#actually posting for once damnnn

[seosoondubu]

just now learning about ravi and nafla I'm screaming I cannot believe it like im shocked at the situation they got themselves into

#rambles #like omfgggg what?! #i saw an insta post and found out abt both at once #one allkpop read through later and wtf????? #im shocked like i cant even process an opinion abt it im just wowwww #longtime vixx fan even not a ravi stan #and i actually love nafla like wtf #i esp dont know why ravi would throw away his career over this #like isnt he like a huge song writer too? #my brain is just like ahhhhh #like dont make oppas like they used to in 2012 damnnn #no group is safe

[yyokkki]

Asking to Sketch Them

HEARTSLABYUL

Riddle Rosehearts

Honestly a bit shocked you’d ask him

But he’s had practice from posing for family portraits, so he isn’t too nervous

Until you say you want the backdrop to be Heartslabyul’s garden

It doesn’t break any rules… but that doesn’t mean someone else won’t break any rules

He doesn’t collar people as often as he used to, but he still makes it a point to lecture rulebreakers on the importance of said rule

So imagine the strain on his face when Ace walks by with a vase full of roses and it’s Wednesday.

In the end Ace sits beside you while Riddle gives a long lecture, keeping the rest of his body perfectly still so it doesn’t interfere with your work

You are sweating in fear. 6/10 a good model but it’s hard to draw when your model is half yelling at the dude sitting right next to you

Trey Clover

Might hesitate to say yes because he’s a busy guy,,

I mean they have tea parties like everyday and he’s always in charge of sweets-

You say he can go about his business and that you’re going to capture him in his natural habitat then he agrees

Raises an eyebrow cuz you make it sound like you’re on national geographic but ok

Anyways you’re drawing him while he’s baking and damnnn those biceps pop when he’s whisking

Secretly, however, he’s been holding back for a while now/

When you’re least expecting it he comes closer to you… and bam whipped cream on the side of your face

Devolves into flour tossing and chaos

6/10 you got whipped cream on your sketchbook and it was half finished but it was a fun memory

Cater Diamond

“OMS YAY of course ;DD”

Internally screaming because his makeup isn’t that good today and why him I mean there are better looking people in nrc and maybe he can get his clone to do it instead-

Overthinker fr

He’s a bit stiff at first, trying to only show his good side and checking his camera constantly to see if his smile looks good

If you’re close and you start talking to him about something he’s passionate about while you’re sketching he’ll loosen up a bit and his pose becomes a lot more natural

Eventually forgets you’re even drawing him and now it’s just him showing his true colours

Takes a pic of your finished sketch along with the both of you and posts it on magicam #muse #artistbestie

8/10 the sketch turned out well and you had a nice chat 

Deuce Spade

Has never been asked this question in his life

Boy is so stiff and awkward pls baby

He smiles like Oga from Beelzebub at first

Pls pls pls get this boy to do something else while you’re drawing him to get him to relax

Might be studying across the table from you while having a nice chat

Forgets you’re drawing him eventually pt.2

Tbh moves around a lot especially if a senior enters the room cuz he makes it a point to turn around and greet them while standing up

Is a bit surprised when you say you’re done because shit I forgot and I moved so much im sorry-

Also takes a picture of the sketch

Texts his mom the pic “I made a really good friend who’s great at drawing :D”

Will ask if you can draw a portrait of him and his mom together when you get the chance (will pay for it he just doesn’t know about the concept of commissions TT)

4/10 he’s so precious but not the best model tbh id still ask him again idc

Ace Trappola

Little shit (affectionate)

Not hard to make him agree but boy will he give you shit for it “my face is just that handsome ig” “you want me to get nude?” someone kiss him and make him shut up

At first he’s making a bunch of dumb faces and exaggerated poses and once he determines that you’re sufficiently annoyed he starts actually posing normally

Might get up halfway through and start stretching or laying down cuz he got tired though

Depending on how late he slept the night before and if you’re keeping quiet so he doesn’t get the chance to tease you, he might fall asleep

His sleeping face is cute so it works out for you ehe

When you’re done he acts all non chalant and smug about it but inside he’s sooo happy damn tsundere

Asks if he can draw you next and draws a potato with three dots on it <3

2/10 its only easy when he falls asleep but he’s cute so ill give him 1 extra point

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Heartslabyul | Savanaclaw | Octavinelle | Scarabia | Pomefiore | Ignihyde | Diasomnia

Graphic design is not my passion dear lord i really need to read a guide on how to format tumblr posts TT

Also first time writing omg depending on my mood next part will either be out tomorrow or next month see yall

#twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts #trey clover #cater diamond #deuce spade #ace trappola #twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twst heartslabyul #yokki's writing #twst headcanons

[youremyheaven]

Once again you’ve given us another banger post😩

It’s such a weird coincidence that you started talking about names because I’ve been actually thinking about it a lot recently!

My name means “very holy”, I’m a punarvasu sun and I have a total of 4 planets + my ascendant in deva gana nakshatras. I also have my chart ruler in the 9th house.

I also have a friend who is a fellow punarvasu native, who’s name means “pure”. Her name also sounds like cat and she has many placements in cat yoni naks. One of her other names translates to “to have a fixation on” or “obsession”, and she has rahu 1H closely conjunct her ascendant.

I feel like I’ve been sending you a lot of asks recently 💀 every time you post I have some kind of revelation and feel the need to bombard you with a very specific personal example. I’m glad you found my nodal identity crisis ask somewhat thought provoking though, it was nice to see the idea expanding upon in a way that was actually comprehensible 😭

our minds 🤌🏼✨😤😂

thank you angel 🫶🏼

damnnn that's so cool??? glad to see that my hypothesis actually holds up 😭😭

idk if you intended to but it just occurred to me that Rahu influence can make others obsessed with you 😳maybe ill post about it later 😳😳

don't worry about sending me asks 😩😩you always send very thought provoking stuff 😩😩

of course hehe 😶‍🌫️it occurred to me why ive always felt really??? by the personality/behaviour of Nodal people. im extremely decisive and I have a strong sense of self (2023 being a Ketu year did test that tho UFF i can't imagine being a Nodal if that's what's it's like) and it's really??? confusing being around someone who has very loose morals or a shifting sense of self like but the more i understand those energies i see it from all angles and how not being tied to any one thing can also be very liberating if confusing

[lewkwoodnco]

✨ appreciation post! ✨

I feel SOOO BAD but I really love and appreciate every single comment/review y’all give on my posts!!!! It’s just that sometimes they’re replies so I can’t respond to them 😭 but I absolutely adore and am so very grateful for every single comment, including but not limited to:

@novelizt my first reviewer/commenter…if no one got me I know YOU GOT ME 😭😭 no cuz you’re such a literal Ray of sunshine and I feel sooo deeply honoured to catch the attention of a writer as good as you?? And reviews so detailed and quoting lines and everything?? You brighten my whole day, my whole week and you’re so consistent like I could not ask for a supporter more dedicated than you from the very beginning!!!!!!! Ily and your writing so so much and I swear once I get more time your fics better WATCH OUT

@rambles-fanfic-trove Omg I’m soso honoured that you enjoy my writing!! Like I can’t believe words that my crummy lil brain thought of could actually make another person physically feeeel things and you’re so sweet, thank you so much for taking the time to write it out and everything!!! 🫶

@willupleaseebequiet + @liesmultixxx I hope this doesn’t sound too intrusive cuz I don’t know y’all 😭 but omg the way y’all were discussing/recommending my fic like it was some polished impressive piece and damnnn that weirdly touched me idk how to say it? :”) and I’m so glad you liked that ‘Shakespearean-adjacent’ line, I’m rlly proud of it!! Both of y’all were so sweet and adorableee tysmmm 💕

@mentallyillsodapop the way you’ve been tearing into my fics 🥹 Im so glad you enjoy them so much and I rlly appreciate all your love and comments!! 🫶

@everysinglepersonwhorebloggedmyicanseeyouficandTAGGEDITASAFICREC stopppp yall are way too nice 😭😭😭

@superpositvecloudshipper AHH thank youuu for your likes and comment it was so sweet!!! I’m so so glad you liked those fics and you really made my day!!!

I know it’s kind of so extra to do this all at once in like a huge post but I’m sooo bad at remembering to do it otherwise and I just wanted y’all to know how much your kind words really mean to me! 🥹🫶 here’s to exchanging more writing/yelling into the void tgt in the future 💃

#personal

[venussaidso]

Hey there beautiful hooman💃✨Hope you doing awesome and staying hydrated💧Your recent post on MOON DOMINANT men is just wowowowowowowow💗🤌🏻✨My brother has a Rohini moon and yesss it’s all so DAMNNN true now I know why but he also has Krittika Sun and Uttaraphalguni Ascendant so I mean If you don’t mind I have a request could you do one for SUN dominant men too?Also Rahu dominant woman cause yes my Rahu dominant ass just can’t be patient also I want too know that I actually have Swati Sun (pada 1)Shatabhisha Moon(pada 1)Ardra Ascendant(17 degree) (pada 4) with Punarvasu Jupiter(21 degree) and Mrighshira Rahu in 1st house (5 degree) so does the Jupiter dominant part also counts?Also does the Other planetary placements also count in calculating Dominant Planet in natal chart?Okay I know this is a WHOLE DAMNNN ESSAY that I have written apologies apologies but I’m just way too CURIOUSSS🤦🏻‍♀️🤣Okay bye now and if you still here and reading this long ass message I wrote Iloveyaaa♥️🥺✨(P.S.-Drink water for every time I wrote “Also”😌😂)

Watch out for part 2 of my moon dominant post. For solar men, though I haven't done a post that focuses solely on them, I've touched up on them in this post;;

But I'll see once I've actually picked up more data on them when I'll post them. And rahu womenn yess I was thinking of making a post on them, soon. Actually to anyone else reading, my coming up vedic astro posts are: Part 2 of moon nakshatra men. Similarities of Jupiter & Sun women (rashis and nakshatras). And, Nodal women.

You're much more Rahu dominant, than Jupiter. If you have more than one of the same planetary ruled nakshatras, or the same rashi etc., it does indicate your more significant planet in your chart. Your Gemini Ascendant means Mercury is your Chart Ruler so it's also very important. And check your AK.

#vedic astroloy #ask

[sungbeam]

Sorry I think I actually went into a comatose state once the Holiday teaser ver pics came out

Suffice to say that I will be investing in these albums 🫡

Also lemme just talk abt the fact that we’ll technically get 9 different versions of the same album technically 😀

But the color grading of the holiday version is SOOOOOO nice like damnnn AND THEN AND THEN AND THEN UHHHHH THE GLITTER VER ✨GLITTER GLITTER GLITTER TWIRLS TWIRLS TWIRLS TOGETHER FOREVER ITS LINDA AND HEATHERRR✨ IS SOOOOO PRETTY LIKE TF ESP YOUNGHOON’S HAIR LIKE LORDDDDDD

AND YES SO TRUE IT PROBABLY TAKES ME LIKE AN HOUR TO WRITE A FULL ASK AND IT’S SO UPSETTING TO ME REAHHHHH

The Boys is also way lowkey scary so yeah you’re right 😭 AND YEAH THE ACTOR THAT PLAYED HOMELANDER WAS LIKE… TOO GOOD AT HIS JOB 💀💀 ALSO I saw what you meant about marvel invasion cause ummm what is up with that reader insert plot armour type beat character 💀💀💀 like I saw her scene on twt and not only does it look bad but I was like HUH??? Characters that are so OP are fkn ejdwjjrkekf TOO MUCH LMAO

And I am once again sooo excited for Rhapsody Anonymous even though I saw you were struggling a bit writing it but I think it’ll really pay off 🥹🫶

I’m so glad that you did take some time off for yourself to ground yourself when you felt overwhelmed and I’m really glad that it helped you as well!! Take care of yourself above all else! 🥺💖

Also! Random Q&A time!

1. What’s your fav type of bread

2. What’s the cringiest thing you’ve ever put up on social media (optional answer 💀)

3. Have you ever been in love 🫣

4. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CARTOON CHARACTER CRUSH YOU CAN’T LIE TO ME IK YOU HAD ONE (REQUIRED, MUST ANSWER, NOT OPTIONAL 😤☝️)

I got like 2/4 of these from teen vogue so don’t @ me ok 😔💔

- So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you. (Paulo Coehlo)

Love always, 🌷 anon

NO CUZ SAME???!(!(!) like I literally was supposed to wrote the day the present concept came out and i couldn't think abt anything else for the rest of the day :l BRO THATS WHAT IM SAYING ?? ist making MONEY MOVES this comeback 😭😭😭 pulling out all the stops to suck the money from our wallets ksnfkemdk I'll need to drop out of college if I were to get even one per concept 😭😭😭

HELP NO CUZ THE COLORS FROM THE PRESENT VER ARE SOOOOOO VIBRANT AND BEAUTIFUL???? THEY WERE SO SO PRETTY. and omg CHOI CHANHEE WAS MADE FOR THE GLITTER VERSION 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️ someone said *im spinnin like a ballerinaaaa* LMAO have u seen the clips from the zeneration behind lol chanhee and kevin on the POLES !!! so iconic tbh i think it was for savior?? not too sure

ur so right anthony starr (?)/homelander plays his role FAR TOO WELL O_O he freaks me tf OUT w that smile omg sknfkendk all his scenes put a shiver down my spine and i haven't even properly watched the series 😭

bro secret invasion threw me for a mfkn loop 😭 idk if you've watched the whole thing but KEVIN FEIGE WE NEED TO TALK ABT UR CHOICES FOR MISS MARIA HILL WE NEED TO TALK S I R. i actually really like the title sequence for it tho i thought it was so masterfully done like for some reason i really liked it in particular 😭💀

ahhhh thanks !!! 🤧🤧 hopefully u like what I've done for it LMFAOOOO it's been a struggle up in here, but it's prob gonna come out to be longer than the estimated word count 🤣🤣 i am not doing very good at keeping it under 20k

omg random q+a 😃

brioche !!! tho i think i have more opinions abt cheese than bread 😭 wheat works too LMAO

uhhhhh 💀 the things i posted way back when r more embarrassing/"u idiot"/"u bitch" type things, but ig i can say all of the over filtered pics 😭😭 i cry every time i think of that try hard bathing suit post i did once it was awful

uhhhh if being in love counts as being in love w white rice then yes 🤩🤩 idk dude lol i don't think i've met anyone yet whom i have really felt so strong an emotion for as sad as it sounds, but i am patient

HELP ME KDFKLEMDK CUZ .... Apparently when i was 1 or 2, i had a SICKENING crush on jimmy neutron 🧍🏻‍♀️ but after that it was probably zayn from lego ninjago, i don't make the rules LMAO i am a nerd-lover through and through !!!

NOW UR TURN GO !!! 😼😼 LMAO no worries i think it was cute and fun !!

— "'If you are intolerable, let me be the one to tolerate you.'" - T. J. Reid 💖

#sungbeam strikes again #🌷 anon

[sweetcinnamonmaplesyrup]

Your honour, you see this man right here? Yeah, this one? He is baby, no cap.

I found an excuse to draw this boy, and I rAN WITH IT!! So glad I decided to take art as an elective this year lol, it's thanks to those classes I get to draw more during this time and we live for that in this house 👌

Anyway, this is Bonic!! He belongs to @crabbng, who is an absolute precious person (I've known them for two weeks, but I've already decided to lay my life down for them and their content- it's just good, heart melting stuff they have over on their blog, please go check them out and support them :")). He belongs to their series called "Kings of Sorts" and so far, it's g r e a t. If I ever get the time, I'll draw Hana too because we need a match-- Baby will appear too :DD

Now back to other school things- hah-

Edit: I was about to go to sleep when I realised I wrote "King of Sorts" rather than "Kings of Sorts" under his name and I feel stupidddd- I changed it on the drawing but it's late and I can't be bothered to change it- fffffffff-

#kings of sorts #kos #king of my heart #goddamn #idk what was going on during the process of this #but i kept zoning oit and forgetting what i was doing so by the time i looked down on my paper #it didn't register that i drew what was on it and just cried over how cool he was #and this happened several times lolol #but i mean he is really c o o l #and i can't wait for more :"))) #love to crabbng 💕💕💕💕 #thank you for gracing us with this amazing story and the amazing characters 💕 #i am e m otio nalll #u gh #💕💕💕💞💕💞💕💞💞💕💞💕💞💕💕💞💞💕💞💞💕💞💕💞💕💞💕💞💕💞💕💞💕💞 #syrup draws #actually posting for once damnnn #bonic

[glitteringcoffee]

The Life and CRIMES of Scrooge McDuck

Ok so ... hear me out

I liked the new Ducktales episode (the one I was extremely looking forward to since the title was revealed) and a few small parts were outstandingly good BUTTT...

... it was not what I expected at all. The comic freak in me really wished for a few great refrences of the Don Rosa masterpiece ~The Life and Times of Scrooge McDuck~ LITERALLY THE SOURCE WHERE THE EPISODE TITLE COMES FROM and also we gotta talk about Scrooge a bit

Of course Scrooge’s character (even if he is portrayed a lot more “heroic” than he actually is) and a lot of other things in the whole series are in connection with this comic but I still expected more classic authentic comic Scrooge flashbacks for this episode. If it would have had a different title to start with, I probably wouldn’t even begin to complain about it that much.

Aside from that my personal wish of a Klondike Goldie flashback died (I really wanted that, I even made an animation, come onnn) and she literally sued him at least once already ...

... still don’t know how they just skipped over that golden opportunity ...

Also, get that they didn’t include his ACTUALLY BIGGEST CRIME from the comic where he swindled and burned down a whole village ... no joke - he had devil horns ...  Also what he said to his sister here reminds me of what he told Magica: “Looks to me like your family is holding you back”

If you ask me, Don Rosa’s Scrooge McDuck will always be superiour to the DT17 version. HIS DEVELISH DECISIONS HAD A LASTING EFFECT ON HIM THAT CHANGED HIM. Yes, his actions in the DT17 version are bad too but what did he do? He was “truly sorry”, that’s it?? I’m not complaining about Scrooge being a terrible person BUT ABOUT HOW THEY PRETTY MUCH JUST BRUSHED IT OFF.

ALSO: SCROOGE MCDUCK WAS NEVER MENT TO BE A HERO WITH A SHINING HALO OR SOMETHING

...it haunted him for years to come...

But in the end it was a good episode (even if I really think they should have taken a completely different approach with it) It had a heartwarming Sharpie / Louie development, nice flashbacks, a very interesting side of Scrooge and POE DE SPELL (Can Magica find him in the finale pleaseee???? I really feel bad for her even if she was utterly heartless to that village ... and the story of how he became a crow ... damnnn ... that’s gonna be another post tho, maybe even a drawing ... don’t know yet)

So to close this little rant of a comic lover on a positive note, have some Scrooge screenshots: (loved the fact that he wore the Outlaw Scrooge McDuck outfit btw)

#not what i expected #ducktales 2017 #duck comics #the life and times of scrooge mcduck #don rosa #the life and crimes of scrooge mcduck #scrooge mcduck #glittering goldie #goldie o'gilt #poe de spell #magica de spell #NR talks #dt17 #dt spoilers #ducktales #duckverse

[reminiscingtonight]

I am so glad you reblogged that director's cut post bc I've been waiting for a chance like this. I am going to need your commentary on Last Kiss. Yes, it was posted forever ago, but it's still very much relevant today bc every once in a while I'll remember it and spiral into sadness. Kind of like I do whenever I watch Hawkeye and they mention Natasha. (You should probably study for your exams too, I suppose, bc priorities or whatever it is the adults say these days)

Ahhhh yes. Last Kiss. How could I forget about that story?

First commentary I have about this: It was only supposed to be one part. I talked about it in my author's note section, but I really just misread the prompt and missed the main part the requester asked for. So I wrote part 2 as a way to make up for that. Who knew everyone was going to keep asking for more parts?

Okay. Now onto the story.

I just remember having so much fun writing that first part (the part in italics). What I had basically done was write the ending of the story first. And then from there, I grabbed lines and mushed them together as the opening scene. I had so much fun picking and choosing which lines to combine in order to make the beginning very ominous. To me, mixing the italics and normal texts at the end just really added to the punch in the gut that was needed to tie everything up.

The airport scene. YIKES. I have no idea how long it took me to actually finish writing that part but I can tell y'all that it took a very very very long time.

The reader needed a best friend. If I need a best friend character I usually use Natasha if it's a Wanda x Reader fic. Why did I use Tony as the best friend? Because I needed the reader and Wanda to go to a party of some sort. That was the only reason why 😂

I'm rereading the story as I'm writing this commentary and DAMNNN what the fuck was I on. I'm reading it and going "wtf, why are the time jumps so freaking long." I faintly recall wanting to fill in those breaks with more scenes so the jumps weren't that far apart in time, but if I'm being honest, I think I just got burnt out and called it quits when I had the big parts all written out.

I fucking sobbed while writing the break up. I will willingly admit that. Sometimes the angst hurts me to write it as much as it hurts y'all to read it.

"You had everything planned out. But you never planned on Wanda changing her mind."  → this line!! This line is something I had planned since the beginning of the fic. Ignoring the fact that I misread the request, when I was listening to this song to write it, I just knew I had to add a line about someone changing their mind. The whole story was basically written around this one line

Okay, now that I'm done with the commentary, you might be wondering: "when the fuck will you finish part 6?????" It's alright, I ask myself this every time I open my drafts as well.

Here's where I'm at right now. I have the barebones directional outline of what happens in the story completely done. That part's about 1k. What do I have actually finished? The letter Wanda wrote to the reader (the one she ends up leaving in their old apartment). That's about it.

When’s the eta for when I’ll finish it? Answer: I honestly have no fucking idea. Life’s picked up since I originally began writing the story, so long story short, I just have other things going on in my life right now and don’t have enough time to put in enough mental power into writing a full fledge, multi-thousand word fic.

If people want, I can post my barebones outline so you get the gist of what the story is going to be about. But as for when I'll actually finish that story... it might take some time before I get to it.

Ask Me For A Director’s Commentary

#asks #peabrain112 #Ace's friends

[browneyedhimbo]

Bad Plan

Pairing: Poe Dameron x Reader

Prompt:  “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” and “I’ll kick his ass if you want me to.”

Summary: You notice Poe’s been acting a little off lately and it’s time to find out why

Warnings: slight angst if you squint, flufff, language, mentions of someone almost dying, mutual pining

Word Count: 1.5k

A/N: Based off this ask. Thank you to whoever requested!! Sooo it’s like 3am and I’m finally posting this...there might be some grammar errors. Anywho, hope you enjoy! 《MASTERLIST 》

Poe had been back from his mission a few days already and he was acting differently. He would hardly look at you, barely talk to you anymore, and would find some excuse to leave the room if you were already there.

At first it kind of pissed you off, you were one of his best friends. But after day 3 you started getting worried. You would ask him if he was okay and he’d either reply with, “I’m fine,” or just completely blow you off. 

You tied racking your brain to remember if you had done or said something that unknowingly  made him mad or hurt, but you couldn’t come up with anything. But thinking about it, the day he landed on the hanger, he didn’t greet you with the normal bone crushing hug. He had given you a smile and walked on. 

A sigh fell from your lips, your heart felt heavy and your mind was cloudy. You missed your best friend. You chewed on your bottom lip, thinking over those two words. Best. Friend. You knew you had a huge crush on the pilot but you really tried hard to bury it deep down in order to not ruin your friendship. Was this why his cold shoulder hurt so much?

Making your way to the mess hall, you met up with Rose and Rey, acting as if nothing was bothering you. You three sat down at a table which was adjacent to the one Poe and the rest of the Black Squadron were sitting at. You laughed and smiled at the girls, trying to avoid looking in his direction. 

“Hey, is something going on between you and Poe?” Rey wasted no time in getting to the point.

“What do you mean?” You chuckled, playing dumb.

“You two used to do everything together, and now you’re not even looking at each other.” Your heart dropped to your stomach. It was true, and stars did it hurt. 

“I don’t even know anymore.” You took a sip of water, quickly scanning the room and noticing it mostly empty. 

“I’ll kick his ass if you want me too.” Rose said, causing you to choke on some water out of laughter. You shook and smiled sadly at them, your thoughts just making your heart ache even more.

You sighed before slightly leaning more towards them, careful to keep your voice low. “Ever since he got back from that mission a week ago he’s just been distant. No matter what I do he won’t even look at me.” You sighed, running a hand over your face.

Unbeknownst to you, Poe was definitely looking at you. From where he sat at the table he had a pretty good view of your side. A longing look had made its way to his face as he looked back down at his food, poking at it with a fork.

“Hey hotshot, you good?” Jessika knocked on the part of the table by his plate. 

“Of course, why wouldn’t I be?” He countered, but there wasn’t any conviction. No cocky emotion, no jokiness to it. His shoulders were slouched and his curls would slightly cover his eyes. This wasn’t their commander, this was a man who was hurting. Thus causing the group to turn their attention to their friend.

“You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” Everyone cast him a worried glance, waiting for an answer. 

“I-” he sighed, “I can’t explain it.” He gave you one last look before getting up and heading outside. The team looked at him and each other before another conversation picked up again. 

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It was late when you heard thudding against your door. You yawned and got up from bed, throwing on the nearest joggers and t-shirt you could find, wanting to look semi-decent instead of a hot mess from hell. 

Opening the door you saw there was nobody there, you groaned and were about to close the door when rapid little beeps from below startled you. You looked down and there was BB-8. A small made its way to your face as you bent down to pet at the little droid.

“Hey beebs, what’s up?” You asked, voice heavy and laced with sleep. 

“I need to tell you something about Poe.” Hints of urgency in his beeping.

“What about him?” Your mind jumped from worst case scenarios to best case within seconds, your heart hammering away in your chest.

“He almost didn’t make it. On the mission.” 

“He what?!” Your blood ran cold at the thought of almost losing him, and then started burning at the fact he didn’t tell you. The droid started towards your door, almost as a beckon to follow it. You opened your door and BeeBee started rolling towards the hanger, you following close behind. 

Upon entering, you heard clanking of metal and a drill, mumbled curses and sighs. You looked around and noted it was completely empty and mostly dark, except the part that illuminated one x-wing. And you knew exactly who it belonged to.

“POE DAMERON!” You bellowed, making him jump and a few tools fall. 

“Maker, Y/N what the hell?” He gasped, turning around to give you an irritated look. 

“Oh don’t you start with me Dameron!” You marched up to him. “You should thank your lucky stars, I don’t kill you myself!” You huffed, your anger getting the best of you.

“What are you talking about?” He practically whined, annoyance clearly radiating off him. 

“Why the kriff didn’t you tell me you almost died?” You put your hands on your hips, your steeled eyes slightly watering with unshed tears. 

“I...oh.” A silence fell over the hangar. Poe didn’t meet your eyes, his gaze glued to the floor as he tried to figure out what to say. But his mind drew a big blank. He bit his lip, eyes slowly racking up your figure. He took in your tense posture, the way your breathing was hard, how your eyes were glossy with tears. Wait, what?

“I’m sorry.” He finally let out, his voice tight, a lump growing in his throat. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I-I’m sorry I’ve been distant with you I just,” he inhaled a shaky breath, a hand running through his unruly curls. The sight broke your heart. You reached out a hand and he took it without hesitation. 

“Why’d you do it?” You whisper, afraid if you spoke too loud your voice would fail you. His eyes scanned your face before giving your hand a gentle squeeze.

“Because I...I almost, y’know died, I just...I figured being distant with you would make it easier for when the day actually came.” He looked down again sheepishly, tears slowly rolling down his cheeks. 

“So...let me get this straight.” You cleared your throat, your own tears cascading down. “The best way you thought of dealing with almost dying was to be cold and distant with me, so that in the unfortunate event you do die, it wouldn’t hurt me as much?” His curls bopped as he nodded his head. 

“Well, when you put it that way…” he trailed, meeting your eyes. 

“You do realize it'd hurt me no matter what. Right.” He nodded again and you felt the lump in your throat tighten. There was a beat of silence before he opened his mouth again. 

“What’s going to happen to us?”

“What do you mean?” You tried to sound confused but failed miserably. 

“Don’t play dumb Y/N/N, I know I’m not the only one who noticed there was something else there.” He squeezed your hand again, and you felt your heart lurch in your chest. A small smile made its way to your face, tears blurring your vision. 

“I thought...I, but I thought,” you tumbled over your words. The possibility of Poe liking you back had never once crossed your mind. To say you were stunned was an understatement.

“You thought what, that I wouldn’t like you back? That I wouldn’t fall in love with you?” Your mind completely froze and went into overdrive at the same time. 

“Did-did you just,” you point at him. A boyish smile makes its way to lips as he runs his free hand through his hair.

“Yeah.” He bit his lip, a blush creeping its way up his neck and settling on his cheeks. “Does this mean I can kiss you?” He asks so softly if you weren’t paying attention you might’ve missed it.

“I’ve honestly been dying to hear you ask that.” You smiled so wide your cheeks were starting to hurt. 

“So..that’s a yes?” He chuckled, always enjoying teasing you. 

“Yes that’s a yes!” You giggled. The interlaced your fingers and brought his other hand to cup your cheek, pressing a slow yet loving kiss to your lips. You felt a flutter in your chest and smiled into the kiss, unable to contain your happiness. 

“This doesn’t change the fact that I’m mad at you for almost dying.” You said breathlessly as he pulled away. 

“I’ll make it up to you. I promise,” he smiled that charming bashful smile and pecked your lips once again. And he kept to his promise, making it up to you in more ways than one.

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[jaegerboob]

WIP ROUNDUP!!

i was tagged by @trashpocket​ (hey bae ;)) and since im lonely here on tumblr and have no one but the void to yell at, i won’t be tagging anyone :((

okay let’s start off with my published WIPS lol i have quite a collection and boy do i regret posting most of these, but anyway that’s here’s my hot girl shit

"i’ll figure it out with a little more time” - (if u knew me at my thai BL phase no u didn’t :)) anyways this was a supposed to be a pretty short fic that features an oblivious Sarawat not knowing how to navigate his feelings towards Tine and Tine being an equally giant dumbass. their school is hosting a school dance and Sarawat’s emotionally constipated ass doesn’t know how to SPEAK and just ASK Tine to go w/ him. i swear i might be the author of this story but i also get mad at these fuckers

“we’re boyfriends?” - ah yes another Thai BL fic, i will admit. i have NO idea where to take this story lmao. i still wanna finish it tho cuz i hate disappointing ppl. the fic starts with Ae and Pond making a dumb bet so Pond will stop jerking off in their shared room and promises that he won’t do that as long Ae dates someone random and based off of Pond’s choosing. sweet bby Pete wanders into their campus accidentally  and gets picked. Ae does the deed and tells Pete they’re dating. Ae thinks that Pete and Pond are scheming to make his life a living hell but lo and behold Pete has actually fallen in love with him (heheheh) 

“i wanna ruin our friendship” - hello lgbtq+ community :). we all know where this fuckin title is from don’t be sneaky. so here’s my KilluGon college fic. I initially wrote this like two years ago and uploaded it on wattpad lmaooo then i edited it and posted on ao3 and once again i have no idea where to take this (ive forgotten what my original idea for this was lol) so basically Killua and Gon are really close friends and Gon is sortof a player in this AU idk why khdkadha but anywayz all of Gon’s exes have left him bc they’re jealous of Killua but Gon would never pick his current S/O over him so HAAA. it all goes to shit tho when Retz decides to trick Gon to taking her back for the school dance and idk what path to go for T_T 

AIGHT now for my UNPUBLISHED WIPS buckle up yall this is a LOT. all the titles are WIPS so that’s why theyre iffy lol

“pussy talented”- (don’t mind the title lmao i just wanted a cat pun in there somewhere) basically, Bokuto is a firefighter and Akaashi an editor. They work near each other and Bokuto often visits Kuroo, who works with Akaashi. Ofc Akaashi falls in love at first sight but then he overhears that he has a "Kenma" waiting for him at home. Akaashi assumes that he's probably Bo's boyfriend and then leaves him alone, making Bo confused as hell. Little that he knows that Kenma is actually a grumpy calico cat.

“killugon flower shop AU” - Wing owns a flower shop and Killua helps out with Zushi along with Alluka out of boredom and one day Alluka asks Killua to help out with her client then he meets Gon and is immediately smitten until Gon says that he's looking for something that he can give to a girlfriend (it was actually Ging's request lol), lots of misunderstanding, Killua being too shy to ask the handsome stranger out and Alluka and Zushi being done with his shit 

“rice isn’t the only thing getting crushed here” - Osamu falls in love with one of his most loyal costumers—Akaashi and he thinks he might just have a shot at it until one day while Akaashi is ordering a bunch of riceballs, Bokuto Koutaro of Japan's National Volleyball team enters the restaurant and sweeps Akaashi of his feet, unexpected angst and a generous helping of unrequited pining :)) dw this fic can go two ways: Bokuto is just Akaashi's best friend who he hasn't seen in months or b. Bokuto is actually Akaashi's fiance maybe i’ll write both endings heehee

“killua is sad and gets lovebombed” - while staying in Whale Island, Killua thinks he that he doesn't deserve Gon and tries to leave him while he's asleep but his plan is stopped when Gon wakes up and they both end up revealing their true feelings for each other

“excuse to write charles getting fucked by two delicious men” - Erik and Charles have been in a relationship for years now and basically fell out of love so when Erik gets promoted and has to move, Charles agrees and so they break up. Charles turns to Logan (who harbors a giant crush on Charles) for companionship and sleep together once. Logan says it was an accident but Charles wants more and they establish a FWB situation of sorts since Charles isn't ready yet. But then Charles gets into an accident and can't remember what happened the past year and a half so he still thinks he's with Erik. Meanwhile, Erik is living a luxurious yet empty life and when he gets the call from Raven about Charles' situation, he immediately goes back running.

“killua in whale island” - KilluGon are like 20-ish and Killua visits Whale Island and Ging just happens to be there as well. Killua thinks about how even though Gon and Ging are near identical, Gon just looks so much more handsome. (probs just a oneshot) 

 “another horny cherik fic” - Charles is a demon who was accidentally summoned when Raven, Hank and Ororo uses Erik's blood to perform a demon summoning ritual (as a joke) they didn't know it would actually work so now Charles is stuck with Erik because the human absolutely refuses to sell his soul

“IwaOi overboard AU” - Oikawa is a rich pretty boy and Iwa a college dropout who works at his uncle's repair shop with his younger brother Tobio and cousin Kyoutani ( both 5 yrs old). One day he gets called over to fix one of Oikawa's cars and after a failed and disastrous encounter with a drunk Oikawa, Iwa leaves the mansion fuming. Later in the day, it's discovered that Oikawa got in a car crash that took away his memories and since Oikawa apparently lives alone, he has no one to get him. not until Iwa comes ofc and with a malicious and vengeful intent, he tells Oikawa that they're dating and live together in his crappy apartment

“dancer Akaashi” - Akaashi is a dancer, Osamu is a bartender at the bar he works at and has also been in love with Akaashi for the past two years. He doesn't confess since he knows Akaashi doesn't like romance but then enters a bright eyed cheery Bokuto who sweeps the unreachable Midnight Moon off of his feet, bokuaka but im leaning towards bokuosaaka since akaashi deserves two boyfriends

“watch me be poetically horny for Akaashi Keiji” - Akaashi is a vampire and Osamu, a skilled artist. Akaashi posing nude and delighted at how beautifully Osamu portrays him. Osamu says otherwise. 

Cherik College AU - drift by great gable.... late teens cherik... Erik being a misanthropic horny bastard and Charles a snarky piece of shit.... they get paired up for 7 minutes in heaven... turns out Charles has been ogling him for a while now..  hmmmm,,,.,. ( i wrote this when i was drunk and my og draft is too long so take this instead lolz) 

“ BokuAka (NSFW) ” - Bokuto pushing off a guy who tried to hit on Akaashi while they're at a club. Akaashi gets so turned on he immediately drags Bokuto to the bathroom where he gets his facefucked in one of the bathroom stalls or Akaashi getting his face fucked in a dirty alley at the back of a bar after Bokuto gets into a fistfight.

“KuroKen (NSFW)  ” -Kenma does top during sex but but he's just really lazy to put in the effort 

aight that’s it oh damn i just now realize how much i have T-T bruhhhhhhh and this isn’t even all of them damnnn 

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[anime-apparently]

Hello, may I request both a female and male ( to be matched with, if that's alright to ask for) matchup please and thank you for Food wars . LINK -  The first part is shortships (.) tumblr (.) (com) (without the parentheses). You can take as much time as you need to, I don’t mind being patient & waiting.

I match you with...

NAKIRI ALICE

- Alice took interest in you upon seeing you around a lot in her classes

- she may act childish but she sees through people really well

- she keeps on bugging you to be her friend (and honestly she flirts a lot but you never notice it huhu) and soon you give in

- there are tons of moments when she'll scold you on blending in with people and trying to act the way others do

- she hates that you say you're fine even if you aren't and she hates that you think people hate you if you act as you are

- so she slowy helps you out your shell

- she's surprisingly good with handling occasional anxiety attacks

- you two share the perfectionist attitude and it takes Ryo to stop you both once you two decide to perfect a dish

- she's so happy when you start being really comfortable around her (it took a couple months) and would often send Ryo away to spend time with you

- Kurokiba Ryo kinda scares you but he's a good friend too

- both of you get bored easily so i can imagine weird trips and activities

- you two match a lot- both of you are stubborn too and while you have the temper, Alice can control hers so she's like your anger management counselor

- you normally are more distracted than her and she gets grumpy when you get distracted and not pay attention

- it was by the second year that you two got together and it was Ryo who got you two together

- holy shit you didn't expect Ryo to give you a pep talk but he did, he asked you to put your worries aside and what others would say and put your happiness first

- Alice was the one who confessed (she had been confessing since last year but you can't really pick up the signs)

- she got annoyed (jealous *cough) in one of your rants about how your cat did something and you weren't paying attention at the dish she's serving so she just slammed her lips to yours

- "See you're a good kisser! That means you'll be a good girlfriend! Bye, Ryo-kun!" *proceeds to drag you to a five star restaurant for a date*

- she teaches you how to speak in Danish and you just fall more uwu

- the amount of romance novels she had recommended to you tho

- it's surprising to you that she knows how to play videogames but when you saw her and Ryo playing Mario Kart once you understood she knew more than should be for a Nakiri

- your sarcastic side is something she treasures a lot like the burn from you like damnnn "did you hit your head when your mom held you? Oh wait, she probably didn't." fuck when you said this to Erina's dad (albeit under your breath) she just burst out laughing

- she takes great joy seeing you be clumsy because despite her childishness she's still a Nakiri who's probs perfect in everything so she's not a clutz

- she enjoys seeing you tongue tied especially if she flirts with you "Hey, that top doesn't look good on you. I think I'm the top that would look good on you." "Alice- I- aaugjnskvfjdnz."

- you get insecure about you and her's relationship because of Ryo but she assures you that she belongs to you only

- you also get insecure what would people think of your relationship

- once there was a student who brought up your sexuality and Alice snapped (she made out with you in front of everyone thaz hot)

- Ryo is insanely protective of you two especially on dates (once -actually a lot of times- when you two had a rare PDA moment, he glared at everyone who tried to even look the slightest bit disgusted)

- she pushes you to think of yourself first before others

- she's a really sweet girlfriend who brings out the best in you

- you two really go well together and you're a power couple

I match you with...

YUKIHIRA SOMA

- this boy i swear asdfghjkl

- he doesn't really know how to read a mood so he'll just randomly pair up with you and talk up a storm

- he makes you panic because there are times where he's really messy and your OCD just kicks in

- but he's the sweetest boy

- you two get in trouble a lot for being distracted in class

- he's really persistent in being friends so after a few months, you give in

- like Alice, he urges you to be more open and to be more outgoing

- he doesn't mind that you're a human chameleon and he understands it takes time

- he's really patient with you and always thrive to make sure you're comfortable

- he laughs it off if you're temper goes up and calms you down

- you two didn't get together until end of second year

- you're both dense in romance anyways and it hurts to watch you both acting all sweet and shrug it off as a friendly thing

- "what type of friend cuddles on the same bed and sleeps spooning especially if you are opposite genders" is what yuki said and honestly she's right

- it started when Soma once saw you having a panic attack and now he occasionally slips in your bed to sleep with you and make sure you're safe in his arms

- he likes seeing you tongue tied and would often tease you about it

- he likes flirting with you too and see your red face (but poor boy is probably not that good with it)

- "you know, Peter Pan said if I think of all the pretty, beautiful things I'd be able to fly. But why is it that when I thought of you I fell for you instead?"

- *cue you turning red and tripping over your words but you managed to blurt out* "did you just call me ugly or told me you fell for me?"

- in this tho you are the one who confessed, it was the simple typical confession and he's so relieved (apparently he's crushing on you too)

- you help him create weird dishes especially when you're bored and you both laugh if it tastes really bad

- there are a lot of game nights

- he doesn't really like books so you're probs the one reading while he goes and just watch you read peacefully and scrunch up your nose in distate at parts where the characters annoy you (he finds this really cute)

- this little shite probably brings spiders to show you just to scare you

- he's your pillar to lean on and he knows perfectly when to intervene if you get frustrated trying to perfect something

- you are both sarcastic and quirky so there are a lot of childish banter

- he laughs at you if your clutz side kick in before helping you up

- there are really a lot of experimental dishes you two create

- while he's impulsive at times, you tend to carefully weigh out the options so it stresses you if he accepts/initiates a food war

- he breaks your insecurities and is a really supportive boyfriend

- he always says "you are the best girlfriend in any plane of existence."

- like Alice, he might be childish but he's not ignorant

- he instantly knows if something is wrong, he makes sure your mental health is stable, he helps you express yourself more, he actually broke your habit of saying "i'm fine" when you're not

- he can see if a guy tries to flirt with you (apparently he's not daft when it's about you) and he scares them off

- he's a really caring boyfriend and knows when to cheer you up

- your fears slowly disappear because of him

- because with him you know he won't abandon you

- your relationship is built on trust and honestly you two are a power couple

A/N: Hope you enjoy it! I'm so sorry it's late but thank you for your patience. I really have the match ups lines up in my notes but I tend to procrastinate in posting them.

#food wars #food wars x reader #shokugeki no soma #yukihira soma x reader #nakiri alice x reader #one shot #imagine #match up

[sunsetfanfics]

All I Want

(Jadon Sancho x Reader)

Jadon imagine where he really likes you but knows you won’t be with him because of his fboy lifestyle and you always joke about it and he tried to get you or something along those lines please if you can x

Warning: a bit of harsh language

You drag yourself into the break room, feet aching. Tom, your coworker, watched in amusement as you plopped down into the chair across from him, a sigh escaping your lips.

"Tired?"

You look up to see him smile, which you can't help but reciprocate.

"A bit, yeah."

"Only an hour left now, then you get to go home." He replies, to which you nod.

"Yeah, only an hour. You say that as if it'll magically make me feel better."

He shrugs. "It should. You've already worked for seven hours. Plus you have off tomorrow."

"I guess, can you get me a water?"

He chuckles and nods, getting up and walking over to the mini fridge in the corner.

"So, do you have any news on you-know-who?" He asks, receiving a groan in response.

"I think he knows, to be honest. It's not like I'm blowing him off or anything, but his lifestyle just,, isn't for me."

Tom nods, walking back over to hand you an ice cold bottle.

"Thank you." You mutter, receiving a nod in response.

"Well, do you like him?" He questions, sitting back down.

You twist off the cap and don't hesitate to take a swig of cold water.

Once you feel somewhat replenished, you put the bottle on the ground and twist the cap back on.

"To be honest,,," you pause, "I do. I really really do. I just,, I wish he wasn't such a fuckboy. Because underneath that layer is a really kind individual.

"I would date him if he didn't play this,, character. I just-"

But you didn't get the chance to finish as the bell rang outside.

You threw your head back, "fuck my life!"

Tom giggled as he watched you stand up and hurry back out to the desk.

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As the last hour wound down, there wasn't much to do, but you still managed to keep yourself busy.

Once your shift finished, you went back into the break room, saying goodbye to the few coworkers that were in there on your way out.

Nobody knew about this whole 'situation' with Jadon except for a few people, each of whom you trusted with every fibre of your being. You trusted them to keep this within the group, knowing that if it got out your name along with 'Jadon Sancho's girlfriend' would be everywhere.

As you walked out to your car, you got a text from Tom.

'Did you see his new post on ig?'

You instinctively rolled your eyes. What new flex would it be this time?

'I'll look at it when I get home' you replied as you dug your keys out of your pocket and unlocked your door.

On the whole ride home, you couldn't help but think about him. Even if you tried to think of something else, your mind would somehow twist whatever you were thinking about to always go back to him.

Pulling into the driveway, you had finally managed to stop thinking about him, since you were now thinking about what to eat for breakfast, seeing as it was only 7:18am.

You turned the car off and opened the door, practically hauling yourself out of the driver's seat.

Today was the most difficult 8-hour shift you've done to date, which meant you were beyond worn out.

Your sore feet somehow carried you into the house where, no surprise, your best friend was nowhere to be found.

You both typically worked opposite shifts, so you rarely saw each other, but sometimes you could catch each other just as one was returning home and the other was leaving.

Though it defeated the whole purpose of owning a house together, it was kinda nice to have the space all to yourself after a tough shift.

As you sat down, rather forcefully, on the couch, you flipped your shoes off and grabbed the tv remote sitting on the coffee table. You fully stretched out as you turned the tv on.

This was the routine you had grown accustomed to: you got home, let yourself relax for a bit, then got to work doing something else for a while, then went to bed.

As you pressed the button to turn on Netflix for perfect background noise, your phone went off.

You ignored it, deciding to wait till you had the show set up to check it.

DING! DING! DING!

Notification after notification piled up until you couldn't take it anymore.

You angrily dug your phone out of your pocket and looked at it, the screen lit up with even more texts from your coworker group chat.

You roll your eyes and groan, shifting your attention back to getting The Great British Baking Show on.

Once it started playing, you finally read through the texts.

'Y/N!'

'HAS ANYTHING HAPPENED WITH JADON'

'PLS TELL US'

'omg look at his latest post'

'DAMNNN'

'yall did y/n look @ the post'

'idk but 👀👀'

'he looks like a fboy to me tbh lmaooo sorry Y/N'

You couldn't help but laugh at the last one.

Switching to instagram, you check to see what all the fuss is about.

The post in question? No surprise, a few photos of him shirtless on his friend's expensive yacht.

You roll your eyes, "my god Jadon."

Despite posting classic fuckboy photos on instagram, you couldn't help but get a few butterflies in your stomach.

You double tap on the photo, then go back to the groupchat, only for a new text to pop up.

Jadon ⚽🔥 hey 😛

Another eye roll.

'hey Jadon'

'I saw you liked my recent 👀👀'

Uh oh. This won't end well.

'yeah'

'do you like what you see? 😜'

There it is.

'eh, ig. cr7 has better abs, though.'

'sure, for now.'

'right. I'll hold you to that.'

'wish you would hold something else, if you know what I mean 😉'

Jesus Christ.

'haha. what were you even drinking in that photo?'

'something exotic 🍹'

'yeah, it looks it.'

'haha yeah. anyways, wyd?'

There it is. The holy grail of fuckboys. The three letters everyone dreads. Oh no. Oh god.

'relaxing, I just got home from work.'

'really? it's almost 8 in the morning.'

'mhm. I worked 11p-7a. I'm tired.'

'are you still working @ the hotel we met at?'

'mhm'

'niceee. I'll be in town tm if you wanna meet up'

'yeah? who's the new lucky girl you'll bring this time?'

'no one. it'll only be us.'

'right. that's what you said last time.'

'this time will be different. I promise. you off tm?'

'yeah'

'ok. meet me at our café.'

'I have things to do too, you know, it's not all ab you Jadon.'

'damn, ok. well, if you decide to come, I'll be there at 12:30.'

'ok.'

'see you then, boo 😘'

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12:15, you showed up early, as per usual. You were sitting at the table you and Jadon would sit at every time you came, aka the closest to the window.

12:30. You were watching out the window, not taking your eyes away. He was nowhere to be seen.

12:45. He still wasn't there. Why were you even surprised?

1:00. Still no sign of him. You were almost finished with your coffee, and you were getting restless.

1:15. Everyone who had been there when you arrived were long gone, all the tables filled with new customers. You probably looked pathetic.

1:30. An hour after he said he would meet you, and you were fed up. Why did you even bother?

1:35. Nothing. No new messages or anything. You were done.

You walked out, trying your best to conceal your anger. You should be used to this. You should've known. Over an hour of your life wasted.

Just as you get back to your car your phone goes off. With a quick glance, you can tell it's Jadon.

'hey! sorry, something came up. can you do next week? I wanna make it up to you.'

You couldn't believe your eyes. You wasted over an hour,,, for that.

'no, I can't. I'm actually busy next week, and the week after that, & every week for the rest of my life.'

'haha, thats funny. what day can you do next week?'

'I just told you, I'm busy. I just wasted an hour of my life that I could've used doing literally ANYTHING else just for you to say that something came up,, & it was YOUR fucking idea!

'I like to think I'm a patient person, but that just sealed the deal. my god Jadon, I knew you were a fuckboy, I mean, we both joked ab it, but I didn't think it was this bad.

'stop dragging me out like this. just say you're using me for sex and go. I'm sick of getting my hopes up just for you to let me down again. I'm over it, and I'm over you. please fuck off Jadon'

It was marked as read the second it was sent. The three dots would pop up, then disappear, then pop up again. It went on for 2 minutes.

The final result?

'I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you.'

You left him on read.

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The next day you were back at work for a 3pm - 11pm shift. You had told everyone what happened, and they were angry and upset for you. A few were tempted to text him, but you told them that it would only escalate the already tense situation.

Around 10pm, you were winding down. There was only an hour left in your shift, and you had had a relatively slow day for once. And it seemed like it was going to be a normal shift.

You were sitting in the break room with some of your coworkers, watching a rerun of a golf game which you were, for some reason, invested in.

The bell rang outside, and although you were a bit upset to have to abandon the game, you weren't that upset, considering this was the slowest day you've had in a while.

As you walked out to greet the patron, your heart stopped and your stomach dropped.

It was Jadon, standing there with a white box and a teddy bear.

You glared at him, and a part of you filled with hatred, but the other part gushed at his gesture. He really was going to be the death of you.

"Hey, y/n. I'm really sorry about yesterday. I didn't mean to keep you waiting for over an hour. The reason why I didn't come was because I wanted to get you this."

He paused, gently setting the small box down on the desk, "I tried to get in quickly and pick this up, but the line was so long, I wanted to come and give it to you, but I figured I had kept you waiting long enough, so I called it off."

You're not convinced, but you wanna be. Every part of you wanted to forgive him,, but your stubbornness wouldn't let you.

He sees your shifty glance and sets the bear on the counter as well.

"I'm so so so sorry. I know I fucked up, and you have every right to be angry at me. But even if you never wanna see me again, can you please open it? Just for my sake?"

"If it'll make you leave faster." You respond, intending to sound bitter, but instead sounding shaky.

"I will. I know I can't keep promises, but this one I will. If you don't want to talk to me anymore, I will respect that."

You bite your lip and nod, looking down at the box and undoing the red ribbon. It looked very professional and well done.

As you lift the top off, your eyes widen and fill with tears. You can't help but slap a hand over your mouth.

Inside were all of the polaroids you've taken, ranging from the first time you hung out together, to a few months ago. There were ones of him playing football, and of you in various places doing a gesture that soon became an inside joke. You used to travel together all the time, you miss those days all the time.

The light blue camera used to take all of these photos was inside as well.

Jadon watched as you looked through the photos, a shy smile forming on his face.

"The camera still works, if you want to try it out." He said, voice barely above a whisper.

"Jadon, I-" you hesitated, and for the first time in your life, you were truly speechless.

"There's a, uh, there's a note on the bear." He muttered, looking down and scratching his neck.

You looked at him, and couldn't help but smile a bit. Only Jadon would do this.

Your attention turns to the bear, and sure enough, there was a note attached to its paw. Gently removing the handwritten note stuck to the paw, you read it carefully, clinging on to every word.

'Y/N,

I'm sorry if I hurt you yesterday. And I'm sorry if you feel that all we are is friends with benefits. I've always wanted more with you, but was too afraid to act.

I put up this fboy facade hoping I would attract someone who would be into,, that. But the one thing I didn't take into account was if I fell for someone.

Because my whole life changed when I met you.

I kept this act up, thinking you would be into it and fall for me, but that's not what happened. In fact, when the exact opposite happened, I was shocked.

Nobody liked the real me. That's why I started doing this, because that's what brought people in. And it worked, because it seemed as though everyone else fell for it, everyone except the one person I wanted.

And if I'm being honest, let's talk about the elephant in the room: we both know that I've loved you from the moment we met in this exact building 3 years ago.

You're all I've ever wanted. You're all I will ever want. I'm in love with you.

I'm willing to do whatever it takes to be with you, but it's up to you on whether or not you'll accept.'

A grin appeared on your face as tears streamed down your cheeks.

You looked up at him, a soft yet nervous expression on his face.

You came out from around the counter and threw your arms around him, burying your face in his neck.

"I'll take that as a yes, then?" He joked, making you laugh.

You look up at him. "On one condition."

"And what's that?"

"Stop being such a douche."

"Done. I don't need the facade when I have what I want."

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thanks for reading! this was my first footballer fic & im actually really proud of it! requests are open, and feel free to use one of the prompts I posted before!

this was for you anon, hope you liked it ;)

#jadon sancho #jadon sancho fanfiction #jadon sancho fanfic #jadon sancho fic #football #soccer #football fic #football fanfic #soccer fanfic #borussia dortmund #dortmund #fanfiction #fanfic #mine

[whenthefansattack]

ewww! It’s a vent post!

god damn it man. I have so much I should be doing but I can’t bring myself to do any of it! I always wait until the last minute for everything because that’s the only way I have been able to get myself to do things.

I feel like some of it stems from the fact that once I start truly thinking about my future everything becomes REAL and it’s terrifying!

I want to write an amazing story. I want to read whole books in a day. I want to get back into playing bass. I want to do so much but I never actually have the motivation!

I haven’t felt real in years and it’s bullshittttt. Man I didn’t fucking ask for this. It feels like the past few years have been a massive waste of time because I have been trying to sort out my mental shit. And that is important. It is the most important thing and it’s what I NEED to focus on but how can I when I feel all of this pressure!

Idk maybe I am just really tired right now and that’s why all of this is spewing out. It is just very fucking annoying and I feel very incompetent and worthless sometimes.

I know I’m not. I know I am doing the best I can but goddd damnnn itttttt I’ve been dealing with this shit for years and I have no answers. I have no solutions!

I don’t know how to describe it but it’s like I am constantly disconnected from my surroundings?? Like my brain can’t process what I am seeing well enough or something??? Things don’t seem real I guess! And I’m tired of it!

I’m probably gonna delete this tomorrow but hello

#vent #mental health vent

[thirstybtsthoughts]

Girl I feel you on your thoughts about BTS getting that good good and jacking off. Honestly the thought of them jacking off is so hot?? Like god damn. And people who don’t think they actually get pussy/dick are delusional. Like have you ever heard of a band not having groupies??? Like not possible. I just think about it because I’d rather it be me...🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵

YES YES YES!!!! I guess now I should admit that I think about them jacking off sometimes and the thought of it is super hot!!!

Like... Jungkook’s tattooed hand wrapped around his cock working furiously to get himself off... his head thrown back, mouth open, trying to keep himself quiet but letting a few moans slip from his throat ...omg 🥵🥵🥵🥵

Also Namjoon has such gorgeous hands and he posted a pic once of him holding his mic - it looked like how his hand might look wrapped around his dick 🥵. Lemme tell you... that’s all I thought of! Like imagine he takes a break in his studio, making sure his door is locked and then putting on some porn (as we know he watches) to jack off to damnnn 💦

Also isn’t Yoongi’s studio soundproof? Imagine what could go down in there ooffff🥵

Yep they totally get laid, I’d also love it to be with me (ofcourse!). I hope the people who get that bangtan dick appreciate how good they have it!

#bts #anon #thirst asks

[dontyouhearmehowling]

oh my god. Ok so I just scrolled through your blog and my heart hurts because there is so much love and just so much stuff I can relate too and I just ahhh damnnn it I cant even but like can I please have the story of your relationship with this girl your with? please? i'm a hopeless romantic I feel too much I love so hard my own love life is complicated but i know the kind of love you talk about thats exactly how i love the love of my life too so yours is a story I need to hear

ok so. it all started on April 31st, 2018. i reblogged one of those ask games and she sent me an emoji that said “i’m too scared to talk to you but i think you’re great” and i was like do it!!! and she did!!!! she texted me after i had already gone to sleep tho, so i only answered the next day. but then we talked all day. and the next. and the next. and we never ran out of things to talk about and even only knowing her for a few days i already felt comfortable enough with her to talk about anything?? it was wild. since day 1 we’ve had this connection that i’ve never had with anyone else and its my favorite thing in the world. after like a week we already had a bunch of inside jokes, something that i’d never had before, and i was already crushing on her. ok so we became very close friends like immediately, and i mostly ignored my crush on her bc i thought she didn’t like me back and usually i’d get meaningless crushes on everyone at first before i met her. but then this other girl and i started flirting and i realized i didnt like her bc i liked c too much, so i broke things off and kinda went like “oh shit this is real” and decided that i’d just stay friends with c until i eventually couldnt take it anymore and had to tell her abt my feelings bc thats how i am. anyways ok cool meanwhile i made her watch the good place on rabb.it with me which will be relevant later.

ok so fast forward to may 21st or something around that time. its time to sleep bc i have school the next day so we say goodnight, but then i guess she says something or reblogs something and i get sad bc i realize she doesnt like me back. so i make some hashtag sad posts abt yearning and then i realize i told her i was going to sleep and i didnt want her to think i didnt want to talk to her so i text her again and say like “ok i was going to go to sleep but then i got sad abt my crush” and SHE GOES “you have a crush????????” and im there like. what in the hell bc not only did i not try to hide it At All, i constantly posted about it and had an entire tag about her and i thought it was pretty obvious. so anyways i go “yes?? i thoought you knew that?? im literally always posting about it??” and she asks me to talk abt the crush and who it is. i say “just stalk the tag if u want, im going to sleep” then shes like “nO WAIT WHO IS IT” and im like. blatantly ignoring that and my heart is already beating out of my chest but she Really wants to know and then at one point i say “please dont make me answer that” so shE SAYS “you’re making me think that its me” and i say “i dont know what you want me to say” and SHE GOES “I WANT YOU TO SAY THAT ITS ME BC I HAVE A HUGE CRUSH ON YOU” so i just. die. right then and there. also yknow we talk about it and its like after 1 am and im just happier than i’ve ever been. ok so 2 days later she asks me out Officially and its great and shes the cutest gf ever and she made me feel more wanted than i’d ever felt in my entire life. then 6 days later she sends me a big big big text on tumblr and long story short (bc it was kinda personal), she would be deleting her all social media for the summer.

so she was gone. and we had only dated for a week at this point, but we’d known each other for 2 months, and i already loved her. i already knew she was the love of my life. i didnt even try to move on, i’d tell people i didnt wanna move on cuz i knew i was meant to love her. i had another blog like this that i used to talk about how much i loved and missed her (so like. exactly like this). i literally reasoned with myself that like. that happened because before i met her i was in a really bad place after a terrible relationship and i was almost giving up on finding someone who actually made me feel loved bc i thought it would never happened, so i was like “ok so i was in a really bad place, so the universe brought my soulmate a little early just for a while so that i would know i had to hold on, and when its actually time for us to be together, it will bring us to each other once again” like i actually told myself that, in those words. and yknow what? i wasnt even wrong. on july 15th she texted me from an empty tumblr with her old url and at first i literally couldnt believe it but we talked for hours and hours and i asked her what happened bc i thought she was disconnecting for the summer and she said “i was. i am. i just couldnt not talk to you anymore” and she said that she thought about me every single day, and i told her i missed her and she said she didnt text sooner bc she thought i’d be angry at her and ofc i wouldnt, i could never be angry at her and besides, she was just taking care of herself and i said i dont think i could be anything less than head over heels for for, and she said she felt the same way, but wasnt ready to be more than friends yet. but that had always been more than enough for me. just having her in my life would always be more than enough for me. so we stayed friends.

then, on august 9th i got this ask.

and she saw it after i said i was gonna go to bed (bc again, i had school the next day) and she texted me a whole thing about how that was the nicest thing anyone had ever said about her and that i should be asleep but she had to get it out of her chest and that her anxiety made it hard for her to show how much i meant to her so she was sorry if i didnt know and this would probably make no sense but she was tired of keeping it to herself bc shes the luckiest person alive for having met me and that it was gonna be so hard because shes so difficult (shes not) and her anxiety is difficult but that she literally spent every night thinking about me and of buying plane tickets to come see me so that she could be with me. then she was like “im sorry if this is uncomfortable to you and you can just ignore it but i think im in love with you and this is over text and not romantic at all (it was the most romantic night of my life) but you’re asleep (i wasnt) and we arent together but i want to be one day” and until this i was Trying to fall asleep and then i checked my phone that kept RINGING and died a thousand times over and started to answer and she sent other texts saying “i’ve never felt this way about anyone before i’m so in love with you its fucking ridiculous and this is gonna be so complicated but fuck i want this so bad / i’m sorry it took me so long / would you move to new york with me?” and i was This Close to literally fucking exploding like. how the hell was this happening how was it not a DREAM. so we talked and i obviously said i loved her too and eventually she asked me out and thats still probably the best night of my life. other highlights: “i’ve loved you way before august 9th so jot that down” and “off topic but i love you / you’re honestly my other half” and, after i said “you cant make me laugh its 2am”, she answered “i’m going to make you laugh for the rest of your life so help me god” and thats my favorite thing anyone has ever said to me probably and so far she’s kept her word.

anyways we got back together and then she told me that she never even told her friends she broke up with me??? bc that way she could keep pretending we were still together???? literally like sjdksndk imagine being this loved. i dont have to. anyways she wrote poems abt me sometimes and her christmas gift for me was gonna be a book with all her poems and she called it “what we owe to each other” because of the good place (remember how i said it’d be relevant later? its later) bc like she said that when we were watching tgp together on rabb.it thats when she realized that she Really Truly liked me like For Real. and the inscription on the book was going to be “to the girl i love / and what i owe her” and. yall. i cry. anyways one of the poems had a huge impact on us. heres the story:

and she got them but we broke up before she got to mail them to me. what happened was she had some mental health problems and she said she couldnt give me what i needed at the time but knew i’d still give her my all bc thats just how i am and she thought it wouldnt be fair so she broke things off to work on her mental health. she said she would need some time before we could be friends. the last thing we said was that we loved each other. this was in like november 2018, and we didnt talk for months. i actually tried to move on this time after a while, but it didnt take. and then i gave up for good. havent tried since. but anyways, then, on march 11th, 2019, i had my first day of college back in my home country, and we have this “pranks”/games that seniors get to do to the freshmen, and one of them required eggs, and they asked us to paint them, so i panted mine as iron man bc it was easy, but c LOVES iron man. like. LOVES. like in a Whole New Level of loving. once when we were dating she said she loved me more than tony stark and i was like. shook. like she tattooed “T.S” on her ankle after him. u get the point. she loves him very much, its adorable and endearing and i love it. anyways. so i sent her a picture of it saying like “you dont have to answer this but i made this for my university and i thought you would like it” and she answered and IMMEDIATELY something clicked and we talked and talked and talked and it was never weird or awkward or uncomfortable. it never is with her. its incredible, i cant explain it. i Know shes my soulmate like thats the ONLY possible explanation for this kind of connection. its unreal. anyways. we became friends again! all was well.

then one beautiful night she drunk texts me sndjkajs she sends me so many texts and says it sucks that we live so far away and that she saw my posts (in this particular case, one that said something about like. when she talked about love now, was it about someone else?) and she said that it wasnt. and then she went to sleep and i only saw the texts when i woke up and i was DYING bc we had a 4 hour difference and it’d take a while for her to wake up. when she did, we talked and she said she wasnt over me and was scared she might never be, and even though we were still gonna stay friends, it was nice to know that she still loved me. ok so fast forward a bit more and i was starting to wonder if she’d moved on again, when she finds out her best friend had a crush on her, and that conversation ends up with her saying “it was 100% platonic for me / sorry if thats weird i just wanted you to know that” and it was NOT weird it was GREAT NEWS bc i was Hella jealous of her best friend and at first i wondered if they were dating and anyways the fact that she wanted me to know that was a pretty good hint that she still had feelings for me. ngl im still somewhat jealous of h (c’s best friend), but thats just bc im an insecure lil bitch and also bc they get to go out and do stuff together that i cant do with c bc of the distance, yknow? but anyways. then she went on a graduation trip in mid to the end of june and she bought me a magnet. just. out of nowhere. i cannot stress enough how Incredibly unexpected this was. so much so that i actually convinced myself that it meant she was over me????? literally. what the fuck. anyways we named him together and coincidentally (or bc of soulmate powers. who knows) we both had the same favorite names. i still love that.

okay so then we go to july 29th, 2019. first of all theres one of my favorite interactions Ever which was like after i was venting about something and i was thanking her and i said “you’re always here for me” to which she answered “nowhere else i’d rather be” and i still think thats peak romance and i will take no criticism on this. anyways so then she sent me a poem that she wrote based on a song i’d sent her (the song i called “heaven is a place” and its the BIGGEST mood for being in love and i sent it to her bc it was how i felt about her so her writing a poem about it?? literally the best thing ever. love it) anyways it was a beautiful poem and i cried and got very emotional and kinda went too far in my compliments (aka being very obvious about my romantic feelings) and then i was like oh no sorry if i made u uncomfortable and she was like. “you have NEVER. EVER EVER EVER EVER made me uncomfortable” “you’re the only person on planet earth i am comfortably myself around” and “there’s nothing you could ever say that i wouldn’t wanna hear” and anyways it was just very good and romantic conversation even tho we were just cough cough platonic hashtag gal pals hashtag no homo ✌️ and then she was like ok wait. i need to talk to u abt something. and in short she said she was waiting for us and i was like well what are you waiting for exactly? and she was like idk?? for us to accidentally bump into each other in new york in a few years?? WHICH WAS LITERALLY WHAT I’D DAYDREAM ABOUT BACK IN JUNE 2018 BEFORE SHE CAME BACK OKAY so anyways we had a Great conversation and said i love you about a thousand times each and she decided she was gonna buy tickets to come see me. and then she dID like TWO DAYS LATER. lichrally. queen of impulsivity but in the best way possible.

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ok quick edit here cuz i forgot to say that when i found out she was coming i asked for my mom’s help to make a necklace pendant for her from scratch. my mom works with prosthetics so she has the material to make jewelry and back when c and i were dating in 2018 i had made this lil design for a necklace that had the moon and the ocean (bc duh) and i was gonna give it to her for valentines day in 2019 but we broke up before that so i didnt get the chance, but when i found out i was meeting her i knew i had to. so i made the necklace in wax, like this:

and my mom took it to her work and heated it up to melt it and keep the shape of it to fill with silver, and this was the result:

i gave it to her when she got here and she wore it while she was here and it made me so happy. ok edit over

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ok so we kept being like couple-y but not officially in a relationship bc we didnt want to make her anxiety worse. also at one point she was like “so about the ‘i love you more than the moon/ocean’ thing, since we BOTH love BOTH of the moon AND the ocean, i think its only Fair if we update our love declarations to ‘i love you more than the mocean’ bc its mix of both but thats not a word, buT its pronounced exactly like ‘motion’. therefore we should both start saying ‘i love you more than the motion’”. so now we have both the wonderful, romantic, original version, and the NOT ROMANTIC AT ALL DO U HEAR ME C??? version :) and after this day she always started with the WORST!!!!!! version, and i always started with the Only Valid Version, but we’d still answer each other’s ofc because. well. thats love i gues?? it sorta goes like this though: her: i love you more than the motion / me: i hate u / me: i literally hate u so much / me: i Also love you more than the motion

but anyways she was coming to visit me but the plane ticket wasnt for my home country it was for where i was going to university at (a new university, i was starting over) and when i first got here on this campus, i didnt have a working phone number for this country, and i wouldnt be able to access the wifi for 3 days, so i had no way of talking to her. it was TERRIBLE and i missed her more than anything in my LIFE but when i got wifi (after CRYING to the people here bc theyre the most unorganized uni ever and i was already very overwhelmed and stressed) i immediately called her and she’d sent me over 100 text messages dkfjssjks it was amazing, there were two (2) videos of her singing (which is like. objectively the best thing in the world, and the song was rlly romantic and i love it sm when she showed it to me for the first time she said it made her think abt me), a poem, AND a HUGE text with “i love you” written like. a THOUSAND TIMES. seriously i have a gif of it opening and scrolling bc it was so long that the text wouldnt show up directly on the chat screen and u have to click on it to see the rest. i’d never felt more loved in my entire life by anyone ever. anyways so then it came the day for her to get here and i had to wake up at 5 am to go get her at the airport and the uber was like $40 but who CARES it was the best day of my LIFE and i got there 20 minutes earlier bUT GUESS WHAT SO DID SHE (hashtag just soulmate things) then we facetimed the entire time while she was walking through the airport and getting her luggage and then she hung up to walk to the door where i was and we hugged for like 5 minutes and we were totally in people’s way and also almost fell but it was the best thing in the world and i never should’ve let her go. but, we had to go home, so i did. and we spent 4 days together and im not gonna go into details bc this is already too long but u can always send me another ask about her visit if ur not a coward. also i bought her a hoodie from my uni and whenever she wears it i just. die. in short, those days were the happiest i’ve ever been. this campus res had never felt like home before that friday and it hasnt again since that monday, but i swear to god, during those 4 days, this was the only place i could possibly belong.

anyways then she left and i cried for the entire uber ride home and then i cried all day. lmao. also when she was here she gave me the poetry book, the magnet, and the bracelet. still wear the bracelet every single day and i love it more than anything. but then personal stuff happened and we kinda stopped being couple-y again and we’re just friends now but before new years i asked her if she still loved me and she said yes and she said she’d tell me if it changed so ✌️✌️ im assuming it hasnt. even tho my brain is a bitch and everyday its like. today. today is the day. this is when its gonna happen. buT yknow we’ve spent months before without even talking to each other and we got through that still in love, so i mostly ignore it. and tbh i know that actually like, even if we grow apart now (god forbid, but still) we’ll find our way back to each other eventually. like, i’ve said this before and i’ll say it again: nothing, not even the universe itself, can convince me that shes not my soulmate. and even if it turns out i’m not hers, loving her is still the greatest honor i can think of.

another edit: also i started drawing recently and the first person i’ve ever finished drawing was her and also (surprise surprise @c since you’re already seeing all my feelings anyway) bc of my second drawing i almost missed the deadline for one of my midterms (which was a take-home test) bc instead of writing it i spent the entire day before the deadline finishing the drawing which was a secret valentines day gift (secret as in she didnt know it was supposed to be a gift, she thought it was just a drawing inspired by a quote that she loves) and i finished at 2 am but shes 3 hours behind so for her it was still 11 pm which MEANS it was still valentines day so it still counts, i win, lesbian rights!

#mine #l #answered #dont rb #i dont think anyone will but ​this is personal and i dont want to risk it getting out #i wanna have this bc i love telling people this story and next time someone asks i’ll just send them this post