#actually I sometimes want to leave tumblr

[detectivebambam]

For the choosing violence thing.

I curious about your thoughts on 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 16,17,18,19,20,21,22,23,24, and 25

(Your thoughts make my day tbh)

lol i gotchu pinky

the character everyone gets wrong: Dan. she's not a badass. i mean she is, but she's not. she's a scared little girl who had to raise herself and has no idea what she's doing at any given time and i love her for it

why andrew would never top or bottom: actually he does both, and tends to enjoy it. kind of an agressive top but Neil likes it, and sometimes likes to follow orders when he bottoms 🫣 i think they do anything and everything with each other. Neil could be dominant or submissive at any given time, which gives Andrew space to learn about what he actually enjoys. He finds that as long as it involves Neil, he doesn't mind

worst tumblr take I've seen: that Andrew was a misogynist because he doesn't like being manipulated, and "manipulation is a woman's weapon" like how is THAT not misogynistic be so real

why did you block that annoying person?: kept saying that Kevin abused Riko as much as Riko abused Kevin. don't know how far they had to reach into the depths of their asshole to find that one, i just hope they didn't get stuck

i don't have discord

which ship fans are the most annoying: y'all are going to absolutely murder me for this but kevaaron. 1) where did it come from? 2) what's wrong with Katie?? 3) no hate ship what u want but also, i can ship what i want? and it's fine it's literally fine

what character did you start to hate because of fanon: i hate to say it but Thea. i adored her when I read the books originally, but after 4 years of exclusively fanon content i didn't like her. but i did a reread recently and adore her again so it's all good

common fandom opinion everyone is wrong about: Andrew being a sex god. Neil is his first consensual sexual partner. like yeah he knows how to suck dick like a dying man, which he learned in juvie (when he was 13-16?) but in terms of sex? he doesn't know what he's doing and he's probably really scared and nervous

worst part of canon: kevin and thea turning their daughter into a mini Raven 😔

worst part of fanon: Renee erasure 😔😔

fandom related words you've filtered: as of currently? anything tsc related because I don't have access to it yet and people aren't tagging properly. but I also have Rinee (rixo x renee) blocked because,,, what do you actually mean

unpopular character you like and why people should like them: Aaron. yeah he's an asshole and a little homophobic but he was raised that way and he's getting better

worst blorboification: if this means what i think it means, fucking riko. like wdym "he serves cunt" he needs to serve time

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you can't understand why this is popular: kevaaron, any riko ship, riko himself, ichirou x neil, andreil breaking up in fics ?

there should be more of this: fic: oral fixation. sexual or non sexual idc but let's Freud these bitches. fanart: ANDREW WITH LONG HAIR PLS PLS PLS

it's criminal that y'all have been sleeping on: STUART HATFORD. LITERALLY NEXT TO WYMACK ON THE FATHER FIGURE SCALE. I LOVE HIM

you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like: i don't feel guilt I'm Presbyterian

part of canon you found boring: anytime they were in class like wdym

part of canon you think is overhyped: this one is going to get me in trouble so i wanna start off by saying that yes, Riko was a victim of abuse. I'm not disputing that at all. but the part where he got beat by Tetsuji and "was more blood and bruise than skin", while being horrible, was also because of Kevin leaving due to Riko breaking his hand. Tetsuji lost one of his biggest investments because of Riko's petty ego

fav part of canon that everyone ignores: Stuart Hatford man

ship you've unwillingly come around to: Kandreil lol. i didn't like it at first but idk the more fanfic i see I'm like yeah that could be cute

topic that brings up the most rancid discourse: picture this, if you will: Nora Sakavic says something about her own damn characters. yeah that's all

common fandom complaint you're sick of hearing: "it's poorly written" it's not. if you can get over the first chapter of The Raven King, the rest is actually written very well and it's so so beautiful and depicts traumatized characters in a way I haven't seen before that is very refreshing

ty for the ask pinky ily

#aftg #all for the game #andrew minyard #nora sakavic #the foxhole court #neil josten #andreil #kevin day #aaron minyard #jean moreau #alison reynolds #matt boyd #renee walker #stuart hatford #riko moriyama #tetsuji moriyama #dan wilds #nicky hemmick #kandreil #kateaaron

[jacqulinetan]

20 questions for fic writers

I was tagged!!!! thank you @ursae-minoris-world, you're truly so so kind to think of me.

I'll be real honest, I'm only on tumblr very intermittently and I don't really know how to use the platform at all. I'm scared that my formatting will be really messy and make people angry if I put a wall of text on their feed. So hopefully I figure out how to do the jump cut. But I just finished a fic so it's very fun to do one of these and talk about my writing. And I always like to see other people too, so I thought, hey I will give it a shot. Here's the questions:

How many works do you have on ao3? Right now I just finished my 74th work on ao3! Fifty four of those are vld, twenty four are sheith proper

2. What's your total word count on ao3? 993,716 words. I'm set to hit a million this year, I think!

3. What fandoms do you write for? LOL can you believe it? We're still loving Mr. Keith Voltron in the glorious year of our lord 2024

4. What are your top five fic by kudos? Oh well, my sk friends aren't going to be impressed--- my kl fics always take top spots for kudos and bookmarks. I attribute this not to talent or popularity but just because that side of the fandom has a much wider reach. For the sake of the questionnaire, I'll answer properly, in order: 'it's you that's haunting me' takes the top spot by a wide margin at 2,591 kudos to date. 'that mullet, etc' is currently at 1,788 kudos, and after that it's 'cross my heart,' 'swapping out silence,' and 'things that go bump in the night.'

5. Do you respond to comments? I do! for me, one of the best parts of fic is the community between authors and their audience. For the majority of my fandom life I've considered myself more of a reader than a writer, so I really treasure it when I leave a comment and an author responds. It's so special. As an author, I do respond to every comment, though sometimes it takes me a long time. I'm always so impressed that people are not only reading my words but digesting them and thinking on them too. It's wild to me. A very precious gift.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Oh, my friend, that fic is yet to come. the wip I've got on my closest back burner has a real humdinger of an angsty ending. I'm excited about it. hmmmm if I had to answer now.....I'm not sure! usually I'm a happy ending kind of girl

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? well well well, now I have to answer this one properly don't I? Are we thinking happiest like 'biggest emotional pay off for the reader'? Or happiest like 'Keith is wildly happy' by the end? I think 'heart nailed open' has a very good emotional pay off (though I wrote it so perhaps I can't judge too well on behalf of the reader). If I am really thinking, in which fic is Keith truly the happiest he could ever be by the end...well, I try always to make Keith happy but, in 'the whole story' he has everything he could ever want AND a very nice couch.

8. Do you get hate on fics? Not routinely. I did, actually, get a very nasty comment on a fic in 2023 and it legitimately hurt my feelings. Made me feel like I should not be writing at all, actually. But, can you believe it? Friends came out of the woodwork-- people I rarely talk to, even-- and jumped in my comments section and really defended me. like, I really had all kinds of people on my side, defending me! So that meant a lot to me, and I was honestly so surprised, and I'd like to give every one of those friends the kindest hand press because I really did feel very taken care of in the aftermath.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Oh, I don't know! I have plenty of E rated fics but I don't know if I will ever master a true PWP. to me, the sex scenes I write are not so original or exciting, nothing to really write home about lol. I'm not a fan of publicly being negative about my stuff, so I will simply say that I wish I could write some really off beat toe curling wild kink, but it's probably just not my personality to do so LOL

Is this getting really long?? should I be embarrassed ? should I close the tab and never think on this again? hmmm no

10. Do you write cross overs? Cross overs with what, my dear? There's only one Keith

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Oh I think 'it's you that's haunting me' strolled on over to wattpad or some such site without my permission back in the day, but I've never really looked into it. What I don't know cannot hurt me, right? I highly doubt that there's been some crazy highway robbery for perfchan words.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? I don't think I have! But I did have someone ask to record a podfic for one of my stories, and I was so flattered and thrilled!!!!!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Nope! I don't have much interest in this, I am very shy about my writing and I fear I would be too cagey to be a very good collaborator.

14. what's your all time favorite ship? Keith x Being Loved and Cherished the Way He Ought to Be

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? (covers face) I don't have any unfinished WIPs.... it's not in my Type A personality to leave things undone.....

16. What are your writing strengths? This is something to really ponder!!! What /are/ my strengths!!! huh!!! well. I figured out early on that my favorite things to write are atmospheric and setting heavy -- both my most popular fic (it's you that's haunting me) and my most personally beloved fic (heart nailed open) have this in common: they have a lot of detail about the setting, and a lot of effort put into ~vibes~ of the story. so I think, if I could be self indulgent and chose which writing bits I'm good at, it's that type of thing. I really like crafting a scene you can settle into with all of your senses

17. what are your writing weaknesses? too many to list!!! I very often read my own writing and I always enjoy it (I wrote it for myself afterall) but sometimes I wonder....why did I spend so long on this particular bit? I think I am not very good at making a story tight. I wish I could master the art of being able to 'trim the fat' so to speak, really be precise with the story, but I simply don't have the chops! I can never understand how to make it better than I already have! perhaps if I keep writing long enough, I will get better at this

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? this question would really open up a can of worms on the kl side of the fandom LOL. I will admit it, I've had Lance speak spanish a time or two. I don't speak spanish myself so in those rare instances I have been VERY careful to keep things straightforward and try really really hard to not be cringe worthy to native speakers

19. First fandom you wrote for? the first thing I posted online was a USUK fic in a hetalia LJ comm. I can distinctly remember the first time I ever read a fic with *there was only one bed* (it was usuk) and WHEN I TELL YOU MY EYES WERE OPENED. I was forever changed on that day. of course I wanted to try my hand at writing after that

20. Favorite fic you've written? You would ask me to chose a favorite of my children!!! Oh! I simply could not!!! No, seriously, it's 'heart nailed open.' I love that fic

This got so long !!!!!! I can't imagine anyone reading all this !!!!!!!! but omg if you did thank you!!!!!! I'm shy about tagging people in the best of times, and like I said at the very beginning, I am very very shaky on tumblr etiquette, so I had better not tag anyone. but if my friends enemytosleep or grem or kacy or monday happen to see this, I would be very excited to read your responses!!! okay bye!!

#perfchan #my writing #fanfiction meta

[sergle]

I'm thinking abt that pretty fall leaves embroidery pattern post and about how like... it is categorically a repost, it's a reupload. right? a thing that is generally disliked. but because it's credited, it's genuinely boosting the artist in question. and it could ALWAYS be like this. reposting content could ALWAYS be a symbiotic relationship, but because sourcing back to the original creator of something is so uncommon, it's just easier to ask people not to repost it at all. and people still don't understand the difference. or they'll go to the effort of cropping out usernames/signatures to repost something, which is More Effort than literally crediting the creator of something you liked enough to want to repost. Like. I literally don't actually care if my own shit gets reposted, you have to understand. I just don't want it STOLEN. But "do not repost" is easier to write on my art than "you can repost this, but don't alter the image/remove my signature, don't you dare write 'credit goes to the artist' because that is not credit, please link back to my original post or someplace that you can actually find me. please use an actual link/url instead of writing a non-clickable link of my username, because making it text instead of a clickable link cuts the number of people who will go to the effort of visiting my own page in Half." All those aggregate themed accounts, those fuckin annoying as hell instagrams and facebook groups that are like "body positive art we love wamen 💕 hashtag feminism" and then MASS-STEAL plus sized art created by women, if pages like these that always go and steal my older self-portraits and other works... If they just put a link to my prints of those pieces in the text of those posts, or, fuck, my commission info page? I would literally be living on the moon right now. I would have a house on the moon

#there is actually nothing morally wrong with running an account that just reuploads ppl's artwork or their jokes or their cosplays #if you just put a VISIBLE LINK in the description of your post with proper credit then it would be beneficial for everyone #because you can get your little clout or whatever it is you want by putting a bunch of same-category content on a page #but nobody's getting fucked over because if your post blows up then people just get FUNNELED to the source #because it's placed so plainly where everyone can see it #and yeah it's better to retweet or reblog but #on the rare occasion that I see my shit reuploaded on tumblr WHICH IS WEIRD BC I MAKE MY OWN POSTS HERE but anyway #someone making their own post where they upload my stuff. and it's always the floral self portraits so let's say it's a post with all those #if I scroll to the bottom and it says like. Artwork by Serglesinner on Twitter <-- clickable link [Sergle's Prints] <-- clickable link #to my etsy #I'm like oh okay and all the anger leaves my body and I'm like ah I see. and I toss the rock aside #like oh okay so you actually care that a person made these pieces. Instead of posting the caption ''women <3'' or smth #like you've GOTTA die if you do that. but if you just link back #or if you go to the effort of writing like a description with a BLURB? like it's a damn museum. like a light paragraph of info #about what the art is and who made it and their links #I am literally sucking you in a strange and peculiar manner. that is extremely helpful #and maybe other artists don't want this AT ALL and they'd rather people not reupload even if it is credited #but I feeeeeeeeel. like 99% of the time this would solve the issue #reposters could genuinely be helping ppl. sometimes the repost gets more traction than the real thing #as long as it credits the creator then that's an okay thing to happen! #that can land somebody a sale! a commission order! a new fan! A JOB #A JOB!!!!!!!!!! #sergle.txt #I didn't write this eloquently AT ALL what the fuck ever barkbarkbarkbark

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

anyone else ever get struck with a sudden feeling of distaste or being tired of someone who you usually really like/are friends with for literally no reason whatsoever? or is that just me

#like this has been happening with various people all summer #I'll be like... the thought of this person causes negative emotions that are literally directed at nothing #it isn't anything the person has done I just. feel like I don't care and don't really want to put in the effort with whatever friend #which is really weird bc I KNOW if I DO just put in the effort and ignore that random feeling I'll have fun and enjoy myself!! #bc I DO still like my friends actually!!! I just sometimes feel like I Don't and idk why #Lu rambles #this is especially odd when it's the sound guy bc like. not only have I been massively crushing on him all summer #but he's also one of the few people I genuinely have clicked with here. like we get along. it's cool. I've been slightly in love with him #so why do I now have this weird feeling like I want nothing to do with him/don't care #actually I feel extremely ambivalent about just about everyone right now but for some reason especially him #wait maybe it's PMS actually.... the Leave Me Alone Don't Talk To Me Don't Look At Me Don't Make Me Show Up hormones have hit :/ #...that would actually explain several things from the last couple days. I should start tracking it #ok sorry I'm done externally processing my emotions on Tumblr dot com. bye

[abyssalplein]

A Niki and Elmer all dressed up for a party in a hypothetical world where Esperanza got Niki fancy clothes (I am so proud of Niki's fancy clothes). Esperanza probably shoved his own old clothes at Elmer idk.

Elmer looking a little unnerving and unhinged is only partially on purpose. (This is the second time that I've drawn Elmer doing that expression. idk)

#niki is very get me away from this idiot but also wtf i do not want to leave this corner #trying a slightly messier style in case I actually do try to do commissions so art doesn't take forever #making the art i want to see in the world is sometimes so hard but very rewarding #niki (baccano) #elmer c. albatross #baccano #baccano! #fanart #art #abyssalplein #abyssal arts #illustration #digital art #art on tumblr #artists on tumblr

[sureuncertainty]

the way everyone suddenly turned on lin manuel miranda on this website is so baffling to me lol

#win rambles #like you can feel however you want personally about his music but you cannot say that most of it is not objectively well written? #there's a reason why we don't talk about bruno topped the charts and was everywhere #sometimes... things that are popular.... are good #and like regardless of whatever you feel about a PERSON i don't understand this 'actually they're talentless' mindset #like i promise you you can just not like something. and just like. leave it at that #people do this to taylor swift too and act like her music is objectively bad which is just like. not true #but tumblr has always hated taylor swift overall i don't understand why we all just suddenly decided that lin manuel miranda is the worst #i literally just saw a post saying that anyone saying his music was good should go to hell and i am not exaggerating #like. can y'all be normal about things for 2 seconds??

[astranite]

Today I encountered The Horrors. 

(had to make a phone call and send an email I’d been putting off.)

(There are still more Horrors to come)

(whyyyyyyyyyyyy?????)

#really dont like the way being an Adult and getting my shit together involves The Horror #and how tumblr only sometimes lets me edit my tags #still more things ive got to do #what is this actual responsibilites nonsense #isnt it enough for me to simply stuff around? #i know i need to do the things #and on some level i want to do the things because they will benefit me #and i know there are consequenses for not doing the things #but i have not done all the things #why am i like this #oh yeah adhd #and i forgot to take my damn meds #even though id literally left them in the most obvious spot possible on my desk #maybe i should leave them on top of my laptop thats an idea #where was i #ah yes complaining to the void about the Horrors #at least i did do two things #but i did not study and there are deadlines approaching but i dont know when becasue i dont remember #and i just need to do it #but its painfully boring and anxiety inducing and i hardly know where to start #and it would involve sitting at my desk and Concentrating #so im on tumblr #hello friends welcome to my mess #AstraStuff #and now i have to go to the dentist becasue i have teeth which is just another responsibility #so yeah

[bunn-iiii]

me when my crush.. calls me sweet.. an I've never been called sweet before /pos

#i swear if he finds this somehow I'm done for tho #cause he'll immediately know #i don't think he has a tumblr but.. #idk he could #he doesn't follow if he does luckily #crush #he's so #yes #/pos #sometimes i feel like my feelings towards him are shallow and i don't actually like him for him and then he says shit like that and #my heart just explodes #like #oouf #kicking my legs as i type this fr #i vould probably talk about him all day #but i honestly don't want him to know every stupid little thought i have about him if he finds this #so I'll leave it there #tag rant

[astrxealis]

mobile tumblr's new format what the fuck!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #as said by lune now: 'tumblr think it's funny' LMFAO <//3 #yk i finally resubbed in ffxiv hehe ^___^ i say finally but i just haven't subbed for like... a week... #and the last time i played was just like 20 days ago..... not even a month.......... #uhmmm. focusing on homework yes <3 stressed for tuesday but i'll do my best :(( #and uhmmm. i did a few lil exercises/stretches in the morning bcs i shld really do that more often ^___^ #and i'll dedicate enough time to gaming/music today! and leave some leeway bcs no doubt i'll get distracted sometime today #and hopefully as i improve my schedule more i can also put in time for reading hehe ^^ and just. dedicating my energy & time well <3 #+ i can still do with more studying >___< but also social life shall not be neglected! #anyways sorry if you don't see me often on social media lol i am trying to get myself more together and i am getting there i think hehe #sooo. i'll play xiv for a bit and then do my homework! i suck w just giving myself time limits so i'll make an alarm #i suck w following alarms unless it's required tho. i'll get up immediately for class but if it's just from normal sleep for a normal day #i will extend it until i feel restless and want to get up and actually do shit LMFAO <3 #okay anyways have a good day everyone !! please don't forget to take care of yourself alright? #btw the format isn't really that bad but i'll need to get used to it and it's a lil weird to me

[amarrymeinbostonwriter]

Not me having a mild panic attack at the grocery store when I realize how fucking expensive life is. 

Not me also heavily fantasying about hot fictional and/or historical women. The. whole. damn. day. 

Not me also stuffing fried chicken in my face. 

Definitely not me saving about fifty articles about Radclyffe Hall for later browsing completely unrelated to my grad research (or is it???)

#a box of rice crispies should NOT be 7 dollars #the poor kid helping me at the store was like lady wtf is going on with you #I put back like a third of my groceries...that's not a fun feeling let me tell you #leaves pretty brain shitty never ended #girl help #The functioning on your local bipolar person may vary please #it has not been my semester lol #my professor must be so confused #she thought I was so smart when I turned in my thesis but then realized I'm only good at writing papers sometimes #and even then not always #boy howdy is it not fun when your brain decides to betray you #she was like wow you know who Radclyffe Hall is #yes I am gay professor #I swear I am the most clown town person in that class ugh #I want to be an academic but wow my brain needs to calm down #actually bipolar #unhinged gay grad student confessions #at least I get to see my friend tomorrow #and maybe I can catch up on my owed work tonight if I log off tumblr soon :/ #and I have more ideas for memes...you already know where this is probably going to go #and I apologize in advance #my chatter

[backslashdelta]

i just want to let you know that i love all of your klaine and kurtbastian content! meaning your fic, gifs, and drabbles. it's so great to see glee creators active in 2022 :)

This is such a sweet message, thank you so much!! It really means a lot to know that people enjoy and appreciate the things I make. Of course I do it because I love it, but the external validation always helps too 🥰

#and I didnt even post anything new today so what a lovely out of nowhere message #really made me smile anon thank you so much #I'm actually working on gifs today and am taking a little break and opened Tumblr to see this #so what a lovely surprise! #also I want to say that I love that you appreciate the klaine and kurtbastian stuff. multishippers make me happy <3 #not that theres anything wrong with not multishipping of course #but sometimes it can feel a little lonely in fandom spaces that are dominated by a specific ship #so trying to make content in spaces for multiple ships sometimes leaves me feeling like I'm not really /properly/ a creator for one ship #because I'm spreading myself across more than one #idk that probably sounds silly and I know that it's not objectively true it's just an in my head thing #but my point is that messages like this help reassure me that I can make content for different ships and it's all just as valuable :) #alright enough rambling in the tags thank you again!!!! #ask #mine #anonymous #about me #kinda??

[boydykedevo]

The amvo dynamic is “could I fix him? I don’t fucking know but no one else is gonna so I guess I’ll hafta try”

#i could have made this a platonic post but I’m chasing my bliss. they kiss and love each other romantically. god bless xo #also if I’d made it platonic it would actually get Notes which is the weird thing about the taz fandom that scares me #sometimes u make posts and those posts get notes and ur just like??? okay? i made that for me and me alone but I guess #i don’t want tumblr clout. i want notes on my art and leave my shitposts alone please #icarus is talking #taz #amvo

[rabbitofharmony]

.

#its so odd that i only talk in tags i know #its become like #the entire way i communicate with this blog #but like. i dont know why i do? #am i embaressed by my spelling maybe or grammer #or maybe i just dont want to leave a perminent stamp on a post? #tumblr has been really bad lately in the site loading #its like constantly freezing or breaking #i feel like its not long for this world sometimes #i was looking at bluesky but i dont know #cause like my twitter was for my twitch #and i dont know if i want a social media where it would be me just posting? #and like. if its just a retweeting board like here #i follow 2300 blogs or someth #i dont want to refind all that. im a tired ol gal #sometimes i think about going back to streams #but only if i get a house and thats gonna take a while #still. thanks for following even tho the only way to see my blurbs #is to come across one of my hundread posts a session #that actually have a tag on them lol #and no i will never tag things #the tag feature is just for secret messages between freinds #dear readers <3

[antho-oh-god-antho-the-bugs]

ok so im like not nice to myself (bc i suck) but then i think, hey if i talked to my friends like this they'd put me in the psych ward

#no i dont want to add tags tumblr leave me alone #also yes this is about how my best friend is convinced i have schizophrenia #i dont #probably #i do have a lot of symptoms #and a lot of general paranoia #and i hallucinate #but only sometimes! #well i mean i have auditory hallucinations a lot #but not visual! #but i think a lot of the symptoms are actually just my adhd

[hoshbrownie]

neg in tags

#i have always done this i'm always back to the tumblrs to fight my demons in the tags #i regret my major soooo badly #but what else would i do otherwise? #i'm sorry to all the ppl who hate ppl going into cs bc of money bc yes that is me but i really didn't know what elese to do yknow #i really wish that i had more approachable cs friends #i hate feeling like a burden but that's all i do academically #like i think i got much much better social skills wise and i met a lot of good friends who appreciate me for who i am #(but even then i'm afraid that i'll annoy them or not show them enough love and they'll leave me) #but academics wise??? i feel horrid #i need to work harder but i have such an aversion to failure i sometimes get nauseous thinking about doing work #LOL fml i need to fail!! i need to try!! to get better #but it's genuinely so difficult #it's july already i'm gonna go into my second year soon #i wish time would pass by slower #i'm tired of this damn project i really wish i had paired up with someone who actually wanted to do well #but noooo i choose someone who doesn't care and i have to carry this damn thing #but i am so tired and there's no one to drag me across the finish line #and i finally got a taste of freedom and happiness when i was living on campus and now that i'm back home i'm back to being so tired #there's no need to fight demons if i keep running #rambles

[ao3commentoftheday]

I've always found it hard to find the right words for comments, but I used to try and put down something on all the fics I liked but after seeing what some of my writer friends, who are fairy popular in their fandoms, say privately in the groupchat about some of the comments they get, I can't bring myself to leave any comments at all any more.

I know it's a form or unloading where they can salt without hurting anyone and I generally think that's a good thing, saltmates are needed so you can talk about all the crappy annoying things in fandom in a private space and not spread shit on tumblr or ao3 etc.

But It's so so disheartening to me as a comment shy reader because it's never good enough. If it's just emoji hearts or someone saying "second kudos" it's too short and worthless. If it's epicly long well-written, funny, sweet, and clever love bombing, then it's too much and annoying.

I just don't understand, I don't write myself, I draw, badly, and I never get the kind of praise they sometimes get, but I would LOVE to have some of those things said about my work.

I love my friends a lot and I'm a firm believer in saltmates, but it makes me a little crazy and very paranoid to see the difference between what they say in private and what they actually answer to the comments in public on their fics.

I've read a lot here on tumblr about how fic writers love ALL comments etc etc and a lot of tips and tricks for people who have problems leaving comments, but I dont trust that now and I never comment anymore because I do not want a writer of a fic I love to think such things about me, even if it's just in their minds in private.

Do I have extra salty friends or is this a common thing among writers that no one wants to admits out loud?

From my experience, as a writer in fandom on and off for 20-ish years and as the mod of a comment-positive fandom ask blog, your friends are extra salty.

Have I heard people get frustrated with "I liked this!" comments? Sure. But for every one of those, I hear at least 10 people who are giddy and bouncing and just over the moon that someone liked their fic. I've never heard anyone complain about "epicly long well-written, funny, sweet, and clever love bombing." Most fic writers I know would probably pass out from happiness if they received one of those.

I don't know your friends, of course, but it sounds like someone in the group got a little toxic at some point and the rest of them went along, for whatever reason. Maybe burnout was a factor. Maybe they had a specific thing they wanted to get from their comments section that they weren't able to receive. Whatever the cause, the effect on you is bad.

I know you didn't ask for what to do about this, but I'm going to lay it out for you anyway:

stay in the group chat and feel worse and worse about every comment you've ever left on a fic

say something to your friends and ask that they have those conversations when you're not around (your choice if you include the part about it being because they make you feel bad)

leave the group chat and maybe also lose those friends

None of those options are great, but your current situation already sucks so it might be time to try something new.

I'm so so sorry that they made you feel like your comments weren't enough, anon. You don't deserve that. No one does. I hope if those authors see this ask that they pause and reflect and realize the audience they were speaking in front of.

I agree that people need a place to be salty, and I appreciate them doing it in a private space - but it wasn't private enough. ❤️

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