#actually ocpd

[colombinna]

Being neurodivergent is truly so inconvenient. We need to talk about that more. I had the whooole last half of last week and this whooole weekend to do nothing but study for my big exam on Thursday. I have not even yet managed to finish the remaining 15 pages of one of the texts. And the worst thing is, I don't feel like doing anything else either!! It's not like I desperately need to draw, it's not like I desperately want to play a game, or watch a specific tv show or read a specific comic. No, nope. I'm just absolutely unable to do the ONE thing I had planned my whole time to do - to study about a topic I'm EXTREMELY passionate about and know WHY it's important that I do so - and when I try to push through it I fall fucking asleep! AAAAAAAAAA!!!!! So I end up losing hours and hours on social media, and now executive dysfunction is screwing me all over, I'm taking my meds super late and waking up super late, and the whole day ends up being a mess!!

"We all have the same 24 hours on the day" you speak for your abled self, I barely get 10 these days!

#neurodivergency #ad #attention disorder #autism #actually autistic #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #actually ocd #actually ocpd #obsessive compulsive personality disorder #actually ad #mentally disabled #executive dysfunction #neurodivergent #actually nd

[psychotic-tbh]

Today doesn’t have to be good for you to give tomorrow a try. I know it can be unbearable, but you deserve to see better days.

So now I’m asking you to give tomorrow a try. You don’t have to think about it if it makes you nervous, just let the morning reach you.

#actually psychotic #mental health positivity #mental heath support #disability pride #schizophrenic spectrum #schizospec #seriouslyschizophrenia #neurospicy #neurodivergent #actually schizospec #depression positivity #anxiety positivity #mad pride #actually ocpd #pdnos #tw sui implied #keep going

[obsessive-compulsive-culture-is]

OCD culture is ruminating over every bad thing you've done and desperately wanting to beg for forgiveness.

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#obsessive compulsive culture #ocd #actually compulsive #actually obsessive #actually ocd #obsessive compulsive #obessive compulsive #ocpd #actually ocpd

[92fs]

I hate having OCPD actually. I hate constantly thinking about the “right” time to do something, way to do something, circumstance to do something. I hate overthinking everything. I hate being obsessed with rules and timing. I hate feeling like I constantly lose opportunities and chances; or lose time. 

#OCPD #actually ocpd #obsessive compulsive personality disorder #cluster c #actually cluster c

[comfort-of-creature]

Listen, this is not meant to be anti-recovery or whatever, but just like physical health does not remove value from people, same for mental health. People don’t owe you healthy behaviors to be a valuable person worth keeping safe. This includes, btw, unhealthy people with scary symptoms.

We can hold people accountable for their actions but we also need to ensure that all forms of health and wellness and unhealth and unwellness (I know it’s illness) are taken care of and supported. The goal is harm reduction, not perfection.

And I should add, a KEY point of this (other than these people being people and we should be doing better by each other by default) is that as we’re seeing bills and bills get passed to define how much bodily autonomy you’re allowed (they’re trying really hard for none!), anything you do will eventually get defined as mentally or physically unhealthy and you need to be restrained.

There’s still a lot of shame and stigma and demonization and even punitive, shaming responses towards people with mental illnesses. 10 times so when it’s a demonized disorder or scary disorder or whatever exists. And the focus needs to be on providing support for them. Even if we don’t like them as people. Because they’re still people and people need safe spaces and the less we keep trying to force people to do our idea of recovery before we give them kindness and compassion, the harder it’ll be for anyone who Wants to go through the long, arduous journey of recovery.

Not to mention, what’s beneficial for YOUR recovery might literally drive another person into an early grave if you tried to put it on them. “This isn’t healthy”, “you’re just retraumatizing yourself”, etc. all may very well be true but in the end, you’ll have to pull up your big kid pants and say “their mental health recovery journey is not [like] mine and that’s okay”. Because like, the beautiful thing about minding your own business is that you’re not responsible for everyone’s health.

We can want healthy for others but in lieu of knowing everything in the world about someone’s life journey to recovery, let’s settle for informed consent and harm reduction and genuine, honestly compassionate education.

#armchair diagnosing is also bad except when I do it which is sexy #(I’m kidding by the way) #actually npd #actually bpd #actually aspd #actually hpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #actually ocpd #actually dpd #actually szpd #actually ppd #actually stpd #actually osdd #actually did #osdd 1b #osdd 1a #did osdd #actually cluster b #actually cluster a #actually cluster c #I’m trying to get all my duckies #actually bipolar

[icarusian]

calling my OCPD episodes "death the kid moments" from now on

#mine #yes im just now watching soul eater #actually ocpd #ocpd #soul eater #death the kid

[avoidkin]

sometimes i just get so incredibly sad about having a personality disorder.

especially when i mention to my teachers i have to go to therapy on tuesdays, and them giving me a discontent look and telling me "it's not ideal". i know it's not ideal for me to miss school!! but why the fuck can't you help me figure it out?? i'm disabled, what the fuck do you want me to do? stop being disabled?! i'd like that very much too.

now i feel guilty for being disabled

sometimes i just get incredibly sad about having a personality disorder.

it makes me believe i'm unlovable. too much. that i can't ask for things. accommodations. so i limit my life into a very small space. it's best for everyone this way.

sometimes i just get incredibly sad about having a personality disorder.

there is no pd community online. no funny pd memes on tumblr, no widespread pd positivity like i see coming from the autistic & adhd community.

sometimes i just get incredibly sad about having a personality disorder.

i think of the person hearing about how someone with ocpd acts, and commenting "those people sound very annoying to be around". i got my diagnosis 6 months later.

sometimes i just get incredibly sad how rarely i meet someone who knows what my disability is and how it affects me.

sometimes i just get incredibly sad.

#ocpd #actually ocpd #poetry #speech.txt #cluster c #personality disorder #obsessive compulsive personality disorder

[thecouncilofidiots]

Love (/sarcasm) when the symptom holder (of hyperfocus/hyperfixation) gets attached to an idea and doesn't let go until someone does it... we already have obsessive-compulsive behaviors, you yourself were just complaining about the body's compulsions. And yet, here I am Doing The Thing because of all the alters to get an idea, it had to be you (/not actually mad). -Alesc

#shitpost #screaming into the void #did #did system #alters #plural system #plurality #ocpd not ocd #actually ocpd #ocpd #hyperfixation #obsessive compulsive behavior

[guernikka]

there is nothing more mentally ill than relating to the quote "i wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic"

#literally how #actually chester bennington #mental illness #ocd #actually ocpd #clinical depression #linkin park #heavy #lyrics

[notabled-noodle]

to the OCPD/OCD person reading this —

you’re not a bad person.

you’re not horrible or evil or irredeemable.

a strict moral code plus a large guilty conscience is a hard combo, but that doesn’t mean you are the person your thoughts make you out to be.

you don’t have to change to be deserving of love, dignity, and respect

#ocd #ocpd #hm #hope this makes sense #actually ocd #actually ocpd #note to self

[ocpdramblings]

I am constantly on the precipice of “they’ll know”

I don’t know who they are, sometimes it’s friends, sometimes it’s some hidden counsel that I watching from afar.

Sometimes it’s not just a “they’ll know that I’m secretly a bad person”. Sometimes it happens when I’m doing chores. “They’ll know I’m washing the dishes”. “They’ll know I’m taking out the trash”. I’m not quite sure why it bothers me so much. Probably has to do with me not wanting to be incompetent but whatever. That’s for another day

#my post #personality disorder #cluster c #obsessive compulsive personality disorder #actually ocpd #ocpd

[colombinna]

to be able to not care is a privilege i wish i had for every waking moment

#neurodivergent #ocd #actually autistic #actually ocd #ocpd #actually ocpd #autism #autistic #neurodivergency #blackness #lesbianism #lesbian #black lesbian #vent

[psychotic-tbh]

Things I’ve Learned as a Disabled Person

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You did not commit a crime simply by being mentally ill or disabled!

You are not wasting anyone’s time or energy by simply existing as a mentally ill or disabled individual!

Please surround yourselves with love, support, and positivity whenever you find the opportunity!

You deserve compassion regardless of your symptoms or experiences!

You are not a monster or an abuser for being disabled or mentally ill!

You can and will find people who love and understand you, or at least try to understand to the best of their ability.

You can and will find people who support you, regardless of what that support looks like!

You do not have to need the same types of support as others. As long as you do what is best for you, that’s all that matters.

At the same time, it’s okay to need accommodations, no matter the type!

You can always work towards coexisting with others, and I hope that you will be surrounded by those who do the same for you!

You do not have to stretch yourself thin and overextend yourself to make others happy!

It’s okay to advocate for yourself! And, if you cannot do this because of your mental illness or disability, it’s okay to allow someone with your best interest in mind to advocate for you!

While you don’t need to force it (and it probably helps more not to force it), please hold onto the hope that things will not always be at their worst!

If it helps you and isn’t hurting anyone, it is nothing to be ashamed of!

Finding support is huge! It doesn’t have to be folks in your immediate area, online support is acceptable as well! What matters is that we are uplifting and supporting each other and ourselves.

There are so many things I’ve learned as a disabled person. I hope to learn many more

Please feel free to share what you’ve learned as well, or please share if you found any of this helpful! /not forced

#personality disorder safe #actually psychotic #actually schizospec #actually npd #actually ocpd #actually pocd #intrusive thoughts #actually bpd #cluster b safe #cluster a safe #cluster c safe #schizospec #mad pride #mad punk #schizophrenic spectrum #actually dissociative #actually disabled #schizo spectrum #actually schizophrenic #schizoaffective #disability pride #psychotic spectrum #psychosis nos #substance induced psychosis #postpartum psychosis #bipolar with psychotic features #actually bipolar #mood disorder #actually obsessive #actually neurodivergent

[obsessive-compulsive-culture-is]

OCD culture is having a hard time working on minimizing your compulsions because as soon as you overcome the anxiety that makes you do the compulsion, your brain starts saying that if you don't do the compulsion, you actually never had OCD and you've been faking the disorder for years

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#obsessive compulsive culture #ocd #actually compulsive #actually obsessive #actually ocd #obsessive compulsive #obessive compulsive #ocpd #actually ocpd

[cluster-c-chaos]

because I feel like this is going to become an FAQ very quickly:

what is the difference between OCD and OCPD?

OCD is an anxiety disorder, whereas OCPD is a personality disorder. they actually present super differently, so it can be frustrating that the names are so similar.

OCD looks like:

intrusive thoughts

obsessive thinking

compulsions to help soothe the anxiety

a drive to get rid of all uncertainty

OCPD looks like:

obsessive organisation and list-making

a "my way or the highway" approach to everything

anger and discomfort, as well as anxiety

a drive to be in control

someone with OCD can have organisation activities as a compulsion, but in that case, they are doing it to soothe their anxiety and their intrusive thoughts. when someone with OCPD is doing organisation activities, it's because they're driven to regain control over their environment.

this is obviously a super simplistic definition, but those are the basics!

#ocd vs ocpd #ocpd #actually ocpd #faq

[comfort-of-creature]

Friendly reminder that comorbidity is a thing that exists and it is possible to have a bunch going on with you. You don’t have to confine yourself to one or two things just because you feel like you have too much going on otherwise. The purpose is healing and recovery and sometimes things from one problem will bump into, contradict, or exacerbate another problem or six problems and it doesn’t make you “too much”. Forget about being “valid” for a second and just take care of yourself to the best of your ability, even if that means just forgiving yourself for being sick. I love you, stay hydrated.

#actually disabled #actually cluster b #actually bpd #actually aspd #actually avpd #actually dpd #actually npd #actually ocpd #actually ppd #actually stpd #actually szpd #actually cluster a #actually adhd #actually cluster c #actually autistic #actually chronically ill #osddid #maladaptive daydreaming #actually madd #actually ocd #actually schizospec #actually schizophrenic #actually bipolar #there’s definitely more