Okay! made my decision and I guess it is time to stop procrastinating out of fear and speedrun my way through shadowbringers just like I did with stormblood.
Maybe not at the same level because by the end I was very tired of it and just wanted to go back doing nothing but vibin’ so a reasonable speedrun.
I’m allowing myself my daily beast tribes missions (because I’m trying to get that cute manta ray and griffon mounts) and maybe some roulettes but no side quests outside the flying ones.
We’re gonna go, say sorry to the poor people getting matched with us on the dungeons, meet this Emet guy everyone’s gaga about and possibly understand why the fuck Zenos was in the endwalker trailer. Oh and most importantly, Raha, my beloved <3
Let’s go they/thems, let’s goooo
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I'm the one who has fronted the most. As far as I know.
I'm the host. The body goes by my name. I'm given final veto on decisions. I'm the one everyone has known for years.
I am so fucking tired. I dont want to give up being host but I want time off without everyone assuming something horribly wrong or asking about me or bombarding me with questions when I do front or without the entire rest of my system feeling lesser, and second to me when interacting with friends.
But holy fuck its hard to fall asleep alone at night. I'm too tired to handle my job. I have no social life in person. I can't hear an ambulance without crying about dad, I cant smell specific things without worrying i'm back with my ex in Cali.
I really just want to sleep for a bit. It's been nearly a solid 25 years, can I just. Just have a bit?
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Sometimes we are sharing our dreams.
Sometimes it’s scary. I hate to see Ver.B.A.’s and Liza nightmares about school, our parents and life in Donetsk. Or Abu Umar's dreams about Guantanamo.
Sometimes I’m afraid of falling asleep.
But sometimes it’s cool. Especially if no one has problems because of some strong negative trigger. And if I share dreams with someone who has a strong positive emotional memory that I doesn’t have. Sometimes only in the night I could realize how something from the real world or daydream world was important for us. To feel it again. To feel this connection with a past.
And some of us have more colorful, vivid dreams that others.
But in the dreams it’s all mixed. It’s difficult to actually separate who is dreaming.
We could even change language if we started dreaming and some of our English-language alters started to front. It would be dreams in a different language. We could have started to speak some stuff out loud!
And sometimes we could switch while sleeping several times.
I could go to bed with Abu Hamza as my co-host and wake up with Abu Umar or little Liza.
Or if I’m too exhausted I would wake up later than the body because one of the altars would be fronting alone.
Night dream world of the System is fashionating. I’ve never seen many posts about it. But I don’t think that Singlets could imagine something like that.
For that wip folder game, I’d love to hear more about (The) Incompetent Children and What You’ve Lost in the Jasmine Woods if you’re up to share! (-@cecilsstorycorner)
of course let’s go!!
[this is my original work, do not use / repurpose / plagiarise in any form]
[THE] INCOMPETENT CHILDREN
[tw: cult mentions]
this was my og “cult story”, way before force majeure even happened. tbh IC has nothing in common with FM apart from the fact that they both involve a cult but still it's hard not to compare them? i’d say that IC is just a tonally very dark story; FM is kind of daylight horror-esque while IC is pure grit and zero chill.
the tentative logline: the incompetent children chronicles the rise of the present day leader of a religious and technological cult as his power is threatened as his childhood friend returns home, told in dual timelines.
don't ask me what “technoligical cult” even means i don't know. highlights:
childhood friends / crushes [except you’ll never know if it was mutual] to mortal enemies who also happen to be very annoyingly flirty [that's not an actual trope but it is the story]
queer relationships except it's toxic [oops]
betrayal as redemption
dual timelines: one when the mc was a child right until the point his friend, the antagonist /deuteragonist / love interest leaves the cult, and the present day one where said friend returns escort he’s like. directly working against the mc now.
the spotify playlist has got the vibes + the cover is very on point
also this is i think the one story of mine which has a main cast of more than two living male characters lmaooo. there are zero excerpts i’ve written for it jbsubde. like i don't write stuff for the wips in my writing queue until i actually near the point where they’ll be written, and this is like seventh on the list.
WHAT YOU’VE LOST IN THE JASMINE WOODS
omg this story... love it so much. the logline is this: a girl travels through a place with no one to keep her company except for herself and miles of breathing, dangerous wastelands in an attempt to find out who created her. facts:
this is a novella!! it would literally not work in any other form because there is not enough “conflict” for a short story and not enough “plot” for a novel. and also novella is an intriguing form which i’m excited to try out!
there is only one living character throughout the entire story, who is our protagonist, vasilisa. the entire story is just exploring her relationship with the extremely strange, vaguely fabulistic world around her. the ONLY conflict is with her surroundings. there are no other people here.
told fully in second person :)
exploring gender and being trans in a world where there is no “society” or “civilisation”
here’s the playlist because fun fact! this story was fully inspired by the song “the life of hilda”, and also “i lost something in the hills” by sibylle baier [as the title suggests]
i am actually dying to write this because it is literally my dream story: very little clear conflict, nothing but nature descriptions the entire time, fabulism, full second person omg, gender fuckery. this is most self-indulgent story ever and that’s so beautiful to me.
ask me about my wips!
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