#actually misophonic

[e-claire]

Misophonia sucks so fucking hard and no one anywhere ever wants to talk about it. Literally the only people I've ever had listen to me about my Misophonia are other people with Misophonia. So fuck it, Misophonia Awareness Post or something, I want to vent.

Allow me to describe what it is first for all the lucky people who aren't fucked over. Misophonia is likely an Audio-Processing Disorder (Potentially some form of Synesthesia) in which certain sounds trigger a fight or flight reaction. Trigger sounds can vary and sometimes after long term exposure it can create a reaction to the visuals associated with those sounds. It is possibly genetic, there is no known cause, there is no known treatment, there is only suffering and ways of generally kind of reducing that suffering. When I hear people chewing I am filled with a rage that can only be described as "Bordering on a primal desire to Kill." and there's nothing I can do about that. A family member or friend takes a bite of something crunchy and I have to sit there and exist with thoughts of pounding their fucking skull into paste with my bare god damn hands and then afterwards I have to go back to "being normal". I have to just pretend that didn't happen, I can't do anything with those emotions, I can't put them anywhere, I can't talk about them with anyone or gain any understanding or sympathy from others for having them.

When I see someone chewing food anymore it's borderline impossible for me to remain in the room with them for any more than a few seconds because the mere sight of them chewing makes me physically ill and inspires in me a sense of deep disgust and panic that I could never ever hope to describe.

I tell people about what it's like and I get one of four reactions :

"Oh I think I have that too" With a weird amount of curious excitement at the concept of having a fun new quirky thing to mention in conversations. This means that they don't have it, and they'll then proceed to list off a couple different things that literally no human being likes to hear and how much that thing "annoys them". This makes me want to kill myself.

"Wow, Yikes." Through a grimace. This means I was too open about how it makes me feel and they now think i'm a either a freak, liability, time bomb, or over-dramatic, and will do everything they can to avoid the subject in the future so that I can't make them uncomfortable. This makes me want to kill them AND myself.

Immediately eats something really loudly to set me off as a "joke". This means that they're an obnoxious piece of shit that I have to try my absolute hardest not to beat to death with my bare hands. This makes me want to kill them, if that wasn't already obvious.

"Oh. So that's what this is called." This means they have it, and we can both engage in a brief period of mutual trauma sharing that helps us know we're not alone, and that our curse is unfortunately shared with others. This makes us both somewhat melancholy, and kinda ruins the vibes until something fun happens.

And then we get into the "How do you make the pain stop", and good news! You can't. There is no way to make it stop. But you can make it hurt less with ✨Spending Unbearable Amounts of Cash✨

You can buy a billion different types of earplugs that will all do great at muting the world but always leave you incredibly unaware of the world around you and leave you fucked in-terms of listening to media.

You can buy normal headphones that will kind of work but never mute the world around you anywhere near enough and vaguely frustrate you constantly, but hey at least you're a bit more accessible! Try combining these with a combination of rain and static noise playing at all times in the background for an extra layer of silence :)

You can buy ANC headphones that cost infinitely too much money and are almost always built to break so that they can farm cash from you in repairs, but the ANC is so useful despite not working perfectly that you can't really exist without it so you're gonna spend 200+ dollars every couple years because you don't have a choice, and spend every single day 24/7 wearing hot heavy over-ear headphones! Use the Rain and Static Noise combo with this as well for the best ANC effect.

And inevitably, all of these options will give you hearing problems, potentially make you aware of new trigger sounds, and always leave you a step behind everyone else when a conversation happens. Pro-Tip : For when the sounds are really intrusive and you're on the verge of a breakdown, Combine ANC with Ear Plugs and the R&SN background audio to basically kill noise in it's entirety for a little while :)

AND NOW WE GET TO THE PART WHERE I SAY WHAT THE FUCK CAN YOU NORMIES DO TO MAKE OUR SUFFERING LESS FUCKING CONSTANT.

Listen to us. Don't ostracize us for experiencing emotions we can't control and don't mean or want to act on. If you can, try your best to do the trigger noises quietly, and try your best not to do the trigger visuals in-front of us. We know it's not something you can control entirely, but if you can make the effort to make our lives suck less, we'll really fucking appreciate it.

And if you try to get back at us during a fight by eating something really crunchy to abuse our disorder for your benefit, I swear to god I will hunt you down personally and subject you to the most violent and painful torture I can manage before killing you and hiding your body somewhere no one will ever find it so that your loved ones never have the closure of knowing if you died or if you're still somewhere out there. Thanks for reading even though I know you didn't because the length of this post is frankly unhinged and i'll probably only get like 2 likes at best.

#Misophonia #Misophonia Awareness #Actually Misophonic #Disorder Awareness #Mental Health

[scoutpologist]

okay im feeling so fucking emotional about having this weird ass disorder so everyone is gonna have to deal with me talking about it. what they don't tell u about misophonia is how fucking lonely it is to have it. even with just the one trigger, i have it at the extreme, and it means i can't eat with other people at all. if i'm forced to, i have to block out all noise and be viscerally uncomfortable. even without being able to hear it, i know it's there, and it fucking ruins me.

people talk about the love that's present in eating with people, in sharing a meal. i don't feel that love. i wish i could feel that love. all i am is afraid. in public spaces, i'm terrified that someone will start chewing something and i'll get triggered. in class, i had to sit there and sob quietly to myself, digging my nails into my arms to stop from screaming. "cool" teachers who let students eat in class became teachers i despised.

when i say it's bad, i mean it's bad. at my worst, if forced to listen for more than a minute, i will quickly go to level 10 on this scale. it's horrifying! it's awful! at times i've wished i couldn't hear at all!!

and like... so few people talk about us. so few people care about us. i'm in so much pain and i'm so lonely because all people want to do is eat with other people and that is the one thing i can't do!!! and at best people have never heard of it, but at worst they try to purposefully trigger me (which is a quick way to make sure i never trust you again. it's one of the worst kinds of betrayal for me).

this is a big part of my life that is literally disabling and i get so tired of people not understanding or not caring or not even remembering and triggering me anyway. it's exhausting. i can't even blame them most of the time, because of how weird of a trigger it is, but it weighs on you after the tenth time someone accidentally triggers you and you've had to remind them over and over and over again.

if you have misophonia, i want you to know i love you and i'm here for you. we're in this shit together. this condition can literally kill people, or make us wish we were dead, and we deserve so much better than that. we will survive, we will be okay, and we will find people who care, even if it's each other.

#op #misophonia #actually misophonic #okay to rb btw #i don't think anyone will clown on this post but if u do i will not hesitate to tear you to fucking shreds

[lesbiansupavillain]

Lol. I love my snakes <3

#I wish all chewing a very die #misophonia #actually misophonic #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #ball python #reptile mom #reptile keeper #snake mom

[user-boxer]

This user has Misophonia

#userboxes #userbox #this user #misophonia #actually misophonic #requests #this user has misophonia

[fionacle]

killing people who put audible eating in tv shows and movies with ten billion flaming knives

#misophonia #actually misophonic

[barelyfunctioning-amber]

People with misophonia:

We deserve better. We deserve so much more than this. We don't deserve to be mocked and purposefully triggered. We deserve to be respected.

We all also deserve those soundproof headphones and protective ear devices and the freedom to use them whenever we want to and need to.

Not everyone processes sound the way a typical person does. Some of us fucking hate the sounds we hear and would rather not exist in the same room as the sound being made.

I am prevented from normal function by sounds and they cause me overwhelming hatred and/or fear. I become really really overwhelmed and begin to want to not hear anymore. I wish not to have functioning ears. That is how bad it gets. It feels like the sound is piercing through my brain and my ears and it hurts hurts hurts!!!

This is not something someone like me can "forget about" and overcome. Its impossible. I've had it for so long now and found out it has a name. I didn't know it wasn't normal to have severe reactions to sound like dripping water, chewing, chalk on board, swallowing and even breathing. Normal mundane sounds send me crying and begging the gods to remove my ability to hear.

You are strong, fellow misophonia haver.

Love you. (platonic)

-Amber (any pronouns)

#disability #mental health #autistic #misophonia #misophonic #actually misophonic #actually misophonia #ableism tw #tw ableism #tw swearing

[the-sun-is-also-a-star]

there are. sounds.

#this is terrible #i am uncomfortable #misophonia #actually misophonic #misophonia awareness #ocd #actually ocd #tics #mental illness

[ndcultureis]

misophonia culture is getting mad at people for breathing too loud or making too much noise when they eat but not being able to explain that to them without sounding weird so you just seem agitated for no reason

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#misophonia culture #actually misophonic #neurodivergent culture #actually neurodivergent #mod emri

[empyrangel]

One thing that I see people never take into account when they whine about how everyone is supposed to have kids is that not everyone can be a parent. The more I think about it the more I’m sure I’d be an abusive parent if I had kids.

Misophonia + aspd + bpd + more is not a good combination for raising kids. If the circumstances are bad enough I tend to snap on people who aggravate me, especially if it’s repetitive. Both verbally and physically. With most people these impulses and violent intrusive thoughts are able to be controlled. But I absolutely do not have the patience to put up with a child’s bullshit. They keep doing bad behavior over and over and can’t be reasoned with because they don’t know better. I’m not made to handle that kind of thing. I know I’d hurt them, as much as I’d try not too. In addition to being terrible life for the child, I’d have to live with the guilt of whatever I did to them even when it was caused by my disorders.

What good could possibly come of that? Why should I subject myself and another living being to that?

#childfree #bpd #aspd #misophonia #borderline personality disorder #antisocial personality disorder #intrusive thoughts #actually borderline #actually antisocial #actually misophonic #cluster b #cluster b personality disorder #tw child abuse #child abuse mention

[jaidyne]

Misokenia is not talked about anywhere near enough,

Like I thought i was going insane wanting to rip my eyes out when I saw a girl playing with her hair, or someone bouncing their leg.

Like it took me so long to figure out what it was even called?

With misophonia, while not talked about either is a lot more popular (knowledge wise) in comparison to misokenisa.

Like where are my sufferes of both misos at 💔

#misophonia #misophonia awareness #actually misophonic #misokenisa #misokenisa awareness

[b1gr4tm4n]

i wish some people knew how to stop talking for even just a millisecond

-🦇

#asd #autistic spectrum #being autistic #autistic experiences #autistic community #autistic things #actually autistic #autistic #autism #autism spectrum disorder #audhd #actually audhd #audhd things #audhd problems #life #annoying #misophonia #actually misophonic #auditory processing disorder #apd

[scoutpologist]

also side note abt misophonia for fuck's sake pls stop tagging things that might trigger us with "misophonia". that's where we go to talk about our disorder and find support and you're literally putting things in the tag that will harm us. if you wanna tag, please tag the specific trigger such as "chewing" or "clicking" or something.

and while you're at it stop doing that shit for epilepsy/seizures as well!!! you could kill someone!!! "flash warning" or "flashing tw" or even just "flashing" are things i've heard people w epilepsy suggest. just do NOT for the love of everything tag ur flashing lights with "epilepsy" or "seizures" please please please.

#op #misophonia #actually misophonic #not only okay to rb i think ppl should reblog this actually

[afterartist]

Also I forgot to post this one

(Definitely gonna do a more InDepth post for this for this AU)

But I was inspired by a few other AUs, namely Anxiety sans by @hheisa and ADHD sans by @/gudulle

Seeing other people make sans AUs with disorders inspired me to make one based of a disorder I struggle with but not many people know about,

So meet Misophonia sans!!

Misophonia (also known as Selective Sound Sensitivity Disorder) is an Anxiety disorder (thought to be a negative cousin of Synesthesia and also had heavy links to PTSD) where the sufferer, upon hearing certain triggering noises, with go into a full blown panic attack,

The response can vary from person to person and even just day to day, but most common are the urge to flee the situation, cry/shut down or attack the person making the triggering noise in an attempt to silence them

Most common triggering noises are related to chewing or breathing, I myself can accidentally set myself off from my own breathing and it’s horrible, (also a common misconception is it being the loud noises that trigger Misophonics, but more often then not it’s the quieter sounds) though this is actually quite different from the noises that regular people get upset by

There’s a huge difference in being annoyed by a sound verse actively trying to deafen one’s self to avoid the trigger noises

Also, side note, if someone tells you they’re struggling with Misophonia and you think it’s okay to deliberately make their trigger sounds to upset them please block my account and never interact with me, you are deplorable.

Anyway, I can’t explain all about Misophonia in a single post with a rough sketch, so i implore you to go research some more on your own, but I will definitely be making more posts about this lil guy

Ps: some of the only slightly positive/interesting news about Misophonia is that it’s been found Misophonics usually seem to have a stronger positive reaction to music then non Misophonics :D

#sans #sans au #undertale #undertale au #disorder awareness #misophonia awareness #actually misophonic #Misophonia #inspired by Anxiety sans #and ADHD sans #quick sketch #Misophonia sans #his nickname is phone btw #do your own research #the blue ribbon stands for Misophonia awareness

[alien-amoung-humans]

Me, walking out my room and into the room next to mine: hey, do you have sinus? Or are you coming down with a cold or something?

Person: yeah actually. How'd you know?

Me: I can hear you breathing from the next room

#misophonia #actually misophonic #sound sensitivity #sensory processing #sensory processing disorder #mental health #neurodivergent #adhd #anxienty #its the neurodivergency #mentalheathawareness #autism #ocd #mental health memes

[verycoolsnails]

I have no idea why but people keep explaining to me that a lot of noises that people make are involuntary . As if that's going to fix my disorder ? Like . I know that . I wouldnt be having a meltdown if I had a choice. And actually there are a concerning amount of people who have coughed/sniffled/etc specifically to piss me off. Honestly its probably one of the worst ways to attempt to get me to calm down . What are you expecting .

#??? its just so confusing and also makes me feel worse . i wanna go home .. #misophonia #uhh do i tag this as anything else #actually misophonic

[misophoniatroubles]

the first time i heard about misophonia was thanks to matpat’s film theory on the grinch (makes a lotta sense btw) so thanks matpat and steph (who actually has it, same triggers as me actually). thanks for helping me realize I’m not broken or crazy. it helped more than you could ever know.

i’ll miss ya

#matpat #misophonia #actually misophonic #film theory #WARNING THAT VIDEO HAS MOUTH AND CHEWING NOISES SO NOT THE BEST BUT IT DID HELP #goodbye matpat