I’m an undergraduate studying psychology. I also have ADHD (diagnosed, medicated) and very likely am autistic, or at the very least have strong autistic traits (noted by professionals).
I just feel so stupid because of my neurodiversity, or maybe I just actually am somewhat of an idiot.
I just got essentially fired from my psych lab job. “Essentially” because I’m technically allowed back but only under the premise that there’d be a plan for me to improve. Either way, I’ve been rejected from doing an honors thesis in this lab. Probably no recommendation (which I really needed).
I’ve held down a few jobs before successfully (childcare, research job) but this isn’t the first time I’ve been either fired or almost fired. It’s happened once at a camp, and now.
From what was said, it seems to be because of me being unable to learn fast enough? Even after (sometimes subtle seeming) correction? Forgetting a few things that I really tried to remember. For struggling with some lab tasks and having to ask a lot of questions that maybe I shouldn’t need to ask? There were a few times that I misunderstood a task and thought I was doing it totally correctly when I was not. As hard as I tried it seems like I didn’t remediate fast enough.
I know I should be better than this. I just don’t know why I’m not. I feel so slow and useless.
AS A STUDENT, I get really good grades, mostly A-‘s. IM NOT A SLACKER. I try so hard in all my classes, and seem to be actually competent at that.
I just want to know if there’s any successful psychologists out there that have adhd and/or autism that struggle with this, or if maybe I’m just never gonna get the hang of……. holding down a psych job? Or any job ?
I enjoy research, but I’m generally more inclined towards the clinical side. FUCK if I’m bad at this stuff, how am I ever going to do well as a clinician???? I love to delve into peoples problems, but how are people going to want to do that with someone who has trouble with social interaction ? Is psych just not meant for me? I really love psychology, and have planned on this being the foundation of my career. It really interests me, and that’s why I excel in my classes. But maybe I’ll never succeed in it professionally.