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#about her i IMMEDIATELY teared up and started to cry GFDJGK LIKE GOD......
yutadori
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#i feel like today was such a mess oh my god
#like it was a mess but everything felt toned down ? unreal ? idk how to describe it but hhh
#it sucks that i'm still thinking about it like ig i need to get it out of my system so sorry if you already saw this briefly on twt gjkdfhgf
#but hhhhh i went in for a consultation with a (potentially) new therapist and it didn't go.... well
#it wasn't Bad at all but she just was not the right fit for me ?
#i really forgot just how difficult it is to find a therapist that suits me
#like they could be perfectly fine but if we don't vibe it's like :/ i tried to like . disregard that bc i feel like i'd waste a lot of time
#trying to look for a therapist that i get along with? like what's really key is that i find someone who can tend to my needs
#but hhhh we just didn't click and like i felt sort of awkward ? like i didn't feel comfortable ? felt v detached like i was able to tell her
#a bit about my problems but i just ??? did not feel anything at all ! we love the dissociation !
#and like i think that's partly due to the fact that i'm not like . that i haven't moved past the fact that i can't see my current therapist
#anymore bc of $$$ (: i THOUGHT i was past it and ready to look for a new therapist to work with but i guess NOT bc when i briefly talked
#about her i IMMEDIATELY teared up and started to cry GFDJGK LIKE GOD......
#and she was saying stuff like 'aw you worked with her for so long and built a good relationship with her so this must be really hard'
#AND I WAS JUST LIKE GJDFKLGJ STOPPP IM CRYING HHHHHH
#idk i don't know if i can do this yet??? idk if i can continue going out and looking for a new therapist to work with? bc also i realized
#today that like . since i haven't fully come to terms i felt more closed off.... like not as willing to work on my problems ? and i felt v
#disconnected like the dissociation kicked in real hard today and i just felt nothing while telling her my personal problems like ??? idk and
#like the thing is my current therapist really wants me to find a new one so i can work through my mental illnesses and heal but i don't know
#i just CANT right now and i feel bad telling her that? bc she's really rooting for me ): like i feel like if i told her i can't she'd tell
#me to keep trying. which isn't bad but i .... sort of don't want to and don't feel like i'm at the place wher ei can do that yet? i don't
#know... i guess i need more time. aaaaa and also i want to save money.... ))): hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the rate this therapist offerred was p low
#but still when i totalled the amount for the month it was like.... ah . idk . im okay with not going to therapy for a while . i think i'd be
#okay. not amazing but i'll manage? though idk if she'd take that as an answer bc i know she wants the best for me HHH IDK what to do !
#T_____T i don't want to disappoint her ))):
#sun texts
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