#actuallyeupd

[chemicalcarousel]

How do you know whether you have BPD or a CDD?

Also, we know you can have both and that it's common, but we wonder if we got it all wrong and that it's BPD. We've been diagnosed with EUPD impulsive type, but it was removed and changed to unspecified bipolar disorder. Our soon ex therapist has talked about CDD symptoms without using the exact terms for it, C-PTSD and mentioned BPD in a way that alluded to her suspecting it, but she doesn't like diagnostic terms because she sees them as too restrictive

We know we dissociate a lot. We know we age regress involuntarily. We know we have amnesia. We know we feel like different people to an extent and don't always have control over how we speak and act. But maybe this could be explained by BPD? And maybe also being genderfluid?

We were thinking we might have DID or P-DID, but maybe our separate personality states are more aligned with borderline parts? Idk man we have names and look different and have different ages and genders, but could that be how BPD works for some? Because I've heard pwBPD struggle with having a sense of self and might pick it up from other people or fictional characters. Idk man it's difficult because maybe our symptoms aren't really DID-like? We are dissociating too much rn to write anymore hhhhh thank you for reading and sorry if it makes 0 sense

TLDR: is there a way to tell if it's CDD or BPD?

#actuallydid #actuallycdd #actuallypdid #actuallyosdd #actuallybpd #actuallyeupd #actually did #actually cdd #actually osdd #actually pdid #actually bpd #actually eupd #actually traumatised #actually traumatized #actuallytraumatised #actuallytraumatized #ours

[disabled-kain]

Sometimes I wonder why I'm so angry. Why sometimes I feel such an incredible, burning, fiery rage at things that really should not get to me.

And then I remember that "inappropriate, intense anger" is actually a part of DSM 5 diagnostic criteria for BPD.

And then I'm like. Right. Yeah. That's why.

#kain's original posts #bpd vent #bpd #actually bpd #actuallybpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #actuallyeupd #eupd #actually eupd #emotionally unstable personality disorder #cluster b #personality disorder

[neverwillyouknow]

I just wish I could have stable emotions. Feel something for more than a half an hour. In the last 90 minutes I’ve been content, happy, sad, low, and even momentarily thought about suicide/self harm. PS: I’m totally safe, it’s just what my brain thinks about lately. I just don’t understand how I can go through all those emotions in less than two hours, likely in less than a hour actually. But as I sit here trying to figure out how to get out of the funk I now feel stuck in I don’t know. I could have a coffee or some lunch but food isn’t very appealing, and yet in 10 minutes I’ll probably want something to munch and sip on. *sigh* Nevermind emotional stability, some all together mental stability would be nice.

#right now I really understand the name EUPD they use elsewhere in the world #BPD #actuallybpd #EUPD #actuallyeupd

[bocatbpd]

recommended reading

A therapist I had a year ago, recommended Reinventing your life by Janet Klosko and Jeffrey Young. I’m just over half way through the book and I would definitely recommend it to anyone who feels trapped by their past or who seem to be repeating cycles of behaviour and are struggling to break free. It tackles many different so-called life traps. I would definitely say that for some people it may be worth going through the book whilst going through therapy. There is a lot of confronting your past via visualisation and cue cards and if your past contains trauma that you find difficult to process, having a qualified person with you along the journey will definitely be helpful.

Overall the book is really insightful, I have felt very seen in reading it. It gave me hope that if someone has written a whole book about this, this means that I am definitely not the only person with these experiences or patterns of behaviour as a result of trauma. Also, there are multiple reminders of the unfortunate fact that its the people who have had the worst of upbringings who then need to do the most work to undo that damage.

When you are unwell and traumatised the world can feel so lonely and this book definitely made me feel held at times.

Anyone who decides to give this a go, let me know how it goes, I’d love to hear feedback of how you received the book.

#eupdawareness #eupd recovery #actually bpd #actuallyeupd #bpd recovery #bpd life #bpd blog #recommendedreading #eupdlife #eupd #bpd #bpdandblack #blackwithbpd

[dying-bunny]

hey I've a couple qs about bpd/eupd so I'd appreciate it if someone answered so uh,,

-can you have it when you're under 18? 14/15 specifically

-how do you go about bringing the possibility of having it to a therapist without being accused of faking?

-can you still have it n appear to be "normal"? like functional properly(ish) during the day but hold it in till alone late at night?

-can you have it without meeting all 9 symptoms? like only meeting 6 or 7

-how often do you experience anger? n does it have to be pushed out or can you keep it in?

#actuallybpd #actuallyborderline #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd #eupd #actually eupd #actuallyeupd #borderline #bunny.txt

[hannahvsana]

Hey hi 👋🏻 Just asking for experiences - has anyone had any experience between the diagnoses of BPD and autism mixed up, or perhaps presenting at the same time?

#borderline personality disorder #bpd recovery #bpd problems #bpd #actuallybpd #emotionally unstable personality disorder #eupd #actuallyeupd #autism #actuallyautistic

[figure-like-a-doll]

bpd mood is when u feel people trying to compete with u to be sicker than u and are tempted to kill yourself to prove them wrong

#suicide #suicidal ideation #tw suicide #tw suicidal ideation #bpd #eupd #actuallybpd #actuallyeupd #actuallymentallyill #actuallyborderline #i know its fuckedup #i hate being this way #but also acknowledge im sick

[unstablemotions]

stable emotions today

is this how normal people feel?

#vent art #actuallyneurodivergent #actuallymentallyill #actuallyeupd #my art #my posts #personal

[mynameisananagram]

My mood always improves 600% after dying my hair. I feel more me. To someone with a less than robust sense of self, that's a big deal.

#me #mine #selfie #actuallyeupd #eupd #actually borderline #BPD #blue hair

[disabled-kain]

I hate making friends, because usually, they end up being my FP. And then I get unreasonably jealous, angry, and sad any time I hear about how they've been doing literally anything with someone who isn't me.

It makes me worry that person has found someone they like more than me, and it's only a matter of time until they leave.

#i hate being jealous because i know i'm being unreasonable #but knowing it's unreasonable does not make the feeling go away #so i just sit by myself. seething. pretending that it doesn't bother me if anyone asks. #because being honest drives people away. #kain's original posts #bpd #bpd fp #bpd vent #abandonment issues #actually borderline #actually bpd #actuallyborderline #actuallybpd #borderline vent #borderline personality disorder #borderline fp #eupd #actually eupd #actuallyeupd #emotionally unstable personality disorder #cluster b #personality disorder

[meandmymhmatters]

Recently I've been learning how much of me is caused by the BPD. I used to think I was so far removed from the illness but doing DBT skills has opened my eyes. I knew I needed to distress tolerance skills as self harm and suicidal tendencies are a big part of my life but I knew I wasn't impulsive with them. But I learnt that some of my relationships aren't that healthy, mainly because I see myself as unworthy and I see myself as lucky to have anyone who wants to know me. I also learnt that I'm often not aware of which emotion I'm feeling and find naming them tricky. I knew this a little bit before but DBT has shown me its worse than I thought. In fact DBT has been overwhelming with the revelations. And now it's coming to an end and I'm terrified. I really could of done with the extra 6 months we were originally promised, to start getting the skills to work for me. I feel if anything I've gone backwards. Anyway this is a long ramble so thank you if you made the end. #BPD #DBT #DBTskills #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #beingbordeline #actuallybpd #EUPD #BPDproblems #actuallyeupd https://www.instagram.com/p/BrS1wbrn0SS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4w51eg5vosxw

#bpd #dbt #dbtskills #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #beingbordeline #actuallybpd #eupd #bpdproblems #actuallyeupd

[pineapplesaresometal]

Me: My girlfriend is on holiday so she can't talk to me much rn.

Bpd: she's LYING about being on holiday bc she doesn't want to talk to u

Me: ,,, but,,,, she sent me pictures sooo

Bpd: she's actually moving to Denmark to get away from u

Me: shit that sounds logical.

#bpd #bpd humour #actuallybpd #actuallyborderline #actuallyeupd

[hannahvsana]

Something I’ve seen other recovery accounts doing

Would anyone be interested in me writing requested blog posts using my own experiences ? For example, what EUPD/BPD is to me and how I manage; how to cope with eating above what you’re used to; studying with anxiety/depression etc... ?

I feel like my blog is slightly redundant as a diary because it’s quite negative and my aim is to help people, so in the meantime as I’m putting myself back together I’d like to write more ☺️💜

#ed recovery #eating disorder recovery #anorexia recovery #recovery #anxiety recovery #self harm recovery #recovery blog #mental health recovery #mental health #bpd recovery #bpd #eupd #eupd recovery #depression #depression recovery #anxiety #actuallyeupd #mental health awareness

[figure-like-a-doll]

for someone with trust issues i get attached so fast 

#personal #ok to reblog #actuallypd #actuallyborderline #actuallymentallyill #actuallybpd #actuallyeupd #trust issues #idealization