you know lips of an angel actually goes pretty hard when you think about it in the context of like someone in a relationship they don't want to be in but feel like they have to stay in *cough* pureblood politics/royalty aus
or "a someone they cant have situation" and are with in their perspective someone who would never be enough so ofc they'll always be tempted even just a bit by the one calling
This all started because I was pondering on what motive Xue Yang had to make Xiao Xingchen a “bad” man. We could talk about his revenge towards Xiao Xingchen but with this I think Wei Wuxian makes a good point. He asks Xue Yang who he really was taking revenge for. If it was for himself, why did he dig out Chang Ping’s eyes? Why did he torture him to death? Who was he really trying to repay? Wei Wuxian is, of course, alluding to the idea that Xue Yang was doing it to avenge Xiao Xingchen. With this being said, I don’t think Xue Yang made Xiao Xingchen commit crimes for “revenge” if the whole reason he even committed a brutal crime was for Xiao Xingchen.
The real motive was this: Xue Yang had to bring Xiao Xingchen down to his level. He had to make him a killer just like Xue Yang because Xue Yang couldn't come up. He didn’t want to become “better” because he saw it as pointless and unfruitful. Xue Yang couldn’t become the ethereal and kind being Xiao Xingchen was to him. He didn't have it in him to be kind and selfless like Xiao Xingchen but he still wanted them to be equals. He wanted to walk in Xiao Xingchen's company as an equal, a real friend, someone to be needed. However, Xiao Xingchen, wonderful and gentle and generous Xiao Xingchen, would never need- never want- a murderer, even if Xue Yang murdered for Xiao Xingchen. He was upset because the very thing Xiao Xingchen hated him for was supposed to be a good gesture. It was a sign of protection, of undying loyalty. Xiao Xingchen was "too good," in Xue Yang's words, for him. He was too righteous to see that someone could do evil things for good reasons, to avenge someone who would never do it themself.
So it’s this vicious cycle where Xiao Xingchen was an enemy, then an obsession, someone to be respected. Under a new identity, Xiao Xingchen even became his friend. Xiao Xingchen gave him freedom from the burden of his reputation. For years, Xue Yang behaved (to Xiao Xingchen’s knowledge) but even with that knowledge, with that tangible experience, Xiao Xingchen immediately wants to fight him, to remove Xue Yang from his life. How hard must that have been? To have been someone loved and needed in one moment and cast to the side for your past actions in another? Again, this is all bearing in mind that Xiao Xingchen does not know what the audience knows yet. Xiao Xingchen only knows that this man makes him laugh every day, that he goes to the market for him and A-Qing, that he makes animals from apples. He leaves Xue Yang candy! Yet, as soon as it is revealed that he is Xue Yang, none of that seems to matter anymore.
What would have happened if Song Lan never showed up? What if A-Qing had never told Xiao Xingchen about Xue Yang’s true identity? What if they kept on as they were? Xue Yang didn’t bring up Xiao Xingchen’s “crimes” until Xiao Xingchen turned on him (in his mind) and made him feel as less than. If he was really trying to torture Xiao Xingchen, then why wait years to reveal what Xue Yang made him do? I think Xue Yang was trying to create his own ideal world- one where Xiao Xingchen came down to his level, was humanized, and in a city where no one could reveal that he was actually Xiao Xingcehn’s mortal enemy (killing all of the villagers with an alternative motive besides just “make Xiao Xingchen commit crimes.”) He was setting up a home, in a twisted way, where he could keep an eye on everything, continuing to be the puppet master in this grand scheme where the ultimate goal was to have something akin to family.
okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds
artemis lost everything during the final days. her brother, her lover and all of her friends, she had turned against them, rejecting the convocation's plan to save the star. even her mentor, her mother, venat, she turned her back against. she could not justify the loss of life that their gods made manifest would cost.
but she didn't die alone. at world's end, she and apollo were tired, and the fight was long over.
HI ohmyhod i saw your mellomelloid pfp and freaked out. it's fun to find vocasynth fans out in the wild . . . random question if you feel like answering, what are your favourite kairikibear songs ?? :D
MY SPINTEREST MENTION!?!?!? (Kairikibear (sorry))
My favorites are anheru & hitosama allergy, but i also rly love mellomelloid + failure girl (especially MARETU’s remix of the song!) + BUG as well. . I have waay too many favorites but i think if i had to pick 05 those would be it. . . Anon you should tell me what your favs are (if you’d like) :3