#Yeah idk who's fronting

[winepresswrath]

sudden yearning for time travelling teen jiang fengmian lands at lotus pier fic that winds up being about a perfectly nice kid having a varying series of "oh no. i don't like that. that's a lot" reactions.

#i think in order for this to be satisfying i have to give grace and interiority to teenmian #i'm picturing an older teen like 18ish? maybe even early 20s? #big crush on csr he's already pretty sure isn't going to work out #but at least he'll always have wei-xiong #anyway this is my ploy to give jfm a chance at an ugly crying meltdown #he's trying so hard to be even keeled and like #maybe take this as an evil vision designed to teach him something #but somewhere in between my crush stole my man and then they died #my whole sect burned #my grown ass son who is older than me making the vibe sooooo weird #and my grandson! child of my dead???? daughter?????? #is just like yeah he never talks about you. no never never #and then wwx blows into town and idk somehow they all end up at dinner together and jfm politely calls lqr a punk ass bitch in front of lwj #because what???? context clues suggest lqr has the fucking nerve to not like wei xiong's baby after All That #only for adult son with the weird vibes #to imply only filial piety is keeping him from naming the real #punk ass bitch #anyway this ends with jfm crying because clearly he marries yuanyuan and she HATES HIM and then his own son ALSO HATES HIM #and would rather stupid Lan-er-gongzi #be his dad. #if you like lqr so much why don't you just join the lan sect then????? #and that's how jc learns he didn't get it all from his mama #jc didn't mean it he was stressed! this isn't his dad it's an a-ling sized kid. but it's still stressful

[soubidou]

Me: Aw, Silver is turning out to be a sweet guy to and with Suvi and I hope we get to see more of hi-

Brennan: He's leaving for the front kudos see you next week 🫰🏻

#heartbreak for plot #that being said #the radical difference that is shown between Suvi who gets so many people's support and appreciation as she comes into her power #and the utter loniless of Ame who's gotten her title before she herself had the confidence to feel ready #and at the end of the day Ame goes to bed with the Fox who's just the part of her soul that expresses outloud what she thinks to herself #whereas Suvi gets to go find her lover/boyfriend-to-be/comrade who knows what she's going through to find solace in his arms #so YEAH SUVI #ofc you think about Ame and how her status provides her with a deep loneliness #specific to people who haven't grown up with a secure support system #and yes it's so good that Suvi gets to see Silver leave for the front because her solid pillars of (somewhat) privilege need to be rocked #and yeah the juicy drama that can come out of maybe the Citadel being in danger ? or having to save Silver at the front ? #idk I'm eager for what comes #twtwatwo #the wizard the witch and the wild one #worlds beyond number #wbn #aabria iyengar #suvi the wizard #sky the wizard #erika ishii #ame the witch #ALSO training under the watchful eye of the Great Bear

[good-beanswrites]

My lyrics for Double!! I really loved this song and became like a thousand times more impressed by Deco27 and Natsuki Hanae after working with it for so long 😅 I chickened out of recording this one in the apartment but if anyone wants to cover it... lmk.... 👀 I can definitely put something together to help hear how the rhythms work, because I got it all to line up very nicely! (Lyrics under the cut and my little commentary in the tags)

(I’ve got you, leave it to me!)

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Not a smile in this mess, you're doing your best, you say (wake up)

"Don't need a break" as you proceed to start breaking, both sleeping and waking makes you bleed

And now, reborn anew -- I'll take in on for you

Not your plan? Who gives a damn, I'm here and here is where I'll stay

It's just the two of us, nothing left to run from. You're safe now, your hero's come.

All I did was dream, is that a crime? Is that enough to name me guilty by?

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

Ah, I'm the one that saved you, don't you see? So tell me why the hell you cry to me!

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- oh, sing to me.

Welcome home, it's another day, keeping things at bay, you see no change

Too late, your limits passed. Too late, yourself has cracked (goodnight)

If you persist I'll assist with releasing, keeping your peace is why I exist

And now reborn anew -- I'll take it on for you

(Oh, hello? Mom? It’s been a while. Yeah.. well, I mean, some days are hard but I’m doing alright, don’t worry. How’ve you been? I’ll go home next time I get some time off...)

The reason I'm alive, must be making sure that you survive

"He can't be trusted, he lied," you cried. Made me out as the bad guy. But why?

All I did was dream, did you forget? Go on and forgive me, I'm no threat.

Listen to me confess, honest. Eat your words and I bet, regret

Ah, I just tried to help, tried to be strong. So tell me why the hell it's all gone wrong

Let me hear you revel, grateful, cling to me with "savior," "adore" -- don't sing me this song

Lost my memory

I'm double, it was unavoidable

Living painfully

I'm trying, as hard as possible

Tell me, tell me.

If I wasn't born, maybe this trouble --

Tell me, tell me.

It's all my fault

#milgram #mikoto kayano #lyrics #i feel bad it cut in front of the other milgram songs but it was a lot easier than the others #(not that it was easy by any means but the other ones are giving me even more trouble asdfsdf) #but yeah!!! im so happy with these!!! #i will forever be jealous of the rhyming in the original refrain -- #nante itte/natte nande/datte sugatte/utatte tatte IS SO WONDERFULLY SATISFYING #it makes me crazyyyyyy #i know i dont get half that fun in mine but im still really satisfying with the rhymes/phrasing #wtf is going on in the rest of the song 😭 i came for the incredible refrain and had to deal with all That...... #the 'dont need a break' and 'if you persist' lines gave me so much trouble 😭 he just keeps on going..... #i took a bit of a liberty with the 'sing to me' line because every version of 'thatd be good' sounded so lame 😅 #trying to do some kind of play on sing your sins while its john really wanting to communicate but idk if that worked #an unintended but exciting detail is 'you say' sounding like 'you say wake up' rather than 'you say dont need a break' #since thats right when he wakes john up so to speak #any milgram pals who want to sing -- these are always open to use >:3

[thedreadvampy]

white americans will be like oh british food is so unseasoned and underspiced and then talk as if taco bell is extremely flavourful. this is true I've seen it happen multiple times.

#red said #and yeah i have had American taco bell. it was fine. not exactly heavily seasoned though is it. #a cheeky nandos would fold these people in half like paper. they'd be those people who think medium is a test of will #it's just that when people talk shit about British food they seem not to have noticed #that our stereotypical national eating habits have for the last 50 years involved less jellied eels and more vindaloo #and now there's a lot to critique on that front too #such as the fact that your traditionally White British Dude approaches curry less as a tasty foodstuff and more as a masculinity challenge #so like. famously British Indian takeaways tend to flatten out flavours and focus on heat when catering to British tastes #idk what The Average Brit cooks at home bc it's obviously different family to family. #fryups are a solid reliable. roasts? but i feel like mostly pasta soup and pies? i mostly do curry bc it's cheap to make it taste good.

[harbingersecho]

some short felix stuff. also price is there for a second

#red vs blue #rvb #aiden price #price #felix #*24 #mine #video #i dont think these are as good as the other one but i REALLY like the felix's eye shift thing i did so. im posting it #i dont get to draw price like ever. which is a shame cuz i love that guy. even if he was a manipulative pos ''counsellor'' who ruined live #so was hannibal!! at least price doesnt eat ppl you know. he just lets them be taken over by an ai and abuses his position to test his #''patients''. free my mans! also im putting quotes on all that bc (i think ive said this before) its a genuine fucking miracle if he has a #license. like post-pfl it def got revoked but UNSC's vetting process or the state of the intragalactic psych licensing sucks ass. idk which #it is! or if its a third options where price just didnt have a license/it got revoked way before pfl and there's just a small disclaimer of #''this is not medical advice im not a licensed professional'' hidden in his resume that no one ever read theyre just. yeah hes got a phd! #idk enough abt halo lore to know which one it is but considering the spartan program i wouldnt be surprised if their ethics board is just a #money-laundering front or smth. if they even HAVE one. ok im rambling i'll stop

[herbertpocketsfidgettoys]

Ok I just now realized I never posted this on here oops, it’s from ehhhuhhhhhgnnh November? Maybe February

I have know idea…

Made as a sort of vent? Really wasn’t doing to well around the time of making this

Ignore how ugly it is, it’s?? Okay really idk

#south park #herbert pocket #pip pirrup #no it’s not ship art #again it’s more personal #introject moment #oh yeah we have a pocket and pip in are system #there very close #idk who’s fronting don’t ask pls a AH #explodes

[ahappydnp]

phil changed the last two clickbait titles (which weren't actually doing as well as normal)

which honestly makes sense because if he's trying to get a random local to watch who doesn't know him they want to actually know what the video is before they click

#idk i just find this interesting bc yeah clickbait titles aren't gonna work for phil #even if you've got a vague knowledge of him you know that man is NOT getting personal #which i assume is who they're trying to get to click? locals who just want the tea but even they know better #they're better off presenting the video topics up front #im not bothered with clickbait from people i dont know but if im in the mood for a reddit video ill watch anyone

[problemswithbooks]

Is Cat a Kind of Inntinnsic?

The answer, the one I'm sure the author would give, would be no. The story in no way treats Cat's Gift as an Inntinnsic ability. Violet and particularly Xaden don't act as if what she does is at all similar to what an Inntinnsic does.

But I'd argue it has to be in order for it to work.

Because everything is first person from Violet's PoV or a rare chapter from Xaden, I sort of doubt the author really sat down and thought of how certain characters powers would work. If she did, i think she'd have realized Cat's Gift would function similarly to Xaden's second signet.

Cat can manipulate emotions. We're told she can't force someone to feel something they don't, but instead amplify what they do feel. On the surface that doesn't seem anything like an Inntinnsic ability. Where things become more complicated is how she uses that power.

If Cat can't implant an emotion, then she has to know what emotions the person is feeling. Sure, she could just be throwing her ability at people and seeing what sticks, or it could work in broad strokes; emotions overlap, so maybe any negative emotion can be made increasingly worse, while a good one amplified into pure elation.

I'd argue though that her power doesn't seem that broad, instead being pretty focused. Violet was easy to read so it wouldn't even have been hard to read that she hated Cat, and Cat threw out insults during their fight to make sure Violet is more susceptible to her Gift.

But the Venin she goes after at the end of the book wasn't as easy a read. She doesn't know this Venin. She's bragging and boastful, but whose to say that's greed and not pride? Or even done as a way to taunt Violet and make her more afraid?

Yet Cat manipulates the Venin without much difficulty, seeming to know exactly what emotions she's feeling without any trouble.

There's also the issue where people are generally feeling more then one emotion at a time. Violet is always in love with Xaden, but she can also be annoyed with him. Emotions aren't something that are felt one at a time--so how does Cat pick which one to manipulate without knowing instinctively what they're feeling?

I think it's very likely that Cat can either sense what people are feeling, or even see it (I'm thinking sort of like auras) and from there use her power to exaggerate which ever one she wants. It just makes the most sense.

But if that is the case, similar to how Xaden can read people's impulses and intentions, Cat could read their emotions. Now, that's not exactly mind reading, but Xaden's power isn't strictly reading minds either, yet he count's as an inntinnsic. To me what seems to make someone Inntinnsic is that they have no outward tell or rule for using their powers--they can just do it.

Dain isn't an inntinnsic because he requires touch to activate his memory seeing. As long as he does not touch you, you are safe from his ability.

Meanwhile, what makes inntinnsics such a security risk, is that they can activate their signet at anytime without anyone's knowledge. Xaden seems to be using his second signet constantly to read everyone, and no one has ever picked up on it at all.

In a way Cat's Gift seems to be similar in that she can use it without a hard and fast rule. She can just do it. If it works by letting her sense people's emotions, she could be constantly reading people Xaden does, but instead for intent, it's for their emotional state.

Does that not make her power Inntinnsic? Or at least Inntinnsic adjacent?

#fourth wing #iron flame #the empyrean #xaden riorson #catriona cordella #Cat Cordella #idk i find her power interesting #and thinking about how it works and looks to her as she uses it #made me realize it would probably function similarly to Xaden's inntinnsic ability #which means that both of them would have known that neither of them liked each other #the entire time they were together #at least if Cat was a flier back then #the time line seems a little wonky on that front #it says most gryphon Gifts involve mind work #which kind of makes me wonder if maybe poromeil wouldn't kill inntinnsics #since that seems to be something that their people would get way more often #and unlike the Dragon Riders they're not fabricating an entire history #I sort of doubt Yarros would write that #but damn it's kind of a wasted opportunity #the drama when the two sides join together and the Fliers have to expain that #'yeah we have people who fit into the Inntinnsic category and we're fine with them' #but if she did that Xaden's second signet wouldn't be that special #and it wouldn't have been such a big deal when he told Violet about it #since she probably would have already been dealing with people like that already #but that does beg the question what the fuck else mind work is?

[zevranunderstander]

idk how to phrase this but like. people retroactively calling Fleabag a privileged, dissociative portrayal of feminism which is Bad, Actually, are lowkey deranged to me because, yeah, Fleabag IS about the expierience of womanhood. but like. through the lens of ONE woman? like, nowhere in the show is it ever implied that fleabag's expieriences are supposed to be universal, relateable core pillars to womanhood?

its almost like half of the population of the world is female and I think it's kind of weird that all stories about women always have to be feminist and activist, and can not just be an exploration of an imperfect woman, they have to be correct about *all* of womanhood?

i also think that the people saying this don't really understand the character of fleabag and i do think that the show is feminist in many ways, but even when no person working on this show would have had any intention of making this a "feminist story", i think that would have been their right to do that?

breaking bad, fight club, american psycho, lolita, etc. all tell the stories of white men who are objectively horrible people. and these stories still treat these characters with a level of empathy and understanding of how they got there and why they are like that. the stories don't excuse their behavior because of that, they are simply a fictional analysis of a person who is not virtuous or good in a lot of ways.

but women, people of color, disabled people, and other minorities are never given the same right to just tell a story about a character, the character has to be virtuous, a good role model, a representation of their whole group, likeable, flawed only in an "unproblematic" way, never make a bad decision, and its insanely limiting in what stories can be told by writers, when they want the approval of the general audience

and i so genuinely want more fleabag women, who may interact with feminism, but who are actual human beings in a real world, who have real flaws and who can be selfish and cruel, but who are still treated with empathy by the story

#myposts #anyways fleabag my beloved #like this 'fleabag is a bad feminist' yeah so? she says that as one of the first lines in the show #like does that make the show bad or what lmao #and like i LOVE the 'we're bad feminists' scene bc #like this woman asks who in the audience would give up time of their lifespan to have an ideal body #and only fleabag and claire raise their hands but genuinely you cannot tell me that no one else in the entire rest of the audience #would want that. like the woman in the front asks for a reason and that reason is that a lot of women would want tha #because they are socialized to be concious about being attractive and desirable and fleabag and claire are being honest #im not saying ALL other women in the audience lied but some probably did. right? #because they actually do want to look like 'good feminists' who are wholly unaffected by living in a patriarcal society #do i make sense? idk

[cloudcountry]

i love how i come back to twst post about how much i hate idia for a few days and then leave again it's such a cycle

#auburn's rambles <3 #i think about that time when people were shipping me w him a lot #and i don't think i ever really addressed how bad it made me feel #like i told people to stop yeah but now whenever i see idia i think about how upset and frustrated i was #like it keeps coming BACK i can't get it out of my HEAD #THIS GOT KINDA VENTISH WAIT #idk man it's late i should be asleep but Fuck i cannot stop thinking about how that got so out of hand #my poor lab partner had to deal w me that day LMAO i like. cried in front of her #and i don't know why my brain keeps coming back to it because nobody makes jokes like that anymore #and everyone who did sent me apologies which was so sweet #anyways hello ygys i think i just needed to get this off my chest goodnight #FOR CLARIFICATION I AM OK!!!! i think im just emotional rn and i did not expect to dump a whole ass essay here #muah muah love ygys thank u for being on my side i hope all of your pillows are cold and you have sweet dreams

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up” #“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “ #“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol” #he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!! #anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy??? #this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment. #anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.” #bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you. #like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously. #but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess. #its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

[arsenicflame]

the fundamental basis of a 'sams izzy' for me is that he has to be someone canon izzy looks at and thinks "... i could have had this?"

i dont think everything would have gone perfectly if izzy had gone with sam, but i do think maybe he would have been happier than our izzy is when we see him, and i want our izzy to see that and just... wonder. wonder if he made the right decisions. was he right to go with edward? is he happy with his life?

#uhhh related to a much longer post about what i think sams izzy would be like #that i haven't finished yet (and might take me a while) #but yeah. sams izzy just need to make our izzy question everything #idk what decision hed come too though. would he still be happy with his choices if he saw this version of himself? #this person who had chose to go wirh sam instead? this version who laughs freely? who seems so light? #(also sams izzy is a little bit of a slut. we love him) #(not a lot just. hes wearing lower cut tops he'll strip off if it's too hot he'll flirt with people a little #(he will absolutely wreck lucius with that) he would kiss sam in front of the crew and sam would sleep on his chest) #and he laughs. god does he laugh. snorts and bursts and full belly laughs. freely. at anything. he laughs #izzy doesn't remember the last time he laughed #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #sam bellamy #bellhands #ndnsn anyway like. tell me what u think sams izzy would be like im still musing on it #excellent distraction from everything #Sam's Izzy

[sonego]

it's actually so sad and disheartening being a fan of men's sports or sports that are predominantly played by men as an abuse victim/survivor and/or a woman. a constant reminder that you and your pain and experiences don't matter, basically

#people always say men can get away with anything when they're rich #but honestly i think it matters to point out that men get away with abuse regardless #like i'm sure most people know at least one person (often a woman) who has suffered abuse by the hands of a man #and has then had to see him face no consequences whatsoever - often remaining trapped with him #it's really like... society is built so that men can abuse and keep abusing with impunity #and it's fucked up to watch it happen in your own life - your little life as an unknown person away from the spotlight #and THEN see it happen to other people in front of the whole world (or the whole sport) #and see it KEEP happening regardless of sport #it's just so so so disheartening and frustrating and angering and triggering and. yeah. just awful #and before anyone goes 'just watch women's sports' i do. that's not the point #idk man it's been rough lately lol

[0809sysblings]

I think something very mikotocore of me that happened when I was still in university is when. due to having started in the spring instead of fall, I was basically on my own when it came to getting moved into my dorm. so I didn't know what I was supposed to have other than my room card key. I did not know that I was ALSO supposed to have Another card key so that I could actually get into the dorm building itself. and I somehow went like a week without figuring out I needed one because every time I needed to get in, I just so happened to have caught someone either going in themselves or just coming out. so I just slipped in.

I eventually learned I needed one when I tried to access the dining area and. well. couldn't. and the lady in charge of this stuff who got my card for me was just like "how long have you been here... ??"

idk I just think he'd have really odd luck with shit like that. so he doesn't even realize he hasn't done something he needed to do or is doing something wrong because. it just ends up working out somehow by pure coincidence.

#Mikoto #i. guess. idk. ill tag him sure whh not. who cares. #i then moved out a few months later bc i had to withdraw and i was supposed to like talk directly with the building manager or something #to move out officially. but she never responded to my email and i wasnt gonna call her bc fuck phone calls. so i just #packed my shit and left #there were two guys at a front desk who i gave my keys and stuff to. and told them i was moving out. and they were like #''did you talk with (manager person) and get approved by her to move out?'' #and i just looked at them and said ''yeah'' (<- A Lie). and they were like ''ah ok. goodbye'' #and i never got any sort of email or letter about it so. guess it was fine #the moral of the story is: if you lie confidently enough you can get away with anything you want-- /j #my few montjs at college was. wild tbh

[caffeinatedopossum]

That sad realization that not only did the undiagnosed autism lead to me not realizing my "friends" were actually bullying me the whole time I knew them but I was also unintentionally doing something similar to neurotypical friends because I didn't understand how we thought differently

#i just want yall to know that when i first wrote undiagnosed my phone autocortected that to undigested so. yeah #you heard it hear folks. autism is undigestable. thats why we all got tummy problems #anyway this is why is struggling with communication and maintaining relationships is a symptom #although my relationships always seem fine to *me* because im oblivious as fuck #and this is why autism questionnaires need to be phrased differently #alsp yeah. thinking about that one time i went to a summer camp and i joked about a girl in mine and my friends dorm #who was sleep talking that night. and one of the counselors immediately shamed me for bullying #like we were all there and awake. everyone already knew and laughed so i assumrd it was funny #but then suddenly *I* was being mean...? i understand more now but i wish someone explained it to me more gently #why did everyone laugh it was mean? i thought they laughed because it was funny #still dont understand why people laugh if something is hurtful. i didnt want to insult the girl either #i considered us friends and i was just trying to include her in the conversation #it was still not ok though... #theres another time that comes to mind when i said matter of factly that my sister was a liar #in front of her boyfriend who then very aggressively silenced me #i didnt understand why you would lie if you cant accept being a liar #it wasnt meant as an insult it was meant as the truth #but maybe if it was insulting she should stop lying #idk it was really weird #maybe this is why i didnt realize people where insulting me #because to them they were picking on me #but to me they were either stating a fact or falsely accusing me #i get embarrassed too of course but only because its whats expected of me #that makes me feel scared and inferior and alone. and thats what embarrassment feels like for me #it feels like everyone is unforgivingly looking at me with a magnifying glass

[tadpoles-and-daydreams]

ur cool would you let me gently bite your arm

fuck yeah, careful though I have one hell of a startle reflex and am prone to screeching. I will hurt ur ears.

#but also hell yeah ty for the compliment #I love tumblr compliments it's always shit like “I wanna bite ur arm” #also I don't have any friends who bite as a show of affection and I've been taught to mask heavily so I don't #but I'm like 90% sure I would bite my friends if I wasn't so high masking #like idk gotta CHOMP #almost bit a guys finger while we were trying to take a picture once bc his finger was right in front of my face with the way he was posed #and I have never had to exert so much self control #in that photo I think I was visibly locked on target lol