Gyutaro rant because IM LITERALLY IN LOVE WITH GYUTARO SHABANA OH MY GOD
LOOK AT HIM
LOOK HOW FUCKING PERFECT HE IS OH MY GOD IM GOING INSANE JES SO PERFECT WTF
HES SO FUCKING UGHHHH I WANNA HPLD HIM CLOSE AND KISS EVERY ONE O HIS PRETTY BORTH MARKS AND TELL HIM HOW PRETTY AND PERFECT HE IS AND I JUST WANNA UGHHH
I HAVE SO MANY DETAILED LITTLE HEADCANNONS ABOIT HOW HE WOULD PREFER/LIKE TO SNUGGLE AND OR SHPW AFFECTION IM ALWAYYYS THINKING OF HIM ❤️❤️❤️ LIKE WOULD U GUYS WANT TO SEE THEM??? ID LIKE TO SHARE THEM
I WANNA RUN MY HAND ALONG HIS WEIRD SPINE BIT NOT IN A WEIRD WAY ITS JUST COOL AND IT MAKES ME GO
AND THE WAY HIS RIBS
UGH
ME WHEN THE CHARACTERS RIBS ARE VISIBLE UGHHH ITS JUUUUHGHHGGG
I HAVE HIS LITTLE SPOTS MEMORIZED(at least from the front angle, thr back isn’t rlly memorized)
BIT I SWEAR LIKE I GET STREASWD OR UPSET AND I THINK ABOUT HIM LOKE
OH MY GOD CAN WE APPRECIATE THE KNY ACADEMY VER OF HIM??? LIKE I KNOW I CONSTANTLY TALK ABOIT HOW MUCH I FUCKING HATE MOTERCYCLE RIDERS BIT HE IS AN ACCEPTION AND NOW SEEING THEM MAKES ME THINK OF HIM WAAA ❤️❤️❤️
AS SOMEONE WHO DOESNT REALLY GET TO LIKE. EXPERIENCE REGULAR SCHOOL BC OF MY DISABILITY AND BC I DONT RLLY GET ALOT OF PJSYICAL ATTENTIPN IRL THE FICKING ENDLESS SEA OF IDEAS I CAN MAKE IP W MODERN GYU SWOOPS ME OFF MY FEET!!
I SO APPRECIATE THE RARITY(or honestly it’s getting more common >_<) OF WHEN HE SHOWS UP IN OR IS PRESENT IN MY DREAMS BC GAHHHH!!!! MY WIFE!!
HES MT FAV I LOVE HIM MY FAV FAV FAV MY LOVEE
Haters will say it’s not true but I just know if he was real he would love me(this is a joke if he was real I know this man would not like me) BUT I CAN DREAM I CAN DREAM I CAN DREAM
This is so me and him coded tbh
I love him I love him I LOVE HIM 🗣️🗣️🗣️ RAHHH NORMALIZE BEING IN LOVE WITH AND BEING HAPPY ABOIT AND BEING HYPERFIXATIED FICTIONAL CHARACTERS BC GUHHH IS SO NICE GOOD FEELING YES THUMBS UP HOORAY!!!
Anyway can we talk about how many parallels there are towards death and the strong themes of cheating death present in the DA games?
DAO: Cousland cheats death the first time by escaping their castle or whatever. Don't remember the other back stories but I know they also evade consequences or death. THEN you evade death AGAIN when you become a Warden. Then once more at the betrayal, when you get saved by Morgan and Flemeth. Then if you complete the dark ritual you manage to slay and survive the Archdemon. THE PROBLEM WITH THIS IS the entire point of being a Warden is to die. To slay dark spawns until you get killed or go insane -in which case you die anyway- Your whole premise is to be an honorable sacrifice, to die and take as many dark spawn as you can with you so that no one else has to. By surviving over and over again you're not only forsaking your purpose but spiting the wardens that came before you. How dare YOU be the one to survive? How dare you cheat your death over and over and over again? What about you makes you so special? More important than the other wardens? How fucking dare you?
Da2: So first Hawke survives the hordes of dark spawn in Fereldan, they survive the ogre attack in place of their sibling, then the trip to Kirkwall and then the entry into Kirkwall. How many died during those events, how many different times did Hawke cheat death in those instances? Hundreds of times, definitely. One wrong move and Hawke would've been killed, but they weren't. How lucky. Then in the deep roads, Hawke can lose their OTHER sibling to the taint. Then they lose their mother. What was all that surviving for if they were just going to lose all of their family, be left in this world without the people Hawke had worked so hard to save and to care for? Champion of Kirkwall, what a heavy title to bear with all the deaths of people Hawke couldn't save. They cheat death once more at the end, against Meredith.
DAI: Inky is sent to the chantry, and it blows up. You should've died but you didn't, instead you're given a key to close the rift and a woman saves you. Then you are found, imprisoned for terrorism. You should've been executed, good thing you have that key. Good thing you were the one to try and save Justinia, right? Good thing it was you who survived and not the thousands of others. Then comes the reinstitution of the Inquisition, a portion of the chantry long since dead -for good reason- that rises up from the ashes with you. Then in that one mission you get sent forward in time, in which everyone dies for you to get you to fix the disastrous consequences of you NOT defeating Corypheus. There are more moments but fast forwarding to the dragon secret and defeating Corypheus. You should not have been able to get that secret, but you did, the same way that key imbedded in your hand/arm. By all means, you were always meant to be dead. There was nothing special about Inky, there was no reason they should have survived any of what happened to them but they did. And that can be viewed as either happy, bittersweet, or outright tragic. Then, at the very end, the one thing that made you special, the key, has to be CUT OFF because it is killing you. You should have died but good thing Solas is there to take your arm, to help you cheat death again -which is a great parallel to how he helped you in the very beginning-
I stand by the idea that Dragon Age is a tragedy. The MC, whether that's Warden, or Hawke, or Inky has to give up EVERYTHING, their families, their lives, everything, to be forced into positions of power and save the world. And whether their willing or not, it doesn't matter because they will be forced into that position. Forced to be Hero of Fereldan, Champion of Kirkwall, or Inquisitor. You will be robbed of everything and forged into what people need you to be. That's the consequence of cheating death and being at the right place at the right time. But it's a good thing youre special, huh?
And you know the thing about being a Main Character is that you will cheat death over and over and over again, and the only consequence is that someone is going to be there to take your place, someone is going to die for you, eventually. There's nothing you can do about it except watch your life be taken away from you and watch all the people you love and care for die.
Is getting a new hyperfixation stressful for anyone else or-
I always feel like I'm abandoning the old one and try to cling to them both so that the joy of the first one doesn't fade away while the joy from the new one gradually grows
Like now that I've been getting SUPER into the owl house and it's Fandom, I feel bad because I don't wanna abandon my eddsworld hyperfixation because it's brought me so much joy and I don't wanna lose the happiness it brings me
Why am I always cursed with never having my hyperfixations being popular enough. Like I’m starting to hyperfixate on the Little Big Planet franchise and I feel like there’s like 12 of us in the fandom
You don’t realize how important hyperfixations are to someone with adhd until you’re in between hyperfixations and you’re bored but don’t really feel motivated enough to do anything and everything you try feels like a chore and you’re just kind of sitting there existing because nothing really inspires interest or motivation and you feel like the living embodiment of the word “meh”.
Then I needed actual "cool dog" and of course he doesn't go without "the boss" and "the big guy" and at that point ya gotta throw in the wizard...
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Et Voila! Tidied up my latest hyper-fixation and added a Honored Friend in the background! Enjoy the phone wallpaper and let me know if you have any ideas about what I can make next!
I try to keep my hyperfixations off my blog because this is mostly for cluster b stuff but… fuck my Sonic hyperfixation is acting up bad. All I wanna do all day is ramble about how amazing Shadow is when he’s written well, how I love Surge and Kit’s toxic codependency, how they could do some really interesting bpd stuff with Amy if they leaned into her frustration at still being obsessed with Sonic. Not to mention how Sonic Destruction (the ai generated Sonic movie script read out by the Snapcube fan dub cast) of all things has got me shipping Shadow and Silver. It’s… it’s really bad
They say that a novel is approximately 70,000 words. As of this week, I hit over that word count on AO3 with all of the fics I have written combined.
The reason that this is important to me is that when I started writing fanfic back in July (July 9th, to be exact), I thought that fanfic would just be one of my ADHD hyperfixations that I was going to give up on in a month.
To the contrary, fanfic has been an outlet and escape, away for me to process some issues and build a small little community in my corner of this internet. Suffice to say, that I am really happy with how things have turned out and I love you all.