#Yes i'm still clowning

[lnkedmyheart]

This one is in response to @fizzytastic asking

"I would LOVE to know what you mean regarding the light novels."

Dazai in the light novels has been down BAD since the day he met Chuuya.

I know the whole "must be because I love you" can be viewed as a joke but my man actually "whispered with a look of regret" at being shot down.

He also proceeded to cheat during the game by tampering with the machine to ensure Chuuya would lose the bet and become his dog. He was also stated as being in awe of Chuuya's fighting ability, repeatedly refering to him as "incredible". Dazai also flat out admits to wanting to try out living because "Chuuya convinced" him.

He is even described as having forgotten how to breathe watching Chuuya fight.

Moving on to the events of Stormbringer, Dazai spends too long exposing his obsession with Chuuya, telling the big bad that he spends all his "days and nights thinking about ways to annoy Chuuya".

He further proceeds to insist that Chuuya is human because of how strongly he hates Chuuya and due to a specific word it can be viewed as him saying Chuuya would hate him less if he wasnt human as was stated in the stage play of the same.

Furthermore at the end of Stormbringer he offers to come up with a new plan to give Chuuya an out if he needs one when he has to use corruption as a last resort. And he fully intends on coming up with a new plan within 2 minutes.

In general Dazai does a lot of staring at Chuuya throughout the light novels. On a lighter note Dazai jokes about wanting Chuuya as his personal maid at one point and demands that Chuuya let Dazai look inside his head and know everything there is to know about him.

But then we move onto the dragon head conflict as mentioned in Dead Apple where after making light of an executive's death and getting punched in the face by Chuuya, Dazai is so shaken up by Chuuya implying he's inhuman, he actually pulls strings to try and bring the conflict to an end. He also stops corruption by touching his cheek and pulls Chuuya's head into his lap while he is unconscious after his fight with Shibusawa. The following is from the manga.

Now everyone knows about the whole Snow White and Prince reference but in the light novel its clarified that Chuuya's ability was not affected by the fog and Dazai knew this but he still forces his head down. Even more telling is that Dazai cradles Chuuya's face for no real reason because Corruption had already been nullified when Chuuya made skin to skin contact when punching him in the face.

And of course that was how their expressions are drawn in the manga panel

Then we move to the present day and you have Dazai saying this to Sigma about Chuuya

But then his comment about Gide has him claim the exact same behaviour is romantic in his messed up troll brain

Basically Dazai has a history of staring at Chuuya in awe since 15, "jokingly" confessed at 15 and then got somewhat upset about the rejection, cheated to be able to keep Chuuya as his, repeatedly makes remarks that imply he is vaguely obsessed with him at 16, tends to let Chuuya rest his head in his lap post corruption, has nullified him twice that we have seen by touching his cheek (as per the movie and once as per the ln). Is actively affected by how Chuuya views him (which was shocking to me).

Aside from that he has also talked about Chuuya to the ADA off screen because Yosano knew about Chuuya and his ability (though this could just be a random update about the membera of the mafia to watch out for during meetings) and I heard he talked about Chuuya to Oda in The Day I Picked Up Dazai ln.

This is not counting any of the seriously insane amount of wan content because I dont view it as canon or atleast entirely canon but there Dazai admits to keeping 27 journals detailing things about Chuuya and its an exaggeration of the canon fact that Dazai prides himself in being a Chuuya Nakahara Encyclopedia. It also plays with how close they both actually are with several character refering to them as besties, Chuuya being forced to admit he doesnt actually hate Dazai.

(Oh and this is not even considering just how much Dazai touches Chuuya, like in the manga there is a part where Dazai keeps tugging at Chuuya's hair and refusing to let go while complaining about how much he doesnt want to touch him. Just let go dude...)

So yea, I would not be surprised if Dazai has his vows prepared by the time the last pre defection ln drops. Ofcourse this is mostly a lighthearted joke about Dazai being down bad but in all seriousness, Dazai genuinely cared about and still cares about Chuuya and its made extremely obvious throughout the novels. Its actually worth noting that it was actually Chuuya who seemed to be more vitriolic towards him until the end of Stormbringer where Dazai actually gives Chuuya a choice and shows open concern for Chuuya's needs. Hell Dazai was also the one insisting on Chuuya's autonomy, while he keeps insisting Chuuya is his dog, he hates the idea of people using him like a tool, its why he always gives Chuuya a choice. Chuuya always actively chooses to go rescue Dazai in Dazai's plans of getting kidnapped. Chuuya can always go, "nah, I dont wanna use corruption" but he doesnt because he knows since the events of stormbringer that Dazai will always give him a choice even if corruption seems like a last resort.

Chuuya has good reason for trusting Dazai. Its cause Dazai has in fact proven to him that he can trust him. Its why he went in to fight a dragon despite being told Dazai was possibly already dead.

(And yea I know the current arc would have people go "lol he tried to drown Chuuya, he clearly doesnt care" and you know what? That's so dumb. Dazai tried to drown Chuuya, yes. But we dont actually know what is happening with this arc rn and what he is doing or if Chuuya is in any way involved in whatever he is doing. Dazai said all those things and there was no need for him to say that but the fact that he even remembered several moments they shared, yea no, he was clearly affected by it. Maybe I am wrong and Asagiri decided to yeet out all of Dazai's characterization we saw with his behaviour towards Chuuya in 2 entire novels of his past but IDK I think I'm gonna wait till this arc ends and everything unfolds before making a conclusion about how Dazai is such an asshole he tried to drown his partner.)

Seriously, vows are like the least they could do at this point.

#soukoku #ah my ramblings #i just really really love the light novels #i am mostly joking about the romance of it all #mostly #but Dazai cares about Chuuya and idk I think this is such an important aspect of Dazai's character #like even if you dont lile the ship its really not fair to ignore how much Dazai genuinely cared for Chuuya #not because it supports the ship but because it shows that Dazai despite his claims of being a monster was ridiculously human #he saw this boy he was fasicnated by and he said- I need to keep him as my friend #and proceeded to do it in the most unsocialized troll brained clown way #i love this boy so much #someone hug him please #dont get me wrong I dont think dazai and chuuya's relationship was super healthy but it wasnt as toxic as people make it seem either #yes Dazai desperately needed Oda and Ango but Chuuya was also and is still an important part of his life #long post #i am not going back to chexk for writing errors. I'm sleepy.

[splickedylit]

The Grand Highblood is dead, and some young upstart named Makara just took his throne. A perfect time for seadweller nobility with political aspirations to take an unsanctioned friendly informal visit the battleship Dark Carnival and make sure the clowns' new leader knows his place.

I've had a Playing With The Big Boys animatic in my head for actual years and this all emerged in two days straight of nonstop clown-drawing. I'm losing my gotdamn mind. Happy Honkoween. Please enjoy my baby. Here it is on youtube if you,,, want that.

Warnings, because they go by fast: canon-typical violence and brief flashing lights.

#Homestuck #The Grand Highblood #Kurloz Makara #CLOWNS #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >8oU #Her Imperious Condescension #Meenah Peixes #I have to just stop fiddling and post this because if I just keep picking and poking I'm going to lose my fucking mind #are the seadwellers boyfriends???? yes. unfortunate outcome! however diversity win! #the furious murderclown they are antagonizing still soaked in the blood of his predecessor is also pansexual!! because they are trolls. #DIVERSITY WIN Y'ALL #''he's only thirty sweeps old and he's a landdweller how much of a threat can he actually be???'' --someone about to enact a very bad idea

[seven-thewanderer]

Okay I didn't feel motivated enough to fully draw it, but I was at least motivated enough to doodle some designs (So yes more messy doodles)

But I designed Eclipse in my (SAMS) Strayed AU!!

But not only did I design Eclipse... I designed what his first appearance & current appearance, as well as...

Solarflare!!!!

So ye here's Eclipse (v1 & v3+4) and Solarflare!!

(I technically didn't draw v2, when he gave himself a star body, but that's honestly cus I couldn't decide what it'd look like, I didn't have room on the drawing, and I really wanted to draw Solar Flare again :3)

#my art #my doodles #please don't steal my art thank u!! #SAMS AU #Strayed!AU #SAMS #Sun and Moon Show #SAMS Eclipse #Strayed! Eclipse #SAMS Solar Flare #Strayed! Solar Flare #Though they're just doodles I'm really proud of Eclipse v3's design #(and yes I did give bestie a hammer cus we love clowns with big hammers) #okay but honestly I'm so proud of all of em!! #I may draw Eclipse (v3) fully at some point but probably not while I'm still on here #but yeyeye I think that's it basically!!

[clever-and-unique-name]

I don't use Facebook for anything except keeping in contact with our ferret breeder, who I've been talking to again to get (hopefully) another couple kits this summer. I also don't keep in contact with anyone I went to high school with--people who make up the majority of my FB friendlist.

So, in opening FB for the first time in years, I was extremely amused to find that a solid 1/4 of the people I liked enough to friend them on FB have come out as some flavor of trans. Some I suspected, some were a complete surprise. But they all look so happy now, and I'm so happy for them. <3

#just feeling queer love feelings I guess #even though I don't keep in touch with anybody it still makes me happy that they've gone through a Gender Journey and made it out okay #hopefully happier than they were before #I hope they're all doing well #also yes I was part of several emo/scene/goth friend circles in the late 2000s so this is not Really a surprise #so many of us were clearly just baby queerlings in different closets #personal #ok to rb and add on but don't clown I'm very tired

[illhaveyouforbreakfast]

Eddie sets up a projector at the wedding reception and everyone is excited for a cute slideshow. I Married An Axe Murderer starts playing on the screen. Richie is choking on his own spit from laughing so hard, Stan gets up to leave the fucking wedding, Patty is cackling with Richie, Bev snorts, Ben just sighs, Bill is shaking his head, and Mike looks like he can't decide between laughing or crying. Eddie ignores all this to announce that this showing is dedicated to Henry Bowers, rest in pieces motherfucker

#reddie #it 2017 #it 2019 #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #morons to lovers #yes it's 2023 and I'm still thinking about the clown movie leave me Alone

[moongothic]

I need to make a confession

I genuinely do not understand Buggy simps

Like I thought y'all were joking with the whole rooting for Buggy-thing but. No. People are actually seriously rooting for him. And I just don't get it.

Like. I can't tell if I'm missing something or if people are somehow completely misinterpreting his actual character. Like clearly it's meant to be one or the other and I can't tell which and I feel like I'm losing my mind because of it

'Cause the thing is that. Like. Until now, Buggy has been a pure gag character. He's no different from characters like Ceasar Clown and Spandam in that sense, he's just nowhere near as vile a human being as those other gag characters so he's marginally more lovable in what a pathetic fuck he is. But in the end, Buggy's just been there to be a punching bag (quite literally), because it's funny as hell to watch him eat shit And the reason it's funny IS because Buggy is a piece of shit. Again, not nearly as bad as Spamdam and co, but he's still a lying, cowardly, spineless douchebag who uses others for his own benefit and is willing to ditch anyone to save his own skin. Like Buggy was going to ditch his entire crew and flee by himself when the Shichibukai System was taken down and the Marines came for his head. He was going to leave his crew to die by themselves, without participating in the fight at all. Buggy was the one telling them to do the hard lifting while he'd escape, while the crew had no idea their beloved Chairman was going to abandon them. Literally the only reason Buggy failed to do that was because he was too slow and Crocodile got there before he managed to skedaddle.

He is essentially Usopp if Usopp wasn't willing to get beaten to death to protect his friends and their honor. Even fucking Luffy thinks Buggy is a pathetic idiot, and Luffy is the biggest indicator in the whole series on how to tell whether or not the readers should like a character or not. Not to mention, all the in-universe Buggy simps have been portrayed as (precious) idiots who can't see through Buggy's bullshit. Like every step of the story Oda has been trying to tell us that Buggy is an absolute loser.

So when people are like "Mihawk and Crocodile are going to see Buggy's ambition and become full Buggy supporters themselves!" I just

Are we reading the same comic???? HELLO????

Like I'll give you this, it would be objectively the funniest fucking outcome imaginable, which would be on-brand for Buggy and his trend of falling upwards.

But between Mihawk respecting people who are willing to abandon their honor to protect someone dear to them, and Crocodile's deep trust issues (possibly rooted in being betrayed in the past), I can not fucking fathom the two ever genuinely siding with Buggy the "I will leave you to die by yourself to save myself" Clown. Not when the two (and most other characters, including fucking Galdino and Daz) have been able to judge Buggy's character accurately (like how Crocodile was like "I thought you'd have ran away by now" when he arrived at Emptee Bluffs, and Buggy was like "yeah no shit")

Not unless Buggy grows enough of a spine that he'd be willing to sacrifice himself for someone (or at least get hurt on someone else's behalf to protect them), more specifically Mihawk and Crocodile. And let's be real, right now, Buggy probably wants nothing more than to run away from the two before they do actually kill him.

I just

Buggy simps. I do not understand you. I don't understand how you've reached your reading of the character.

#Moon posting #OP Meta #OP Spoilers #Not tagging this with the clown because I'm not actually @'ing The Buggy Fandom rn I'm just. Speaking out loud #For the record 9/10 times when I'm writing about Crocodile I'm fully aware my readings are more than likely completely delulu #Like I'm writing about him under the assumption that a very specific fan theory could be canon and *how that would affect his character* #Remove that fan theory and force me to speculate about Croc and I'll probably treat him quite fucking differently #Like I understand not being immune to a pathetic little meow meow but. I don't understand you Buggy Simps #You are a mystery to me #Also for the record yes Buggy's mutiny has been like the closest thing Buggy has done to like prove himself as worth anything #Like it's almost his version of Usopp's ''Don't make fun of my friend'' when getting beaten to death by Mr 4+Miss Merry Crimbus #Key word being almost. He still hasn't proven to me that he wouldn't abandon everyone to save his own skin like a coward #And that's what makes him different from like Nami Usopp and Chopper. They may be cowards but not like that. They have spines.

[mav-the-artist]

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

#My art #YEAH GUESS WHAT NEW FOLLOWERS I'M A SELFSHIPPER HEHEHEHE #ALSO I AM TOTALLY NOT LATE FOR THIS LMAO #My love for these two goobers have not decreased one bit!!! #I love a few of the other madcom dudes but I only had a little bit of time while it was SOMEWHAT still valentines day #but they are like my top two #DO I DARE PUT THIS IN THE TAGS???? #I mean I've been seeing others post selfship stuff today so why not #YES #I'M DOING IT #FUCK IT WE BALL #Madness Combat #MadCom #Tricky The Clown #Tricky #Deimos #Mav #Me #My sona #Valentines #Valentines 2024

[martyrbat]

batman secret files: clownhunter

(ID in alt!)

#on one hand i can see why they would want to make jason a mentor to bao and all because parallels #but on the other.... i think jason and bao would been boring real fast #jason is like... older brother coded. bao needs his shitty uncle (khoa) it makes things funnier #plus i feel like once again its trapping jason in the ‘i cant exist without my life revolving around the joker’ loop hes been in #which is annoying and just wrong when people imply that to bruce and like... i get why jason it may be more true since yknow. #his life was cut short by him then he was forcefully brought back to life and it's personally traumatizing #but i still think it makes for such boring writing and doesn't allow the character to ever grow or change. #they wont let jason exist without that joker b-plot and if he takes on a kid that also been personally traumatized by him #then jason wont be allowed to potentially grow from it unless they make it about him caring about bao more and moving on because of that #but also... bao is like... 14.... #him having khoa as a mentor allows him to have more opportunities and experiences so he doesn't become joker based #like hes always gonna have that hatred for him. his life was changed by him and his parents murder. #but thatd be the ripple effect to cause him to be a vigilante and everything (like how it did with bruce) instead of his entire life #revolving around just the clowns and never growing from it. gotta have a nice contrast y'know?? #does any of this make sense? no. I'm sleepy and have a migraine. #am i gonna post it anyways and cringe in the morning when i reread it and realize people also can perceive my rambling brain mush? yes </3 #c: batman secret files: clownhunter #crypt's panels #jason todd #red hood #bao pham #clownhunter

[beanghostprincess]

the buggy thing is real because i'm ace and a lesbian but when i saw him in impel down with the ponytail i experienced a brief moment of heterosexuality

I'm ace and a lesbian too and I can assure you you didn't experience any moment of heterosexuality because Buggy is the most GNC clown ever. I don't even think he cares about his gender. Also, are you sure you felt attracted to him? Because maybe it's gender envy. For me it's gender envy. I wanna look like that clown so fucking bad-

#buggy i love you #i am so not normal about this clown #maybe i'm delirious maybe i still have a fever #but you're so real for this #ALSO YES THE IMPEL DOWN PONYTAIL IS SO ICONIC #made me feel things #one piece #buggy the clown

[myreitha]

Anyone else get randomly haunted by bits of seemingly mundane things from your dreams throughout the day? Like "oh, I need to go respond to that message that person sent me" except they didn't send you any messages becuase it was in a dream last night.

Today's been a day of that, but my favorite today was going "Oh right, so-and-so's doing a project on clowns and I need to send her photos of my clown nose for it."

#Yes I have a clown nose #a friend made it for me and I'm still honored by the gift #it's red leather #I have yet to wear it professionally #text #dreams

[f1-birb]

ferrari once again not telling their drivers about mclaren drivers and nearly causing accidents 😒

#dutch gp 2023 #quali #Q1 #oscar piastri #ferrari clown show what's new #yes i'm still pissed about monaco and spa

[ruffboijuliaburnsides]

i wonder if the people specifically criticizing the dsmp ending as too brutal, bleak, unfair, not allowing people to heal, etc. have considered that like.

it was written by a group of people who'd just lost their dear friend to cancer at the ripe old age of 23.

just kinda seems like that sort of brutal, bleak, unfair, unresolved thing that they're still dealing with the emotional fallout from might've had something to do with the shape of the ending, and maybe keeping that in mind when we analyze the finale is something that is necessary to actually do it justice.

#dsmp #dream smp #mcyt #clown on this post and i will block you #yes there are flaws even if you like the ending that's not what i'm talking about #i'm talking about people who are talking about how ooc everyone was or how it was too unfair #or that it was bad bc it didn't allow tommy to heal from his trauma or w/e #like my friend 1) i didn't actually find any of them particularly ooc #and 2) just because you don't like the story being told doesn't mean that's not still the story they WANTED to tell #and that doesn't make it intrinsically BAD #anyway #technoblade never dies #except for how he fucking did and that should be acknowledged in analysis of the finale

[incorrect-koh-posts]

Send sauce for King Baldwin IV fictions pls. 🤲🏻

Oh God, I'm bad with internet slang 😂 I assume that by 'sauce' you mean Baldwin fic recs?

If that's the case, then I've got some personal favourites for you (I hope I'm allowed to link them here):

Tu Salus Fidelium by Petit Parapluie

Song of a Peacebringer by Mercury Gray

The Cross, the Crescent, and the Star by Mercury Gray (crossover with A Discovery of Witches)

God Wills It by Mercury Gray

for whom the lord loveth he correcteth by skazka

Continuitas by skazka

Et Cetera by blodskaal

Dreaming of Montgisard by Ahsurika

Vide Cor Tuum by Cornix

The Quality of Mercy by Ravenclaw42

+ one to make you laugh: Rise a Knitter (in which Baldwin IV lives vicariously through making handicrafts) by ratherbrightred / the_lepic

There you go, dear anon - I hope you enjoy the King Baldwin fic starter pack! ❤

Note: This is by no means a comprehensive list; I'm probably forgetting a good portion of the KoH fics I read and enjoyed over the last two years. So if anyone has any additions, feel free to add them!

Also: Not all of these fics are completely Baldwin-centric. Most are narrated from the perspective of other characters; some fics are shippy stories, some aren't. But in all of them, Baldwin plays a significant role in the narrative, so that's something, I should think ;)

But I would highly encourage you to read fics about other KoH characters as well. There are some really good pieces of writing for Sibylla, Godfrey, Tiberias, Salah ad-Din, Balian, Imad ad-Din etc. out there that this list doesn't even touch upon, still waiting for some well-deserved love :)

#asks #kingdom of heaven #kingdom of heaven 2005 #kingdom of heaven fanfic #fanfic recommendations #baldwin iv #should i finally finish the baldwin oneshot that's been lounging on my computer since last year? probably #but i'm still so firmly entrenched in my tiberias rabbit-hole that writing something else might prove a bit difficult #ah yes i'm a clown #but fanfic is awesome and i'm very happy our tiny fandom has so many lovely stories on offer #there's something for everyone #and on an unrelated note: we've finally crossed the 150+ followers mark!

[somedaytakethetime]

Alright listen up, girlies! So our geriatric king was at a music festival during the weekend BUT I forgot to save his stories 🥲🥲 SO INSTEAD HAVE SOME RANDOM 🍈🍈 PHOTOS

I even included thighs, you're welcome 😤

#i have been busy i have been lazy i have a million things i'm trying to do #and i'm doing an entire overhaul of my life lately too so as much as i'm still a clown i'm a stressed clown 😭😭 #i still have the vod for the second match to gif.. yes that will still happen in highlights #Kasper Schmeichel #he looked like his geriatric influencer king self in the weekend you didn't miss much #king thicccness #danish captain america #Big Daddy 🥺

[weirdlyfitting]

bro bro why the fuck the name’s jack and elsa MARVEL DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT YOU JUST UNLOCKED THE LITERAL CURSED MEMORIES INSIDE ME 😔😭

#werewolf by night #YES this is about THAT *looks intensively* SHIP #that goddamn specific ship that destroyed my other otp crackship #why can't it be jack and rapunzel #yes i'm jackunzel clowning what's ur problem huh #anyway anyway #i still love jelsa like come on y'all ice power siblings why the hell no? #i like them as sibling more than a couple i swearrrr #like the hell if they're a couple #idk it's just not it for me #also tagging to #personal stuff #and #rise of the brave tangled dragons #rotbtd #lmao i love it when my two favorite things had something in common lol

[foxskip]

tag people you want to catch up with/get to know better

tagged by: @pinnithin saw that almost a whole day later b/c tumblr likes not telling me things lolll

last song: Okizeme by exociety (Rav & Kill Bill: The Rapper) NEW ALBUM TOMORROW YAAAY

last film: Pokémon: Lucario and the Mystery of Mew w/ @bajoranhughculber & @thymedreams like a month ago

current/last read: Started reading One Piece after loving the live action see you in 1000 chapters I guess lol (also keeping up w/ some current comics/manga but I'm not gonna list all those)

currently watching: Jujutsu Kaisen season 2, Gen V, AEW, also slowly making my way through Cowboy Bebop & TMNT 2003

current obsessions: Ninja Turtles but also I can tell I am slowly being consumed by One Piece brainworms already...

tagging: @bajoranhughculber @vaquer0s @zakoa @transedhausen @webvein @pandahasashotgun

#Btw been having sm fun talking our new weekly superhero shows w/ Leo & jjk w/ Tokay <333 #Me a year ago: I can't believe I'm getting into tmnt how is this happening to meeeee #Me now: I can't believe I'm getting into op how is this happening to meeeee #Tbf I've been telling my brother I would read it eventually for like 5 years but I did not think it would activate my brain so hard #Yes... despite the clown on our dashboards... curiosity got me... also I love that clown now FUCK #Here's hoping I actually catch up I still haven't come back to Berserk or jjba & I started reading them in 2017!!! GAHH MY BRAIN #tag game