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when you're heavily dissociated and people are trying to talk to you
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mewsmash · 1 year
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as a certified crazy triggered by unreality type things, i dont know why the famed #unreality tag has become so diluted it's being used on fucking rp blogs. unreality is not the suspension of disbelief of fiction. unreality is not a person lying. obviously all psychotic/delusional/paranoid/otherwise mentally ill people have different triggers and definitions of the term, but from my experience and other's, unreality is one or more of the below:
(a) content that has existential themes related to reality/things not existing (example: a philosophy such as solipsism, do not look up the term if unreality stuff is triggering for you)
(b) extremely surreal content(example: sometimes content such as weirdcore/dreamcore aesthetics can fall under this umbrella but again this is very subjective)
(c) content that reinforces or encourages common delusions(example: that one "im living in your walls" meme)
there is obviously gray area and I'm not claiming to speak for all people affected by this content but as a whole it seems that tagging so much stuff that is just. engaging with the mode of fiction. as unreality, is just diluting the tag to mean next to nothing and making it useless.
feel free to add (civilly) if you're a person of similar experience about the #unreality tag, I appreciate any input on the subject.
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arozoid · 4 months
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Sorry for disappearing emotionally it will happen again
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lem0nademouth · 4 months
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being a jew w a dissociative disorder has been really fun lately yeah no the gaslighting from goyim constantly hurtling at me full speed non stop for two months definitely hasn’t fucked with my sense of reality or weakened my ability to trust my perception of the world around me yeah no the way you (goyim) are acting is normal and safe and not at all actually harmful to real jewish people
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lifexxxdeath · 1 year
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thecorporatetower · 5 months
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Sometimes I wonder if I’ll wake up and finally see myself in the mirror, instead of a form I simply occupy and control like a machine.
- Anderson/Boss
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someplacehigh · 1 month
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When will I start feeling less *static noises*
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avpdpossum · 2 months
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this tiktok is so funny to me as someone whose primary mental health struggles are avpd and dissociation.
“mental illness is what happens when you’re the person who breaks the generational avoidance of pain and emotions” bestie my mental illnesses are must avoid everything disorder and nothing feels real disorder. if this was supposed to make me better at confronting and dealing with pain, it failed miserably.
like yeah, true, mental illness is often a result of generations of pain being passed down, but it’s less in a “we are the spiritual leaders chosen to break this generational curse” way and more in a “my parents treated me like shit because it was all they knew and it fundamentally changed the way my brains works” way (sometimes with a side of “my family’s brains all work differently in a way that i inherited because there’s some genetic component to it”).
dealing with generational pain and breaking my family’s cycle of avoidance isn’t something that i was ~born to do~; my mental illnesses don’t make me somehow uniquely suited to that task. it’s actually something that’s infinitely harder for me to do because of the ways my mind has been affected by those things, but which i have to do anyway because i’m too aware of it now to just let it continue unchallenged.
but sure, his version works too…as long as you pretend that mood and anxiety disorders are the only mental illnesses.
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crash-freak · 4 months
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OCD feels like hell on earth schizophrenia feels like living in a nightmare DPDR feels like living somewhere in the space between reality and fiction
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chemicalcarousel · 1 year
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other dissociative folks: do you dissociate when ingesting caffeine? because we seem to do. we tried to drink big cups of coffee when we had long lectures, but it would have the opposite effect than it was supposed to have
our theory is that how the caffeine affects the body triggers dissociation for us. maybe our brain thinks we are under acute stress, because of the increased heart rate and it dissociates as a learned response from trauma, but who knows. it is just fascinating to us how bodies work
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antstarion · 2 years
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not my usual type of post but here goes. TW FOR DISSOCIATION AND MENTIONS OF UNREALITY
unreality jokes aren't funny and you shouldn’t make them. online or in person it doesn’t matter. stuff like “we live in a simulation” or “you made us up in your head, we’re not real” messes with the thoughts of people with dissociative disorders or other mental illnesses, esp those that cause dissociation. so either don’t make them or if you do and someone tells you to stop, just stop.
it doesn't have to even be a joke, just bringing those sorts of ideas up is a bit iffy and you could be feeding into a delusion. you could even trigger an episode. if you’re not sure if somethings okay you could either ask or just not say it. the laughs caused by what you wanted to say aren’t worth the pain you could cause.
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"not everything's about you"
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a-random-daydreamer · 2 months
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Delusions vs Dissociation?
I see a new therapist today and we’re supposed to go through an initial assessment so maybe I’ll have some answers later, but I’ve been wanting to write a post to try and understand what’s going on before I meet with her.
I’m going to separate it into parts to talk about what I think is going on.
Derealization/depersonalization
Lately everything I experience feels like a dream. My limbs feel longer and my body feels so disconnected from me. I’m just kinda floating. It’s all blurry and I feel like life is so fragmented. Every day feels so far away from eachother and once the present moment passes, it feels like whatever happened was happening to a different me. Idk if that makes any sense. Like memories aren’t solid. After they happen, it feels like they never happened and the memory is false. This leads me to my next part
Delusions?
This part is funky because I’ll get very delusional beliefs that I 100% believe to be true but I’m aware if I spoke about them, no one would believe me so realistically I know they’re illogical. And I know that because I’ve experienced stuff like this in the past and later, after the episode passes, I realized that what I was believing was utterly bizarre. So I feel I have some self awareness when another episode happens.
The question is: are these actually delusions or am I just severely dissociated and anxious? Here are my beliefs (and they’re off and on sometimes which is another reason why I know I’m being illogical)
- I am not the real me. I stole her memories and replaced her
- I’m in a new timeline. I died at some point last year. It’s possible I’ve died multiple times throughout my life
- I messed up the timeline somehow and the universe is angry. Like I ruined something so grand. I changed my fate when that shouldn’t be possible
- this is a simulation
And here are some delusional beliefs I have experienced in the past:
- Everything outside of my room wasn’t real. If I couldn’t see it, it was frozen or a void. My walls were like a movie set. I was the only real thing. My mother and everyone else is fake
- I’ve unknowingly and unintentionally manifested multiple things in my life like my parents divorce, a lot of my symptoms, other random stuff from my dreams
- Paranoia that people are talking about me
- Feeling like someone is behind me or following me
- Cameras in showers and bathrooms
- Convinced my mother was masturbating in the hotel bed next to me
- Paranoid and convinced my mom had someone over and I could hear their voices (I don’t know if I was actually having auditory hallucinations but I was convinced there were noises). I stood in the hallway for like 20 mins at 2am just listening intently to literally nothing
As far as I’m aware, I don’t experience hallucinations. Sometimes I swear I see something or someone out of the corner of my eye when it feels like someone is following me but when I turn around, there’s nothing there.
Does anyone have any insight as to whether or not this is psychosis/delusions or just dissociation with lots of anxiety? I’m really just confused
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hykyuoftheill · 3 months
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A cycle repeats
It seems to go on and on
I've always been sick
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minipisi-is-dumb · 1 month
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today's subject in my psychology class was dissociative disorders (gasp!) and they were talking about how they're used as a repression method to block out trauma and that they're only developed with trauma. after that the teacher proceeded to read the symptoms for dpdr and (unsurprisingly) woah they still all fit. I mean it would make sense after yk. having it since I can remember being alive and all that
but while the dsm-5 says that dissociative disorders are caused by trauma (not due to prolonged stress as I originally assumed for dpdr? although it might still be not as deep as it could be since it's just one lecture) n it can be a one time thing or a prolonged thing or exposure first hand to someone else going through it. u know the drill
now! question!! what the fuck happened to me!!!!i mean it makes sense if it's blurry / I can't remember / im numb etc etc. it's almost like the entire point of the disorder. but man is it surprising how effective is is. Man.
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lifexxxdeath · 1 year
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I don't remember what self care things or any healthy things I used to do to make me feel good.
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