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#ah guess I’m back to self destruction see you all in another 48 hours.
nochv · 3 years
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get to know me tag
tagged by: @njaems this was fun thank yeww <3
tagging: @hchan-main @hy-ck-main @nctsworld @neonun-au @sunflowerforhaechan this is long so no pressure at all hahaha
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what day is your birthday?
January 21!
what’s your favorite color?
orange, black, and neutrals!
what’s your lucky number?
21 or 121
do you have any pets?
my son pup <3
how tall are you?
5’2-5’3 / roughly 158cm
how many pairs of shoes do you own?
like 7-10 but my dog chewed most of them so i have 3 functional shoes :’) need to go shoppin
favorite song?
of all time is forever by chris brown, currently it’s maybe don't by colette lush, 4r da squaw by isaiah rashad, 24/48 by odeal, or missing you by lotus maat hahaha
favorite movie?
transformers!!!!!! first one specifically because it's just a classic but i do love the whole series (despite michael bay's terrible handling of the production) hahahaha im a child
what would be your ideal partner?
na jaemin someone affectionate in a reasonable way. someone understanding, someone that feels like a home. someone that can provide mental relief
do you want children?
no, my dog is enough
have you gotten in trouble with the law?
does getting pulled over count lmao
bath or shower?
both, depends on the mood!
what color socks are you wearing?
black. always black socks
favorite type of music?
r&b and jazz! but aside from the favs i do listen to a bit of anything and everything
how many pillows do you sleep with?
3: 2 under my head, 1 that i hug
what position do you sleep in?
on my side hugging my pillow lol
what you don’t like when you’re sleeping?
silence, complete darkness, getting woken up
what do you have for breakfast?
coffee <3
have you ever tried archery?
in high school, we had an archery unit in phys ed but everyone hated it so it lasted for a day lmao
favorite fruit?
kiwi, pineapple and watermelon! love all fruit though
favorite swear word?
“asshole” or “fuck” — asshole i use as either a term of endearment or a term to express my distaste with someone, but im trying really hard to not say fuck as much hahaha
do you have any scars?
yeah i cut my shin open once and also had surgery on the back of my neck/skull
are you a good liar?
when i need to be yeah but it's veeeery rare
what’s your personality type?
infp-t
what’s your favorite type of girl?
supportive and constructive. no gossip, no bullshit, straight up, down to have fun.
innie or outie?
innie
left or right handed?
right
favorite food?
mmmm noodles. any kind of noodle. or salmon, yum
favorite foreign food?
sushi? maybe idk
are you clean or messy?
clean for the most part
most used phrase?
hmmm my newer thing is that i say "shut up" a lot but not like actually telling people to shut up. like if i see a beautiful gifset of Jaemin, i say "shut UP" you know, like that. another would be "shut it" if like i'm joking around with someone. and i say "sadness" if like, for example, i ask someone if they're free to hang out but they have plans. i'll say "ah sadness." others would be like "foreal" "deadass/dead" "wow" "odee"
how long does it take for you to get ready?
around 30 mins to 1 hour, depends on what i’m getting ready for
do you talk to yourself?
uh yeah every sane person does
do you sing to yourself?
again…yeah
are you a good singer?
honestly idk my friends and my mom say i am but my mom toots my horn and my friends are never serious about literally anything lmao so i guess we’ll never know
biggest fear?
power outages during snowstorms. i feel very helpless in those moments, the origin being one time when i took a nap during a snowstorm right after the power had gone out and had a horrifying dream, then i woke up and felt so disoriented by both the dream and my surroundings. i’m like traumatized by it lmao
are you a gossip?
eh nah, do not have enough energy and i don't care enough to really gossip. rather, i just discuss hot topics with friends
do you like long or short hair?
i love short hair on myself, it just fits my face and my noggin best. plus it is so easily manageable
favorite school subject?
english and art history! and in high school i loved phys ed hahaha
extrovert or introvert?
introvert :’)
what makes you nervous?
public speaking, walking to my car at night, thinking about the future
who was your first real crush?
my ex. think of mark lee but way more basketball haha
how many piercings do you have?
10 or 11 in my ears i don’t remember hahaha
how fast can you run?
i’d say pretty fast? but i get tired reeeeaaaal quick haha
what color is your hair?
i actually just bleached it hahaha so it’s a bright ash toned blonde. reference jaemin boom era (the set you tagged me in mel to be exact hahaha)
what color are your eyes?
blue
what makes you angry?
life, inconsiderate people
do you like your own name?
yeah i really like Nikki hahaha, my mom did well <3
do you want a boy or a girl as a child?
if i wanted kids i’d want an older boy and a younger girl
what are your strengths?
great listener, have a pretty detailed eye, great driver hahhahaahahah
what are your weaknesses?
my self destruction when i get to overthinking, disconnection with my emotions
what’s the color of your bedspread?
white blanket, grey sheets, beige pillow cases (wow so colorful nikki)
color of your room?
a very light beige/grey and one wall is a slightly darker grey
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waldos-writing · 7 years
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The Dig Initiative: Chapter 23
The Log of Dr. Fletcher
Internal Registry: Dr. Melissa Fletcher, PhD in Neuroscience 2032, Psychiatry in 2032, subseciality clinical neurophysiology from 2032-2035, general practice 2036-2046; moved to Hope General Care in 2044.
Brought in as a consultant for Montemille trials, 03.10.2044. Per her mentor, Dr. Yorick Juliens:
…if, on record, I would admit that Dr. Fletcher would be a keen eye for clinical trial 212. She has an unwavering patience and an inhuman amount of decency for these individuals, which would be seen as a weakness except for her work with interrogation and integration. Her open kindness, while an asset to help control and/or console the individuals, has so far not deterred her from what is necessary to see the trial moved forward to the potentially fatal step in our procedure. She knows what is at stake. And she is comfortable with the knowledge that this is going to help people in the future. We are close to successful turnover, and I believe moving from NVRA to NARA will be successful. I would gladly have Melissa on my team.
Fletcher joined in the second round of NARA pre-trials at Montemille facility in 2035. Charged with seventeen of the sixty patients who had survived the first neurological enhancement drug testing led two sessions of augmented reality simulation with the prototype WsTWD, precursor to the eventual Westwood Trial simulator.
 NARA pre-trial, WsTWD session 02 with Subjects 01, 09, 22:
Per protocol, Subject 12 has been moved to quarantine. Has started the fever stage. Talk to Dr. Juliens tomorrow about reworking the serum to account high protein concentrations in blood samples. Still having trouble with calcium in urine samples. Josh tells me not to beg. WsTWD session 02 ‘REFORMATIVE DREAM.’ Add to the atmosphere as we introduce them to the test.
Subject 09 and 22 have grade F sedative patches. Is this a Band-Aid solution to keeping them viable after the inevitable? Cold transfusion slowed it down last night, maybe we make it past 48 hours. Izzie had a seizure before the ice bath. Not sure if she will be available for the third session.
Subject 01 has been the most resilient patient in the program. He is perceptive, attentive to instructions by myself and the staff, and eager to please. We just might see our efforts brought to fruition. High hopes. One concern, have to discuss with Josh. While all patients in the program suffer from a wide range of psychosis, Subject 01 hasn’t shown improvement with counseling. Dramatic sociopath personality disorder. Boasts first that he was the second Jesus come, that he was the only messiah of God, and finally that he was God himself and we would all fall at his feet when he was given into his natural powers. Histrionic, narcissistic. Not my first choice. Believe he even stole status as Subject 01 from a John Doe. Research still needed. Concerns of sadism towards Subjects 10, 13, and 19 [note: 10 history of self-destructive behavior must be ruled out). Charmer. Compare to session 01 notes with Josh. Don’t let him play you.
Hypothesis on NARA restructure with scans of Subject 01 CT scan and MRI:
Intent on continuing with the remaining subjects. We’re going to session 3 following track of Subject 01 and Dr. Grailee’s Subject 47. ‘THE PATH.’ How many times….Talked to Juliens. Josh let go. Can’t get a hold of him outside the office. Check for his address. NARA is augmenting the damaged areas. Needs severely underdeveloped frontal cortex to avoid rapid overexpansion. Great news, obviously, for the initial purpose of the clinical trials, but I believe Juliens and his team have ideas for something else. Fever everyone has exhibited is the body fighting off a wildfire tearing through their brain. Whatever the reason, these are the ones who can survive it. Regrowth. Not regrowth, rebuilding. More accurately, freshly building segments of the brain that did not exist before. Maybe we can figure out how to alter this to repair damaged brain tissue.
Strange aura present in the MRI scan. Also, check on the anomaly in Subject 31. According to records, Subject 31 should not have survived NARA injection. Too much healthy tissue. Appears to have been chemically lobotomized. Muscular hypertrophy symptom adverse event. Subject 47 no longer suffering auditory hallucinations but emotional response shutting down. Subject 01 is playing off of her. They’ve made themselves a pair. We are getting close. I’m just not sure to what.
Note from Dr. Juliens dated 10.11.44:
Pulling Melissa off the project. Send her credentials on to Hildebard. Maybe Hope Center will take her. Move forward with the partnerships. Serum for 01-47.
Locke Security Clearance 6
Fletcher, Melissa. Processed through ALTAMIRA 11.14.46. Holding cell standard, order of Lawrence DuVang. Retrieval by Domestic Division Agents Shutters and Poole. Commendation and 3% increase bonus pay. –Check your paystub, think Brandley shorted us, S.
Altamira Data: audio recording with Agent Shutters and Fletcher, dated 01.01.47:
 Shutters: Well, Happy New Year! What a surprise. Don’t know if they brought you the champagne I asked. Probably not. Is that the food ration? Mm. Supposed to be that gray, you think? Listen, I won’t argue the validity of that, but, hey, eat what you eat and be pleased it’s there, I guess. How are you liking the place? It’s nice enough, you know? I thought, given your history, you’d rather like working here. Got yourself a whole crew of people under your belt, if you took it. And now, you seen those machines? Way better contact and readout for the trials. I’ve seen the old equipment you guys used to use in Montemille for Westwood? Barbaric! This scanner they have in there is eons better than the old one. So, why do you keep pulling this self-pitying routine like it’s your only saving grace?
Fletcher: I’m not going to be harassed back into this. Is Juliens out there?
Shutters: Don’t know anybody by that name, but it’s not my place, you know. Not my deal. I got my own to beck and call and serve and all, so, you know. Names. Pfft. No, now listen. Please.
[A sigh on the recording, followed by silence].
Shutters: This is between you and me. I don’t know when you walk out of here or if you walk out of here again, but I have questions too, and maybe you’re the only one who has the answers that’s willing to share them with me.
Fletcher: Why would I?
Shutters: Kindness of your heart. Human decency. I don’t know what gets your tinker toys going, just do this for me.
Fletcher: I’m not—!
[Muffled audio, sharp bang of something striking the wall]
Shutters: Just. Listen.
Fletcher: Stay back
Shutters: First thing is I saw your log on the original trials. You had your hand on Subject 01, right? Bonafide numero uno. Our progenitor, right? Cause I can’t tap my finger on who that is, but they’d have to be high up, wouldn’t they? Second things not adding and multiplying is that it ain’t Lawrence DuVang, I can say that plain as day and be right as rain. Man doesn’t have a talented bone in his body. And if that man did get through it all spiffed up and shiny clean…I don’t know. It doesn’t feel right. I don’t…. Who’s Subject 01?
Fletcher: That was so long ago.
Shutters: Wasn’t really.
Fletcher: And I wasn’t the only one there.
Shutters: Only one left I can find.
Fletcher: I don’t even remember who…?
Shutters: Right, you see? You see, I’ve been reading up on this. Swiped myself a good access badge too. Oh I like hunting and finding things, always have, always did, always will. And what I can say is I’ve learned a few things. Things like how they started with the injections but they’re moving on up to this aerosol deliverable type deal originally used on children, can you even believe that? Something in the file about oracles. Don’t ask me what it is, I don’t know. The CM I pulled it out of didn’t know either and, wouldn’t you know it, I still ended up killing him and his augmenter because they just blab to anyone who asks the right way. Can you believe? Well, now they got this plan to go through and disperse it through the CleanAire towers filtration. What a crazy crock that is, isn’t it? Ah, I don’t think I mind as much as I’m saying I mind, more for show than tell.  Maybe it’d be good, we get all the turnovers out of the way and, poof, wipe out anyone who doesn’t have that space in their heads to complete it, right? But, see, then aren’t we just giving the gift to people who haven’t been introduced to the program correctly?
Fletcher: They’re going to infect everyone?
Shutters: Right. Heights is our big trial. I think they’re going to take this show on the road, though. Air. All of us have to breath it. Seems like Subject 01 doesn’t even care if he bulldozes right over everyone, and I didn’t think I did either, but I keep imagining if they do this, we’re either outnumbered by the wild ones or we drop the population too low and maybe then we really are out of luck. Plus, I mean, what’s that thing they said about the kids? Child plasticity is great, but for some reason or another it doesn’t stick. You hear about all the littles they killed? Almost 100%. That’s just cruel to be cruel at this point, and I know that. I am right there on the money with that. So they kill too many adults and all the little kiddies. All them dead bodies everywhere. It’s gonna be rotten as hell, can’t you think? Imagine it.
Fletcher: He’s insane.
Shutters: Me?
Fletcher: Yeah, you too.
Shutters: Course he is. Course I am. Had to be. Said so right in the notes, damaged tissue or underdeveloped areas. Big old spaces in the head to make room. But, thing is, whatever all that happened happened, but maybe we don’t let the biggest and craziest of them try and Armageddon us off this rock.
Fletcher: Do you think you can stop him?
Shutters: Well, it’ll take a bit. I’ve gotta get myself a new partner first. The big guy I paired with is dumber than a sock of stones, or whatever it is. I’d do him a disservice not to tap his brain and make him a White Jacket, you know? I’ll get him moved over, if I can. I don’t even really know, ha ha, I don’t know if you can make the jump. Ha! Might just kill him anyways! Oh, Poole, you sonovabitch, I’m…. I’m getting ahead of myself. Just give over the name, let me see what I can pull and I’ll keep you updated. What are you going to do anyways? Leave? Ha ha ha ha—
Fletcher: Diggs. His name was Diggs.
Shutters: Hmm? Diggs. Mmm. Mmmmmmmmmm. Well, look, I don’t have a leg on it yet, but I will. And I’ll let you know what I have when I can. You sit pretty, Pretty. I’ll be seeing you again.
-End Recording-
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