Yo like emotional abuse fucking sucks. From parents who struggle with narcissism or other mental health issues, it means a child is probably going to grow up thinking that everything is contractual, that their worth is defined by what they can give other people, that their own health and happiness is worth sacrificing if it means they’ll be less of a strain on others. It’s a toxic mindset and unfortunately takes years of therapy and good support systems to heal the brain’s patterns of thinking from a survival situation.
But goddammit today I asked my dad if there was anything I could do to help out while he’s been covering shifts at the hospital and he said that just knowing I was happy took a load off his mind. And I really actually believe him.
It’s not going to be horrible forever you guys.