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Beautiful from Ordinary Days
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luthienne · 3 months
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Naomi Shihab Nye, from Red Suitcase; "Living with Mistakes"
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egoschwank · 2 years
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al things considered — when i post my masterpiece #1073
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first posted in facebook april 23, 2022
ion theodorescu-sion -- "ovid in exile" (1915)
"a poem and a mistake" ... ovid
"he enjoyed dancing with a fair stranger, enjoyed the vacuous, chaste talk, through which you listen closely to that bewitching, vague something going on inside you and inside her, which will last a couple of bars more and then, finding no resolution, will vanish forever and be utterly forgotten. but while the bond of bodies is still unbroken, the outlines of a potential love affair begin to form, and the rough draft already comprises everything: the sudden silence between two people in some dimly lit room; the man carefully placing with trembling fingers on the edge of an ashtray the just-lit bit impedient cigarette; the woman’s eyes slowly closing in as in a film scene" ... vladimir nabokov
"i know how men in exile feed on dreams" ... aeschylus
"a post ... and a missed hook ... exiled from maine's streets" ... al janik
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bakergostudy · 8 months
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"All My Friends Are Finding New Beliefs" by Christian Wiman // A tribute to the 2023 USWNT World Cup squad
Insp. by @greta--gill
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maggiecheungs · 5 months
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poems in episode one of the story of kunning palace
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in episode 1 of kunning palace, xuening grabs a book of poems in order to trick her maids into thinking she keeps a ledger. my knowledge of classical chinese isn't particularly high level, but it's good enough to at least identify which poems are on the page that she opens to, and i'm certain they were deliberately chosen because of their relevance to the characters and themes of the show 👀 so i thought i'd do a post about them :)
this page contains three poems by the tang dynasty poet wang changling (698–756): 芙蓉樓送辛漸 (farewell to xin jian at lotus tower); 閨怨 (boudoir lament); and 春宮曲 (spring palace song). detailed analyses under the cut:
1 - 芙蓉樓送辛漸 (farewell to xin jian at lotus tower):
my translation
poem summary: the poet's friend came to wu on a night when cold rain was pouring into the river, and departs again at dawn. the poet accompanies him on his journey as far as the chu mountains [but cannot carry on journeying with him because he must stay at his official post in wu]. as he bids goodbye, he asks his friend to tell his family back in luoyang that his heart is still pure and resolute.
key themes: loneliness and solitude; duty; having a pure heart and noble character
analysis: this one is a fairly famous poem about parting before setting off on a long journey. it's particularly notable for its final line, 一片冰心在玉壺, which roughly translates to "my heart is as pure as a piece of ice within a vessel of jade"... which could easily have been written as a summary of zhang zhe's character.
however! while there's a definite emphasis on having a pure and guiltless heart, when you combine with the previous line, the couplet as a whole also gives a sense that the speaker wishes to be remembered by those they love as someone pure and righteous ("tell my family back in luoyang that my heart is still pure etc"). this seems to be a theme of xuening's second life: wanting to correct her past wrongs and treat the people she cares for better, and to prove to zhang zhe that she can be a good person in future
in particular, this poem makes me think of xuening's last moments in her first life. the poet's final request before he bids farewell to his friend? for his companion to tell his family that he is still noble at heart. xuening's final request before she dies? for xie wei to take her life in exchange for that of zhang zhe, as her way of repenting for being dishonourable and ruining his life... 🤔🤔🤔
2 - 閨怨 (boudoir lament):
poem summary: the young wife in her boudoir knows nothing of sorrow, but as she completes her toilette and ascends the emerald tower, she suddenly sees the hue of poplars and willows on the roadside and regrets letting her husband leave home to pursue official position and power.
key themes: love and marriage; abandonment; ambition (and the effect that ambition has on love)
analysis: it's essentially about how the husband's ambition causes him to abandon his wife to grief and loneliness, which seems like a clear parallel with xuening's willingness to abandon her faithful lovers for the sake of her ambition; there's also the implication that political status is ultimately less meaningful than a loving marriage.
i think it's worth noting that the character 怨 (yuan) in the title is fairly hard to translate, as it implies a mixture of grief and anger/resentment, or even hatred. it's fairly common in boudoir poems about women left behind by their husbands, and in that context it's often translated as 'lament' or 'grief', but i think the ambivalence of the term is fairly important, particularly if you apply it to kunning palace and the mix of grief and anger that xuening inspires in her old lovers in her first life.
3 - 春宮曲 (spring palace song):
poem summary: the wind is mild, the flowers are in full bloom, the moon is full and bright. the emperor has fallen in love with one of his sister's singing serving women, and is showering her with imperial favour and bestowing brocade robes upon her to keep out the spring chill.
key themes: happiness, success, security. (however, with contextual knowledge, there's also the implication of future doom, and that nobody can stay on top of the world forever)
analysis: i didn't quite catch the full significance of this one until i googled it and realised it's a poem about a real historical figure: wei zifu, a song-and-dance girl serving the princess pingyang, who wins the favour of pingyang’s brother, emperor wu of the han dynasty, eventually becoming his second empress (the second-longest serving empress in chinese history!).
wei zifu's story is essentially about a young woman of humble origins who survives numerous palace intrigues and eventually manages to ascend to the position of empress, trusted by the emperor to the extent that she was allowed to rule in his absence. however, after maintaining her position for over three decades, she eventually fell afoul of a conspiracy against her and her son, and committed suicide rather than allowing herself to be deposed.
i mean… the way this links to jiang xuening's first life is so obvious i don't even feel the need to explain it.
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krasivaa · 5 months
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A poem by Prince Vladimir Pavlovich Paley in French, written on 29th June 1913 in Oranien Hof, Kreuznach, signed with "Bodya" and, as it says, ordered by his father, Grand Duke Pavel Alexandrovich on his name day. While the poem itself is in French, date, place & signature are in Russian. I already translated that part, so here is the poem:
A day among many others,
A little liver, a little enthusiasm
Like that, flour rounded off this quatrain
Our little sorrows and yours....
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smokbeast · 3 months
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"You live, but I died, feeling the beat of your life sing across the stars still in the palm of my hands,"
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sfsolstice · 15 days
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when do you know it's over for you?
for me, it's when i want to make them something— cookies, something crocheted, a poem;
excessive daydreaming means nothing to me, for i've spent all my life half here, half somewhere else,
nor is it the thought of sweaty skin and heavy heaving, for i've dreamt of my own since i was a misaligned kid;
for me, the end is in my mundanity— in the things i don't think twice to do,
in the things i do that feel just like breathing;
if you happen to be on the receiving end, just know i'm handing you the knife to end me, right then and there.
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simmyfrobby · 7 months
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devils poem?
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― How to Be Perfect, Ron Padgett
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5ilentw0rds · 12 days
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Sometimes I feel embarrassed thinking about how immature and childish I used to be.
But then I remember, I was in fact just a child.
I wasn't supposed to have it all figured out.
Making mistakes was part of growing up and getting to where I am now.
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27paperlilies · 1 year
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Sacred devision Why do you cry, why do you mourn, most of you are hardly born. Eyes wide to the world you've fit inside, never one to loosen your constricting pride, always moving with the suitable stagnent tide. Sitting quietly or raving madley, from high up here its watched so sadley, the cynical are caste aside, left to rot along the roadside. They do not build empires and for that we are grateful, after all, are we not if fickel, always faithful. Diogenes spectates these violent themes, all while soaking in heavens simple beams, he is content and at the same time spent, this life now turned theatrical event. Petal cheeks are longed to be touched , if only reasons didn't mean so much, The quickness of silver leaving greedy hands only to be stolen from distant lands. I watch it all, I see you torn, but I never doubt that in all your symphony of strife, that there wasn't a meaning in this flickering spark of life.
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letsbeapoemtogether · 3 months
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I'm allowing myself to live my truth, even if it takes a while to forgive myself for a list of mistakes I have made. I'm trying, and that counts.
Abhilasha
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sentientsky · 5 months
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you're in a car with a beautiful (not-) boy and you don't know how you've managed to stay intact this long, how you haven't fractured at the edges yet, lit up from the inside with all that aching, cataclysmic want you've fought so hard to keep quiet—to keep from thrashing in your chest like a sparrow against glass.
you're in a car with a beautiful not-boy, and you're not human but if you were, you're certain this longing would have killed you by now, would have left you in the cool green earth—rotted you down to the quick—a thousand times over (and if that didn't kill you, then the look in his eyes now certainly would). and you don't, can't, won't believe in god because how could She create such a being and then not let you press your palms to the side of his face, not let you hold him, not let you open your mouth like a confession box and tell him, there is a bird inside my chest and you are the center of every solar system and i'm willing to play the part of icarus if only you'd let me. and you don't/can't/won't believe in god, but his eyes open and its like the sun in a three-piece beige suit and you're pretty sure you stopped breathing the moment he got in the car (hell, you haven't tasted oxygen since the moment he stood on the cliffside, hands all empty of swords and fire).
you're in a car with a beautiful not-boy, and you're all spitfire and grief and six thousand years of whispered half-syllables into the dark of a lonely night, of savouring the way his name burns your tongue like sacrament (holy, holy, holy).
and he's handing you a thermos now, and his hand brushes yours and it's been nearly thirty years, and still you'd let him turn you to salt if it meant he might touch you again.
... but you go too fast for him. you always go too fast, with all your ugly, hollow-boned want and your burning yellow eyes and your hands, sullied with the weight of sin; fingertips that look more like claws than anything you'd ever want to touch with any scrap of volition.
and you're in your car with this beautiful boy who is not a boy and you're burning up, plummeting like a waxen-winged thing. and he's looking at you and you're falling, and the world is twisting around the edges, and he's stepping out of the car and your ribcage is becoming a slaughterhouse—an abattoir with all its knives turned up towards the sky. and then you're in a car, and you’re alone. and that is all.
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exmotranny · 6 months
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i was a godfearing christian daughter
wearing a green tulle dress
and now im an ugly athiest son
and my ripped jeans look like a mess
i was a girl bowing to god
i was holding my scriptures on saturday night
now im a kid with nowhere to go
sitting with my friends, laughing in the moonlight
i was stupid, not happy
ignorance not really bliss
but now i'm a fag still in the church i hate
i don't think anyone's winning in this
i sigh and bow my head
oh, great god on high
but i don't hear his voice
just white noise
it echoes 'till im deaf
and i don't see no angels
just bright lights
and they flash 'till i'm blind
and i wish i could go back
i wish i could rewind
but i can't
so i get drunk off of lies and stupid little things
like a new name, and what if that person could love me
and what if my parents found a new routine
and what if i escaped into a religion that i could see
the god of, and what if he was really true
and what if my faith wasn't good enough, what would i do
if god came alive and i didn't pass the test
spend eternity alone, since i couldn't be the best
but for now i'll be a queer and look up at the stars
and in the corner of my eye i see the hurt, i see the scars
i see the pain and the hope and the ones who didn't care
and i see you, too, i see you right there
and god forbid, i decide to leave this fucked up scene
where everyone is hurt, where no one knows anything
please don't stop me, don't tell anyone a thing
need to make a clean break, no loose ends or left strings
and hey babe, its not like i'm contemplating suicide
but every night when i go to bed and i close my eyes
i want to sleep, i want to go, and i want to never wake again
a fate i wouldn't want for you, my dear pretty friend
but im ugly and dumb and stupid and mean
and so many times i've fucked up i don't deserve anything
i don't deserve happy endings and i don't deserve escape
i'm in a shitty cult, i have to be, i should have to stay
i should die and bleed and sink into the cold wet ground
i should cry, get lost and never get found
i should go away and never fall asleep
and i wont think of you, not a single thing
cause i have to let go, i'm not allowed to care
even when your scent is left in my hair
even when every time i think of you i cry
and i realize how much i don't want to die
i was a godfearing loveless angry quiet
christian daughter wearing a tulle dress
and now im a soft spoken sad boy in love
and i wish i wouldn't think of you at all
and i wish i wasn't such a goddamn mess
and i wish you'd stop looking at me
and i wish i could die
and i wish you'd hold my hand
and i wish i didn't cry
im a godfearing faggot who wants to be deceased
im an ugly ass sad boy full of poetry
im full of words and bugs and both are spilling out
and it'll be blood next, what a pleasure to takeout
all my guts and organs and blood and my brains
and on the outside pretend that i'm totally okay
i get drunk off of lies
i get drunk off of names
i get drunk off of you and our stupid little games
and i get drunk off of music and i get drunk off of art
and when i don't have poems to write i just fall apart
and poems are neat, stay in the cage
but this one i write sprawled over the page
cause big emotions don't fit
in itty bitty words
cause it's hard to get them out
it's hard to explain hurt
and i go in circles and write until it strips me
of everything i have, my agency
and you witness, you see all of me
but to conclude, you have to see
i love you
and i hate me
and i was a godfearing, angry, good old christian daughter
and now i'm just a son, and all i do is think
and i think that god's a stupid fucking creep
and he doesn't have a plan for me
and i think that i love you
and i think that i can't sleep
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veryluckyclovers · 2 years
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sfsolstice · 16 days
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has longing clouded my judgment?
or was it the los angeles rain
that washed away bleeding inhibition,
like still-wet paint down the drain
in a myriad of irrepressible hue?
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