#about the call I haven't gotten

[keungking]

imagine getting casted as an omega. the showrunners look at you and say yeah you look breedable enough

#......... hash.... sw a #there's this koraen rapper who looks very feminine and theres this other rapper in his ig comments calling him breedable every time he post #irrelevant to this post but i needed to mention it #it's directly related to the way whenever i say im not autistic people say haha sure #my interest in koreoan hpihop is an all consuming unstoppable force pummeling towards anyone who is within my general vicinity #and they will listen #anyway this post is about pit babe #i haven't watched it but ive gotten the gist of it i think #.txt #pit babe the series #keung talks

[essektheylyss]

I have seen the newest fhjy Aelwyn Abernant gifset multiple times in the last week and I had planned to watch it eventually but like...... is that really what's gonna get me into this series. Is that really what it takes. What the fuck level of targeted advertising is THIS.

#you come to me. two weeks before the 5 year anniversary of cr 2x57 in love and war. #and you tell me the elven eldest child with villain decay is now a CAT PERSON? #what the fuck am i supposed to do with this. #to be clear there are specific major plots that I'm interested in. this is not like. just for this reason. #i just haven't gotten around to it and i am feeling very called out for my tastes. #also don't fucking @ me about knowing the date of 57 offhand okay it's actually cuz of quarantine/2020 essek prompt week lmao #but fr as a person who's gonna have to sit my sister down and go 'it's really hurtful that you assume bad intentions of me all the time' #the abernant sisters are in fact like. ouch. #i didn't even mention cuz it feels too obvious but THEY'RE EVEN WIZARDS. good lord. attacked.

[chosetoseethebestinyou]

Random Side Character of the Day™: Doctor!!! The fate... Of the entire human race is at stake!!! If you don't save us.... It's all over.

Me who's been watching this exact scenario play out for 12 seasons now:

#Listen I get it I respect it you think you're gonna die but frankly what else is new #Like bestie haven't you lived through like 36 of these by now #Especially for the earth threatening plots playing out somewhere beweteen 2005 and 2020 #You cannot tell me a single person living in London is even mildly surprised by any alien invasion anymore #Only person excused from this call out is donna cause she was snorkeling and idk. Probably minigolfing with noise canceling headphones #During every single invasion #Also this is not me complaining. I eat these stories up every time. When they're well done. #I've just realised I've gotten very blasé about the end of the world this far down the road #Doctor who #Dw #doctor who 60th anniversary #doctor who memes

[weaverofink]

stephanie brown aka my favorite cringefail bisexual

#i have so many thoughts about her #stephanie brown #the spoiler #batgirl #batman #batfam #dc #dc comics #i LOVE her #she's so fun and interesting and i think she was underutilized #granted i know her only from the robin comics #idk where else she shows up and i haven't gotten to the more recent stuff yet #but yeah she is so important to me #i always love when a teenage girl character gets to be angry and messy #bc as a former teenage girl. yeah thats how it is a lot #also idc if its canonical steph is bisexual to me #she did call zatanna hot to her face the first time they met so like. there's some evidence #but also i mean its just the vibe #art #my art #weaverofink #ALSO fuck you dc for giving me like 6 identical blonde haired teenage girl superheroes #they are so hard to tell apart out of costume and so hard to draw differently from one another #like u guys don't even know how long i spent trying to make her look different from cassie #bc ill be honest sometimes i have a bit of same face syndrome so i really had to pay attention for this one

[clonerightsagenda]

That w359 post is why the only non-Hephaestus AU I've posted about was the community college employees one because working at a community college is roughly equivalent to working on a crumbling space station in terms of pressure cooker environments that bond you through trauma. Yesterday I got calls and texts that there was a tornado but the college never turned the interior alert system on. Then an hour later I was on lunch break and the water stopped working because they'd turned it off to do a test at 11:30. Then two hours after that we lost internet for 30 minutes. The facilities guy told us he personally won't drink the water but refused to elaborate.

#me: I just got a text saying there's a tornado warning #coworker: well the sirens aren't going off and our alerts aren't going and we haven't gotten a campus text #me picking up my work phone: just got an automated call from the city saying there's a tornado and to take shelter #coworker: the alerts still haven't gone off though #me: do you really trust this school to keep us ali- #*tornado sirens started midsentence* #we shepherded all the students downstairs and the campus emergency text finally went out 10 minutes after the siren #the alert system never did U_U #never mind I lied I posted about a good place AU #but that is also an environment forcing people together #the point is they would not get along organically #these are not meetcute people

[a-lonely-dunedain]

12.............. with Corunir?

So you have chosen... Tur-Morva. *evil laughter* wherein the rescue instance goes horribly awry in a canon-compliant way

“Eth… Help me” Ethedis hears a weak but familiar voice behind her, one that she would be overjoyed to hear in any other circumstances and speaking any other words. She was a split moment from sprinting down the tunnel, where she had heard Bregadir frantically calling for a healer mere seconds ago. 

Instead, she stops and pivots around to see Corunir collapsed on one knee, breathing heavily and bleeding more so, a deep shadow of crimson growing beneath him. Horror sets in the pit of her stomach.

She stoops to steady him just in time as he falls forward into her arms. “I think… wounds reopened…” he mutters faintly as Ethedis struggles to reposition him to asses his injury. 

“Corunir…?” No response “…Corunir!” She calls frantically, still to no avail. He’s fading fast. She fights to bury the panic welling up in her heart. She has to stay calm if she is to have any hope of saving him. She prays someone else heard Bregadir’s call for a healer, she cannot help both of them.

There is a long cut on his stomach, that seems to be the primary source of the blood. The wound is not fresh, seeming days old yet healing very poorly. No doubt an injury sustained during the Grey Company’s capture and left to fester after he was thrown into that dark cell, just beyond the reach of his kin. It seems to have reopened in the battle. His strength has already been long spent, and this rapid loss of blood would be enough to push him over the edge. His face is pale and his breath slows with each moment, he is minutes away from death.

She puts her hand to the wound, applying as much pressure as she can in her already weakened state. “Please… just hang on. Just a little longer…” she pleads, blinking away tears. He cannot hear her. 

She takes a deep breath and turns her mind outwards, beyond herself and this small corridor. She does not know how deep below the earth they are, but deep enough that she cannot hear the slumbering trees or even reach their roots, but she doubts they would be willing to lend her their power anyway, not while it’s still winter. She keeps searching. She finds some moss, it wants to help, but it is too small for this task. 

After a search that, in reality, barely lasted a moment yet it felt like hours, she finally finds something. An underground river, flowing swift and strong beneath the earth, unaffected and uncaring of all else, yet holding great power. She begs the dark cold waters for aid, to lend her its strength and grant this dying man in her arms new life. 

‘Please. Please just buy him a little more time. Let me save him. It isn’t his time yet. Not here. Please.’

There is nothing. The river has no reason to care. She fears it will give her nothing.

Nothing, and then the sound of rushing water thundering in Ethedis’ ears alone, the shock of cold water in her veins, and an unfamiliar power flowing through her hands. Flowing like a torrent of water too powerful for her to tread in such a weakened state, yet tread it she must. She sends it into Corunir’s near-lifeless body. Close the wound, stop the bleeding, give him the strength to survive. 

There is water now, but not from the river, it flows from Ethedis’ eyes. Her hands tremble and her arms burn as though she has been swimming against the current of an ocean. Acting as a conduit of power such as this would test her limits even on a good day, and this was anything but ‘a good day’. 

She cannot do this. She cannot hold onto this river. Corunir is still bleeding. If she stops now it will not be enough to save him, but she cannot hold on. More water escapes her eyes, a sob from her throat.

Suddenly she feels another set of hands atop her own, calloused, worn, and strong. A familiar voice beside her, it belongs to Golodir.

“Easy, Ethedis, easy. You’re doing well. It will be alright.” If he is afraid, his voice will not betray it, and that is all the better for Ethedis. 

With the practiced confidence only an experienced captain could possess, he manages to steady her. She can hold on a little longer, she is not fighting alone, Golodir found them. He says it’s going to be ok, and she believes him.

She keeps it up just long enough, but not a moment more. She cracks open one eye and sees Corunir's bleeding has finally slowed, if not stopped altogether. Some color has returned to his face as well. She thinks it is safe to stop now. She looks over to Golodir and sees worry in his eyes, but no fear. He simply nods at her, she thinks she hears him say something, but she cannot make out the words. She lets go and collapses. She thinks Golodir caught her, but her body is numb with cold and she can’t feel much of anything. He calls out to her, but she lacks the strength to respond and consciousness quickly abandons her. Corunir is alright at least. Golodir found them, everything will be alright.

(Yaaay Golodad to the rescue! there was meant to be another part to this, where Corunir comes to later and actually has the chance to talk to Ethedis, but it wasn't coming together fast enough so I'll probably just add that part *gestures vaguely* "later". I DO like what I had so far, but it was my first time actually properly writing dialog between those two and I wanted to make sure I did a good job, ya can't rush it. you'll see it later.)

#anyway heeey look my first time actually writing about the ranger I'm so obsessed with! #idk why I put it off so long I think I was just worried about doing a bad job #you know when you have a blorbo you care so much about you're afraid to make content about them bc what if it won't be Good Enough #yeah me with Corunir #I still don't even know how to draw him #ty for the ask friend! #I'm doing these horribly out of order I still haven't technically gotten to the first one yet oops #oh well! #love that cameo of Tossdir literally dying in the background hehe (the reason Bregadir was frantically calling for a healer) #also hi Bregadir how do you keep showing up in my fics? #my favorite background character has to be that moss tho #I wants to help!!! it's just moss it can't DO anything but it wants to help!! I love it #lotro #lotro fic #Corunir #Golodir #lotro oc #Ethedis

[gaynfl]

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#have a call about a job that i would be. so fucking good at and i'm at the point where i'm expecting not to get it because i haven't gotten #any other of the 70+ jobs i've applied to but i still gotta go through the motions because you can't get a job if you don't apply #but man if i don't get this job i'm going to kms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mystacoceti]

If the stability of your relationship with someone is based on your ability to overwhelm or overpower them, then you will have to maintain that imbalance or face an extreme and/or fundamental change in the relationship at some point. many parents successfully cope with that change as their children grow older but this is only possible because many children take for granted the nature of the relationship. If a child makes the distinction between relationships in which it is fine for one and only one person to hit or manipulate the other to achieve some aim and relationships in which it is not and puts the parent-child relationship into the first category, then the parent will have a greater chance of transitioning to a normal, "mature" relationship with their child. the problem is it's not just not necessarily so that the child will make this distinction — the child has to be convinced to make this distinction at every turn — the child failing to make this distinction is dangerous for the parent, even mortally so. I would wager most parents realize this in some way but could you get them to act on that? There's a real point about self-interest to be made with parents if they want to be in their children's lives, if they don't want to chance endangering themselves but the layers of ideological crud are caked on pretty thick.

#I always think that surely people would worry less about whether or not it's called ''abuse'' and more about how this kind of relationship+ #+or this basis for a relationship is inherently fucked #people know this! there are parents who are genuinely afraid their child will one day overpower them! and somewhere in themselves they+ #+see their actions producing changes and consequences #and we haven't even gotten into what other relationships the child might place into the ''some violence is okay'' category

[magentagalaxies]

guess who now has access to some highly rare buddy cole "lost media" for the documentary i'm making!!!

#paul sent over a bunch of stuff today and i'm so excited to dig into it #haven't gotten the chance to watch any of the videos yet bc i still need to study for finals but these are screenshots from the vids #(i just clicked around until i found something i could share) #first one is from a buddy monologue that didn't make it on the show in the original kids in the hall series #(side note that pose is so cute) #and the second one is from a bizarre webseries scott did in 1999 called scottland which i could infodump about so hard #bc it literally has no record of it online outside of like 1 article about it and 1 person's resume #the scottland screenshot was hard to get bc the video quality is so low lmao

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

If there is at least one thing I can credit FE for doing better than Tales in localization, it's not trying to actively go out of their way for an entire game to avoid subtext or direct text between two men that is romantic or implied romantic. Funny when it's so present that the attempt doesn't even work; infuriating that it was attempted to begin with.

So as much as I often have issues with some of FE's localizations, at least they have a leg up on loc Tales for that.

#DCB Comments #imagine changing entire sentences and vocal tones just to try to avoid it #if anything I'd say at least in FE the locs just... keep what's there like #they could've toned Soren and Houses Yuri down and they didn't. they just kept their lines or in some cases #especially with Houses Yuri I'd say leaned into them #have to specify bc Houses Yuri got to keep his bi agenda. Vesperia Yuri had the unfortunate issue of #the loc not wanting to keep his gay and trying reeeeally hard to avoid it #including altering entire sentences to avoid any woe is them misunderstandings about men having feelings for each other #meanwhile Houses Yuri is free to call men cute and lo and behold everyone loved that for him #they removed and altered a LOT of Vesperia Yuri's personality traits #(including any ability to express real sadness or fear bc woe is them if he's not a cool edgy man) #but they also really changed his tone toward Flynn PLUS some of what they say to each other #and twisted it to make it sound like Yuri was either angry or wasn't actually emotional abt him #forget the way they brought Grant George in for the DE release and made him sound just completely DEAD with zero personality #like. I can tolerate playing Houses dubbed despite my gripes with it (story based stuff) #it didn't feel like they were trying to alter LBGT+ aspects and they even for some rly leaned into it #basically if you haven't played Vesperia Yuri is... really gay coded. the loc pretended not to notice #in fact he's queer + gay coded bc and doesn't fit male gender norms and the gacha games LOVE that with his hair/outfits #Rays mind you is JP only bc it was shut down very quickly in the west and Vesp Yuri's story in Rays is uh #basically it centers around Flynn he loses his shit to protect Flynn and they do the usual like #don't-admit-it's-gay-outright in fictional media by using the ''Yuri's important person'' shtick #but he activates a special power in the middle of utterly raging to get Flynn back from their enemies #funny thing? that game never made it to that arc. I was told in about five months the western ver would've gotten that #but in some way I'm glad it didn't bc who knows how they would've tried to spin that #It's BAFFLING to me how you can get characters in Tales like JAY but the locs shake in their boots at the idea of queer gays #but given how allergic fictional media is to admitting a male character is gay -gestures to Ike and Vesp Yuri- #I'm not surprised I'm just actually angry that the locs try to censor homosexual relationships as much as possible even when they barely ca #if anyone does know Vesp Yuri and is confused on why I'm calling him gay coded despite what the dub did with Judith feel free to ask #bc I do ship them a little bit myself! but I just recognize that canon wise I really can't see him as anything but gay-demiromantic #but again at least FE locs don't shake in their boots anymore abt same sex pairs including men (side eyes Lucius/Raven)

[fcntasmas]

if you want an example of how fucked up the us health care system is, here’s a fun personal example: i had to go without anti-depressants for over a week because despite me calling my psych’s office with plenty of time to replenish as i always do, they did not call my prescription in. so i spent four days in intense withdrawal — nightmares, nausea, vomiting, migraines, paranoia, everything you can think of — and having to call them over and over again BEGGING them for my meds in tears because i was sure i was starting to fucking hallucinate, too, until they finally got back to me and called them in without so much as a “sorry! our mistake” lmao

and because they’re the only psych office that takes my insurance, i have. no other options here. so if this happens again, it is what it is, ig! never mind that i was this 👌 close to just killing myself in order to stop the pain i was in caused by withdrawal i didn’t have to be going through because…?? they made an oopsie i guess?? and they know either way i have no other options so what do they care am i right

#suicide tw #personal #i’ve had. a rough couple of days lmao #shout out to summer and alex and my mother #for tryna go to war for me #when i called them crying✌️ #non rebloggable #i cannot stress enough how i don’t want to think about this longer than i have to #i also still haven't gotten my meds. i had to call and they had to make arrangements for me #so that i can get them today. i still am nauseous and still have a headache but it's not as bad as the first few days #and i'm not actively suicidal anymore so!

[larrysballetslippers]

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#I haven't been online much #i live on discord and my mental health has been declining by the day #i hate the people that are supposed to be my friends in uni #and I hate myself for keeping up this act that I don't #im anxious all the time and I feel like depression is for real approaching #im going to the uni therapist in a few weeks as I decided that it might be good to get tips on being stable #i made an appointment when I was doing well three or four weeks ago #well this week was the intake meeting and bro bro I can't believe myself #i spent a year crying and growing and healing and everything and Im still at this shitty place #and the worst is that I know I have grown and that I am doing much better but I don't see any results #I don't necessarily feel better in my skin because I haven't struggled eith my body since high school #yeah I guess I know self worth now but do I still hurt myself by staying in that friend group yes #yeah Im more confident asked many people out but I have gotten to date two which you couldn't even call date 2 #well here I am still fucking crying about the same things #i guess life is like that but I'm just as sick of this life as I am of my anxiety #already cancelling plans and things I wanna do because of anxiety #so just fuck my life Im the only one standing in my way but im the biggest obstacle #will I ever be good? i guess we will see

[fierceomen]

oh boy, okay, guess it's fine for a STARTER CALL ! pls interact with this post if you'd like me to write you up something. for any multi - muse blogs, if you have any specific muses you'd like to write with kei pls comment to let me know! i'm happy to do a couple of starters for you too if you'd like multiple muses to interact.

ps, if any of you wanna write a thread with babey keigo i'm 100% down for that too hehehe

#🪶 –––– calls . 〉 #i'm super chill if u want like 5 starters bc u haven't gotten to use a muse in a hot minute i gotchu #also happy to write with characters from other franchises! #at least for right now i'd like to stick to series that i know while i get the hang of writing this boy publicly #happy to talk about it! #also i'm likely gonna be experimenting with formatting for the next few weeks so abologies for inconsistency #my brain gives me serotonin when my writing looks pretty LMAO #did i seriously write abologies instead of apologies i'm going to scream

[monstrsball]

ok wait what if i actually created a character relationships map for the iwaoisuga universe... would that be cringe or cool

#im leaning towards cool... i have so many thoughts about the relationships that exist in the iwaoisuga universe #i have like. fics i want to write set in it but i haven't gotten around to it. i just have little snippets in my notes app. #it's mainly about iwaoisuga being happy and domestic and gay #and then there's like a vague kanoyachi fic idea set around the tanakiyo wedding #like when i say there's an iwaoisuga universe in my head im not even kidding #my iwaoisuga cinematic universe #<- that's what rey called it

[ultramarine-spirit]

I was reading the novel and this time something caught my attention that I don't know why I had overlooked it before, and that is how Athy talks about her life in the orphanage. Athy says that the children in the orphanage knew things that the children should not know, that she had to fight for what she wanted and that when she left that place she felt a kind of freedom.

To me, that screams abuse.

It bothers me that the fandom so overlooked the fact that Athy was abused not only in her first life (neglect) but also in her second life and I'm sure it must have been hell. I wish the manhwa had put more emphasis on this because many fans overlook Athy's trauma when she is literally the character who suffered the most.

Yes, to me it's canon that Athy was heavily abused in her second life. Adding to what you said, I remember her mentioning having to literally fight for food (a bowl of rice), or how they got a single sad birthday celebration per month. That's also where her initial fixiations with candy, money and her genuine love for studying come from, as Athy herself admits, she never had those kinds of luxuries (she mentions having to eat expired food in a "haha funny" way, but if you think about it for two seconds, it's just tragic. Like, she died from overdosing on sleeping pills to deal with the cold). I know a thing or two about how orphanages operate from my field of work and acquaintances, and kids in those institutions suffer from abuse in all sorts of ways while being completely ignored by society. I'm not from Korea, but going by what Plutus wrote and reading about the subject, the situation seems to be similar or even worse.

If I want to get overanalytical, part of her depression while living alone could be a consequence of the treatment she received at the orphanage. It's super common for kids in those situations to end up with depression, PTSD, having issues forming emotional connections, facing prejudice, etc. It's also canon that she was verbally and physically abused at her workplace. Athy treats her death as an accident, but in my opinion it's implied that it was a suicide, perhaps not in an "active way", but her behavior was edging the line. Which is again, common for people with that background. I think this plot point is interesting, as to my knowledge suicide is a taboo subject in East Asia. Most manhwas don't have their FL reincarnate after that.

I get what you mean, that part of Athy's trauma is often overlooked, but it probably has to do with most people not reading the novel and with Athy herself not really acknowledging it. She mentions her life as Lee Jihye at the beginning of the story, and then very rarely brings it up. But if anything, that's pretty consistent with how Athy deals with her trauma and negative emotions, refusing to acknowledge they exist until their weight is too heavy for her to endure. I like this piece of characterization a lot, but it leaves us with many questions that are hard to answer when Athy herself doesn't remember or actively tries to forget the trauma from her past lives. You could draw some parallels with Lucas and Claude's respective ways of dealing with trauma, loss and trying to forget (but Athy's mindset is more healthy and not so self-destructive lol).

Also yes, to me Athy is the character that has suffered the most by far. Not like this is a competition, but *gestures at LP* and the fact that she was a working class woman in Korea while the other characters (sans Lucas and Diana, I guess) are and always have been rich aristocrats in pseudo-France says enough /hj.

#thinking about how being called a bitch and the threat of physical violence from Aety made Athy flashback to her second life... #I feel like I should add some trigger warnings #suicide mention #suicide tw #abuse tw #moving on to the joke-y tags #while we are on this topic. i once read someone cry about Athy *checks notes* benefiting from imperialism. it was p funny #This is a 'not that deep princess manhwa' focusing on family drama and comedy not a Tolstoy novel #And even if we engage in such a dumb and intellectually tryhard discussion. My girl lived in the capitalistic hellscape that's Korea #if anyone in the whole cast deserves to live well that's Athy #the rest of the characters are all royals or from the very top of the nobility (sans Lucas? and Diana) #that haven't had to endure poverty and hunger for a single second in their whole lives (again sans Lucas) #so ig nobody should feel sorry for them (see how stupid that sounds? but i digress) #literature analysis courses are fun. people should take them to learn grown-up words #anyways i think the underlying exploration of trauma in Claude Athy and Lucas' narratives is so interesting #i kinda wish it was more touched upon but ig the manhwa would have gotten too heavy? i would have loved it tho #who made me a princess #i suddenly became a princess #suddenly became a princess one day #wmmap #sbapod #sbap #athanasia de alger obelia #athanasia #athy #wmmap meta

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

i’m spending my sunday evening going through my google drive, saving everything to my external hard drive (don’t @ me i should’ve done this ages ago), and deleting it from the internet, and hoooo boy am i already having A Time™

#text #personal #writing #admin #i stopped using google drive to store drafts a long time ago #so everything i've looked at so far is 2012-2013 #old alicia and old lucius so far #it is. wild. #i think i put my abnormalities in here too #haven't gotten that far down yet #did you know there's a version of lucius's story that starts with stone calling the house?? #did you know he gets mauled by a snow leopard in that one #and gets a sledgehammer for distraction purposes #alicia from 2012 weirdly starts in about the same place that most recent version of alicia does #my girl is at home in a coffee shop doing illegal shit apparently #THAT draft just ends oh 'huh. that's weird.' #44 pages in XD #anyway this is fun so far!!! #i haven't backed up my shit since 2019 which is. bad. #but also. it feels less urgent for me. because i do everything hard copy first and i've been Keeping The Hard Copies (instead of shredding-- #--them once typed) since then #but i really should back this shit up lmao