#a shameful memory

[caemidraws]

Endwalker

#ffxiv #ff14 #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #zenos #endwalker #finished endwalker with my alt last week n realized i havent done any fanart ........shameful #horrible awful evil man memorial

[uncanny-tranny]

To people of loved ones with poor memory:

It might be frustrating when they forget something (especially if it's important), but I can guarantee you that they are already beating themself up over having forgotten yet another thing. You don't need to rub that shame, embarrassment, and humiliation in deeper than it already is.

It is scary to forget things. It's humiliating to be told that the only reason we forget things is because we think nothing is important, that we're selfish and callous. Our brains are being pulled in every direction at the same time. It's impossible to keep track of this shit every picosecond of the day.

People like to conceptualize memory issues as a matter of lesser intelligence, that we're too stupid to even remember [minor detail]. I've noticed, though, that all of our brain power is kept toward other things - keeping ourselves alive, remembering a different thing, trying to regulate emotions or other disorders. Nobody seems to care that our workload is at least twice that of the "average" person's, I guess because they often don't directly notice it, or it doesn't directly affect them?

It's fine to be upset about the situation. You can't help that reaction, but you do not have to be cruel to people with memory issues, no matter the cause of it. Whatever they forgot might have been important to you, but there may be other things in that person's life that required their brainpower.

#disability #memory issues #memory loss #i've noticed that with a lot of conditions and issues that people are sympathetic up until it's a long-standing or chronic problem... #...people are sympathetic if you occasionally forget your lunch at home or you forget your great-great-great aunt's maiden name... #...but when it's chronic... when you forget your name or you forget where you're going or you forget something important daily... #...it becomes a you-caused issue. when it is the occasionally ill-remembered item that's a brain fart... #...it's something you can laugh off and forget... #...but if it's chronic it ceases to be a problem that's caused by other forces but is SOLELY caused by you... #...YOU are the one who CHOSE to forget these important things... #...that's what compounds the shame and grief and self-hatred and fundamental mistrust in ourselves and the world around us

[echollama]

Hearing Rooster Teeth shutting down is like hearing a distant family passing away: you see them maybe once a year at gatherings, you don't know their daily lives, you were close to them while you were younger but as time passes you've moved onwards elsewhere, and one day you hear they've passed on.

You feel indifferent mostly, but somewhere in there a little piece laments that they are no longer around.

#echoes #rooster teeth #i mean also good riddance with how things were handled/going on behind the scenes in recent years #it's just shame they never got the chance to turn things around #now they never will #another stain in the passage of time #goodbye and thank you for the memories rt #STILL MIFFED I COULDN'T BUY ONE OF THE ERA 1 WEISS PLUSHIES BECAUSE THEY DON'T SHIP TO WHERE I WAS AT THAT TIME #AND I DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY BACK THEN ASDJHLSFHLSD

[coochiequeens]

Russia gave her a harsher sentence for placing stickers in a grocery store then they do men who kill women.

17 Nov 2023

Russian artist Alexandra Skochilenko has been sentenced to jail for seven years after being found guilty of spreading “false information” about the Russian military by replacing a handful of supermarket price tags with messages criticising the war in Ukraine.

The 33-year-old, known as Sasha, is one of thousands of Russians to be detained, fined or jailed for speaking out against Moscow’s invasion of its neighbour amid an escalating crackdown on free speech and opposition to President Vladimir Putin.

Skochilenko was arrested in her native St Petersburg in April 2022, after an elderly customer at the supermarket found the slogans on the price tags and notified the police.

“The Russian army bombed an arts school in Mariupol. Some 400 people were hiding in it from the shelling,” one read, in reference to Russia’s brutal siege of the southern Ukrainian city. Another said, “Russian conscripts are being sent to Ukraine. Lives of our children are the price of this war.”

Judge Oksana Demiasheva delivered the verdict on Thursday hours after Skochilenko, who has a congenital heart defect and coeliac disease, had made a final statement to the court, asking for compassion and to be set free.

As well as the prison term, the artist was banned from using the internet for three years.

Skochilenko, wearing a colourful T-shirt decorated with a large red heart, reacted with shock to the sentence, covering her face and wiping away tears.

Supporters shouted “shame” and “we’re with you Sasha”, the AFP news agency reported.

Skochilenko’s lawyers left without giving any comment.

Skochilenko’s arrest came about a month after authorities adopted a law effectively criminalising any public expression about the war that deviated from the Kremlin’s official line.

Human rights group Memorial – now banned in Russia – said police spent 10 days interrogating supermarket staff and inspecting security camera footage before arresting the artist.

“They sometimes give less for murder than for five price tags in a supermarket,” Boris Vishnevsky, a politician linked to the opposition Yabloko party, told AFP.

“Hopefully, someday, the pendulum will turn the other way.”

Skochilenko was accused of committing what the state prosecutor described as a serious crime out of “political hatred” towards Russia. He had asked for her to be jailed for eight years.

Skochilenko admitted to swapping the tags but denied that the text written on them was false. She said she was a pacifist who valued human life above all else.

“How weak is our prosecutor’s faith in our state and society if he thinks our statehood and public safety can be ruined by five little pieces of paper?” she said in court.

“Everyone sees and knows that you are not judging a terrorist. You’re not trying an extremist. You’re not even trying a political activist. You’re judging a pacifist,” she said.

Skochilenko’s friends and supporters said the verdict was a disgrace [Olga Maltseva/AFP]

Amnesty International condemned the verdict.

“Her persecution has become synonymous with the absurdly cruel oppression faced by Russians openly opposing their country’s criminal war,” it said in a statement.

Memorial has designated Skochilenko a political prisoner and has launched a campaign calling for her release.

She has already been in detention for nearly 19 months, meaning that her overall term will be reduced by more than two years, since every day served in a pre-trial detention centre counts as 1.5 days of time served in a regular penal colony.

But she has struggled in custody due to pre-existing health conditions, and her need for a gluten-free diet, according to her lawyers and her partner.

According to OVD-Info, a prominent rights group that monitors political arrests and provides legal aid, a total of 19,834 Russians have been arrested between February 24 2022, when Russia began its invasion, and late October 2023 for speaking out or demonstrating against the war.

Also on Thursday, opposition politician Vladimir Milov was convicted in absentia of spreading false information about the army and sentenced to eight years. Milov, who was once Russia’s deputy energy minister and is now an ally of imprisoned opposition leader Alexei Navalny, has left the country.

#Russia #Ukraine #Alexandra Skochilenko #Sasha #Speaking up against war is now spreading false information #Censoring a woman by banning her from using the internet #Shame #We're with you Sasha #Memorial #Speaking out against war is now called political hatred

[inexplicably-spookified]

Lea… do you remember what a clear sky looks like at night?

Out in the countryside, no town or city nearby?

I hope one day you will…

#crosscode #lea #sergey #emilie #c'tron #scribblins #i spent half of yesterday doing this and i can't believe i actually finished it LOL #anyway i've had this idea in my head for a long time #i just really like the idea of lea getting to see a proper night sky for the first time #cause i think a lot about that one memory with her and sidwell talking about the night sky #'a boundless sea of stars' is probably the quote that's stuck with me the most i really love it #that and 'we are just another type of creature lost in this vast universe' #dude's a natural poet it's shame about literally everything else #anyway not to brag about my own comic but i think my favourite touch here is that emilie and sergey's breath is both visible #but not lea and c'tron bc they're. yknow. using instant matter avatars #don't ask how they're there off shadoon it's probably something something trialling instant matter generators #also i tried to make it as spoiler free as possible #kind of like. If You Know You Know type deal

[contemplatingoutlander]

Interesting proposal by Nate Loewentheil in a guest column in The New York Times. Not only was his proposal thought provoking, but two of the comments regarding it by readers were also worth contemplating. Below are some excerpts from the column, followed by the two comments.

Here is a proposal for the environmental movement: Pool philanthropic funds for a day, buy a small plot of land in Washington, D.C., and put up a tall marble wall to serve as a climate memorial. Carve on this memorial the names of public figures actively denying the existence of climate change. Carve the names so deep and large, our grandchildren and great-grandchildren need not search the archives. This is not a metaphor. The problem with climate change is the disconnect between action and impact. If politicians vote against construction standards and a school collapses, the next election will be their last. But with climate change, cause and effect are at a vast distance. We are already seeing the consequences of our past and present greenhouse gas emissions. In coming decades, those emissions will wreak their full havoc on the climate, and it will take hundreds, possibly thousands, of years for those pollutants to fully dissipate. But in the short term, the most immediate burdens are borne mostly by the poor in America and distant people in distant lands. Misaligned incentives are at the heart of why some political and business leaders deny and delay. [...] I would first nominate those who have sown confusion over climate science, like Myron Ebell, who recently retired as director of the Competitive Enterprise Institute’s Center for Energy and Environment, where he sought to block climate change efforts in Congress, and served as the head of Donald Trump’s transition team for the Environmental Protection Agency. Mr. Ebell has argued that the idea that climate change is “an existential threat or even crisis is preposterous.” Then there are lawmakers who have consistently stood in the way of federal action, like the recently retired senator James Inhofe of Oklahoma, the author of the book “The Greatest Hoax: How the Global Warming Conspiracy Threatens Your Future.” [color emphasis added]

Below is the first thought provoking comment to this article:

There is, in Iceland, a memorial to a dead glacier - the Ok Glacier. It reads: "Ok is the first Icelandic glacier to lose its status as a glacier. In the next 200 years all our glaciers are expected to follow the same path. This monument is to acknowledge that we know what is happening and what needs to be done. Only you know if we did it." [color emphasis added] --Chris D., Colorado

Photo of the plaque at the at the Okjökull (OK Glacier) memorial.

Here is the second thought provoking comment to this article:

For reference this graph https://i.redd.it/ljifc828iui31.jpg is from the Exxon internal scientific report on climate change, 1982, produced by scientists working for that fossil fuel corporation. Look at what their graph predicted for 2020. Approaching 420 ppm CO2 and a rise of 1.2 C degrees above pre-industrial temperature - very close to what we actually got in 2020. Then look at what the graph shows for later this century, based on not reducing emissions. Very serious temperature rises, that could make agriculture very difficult in many countries. Yes, and then Exxon, having seen this, got involved in PR campaigns to "cast doubt" on climate science, to protect their assets. [color emphasis added] --Erik Frederiksen, Ashville, NC

1982 Exxon graph depicting average global temperature increases over time correlating with increases in atmospheric CO2. NOTE: Graph color was modified for greater clarity.

Fossil fuel companies like Exxon, and fossil fuel oligarchs like the Koch brothers should be included in any "Climate Wall of Shame."

#climate change #disinformation about climate change #climate change deniers #climate wall of shame #myron ebell #james inhofe #koch brothers #exxon #fossil fuel industry #ok glacier memorial #nate loewentheil #the new york times

[illmoraineakoi]

What if the Pale King locked himself away in the Dream Realm to recreate what he did to the Hollow Knight? After the Vessel leaked and he realized that it most likely had capability enough to suffer, but far far too late to even hope to do anything to fix it. He was beyond the point of no return, there was nothing he could do to undo the Sealing. And even if he could, there were no other options that he could think of of what to do about the Blazing Light.

He had no choice but to keep the Vessel sealed. No choice but to watch his kingdom crumble. There was nothing he could do.

Nothing, but to seal himself away in a self-imposed punishment in the exact same way he imparted onto his only (known) living child.

A weak attempt to impose the same agony onto himself as he forced onto them.

And should the people of his kingdom stop worshiping him and forget he exists, dwindling his power and life to a pathetic end?

Well...

Perhaps that might've been for the best.

#hollow knight #Pale King #Potential Headcanon #Thinkin about this soggy worm again #I don't actually think this is the case I just think it's an interesting concept #Though perhaps not entirely out of the realm of possibility from what we know of PK's character #PK locked his most shameful memory behind the Path of Pain and the Entirety of the Dream White Palace could be an extension of that #in a sort of ''No one's allowed in but also HE'S not allowing himself to leave either'' way #The Sealing was meant to be permanent and eternal so I don't think PK made a 'back door' in case things went wrong either #Back doors are weak points and a potential escape route is something you don't want when dealing with the Radiance #So even if PK WANTED to get Hollow out of there I don't think he was actually ABLE to do so #Presuming he didn't know about the Dream Nail #Which had to of been fucking AGONY for him #''Oh shit my Vessel-child is actually alive and I just put a pissed off god inside of them aND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT FUCK FUCK FUCK' #*chucks depression meds at PK* Boi get off ur ass and at least try to do smth don't just wait around till u die ffs

[abirddogmoment]

he would see a fabric on the floor and say oh is anyone sitting on that? no? don't mind if i do

#mav memories #dogblr #maverick #i think he loved going camping in part because he got so many comfy sleeping bags to lie on when we got home and dried them out #he had no shame he wanted to be comfy at all times

[zombiegirldean]

"So we just go back to the way we were before?" "No, because we were never that way before!"

Revolutionary Girl Utena episodes 4 and 5: The Sunlit Garden // SPN s5e16 Dark Side of the Moon

the quote is from s5e5 Fallen Idols

#supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #spn #revolutionary girl utena #miki kaoru #kozue kaoru #utena tenjou #utenanatural #nice interpretation of your shared childhood would be a shame if someone irreparably tarnished it #nice trying futilely to inhabit the golden and unsullied memory of youth would be a shame if that was impossible and you were actually only #trapping yourself in a stagnant rotting memory #im insane

[thenationofzaun]

Jinx: Bombs an entire squad of Enforcers on the bridge using intricate explosives she crafted and hand-painted with her calling card, a skill she once constantly failed at but has since perfected over the years, then walks through the grisly aftermath executing any survivors, as a dark parallel to the show's opening scene in which she walked this very bridge as a frightened child amongst the bodies of fallen rebels, watching an Enforcer execute the remaining ones. But this time, she's not a meek victim but the victimizer, striking fear and horror in the hearts of the very same people who brutalized her her entire life, who murdered her parents. She's not afraid of them anymore, they're afraid of her, and it's further underlined by her humming the same song she sang in the opening scene, doing so deliberately during a scenario completely at odds with the song's meaning - a cry for help from impoverished people to their tyrannical overlords, now hummed in a situation in which the roles of the powerful and the powerless have been reversed. Once a desperate attempt by a scared little girl to comfort herself, now a menacing and bone-chilling omen rising through the mist, telling every terrified, injured Enforcer that the monster they created looms ever closer.

Me:

#iconic scene #it's a shame no enforcer survived that incident because i would've loved for the memory of her #stalking through the mist humming that haunting melody to be seared in at least one enforcer's mind #it's the kind of stuff that would become legend years later told to topside children as a bedtime horror story lol #arcane #arcane league of legends #jinx #jinx arcane #arcane netflix

[twinstxrs]

thinking about how gorgug + kristen perceive both their own deaths & each other’s, and how that impacts their relationship. bc i feel like freshman year kristen was too caught up in her newfound knowledge of the nature of her own god to truly clock & process gorgug’s internal revulsion of where he went after he died, & freshman year gorgug wasn’t familiar enough with the complexities of other people to truly lock onto the sorrow buried within the chaos of kristen’s upward/downward/sideways spiral until she was seemingly on the other side of it. & i wonder if they’ve ever really talked about it (unlikely), or if they’ve just cracked very few jokes that didn’t land and decided to never quite do the work & dig through that part of their relationship. but there’s a kinship there; kristen specifically singles out gorgug to tell him she died again, and gorgug apologizes that he wasn’t there with her this time. gorgug takes one of the finger bones off kristen’s newly/long-time decayed corpse to have an anchor to something in the world. despite the fact that they were in different places after death, having been together during it means everything.

anyways what i’m trying to say is i think they should talk about it.

#thinking WAY too hard about a comedy dnd show when half these moments are played for laughs #dimension 20 #fantasy high #kristen applebees #gorgug thistlespring #me & the bestie when we both die a horrible death at age 14 & don’t know how to talk about it #me & the bestie when you said you thought you went to hell & i called it embarassing due to the culture of religious shame i grew up with #me & the bestie when death transformed me loudly with reckless abandon & death stole something from you you’ll never speak about #me & the bestie when i focus so much on what i gained to avoid what i lost and you quietly internalize your loss & cannot find the gain #when i died i asked for knowledge. when you died you cried wordlessly. i do not know which one of us is more broken. #kristengorgug my repressed besties #ok i’m done now but if ally & zac ever played a scene like this seriously i’d lose my fucking mind fr #sorry if this is like indecipherable but after fhsy they’re so clearly the two most repressed bad kids & that fascinates me #(in my opinion) #fabian still up there in 3rd place tho boy u r GAYYY u like MENNNNN #btw if any of this is wrong shhhh i haven’t done my pre-fhjy rewatch yet this is all from memory

[a-hazbin-reader]

if they are considered as hellborns , does that mean they don't know what's in the human world?? The world where their parents once lived , do they often as questions to their parents what's the human world looks like

That would be so fucking sweet... 😭 and a little difficult for Alastor to answer I imagine considering how lonely he probably was growing up...

Yeah you know how papa is a big bad overlord now? Growing up my best friend was my mom..

#WOULD HE FEEL SHAME #NAH #maybe a little choked up #at the good memories #he would talk about his mom #a lot #and the things they did #together #then his radio show #and mimzy's bar #he would sugarcoat the rest

[bbqhooligan]

just remembered how american chocolate tastes. no wonder yall are full of hate and violence god bless

#mypost #just saw a gif opening up candy bars and showing their insides and it unlocked some memories #yall its chemical ass tasting chocolate #to be fair though. im picky abt snacks and ive rejected mist european chocolates too. #ill eat 3 brands till i die #but americans can use some shaming any time idk

[torgawl]

if you call himmel pathetic i'm throwing hands at you. himmel showed the purest form of love for frieren and you guys think that's pathetic? what's pathetic is not respect other people's feelings or boundaries and acting like people owe you anything just because you like them. himmel was happy to have a friendship with frieren within her own conditions just because he genuinely enjoyed her as part of his life. he was happy to wait for her for his entire life is he had to but he also never stopped living for himself. that's fucking beautiful. loving someone so much you are able to let them go, not wanting to change who they are or impose anything on them? unconditionally, nonetheless? that's the point of life.

#either platonically or romantically having people genuinely appreciate you and having genuine connections with people is what makes life #worth living #frieren is a beautiful show about loss grief and how people change you just by being present in your life how they add to your life how #your true friends inspire you and how we keep each other's memories alive how love is timeless despite the finality of our human condition #and you tell me himmel is pathetic? #what a joke #i'm biting himmel haters like an enraged chihuahua #infection you with the power of love so you understand that loving makes the world more beautiful #besides frieren not understanding her own feelings at the time she always cared for himmel and the others as well #she just took more time to learn how to reciprocate and demonstrate the importance they had for her #because she isn't humans which is normal #a big part of life for everyone is having regrets and wishing it wasn't too late #frieren explores that perfectly #the friendships in that story are so pure and well nurtured #it's a shame internet culture rotted your brains so much that you think there's something inherently wrong with having unrequited feelings #and being okay with it #it's a shame you reduce such a genuinely good character who proved his will was above anything mystical to a 'simp' #anyways. himmel stays winning. #he put a ring on it too like imagine thinking he's losing when frieren is having dead wife flashbacks of him the entire show

[dark-elf-writes]

Do you think aizawa had to have a “raise your hand if you killed someone before” talk?

Mukuro’s hand raises immediately, unashamed. Hayato’s hand is slower, not nearly as proud. Takeshi frowns but lifts his hand.

Tsuna half raises his hand, confusion in his eyes.

“Doesn’t count if it technically no longer happens?”

Shouta feels a headache coming on. “Yes. If you killed anyone at all it counts”

Tsuna’s hand raises fully.

Spanner and Shoichi (how had Power Loader let them out of his sight again?) also raise their hands.

A few of the others frown for a second before raising their hands, making sense of hazy not quite memories of a future that never will exist but left a mark on all of them all the same.

Shouta needs a damn vacation.

#the elf talks #reborn #mha #bnha #katekyo hitman reborn #I can’t remember who all canonically kills people but 100% if they have the same kind of future memories the others do they all have #mukuro has no shame about it. man would do it again

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not? #how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with #is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe. #why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain #i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself #that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it? #just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once #but never never never liked enough #i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting #i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out #i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again #but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough #for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay. #maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find #maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months #anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning. #on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you #god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie #but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down #blah #personal #not st