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[stuffedsand]

for the violence ask game: 8 common fandom opinion everyone is wrong about. for milgram. i know exactly what you're going to say i just want to see you go off again

Hiii bestie. You do know what I'm about to talk about. Yippee

Disclaimer that this whole essay is like. For fun and how I say things is ramped up to be funny. I don't mind if you disagree w me cuz like that's the nature of things! We disagree but we can get along.

Anyways short answer for people who don't wanna see the essay: organ harvesting theory. This is about shidou.

Idk how prevalent it is rn since not many people even talk about shidou but it was prevalent enough in June when I got into milgram that I believed it for a bit anyways the rest in under the cut cuz I'm insane sorrg

SO the main reason I think the theory is WRONG (hyperbole‼️) is because I just think it's unrealistic. Man works in a hospital in Japan. How would he pull it off. Scuff an operation bad enough to cause braindeath/death and I'm p sure they suspend your medical licence, if he participated in an organ harvesting operation pre-family-accident his case would then be black and white cuz he was doing it in complete sound mind with no regard for human life. Also it wouldn't justify the extreme reaction he's had to realizing, specifically, "what I've been robbing people of" (t1 voice trailer), and he wouldn't have as heavy a focus on the relatives' feelings and reactions. At least story writing wise it'd make less sense since it doesn't allude to anything if that's the end goal? Imo at least. Idk maybe this is because I really like tragedies in media. Also because it'd be a really disproportionately severe crime compared to every other direct murderer???? Like. We have strangled someone, stabbed someone, bludgeoning, bludgeoning, kicked someone to death. Organ harvesting looks cartoony in this context. It's also not a very prevelant issue in Japan iirc.

Also to prove my point further. If we use this theories the murders would be

Strangling, abortion??????, cyber bullying, stabbing, organ harvesting, toxic r/s, telling the truth (lmao), bludgeoning, bludgeoning, bludgeoning (minus weapon). Organ harvesting is goofy cuz it seems so.... Extreme,,,,,,,

ALSSOOOOO funny point. If he's not directly involved in his murder (as in, unintentional and indirect) that makes 5 direct and 5 indirect. Silly.

Also also his murder seems somewhat tied to how he feels about his job itself ("I wanted to contribute to society (about his career choice)/I had thought my work was a contribution to society", use of past tense) and to me it reads like hes disillusioned w his job esp since his reason for getting a highly sought after, high paying and high social ranking job is "I wanted to contribute to society". Doctors with that empathy can be affected by the death around them more severely and I think that's a fun topic to look at

I count this under "common fandom opinion" cuz it was common enough around June (whenyours truesly got into milgram) that I believed it. I mean I introduced shidou to my friend (hello clown) as "maybe Dr malpractice. Organ harvesting dude" and said friend (hello again clown) is also the one who's heard me bash the organ harvesting theory like 6 times at least now so. Yippee.

Take none of this seriously I just got off a plane and am so very eepy. If you like the organ harvesting theory good for you!!!!!!!💥💥💥💥💥 you do you bestie !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I literally do not think less of anyone who believes that theory I just personally dont lmao

#sand speaks #hiiiii bestie my silly mutual. youve heard this rant before now for it poorly formatted in text #i mean its better formatted than when i actually talk abt it cuz if i wrote it the way i originally did the points would not be organised #like at all. itd be so bad #anyways all of this is lighthearted i dont think less of anyone with different opinions i just. dont believe the theory at all #i like the tragedy thag comes woth it technhcally not being his fault but also kinda being his fault. #like maybe he had really bad manners towards relatives. or horribls bedside manner (youre in my way just die already“ like ok mr kirisaki. #dont say that to a comatose patient my dude. but yeah it can be argued that morally hed be in the wdong #or if he persuaded relatives to dknate patients organs. which is rude and also malpractice (coercion and taking advantage of ppl in vulnerab #and with his themes of lying (covers) i fhink it could wither be lying to relatives of patients OR. him seeing hsi work and the promise of #saving people from illness or death as a lie and a hoax becasye so many people died anyways despite those promises #anhwyas im insane about this man. characters with extreme worldviews entirely of their own making my beloved #like nothing told him to believe this. he just does and thats whats interesting to me #anywasy suuper sorry about the big essay and the many tags. i love this fandom #i have so much to say but so little phone battery. and mental battery its Zzzzzzzzz time #tell me if abything in here sounds mean or anything btw im too used to being mean as a jokiing thing so im worried ill offend someone

[creature-wizard]

Is the spiritual person a conspiracy theorist? A list of red flags

They talk about a shadowy group of people supposedly manipulating everything behind the scenes. They might refer to them by terms such as globalists, bankers, international bankers, secret rulers of the world, the elite, the cabal, Kabbalists, Talmudists, satanists, satanic pedophiles, pedophiles, generational satanists, satanic bloodlines, the Illuminati, the Babylonian Brotherhood, lizard people, Reptilians, Orions, regressives, regressive entities, Khazarians, Marxists, cultural Marxists, or leftists. Sometimes, very rarely, they'll just come right out and say "Jews."

They claim that the conspiracy has been working to conceal historical and spiritual truths from humanity.

They claim that the conspiracy uses stuff like food, entertainment, and medicine to control the masses. For example, "additives in food suppress our psychic abilities" or "Hollywood films contain subliminal messages" or "COVID vaccines were actually created to alter your DNA to make you more docile."

Also, claims that the conspiracy controls people via spiritual or technological implants, 5G, or alter programming, with or without explicit mention of Project Monarch (a conspiracy theory promoted by far right cranks such as Mark Philips and Fritz Springmeier, who used hypnosis to respectively convince Cathy O'Brien and Cisco Wheeler that they'd been put under mind control by a global satanic conspiracy).

They claim that this conspiracy is controlling the media, has fingers in every institution they disagree with, and is generally behind everything they disagree with. (EG, the conspiracy created the Catholic Church; that other New Ager they disagree with is actually controlled opposition, etc.)

They claim that the conspiracy is trying to keep people in fear.

They claim that the conspiracy harvests something from people. Blood and adrenochrome are common ones. Loosh is somewhat less common. Expect to see something else pop up eventually.

They claim that the conspiracy practices genetic engineering; EG, creating animal/human hybrids, using vaccines to genetically sever people's connection to God, etc.

They claim that true spiritual wisdom can be traced back to places like Atlantis, Lemuria, or Mu.

They claim that world governments have secretly been in contact with extraterrestrials for years.

They appeal to known frauds and cranks, including but not limited to Erich Von Daniken, Zechariah Sitchin, David Icke, David Wilcock, Graham Hancock, Jaime Maussan, Bob Lazar, Steven Greer, Richard C. Hoagland, Fritz Springmeier, and Drunvalo Melchizedek.

Appeals to forged documents, including but not limited to the alleged diary of Admiral Richard Byrd, The Emerald Tablets of Thoth the Atlantean, and The Urantia Book.

Appeals to channeled information, such as that provided by Edgar Cayce, Carla Rueckert, or George Van Tassel.

"But all of this has to come from somewhere, doesn't it?"

Oh, it all comes from somewhere, all right, but the where isn't what most people imagine.

A lot of the stuff above is just a modern spin on the content of The Protocols of the Learned Elders of Zion, a Russian hoax created to justify violence against Russian Jews. The Protocols itself was plagiarized from a political satire and incorporated a lot of the post-French Revolution conspiracy theories about Freemasons and Jews being behind the French Revolution. I wrote a summary of the conspiracy tropes found in The Protocols over here.

The stuff about Satanic sacrifices and the consumption of blood, adrenochrome, loosh, or whatever are simply just variations on blood libel, an antisemitic conspiracy theory that claims Jews practice ritual cannibalism. Blood libel can be traced back to ancient Greece. (With the Greek version, I really can't help but notice the similarity to modern urban legends of gangsters kidnapping random people for initiation rituals.)

Many of these tropes can also be linked back to the early modern witch hunts. It was believed that witches sacrificed babies to Satan, practiced cannibalism, and put people under mind control by way of diabolical magic. It was also believed that some witches didn't even know they were witches; they'd go off to attend the Devil's Sabbath at night and come back in the morning without remembering a thing. In the late 20th century, this witch hunter's canard would be reinvented as the alter programming conspiracy theory when media such as the 1973 book Sibyl and its 1976 television adaptation put DID (note: the woman who inspired Sibyl did not have DID) into the public consciousness. For a more complete list of witch panic and blood libel tropes, I wrote a list over here.

Lemuria was a hypothetical landmass proposed to explain the presence of lemur fossils in Madagascar and India while being absent in continental Africa and the rest of Asia, because if lemurs evolved naturally, they wouldn't be in two separate places with no connection to each other. The discovery that India and Madagascar were once connected not only made the hypothesis obsolete, it precludes the existence of Lemuria.

The whole notion of Mu began with a horrendous mistranslation of the Troano manuscript. A man named Augustus Le Plongeon would link the mistranslation with the story of Atlantis, and use it to claim that Atlantis actually existed in the Americas. (For Plongeon, Mu and Atlantis were one and the same.) And then other people (like James Churchward) got their hands on the whole Mu thing, and put their own spins on it, and the rest is history.

Le Plongeon's ideas influence modern Atlantis mythology today; EG, the idea that it was in the Americas. Another guy who helped shape the modern Atlantis myth was Ignatius L. Donnelly, an American politician. Dude claimed that Atlanteans spread their oh-so-superior culture far and wide. He also claimed that Atlantis was the home of the Aryan people, because of course he did.

The idea that all of the world's wisdom can be traced back to Thoth/Hermes goes back to Hermeticism, a product of Greco-Egyptian syncretism. Hermeticism produced a fascinating body of mythology and an interesting way to consider the divine and its role in shaping human history, but that doesn't mean it was right. And the Emerald Tablets of Thoth the Atlantean is a modern text that has fuck-all to do with ancient Hermeticism and more to do with HP Lovecraft.

This idea that the conspiracy uses pharmaceutical drugs and vaccines for evil also has roots in Nazi Germany. The Nazi government, wanting to reserve real medicine for their soldiers, told the general populace that said medicine was the product of evil Jewish science and prescribed alternative healing modalities instead. (Said alternative healing modalities did not particularly work.) It also echoes the old conspiracy theories about Jews spreading the Black Death by poisoning wells.

The idea that the conspiracy uses genetic manipulation to create subhuman beings or sever humanity from the divine is a permutation of the Nazi conspiracy theory that Jews are trying to destroy the white race through race mixing. The idea of evil reptilian DNA goes back to the ancient serpent seed doctrine, which is indeed old, but no less pure hateful nonsense for it.

"But there's got to be somebody up to something rotten out there!"

Oh sure. But these people aren't skulking around in the shadows. They're acting pretty openly.

The Heritage Foundation has been working to push this country into Christofascism since the early 1970's. They're the ones responsible for the rise of the Moral Majority and the election of Ronald Reagan. They're also the ones behind Project 2025, which intends to bring us deeper into Christofascism. (Among many other horrible things, they intend to outlaw trans people as "pornographic.")

The Seven Mountains Mandate is another movement pushing for Christofascism. They intend to seize the "seven spheres" of society, which include education, religion, family, business, government/military, arts/entertainment, and media.

There's also the ghoulish American Evangelicals who support Israel because they think that current events are going to bring about the Second Coming of Jesus and cement the formation of a global Christofascist empire. Don't let their apparent support of Jews fool you - they believe that the good Jews will become Christians and the bad ones will go to hell.

All of these people are working toward monstrously horrific goals, but none of them are part of an ancient megaconspiracy. In fact, these are the kinds of people pushing the myth of the ancient megaconspiracy. From the witch hunts to Nazi Germany to the American Evangelical movement, if history has taught us anything, the people pushing the conspiracy theories are always the bad guys.

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[serpenttailedangel]

I'm back in "reading scholarly articles by people advocating for major policy and education program change" mode and, subsequently, back in "disgusted by the amount of mask-off shit people just straight up say that you get called a conspiracy theorist for repeating to people who don't read this garbage even though these fuckers publish their insanity" mode. Presumably, these people expect that no one outside of their circles reads their stuff, so they can put it in ink. Although I guess it also helps that they use a lot of deceptive language and contradictions to try and snag people who aren't thinking too hard about what they read.

United Nations Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization has a book available for free digital download in which they argue for some pretty insane shit (claiming to support academic freedom while also mentioning they want certain research subjects suppressed, wanting more politicized disciplines to have equal input to things like chemistry and biology in medical research, and new ranking for schools based on how well they comply with this guideline rather than the quality of their research or how good they are at teaching.) I tried telling someone about it IRL and they told me that whoever I heard about it from must have been lying. When I told them I was specifically citing UNESCO's official publication on their website, this person concluded that the only logical explanation was that the UN was hacked and someone wrote and posted a 100 page hoax paper for nebulous false flag reasons, and the UN has been unable to take the fake paper down and unwilling to release a statement saying it's fake for a year now.

But. like, in defense of the people who haven't read this stuff and also don't believe it when you talk about it, I've checked four different times to make sure that the author of Drag Pedagogy is an actual person affiliated with Drag Queen Story Hour events and not some intern Ted Cruz paid to write a false flag article. Sometimes shit gets so mask-off that I struggle to believe my own eyes.

[stayconnecteed]

❪⠀🪐. memories⠀𓏔⠀hwang hyunjin⠀❫

you were in love, until you weren't anymore. or maybe you still were, but chose to learn not to be just to heal from all that meant falling in love with him⠀★⠀2.7k words

content: tbh idk what is this,, i don't even know how to categorize it, i felt kinda sad and started writing, and i thought on sharing it here. plot,, the point of view of hyunjin after your break up. i would say angst but at the end it kind of good. reader and hyunjin don't end up together tho. warnings,, think of this as a beautiful relationship that turned slightly toxic, hyunjin was very very whipped for reader, the format is like a letter to you he never sent. note,, i wrote this listening to hannah bahng's cover of memories by conan gray, one of my favourite audios in the world.

─── Excerpts from Hwang Hyunjin's diary over a year after the break up.

September 6th

Yesterday I walked by that coffee shop you liked to go to so much, at the end of the street where you used to work, the one with the navy couches and old photographs hanging on the wall. It's now closed. On the notice taped to the door it says that it is for sale, that they were very sorry but they decided to go out of business because they could no longer afford the expense, to call the phone number listed there if you were interested in buying it. And I did. Call, I mean. I had that urge to buy it, because it reminded me of you, because I knew you would like it. I listened for two rings and then hung up. The couches were purple. I saw it, even though the glass was full of dust, and I don't know anymore if they had been navy from the beginning or you had convinced me of it, but at that moment I saw them purple, and the magic was gone again. I guess it doesn't matter now. It had been a while since I had been here, maybe they had to change them. To see if they could attract more customers, as you always joked with the owner. That's why you liked the place, right? It was quiet. Peaceful. You could barely hear the music in the background or the murmur of the street, and as much as you adored their coffee, we both knew it was doomed to have an end. Like us, I suppose. You were always drawn to lost causes.

That's why I called you. I think you had blocked my contact, but it didn't hurt to try. I thought about everything we had shared. On my way to the apartment I live in now I bought those noodles you liked so much, and the ice cream we had every time there was something to celebrate. The TV was playing one of those movies from the 2000s that we watched over and over again on Friday nights, even though we had already seen them, just because I loved that look on your face you had when you did something you were apssionate about. It seemed like a hoax. For a moment it seemed as if I could touch you, as if by reaching across the fabric of the couch you were going to be there, on the other end, waiting for me to finish dinner so you could snuggle up next to me. I guess it was one of those days, wasn't it? Those when you stop pretending that everything is okay, even though nothing was wrong, and let sadness win you over.

I don't actually think I'm sad, though. Not really. Just… nostalgic. I miss what we had. I miss you. Not in the unhealthy way I did in the beginning, when we decided to split up and I instantly regretted it. It's more of a warm, bittersweet memory that creeps up on me from time to time. Your smile, so beautiful and bright, how soft your hair was when you rested your head on my lap and I couldn't stop caressing it, how your hand felt against mine as we entwined them, the hurried way your heart pounded under my lips as I kissed your skin, how I felt your chest vibrate as I fell asleep on top you in the middle of a conversation… Now that I think about it, I think I've forgotten your voice. The temptation to search for old audios is too strong, but I'm afraid to find out what I would really feel if I get to hear you.

I have seen pictures. I have too many, so looking for them was not a big problem. I keep them on that hard drive you gave me when you got tired of watching me stress out because I thought I had lost flash drives that had never left my desk. In it is my favorite folder, the one with all the captured moments that reflected that side of you that you didn't let anyone else see. The ones I took of you when you didn't realize it, with your hair disheveled on our bed, your bare back contrasting with the sheets, still asleep; or playing with Kkami in the park, running next to her, with your scarf tangling in the wind and your smile brighter than ever. Those for which you did pose, with amused expressions and seductive glances, with our friends and in the intimacy of our home, those you approved of after I showed them to you, acknowledging with an embarrassed blush that you did look pretty, and also those you couldn't even see, your mind betraying you by making you see so many flaws that you thought you were drowning in them, so many defects I was unable to see.

It's the first time that the sight of you didn't make my heart tear apart. Each new file I opened was a memory that I could bring back to life, at least for a few minutes, moments that I treasured fondly, and that finally made me smile. Can you believe it? Me, who so many times left voice messages begging you to come back, who had to stay at home for weeks after breaking up because visualizing a life without you by my side made me want to die, the person who every time they saw something that reminded them of you would burst into tears, feeling the loss of your presence like the shadow of death, was finally enjoying those memories that included you.

You'll be happy to know that I'm starting to draw again too. I had thrown away all my art supplies when I moved, and I have all my paintings locked away, but the other day I stopped by the store I used to go to and bought a sketchbook. I didn't intend to do anything with it, I just wanted to run my hand over the pages again, just like I used to do before starting a new project. As soon as Felix found out, he bought me new watercolors and pencils. You know how he is, the first to cheer every time something good happens to you. He celebrates your victories as if they were his own. I guess that's what this is, isn't it? A victory. I've managed to win against the ghost of our past, and my reward is a nice charcoal sketch of a tulip. It's not my best work, but for the moment it works for me. Little by little, with training wheels.

November 24th

I would like to know how you are doing. Changbin hyung told me that you finally moved in, just like me. I guess every little corner of the apartment reminded you of me. I wouldn't have lasted long there either. You hardly talk to the rest of the guys, and it makes me wonder if you were really happy with me. When I met you you had your own group of friends, but you stopped talking to them to the point that all we knew were my friends, and each other. That was probably one of the reasons you encouraged me to break up. It wasn't healthy, was it? I find it pathetic that I realize it now, so many months later, although it was pathetic even then, with how desperately in love I was with you. I tend to get so lost in my feelings that I forget everything else. Sometimes, "everything else" is often more important than what's going on in my head, and in my heart, because in the end, thoughts are just thoughts. I wonder if Changbin hyung would tell me if you were having a hard time. You know that after what we went through together, I would come in an instant if you called me. Some things don't change. You can separate us, but you can't ignore what once existed. And I like to think you feel the same way.

I know you have a boyfriend. I've seen you around town, walking hand in hand, just like we used to do. I thought about waving, approaching you and introducing myself to the lucky man who can call you his, but cowardice gets the better of me. I don't want to make a fool of myself. You've always been sharp with words, and the last time we met was humiliating enough. I'm not talking about the last time we spoke, but when we met. That afternoon when Chan accompanied me to collect the boxes that were left in what had been our home, my name written in that chaotic handwriting you have, set aside in the entryway. We looked at each other in silence when you opened the door, and I never knew how I had the strength not to burst into tears. What I wanted most of all was to take refuge in your arms and for you to tell me that everything was going to be all right. Did you feel it? That pain? You always noticed it at first, it was almost unnatural the way my chest began to open with grief, as if my own heart was crying tears of blood.

You felt it too, I'm sure. That's why you looked away. That's why you didn't open your mouth except to wish me well. I remember thinking that it wasn't fair that it was going to end like this, that I didn't understand why it had to end at all. We were doing great. True, we argued, as all couples do, and not even that often, or that we were somewhat possessive of each other. But it was okay, wasn't it? It meant that I cared about you. That you loved me. That we would rather be with each other than with anyone else. But you looked away, and I shut my mouth, and I didn't have time to memorize you before I left. Even after calling you for days, when you finally picked up the phone and begged me to stop, even then I couldn't catch the exact tone of the words you had used to keep them in my memory forever. And now you're gone, and I'd like to think I don't care as much as I used to, but sometimes a person's absence is more present than the people you have sitting next to you. And it hurts more than the worst wound, because you crave something you can't have.

I guess we were destined to end up together and end up apart. It was impossible for us not to have fallen in love when you approached me in that library, with the book I was looking for in your hand, just as we were bound to untangle ourselves after a while, having to suffer through the process of accepting that everything we had built was falling apart. We both knew it, and came to accept it in the haze of those who have just found their soulmate, but only you were smart enough to see it coming and protect yourself, leaving me as the only victim. And worst of all, I know that had never been your intention, that you would never have hurt me on purpose. But I was doing it to you, and you decided to be selfish, pushing me away so you could move on. And after all I can't hate you, I can't even stop loving you, because you became so blended with my soul that removing you would be like taking away an essential part of what makes me being me.

That's my problem, isn't it? I live it all so intensely… It's exhausting. When someone loses the person they thought was going to be the one, they usually console themselves with the thought that they weren't the one. But I can't indulge myself, I don't deserve that consolation, because we were meant to be. Maybe not to last a lifetime, but for the little bit we got to share. I have had to say goodbye to you, to see you become a stranger, but the people we were when we were together are still alive, in some space of our memory, like a story written by both of us, one in which we each have our favorite chapters, and to which we know we can come back whenever we want, to remember each other. I know that at some point in my future I will be able to open that book and read any page and it will no longer hurt, that I will savor every word with a smile on my lips, the smile of someone who knows that while it lasted, I made the most of every single second. And I know that future is closer than far away.

January 15st

I have stopped counting the days since we broke up. I feel like I'm getting better, I know I am. Yesterday I went out with Seungmin and Jeongin for a walk, and I took my old camera with me, after so long. My hands no longer shake when I hold it. They started goofing around, and playing among the trees in the park with Kkami, and it didn't hurt me to say that was something you used to do. I told it as an offhand comment, as if I were telling them about what I had eaten the day before. Now you are just another memory in my mind, floating among the gray matter of moments in my life. You no longer hurt, you no longer harm.

On the way to the dance studio last week, the driver drove past that coffee shop. I don't know if you'll have time to go now that you're so busy with your new life, and anyway I guess coffee doesn't suit you as well as it used to, but someone bought it. And it's still a coffee shop. I went today morning, and I felt better than I have in a long time. The new owners have done an awesome job, and business is running smoothly. In the hour and a half I sat at one of the tables in the back, more customers came in than I've seen in all the years we've been together. The iced americano is delicious, and the atmosphere relaxes me enough to doodle in the margins of my lyrics notebook.

I feel attached to this place, somehow. You found us, and made us feel special. During the time we enjoyed your company, and your trust and love, we were fully happy. When you left us, we had a terrible time, letting our inner selves shut down, refusing affection or help. But now we are doing well. We've gotten over that rough patch, we try to look out for ourselves, we smile at life. And the couches are maroon. I asked the barista, who is one of the people who came up with the new design. I didn't want to find out what the original color had been, that will be something I'll never get to know, I want to give you the benefit of the doubt. It was fun when we would go and spend minutes arguing about the exact shade. But now they're maroon. And I like that color.

I was in love with you. I know you heard me say it that night I came home drunk, when I chose to pretend you were asleep and told you how you truly made me feel. I didn't fall in love with you, I ran to you knowing full well that I was going to love you with all my being, full of devotion and ready to end up devastated by you, but I guess it wasn't enough. Now that I have slowly learned to forget you I know that in all possible scenarios we would have ended up the same way. We were so obsessed with each other that we didn't realize we were consuming each other, but that's okay. Not everything is timeless, nothing lasts forever. The important thing is not to regret your memories, and I don't regret a single moment by your side.

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[taylortruther]

I want the entire cardigan demo explained. I still don’t think she had the characters of james, august, and betty in mind when she wrote the song, especially since it’s the first one she worked on with aaron. I’ve always believed that story came later when she and joe wrote betty together, and she changed certain parts of cardigan and august to create a cohesive narrative. ‘Peter leaving Wendy’ and ‘Peter losing Wendy’ are two very different lines, and it makes me think she changed the lyric to the latter to make it fit into the love triangle where betty is more mature than james. ‘I knew I’d wish you would’ve changed your mind?’ ‘I knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs?’ the original lyrics make it sound like he didn’t want to be with her/changed the ending where they stay together or perhaps where wendy outgrows him by cheating and leaving. saying she knew all of this makes it sound like she’s already experienced all of those emotions upon reflection, and they got back together. she’s imagining what she might think about this situation years down the road as she looks back on how they ultimately couldn’t stay away from each other. ‘I knew you’d miss me once the moment died’ seems to imply he left to be with someone else but realized he’d actually lost ‘the one.’ all of these lyrics add context to ‘your faithless love’s the only hoax I believe in’ and ‘what you did was just as dark.’ granted, I’m not even necessarily saying all of this happened in 2019-20. maybe she was looking back on when they first fell in love. but idk, I feel like we’re missing some information about something major that she felt the need to write about but couldn’t address directly without creating some sort of narrative around it. I guess the main thing that gives me pause is that we SAW them so often in 2018-19, but that logic is so flawed? you don’t actually know what’s going on in their lives even if you make educated guesses. they were insanely private after all. idk idk. thonking

i would really love a deep dive from her for these reasons too! the perspective from which betty is writing is REALLY interesting. like, yeah, why is she reflecting on a teenage moment as an adult? did it happen again? her grieving sounds so PRESENT, not just reflective.

also thank you for thonking as usual.

#cardigan #maria big brain

[normal-horoscopes]

Alright, let's break this down:

Background:

James Lindsay is a longtime antifeminist right wing troll, infamous for submitting hoax papers to feminist journals. He is a stock-standard New-Atheist alum turned alt-right grifter who possesses significant skill with academic language, and little else.

Context:

The tweet in question was in response to an image banner that said "#twerkfor black girl magic." Lindsay commented "They think they're wizards."

Breakdown:

Lindsay is referring to the work of german philosopher Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel, who regularly references alchemical concepts in his work. Hegel's alchemical leanings follow the Hermetic school of alchemical thought.

Thing is, nothing that he is referencing here has anything to do with Hegel's use of alchemical philosophy. To the best of my knowledge, Hegel never wrote anything about decorum or divine shards.

Hegel DOES reference humans "liberating themselves from nature" but Hegel's use of the idea has more to do with humans civilizing, as in neolithic humans building permanent settlements. If Lindsay is referencing this chunk of Hegel, he has no idea what he's talking about. All of this together makes me think that Lindsay is simply name dropping Hegel to make the tweet sound more intelligent.

On the occult end of things, this tweet gets even weirder.

Lindsay is implying that these black women twerking is somehow a spell to disrupt the order of society, to break it open and allow some nonspecific change to occur involving divine shards.

As far as I'm aware, there aren't any alchemical theories that deal with "divine shards." That's not a term I've encountered. I think Lindsay is misremembering the term "Divine Spark" a common concept in many gnostic texts, specifically the Nag Hammadi texts. Texts that notably have nothing to do with alchemy or Hegel.

What's strange is that the language he uses here around the breaking of decorum and societal expectations are generally more associated with schools of occult thought like Chaos Magic and Discordianism. There is almost nothing alchemical about his understanding of this theoretical twerking spell.

Because here's the thing, this tweet is already racist. But if we actually do apply alchemical analysis to his words here, it gets more racist. Bare with me here.

So one of the most important parts of hermetic alchemy is the four theoretical stages of the Philosophers stone.

1 - An impure substance is allowed to sit, to rot, to purge itself of impurity.

2 - The substance is mixed with a complementary force. Heat with cold, acid with base, etc etc. This stage is called Albedo, and is associated with the color white.

2 - The substance approaches a state of unity. It is both components at once, approaching a new paradigm. This is called Xanthosis, and is associated with the color yellow.

4 - The substance achieves perfection, reaching a new paradigm. This is called Rubedo, and is associated with the color red.

Critically though, that first stage, the one associated with decay and rot and destruction? It's called Nigredo, and is associated with the color black. Given that Lindsay here has flubbed basically every other element of the tweet, I'm not going to say definitively that he's intentionally implying that black people twerking is some sort of societal Nigredo, as that would require a basic understanding of the concepts he's referencing, but it is absolutely not out of the question.

Fucking bizarre.

#idk what to tag this #alchemy

[9w1ft]

wow your gaylor anon does sound well-meaning, but very lost on this blog from their usual side of the internet I’d guess!

I’m particularly bamboozled by those three songs being used as kaylor breakup evidence. well, less so exile, I can see how they got there even if I have a different interpretation of it (mourning the called-off coming out, and having to go deeper into the love blackout, ruminating on the fans view of her closet). but mtr!? clearly about scott b! the stolen lullabies, the jewels she gave him as his main cash cow? the pain of that betrayal by a father figure!! also the funeral procession choreo - ties nicely into your point about taylor wearing black for the stolen masters. there’s also a long history of writing romantic-coded ‘break up songs’ for your label, think dolly parton etc. and mad woman?! the obvious scooter and yael diss track where taylor outs his cheating (which potentially contributed to their divorce not long after). does anon completely miss the feminist angle of ‘this man gaslights me by calling me mad and overreactive, so I’ll show him a real mad woman’ ???? (+ karlie as the taylor-faced neighbour who secretly mouths ‘fuck you’ at him)

I know we’re all known for reaching in the gaylor-sphere, but by occam’s razor, I feel like you have to do some real twisting to believe those ones aren’t about those men.

(I actually wrote out my personal interpretation of each song in more depth but it’s wayy too long, and probably just a repeat of opinions anon could find on this blog and others in this ecosystem. anon has given me far too many thoughts to write on my lunch break rn lol)

yeah i didn’t address the song choices but mtr is a wild one for sure. and mad woman i’ve talked about a lot but really i think that song is actually proof in favor of the idea that they didn’t break up in 2019. plus the thing about the i can and i will necklace.

exile too, especially when you couple it with the other bon iver duet (evermore) and think about the context of the election in 2016 (upon which karlie got exiled in a way) and again in 2020 (taylor connected evermore to the feeling of knowing biden would win over trump, and knowing the pain wouldn’t be for evermore), and idk it just makes so much sense in the context of how their relationship would have had to adapt and change over the years, without having to be about breaking up.

i’m not saying anon thinks any one certain way but i do think that gaylors in general have, of their own volition and they’re happy to tell you, positioned gaylorism as something focused on the exploration of the gayness of taylor’s lyrics and of it being ‘museless’ and i would suggest that while there is value to this sort of think in a vacuum, by refuting other analysis unfortunately this ‘lens’ often makes for a contextless interpretation of so many of taylor’s songs. like if you think about the political angle and the times taylor was in or karlie was in throughout this specific span of time, a lot of these sad song just make so much sense! maathp makes sense! maroon makes sense! exile makes sense, hoax makes sense, mad woman makes sense, vigilante shit makes sense, any number of songs make a whole lot of sense. i don’t think that this is something offensive to taylor like… in essence kaylor is an attempt to understand the impetus behind the artist, her motivations, and what inspired her to create so much of this art. idk, im babbling a bit again it’s just. ahh… there’s just so much meaning that gets lost in the gaylor process i feel.

[masterkamisato]

just guiding you from afar.

yandere! ayato x reader

summary: the first step to an everlasting love is manipulation. [more of a ramble than an actual oneshot but hey i wrote this really naturally]

content: yandere ayato, not very dark, mentions of ayato killing people, manipulates the reader and others, toxic but he loves you, really!

a/n: GOD okay this was supposed to be like a 3 paragraph ramble but i just couldn't stop writing.. living up to my name as master kamisato fr. anyways i might make a darker post marriage part 2 to this if i have enough ideas to continue ;)

ayato wasn't stalking you, he swears! it just so happens that he always has to head in the same direction as you. it just seemed convenient that you're going the same way as him! that's the only reason why you're having him accompany you everyday right? it's definitely not because when he's with you, no one dares to gaze in your direction for too long. totally not because he can't stand not being in your presence. you're just a lovely companion! he says.

he may be out of your sight but you're never out of his. as much as he can he'll watch you until you've entered a building. even then, he has someone watching you for him. he knows exactly where you are at all times– whether he's close by or far.

he can't stand when anyone tries to court you. he can tell. he knows that guy has eyes for you! he thinks your naive and forgiving nature makes you less wary of other men. but he can protect you once anyone gets tlo close to whats his. only his. if someone dares to overstep the boundary of 'just friends', he'd simply have to take care of them for you. he has many strong soldiers who can get the job done for him. as the commissioner, he has many strings he can pull to ruin lives, to keep them far from you.

oh, what's that? a rumour that the head of the kamisato clan is seeing someone? they've been seen leaving teashops and walking around the city? why yes the rumours are definitely true! he persuades you to go along with this rumour, claiming that it will dismiss any future spouses that he may be set up with. please, won't you help him? he promises he'll make it up to you, that this wouldn't bring you any trouble! you simply have to be seen in public with him, easy right? simply do the same thing as always, just touchier.

months have passed since this hoax of a relationship began. and he's basically never left your side. at this point you question if he was actually genuine about courting you and going through with this fake relationship. unbeknownst to you, ayato practically has it in his head that you're his. you've always been his, but this is basically like you were married already!

he convinces you to go through with a marriage. being the manipulative cunning man he is, he'd make sure there was no better option for you aside from 'yes'. he's tried to pursue your love for a while already– taking you on dinner dates, going shopping and buying you anything you want, inviting you back to the kamisato estate so you could keep him company while he worked. furthermore, he'd been driving away any potential suitors for you, ensuring they can't even do as little as look at you in the eye. you were his property after all, and no one was to lay a finger on you. so, nothing is stopping you from accepting his proposal, was there? of course, it was definitely all within your power to say no, but he would absolutely find a way to turn that into a yes. sooner or later. and he'll make sure it's completely out of your own will– he's totally not tempering with anything! you want to be his, you will belong to him. forever.

#genshin impact #ayato #yandere #yandere ayato #ayato x reader #ayato x you #x reader #genshin

[anatrik]

First thoughts TTPD:

What a lana x folklore girlie win this issss!

1.Fortnight is about matty?? HAHAHAHA also why did this make me think of when holt was going running with the ladies when he was in witness protection??? Crying. Fav line has to be they were supposed to take me away but they forgot to come and get me. So sad but also so cool in relation to her cancellation/return. 10/10

2. TTPD- not so hahahaha anymore IS THIS ACTUALLY A FUCKING MATTY HEALY ALBUM??? There was a typewriter at the 1975 show she performed anti-hero at? Unless its somehow about harry? Who else is tattooed on her roster??? Or is this about herself? Kinda feel like modern idiots/who’s going to decode is directed at us lol😂 9/10?

3.My boy only breaks his favourite toys- went in expecting mad woman rage. Pleasantly surprised. king of my heart to queen of sandcastles he destroys….DESTROYED ME. Are you fucking kidding me rn? Im caling it. Best song. Im crying at 7.30 am this is not funny anymore. Also THANK YOU FOR NOT SLANDERING DAD. I knew you wouldnt let us down like that. Also the chorus sounds like long story short😭 oh this is so sad. Once i fix me hes going to miss me? He was my best friend?😭 he runs because he loves me? Stopp😭😭 1000000/10

4.Down bad- ….aaaand we’re back to MATTY AGAIN? He does not deserve this spotlight but why are all the song so goood😭😭😭 is this why artists love to date problematic men? It unlocks some extraordinary potential? Crazy crazy girl😭 also stay down (bad) 🤌🏾 shes done it again 10/10 also for personal reasons i will be believing this is about joe in that Tom/Joe/met gala overlap period when she was photographed going to the gym a lot and that this is about all that yearning please let it be about that plesplesplesplesplesples also down bad waking up in blood staring at the sky…like i lost a twin is giving bigger than the whole sky🥺

5. So long, london- so so long long, lon-don DONE? ok miss girl😭 the hoax parallels😭 dont be undoing the song i was going to play at my weddddding what is wrong with you😭 my only one my smoking gun to two graves one gun youll find someone??? Also reminds me of la la land :/ how much sad did you think I had in me? You wrote hoax so a lot ok leave us alone. crying again. 10000000000000000/10 oh lol its a track 5 ofc it is😂

6. But daddy I love him- she really said if you ever liked, shared or even LOOKED at the ‘vivaa las vegas’ memes you cant come to the wedding and shes so real for it. Lfgggg. Ubothered unhinged uhmazing. Growing up precocious sometimes means you still hold on to that princess/quarterback wattpad fantasy AS IS YOUR RIGHT QUEEN GO THE FUCK OFF🥳 100000/10 calling out toxic fandom for the first time and we love to see it🫡 this is suchhhh a happy songggg you deserve ALL the chaos and revelry.

7. Fresh out the slammer- god she gets it. Like sure he was great and he is still my biological father and everything but as a decidedly melancholy person myself who has constantly had atleast one close friend in a deep depression I can see how all that heavy lifting can just get heavy at some point especially when youre a partner and their sole lighthouse in wtv storms be out there buffeting their mental health. Its not for everyone and thats so fair and so valid but so sad as well. 10/10 for the honesty.

8. Florida- she really said girlrot summer🫡 this is the lanaest song ever. So lucky one/nothing new coded. This will be the First song I repeat and then so long london. Aaaghhh how i love a self aware melancholic anxious little superstar. 90283749292/10 thank you for giving florence an entire verse whew. Little did you know your home’s really only a town you’re just a guest in is soooo going on my body forever

9. Guilty as sin?- honestly just fuck if it means we dont have to hear about how desirable ratty healy is man ffs. IThe only reason he looks so hot is bc hes forbidden. You have to trust me on this. He’s sooo mid JESUS. U cant be writing hozier lyrics about a man that hasn’t met a shower😭 1000000/10 writing. -16392992/10 content. Unrequited love/lust truly is the greatest weapon in a poets arsenal bc where is this energy in the joe songs binch?😭 this is such a teen in love with a 26 yo creep who called me so mature for my age mom you just dont get ittt anthem😂😂

10. Who’s afraid of little old me?- is a warning 😂 im so here for it. Like yes I still hate matty with all my heart and soul but yes I agree fans should not be allowed so much of an opinion on another persons life and yes I should be afraid (I am). She said aight love letter era over I AM WRITING YOU ALL HATE MAIL AND I’M HAND DELIVERING IT. Shes sooo done pretending to be the relatable girl next door when she’s anything but and is now reminding us of it and yes yes yessss girl OWN ITTTTTTTT. I’ve been saying for agesssss that there is a darkness under all that sunshine from where she clawed her way to the top and this is sooo vindicating. 10000000000000/10 favourite song ever. Mad woman wishes she was who’s afraid of little old me. I am unwell. I am in love. This is the Taylor Swift i stan. The marketing genius the calculating business woman the puppet master with narcotics in her songs thats why we sing along🫡 she so can handle a dangerous man

11. I can fix him (no really I can)- you cant.

12. loml- ofc. OFC. Its the saddest song of all time. OFC. Fuck offf ughhhh. 😭😭😭😭😭 its giving happiness. Its giving divorce. i am a child of a broken home now and my parents still love each other and hold so much regret still. What do i do with thissss? Im just a little girl taylorrr! 1002380292011010101/10 soo so gooood.

13. I can do it with a broken heart- first of all track 13. Love it. Second of all the upbeat barbieness of it all. Third of all I FINALLY PLACED IT. Shes in her unrelatable era. She is not your girl next door. You will never understand her life. She is as much a phenomenon as a person and we literally only see as much as she allows us to and honestly if i have to get put in my place theres noooo better way to have it done. Im having such a great time actually. 10 BILLION TRILLION OUT OF 10 you tellll em girl you FUCKING TELL EM.

14. Smallest man who ever lived- not going to speculate on who it is bc they clearly had a serious problem and its not a joke but damn :/ thats so sad :/ hope they get help? Didnt expect this to be what the song was about at all?

15. The alchemy- she said TRAVIS IS MY BOY WITH HER WHOLE CHEST😌 10/10

16. Clara bow- did she just name drop herself ? I was so right about unrelatable era. Also the Subtle nod to olivia/sabrina noted and appreciated. Lucky one/castles crumbling (mature version) fr fr. Solid legacy song.

17. The black dog- shared your secrets with and location is the same whiplash as a red rose grew up out of ice frozen ground with no one around to tweet it🤌🏾 joe songs hit so so different 😭😭😭 1000000000/10

18. imgonnagetyouback- the valiant roar was not so valiant and more of a mew i guess. 7/10

19. The albatross- oh this is the ONE. The album defining song for sureeee. Mad woman on coke. A rose by any other name is a scandal???? Thats my religion right there. Little last great American dynasty twist there at the end! Fuck yea. She does reallly try to warn the men in her life have to give her that. One gazillion/10

20. Clearly god has favourites and they are the ppl called chloe or sam or sophia or marcus😭 ALSO this song is about joe for sure. The internet starlet hasss to be delaney rowe!!!! It HAS TO BE. 10/10

21. How did it end?- shes back for the fans😂 plot twist the breakup is with yall🤌🏾 but yesss say it louder! One gasp and then how did it end. So good. 100/10

22. So high school- lmao aristotle grand theft auto ONLYY taylor swift man😭😂 you know what you want and boy you got her🫡🫡 11/10

23. I hate it here- mother’s having a mental breakdown kids yk the drill🤌🏾 10/10

24. ThanK you aIMiee- what better way to say fuck you to a hater than to thank her for jumpstarting your legacy my god!!! She is insane for this. The capitalisation is a bit petty tho ngl. 8/10

25. I look in peoples windows- once again I thank you for the kindness and respect shown to joe. Never doubted you but thank you nevertheless. 10/10 short as nice to have a friend but it didnt need to be longer.

26. The prophecy- its so sad and humbling to see even a woman at where she is having to beg for love bc that literally is the nature of love. Something humiliating, to have to beg for 🤷‍♀️ cards playing out like fools in a fable cursed like eve got bitten. No one writes like her damn. 10/10

27. Cassandra- very madeline miller on this one. Love love loveee modern takes on tragic greek women. 100/10

28. Peter- ah fuck. This one is going to hurt (it did). 1000000/10 my ribs get the feeling she did😭 all her joe related aches are so bone deeeep ugh. Promises oceans deep but never to keep😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 oh god it hurtsss it hurts it hurtss

29. The bolter- curious child ever reviled except by her father wow.

30. Robin- OMG! I needed this song growing up sooo bad. That way to go tiger felt so so warm like running into a kitchen after a day of being in the mud and u tell ur mum the silly things u did and shes genuinely interested and impressed by your smol victories. A bajillion/10

31. The manuscript- postmortem of every ex ever🤌🏾 love it.

#taylor swift #anatrik #ttpd #fortnight #clara bow #but daddy i love him #the smallest man who ever lived #loml #my boy only breaks his favourite toys #down bad #so long london #fresh out the slammer #florida #guilty as sin? #who’s afraid of little old me #the alchemy #i can do it with a broken heart #first thoughts #the tortured poets department #my writing #the black dog #the albatross #chloe or sam or sophia or marcus #how did it end? #i hate it here #thanK you aIMee #i look in people's windows #peter #cassandra #robin

[lovecanyon]

would love to see more younger!y/n !! maybe some things leak about how her and H met (assuming it was on the mp set?)

Also what do you envision her doing career wise the fc being lily rose gave me stylist/fashion industry vibes!

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y/nupdates NEW/OLD PHOTOS OF Y/N ON THE MY POLICEMAN SET WITH THE ACTRESS THAT PLAYS OLDER MARION!!!

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harryfan2 Y/N IS SO PRETTY

y/nfan4 and when we get photos of her and harry on set…

harryfan6 we already did, check twitter

y/nfan8 my icon

harryfan10 THE WAY CINEMA IS ABOUT HER

y/nfan7 what??

harryfan9 harry said cinema was about her in his howard stern interview 😭

y/nfan11 i love her

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stylesl/n harry mentioned y/n in his howard stern interview today!

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y/nfan13 i will cry

harryfan15 SLIDING DOWN THE WALL

y/nfan17 the way he talks about her 🥲

harryfan19 harry mentioned her more than four times

stylesl/n girl i know i can’t type that fast

y/nfan16 PLEASE 😭😭

harryfan18 now….what if this is my last straw

y/nfan20 he is so in love with her it’s sickeningly adorable

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hsnews THE YOU ARE HOME DOOR TODAY!

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y/nfan22 i let out a scream

harryfan24 IS THAT Y/N?

y/nfan28 we both know it’s her

harryfan26 harry wants to see our downfall

y/nfan29 i have a feeling she’s going to be in one of harry’s music videos…

harryfan27 she def is, i mean look at the picture it’s a recording studio 😭

harryfan25 manifesting 🙏

y/nfan30 harry said y/n supremacy

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updatingharry Harry and Y/N out in New York today with Harry Lambert.

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y/nfan32 i love them together

harryfan34 CRYING IN THE CLUB

y/nfan36 like you ever had a chance with him

harryfan39 i- 🤭

y/nfan37 THEY WERE AT A GUCCI STORE BY THE WAY!

harryfan35 when will it be my turn

y/nfan38 god has his favorites 🧍

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harryfan40 THE WORLD COLLAPSED

y/nfan43 you know harry is looking at these photos right now and going insane

harrystyles Such perfection darling. I can’t believe I’m with you.

yourinstagram i love you h!

harryfan41 screaming into my pillow 😭

y/nfan44 her ig is now public omg 🫶

pillowpersonpp i’m drooling

harryfan42 this got me streaming cellophane all over again…harry count your days

jefezoff harry can’t stop staring at these photos y/n

harrystyles Jeffrey.

yourinstagram he’s obsessed

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y/nfan46 FIRST THE INSTAGRAM STORY AND NOW THIS? 😭

yourinstagram one of my favorite songs that you wrote for me!

harrystyles I love you, truly.

harryfan47 welcome home cheater

mitchrowland you both are the new mitch and sarah

y/nfan45 HARRY KNOWS HOW TO USE SOCIAL MEDIA, HE’S NOT A GRANDPA OMG

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[lisbeth-kk]

Sweet

Thank you for the prompt @calaisreno

Love and pain

It’s still dark in the room when Sherlock wakes. He whimpers because he doesn’t want to wake from the dream he just had. It was a dream about John. In fact a dream of John and him. Sherlock and John. If he was asked to describe the dream, only one word would suffice. A word Sherlock rarely, if ever, takes in his mouth. Sweet. 

They were kissing, and oh, what a feeling that was. Actually it evoke several feelings in Sherlock. Excitement, arousal, grounding, a feeling quite familiar when it came to John. He’d also felt cared for, cherished even. Holding John in his arms and being held by John blew his mind. The devotion and desire flooded his body. He felt home in those arms.

When they made their way to Sherlock’s bedroom and exposed naked skin, Sherlock almost lost it. John’s hands touching him was overwhelming and he craved it like a drug. He couldn’t get close enough, and he begged John in a voice unfamiliar to him.

“Please, John, please. I need you. Touch me, John.”

“My god. You’re touch deprived, aren’t you. Has anyone ever touched you like this, Sherlock?” John asked with concern in his voice.

Sherlock shook his head and hid his face in the crook of John’s neck, embarrassed. Once again, John amazed him.

“Oh, Sherlock, don’t hide from me. I’m honoured to be the first one doing this with you. That I get to give you pleasure…Christ, that’s…”

John trailed off and touched and kissed Sherlock all over. Not only that, but he also started whispering sweet words.

“Beautiful. Gorgeous. Look at you. You’re so sensitive. Oh, Sherlock, do you even know what a gift this is?”

Sherlock writhed under him trying his best to touch John back, but he felt like his entire body was melting into the mattress. And then other words, even sweeter words were whispered into Sherlock’s skin.

“Tell me what you need, love. That’s it, sweetheart, let go. God you look…oh…Sherlock, my beautiful, wonderful boy. I love you.”

***

Without warning, another memory emerges. It fills Sherlock with sorrow, despair and pain. His heart’s breaking. He knows, scientifically, that it’s not possible, nevertheless it does. Remembering a letter. From John. Telling Sherlock that he’s no longer wanted in John’s life. John’s had enough of being kept out of the loop. He’s tired of Sherlock’s eccentricities. Despite his love for the work, he can’t stand it anymore. Being left at crime scenes. Not being valued as an asset. It has to stop for John to stay sane.

Sherlock feels his stomach clench and he’s shaking, sobbing. He doesn’t understand. It’s been ages since he left John behind, and surely he must know that Sherlock values John’s opinion more than anyone’s. They’re partners. It’s them against the rest of the world. So, how come John wrote this horrid letter? Without warning. It was left on the mantle beside the skull, his name written on the envelope. 

First, he was furious, shouting John’s name, but he wasn’t there. He ran upstairs to find all John’s belongings gone. It hit him then. John had actually moved out. Sherlock whispered his name, utterly lost and confused. He curled up in John’s bed, buried his face in the pillow breathing in John’s scent, and cried himself to sleep.

***

He must’ve fallen asleep, because when he wakes the sun is up. The feeling from earlier has disappeared. Instead he feels safe and content. He frowns confused, before the cause of these feelings becomes clear to him. John’s lying curled up beside him. In his bed. With an arm slung over Sherlock’s chest. He blinks rapidly. What about the letter? John’s belongings all removed? Carefully he reaches out to touch the hand on his chest. It’s definitely not a hoax, but real, warm.

“John?” he whispers.

“Mm, what is it, love?” John murmurs, his voice raw from sleep.

When Sherlock doesn’t answer, John opens his eyes. He smiles but something in Sherlock’s expression must’ve alerted him that not everything is as it should be.

“Sherlock? You alright?,” he asks, the worry in his voice evident.

“I…um…don’t know,” Sherlock admits.

John raises his head and looks intently down at Sherlock, stroking fingers through his hair.

“Bad dream?” John inquires.

Remembering, Sherlock starts to shake, and his vision goes blurry.

“Oh, sweetling, come here,” John says and pulls Sherlock to his chest and strokes his back soothingly. “Tell me?” he urges quietly.

Once finished with his story, resting calmly in John’s arms, John tells him what’s likely to have happened.

“You had a slight fever last night after falling into the Thames two days ago. I had a late shift, and you went to bed when I left. It’s probably the fever rising and you feeling my absence that brought on the nightmare. When I came home, you were sleeping soundly, but smiled when I kissed you goodnight,” John says fondly.

Sherlock fills in the rest, gaining some confidence.

“My sub-conscious knew you were back, and I instantly calmed.”

John agrees.

“Sometimes, I can’t fathom how strong love can be,” Sherlock murmurs reverently.

“Strongest there is, and ours in particular, I like to think,” John states and kisses Sherlock’s forehead.

Sherlock cradles John’s face with his hand and leans in to do that sweet, sweet thing he can’t get enough of. The drug he’s not willing to live without. Kissing John.

I just couldn't do sweet fics two days in a row, now could I? But, as always it ends well <3

@totallysilvergirl @missdeliadili @raina-at @peanitbear @topsyturvy-turtely @meetinginsamarra @keirgreeneyes

#sherlock fandom #johnlock #sherlock #sherlock fanfic #john watson #ao3 fanfic #sherlock holmes #may prompts #slight angst #happy ending #sweet

[taylorrepdetective]

As a gaylor, I always felt Sweet Nothing was a sad song because the line “all that you ever wanted from me…” is past tense. I found it really interesting that she said publicly that she wrote it with Joe as if to make it sound so romantic when I’ve always viewed it as pretty melancholy. She’s a master with words and getting across the stories that she wants to, and it would have been so easy to write “all that you’ve ever wanted” and make it present tense, but she didn’t. I don’t have any strong opinions about behind the scenes things but I just wanted to say that I can see why hetlors are saying it’s actually sad when no longer believing T & J are in love, I guess

Yes! You can believe this. It’s fine to have this sort of interpretation of any Taylor song. Take one word or tone or twist (in this case it feels past tense) and adjust its meaning away from the most obvious. She does this and we shouldn’t ignore it. So I am fully supportive of you having this interpretation. It’s not my interpretation. But that’s fine!

But more of what I’ve been talking about (and have talked about for years):

She writes songs that almost always have some sort of sad, “haunting” quality about them. But you also have to look at it in complete context. You can’t see evermore as the saddest breakup album of all time and just ignore the existence of Long Story Short and the last verse of Evermore. You can’t only see Maroon and ignore Mastermind and Paris. You shouldn’t ignore all the other context clues we get from her in her performances and videos, interviews, dates she does things, and merch etc… It’s hard to figure her out because she makes it hard. But she does seem to like to give clues that can be obvious but also gives her plausible deniability.

But it’s specifically the blanket retconning that gets me. One day an album comes out and people who believe she’s in a happy long term relationship interpret songs as straightforward happy songs (Lover, Peace, there are so many), while ignoring a song that is devastating like DBATC, Exile or Hoax, or Happiness, and just attribute them to fiction or about a friend or about the distant past or about her masters, but then later when they decide that she wasn’t in such a happy long term relationship like they thought, then they take that inherent sadness and haunting quality and turn it the whole thing into a breakup album, ignoring the fact that she can be singing about fiction or about a friend or about the distant past or about her masters.

The songs haven’t changed, only their perspective changed. I see it over and over and over again. And when this happens over and over and over again, maybe people should take a step back and think A) well maybe all of her love songs have this haunting quality because of a deep basic reason about the situation she finds herself in that no matter how solid a relationship might be, there’s always this THING hanging over it that won’t allow her to just be happy. That thing might be crippling depression, it might be trauma, being in an incredibly complicated situation, it might be fame, she might be gay, or you know ALL OF THE ABOVE. But it doesn’t mean that she’s not basically happy with the muse of that song. Especially in private like described in Sweet Nothing. B) sometimes she writes a song about a devastating moment but it doesn’t mean it’s the end of a relationship moment. C) sometimes she makes a song that’s about something completely unrelatable to a normal person, and she changes it to be about something that is relatable because her job is to sell records. And D) maybe we don’t know everything about her private life and aren’t good at figuring it out through her lyrics because she doesn’t want us to know everything, and so we should approach things using words like “maybe, I think, I could be wrong, here are a few possibilities, who knows?” Etc etc etc instead making our account’s entire personality about being an expert on Taylor swift’s life like you have been there in the room with her during it all.

When I say this I am thinking of a few different specific blogs and TikToks, mostly on the Toe side of the spectrum, but we see it on the gaylor side just as much. I am guilty of it sometimes too (more so in the past I think, but you know I do have strong opinions too and sometimes I unequivocally state them.)

All that being said, I have chosen to take the most straightforward interpretation of Sweet Nothing. It’s about her private home life being an oasis from the craziness of her life outside and one of the best things about her lover is that they don’t want anything from her other than her. It’s “you like me for me” expanded out. I interpret it as she just really really values this “normalness” she gets at home, and that normalness really is something only the muse of this song has been able to give her. And as always, home doesn’t have to be a physical place. And, luckily for us, because it’s from the album midnights that she said is about different midnights throughout life, you can choose to make this scene be happening at any time when she was happy with her lover. It doesn’t need to be the way things were at the moment she sat down to write it. It doesn’t have to be turned into some sort of sad song about the process of breaking up because you believe she broke up with the subject. This is why her writing ever since she sat down to write DBATC, and explained it to us,is so much more interesting to me. She very specifically told us with that song (the last known song written for lover) that she was going to be writing things that can be seen as hypotheticals in the future so we’d better get used to it! Folklore!!! That’s why it’s my pinned post.

#Choose your own adventure. I used to love those books as a kid. #I dedcided to post this even though I know people are going to take it out of context. it’s kind of meta really #I’m rambling again

[taylorswiftstylequestions]

Folklore Day!

Favorite Song: Invisible String and exile

Favorite Lyric: cross my heart won’t tell no other/ and though I can’t recall your face/ i still got love for you

I don’t actually like the song seven but these lyrics so beautifully capture what it means to grow up and look fondly on your childhood. To remember a friend and moments spent together but time has caused their image to fade in your mind.

Memory related to album: On my wedding day I walked down the aisle to Invisible String. Will always hold a special place in my heart. I was so bummed when Taylor cut it from the Eras tour setlist

Most underrated: Hoax

Misheard lyric: Thats the thing about illicit affairs and planned destined meetings

I must admit there are sentiments in "seven" that I'm glad she wrote down and has a song in concept for. "Before I learned civility / I used to scream ferociously any time I wanted" is so valid.

Aw omg I love that that was your song downt he aisle! That is so beautiful.

#PLANNED DESTINED MEETINGS #tss misheard lyrics #tss relistening party

[fereldanwench]

Tag People You Want to Get to Know Better

I was tagged by the incredible @barbecutie--Thank you, bb! <3333

Last Song: I've been obsessed with Placeholder for the Night by R. Missing. It's hitting all the right Valerie vibes lately

Currently Watching: Shogun and Tokyo Vice are my current viewings; just finished my Lost rewatch and I'm delighted to report it left me as broken now as it did in 2010!!!!!

Three Ships: Goro Takemura x Valerie Powell, Dr Harry Carlyle x Sara Ryder, Fem!Hawke x Everyone lmao

Favorite Color: It's less about individual color and more about some sweet, sweet color combos. Right now I'm really into blue and orange.

Currently Consuming: Hibiscus tea and cheesy puffs lmao

Actually, I'm gonna bitch for a minute: Husbando and I decided to try a new place for delivery and it was awful and over-priced and I'm still really hungry but we ordered too late to have other options soooooo yeah. Cheesy puffs it is, lmao.

First Ship: First ship that I knew I was actively shipping was probably Mara Jade and Luke Skywalker; they were the first I wrote fic for. But I think the first romantic relationship I was really invested in was Eliza and Goliath from Gargoyles.

Place of Birth: southern california, usa <- Same, actually!

Current Location: My living room :3

Relationship Status: Married

Last Movie: jhgjdfd I just needed some background noise while I was cleaning so I put on the Lifetime movie for Sherri Papini kidnapping hoax--It was as bad as expected.

Currently Working On: Going through my mentions and catching up tag games!

And I tag @vorchagirl, @roofgeese, @commander-krios, @miss--river, @shadesofchaoticenergy, and @medtech-mara with no pressure of course! <33

#tumblr: dash games

[taylor-on-your-dash]

could you list the very first and the very last song which taylor has written for each album? just curious to see any changes in her songwriting, especially of the earlier albums. i got the ones for red and fearless cause i read your timelines (awesome work btw) but im missing the ones for the other albums

THAT'S SUCH AN INTERESTING QUESTION ANON, THANK YOU

DEBUT

First song:

A Perfectly Good Heart - Autumn 2003

Last song:

Should've Said No - August 10, 2006

FEARLESS

First song:

White Horse - December 2006 (if we count the main album)

Come In With The Rain - September 2006 (if we count Fearless Platinum)

That's When/You All Over Me - early 2005 (if we count Fearless TV) The 2005 Vault songs are the most vague but I think that the other two, Don't You and We Were Happy, are for Drew, so written after he left for college in September 2005.

Last song:

Forever & Always - September 22, 2008 (if we count the main album)

Mr. Perfectly Fine - March/May 2009 (if we count Fearless TV)

SPEAK NOW

First song:

Sparks Fly - November 2, 2006

Sparks Fly was technically edited in 2010, so if you think that it shouldn't count, your next bet might be:

If This Was A Movie - April 2009

Last song:

The Story Of Us - June 16, 2010

RED

First song:

Stay Stay Stay - either early 2010 or late 2010

Last song:

I Knew You Were Trouble - June 2, 2012

Technically Trouble began in January 2012, but it was finished on June 2nd. So if you think that it shouldn't count, the next song is:

22 - June 1, 2012

1989

First song:

This Love - October 17, 2012

Last song:

Style - February 19, 2014

REPUTATION

First song:

Gorgeous - September 2 to 19, 2016

Last song:

So It Goes... - September 2017. The song was a last-minute addition to the album and it messed up the tracklist on the reputation magazines. EDIT TO ADD AN EXPLANATION HERE

LOVER

First song:

Daylight - 2017/2018

Last song:

Death By A Thousand Cuts - April 2019

(I'm actually not 100% sure about the Lover timeline and I haven't seen anyone talking about it but Taylor said that Daylight was the first title of the album but she changed it after she wrote Lover, and Lover is also a pretty early song (Taylor posted a quote from the song on Instagram in July 2018) so Daylight could've potentially been written in early 2018 or late 2017)

FOLKLORE

First song:

my tears ricochet - Late 2019

Last song:

the 1/hoax - Late May 2020

EVERMORE

First song:

dorothea - summer 2020, around July or August

Last song:

right where you left me/happiness - November 2020, both written just before the mastering process

MIDNIGHTS

First song:

High Infidelity/Would've Could've Should've - March 2021

Last song:

You're Losing Me - maybe written after Midnights dropped?

I haven't researched Midnights in depth yet (but I actually don't think there's much to research, we can just speculate)

#taylor swift #asks #taylor swift timelines #super interesting question #this brought back the memories of when i was researching every song

[midnightsslut]

One thing about her relationship with joe that I feel like she has mentioned but not fully explored is the gaslighting.

I might be putting too much of my personal life into this; but one time my husband and I got into a very bad fight and I left the fight feeling so bad about myself. Like just mentally I was like “man I must be just a terrible person who can’t speak up for themselves.” And I actually ended up apologizing, which was needed cause I wasn’t fully in the right, but I also wasn’t fully in the wrong. But I never received an apology that day. And that messed me up cause I left feeling so confused. It wasn’t until the next day I talked to my husband and was like look I deserved and apology too. Thankfully he understood and that conversation honestly ended being a huge resolution moment for us.

But all that to say the first time I listened to Great War it reminded me of that fight. And I saw some people praising it and how saying it was a sign that she would be long term with Joe and how she was being honest about her past demons. But I literally just kept thinking “I hope she got an apology too” cause it just sounds like a fight where both are wrong. But I don’t think joe ever gave Taylor an apology. Honestly based on she talks and the released lyrics from the album on the cover it seems like he put a lot of blame on her. But never accepted his wrong doings. Like it was ultimately her fault for not “trusting more freely” not his inability to empathize with her and understand her “hair pin” triggers.

oh this is a very good point. i know people have mixed feelings about terms like gaslighting when they haven’t explicitly been used, but this ask has a lot of the nuance that’s missing from discussions about reevaluating older songs. by her own admission, taylor DID need to apologize in the great war, and the song is ultimately a huge marker of personal growth. i really don’t want to discredit that. however, her suspicions likely didn’t come from nowhere, especially since jealousy/insecurity has been a recurring theme in her joe songs for much longer than infidelity. i’m sure he couldn’t have been perfect during these fights either, and we only get a few glimpses of that (false god, hoax, renegade, etc). okay, let’s say she wanted to protect him by choosing not to write about his faults; an apology is NOT a bad thing, though. she rarely wrote about apologies, which makes me think she didn’t get too many. in some ways, it all goes back to taylor outgrowing him due to her increased emotional intelligence.

all of this does remind me of betty and how it started (with joe just humming the lyrics to the chorus, which taylor decided to expand on because she wanted to write a song from a man’s perspective apologizing when she’s ’written so many songs about wanting a male apology’). then you get all her betty speeches last year where she ranted about men who lack the emotional intelligence to apologize. makes me wonder if he used to do it but stopped at some point.