#aaaaaagghh im just. i hate him. i love this course already but i hate him

[dapper-comedy]

my professor: it would be preferable if you could identify the plant u are applying in this assignment

me, knowing we havent had any lessons or SHIT in week TWO that focuses on identifying plants yet: yea ok

#im very happy in this course dont get me wrong #but i'd appreciate a lecture more than being dumped 7 links for a single class and expected to know and understand what to note down #i think im more just stressed juggling classes and work and being crammed shifts every free hour i have which... is frustrating #im just angry at people bleh #its just.... frustrating and i just feel like im being dumped all the tools i need but i dont know how to use them #aaaaaagghh im just. i hate him. i love this course already but i hate him #im just venting in the tags now but when do i NOT ahaha #i just feel like im losing time and we've already been given assignments #and its stupid of course i have to go outside to actually complete them but #when im not working or noting or resting my knees im just... too tired to leave the house #hahaha its so silly of me #i guess im just. upset that im not enjoying this to the utmost and i want to be #bc even tho the links and references are frustrating i still enjoy the content when i can swallow it properly #i dont know. i dont know. im just tired and i don't want to fail #and people keep talking to me and i jut feel likeim being stretched thin #which is silly. this is all so silly of me. god #//nsfw #//long post #//rant #idk what other tags ppl would have filtered haha #i havent gotten like. actual ''i want to die'' thoughts in a while and im just. everytime i look at my schedule i just feel it in me and im #i keep saying im tired and people always say sleep more and yes i should #but its more than just sleep deprivation im just tired of working and waking up and going to sleep and eating and talking