#a little different tho

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[lotus-pear]

old dazai lighting practice i found in my drafts that i have no intention of finishing so u guys can have it

#bro this is so fucking old u can tell bc i had no idea how to draw hands💀💀😭 #still looks ok tho i think. i genuinely had no idea where the light source was while i was doing this #btw this was my attempt at painting if u guys were wondering if i only knew how to do cell shading😍😍 ur incorrect! i can render!! (poorly) #october me was a different artist forreal #also ignore that little doodle off to the side i was testing out a pen #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #lotus draws

[linterteatime]

Like a deer caught in headlights

#deltarune #utdr #noelle holiday #fanart #my art #This drawing is so different in vibe to the others I make lmao #but it was fun to make! #Tho it did make me slightly uncomfy for a bit while I was making it #because of the lighting and background I think #probably creeped me out a little so that's funny #also please tell me if i need to put a tw or cw on this one because dunno man im not sure #im not implying her getting run over just being frozen out of fear lmao

[time-slink]

Voidwalker scar pretty please? 👉👈

[ ask game ]

HI STIFFF this actually kicked my ass super hard i haven’t drawn scar in forever

#my art #asks #art asks #gtws #goodtimeswithscar #dude. i went thru so many ideas with this n at some point i just went fuck it. lineart practice X) #he looks a little classic green alien but love that for him ? #my idea of voidwalker is limited from fic and mostly centered around breathing a different atmosphere tbh #was fun tho tyy stiff #last one of these asks i’ll do for the foreseeable future but there were also some i liked n might do one day :D

[daeyumi]

💫🌟 There Flowed Forth (Consecration of the Self) ☀️✨

[Cycle of the Stars au]

#zelda #legend of zelda #zelda au #loz au #ganondorf #au ganondorf #zelda fanart #daeyumi art #cycle of the stars #cycle of the stars au #cycle of the stars ganondorf #whew i FINALLY finished this one #feels like it took forever lol but i’m pretty happy with how it turned out #one last piece to finish up this series (it’s impa) but it might be a little bit before i get around to it tho #but hey at least i got the 3 triforce holders done #one of these days i will draw ganondorf with a different expression lol i can’t help it if he’s perpetually pissed off

[ladygoofus]

There was a throwaway line in a recent fhjy episode where brennan defined friendship as something like "mutual responsibility to another person" and i've been thinking about that all week. it's so simple but it feels like a lot of people's definitions would be about enjoying spending time with someone or liking the same things, rather than it being about feeling enough of a connection with someone that you choose to look out for each other. it's such a small line to latch onto but i genuinely wanna know where he got it from

#i'm 90% sure it was in fhjy and i want to find the context; it might have been a different d20 season tho i've been skipping around a little #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20

[fauvester]

THE KING OF THE NORTHERN DESERT... AND THE LITTLE CROWN PRINCE OF THE NORTHERN DESERT!

i like to think that demon children are naturally very self sufficient and feral and after birth their parents just sort of. throw them to the wilds to raise themselves. but shang qinghua isn't going to let MBJ pass up on being a boydad god damn it

#sv3 #moshang #OOOHHHHHH LITTLE DOMPLINGFACE XUEJIAO BABBBYYYYYY #IN HIS LIDDLE BOOTS... #thinkin about how Caligula means like Little boots cause his father would always take him on military campaigns with him <3 #mbj like. what do you mean 'raise' a child. they 'raise' themselves. #if they die they die. if they dont they will grow strong enough to fight for the throne #sqh out here fighting for his life with his own attachment issues #like HOW AM I THE MOST SENSIBLE AND EMOTIONALLY COMPETENT PARENT HERE... PLZ MY KING #mbj will get used to parenting. he'll thaw out. even tho his kid is.. not what he expected lol #having a kid via writing him into existence is VERY different from raising one homemade.. rip

[happyheidi]

。　♡ 。　　♡。　　♡

♡。　＼　　｜　　／。　♡

always take care

of your little heart

♡。　／　　｜　　＼。　♡

。　♡。 　　。　　♡。

#let’s not hope it’s too little or too big. like Goldilocks we want our heart to be juuuust right #haha so dumb #sorry #just thinking from a health perspective over here #cottagecore #she’d make a helluva doctor tho #no one can tell me different #cute #positivity #emoticons #text #symbols #goldilocks to the emergency room STAT #‘that scalpel is too little.. I need one that’s juuuust…’ hahah. this visual I can’t 🤣🤣

[kikker-oma]

OMG I LOVE THE WAY YOU DRAW THE LU BOYS

Could I pls pat pat Hyrule??

Hyrule is positively glowing with happiness from the pats🥰🥰

#sweet anon #I wanted to try drawing a glow effect I saw #its a little different that what I usually do but I like it! #def takes more time tho #theres layyyerrrs #but anyways #I hope you like hyrules big cheesy smile🥰 #he is my sunshine boy #linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu fanart #lu hyrule

[starwarjotta]

first work for @codywanfirstkissbingo, "tender kiss" bingo card under keep reading

#codywan #cwfkb2023 #commander cody #obi wan kenobi #star wars #happy holidays everyone <3 #I tried a little bit different painting technique on this and I'm not sure if I like it haha but it was fun to try it out #these two tho #I love them so much #codywan forever and always

[skunkes]

something silly and badly formatted

#a doodley #long post #sorry... i usually just draw freely on canvas then try to fit the drawings into wherever they fit once im done #but i like working with the space i have available and squeezing everything in...doesnt make for the best reading format tho #there's like 5 different art styles here and they all suck. my copium is i wanted to do this quickly #instead of spending so long on each drawing #but whenever i do this i just end up feeling bad about how Bad my little quick doodles are LOL #whatever ! #i wanna say i promise i can draw better than this but that might not be true #im embarrassed by how long this post is 😭 i might edit it to all be under a read more. im Shy. #comic

[insertsomthinawesome]

Today is a beautiful day, and you’re a horrible Leech Twin This was loads of fun actually :D It was fun to branch out into a style different from my usual! I hope you enjoy the boy! He’s havin a good time (and actually not being that much of a horrible Leech xD) [ - Requests are closed - ]

#isa doobles requests #Twisted wonderland #twst #Floyd Leech #twst floyd #Isa's fanart #InsertSomthinAwesome #May2023 #Another case of 'I've drawn this character before but never posted art of them I guess' #that happens a lot w twstie boys apparently ^^;; #I think this style looks similar to persona??? Specifical p5??? I could be wrong?? #that or TWEWY #This was delightfully fun to throw together #he went through a few different itterattions before this pose tho xD #he was fistfighting me for a bit there #but alls well that ends well :D #It was fun dressin him up in something different :) #Eyestrain #eye strain #just in case ^^;; its a little louder/different than normal #Anonymous

[couch-house]

it is with a heavy heart i must announce the fankid-enjoyer has made another fankid 😔 this is comet... ive been playing with him for a while. he's a couple years younger than johnny jr and umm well I'll tell you more about him later. when i post the other pile of drawings i have of him.

#hey did you know you should never make a fan character as a joke or a funny even a little #and you DEFINITELY shouldnt entertain doodling a little design for them and you should NEVER give them a name #bc then youre just going to be attached and youre gonna have to be like man... now ive gotta raise this fankid... #the original doodle on the side of a canvas is from the end of MAY... #these are just from the last month tho. started actually iterating his design. so u see the differences #sth #sonic the hedgehog #sonic oc #stc #sonic the comic #exit sonic #johnny jr #knuckles the echidna #sonknux #id in alt text #comet #see the issue and problem here is that this is baby 2. once i post this u r going to see too much of him #tho i think baby would kill comet immediately so bad. no contest. #comet is niceys baby LOVES k*lling #okay.... bye

[morgaseus]

A little brainrot abt Dr. Ratio (he is kinda giving ‘archmage of the mages tower’ vibes. He acts like he doesn’t care about you but deep down he does! He just doesnt know how to act like it😞)

Not even a year in the relationship yet you already want to divorce him. You can’t stand him! That haughty arrogance of his! It feels like hes belittling you with every chance he gets! Its getting in your nerves! He even acts like you both arent married. Not even a simple greeting. What happened to hi, hello, goodbye, i’ll be away for a while, i’ll be home late. The food that you you leave for him for dinner always goes cold and uneaten. He just comes and go and do as he please! You know its a marriage of convenience, it probably means nothing to him, its just empty promises written in a paper after all. But you still want to be civil with him, he’s the man you married after all. But you couldnt take it it anymore! So, when the chance presented itself, you stormed in his office slamming the divorce paper in his desk.

“I want a divorce” you crossed your arms “i’m done with this marriage, sign it”

He looked at the paper for a moment and then at you. You gripped your left arm, feeling nervous under his stare. But you feel hopeful, he’ll probably sign it. There’s no strings attached anyways. But to your dismay he merely put the paper to the side and went back to whatever he was working with

“I wont sign it and as you can see I’m quite busy, please see yourself out”

Yep. You feel like you’re going insane

#this is a little something i came up with while playing the new SU mode lol #ever since dr.ratios appearance i havent stopped thinking abt him #i feel like hell do quite well with rivals to lovers trope but the ‘rivalry’ is onsided on readers end #if im being honest tho i didnt like dr.ratio at first💀 i feel if his my classmate hell be my natural enemy fr💀 #i cant stand him grrrrr but my god is he🥵🤧 #he also goes well with the fck buddy trope #and the childhood friends trope but you forget/dont recognize him bcs hes so different from when he was a kid??! #hsr x reader #dr. ratio x reader #star rail x reader #dr ratio x reader #dr. ratio #veritas ratio #yuna works

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

second batch of outfit requests!

pattern collage / showfit / clownfit for @koifsssh & candy cardigan Eddie for @jazzzzzzhands <3

#thank you for the Looks! <3 #this little Exercise is pushing me out of my comfort zone with poses tbh #in a really good way!! #im learning stuff! im improving day-to-day in little ways #its the small victories i think. good stuff. #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #figuring out dynamic positions and how to balance weight #also its good clothes practice #historically i have very rarely drawn clothes since yk. im dragon-based #but im slooooowwwwwly getting the hang of folds and creases and the mechanics of different kinds of fabric #that candy cardigan was a Challenge tho my fucking god #it was fun! but difficult. #im fairly satisfied with the result #also sorry eddie's bg is very simple compared to the other ones #they were drawn After i watched spiderverse #& promptly decided to live my art life by the rule: #RANDOM BULLSHIT GO!!!!! #its working for me so far. im getting a lil funky w it. emphasis on Little