#abuse tw in the tags bc my familys fucky

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sometimes someone else has to say something for something to click in ur head, yknow?

#mic.vent #abuse tw in the tags bc my familys fucky #my roommate looked me dead in the face as i was complaining about my mother and told me it was an abusive cycle #and i like... kinda just sat there and started talking about it a little more and she just #went michael. your relationship with your mother is a cycle of abuse and thats why you have the feelings you do about familial relationships #and i guess i just like... never really #idk i mean like i knew she was emotionally abusive i mean she has been my entire life but like i just.. didnt think about it. #bc yKNOW IT WAS LIKE NORMAL FOR ME. LIKE SHES ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS and i just didnt really put more into it than that #man. this shit sucks i hate having a family and i KNOW thats only bc ive had to deal w/ my own #ive been around other peoples families and they seem fine. people love their families and i just #cant! relate! i just cant #my mother spent so so long being like this. my ex step father was a dick. my bio dad was a dick. her husband sucks. i never got along with #my brother. i never got along with my sister and now they want me to just #get along with three new girls and call them my sisters and call her husband my dad but #dude i just cant. #i just cant. #all family has ever done is let me the fuck down dude i cannot put my trust out like that again to them. #they fucked that trust up a little too many times and i WISH to god i would just cut off contact with my mothers side too but #she lives a BLOCK away from me and i know shed make everything a fuckin nightmare #trauma tw #anyway hi lol im fucked up