#actually csa

[venus-in-hell]

#traumacore #actually ptsd #actuallyptsd #actuallycsa #actually csa #tw csa implied #ventcore #vent art #trauma art #my edit #mine #ptsd art #traumacore edit

[eclecticbutterfly44]

My inner child just wants love.

She just wants to be happy and make other people happy.

She doesn't understand not to trust people.

She does as she's told because she wants to be good.

You knew that...

You fucking knew that she would do anything you told her to...

And you fucking raped her.

#vent #csa survivor #actually csa #tw s/a #sa survivor #sa victim #csa victim

[vhsdreamland]

#ms paint #js paint #tw sh #tw self harm #vent art #actually abused #actually csa

[xx-webfoxxez-xx]

i'm thinking about making a CPTSD/PTSD/trauma coping mechanisms and ways to deal with stuff masterpost.

I'm thinking about separating it in types of trauma > symptoms > how to feel better > why to apply these techniques.

If you have any tips or techniques that you use, them being created by you or passed by your therapist or other people: i'd REALLY love to know about it. Feel free to dm or send an anonymus ask, nobody should suffer alone and i already wrote a bunch of stuff myself.

#actually ptsd #actually cptsd #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #actuallytraumagenic #actually traumatized #tommie speaks #mine #actually autistic #actually csa #actually cocsa #actually autism #actuallyautistic #csa survivor #csa victim #victim #actually did #actually bpd #healing #actually mentally ill

[wallerina]

did anyone else just absolutely fucking adore their abuser. lt makes me feel even more like its.my fault because i missed him so bad every time he dropped me back off at my moms. because he bought me fucking fairy books and ice cream. i distinctly remember going in my room after our weekends together were over and crying and saying "hes such a good man, hes such a good man" over and over again like some kind of chant. i would talk about him constantly at school about how nice he was and how close we were and how he was my favorite parent. he was touching me at night and terrorizing me and choking me and i just loved him so much i thought he was the best dad in the world. i hate myself why did i feel that way. but i cant bring myself to feel anything for anyone else. its like i used all my love up on him when i was a little kid and it all drained out of me and theres nothing real left inside

#𖦹 #vent #csa vent #abuse vent #actually csa #actually abused #cptsd vent #actually cptsd

[ashtonisrottting]

you were supposed to protect me. idgaf if you didn't love me, your only fucking job was to protect me and you just... you just closed your eyes. for six goddamned years, you just closed your eyes... how could you

#vent #actually csa #csa vent #it's implied but still #tw

[angeldustanalog]

i am watching the sandwich family compilation, again, and i want to die.

i don’t understand why people act like children aren’t human.

like i understand its hard to be a caregiver and also if you’re so fucking disgusted to have a child who needs help but you think it’s a good idea to do it anyway just fucking cull yourself.

‘i didn’t know what else to do’ razorblades existed before i was born. did you not know? so did ibuprofen. so did buildings more than two stories high.

why did you bring me into this world.

and when i try to leave im considered insane and selfish. i didn’t want to be here and now i am and they wont let me leave and when i try they lock me up.

and if i leave on my own terms, i go to hell.

fantastic.

#breaking code silence #4-aOC-dmt #angel dust kin #actually csa #actually bpd #actually borderline #actually autistic #actually dissociative #hazbin angel dust #trauma k1nk #sandwich family #caroline easom #tti #troubled teen industry

[eclecticbutterfly44]

He doesn't even remember me.

He assaulted me.

He humiliated me.

He traumatized me.

He ruined my fucking life.

And he doesn't even remember me.

#vent #csa victim #csa survivor #actually csa #tw sa #sa victim #sa survivor

[xxflutterinax]

#longlive #actually csa #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #actually borderline #actuallyautistic #actually traumatized #traumacore #traumacore text

[obscurestrauma]

He was SIXTEEN

#ventcore #vent #ventcore art #traumacore #vent art #traumacore art #actually traumatized #actually abused #actually csa #dog #tw csa vent #victim blaming #canine

[xx-webfoxxez-xx]

god, dear god

if there's any,

if there's an afterlife,

I wish from the bottom of my heart,

and i ask you kindly,

please, give me the gift of being able to forget everything,

and the wildest spirit to run away from it all.

#tommie speaks #sorry im going insane #actuallyptsd #actually ptsd #actually csa #mine #therian

[wallerina]

cant stop having violent revenge fantasies lol they feel so good and it hurts that ill never get to live them out without facing serious consequences. he can traumatize me from birth and fuck me up so badly that ill never have a happy life and he gets to go on living unobstructed, and i just want to cut off his cock and shove it down his throat so he chokes and suffocates on his own vomit but no if i do that ill go to fucking prison

#𖦹 #cw vomit #cw violence #actually abused #actually csa #actually traumatized #ask to tag