide, I almost lost it right then

I hurt her that badly that she'd rather be dead

She was hit by a car and I stood there screaming at her to never come back, telling her that I didn't love her at all when she came here last year

And still after all that she told me she still loved me and was never going to stop trying to get me back

After a year of not hearing from her, I thought she moved on

But she didn't

She doesn't remember anything

Not her entire life

I can't imagine how scary that is, to wake up and not know anything or anyone

And for her to be here again something had to happen to her

Something bad

And I need to know what it is

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Walking into her hospital room, I find her in the bed, unconscious

I have to hold in a scream

She has a huge bandage on the right side of her head and a bruise under her right eye

The right side of her face has scrapes all over them

It's late at night so no one is here

Visiting hours are over

I sit next to her bed and hold her hand

"I'm sorry baby", I tell her, the tears finally coming

This is all my fault

Everything that happened to her from the second I ended things is all my fault

"I love you so much", I cry

"Excuse me. You can't be here"

I look up and a nurse is standing in the doorway

"What....what happened to her?", I get out

"Sir-"

"Just tell me. Tell me and I'll leave. I couldn't come before and I had to see her. Please", I plead

Her face softens, "Let me get her chart"

She walks to the door and takes a folder out

"She had a seizure and fell, hitting her head on the curb as she was crossing the street. It caused a subdural hematoma and needed to be drained. Unfortunately the blow was substantial and she's in a coma"

A coma?

No she can't be

She has to wake up

"Is she going to wake up?", I ask panicking

"Unfortunately, we don't know. It's up to her whether she wakes up or not. There's nothing we can do for that"

I nod, crying more hysterically

"I'll give you a few more minutes", she says, "But then I'll have to ask you to leave"

I nod again, "Ok"

The nurse leaves me with her

I can't believe this is happening

She can't stay in a coma

She has to wake up

I need her

I can't stay away from her anymore

This past year was torture

I was so stupid thinking I could stay away from her

She's my everything, my one

I never found the girl I was supposed to be with when I was alive

But I found her as death

She accepted me as I am and I was stupid to let her go

I won't be stupid again

I stand up and kiss her lips softly

"I'm going to fix it baby. I promise"

I walk to her door

Time to talk to God

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J POV

I hear noises as I come to

Machines and voices

There's a pounding in my head that's very intense

Where am I?

I open my eyes, slowly, the light in the room making my eyes tear

I groan from the pain

"Jo? Oh my god Joanne!", I hear

I turn my head slowly to the voice, blinking the tears away so I can see whose talking to me

A face comes into focus

"Mom?", I ask

"Yes Jo. Oh my god, you're awake!", she says through tears

"James go get a doctor"

I hear footsteps leaving the room

Now that my eyes are fully open, I look to see my sisters and mom looking at me

They're all crying

I guess my brother went to get the doctor

But I don't see Tae

Why isn't he here

"Mom, where's Tae?"

She gets a look on her face that I can't read

Why?

Where's Tae?

Is he hurt?

He can't be, he's death

"Jo. Um Tae isn't here"

I don't understand

Why?

"Why not?"

"Jo what do you remember?"

I think back and I remember being with Tae

We were arguing

Then the emotions slam into me

He...he left me

Pain hits my chest fast and hard

Not physical pain

Emotional pain

It's taking over and I feel like I'm dying

He told me he doesn't love me

He told me he hates me

He never wants to see me again

"Mmmm...mom", I choke out, starting to cry

I remember everything

The suicide attempt, talking to Tae when I died from that, the amnesia when I woke up, the seizures

And talking to Tae again

When I didn't remember who he was

How he yelled at me as soon as I got to him, telling me not to come back again

He still doesn't love me

It's ripping my heart out

"Jo"

"I remember mom. I remember everything", I cry

"Oh Jo. I'm sorry", she says hugging me to her

I can't breathe

It hurts so much

"It hurts", I wail

"I know Jo. I'm sorry. You never had a chance to deal with it when you had amnesia. I'm sorry."

I don't want to feel this

I can't

I wish I was dead

Tae should of never sent me back here

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The door to my bedroom opens

"Jo, are you hungry?"

"No mom", I answer, laying in bed

"Joanne you have to eat. And you have to leave your bed. You've been locked in this room for two weeks"

I can't deal with this now

"Mom, just go away"

"Jo"

"Go away. I'm not hungry, I don't want to go outside. Just leave me alone!", I shout

She sighs but I hear the door close

I hate my life

Why couldn't Tae just let me die?

The pain of not having him is killing me

I went from one bed in the hospital to another in my room

I refused to go to my mom's house so she or my siblings have been spending nights here, watching me

I just have no motivation to do anything

I don't have to go to work

They gave me time off to recover

I don't do much anymore

Just stay in bed, sleeping or watching some dumb videos on my tablet

I get up to use the bathroom, brush my teeth and shower

Showering is exhausting but I'm not going to be gross

I eat sometimes and whoever is with me gives me my seizure medication and whatever else it is the hospital prescribed

I just don't want to get up

And I don't have to

----------------------------------------------------

A little while later my bedroom door opens

I get annoyed

"I said leave me alone mom!", I yell

What doesn't she get?

"Baby?"

I know that voice

I sit up, staring at Tae

Am I dreaming?

Oh god are those pills making me hallucinate?

Or is this a side effect of the damage the fall caused to my head?

I really don't need that right now

Seizures are enough

"Jo?", he asks, coming in and closing the door

"Am I fucking hallucinating now? Great just great", I mutter to myself

"No baby you're not hallucinating. I'm here.", he says coming closer and sitting on the bed close to me

"Uh ok. Why are you here? You said you never wanted to see me again", I say, my heart breaking again

"You remember me?", he asks, sounding hopeful

"Yeah Tae. I remember everything. I wish I didn't"

"Don't say that Jo"

"Why not? It's true"

He doesn't say anything and I just want him to get to the point

"Why are you here Tae?"

"I came for you", he says

"So I'm dying today? I'm on the schedule?", I say flatly

At least I won't have to feel this pain anymore

And honestly I don't care

He looks me in my eyes

"No baby. I came to be with you", he says softly

What is this now?

More torture

"What?", I ask confused

"After I saw you and you told me what happened to you, I went to see you in the hospital. I hated that you were hurt and everything that happened to you was my fault. Because I told you I don't want you"

"Ok... It's not your fault though", I say

I know my actions are mine and not his fault

He may have been the reason why I did things, but I still chose to do them

He didn't make me

"Yes it-", he starts

"What does that have to do with you being here?", I ask cutting him off, "You don't love me why do you care what happens to me?"

He shakes his head, "I do love you Joanne. So much"

What?

He told me over and over he didn't

What game is he playing?

"What are you talking about Tae? You're not making any sense"

"Jo, I love you. More than anything. You're my everything baby. But I knew that you'd never have a normal life with me. Never have kids or a family or do anything that a normal girl can do. And one day, I'd have to take you when it's your time and after you pass over, we'll never see each other again."

I'm getting angry

I told him over and over that I don't care about kids or a family, if I can't be with him

I knew what I was getting into being with death

I'm not stupid

"I told you I don't care about a normal life! Being with you is not your decision to make for me! I know what being with you means and I don't care!", I shout

He nods, "I know. I shouldn't have made the decision for you. Everything I said to you I didn't mean. At all. I love you so much. I do want you. You're the only girl I ever wanted. I hated being without you. It was torture"

I know what he means

Being without him is tearing a hole in my chest

But nothing has changed

I'm still human and he's still death

Everything he said is all still true

Why is he changing his mind now?

"Why are you telling me this now Tae? Nothing has changed"

"Yes it did baby"

I raise an eyebrow, waiting for him to continue

"After I saw you in the hospital, I couldn't just leave you like that. So I went and talked to God"

I choke on air, "What? You talked to who?"

"God"

"Are you serious? He's real?"

Tae nods, "So is the devil"

Oh my g....shit

My world just flipped

This is insane

He's real

I look up and silently apologize for all the shit I did when I was a teenager

I thought I was such a badass back then

Instead I was just a massive idiot

Then I ask Tae, "Why did you go talk to him?"

"To bargain with him"

I'm in complete shock

"I...uh..I...I", I stutter

"I asked him to help you. To fix everything. To bring you out of the coma and stop the seizures. He asked why I would ask for that and I told him"

"You...told...him?"

He told God he loves me?

He nods, "I told him I love you. I told him about us. And apparently he's not as mean as people say he is. When I was done, he said he'd help me without me having to give him anything"

I'm impressed that he got God to help him

"So God helped you and made me better?", I ask

He nods, "But that's not all."

It's not?

What else did God do for him?

"He made me human."

"What?", I exclaim

"I'm human now. Remember how I told you I became death?", he asks

I nod

I remember how he said accepted death's offer to take over for him

"He said that if I could find someone to take my place, he'd let me be human again. And be with you"

"Be with me?"

I don't think I can be anymore shocked than I am now

Tae nods, "You are destined to live a really long life. And he said that since it's been a long time since I've been human, he can designate how long I can live for. So he did it to match your life span"

My mouth drops

I can be with Tae for my entire life?

I can't believe it

"I found someone who was in accident. Someone who was like me. Young. I offered to them what death offered to me. And she took it. I spent these last two weeks training her."

Her?

Death's a girl now?

And he had to train her?

Huh I guess it is like a normal job if training is needed

"Today I woke up in an apartment. My apartment. And my heart is beating again. I didn't want to come to you immediately. I needed to figure out what to tell you. And to be honest I was starving"

That makes me smile

I know he didn't need to eat when he was death

"When I knew what I wanted to say, I came here. You're mom was upset when she saw me but I told her I was stupid and here to get you back. She made me promise not to hurt you again and I did"

That sounds like my mom

Tae reaches to me and takes my hand, "I love you. And I'll make everything up to you. I just want you back Jo. Please take me back"

"Yes", I answer without hesitation

He looks at me and repeats hopefully, "Yes?"

I nod, "Of course Tae. I love you. You're the only one I want."

He smiles his gorgeous smile and comes closer to me

His lips touch mine in a kiss and fireworks explode in my vision.

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Tae POV

When I kiss her, my entire body flood with heat

Just like every time I kissed her

When she wraps her arm around my neck and slips her fingers in my hair, I shiver from her touch

I missed her so much

I was so scared she'd tell me to fuck off

But she still loves me

And now we have our entire lives to be together

I've never been more happy in my life.

"I love you Tae", she whispers

"I love you Jo", I answer

Then she pulls me back to her, kissing me again

I pull her close to me and I'm so relieved when she presses her body to mine

Feeling her body against me feels so fucking good

I missed her so much

Her arms go around my neck and I'm so happy to feel that

"Baby", I whisper

I want her so much

I haven't been with her in a year but I don't know if now is the right time or if it's too soon

"Yes Tae", she answers, looking at me

She runs her fingers in my hair, feeling so good and I love it

"I want you too Tae."

That's all I need to hear

I pull her onto my lap and she comes willingly

She crashes her lips to mine, her tongue in my mouth

Yes fuck

I kiss her back, pulling her shirt up

She lifts her arms up so I can take it off

Her hands move to my shirt, unbuttoning the buttons quickly

When she gets them all undone, she pushes the shirt off me, her hands immediately running all over my back

Her hands are so small and warm as she touches me

She moves off me, standing and undoing my pants

I lift myself up, pulling my pants and boxers down

When she gets everything off, I pull her up, my lips on her stomach, trailing kisses all over

I feel her hand run in my hair, making shivers run up my spine

I love anyway that she touches me

Hooking my fingers in her shorts and panties, I slowly pull them down, kissing lower

I hear her breath hitch when I get to her pussy

I lick her, moaning and loving the way she feels against my tongue

Pulling away, she steps out of her clothes

I grab her, making her squeal

Laying down, I pull her on top of me until she's over my face

Holding her hips, I pull her to my mouth, burying my tongue in her pussy

She's already so wet and I missed how she tastes

So fucking good

"Tae", she moans

Fuck me, I missed hearing her moan my name

And I really miss hearing her scream my name

Which I'm so going to make her do

"Feels good baby?"

"Yes Tae fuck. I missed your tongue"

I laugh

"I know baby. My tongue makes you scream."

I know I what she likes and where she likes it

I love her so much so I learned her body so well

What she likes, what drives her insane, what can make her cum over and over, how much teasing she can take

I was never like this with any other girl I was with

I've been death for six centuries, I've been with human women before but it was always just sex

I didn't care about the woman or tired to make her feel good

But from the first time I was with her, even before I fell in love with her, it was different with her

She wanted to please me, make me feel good and it made me want to please her

Then I fell in love and all I wanted to do was make her feel good

And I still do

I don't even care if I cum as long as she does

Multiple times

But she won't have that

She makes sure I orgasm too every time

Sometimes more than once

She's just the best in every single way and I will never be stupid to leave her again

I lick her clit and she yells loudly

"Yeah baby. Scream for me", I ask, then suck on her clit

"Fuck TAEHYUNG!", she cries, her hands gripping mine tightly

I keep going, sucking harder and faster

"C'mon baby. Gimme your cum. I want it so bad. I haven't had it in a long time.", I tell her

I attach my mouth to her again, squeezing her hips as she yells in pleasure

She's almost there

I'm so excited to taste her again

I feel her legs start to shake as she orgasms, screaming my name

"TAEHYUNG!"

Her taste floods my mouth and I moan, swallowing greedily

She's so fucking good, I love it

When she finishes, I keep licking her

"Tae"

"More baby. I need more", I beg, "Do you want it?"

"Yes Tae. Yes"

Fuck yes

My tongue flies all over her pussy, swirling, up and down

I can't fucking get enough

"Fuck my face baby. Fuck my mouth. Please", I ask

Her hips start moving against my mouth, grinding against my tongue

I fucking love this

She gets so into it and my tongue can get everywhere

I slide my tongue inside her, then lick back out, then back in

"TAE fuck yes baby. Don't stop."

I know she loves this

It can make her cum in seconds

And honestly I love being inside her in anyway

My cock, my fingers, my tongue

I just love being inside

Squeezing her ass hard, I moan, "Baby cum on my tongue"

I slide my tongue in her as far as I can

"TAEHYUNG!", she screams, orgasming again

Her pussy tightens and throbs on my tongue that's in her and I taste her cum

It coats my tongue and she tastes so fucking good

"Yes baby, yes give me more", I whine, still tongue fucking her

"Tae, oh fuck Tae"

Her breathing gets harder

She's close again

I love giving her orgasm after orgasm

She gets so much pleasure, I love watching her

"FUCK!"

Her cum floods my mouth again and I greedily drink it all up

When she finishes, I lift her up and slam her on my cock

"Fuck TAE!", she cries

"Fuck baby. I missed you around my cock", I gasp

"I missed you too", she moans, starting to move up

"No baby. Stay on my cock. I want to feel you for a little longer

"Oooo...oooo....ok", she stammers

She's so horny, pulsating hard and fast around me, getting more wet

I love the feeling of her soaking my cock

I need to fuck her

Putting my hands on her hips, I move her up then slam her down, thrusting up as well

I go in so deep, making her scream in pleasure

"There TAE!"

"Ok baby girl. You don't have to do anything ok? Just let me make you feel good"

She bites her lip nodding

Gripping her hips I move her fast, bouncing her on my cock and slamming her spot at the same time

"Yes Tae, fuck. Oh god", she cries, her hands gripping my arms so hard

"Good baby?"

"So good Tae"

I smile at her, happy I'm making her feel good

"Fuck baby you look so pretty on my cock. You're pretty pussy taking me so well"

"Mmmm", she whimpers

Seeing her leaving my length soaked in her juice is so hot

"Gimme your pretty cum baby. Soak my cock", I plead

"Tae", she moans, her body arching as she cums again

"Ffff...fuck", I stammer, feeling the insane pleasure she's giving me

When she finishes, I rolls us over, getting on top of her

Her legs wrap around me and I continue to move, slowing it down

"I love you so much", I tell her, running my fingers in her hair, looking in her beautiful brown eyes

"I love you more than anything", she whispers back, "My Tae"

I nod, "Always baby. I'm always yours, I swear. I'm not leaving you again"

"Don't Tae. Please don't. I need you"

I nod

I know

She does need me just like I need her

And I was so dumb to keep us apart.

But that will never happen again

"I need you too baby. Always"

She lifts her head to kiss me and I meet her lips, pressing mine against hers

Her hips move, meeting my thrusts, making me go so much deeper

"Mmmmm", she groans against my lips

She feels so good, spasming around my cock so much

I know as soon as she cums, I am

I won't be able to hold it back

I kiss her desperately, tongue against hers as we move together

She clings to me, holding onto my back hard, my hand squeezing her thigh tightly

Hitting her spot, she explodes, spasming around my cock, shaking under me as she moans and keeps kissing me

Her orgasm triggers mine and I moan in her mouth as I spill inside her, pleasure running all over me

Oh my fucking God, it's so good

So incredible

After, I lay down next to her, holding her tightly in my arms

"I missed you Tae. So fucking much", she whispers, looking at me

"I miss you too baby. You don't even know. The thought of living without you forever....it was torture"

She shakes her head, "You don't need to anymore Tae. I'm here, you can stay with me forever"

I nod

I will

Nothing will take me away from her

"We're going to have a long happy life together baby.", I promise her

She smiles, "I can't wait Tae"

Neither can I

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20.01.2024 KATATONIA KONSERİ (ZORLU PSM)

2006 yılında kuzenlerimin tavsiyesi ile dinlemeye başladığım “Katatonia” yolculuğum beni grubun peşinden yurtdışındaki birçok şehir dahil olmak üzere çeşitli yerlere sürükledi. Grubun geçirdiği hemen her dönemi ayrı ayrı severim. İlk dönem Doom/Death soundlu “Katatonia” grubun en sevdiğim periyodları arasında olmasına rağmen (Grupla tanışma anımdan sonra sürekli olarak ilk albümlerini takıntılı bir şekilde dinlerdim). Anksiyete ve panik atak rahatsızlıklarını yoğun olarak yaşadığım 2006-2009 arası dönemde kuvvetli bir bağ kurduğum “The Great Cold Distance” albümü, evden çokta fazla uzaklaşmak istemeyen bana, gerçekten müthiş gelmişti. 2009 yılında “Night Is The New Day” albümü ile barlarda gecem gündüzüme girmiş, 2012 “Dead End Kings" ile kendi çıkmaz sokaklarımda kaybolmuş, 2016 “The Fall of Hearts” ile kalbim sanki çalışmayı durdurmuş, 2020 “City Burials” ile bütün şehir üstüme çökmüştü… “Katatonia” bendi. Ben “Katatonia”…

2009 da Barcelona konserlerinde grupla tanışma imkanım oldu. Fred ve Mattias Norrman kardeşleri son gördüğüm konserdi. Peşlerinden, ilerleyen yıllarda çıkardıkları albümlerin turneleri kapsamında Londra ve Viyana konserlerine katıldım (o zamanlar işim dolayısıyla daha fazla seyahat edebiliyordum). Gençliğin verdiği heyecanla konser sonlarında o güvenlikle kavga, bu menajerle gürültü, şu organizatörle patırtı… bir şekilde kendimi “Katatonia” kulislerine groupie gibi atıyordum :)

“Katatonia” benim için her zaman özel bir yerdeydi. Yıllar içerisinde geçirdikleri dönemler sonucu grup, büyümeye hep devam etti. Onlar yaşlandı, ben de onlarla beraber yaşlandım. Geçtiğimiz Ekim ayında yine Viyana’da eşimle birlikte kendilerini izleme fırsatı bulduk. Evet Anders yoktu (ailevi sebepler diyorlar). Evet çok fazla altyapı kullanıyorlardı, mekan yetersizdi (Arena Wien aslında geniş bir açık alanı olan bir yerdir ama orayı açmayıp insanları “Paradise lost”, “Katatonia”, “Harakiri For the Sky”, “Kanonenfieber” gibi kafa grupları olan tek günlük bir festivalde içeriye tıkıştırmışlardı). Ama olsundu, onlar “Katatonia” idi ve onları dinlemek benim için her zaman apayrı bir zevk olacaktı. Buradaki hikayeleri, 2006 Yedikule konserlerini, yine 2006 parkorman ve sonrası yurt dışı, yurt içi diğer konserlerini belki başka bir zaman anlatırım ama artık günümüze gelelim..

Zorlu Center, iyi ses sistemi ve geniş alanı ile öne çıkan bir mekan olmasına rağmen ben hiçbir zaman oraya ısınamadım. He rşey çok temiz, gıcır, belki plastik.. Parlak yer taşlarında ayağın kayarken kendini uzay boşluğunda gibi hissedersin öyle bir yer işte. Avm ışıkları üzerime vururken konser moduna plastik bardakta içtiğim birayla (?) girmeye çalışıyorum. Dışarıdaki amfi bölümünde arkadaşlarla hoş beş ediyoruz, yürüyen merdivenlerden aşağıya iniyoruz, Gucci, Prada alışverişimizi yaptıktan sonra beyefendiler biletlerimizi alıp bizi içeriye buyur ediyorlar falan… Benim gibi bir metal müzik dinleyicisi için aslında saçma sapan bir yer… Neyse şakası bir yana eşim dahil bir çok insan rahat ediyor bu güzel bir şey. Çeşitli mekan alternatifleri her zaman gereklidir. Merch standına şöyle bir baktıktan sonra yer olmayan dolabımda bir tane daha Katatonia tişörtüm olsun mu? Olmasın diyerek içeriye geçiyoruz.

Kalabalık bir seyirci var. “Katatonia”nın Türkiyedeki kitlesi her zaman yoğun oldu. Son yıllarda yaşadıklarımız “Katatonia”nın ve Bağcılar, Esenler, Esenyurt toplamı kadar nüfuslu İskandinav ülkesi gruplarının müziğiyle uyum içerisinde gittiğinden artık daha da kalabalığız (Bazen düşünüyorum o memleketlerde yaşayan genç yaşlı herkes müzisyen olsa gerek diye neyse…). İçerideki barlar bu sefer iyi çalışıyordu, ben bir sıkıntı yaşamadım. Fiyat konusunu geçelim… İçkimizi, biramızı kapıp sahnenin sol tarafında yerimizi aldık. Bereket yanımdaki arkadaşlarım ve önümüzde duran Gandalf abi uzun boylu insanlardı, çok fazla dikkat çekmedim. “Göremiyoruz” (Ben gitsem full hd ye geçecek problem benim..) bıdı bıdıları yaşanmadı.

“Katatonia” sahneye bu turnede Austerity ile yıldırım gibi çıkmayı hedefliyor ama ilk şarkının azizliği seste sürekli yaşanan bir problem olduğu için bazı sıkıntılar oluyor. Albüm kaydını dinlerseniz eğer hiç affetmeden cayır cayır şarkıya girdiklerini duyarsınız. Konserde de bu etki hedeflenmiş ama şarkı akarken adaptasyon anlamında önce bir bocalıyorsunuz sonrasında ha oturdu ha oturacak derken “Katatonia” zaten seyirciyi içine bi noktada çekmiş oluyor. Bu durumu aslında olumlu bulduğumu söyleyebilirim. Günümüz (her şeyin çok profesyonel olarak yaşandığı) müzik dünyasında bu “amatör” hissiyatlar konuya nostaljik havalar katmıyor değil.

Konser, yeni albüm ağırlıklı olarak başlayıp devam ediyor. Aralarda bir önceki albümlerden iyi seçilmiş şarkılar konmuş. Hemen hemen Viyanada dinlediğimiz setlistlin aynısıydı. “Katatonia” artık “Viva Emptiness” döneminden önceki albümlere inmiyor. Bunu da zaten bu turnede son şarkıda “Evidence” ile yapıyorlar. Bu şarkının sona konması çok hoş bir detay. Testi geçtik ve bu bizim için çok iyi evet. “Katatonia” seyirciyle iyi iletişim kurabilen bir grup. Jonas bu işi her zaman iyi kotardı, devam da ediyor. En azından sahnedeyken bir sıkıntı yok. Sahne arkasında ise konforlarına fazla düşkün hale gelmişler, olur böyle şeyler, shit happens!

Sound anlamında “ses her yere eşit dağılmıyor” yorumları aldım. Buna katılıyorum. Akustikle ilgili bir problem var. Belki arka tarafın ayrı bir sahne olması ve aranın açılması bir problem yaratıyordur. “Anathema” ve başka gittiğim konserlerde arka taraf kapalıydı diye hatırlıyorum. Koltukların olduğu yer ve aşağısı (muhtemelen sahne?) kalabalık seyircili konserlerde insanlara tahsis ediliyor. Belki bunun çözülmesi gerekir tam bilemedim. Sonlara doğru hoparlörlerden “cazur cuzur” sesler de geldi (herhalde soğuk kuzey rüzgarlarına dayanamadı sistem…). Anders yokluğunda ikinci bir gitar kullanmak yerine “Katatonia” altyapıya yükleniyor. Umarım geçici bir çözüm olarak kalır. Davulcu 2. Daniel (önceki davulcu Daniel Liljekvist ten sonra ısınamadığım, antipatik görünüşlü nerd.) işini hakkıyla yapıyor, bassçı Niklas’ı herhalde ben çok duyamadım bir yorumum yok. Eski bassçı Matthias da bu da gayet zıpır tiplerdi severim kendilerini (Niklas, Ankara konserinde önceden görüşmemize rağmen adımı bilmediği için sahne arkasında bana “Hey London!” diyerek gülmüştü…). Jonas gerçekten profesyonel iş çıkarıyor (Bu seferki seyirci nutukları iyiydi, Viyana'da hafif saçmalamıştı. Konsere özenle hazırlanmış. Memnunda kalmış gibiydi.). Kısıtlı sesini gerçekten çok iyi kullanmayı bilen ve zamanla geliştiren bir adam. Gitarist Roger ise back vokalleri dışında gayet iyi diyebilirim. Aralardaki bağırışları hakikaten bağırıştı yani ve son derece anlamsız, kötüydü.

“Austerity” ve üzerine “Colossal Shade” bir “Katatonia” konserini güzel açan iki peşisıra şarkı. Sound oturduktan sonra çok keyifli geçti. Son albümleri “Sky Void Of Stars”ı bir önceki “City Burials” tan daha çok sevdim. Şehrin cenazelerinden bir tık çıktım, yıldızlara baktım, kaybettiğim insanlarımı andım, yolumu bulmaya çalıştım vs. (Konser tanıtımında bu tarz güzel bir yazı çalışması yapan arkadaş var, seninle tanışmak istiyorum yiğidim.). Sound ve beste olarak çok daha oturmuş, çok daha “Katatonia” olmuş bir albüm. Lethean her zaman büyük çoşkuyla çalınıyor ve seyirciye iyi geliyor. “Flicker” benim kişisel favorilerim arasında yer almaz ama gayet başarılı çalındı (En azından tuvaletten duyabildiğim kadarıyla). “Dead Letters” artık bir klasik olma yolunda ilerlerken yine yeni albümden “Opaline” dinliyoruz. Burada setlist ve konserin havası biraz bozuluyor. Noluyo ya türkü programı gibi acının akabininde eller havayamı yapıyoruz hissiyatları gelmiyor değil (ama böyle şeyler lazım...). “Forsaker” ve üzerine “Buildings” bize bütün İskandinav (hatta biraz karşıdan post sovyet betonları arasından kurtulup gelen) soğuğunu, depresifliğini, yaşatıyor. Yıkım etkisi burada yaşanmıştır ve evet uzun bir koridor geçilip iki tane yürüyen merdiven çıkıldıktan sonra sigaraya çıkılabilmiştir.

“Decima” ve sürpriz “Racing Heart” zannediyorum biraz soluklandırıyor, duygu durum değişiklikleri aman şarabımı çanağıma koyayım derken “Nephilim” tekrardan üzerimize karanlığı çekiyor. Altyapı kullanımı, Anders yokluğu, zaman zaman çatırdayan ses, sürekli her yerden telefonlarını kaldırıp konseri telefon çekimlerinden izlemeni sağlayan bir yığın “izleyici” faktörü (Eh ben de aralarındayım artık ama azaltmaya çalışacağım. Mümkünse “Telefonsuzlaşmaya” gidelim.) vs. gibi şeyler olsa da, “Katatonia” geçirmek istediği atmosferi bir şekilde yaşatıyor. Bu açıdan gerçekten helal olsun, orada fırsatım olmadı ama buradan tekrardan tebrik ederim kendilerini… “Birds” benim çok sevdiğim buram buram “Katatonia” soundlu, tam bir konser şarkısı. Anders olsa ne öttürürdü be deyip geçiyoruz. “Atrium” sonrası “July”da tahmin edilebileceği gibi bütün seyirci gaz, tek bir ağızdan “I see the bright lights…". Gerçekten harika geçti. Dolayısıyla “Old Heart Falls” ve akabinde “Journey Throught” ile grup sahneden kısa süreliğine ayrıldı.

“Behind the Blood” ile muhteşem geri dönüş ve tabiki artık bir “dark metal” klasiği olmuş “My Twin”… Burada seyircinin reaksiyonu (ve tabiki benim) görmeye değerdi. Başta dediğim gibi son şarkının “Evidence” olması ayrı bir güzel ve hüzünlü. En beton kalpli insanın bile, eğer biraz müzik seviyorsa bu kısımda gözleri dolabilir. Bizi dağıtıp sahneden indikten sonra yine grubun peşinden koştum ama adı üstüne “Zorlu” çok zorlu :) Bu sefer olmamıştı. Ben çılgınlık haklarımı kullanmıştım, artık başkalarının zamanıydı… Jonas, “Thy Business Lounge” da şarabını içsindi… Bunca sene sonunda hakkıdır, afiyet olsundu.

Son tahlilde benim için her zamanki gibi çok iyi geçen bir “Katatonia” konseri oldu. Bir takım “hayalkırıklıkları” tabiki vardı ama zaten “Katatonia” tam da bundan varolan, bunun ne demek olduğunu çok iyi anlatan, hissettiren ve dayanmak için sana güç veren bir gruptu. Hava şartları ve hissiyatlar bir “Katatonia” konseri için en mükemmel durumdaydı, hatıralarda güzel kalacak bir konserdi. Yürüyen merdivenlerden çıkıp, döner kapılardan geçtikten sonra koşa koşa “Dorock Heavy Metal”a kaçtık “Razor” ile nEFES aldık :) Bu ve diğer bütün Metal müzik organizasyonlarında emeği geçen herkese teşekkür ederim. Hakikaten zor, kolay birşey değil. Türlü bedeller ödeniyor, sınavlar veriliyor. Seyirci organizasyon el ele yürüyelim bu yolda (Kalp). Kalın sağlıcakla. Nice konserlerde görüşmek üzere🤘

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