#a fact about me is im very normal

[arundolyn]

"Oh, this? Don't be ridiculous! It's not a marriage certificate! Look closely, okay? Throw away all your hangups, and simply do what you feel. Aren't you just dying to sign it? Won't it feel good? 3... 2... 1... sign!"

#elphelt valentine #guilty gear #guilty gear strive #poses #respects #crow.gif #guilty gif #this is probably all for now im kinda going through it rn im tired #but i love her so very much #fun fact of the two(?) lines for her silly little scoot respect. the wedding one she scoots way longer. like half the screen #i put it here bc its funnier to me #normally its like... a third of the distance for the other ones #its a concert poster on the gif bc i think player 2 was i no i cant be fucked to change it #why does she say that line like shes a magician also girl you sound like youre about to start doing card tricks

[critter-covenant]

"ooooh thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!"

They'd be good friends I like to thinmk

#hoppy being very super touchy when happy or excited #catnap being touch averse with some exceptions (and preferring prior warning) #hoppy forgetting this fact and grabbing n' tugging him around when she gets excited anwyas (she'll apologize later) #they're so sillyyy #all the ways the critters get along on a one by one basis is so interesting to me I like to think about what makes them all click #im rambling again oops oops hoppy catnap friendship is also peak i take no criticism /silly #poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #smiling critters #smiling critters fanart #catnap #hoppy hopscotch #poppy playtime fanart #sorry for disappearing for half a week I got sick and then just. didn't really draw sorry about that one chat #thats pretty normal behavior for me actually dw if I ever go silent for a while that's my norm unfortunately

[calypsolemon]

Everyone on this website talks about the choice to not have children to end the terrible cycle of familial abuse or whatever but I feel like nobody on here wants to talk about the more mundane and pressing reality of wanting children but being paralyzed by the understanding that bringing them into our current society inherently means traumatizing them in some small way simply because there are no good options.

Like. Dont want to put a child through public school because public school sucks, but homeschool is isolating and private school is not an option for ppl with no money. Dont want to raise a child with a forced gender but attempting to raise a child neutrally may socially isolate them or cause authorities to question your parenting methods. Don't want to raise a child in an isolated suburb where they have nowhere to travel independantly but affordable housing with ample room for families in city environments are basically nonexistent.

It can be hard not to feel judgemental of yourself for wanting to bring a child into the world at all under these conditions. Unlike with refusing to continue the "cursed bloodline" or whatever, there's just no personal pride one can take in deciding not to have kids because the world would force me to make choices that hurt them irregardless of my desires.

#and this isn't me saying i do or don't want kids but rather #these are my main worries with the possibility of having children #also i think this is a seperable issue from worrying about kids just getting hurt in the normal human way #i don't want to shield my future child from any possible negative experiences like #heartbreak and loss and things like that are very normal #but I'm talking institutional. im talking the little violences that made my actual abuse so easy to hide #and the systems that further traumatized me #the fact that id just have to put my potential child through them too just... sucks.

[witchkittymeow]

Shes finally here!

I'm really proud of those heels idk how I managed to balance her so she stands

Shelf:

I'm running out of space SO fast

#its been so long i forgot how to tag these #drawtectives #drawfee #drawtectives fanart #drawfee fanart #claytectives #uhhh #joe beans #truebeans #yes we stan truebeans here #I wanted to like #okay the rot is getting worse everyday i wanted to rsmble about the fact everytime i maie a new figure the attention to detail in this curs #-d show gets pointed our so much more to me #like #shes even got blue heels to homage dolly i wouldnt be surprised if julia domehow did a full research or something #man idk im so in love with this stupid show #also i now know the gradient pant/skirt thing is common enough in the designs its making me beilieve its a very Interesting art style choic #i #im normal #🤧😞

[frootbyethefoot]

trophy hunting

[ID: a digital drawing of maki harukawa from danganronpa v3: killing harmony. maki is standing dead center, with a blank, almost thousand yard stare, and a neutral expression. she is holding a black and white checkered piece of fabric, with a splash of bright pink blood on it.

behind her are three panels. the first panel, towards the left shows a crossbow, the strike-9 poison bottle, the antidote covered in blood, and a bloody handprint. all of the panels are in greyscale, except for the bright pink blood. the second panel, in the middle, shows kokichi oumas clothing with blood running down the back. the final panel shows kaito momotas jacket, with blood running down the sleeve. END ID/]

#one of those days where i think about makis place in trial 5 huh #im pretty sure i was thinking about this piece #with the idea of makis initial 'kill ouma even if it dooms everyone else' plan #because it ruins me. maki harukawa chapter 5 slays me and i love her #sick with so much rage and grief and a need for justice above all else #it breaks my heart. the fact that she thought ouma was ALIVE and taunting her almost until the very end #and she STILL chose to disclose her plan and try to steer everyone into making the right choice #hi i have normal thoughts on chapter 5 #maki harukawa #im not tagging the other two #bc i mean. its just clothing #but they're here #drv3 #ndrv3 #danganronpa #image described #joeys art

[isa-ah]

the way this fic builds the tension so gradually that you genuinely DONT EXPECT IT when it SNAPS on you oh my god. oh my god. "that careful character of terus was not returning." followed by "yesterday was thursday, isari." guess ill just. guess ill just jump off the fucking roof. guess ill jsut rip my shirt open and yell

#i wish i could explaint o my husband why this is making me like sick. physically ill #AGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #sorry i wouldnt normally even talk about reading a fic on here but its. very very long. im on i think chapter 32 of 47? #and theyre long chapters. im reading basically a wholeass book right now #multiple books even #and ive never read a fic structured like this in my life #normally if theyre going to make a character insufferable they have to work on rectifying it within a chapter or two #like an apology to the reader #no im 32 in and ritsu is the worst. the worst. hes literally becoming a bona fide villain. its insane #ive never read a fic like this before. jesus christ dude #im still reeling from. from the fact that they were both at the mall and that was hours of reading ago

[angeliteonfridgeduty]

something something cube content

#internecion cube #art #silly #yeah that's right my brain told me to watch internecion cube like a few days ago and i listened #i am now definitely totally very normal about it #i also discovered that Y is accidentally unintentionally very similar to kirie in terms of many things #literally second member of the c262 trio that turned out to be stupidly similar to an already existing character by pure accident lmao #whats next. who is L gonna end up being stupidly similar to. #aaanyway uh yeah um cube stuff uhhh umm #I.C-0n #i know its literally impossible to tell but yeah uh it's her i swear to you #soup jar. that's it. that's all i'm willing to say #fun fact im putting the darn cubes into FT. you cannot stop me. must add internecion cube into silly anomaly-filled fandom mash au.

[fosterscribbles]

I am giving in, it's time to share my sparkledog au ✨️

I've talked quietly about this on this blog before, and I've been drawing them for a year-ish now. I never posted them cause it's niche and idk if its something people care about, But it's my blog I will post sparkle dog au if I want lol

Anyway, welcome to sparkle dog au, where Tome and Shou have silly sparkle dog ocs and slowly drag all of their friends into making their own (or forcibly designing one and then begging them to entertain the idea). It's a self indulgent au, this is the type of kid I was at this age and it's fun to think about what it would be like if the mp100 kids were too. They are all partly based on my experiences, design preferences, types of things I'd draw, and actual childhood art and ocs from when I was in middle school. It's really just about the silly art the gang might make of their sparkledogs.

I had a hard time trying to come up with names for most of these guys tbh, so most are unamed/i refer to them but their actual name. BUT Tome's character is Orbit, Mob is just Mob, and Inukawa's is Pixel! Every single one has a ref made or in wip stage, from the main kids, telepathy club, the girls, etc. Idk if I'll post the refs, they mostly serve as a guide for me to make art, just know I'm losing my mind in mp100 sparkledog hell.

Below the cut are some of the first drawings I did. I used the lineart of my real middle school art, all ranging from 2011-2015

#im sorry but its time to unleash these onto my platforms <3 #i was holding them back before but i give up: sparkledog au be upon ye #i could literally talk about this au forever im very normal about i SWEAR #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mp100 sparkledog au #too tired to character tag atm #but anyways if anyone else here was an intenet sparkle dog kid in the early 2010s this ones for you #i have sooo many facts and hcs but im chosing to stop here for the mental health of everyone around me

[koskela-knights]

OOGA WOOGA Champion of Light on YT has dropped the HQ Koskela ads 🥵🥵 Now I can be thirsty af again but in HD

Dont mind me admiring them all over again 👀 the details in their clothes, the wrinkles/crowfeet eyes, the body hair, etc.

#going crazy over quality shots of Ilmo’s chest hair and Jaakko’s hairy armpit #u can even see his chest hair in the karate outfit and the adventure tour ad 👀👀👀 #THEIR BEAUTIFUL EYES FUCK #fuck me like geez 🥵🥵🥵😳😳 #the ahma ad always makes me so lustful for jaakko like i need to sit on his lap ASAP #im sorry but is that jaakko’s nipple i spot 👀👀 #being NOT normal about this and very GAY in fact #oops thirst post #my ramblings

[sea-jello]

every single little detail they managed to fit into bmc

yeah there are SO MANY details in this show and its driving me crazy so im gonna amass everything into posts

ik many of these are well known or obvious or whatever but im doing it so anyone who didnt know about any of these could easily learn it all in one go without having to scour the internet or rewind and watch the background in every single scene yk (also i noticed so many of these myself and im kinda proud and its a way for me to get it all out)

i’m also going to be using @/thesquirrelqueer's be more chill archive which is amazing and frankly scary so go give em some love

edit i changed my mind halfway through this cause thats gonna take me forever so if you want to see all the visual details go check that out. its like thats the artists reference and this is the writers reference i think all the little quirks showcase their personality quite well

im gonna start all the way from the beginning so FIRST UP is 2river's "More Than Survive" (album+show, specifically the one 35 minute 👢)

im telling you its LONG so prepare yourself for that. maybe pull up the video to watch side by side so yk what im talking about (the video on yt is "this isnt be more chill" because its NOT be more chill) tiny warning for very mild nsfw mentions cause its bmc

from the first "c-c-c-cmon" up to "and now of course its time to hit the road" theres a sound that sounds like a mouse clicking to the beat in the background. i thought this was to reflect the show when jeremy stops clicking at his laptop at the line "and now of course its time to hit the road" to gets up and put his pants on, but during "but that really isnt such a change/if im not feeling weird or super strange" you can still hear the clicks. maybe its there just for repetitions sake cause it breaks off at "which means ill be uncomfortable all day" and resumes for those two lines, then you dont hear it again. you can hear this one very clearly if you watched the show, but its a little fainter in the album (i figured it out from the album lmao go me)

during the bus scene in the show when everyones going to their places, jeremy almost crashes into rich and you can hear his voice hitch

christine watches this interaction before "sitting down" on the bus to read

i think brooke is asleep during the bus ride, and gets woken up when the bus jerks forward

jake nearly drops his phone too (again this is all based on the 35 minute video on yt. im sure small things change every show, but this is all we got so im picking this one apart)

jeremy keeps smoothing his hair behind his right ear with his palm, probably a nervous gesture. he does it when they "get off the bus"

during the ensembles (i dont think thats the right word but it just makes it easier for me you know who im talking about) "c-c-c-cmon", michael loses his signal on his phone when they get to school, hence the "cmon"

chloe impatiently gestures to brooke to "cmon" and follow her (yk)

jenna waves to christine. christine puts her book down and waves back, then again just watches jenna and then people

rich messes with jenna and she goes to hit him

after the "c-c-c-cmon"s rich jumps out from backstage and hits jeremy in the nuts you can hear jeremys faint noise of pain

in the little dance break jake and jenna are dancing on opposite sides of the stage, then wave at each other (im pretty sure). jeremy looks back and forth between them while they dance and mistakenly waves to jenna when they spin around (just watch it youll know what i mean)

when chloe, brooke and jenna are gossiping, up to jakes "its a good thing i rock at pool" the "rich set a fire" tune plays in the background (something something gossip rumors) chloe is holding a textbook with the earth on it, so science or something probably. there’s a magazine article page that says “what cheating does to [i can’t see what it says]”, which i’m assuming is a reference to jake?? she also have page cutouts of hair products, straighteners, etc, and i think a picture of either taylor swift or brooke i really can’t tell 💀💀when rich writes on jeremys backpack, he pulls him up by the collar to say "youre dead", then pushes him (jeremy pushes his hair back again) into mr reyes' path where hes walking to put up the play sign up sheet. (side note gerards voice cracked on 'dont touch me tall ass" so it sounds like hes having a tantrum and will connolly looks like a meerkat and i love them both)

when jake says "its a good thing i rock at pool" chloe and brooke hide behind a pillar and listen in, then chloe does a sort of "i told you so" gesture. during the whole "i navigate the dangerous hall" scene, brooke chases after chloe as she storms off upset. rich messes with jenna again and she chases him offstage, then mr reyes follows (im pretty sure he pinched her ass) i dunno if this is a coincidence but christine runs after them offstage too. christine and jenna friendship w

jeremy genuinely sounds so excited when he realized it was a sign up sheet and i wholeheartedly believe he wanted to join the play even before christine, she was just the final push

when the ensemble comes back out before the "christiiiiiiiiine" mr reyes comes out dragging rich by the ear while jenna smugly walks behind them (read back to him pinching her ass). rich flips him off after he lets go. jake walks past chloe without looking up from his phone and chloe does a 180 to chase after him. forgot to mention michael has his hood on and bops to his music in the background of all the ensemble scenes but yk its pretty well known

oh god class scene here we go. rich and jake make the 👌👈 sign at michael. rich very aggressively shoves his WHOLE HAND into the circle and opens his hand. jenna raises her hand and mr reyes brushes her off in favor of trying and failing to get jake to stop, so he moves on to rich. he puts a hand on richs arm and sorta makes the "wtf" gesture. rich makes the "sorry about that" motion with his hand still around his wrist which is kinda funny to me (just watch it i cant even describe it) jake turns to talk to brooke, who was previously talking to chloe. jenna waves to christine again. also christine seemed really shy every time jenna waves at her, and never waves first. idk if this is a coincidence but chloe flips her hair back and brooke mirrors it right after. there’s a poster for an anime club on the bulletin board with the sign up sheet

MICHAEL

jeremys fucking bops to his intro i love him

really quick when michael goes "and were almost at the end of this song" and does his dance jeremy bops along with him. NOW if we stretch a bit and say this actually happened then that means jeremy knew what song he was listening to/where hes at based on him dancing to it earlier they know each other so well they are best friends and possibly boyfriends in this essay i will

jeremy flops his head to the side on the beat and with michaels "how was class" slap hes so dramatic

i think i might be tripping but right after "i hate this school" and during the tore it up and flushed it thing michael in the bathroom plays very very faintly in the bg. IM NOT TRIPPING in the album mitb plays during the humanity stopped evolving thing up to "better time in history to be a loser". and THEN from "so own it" up to the christine jingle THE PANTS SONG PLAYS. you can just barely hear it in the boot too

during the first "canigula" michael waves in front of jeremys face and he kicks at him

before jeremys sign up verse michael takes his lunch tray and jerks his head towards the sheet in a "go on" motion and then ofc pushes him towards it HES SUPPORTIVE OF HIM HELLO this furthers my belief of jeremy being a secret theatre kid. jeremy looks back at him on "who cares if people think im lame" like hes reassuring himself can you hear my heart

when rich shouts "GAAAY" mr reyes points and goes after him

when they all come out to dance, jeremy first mistakenly waves to chloe when she waves at jenna, then rich when he goes to dap jake up, then tries to wave at michael but he spins away while presumably listening to his music. christine just watches chloe and brooke talk again

when they all start slowly standing up at the "go"s jeremy looks so confused

also when he jumps off the chair that is PEAK meerkat moment. then he lands and just stands there for like a solid 3 seconds its so funny to me

LORD almighty we're done that took weeks okay uhh please tell me if i should do EVERYTHING everything like broadway off broadway australia cause lord knows im the ceo of bmc australia rn also i dont want to sound pretentious but please reblog cause i spent so much time and effort on this useless fucking post 😭😭 but whatever i had fun

#WOW i am so normal about this fucking show #also a while ago i learned fucking joe iconis is in fact on tumblr so mr joe iconis if you see this hello you have a very nice musical #shoutout to thesquirrelqueer for giving me permission to use the archive even though i ended up not using it #like i said thats the artists reference and this is the writers reference #watching the background gives you a lot of insight into the characters #i tried to seperate them into sections i hope its not too hard to read #im heavy tagging this idc im not spending so long on this for it to flop #bmc #be more chill #be more chill musical #bmc two river #be more chill two rivers #jeremy heere #michael mell #rich goranski #brooke lohst #chloe valentine #jenna rolan #jake dillinger #christine canigula #bmc jeremy #jeremy bmc #michael bmc #bmc michael #rich bmc #bmc rich #bmc brooke #bmc chloe #bmc jenna #bmc jake

[locoier]

going insane. GOING INSANE. thinking about chafaland. thinking about c!roier. thinking about c!natalan. thinking about c!cry. thinking about chafaland roier pov being some like… crazy soap-opera-esque yandere cringefail series that is also just sort of. really horrific and sad. chafaland you will always be famous no one does it like you!!!!

#its really weird to be a chafaland enjoyer on mcytblr because most qsmp fans know OF chafaland #but very few people have actually watched it. probably due to the fact that its documented VERY POORLY #and a fair amount of its content is probably lost to time #but idk man. i watched chafaland back in… august?? i think for the first time #and i have not been normal abt it since #and i feel insane talking about it here because im like… talking to the wall about this #it will always be famous to me though #chafaland

[healingheartdogs]

Cardio said my echocardiogram ultrasound, exercise stress test, and week long heart monitor all showed no serious issues, my resting heart rate is fine, but that my heart rate does seem to rise very rapidly under even small amounts of stress (postural changes, taking stairs, casually walking around my house) and rises very high (160+ bpm according to the monitor) so now I get to be put on beta blockers to see if they work and if they do she said that is sufficient evidence to confirm for sure that it's POTS.

Obviously could confirm it as well with a tilt table test but those are TORTURE based off what I've heard from fellow POTSies so I am very thankful that she doesn't think that's necessary and will not be making me do one.

#i was not expecting to get dx and meds this fast tbh but im very happy about it #i think the fact that she also has POTS herself helps because she is very well acquaintaned with what it looks and feels like #and how hard it is to actually catch with orthostatics in office unless youre having a bad heart day #so my orthostatics not being within range was unsurprising to her and she was like #'that doesnt mean anything you clearly still have a heart rate issue going on even if it didnt show itself right now' #i didnt do shit the entire week i had that monitor on to like physically exert myself but my heart rate still hit almost 170 a few times #also the doctor who did my stress test asked me if i ever experience any chest discomfort or pain and i was like hm no dont think so #and he went 'your chart says you have palpitations though?' #and i was like '... those count as discomfort???' akdjaicidjwjcjsn the answer is yes apparently #im just so used to them now because i have them daily that they dont even really register to me anymore #unless theyre bad enough to knock the wind out of me or make me cough #they just make me anxious which... ig is also a form of discomfort #chronic illness and chronic pain problems though lol not having a normal baseline for discomfort and pain #ndr #not dog related #health stuff #not that anyone probably cares lol but im excited about getting things that have neen affecting me for years FINALLY figured out #im not crazy im just disabled!!!! #*been

[demigod-of-the-agni]

"Spider-Man India: Tangled in Love" takes place during the events of "Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse"; between the collapse of the Mumbattan Bridge, to when Pavitr re-appears at the end of the movie with Gwen. This short fan-film is simply a love story and revolves around the idea of Pavitr's dilemma about being with Gayatri since his being Spider-Man will put her at risk. Is this love worth fighting for in spite of all that?

rejoice, my fellow pavitr fanatics, for we will get the closest thing to a spider-man india spinoff film

it drops on 25/02 !!!!! support the creator!!! @\jibberjabber on instagram and youtube

#BABES I AM SHAKING AND SOBBING #HOWLING SCREAMING CLAWING AT THE WALLS #genuinely had no idea this project was in the works #and it's coming out in a few days!!!!!!!!!!! excuse me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #GIVE IT TO ME RIGHT NOW #OKAY but the fact that this short film is so similar to one of my first ever pavitr fics......... :))))))) <- is about to cry #genuinely going insane GOING INSANE GOING CRAZY IM VERY NORMAL ABOUT THIS #pavitr prabhakar #gayatri singh #spider man india #spider man #atsv #across the spiderverse #mumbattan #fan film #short film #agnirambles

[roetrolls]

:))))) hrgh

ok so not to get too venty on here but

i start my final quarter of college tomorrow w/ my senior film due in 2 months, and my neurologist just upped my steroid dosage which might result in new side effects (or maybe already has? the steroids have already been fucking with my vision but it seems a lil worse and now i think im having trouble falling asleep too) AND im gonna have to deal with infusions during this too :')

o(-< so hrghhhhhhh basically the next 10 weeks are about to be really stressful and i just wanna ask that everybody be patient/gentle with me

#ughhh im so nervous #my hearts gonna explode outta my chest bro OTL #im also trying very hard not to worry about my treatment progress #i trust my neurologist but it is becoming very difficult to leave every appointment with #'i was hoping we'd see more progress by now. im going to up the ante' #ive already progressed so far and would be beyond thrilled if this was the limit #but im scared that if it IS it's gonna take constant work to maintain it #i cant get infusions for the rest of my life #and like #ok so when i started the steroid #i had a bit of a backslide in progress at first #which really scared me #turns out thats normal! #but she didnt warn me #and it turns out. she didnt warn me because. #in the 2000 people she has prescribed this steroid to #i am the only person who had that happen on a dose less than 40mg #so! not normal actually! #and i know bodies are just weird sometimes but that combined with the fact that apparently my case is really stubborn... #o(-< im scared #and the classes i need to graduate arent offered in the summer so if i cant push through them with all of this going on i cant just #drop one then graduate then finish in summer (which they let you do) #puts my head in my hands

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say..... #it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me. #i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable. #bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there. #dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH???? #my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way. #Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer. #Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this? #For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this. #why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness? #What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...? #hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!! #i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful. #but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting. #I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing. #I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come. #Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......