#a long ass line feom another song lmao

[stellamancer]

insomnia (katsuki bakugou × gn!reader)

notes: a vent piece, if you will. not edited either lmao. also posted from mobile because my net decided to go out weeps. sorry if the formatting seems weird as a result. I'll fix it in the morning and title it and other stuff.

You can’t sleep. 

In the darkness of the night, everything seems louder. The whirring of the fan. Your partner’s soft snoring. The thoughts plaguing your mind. You want so very much to just yell or scream or something, but he’s asleep and so is everyone else you know. With no outlet, your thoughts swim in your mind, aimless, restless and growing louder. 

You can’t stand it. 

Slowly, you rise from the bed, taking great care to not make any sounds and wake the other person in the bed. He’s got a big day tomorrow, and you don’t want him to catch your sleeplessness. The bed, on the other hand, has other ideas, squeaking out a protest at your early departure. You immediately still, but all you hear is his quiet breathing. Sighing in relief, you amble into the living room. 

At first, you thought to just plop onto the couch, but now your anxiety has got you in a vice grip and you just start to pace back and forth in the living room, a crude mimicry of the way the thoughts are darting around the walls of your mind. It doesn’t do much to comfort you, all you feel now is dizzy. 

Maybe you should go back and grab your phone and your earbuds. Maybe listening to some music or one of those eight hour rainstorm videos will help drown out the thoughts. You consider it for a moment. Yeah. It could be a good idea. You know for sure your phone is on the bedside table, and your earbuds… you think you left them next to it. 

You turn and start to head back to the bedroom but run face first into something solid. You were feeling dizzy. Did you get close to the wall and not realize? But it’s warm, almost like…

“What are you doing?” Katsuki’s voice is loud in your ears, cutting through the silence of the night.

“Um.” Your mind goes blank as you wrack your brain for an answer. “I, uh, was going to the bathroom.” 

“If you’re gonna try and lie to me, then at least try harder.”

“...couldn’t fool you, huh,” you sigh.

 Katsuki snorts. “You’ve been walking in circles for almost five fuckin’ minutes.”

“...you saw?”

“Ain’t that dark.”

After that he goes quiet. Probably waiting for you to properly explain yourself. It’s simple really, and yet you can’t find the words. 

Finally, Katsuki’s lack of patience gets the better of him and he asks, “What is it?”

“Oh. Um… I… I just can’t sleep.” It sounds so silly to say aloud. “I’ve got a lot on my mind and, well…”

You trail off.  

Katsuki doesn't say anything but, you feel like his eyes are on you. Idly, you wonder if he's got some sort of night vision quirk along with that explosion of his. He grumbles and grabs you by the arm, guiding you over to the couch. Katsuki sits you down and plops next to you. 

"Now spill," he almost commands, wrapping an arm around you to pull you closer. 

"But, um…" You hesitate. "You… have work early tomorrow." 

"...yeah, so hurry up. Don't got all night." Despite the brashness of his words, there's still a softness, a kindness to them. Reflexively, you lean closer to him and lay your head on his chest. 

"C'mon," he urges softly when you don't start. "I said I don't got all night."

"I'm thinking." You take a deep breath. "You're gonna think it's all dumb."

Katsuki snorts. "Most of the shit you worry about is dumb, so stop stalling."

"Yeah, yeah…" You press closer to him before unloading your thoughts. 

All of them.

One by one, you pluck the thoughts from your brain and release them into the night air. 

And not once does Katsuki interrupt or tell you that you're being an idiot even though you know he's thinking it. 

By the time your mind is finally devoid of the thoughts that were plaguing you before you think that it must be nearing three in the morning. 

"That it?" Katsuki asks when you finally grow silent. He doesn't sound tired at all and you wonder if he's faking alertness so you don't feel bad for keeping him up.

"...yeah."

"You were right. You really do worry about some dumb shit." Despite the roughness of his words, he pulls you closer, his grip tightening and you know he's just comforting you in his own way. 

"Sorry."

Katsuki shifts and you feel him gently bonk your head with his other hand. "Maybe if you didn't bottle so much of that shit up we'd both be sleepin' right now." 

"...yeah, maybe."

Katsuki clicks his tongue in annoyance and leans his head against you. It almost inaudible but in the stillness of the night you can hear him murmur, his voice almost soft, almost sweet. "...feel better?"

You tilt your head so it's leaning against his as you answer. "Yeah."

"Good." 

"Thanks, Katsuki. For everything." You turn your head and press a soft kiss to his temple. 

He grunts, sleepiness clearly catching up to him. Quietly, you chuckle and shift a little to get more comfortable before finally, finally falling asleep in his embrace.

#bakugou x reader #bakugou x you #nikuniku fics #did my best writing bakugou but I'm still a little inexperienced weeps #i don't like the title but it was either this or like yoasobi which i didn't wanna do or like #a long ass line feom another song lmao #i thought it was good but like too long lmao #emotional support bakugou fic tag