Some fanart I did of Alastor for Aceweek awhile back. He is honestly such an icon and I love him platonically
I was 10 years old when I started to wonder if there was something wrong with me. I realised I was asexual around the same time as my peers realised they weren’t. In late primary school, the boys and girls didn’t want to play together anymore - they ‘fancied’ and wanted to 'go out’ with each other. I watched girls fighting over boy drama in the cafeteria and wondered what had gotten into everyone.
That’s when I decided I’d attend an all girls’ school under the naive belief that, in the absence of boys, none of the girls would care about sex or dating. I quickly discovered that a same-sex environment had the opposite effect.
By the time I was a teenager, my peers started to wonder what was wrong with me. The sexual frustration was turned up to 100, which made it all the more obvious that I wasn’t reacting the same way as the other teens. While their sexuality was directed towards any nearby boy, a poster of a boy, or even each other, mine wasn’t directed anywhere. And other people wanted to work out why that was more than I did.
Before believing that it was just my innate sexuality, it was easier to assume that I was gay and in denial. Maybe I was molested as a kid and I’d forgotten about it, but been left with psychological scars. I could be hiding a hidden perversion – my dad asked me whether I was into inanimate objects or children when I told him that I wasn’t attracted to men or women. I might be a psychopath, unable to empathise with people enough to deem them attractive. The theory that held the most weight was that I was 'mentally stunted’, and I was treated as such. I started to wonder if they were right.
At 15, I learned the word asexual. It was during yet another analysis session of my sexuality at school. I described myself as not being attracted to men or women for the thousandth time, and someone suggested I might be “asexual or something.” With a quick Google search, I realised I wasn’t alone. Asexuality is a term used to describe those who experience a lack of sexual attraction and/or low levels of sexual desire towards others.
It wasn’t a mental or physical disorder, or a personality flaw, or anything related to my appearance or my life experiences. It wasn’t the same as being celibate, or anti-sex, or just being a ‘late bloomer.’ It was a legitimate sexual orientation characterised purely by a lack of sexual attraction or desire, meaning that it had no implications on whether an asexual could masturbate, or actually enjoy sex, or have children, or be in a romantic relationship. There were no limitations, just a way to bring a lot of people under one united umbrella.
I had finally found an answer to everyone’s question… only, no one else knew what the hell I was talking about. Unfortunately, that didn’t stop them from spewing the same ignorant views I had been hearing for years.
To an extent, I can’t blame them. It’s been almost 10 years since I discovered the term and it is barely part of public consciousness. It isn’t included in sex education or any conversations about sexuality. We’re left out of policies, pathologised in psychiatry and there is next-to-no representation for asexual people in the media. You can count positive examples on one hand. Most of the time, asexuality is either a fleeting reference, the butt of a joke, or a trait in a character that’s either an alien, robotic, or evil – a manifestation of their lack of empathy. Think your Sheldon Cooper, your Data from Star Trek, your Lord Voldemort.
Especially for women, it’s seen as a symptom of their prudishness, unattractiveness or overall blandness, which needs to be resolved by the end of the plot so they can be complete, appealing, lovable people. After all, being virginal is a good thing, perpetual sexual unavailability is not, particularly when you need a loving sexual relationship to be whole. Even our non-fiction portrayals tend to conform to stereotypes and perpetuate a ‘woe is them’ narrative. And among all of these things, they’re probably white, occasionally East Asian, but never Black. Black people are hypersexualised to the point where that would become contradictory and confusing for the audience. And that’s what I would end up being.
When I first mentioned on social media that I was asexual, I had no intention of becoming a voice for the asexual community. It seemed too unlikely to contemplate. After all, I was a Black gothic student from Berkshire who got sat on at school because I was that invisible. On top of that, my work as an alternative lingerie model meant I was far from the girl/boy-next-door like the asexual activists who had come before me. But, apparently, that’s what the community wanted. From there, my activism took off.
I quickly found myself becoming one of the community’s most prominent - but unlikely - faces. I used my platform to raise awareness for asexuality, empower asexual people, dispel misconceptions and promote our inclusion in spaces we’ve traditionally been left out of. From incorporating asexuality into lingerie campaigns, speaking at government institutions, being the first openly asexual person to appear on LGBTQ+ magazine covers, and opening asexual spaces, my work has been intersectional if not a little controversial.
I had never experienced hatred online like I have since speaking openly about asexuality. Only through my work did I become aware of acephobia and the exclusionary discourse surrounding what at first seems like an inoffensive and discreet orientation. It’s shown me how important asexuality activism is, and it’s made me aware of just how diverse, powerful and unique the asexual community is. How they stand up for the rights of others even when we’re ignored ourselves, how they’ll never let their invisibility stop them from developing their own unique culture, history, and progressive understanding of human sexuality and love.
This week is Asexual Awareness Week, an occasion founded by Sara Beth Brooks a decade ago. It’s one of the few times in the year that the community demands to be seen and people start looking.
Don’t miss us, we have a lot to show you.
ace awareness week (6/7)
GOD I love procrastinating on things that I was supposed to do.
I’m hope everyone has had a great aceweek! First time ever participating, and it’s amazing to see my sexuality so openly talked about and educated on! 💜🖤🤍
ACE WEEK 2020
I drew my friends and I’s fav animal as their ace orientation ^^
I hope everyone had a good week and got plenty of love 💜🖤💚
So for my last queued post for Ace Week, I’ll tell y’all my coming out stories
The first person I came out to was my best friend. We were talking about something else entirely and the subject of sexual attraction came up, and I mentioned that I don’t feel it towards anyone. Turns out she knew what asexuality was and the only thing I had to explain was gray-aromanticism. I was very happy with how understanding and accepting she was, and it was overall a great experience.
I came out to my family one by one, starting with my dad. I did it unintentionally, and he wasn’t too pleased about it but he hasn’t been rude or awful about it so I guess that’s pretty good. I came out to my mom with a pun (kinda?); we were passing a sign that had “ace” on it and I went “haha that’s me.” She didn’t get it so I did it again the next time we passed it and then had to explain to her what I was talking about. She is the same way as my dad but also isn’t awful about it so that’s also pretty good.
I came out to both of my siblings when in a conversation they said something along the lines of ‘yeah I’m straight” by replying ‘well I’m not.” Their faces made it very much worth it. My sister is the same way as my parents and I don’t think my brother cares, and while the situation in general could be better it’s not horrible so I’m grateful for that.
Ace week is over? Time to go back in the closet
Ace visibility more like ace invisibility
it’s the final day of ace week, so im gonna cover two identities today!
identity 1: cupiosexuality
cupiosexuals do not experience sexual attraction, like other asexuals. however, cupiosexuality means that they still desire a sexual relationship. they may enjoy the act of having sex, and may have sex with partners, but they do not actually experience sexual attraction.
cupio blogs: i only found @mutigcupid, but there are also tons of generic aspec blogs to look for! (in past posts)
identity 2: aceflux
being aceflux means that your aspec identity may change. for instance, one day you may feel very strongly asexual, but another you may feel weak sexual attraction. the degree to which the person experiences asexuality will change.
aceflux blogs: again i couldnt find any so refer to past ace week posts for aspec blogs!
i know that ace week is coming to a close today, but this week isnt the only week that acespecs should be proud! always remember, dont let the aphobes get u down! love u guys <3
I wish all fellow Asexuals a very spooky Halloween, and again, happy Ace Week!