#You Have You Father Hard Head

[insanitysilver]

Need book recs. Post your favorite book in the tags and what you enjoy about it.

#Hard to pick #but I do enjoy Frankenstein #Starts slow so you really have to shotgun it #but it is so funny watching terrible 20-something victor try his absolute hardest to absentee father #and this 9ft tall eloquent corpse man chasing him around about it #and i think it touches so many universal themes w/o hitting you over the head w/ them #so what you ultimately take from the book is as reflective of the reader as the book itself #And a special shoutout to Howl’s Moving Castle #nothing cheers me up faster #probably the book I’ve reread most

[matchandelure]

i fear that the undercover top secret government assassins are growing on me (cp9)

#I HAD ZERO THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM AT FIRST #IN FACT I WAS DEVASTATED THAT THE WATER 7 QUARTET WERE ACTUALLY CP9 #BUT THEN??????? I READ CP9'S INDEPENDENT REPORT AND. I!?!??!?@?!? #the thoughts are endless ive been having one piece dreams every night for the past few days and they have all been cp9 related the brainrot #is so bad. i am sodgjkadhg #i love one piece there are so many characters with each new arc i get to i get some new characters to obsess over i love it i feel so alive #ive been fighting tooth and nail avoiding spoilers for the latest episode BUT GOD IM SO SO TEMPTED TO. TAKE A PEEK #anyways last night i was once again doing a wiki deep dive and i found some silly things on cp9's pages #JABRA AND LUCCI ARE THE SAME HEIGHT!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?! the kid you've had beef with since he was 13 (maybe even earlier since lucci alreayd knew him when he was 6) who you #used to have a whole head over is now at eye level with you i would actually be so embarrased #KAKU IS FROM EAST BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS OS IMPORTANT ACTUALLY!! THE MOST IMPORATNT FACT EVER!!!!!!!!!!! #so he knows the strawhats are...also from the east blue right?!? right??????! and ik the wg steals these kids early on to train them so i #doubt he has lingering attachments to his home sea but i still think this so both so so sad and so important :'(( #also not getting over how oda's depiction of tiny kaku has him holding a toy boat BC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!?! ARE YOU K IDDING ME #kalifa and jabra's favourite dishes are both lamb based!!!!!!!!! silly because her animal motif is a sheep haha #BUT ALSO considering how her father was also cp9 and she's probably been conditioned since birth to also follow his footsteps and how jabra #holds seniority in the current lineup id like to think that these two have known each other a very long time and there were influences #the most dysfunctional fcked up family ever. cp9 #blueno and jabra are both from the north blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that one falshbakc we see that the two of them plus 6year old lucci trained #together but also it would be so fcked up if the two actually knew of each other before being roped into the governemnt #idk how the wg works do they just??? routinely scout around and pick up a bunch of kids ata time???? were jabra and blueno taken together?? #also wondering if ... kalifa jabra and kumadori knew each other the longest as fellow agents or soemthing #i feel like im entertaining a gazillion thoughts all at once its so hard ot balance but we know both kalifa nad kumadori have #parents in the governemnt/assassin profession that also influenced them right #idk maybe one thing they can bond over #cp9 to me is just a fucked up family of some sort. they are not found family they are like some weird forged family where they were all #forced together and somehow made it work and they all love lucci and care for his wellbeing enough to raise all that money to get him to a #doctor and they cared about each other enough to get off enies lobby together without leaving anyone behind and they went cafe hopping and #shopping and bowling together and they all care for each other in their own way

[todayisafridaynight]

tw // suicide

on twitter some ppl were talking about THAT jo scene from iw again and someone commented fucking "you know he was thinking about using that gun on himself" and im not sane anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! added something something his faith in ichi kept him hopeful enough in the moment but then when he went to jail oh. ohhh !!!!!!!!!!!

nooo cause if That Jo Scene is the flashback scene with hoshino's death that really had to be SUUUCH a low point if not top five lowest points for him i wanted to throw up watching that <- replays it in my brain constantly

#iw spoilers #snap chats #UGH I WANNA REPLAY IW SO BAD i still wanna see the scenes with english dubbing but i wanna finish lost judgment first #in any case no i love that scene. like you can see the will to live leave jo's body as he goes to sit down #god naw cause i was laughing (read: crying) over how jo really let that dog comment get to him. loved that really .... #i do enjoy the added context to sawashiro and his relationship with ichi even if its sort of one sided #like ichis never really harbored ill will towards him- hes not happy about how sawashiro treated him back then LOL #but it was still clear he respected him #with sawashiro- like once you know the whole locker mix up secret then it contextualizes their relationship (from jo's pov anyway) #but just sawashiro having actually MET akane and speaking with her and listening to her wish .. idk. #its a nice thought that- for as hard as he is on ichi- he is trying to look out for him for akane's sake #emphasis on For As Hard As He Is like my man you dont gotta take his finger off 💀💀 in any case ... #maybe thats just optimistic thinking but its a nice thought. This All In Relation to having faith in ichi to Not game end himself 💀 #god but sawashiro in jail .. i really wouldve paid money just to know what was going through his head #how he reacted to aoki's death the moment he was told- like he already knew aoki never valued him but still... fathers love and all #ive rambled long enough vjlLKVEJVLKEJ BYE

[thebirdandhersong]

:'))))))

#darn darn darn DARN. like!! tears in my eyes!!! #do you ever want to ask someone so hilariously clueless #like. sir. have you ever been in love. like. have you??? do you know what it is??? to be fond of someone?????? WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR MIN #anyway FIRST boy i've been able to converse with about dickens and tolstoy and dostoevsky and theology comfortably and for WHAT #APPARENTLY my brain jumped immediately to fondness rather than friendship. FOR WHAT! #anyway that's on me for clown behaviour and general silliness #pray for me lolllllll i am literally so so sick of this!! i too would like to live life without the weight of this!! #i've had 'i'll come back to you' and 'i don't want you to be alone' going round and round my head for the whole week. #like. my dude you have someone waiting for YOU back home what are you TALKING ABOUT #a note from the logical side of my brain: girl you don't even agree theologically with major points also he doesn't want to have a family o #be a father. and you knew that before he casually mentioned he was seeing someone. like. clearly it wasn't going to work anyway. let it go #but alas it is SO so horribly easy for me to grow fond of a person it is SO so horribly hard to claw my way out of that #i do not want this!!!! i do not want silly feelings!!! what's more i do not want complicated emotions because he IS my friend!!!! #it wouldn't bother me so much if this weren't like the tenth time i've had #some form of hope and reality hit it over the head with a two by four!!!!

[gayemoji]

oh yeah okay go ahead kiss a ninE year old what the fuck !!! WHAT THE FUCK !!!

whatever credit i was giving chase before null and void i never said it

#even weorder is that the showrunners even made it a fucking plot point HUH ??? WHAT ARE YALL DOING ??? #the writers really want him to be the antagonist FINE you got me hes the worst forever #also i found out the actors actual parents founded a fucking anti immigration party here in aus so thats cool 💀 #not that that reflects on HIM as an individual whatever whatever #the point is maybe i hope the shows dont give hima big fuckin redemption and maybe i like how awful house treats him now <3 #deserved idiot be better next time #im bapping him over the head with a roll of newspaper every time he speaks like im his cartoon character father #speaking of maybe the writers were right to give him his whole sympathy story BEFORE they nerfed his moral compass #he still has an australian accent in an american show tho so its gonna be hard to shake this familarity bias i have for him 💔 #house md #house s2 #m #live

[not-poignant]

Hearing in ch 15 of Palmarosa Raphael saying 'Hopefully you won't even meet my father'. Right away I thought how has your past run of luck been lately? With today's excerpt, it's continuing exactly the same way. He keeps rolling ones.

Raphael's definitely the one rolling 1s at the moment.

Astarion's doing okay. I'd say he's rolling low-to-mid at the moment. After all, if he'd rolled a 1 with Verillius he'd be dead. Heck if he'd rolled beneath a 10 he probably would have been tortured and sexually assaulted. And if he rolled a 1 with that ritual Raphael did, he'd be dead. (He probably rolled like a 7 with that ritual. Enough to survive, but not without significant 'I need your best potion please' damage).

So far he's still alive, and they're definitely playing a few 'Instant Death / You Have Died' scenarios right now!

But Raphael's not doing so hot, honestly. I think he's on a 1-6 streak.

#asks and answers #except with that ritual he did he rolled pretty high for that lmao #raphael is more scared of how to navigate astarion meeting his father #but like sdlkfajs anyway raphael's having a hard day #his father hates him lmao #and the feeling is very mutual #astarion's gonna keep rolling though #actually in my head i do imagine the dice rolls lmao #raphael did SO well at golden's veil #but you can actually kind of see the times when astarion tries something in dialogue #and mis-rolls the dice lmao

[koszmarnybudyn]

Some teen Henry and Barry

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #henry oak #barry oak #barry deserves to be punched #also the trans henry headcanon has grown on me #barry is shit head #also elf ears!! #i am crazy about henries past #i just wanna know more about him! #also the oak genes are just ctrl c ctrl v #they have nearly the same face #i have a more paitery normal (but i don't like how it turned out) and some sketchas in my drafts #but this is the only finished thing so here we are #the green for thier robes was so hard to pic #also the red in henries accents is because he is trying to be unlike his father so you know color symbolisim #i can draw charachters with normal eyes i swear #i just don't do it #to aften #my art

[hella1975]

something specifically shitty about IN THE MOMENT as the conversation is happening knowing you're in the wrong and you're being a cunt and continuing to do it anyway

#like yeah im being a bitch. im lashing out because of an insecurity. i dont know how else to be though #hiiii im dadposting again <3 i feel bad bc YES i have so so much bitterness towards my dad #but he is genuinely a nice man. like i had this thought the other night that he is such a good kind soft man. he just isn't a good father #and the tragedy is he COULD HAVE BEEN if he'd just SHOWED UP but he DIDNT and that's that im twenty childhood's gone #we're never getting those years back my brain has developed without a need for him and now im angry. whatever #but he's still good. he's still kind. so he'll do stuff to try help me and i just am so horrid about it #and i FEEL myself doing it i literally have a voice in my head going 'i know you've interpreted this as him condescending you #but you know that isn't the case so stop lashing out' and i literally CANT because id rather be angry than insecure #bc it all goes back to pride and shame with me EVERYTHING always does #like im so convinced my dad thinks im stupid and useless and can't do anything myself at my big age etc #which is why im SO hard on myself when shit goes wrong like not just bc of my dad like i have a general fleabagesque position in my family #of being the trainwreck one that fucks up all the time so when shit goes wrong (like my rent or my walls) it hits me 10x harder #than it logically should bc i can just FEEL my dad and sister going 'yeah well that's hella for you' #and my dad got the autistic ticky boxy numbers brain neurodivergence and i got the adhd scatterbrained neurodivergence #so for admin stuff he tries to PARENT me bc he's my DAD but i just completely reject it even though i KNOW he's not being mean #like he literally just said to me in his nervous as fuck voice bc he doesn't know how to talk to us #'remember to sort phone chargers out because the sockets are different in america' that's it. that's all he said. just looking out for me #tell me why i BARKED OUT 'i KNOW dad it's MY TRIP stop hounding me about things ive got it sorted' #in the SHITTIEST tone you ever heard. ugh i cant even be too angry at myself bc he has blame here too but it's a shitty feeling #to know i always have that propensity for cruelty even now. idk. im just thinking thoughts idkkkk hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii #hella goes home

[hraishin]

both gai and kakashi got to live more than their fathers did and the thought of them looking themselves in the mirror and seeing the lines on their faces that neither sakumo or dai got to have makes me unable to sleep

#like. do you think that they look for their fathers in their reflections? #that they look at themselves and think this is probably how sakumo/dai would probably have looked if they had had more time? #do you think kakashi looks in the mirror and is proud of those lines and of being able to get over the hard times to see them there? #that he knows sakumo is proud of him as well for living so long? #do you think gai sees his own reflection and hopes dai can see all he accomplished including the lines on his face? #that he remembers dai and promises he'll stay around as long as he possibly can since dai never could as a thank you for dai's sacrifice? #cause i do #and it makes me stare blankly at a wall #kakashi hatake #gai maito #might guy #naruto #from my own head

[dapperrokyuu]

Been reading Noragami since the news of its ending motivated me. The comments under chapters are such a peek into how desperate some people are to blame a child to avoid accepting that things are just complicated and messy sometimes, lol.

Like, it cant be "Everyone had responsibility in this," nor "Its nobody's fault, really," theres this interesting obsession with needing to have A Sole Person (1) To Be Upset With.

#dee p thoughts #noragami #and it ends up being yukine like!!! how much does the narrative have to explain to you this is a neglected and thus easily manipulated chil #like its okay to be upset with him but to say its his fault Im??? that ignores everything that drove him to be that way #and the MORE MATURE FIGURES who should defaultly be viewed as more able to hold accountability of taking advantage of/not helping him #it just really is the fact that yukine NEEDS to be at fault SOMEONE has to be at fault #only one person so its a nice little neat package that I dont have to think or have sympathy for or critique anyone else after c: #like its SOOOOOO easy to say either EVERYONE and/or NO ONE is at fault and yettttt- it boggles me lkdjabfn- #the story literally bonks you over the head with ''its because hes a child and can literally never grow up or mature'' MULTIPLE TIMES... #Im only at chapter 88.whatever and the fact that people are digging into yukine SO HARD...when father is literally RIGHT THERE..... #youre literally blaming someone for being manipulated instead of the manipulater pleaseee

[dreamcast-official]

huh.

#eli.txt #idk i think ive been slowly forgiving my sister for how deeply hurt i felt when she moved out bc now I Get It. like I Get It #when she moved out i was. 9. and in my head i thought she had left because of me. because i wasnt the easiest kid in the world and i know- #-she had a hard time dealing with me when we were alone. we're so far apart in age we couldnt connect for most of my life. and in my head #that was the reason she left home. bc of me. bc she was tired of *me.* #i know now thats not true. and i understand now why she had to leave because if she felt the way im feeling then goddamn im glad she got ou #this feeling SUCKS. nd like #yeah this probably has to do with my father's daughter and the fact that she refused to even meet me until our dad died. #it took my dad dying for my sister to even be in the same room as me. that really messed with me as a kid. like it REALLY did. #so when my sister left home i just kinda went. oh okay neither of my sisters want anything to do with me! i will be alone forever! got it! #AND I KNOW NOW THATS NOT TRUE ON EITHER OF THEIR ENDS. I DONT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP W MY DADS DAUGHTER AND I PROBABLY NEVER WILL #BUT I DONT HOLD ANYTHING AGAINST HER ANYMORE BC GOD HER MOTHER WAS AWFUL AND I GET WHY SHE DIDNT WANT TO MEET ME BC OF EVERYTHING #BUT LIKE. THAT MESSED ME UP AND I JUST STRAIGHT UP ASSUMED BOTH MY SISTERS HATED ME FOR SO LONG. #AND NOW THAT I ALSO FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LEAVE I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY. MY SISTER NEVER HATED ME I WAS NEVER THE REASON SHE LEFT. #I CAN LET GO OF HOW HURT I FELT BECAUSE I ALSO NEED TO LEAVE #god i dont wanna hurt my mom though. #dont think i could leave her completely alone in this apartment. i dont think i can do that. #anyway. hi tumblr did you like todays oversharing episode

[phoenixcatch7]

What I'd really love to see is a svsss au where shen yuan had the immense powers from saiki k.

Like, svsss is already a romcom of a guy shunted into a fantasy world with meta knowledge and immense power for no reason apart from 'make a happy ending' as a fairly thick veneer over an absolute hot mess of a tragedy with a happy ending, red flags galore, complete with a protagonist completely removed from the concept of romance and resigned to his fate of being abandoned by the people around him because of the circumstances he was 'born' into, but he's funny about it.

The disastrous life of saiki k is a fast paced crack comedy about a guy granted immense power for no reason with meta knowledge of the world as a thick veneer over something a little darker and traumatic with a happy ending, complete with a protagonist completely removed from the concept of romance and resigned to being ignored by the people around him because of the circumstances he was born into, but he's hilarious about it.

Now I don't think it should be a 1-1 transplant of saiki to the svsss world, but to imagine an sy with those powers who didn't manage to find loyal friends, who moved out to live alone as soon as possible to avoid issues with his powers, who gravitated to web novels because of their regular updates as opposed to being constantly spoiled for books with finished endings. An sy who despite his ridiculous levels of power died alone in a stupid way and woke up in a world filled with people who also had immense and varied powers, dealing with the prospect of immortality when his own powers are still constantly growing and interfering with his life, but be silly about it.

I want to see a sy with telepathy still failing to understand what lbhs deal is because of his own denial, a sy with the power to crush mountains with a finger trying not to blow down walls with a sneeze because someone put him on a mountain FILLED with plants in SPRING, an sy who deleted an entire country from the planet aged four trying to dodge overly enthusiastic maidens he keeps saving because he doesn't want to steal from the protagonist and also no, lady, please. Shen yuan sitting in the water prison absolutely deadpan as people try and scare him with 10 iq stories about the acid waterfalls. An sy who hares around the peak trying to avoid being spotted on valentines day as he redirects unwanted admirers and improves his disciples dates just so they can all have a good day.

An sqh who really, honestly truly doesn't know how pidw was made real, honest!! All he could do was see ghosts! It's not his fault the story he wrote to make rent turned into all of this!! But because you're here can you pretty please make some ice, I'm in desperate need of air con and my king hasn't showed up in weeks!

Sqq and sqh playing telepathic chess during boring meetings and sqq leaving him to suffer when sqh is asked a question even though he himself knows the answer.

Lbh trying everything to get shizuns attention and discovering his total weakness to his cooking. Like, will let you cheat in class levels of bribery.

Sqq stalking dourly through fields of aphrodisiac plant because he's raised his body temperature high enough to burn out any pollen before it gets too close and the system just despairing at getting this man to do something interesting.

Cat!sqq transforming back as fast as he can because he's got a meeting in half an hour and having to rush around trying to find something to cover the cat ears he didn't manage get rid of.

Shen qingqiu pulling out his limiters and dropping the mask to reveal a deity in the shape of a man, something crafted purely of psychic energy and burning fury, determined to hold maigu ridge together and keep the realms apart with his will alone, to save luo binghe if it killed him again. A shining aura stretching miles, glowing like a star, halting the earthquake with his bare hands.

Sqq seeing a bug and freaking out so hard he teleports to the northern demon realm and lands in a slushy pond, and sqh nearly giving him away because of how hard he's laughing.

#Like honestly the parallels are great #Long post #Sqq leaning hard into the aloof elegant scholar vibes because he still struggles to control his strength even with the limiters #He doesn't want to hurt anyone. #Sqh: please please tell me what my king is thinking right now he's been glaring at me all day! #Sqq (having been forced to hear an endless carnal monologue for hours from him): oh no not a chance. No way are you getting me involved. #Sqq: whatever insane thing you two have going on go ahead. Just don't involve anyone else in that EVER. #Sqh: bro ����?! #Sqq: *makes a peace sign and goes invisible* #Sqh: BRO?!! Not even... Expensive northern import for the protagonist to cook with? #Sqq: *reappears with a pop* go on... #Sqh is salty he didn't get the godlike powers when he created the world they're in. Sqq tells him it isn't worth it #Being forced to see the past of an object with just a touch when you live in 5 million words of bad smut?? NO THANK YOU. #But both being espers AND from the same world they're still buddies (much to sqqs dismay). #Sqh is just barely outside sqqs telepathy range on an ding and lives in fear of him sensing him writing and catapulting himself #through the window at mach ten to beat him up. #Sqq every time he has to sit through a meeting with some corrupt official: thought crimes aren't real thought crimes don't count #Sqh: so how are you this bad at feelings. My guy you are an empath. #Sqq: shut up. #Lbh would definitely catch sqq doing something impossible or op and be so head over heels. He's like his father that way. #svsss #svsss au #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #scum villain's self saving system #scum villian self saving system #sqq #shang qinghua #sqh #svsss shen qingqiu

[theinfinitedivides]

dear God pls. pls i am begging you let me never have to hear Ha Do Kwon scream like that again i don't think i'll make it

#tv: bloody heart #bloody heart #kbs bloody heart #ha do kwon #oh seung hoon #kdrama #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #he raised this boy. he f*cking raised this boy for all these years treated him as his son tried so hard to keep him out of danger #and the last words he hears from him is in a letter as he walks straight into the jaws of hell. #'i am thankful to have been able to call you my father' BITCH!!!!!!! #and you f*cking know that's what's going in circles in his head as he sits there and cradles what they have left of him #i need to be put down. locked up somewhere i am this close to just breaking down you won't hear from me ever

[nonuggetshere]

I NEED to update my Radiance's gijinka design I stg I have such cool art ideas for her and PK but I am. So lazy.

Two sides of the same coin, equally as awful morally grey people that would maul each other to death if put in the same room, I love them 💜

I need to also focus more on her role in my AU because while I've rewritten pretty much the entire thing she was left behind and now idk what to do with her in the long run oopsie. All ik is that she ends up being mortal or near mortal after her fight with Ghost and Flower and she is Not happy about it, but it's also the only way PK would have left her alive and Flower is big on second chances so now she's just here, bitter and angry and a shadow of her former self (and actually I just didn't have it in me to kill her before I could do something cool with her + I like the potential dynamic she could have with other characters)

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #dunno where to put her now. originally she was going to return to her moth tribe and i might. do that still. have her try to live as just a #part of her people? what do ya think? humbles her a lot over time id imagine. but at first she's furious #she DESPISES the entire Palelight family especially PK and the two of his spawn that did this to her. doesn't help that Flower likes to go #to the blue lake to relax and its worringly close to the resting grounds. might have to abandon that habit for a bit if a certain #malice-eminating moth finds out about it. hard to relax when theres an angry ex god glaring at you. looking as if theyre planning your #demise. ya know? #i like the scene where Flower takes her to the palace and they walk in on PK having a meeting with his court about possible solutions to the #plague. suddenly becomes most stressful meeting of his life <3 #pk: And what stops me from just killing you right now? | Radi: UH- #flower steps between them #Radi internally: Oh thank god they're this stupid #one of initial character traits of Radis was the fact she kept referring to Flower as PK's child and praising them and rubbing their #existence in his face. like in a 'oh you must be so proud' way. because she KNEW it made him feel awful and she took delight in it #couldnt give two shits about flower she just liked to use them as a poking stick on their father #theyd bicker so much it was funny #WL sarcastic: Oh. Great. Wonderful. Thanks for that. As if we didn't have enough on our heads. #Flower barely standing and bleeding all over the place: 👍

[mediumsizedpidegon]

i think yuzu deserves a little murder. as a treat.

#bleach #kurosaki yuzu #this is about isshin: the man who decided that the best way to “teach” his son was to hit him when he least expected it. #I know bleach intends it to be funny slapstick but it really really isn't. isshin starts hitting his kid when he's NINE YEARS OLD. #and isshin is hitting ichigo as hard as he can. he's kicking him awake. this is not an environment a child can SURVIVE in much less an adul #it only takes one mistake for ichigo to get hurt irreparably. how many times has ichigo fallen over and hit his head? Got a concussion? #sprained or broken his bones? there is no world in which ichigo and his sisters who are WATCHING and unable to stop this #feel safe in isshin's house or with isshin. #the moment that isshin first hits ichigo is the moment that all three of them are orphaned. that's the moment where their father dies #and ichigo is the one who picks up the slack. he's the one who parents his siblings. Masaki dying destroys ichigo's childhood but #the first time isshin hits him is the moment that ichigo the child dies. #and imagine you're yuzu. you're yuzu who can't remember your mother and the word 'parent' makes you think of your older brother #and there's a man in your house. he's loud. he laughs a lot. and he hits your brother-parent without his smile budging an inch. #you can't remember your father but this is not him. he's dead. he died years ago. #There's a man in your house. And he's killing your brother. One day he's going to actually kill him. #so you have a choice: your brother or the man in your house. #it is a very easy choice #tw abuse #my posts

[evansbby]

.

#I hate my dad so much #he just said the most calculatedly mean thing he could possibly say to me #it’s like he paused and thought about what would hurt me and then said it #is everyone’s dad an emotionally abusive piece of shit or is it just me #and I hate the way he treats my mom #and she’s just supposed to take it and if she even says anything to defend herself #he acts like the biggest man child and throws a tantrum #everyone in this house just walks on eggshells around him #do men just never grow up???? #he’s just been so nasty towards me lately #like I just can’t wrap my head around it #like he’s been emotionally abusive for years but that’s nothing new #me and my siblings have long ago learnt to laugh and brush it off and make a joke out of it #but what he did today was so mean #I was more astonished #like imagine your own father saying something so nasty to you #I wonder if he knows that he’s alienated all of his children #and sometimes I feel so bad for him #does anyone else have this cycle of hating their dad then also feeling sorry for him??? #bc I know he works so hard and I know he loves us and has done a lot for us #I know that!!! #but does that excuse his behaviour??? #are we all meant to just firm it and shrug it off and just let him do and say whatever??? #usually I always stand up to him and yell at him and tell him to his face whatever I have to say #but lately it’s like… what’s the point? it’s like talking to a brick wall #I will say that he does apologise to me sometimes #but what’s the point of an apology if you keep doing it again and again #and how can you say something so nasty to your own daughter #with the INTENT to make me feel bad and insecure??? #I already have this thing that everyone hates me and he fed into that and said something he knew would hurt me