#ahah relatable right.... RIGHT????

[torgawl]

if wriothesley doesn't appear in any quest once we get to remuria, what even is the point?

the parallels between wrio and king remus are crystal clear. remus who descended upon meropis (a name very familiar to anyone who knows of the fortress of meropide) in his golden fortuna, the legendary ship of remus that is also called the bringer of civilization and glory (wrio who built a ship to deal with the misfortune upon fontaine) is an example of it.

wrio also has connections to hades with the cerberus motif as guardian of the underworld. it's curious that the tower in remuria is described not only as not built to receive heavenly oracles, serving as a guide to ships traveling between islands, but also as a border of reality and dreams. if this is not necessarily literal but a metaphor or allegory, it could fit very well with the idea of a portal between domains or realms, like life and death.

wriothesley also parallels another character in the genshin universe and that person is arlecchino. they were brought up as orphans, taken in by an institution with corrupted leaders, which they reformed and achieved a leading position of. and funnily enough, she has ties to purgatory (a place for punishment, much like the fortress). as i have said in another post, purgatory has been described by dante as a tower leading to heaven. but we also know that celestia in the genshin world is associated with the demon realm - archons being named after ars goetia, an anonymous grimoire on demonology. although the concepts aren't the same in theory, is it impossible that the game has used elements of both? wriothesley and arlecchino's themes are similar enough to overlap. even though i don't expect wriothesley to be lore revelant anymore, i do think his ties to remuria and his role as someone who punishes others for their sins, much like arlecchino, is very much purposeful.

#another random post because i read the history of the decline and fall of remuria and i keep reaching the same conclusions sghdfasgd #i don't know what to make of it but i feel like i'm so much on the right track for arle's lore but i am probably still missing something #important ahah probably related to the narzissenkreuz ordo and khaenri'ah (and consequently the #hilicurl curse) since arle probably has ties to that era as well. she was probably done experiments on much like caterpillar but i have no #idea my first instinct tells me she's not from khaenri'ah but who knows i'll love to find out #anyway this was a post about wrio but again arlecchino has taken over my mind so it is what it is #i forgot to include in the post but fortuna is not only the goddess of fortune and luck but also the god of fate. wrio who built the boat i #hopes to challenge the fate of fontaine vs pierro saying fate grants favors to no one and implying arlecchino has been able to challenge it #like. lore is so fun!!!!!! i see little dots connecting things but i'm like a 3 year old trying to connect them and failing miserably lol #wriothesley #arlecchino #genshin impact #genshin thoughts

[astros-arts-inthestars]

...okay.. I think I'm ready. This is it!!! No more holding back!!! I need to reveal to the world my truth and my heart!! Guys! I'm uh.. coming out......

....as a Persona fan. W-WELL PERSONA FAN-IN-PROGRESS?? I don't know the WHOLE story.. but I know enough to be hyperfixated and VERY attached to the characters..?

Why am I saying this? Well.. I guess I wanna jumpstart the possibility of.... um... Persona art.. on this blog- But I'm WAY too embarrassed to start on my own accord so...

To those aware of the media (there's bound to be some..) um.. I'm opening requests for Persona 4 and 5 art! So uh.. hit me with it!! I guess!

#star talks #oH this is embarrassing.. #im really like.. conscious about the fact im getting into Persona but like. not really? #like i just came in here... unprofessionally lets just say #bUT im trying my best to be a bit more prouder about the fact and let myself enjoy things... even if its an unconventional manner... #after all.. there's no SET way to get into a media or to enjoy it! #and the way i do it is getting... ahah- EMBARRASSINGLY attached to the characters and story- #b-bUT ANYWAYS! #thats the deal! so... #if you guys have any like... persona related thing in mind... drop an ask? #take note that im only currently aware of persona 4 and 5's story and characters! and am only like uh.. #versed in drawing the main teams! like the Inves Team and the Phan Thieves! #but along with some supporting characters like Nanako and Yuuki!!! #....A-ANYWAYS THERES THAT AHAH THANK YOU ANDIMSORRY #(...also shoutout to Lake i know you're here and um. thank you for being the catalyst. i can just see you smiling abt this) #(.....also yes. the last art i drew was. um. persona.. related LETS NOT FOCUS ON THAT RIGHT NOW THOUGH AHAHAH)

[theophagie]

Me: ahah a villain attacking you with the illusion of someone you love because everything hurts the most coming from them and it's the one thing that might do you in is a rather common trope. I wonder if it has a name

TV Tropes: hi best friend

[Not completely related but still worthy of note. This overall section slithers right into the whole "Riku's priorities evolved over time" sequence alongside that one moment in BBS and the one in DDD, because in japanese when he talks about the people in his memories and when Naminé asks him about facing them both times they're referred to as 大切な友達 (taisetsu na tomodachi/important friends), but we know that later on the source of his strength will be his feelings for his 大切な人 (taisetsu na hito/important person). 🫡]

#chain of memories the game that you are #soriku #char tag #riku #mytext #video games #kingdom hearts

[ceilidho]

Now I cant stop thinking about when Ghost eventually brings Soap over for dinner:

Gf all dolled up, looking at him all pretty, greeting him with the sweetest smile and he can’t stop his mind from wandering to the filthy pictures he has seen of you.

She cooked up something really good (babbling something about keeping her boys strong and healthy, she likes them well fed), it's A5 Wagyu steak (the best cut the butcher had to offer) obviously payed with Ghost's money. He rarely splurges on himself but when it comes to his gf and Soap he doesn’t hold back.

The dinner can go two ways:

1.Lovie seated next to Soap, across from him Ghost. Halfway through his steak he notices a slight touch to his knee, but he brushes it off not acknowledging it further. When that touch gets firmer and starts to wander up his thigh he definitely notices. His body shudders and he almost chokes on the food in his mouth (much to Ghost's enjoyment), his eyes fall on you shooting him a lazy smile and oh my god are your eyes seductive like in the pics.

2.You sitting next to Ghost with Soap across from him. Both men engaged in a conversation about their last Op. When you play the oldest trick written in the books: oops I dropped my fork let me get it from under the table. It helps that Soap is still not fully used to Ghost's unmasked face, so he doesn’t notice you diving under the table. What he does notice is something heavy on his thigh and two hands ghosting over his belt buckle. He visibly jumps a little, his gaze falling into his lap, where you look up at him all doe-eyed, head resting on his right leg, waiting for permission.

In either scenario, a gruff voice brings Soap to snap his eyes back up holding eye-contact with his Lieutenant(who’s completely ignoring your antics):

"Enjoying yourself, Sergeant?"

Anyway it ends with cream pie for dessert <3

(Please tell me off, if i ever cross your boundaries or make you feel uncomfortable it’s the last thing i want to do when sending in nasty thoughts)

you're very sweet to check in about my boundaries!!! don't worry though - as long as the comments aren't aimed towards me (which maybe would be a bit off putting) and they're just related to stuff I'm writing ahah, I don't really care. I probably should think about and then clarify if I have any boundaries on my pinned post, but rn you're totally good!

(nsfw below)

Oh my god that last option has my brain melting out of my ears. Especially if Soap's still half-unsure if they're fucking with him or not, or if this is a one time thing that they're including him on. He obviously doesn't want to blow his only shot if this is the only time he'll ever get to fuck you.

Also there's something so surreal to him about you being on your knees in front of him after he's been literally jerked off in the middle of the desert by the man sitting across the table from him. To photos of you. In any other circumstance, if Soap had met you first and this was just a dinner between the two of you, he wouldn't be half as nervous; he'd be so comfortable and needy while you fit his length down your throat, palming the back of your head and maybe trying to fit more than you can manage before backing off and apologizing 😔

With Ghost sitting there though, just staring at him (and Soap has a fairly good understanding of Ghost as a person, but even he has trouble really getting a read on the guy), he's not sure if he should just sit there motionlessly as you undo his jeans and pull his dick out or if he should touch you. He can't stop looking from your face pressed up against the bulge in his briefs back to Ghost's (no mask now that they're at home away from everyone, but his real face is so much more intimidating somehow in this context).

Ghost at one point going, "Not gonna thank her for all her hard work?" and Soap can only whine and pat the back of your head shakily after coming down your throat, your lips still a bit wet with him when you pull away.

#ceil writing #cod mw2 #cod x reader #johnny soap mactavish #soap x reader #ghost x soap x reader

[janus-cadet]

So, I've been watching Hazbin Hotel, and Helluva Boss.

Loved it. Therefore, obviously, to none of my friends' surprise, I added the fandom in that nonsensical tarot project of mine- and it starts with Lucifer, the short king himself, as the Five of Cups.

(The Devil was already taken, which both caused me immense amont of dismay, and just as much relief, because that version of Lucifer does NOT fit the Devil card as much as he could.)

Now, under the cut (only for the braves who can handle a long post spoken in broken english), the mandatory explanation for the choice of the card and the composition.

A joyous card, isn't it! Ahah? Totally. Let's get right into it.

The Five of Cups, Upright, often appears in a reading when a situation hasn't turned out the way you expected, leaving you sad, regretful and disappointed. I mean, you just gave one (1) apple to humanity, just to give them free will, and look what they did with it! What the hell, literally! You are blaming yourself, and instead of moving on with your life (despite the small inconvenience of being banished to an endless pit of evil and horror), you ar choosing to wallow in your self-pity. All you can focus on right now is what went wrong and how you failed. You're stuck in the past, and you can't let go; old wounds you never closed are keeping you from trying to create some positive changes. Which is why the card is here: to help you forgive. Forgiveness, to others and to yourself, is the only way you'll be able to release yourself from your sadness and disappointment. Remember that foresight and wisdom in the present moments comes from mistakes of the past: reflect on what led you to this point, and try to find something positive by reflecting on the lessons learned. You can rebuilt, you still can challenge an unfair system, despite everything! New possibilities are waiting for you, as shown by your daughter. You just have to be ready to accept it. Shift your mindset and focus on what can go right from this point forward.

Reversed, the card suggests that you might look at yourself specifically as a failure. You are stuck in a loop of self-loathing, and can't bring yourself to open up to others about those feelings. The reversed Five of Cups card is here to encourage you to open up: people around you may not see how much pain you're in right now, so don't be afraid to ask for help or talk to someone you trust.

You cannot undo the past, and just as Lucifer at the end of the first season, you are starting to accept that. You are slowly discovering how to be open to the new opportunities and ideas shown to you; you are finally starting to be more hopeful anout the future. You may not be fully okay again, you might still be in pain, but you are taking the first step: the card encourage you to keep doing so. Focus on the bright side. Not all is lost!

Lot of talks already, so I'll quickly go over those. The cups (that I spend too long on for such a small detail in the whole piece agh agh) are, as I drew them, a symbols of the regrets and the remorses felt. The regrets are the titled, broken cups: Lucifer's marriage, his relation with his daughter, and the dreams he had as an angel. Three things that feels like they are lost, damaged beyond repairs- but that are, in fact, still within reach. The content hasn't even spill yet. The remorses are the acts that can't be undone, and the effect on the vision he has of himself- the bitten apple, and the beastly devil that can't be trust. Those are te things he keeps blaming himself for, and the source of the self-loathing he's stuck into. But! He's turning his back on them, as a way to show he is not as linked to those things as he thinks he is. One is a thing of the past, the other is merely a shadow of who he is- what's important is what lays in front of him.

And that's it for today! You're still here? Dang, you're resilient. Thank you very much, hope you enjoyed this. And you're just in time for a little ending poll!

See, I started two other WIPs while drawing Lucifer. Therefore...

#hazbin hotel #lucifer magne #lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel lucifer #tarot project #five of cups #hazbin hotel fanart #lucifer fanart #lucifer hazbin hotel #my art

[alornights]

⟢ push pop

➜ in which ! scott can't get enough of the naive new girl.

🌷 ﹫scott tenorman.

✩ 🦩 warnings﹗suggestive, death threats & smoking.

🍧 ⟡ notes — ahah i’m back? ima bfr i was binge watching shows sooo yeah anyways here’s my fav of this series ever 🫨

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"Look at her- she's like god- but better."

"You're so overreacting," Scott murmured watching you and your friends walk over to one of the lunch tables outside.

One of his friends sniggered nudging him, "Scotty my girlfriend became friends with the new bitch in town.”

“You’re not setting me up with her if that’s what you’re trying to do,” Scott grumbled smacking his friend's neck loudly.

"Nah, I'm sure you're going to absolutely love her!"

he really didn't intend to go that far with you.

the only time he thought he would ever be talking to you is when the entirety of the friend group was around.

but somehow you always found a way to weasel into his life.

even when you weren’t there you just seemed to pop up into every conversation of his.

not to mention that whenever you saw him you’d latch on to him making yourself way too comfortable around him.

he was definitely pissed off in the beginning because who fucking cares that you were hanging around some freshmen dork.

slowly but surely though- he found himself listening to anything relating to you just to get the slightest information.

and sue him because anytime you’d walk into a room he’d be on you- talking and laughing like never before.

and lord, he’s trying his damn hardest not to just pick you up and take you away every time you even make the slightest suggestive motion.

even though you don’t notice the change in personality, his friends sure do.

"Don't even," Scott grumbled as his friends continued rolling around the floor laughing like never before.

One of his friends gasped for air, "You- Scott Tenorman FALLING for Y/N? Oh, this is fucking gold."

"Oooh she's so dumb, she's too girly, she's just a dumb bitch right Scott?" Another one teased before they all burst out laughing again.

"This has to be some sort of discrimination."

"Yeah okay, ginger." Another snorted holding out his fist to Scott.

"I hope you all kill yourselves." Scott smiled fist-bumping the guy back.

"WOAHHHH-"

he surprisingly isn't that whipped for you. on the outside at least.

on the inside this guy can not stop feeling so fucking flustered, there’s not a second where he doesn’t feel butterflies.

his mind starts racing whenever you're around and it’s like no one but you exists.

he and his friends are playing baseball and you come over? bro is packing up his shit and leaving to take you out on a date

he sees you hanging out with your friends while skipping school? say bye-bye the two of you are going out to the mall or whateva.

you just make him do things that are just so uncharacteristic for him and he isn't sure how to feel about it. though- he isn't mad.

like the way he can’t stop staring at you as you're running around in gym, his eyes never leaving you just savoring your body like it was something only for him, something god created with his bare hands.

it's not that he’s obsessive or anything weird like that it’s just the urge to be around you whenever he can because he likes you that much!

maybe to the point where he might slip that he “wanted to crawl around your room like a spider and live in your walls”

but according to him, he never said such a thing.

"I didn't."

You smirked wrapping your arms around his as you clung closely to him. "Oh but Scotty, you did!"

"Proof?" He questioned looking at you with an innocent smile.

Your smile dropped as you began to pout, "I was going to say I'd so let you, just so you can see everything about me. Y'know, to be informed."

You let go of his arms before walking away as he laughed catching up to you, laying his arm around your shoulder, and bringing you in to kiss the top of your head.

"Aww, c'mon sweetie you know I was only teasin' you."

his dad was/is part of the denver broncos so you know that means hella lot of money.

and because you had made such a good influence somehow on his family, they already began treating you as their daughter in law.

his family is nice enough to let you go on vacations with them which is a beauty.

so you got to go to the bahamas or whatever just because your dating scott. for free!!

if he's feeling nice enough he might even take you somewhere you really wanted to go by just asking his parents.

he’s not very into pda in public he’d obviously hold hands and like little kisses but he likes to keep it private.

all for himself! :)

in the comfort of his own bedroom, he is very physical, often initiating cuddles or whatever. like a cat, but bitchier.

he enjoys these days!!! most of the time.

"Move bitch, I gotta pee oh my god-"

You shook your head wrapping your arms more tightly around him with a smirk, “Aaaah I would but ‘m too comfortable. I think ‘m gonna fall asleep.”

Scott groaned trying to push you off him, "Y/N, baby, please move. I’ll stay with you as long as you want afterward just gimme a second."

You shook your head sinking your head into the crook of his neck, “Nah, that’s not my problem.”

“I will just piss myself right now.”

"WAIT NO-"

scott likes to notice the little details about you instead of the bigger ones.

since he's not that big of a romantic he does try his best to make you feel loved.

if he sees you staring at a ring in passing when you’re walking around the mall, you’ll find it in your locker with a small bouquet of your favorite flowers.

you guys are walking at the park and he remembers you said you liked skipping stones? he'll make sure to have the best stones and the best view for you.

a bunch of guys flirting with you and making you uncomfortable? they’re going through a week of hell never to recover.

you're sick as fuck? for the next week, you get presents and gifts galore of health care and things you simply love.

also, i just feel like scott smokes which he thinks makes him 10x more attractive.

he’s obviously stopped whenever you didn’t like it or just plain out quit if you really disliked it because anything for you.

ahahaha make out session while smoking?

“Scotty…” You murmur laying your head on his lap as he looked down at you

“C’mere pretty girl…” He whispered as you moved up to sit on his lap facing him. “Need me to stop?”

You shook your head, “S’fine… just want you.”

He laughed lightly taking a hit of his cigarette before bringing you closely to kiss you- the smoke filling your lungs. You giggled a bit as he brought you closer by the waist.

“Y’know…” He whispered as you blew a puff of smoke out, grinding down on his lap, “I really think you’re gonna be the death of me with that whinin.”

#south park x reader #scott tenorman x reader #ILLECEBROUS SERIES — ✿

[t3mp4cheololo]

Alina Afanaskina diary(English)

maybe it`s not her diary, idk, but also...

Post from 2.08 11:49 Moscow time

02.08 If you're reading this, then I'm already dead (or I've been detained)

How you fucked me up, you fuckers. I'm writing this in tears, I hate school and everything related to it. I would fucking shoot you all

I'm not a terrorist, and I'm not even a school girl, I just want to kill a couple of nasty people who ruined my life and it wouldn't hurt to shoot myself.

13.08 Right now I'm looking at Dad`s weapon and I want to shoot myself…

14.08 The holidays would rather be over (for the first time I want this), I think I will surprise them on the first of September <3

20.08 Dasha, along with her dumb friends, grins at me, fucking came into MY room and also with her friends and dares to laughing over me ☠️ ☠️ ☠️ ☠️ ☠️ The only thing that comforts me is the fact that I'm going to shoot her.

31.08 Tomorrow I will kill those who have been killing my psyche throughout my life, but I feel so calm every day is the same as it always will be.. idk what will happen

01.09 I HAVE ALREADY TAKEN THE KEY, I HAVE ALREADY OPENED THE SAFE, BUT THERE IS NO GUN, IT LOOKS LIKE IT IS IN THE GARAGE

Fuck it, they were just lucky.

Now I've come home from school and I'm happy, but I could have killed them all…

04.09 This shit begins, today I went to the blackboard to take books and the stupid whore Nastya gave me the ugliest and torn books (on purpose), she is laughing and the whole class is there too, MMMMM HOW FUNNY

07.09 I'm sitting in Columbine chats and threw a splint on a bomb, can I use it too? There's a shorter guy saying "today with the permission of Allah" ahhahaha

I FOUND A CHANNEL THERE 700 RECIPES FOR DIFFERENT EXPLOSIVES AHAH CAN BLOW THEM UP?!?! hmm, maybe it's not for nothing that my father left a weapon in the garage, after all, natural selection, fate

11.09 Congratulations to Ilnaz, Dylan on his birthday, I wish you health and happiness

30.09 Oh, I forgot about this diary, I haven't been writing anything for a long time. Well, I'll say that things have not changed in any way, the creatures torment my psyche as soon as possible, I'm hz, I'm afraid to do shooting and suicide. But I really want to

14.10 Nothing interesting, as always, day after day with bullying. Even at home, a fucked-up father and a fucked-up sister fuck brains

15.10 Oh, I found the mining manual of the school hmmm interesting

there was a link here

There's only one drawback, I don't know how to make bombs.

And what he tells me, I don't fucking understand, I couldn't learn chemistry properly, what do you think because of whom?)))

16.10 Fuck, I don't even know how to shoot normally, I've never been taught that. But it seems to me that it's easy, like I'm watching videos on YouTube right now, I've already learned how to reload a gun.

11.11 I want to kill more and more, fucking so many months have passed and I still haven't killed them. God, I don't even have time to run this fucking note channel, I live in fear all the time. ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE HATES ME. But now they'll love me.

29.11 Bitch, I can't anymore, it's fucked up!!

01.12 I have lost any sense of waiting when I grow up. I can't stand their antics anymore. And I won't. I don't know when I'm going to kill them, damn it, I'd like to do it sooner

02.12 Anyway, next week I will definitely shoot them

06.12 I forgot to write, but I'll go tomorrow, the weapon is still at home. It's just not profitable for me to go to the garage. And then dad will take him away again, most likely somewhere. I'm just burned out already.

07.12 :(

Post from 7.12 This message is set on a timer for 12/07/23:50. (I hope by that time they will know that there was a shooting)

Started writing this 02.12 | 20:59.

If you are reading this message, it means you somehow found out about my channel.

(I hope the channel won’t be deleted by then.. Or I hope they won’t find this old phone, because I want to help someone with my life story)

Although who knows, perhaps no one will ever know about the existence of this channel.

And I will remain to rot in the grave and no one will even remember me and my story.

In short, yes, things suck! My father hits me sometimes. My sister, excuse me, is sucking him off or something, or how can I explain that it’s just me that everyone at home hates… Well, even at school they bully, although no, the fucking creatures, brainless classmates, are “just joking.”

Their “roffles” are not funny at all and not without insult, as the teacher said when my classmates scratched me “accidentally” with a pen cap until they bled <> I don’t remember what she said there.

I wish everyone who hates me to go through what I went through. I first started cutting myself at the age of 8, AT EIGHT YEARS OLD!! When all the children live a happy life, I cry and pray for death. I've changed, I don't cut myself so much anymore, rarely very much. Now I hate not myself, but everyone around me. You are pathetic creatures who don’t even notice the problem under your nose (me).

Therefore, I hope that I will kill everyone I wanted, namely: father, Dasha, Nastya, Kirill, Anton, Masha, Sasha, Vanya, Artyom and maybe Yegor. Well, it would be nice for myself too))) I don’t want to go to prison, and I don’t want to live at all.

I think that at the beginning of the night I’ll quietly kill Dasha and dad and steal the weapon… then I’ll go to hell (school), go into my class and shoot them at the beginning, and then I’ll go look for other creatures who also managed to ruin my life.

Although I’m not sure that I’ll be able to kill them, I’m afraid to pierce a human body with a sharp object, I’m not some kind of sick maniac, I’m out of despair, as it were…

I believe that this is how we need to fight bullying, because other methods imposed by teachers and society do not work at all.

“don’t pay attention to them”, “tell them you’re not happy”🤡🤡

If they systematically bully you, fucking kill them. They ruined your life, you must do it, because they will multiply and more people will suffer. And perhaps many more people will die. It is better to immediately kill these socially rotting creatures and commit suicide than to commit only suicide. DO YOU UNDERSTAND???

What can I recommend to people who read this when “fighting” bullying:

Well, you need to understand and be aware of what you are going to, in order to kill people you need to know about the consequences and about past killers. Therefore, go to YouTube, Wikipedia and watch videos about Columbine, school shooting, revenge, etc. watch how to shoot, how to reload. If there are no weapons and there won’t be any in the future for some reason, kill or blow up the offenders. You can also watch how to cut on YouTube, although this does not require any special skills. By the way, I came up with an idea, I’ll take my dad’s knife with me just in case, in case they take my weapon away, I’ll cut something then, but I don’t know, I’ll think about it again.. I repeat, this is scary for me. It's scary to feel your insides with a knife. It's actually much better to shoot.

To blow up the same thing, look on YouTube for lessons on how to make explosives, only you need to know chemistry, I don’t know huh, so I’ll do without a bomb (this is really difficult for me).

In general, my life was not the best, and if there had been an opportunity, I would have been born again (only in a normal family) and would have lived normally.

I realized that it was better not to say anything than to say some kind of bullshit and then for months to hear quotes of my words with the antics of my classmates.

By the way, I am a kind person, I love animals and nature, because they are not people. They can't hurt me. The only people I feel comfortable with are cats <3

I don’t deserve to die, I’m very sorry that I’m taking this step. But understand, it was necessary.

If you want to try to understand me, watch the movie "Class", I am very similar to the main characters.

Oh, I feel so good that I spoke out. I hope that someone will hear and understand me, but fortunately I will already be in a coffin, I don’t give a fuck.

Sorry.

(there may be grammatical mistakes here)

#tc community #tccblr #alina afanaskina

[bridgetoesoteria]

✨Toxicity✨: What would have happened if you stayed?

Helloo. So this is going to be for anyone who feels in two minds about their decision to walk away from a situation.

Sorry in advance, the piles are so long! I really meant to be more succinct. So, grab a snack or break up the reading ahah 😅.

This can be used for any kind of situation: professional, romantic, platonic, etc. Options are left to right. Hope it resonates :)

For the collective: P.S.I took time out to do a guided meditation to connect with my intuition. So some of you may benefit from that. Some personal messages came through for me as well. So your guides probably want to connect with you too. I used a guided meditation on YouTube but feel free to do whatever resonates best with you.

Without further ado 🙇‍♀️🎩 ...

Pile 1

**TW: Substance Abuse**Off the bat: So before I even really began the reading, I was channeling Hey There Delilah by Plain White T's. So idk if that is relevant somehow. I was thinking of a lot of early 2000s songs. I feel very eager and excited. So maybe some of you left home behind to chase your dreams in someway. So, every win is a little bittersweet. Honestly, its such a vibe rn. I'm feeling chill, room is dimly lit, there's thin swirls of smoke coming from the burning sage...

4-card spread: Ace of Disks, The High Priestess, Prince of Cups, 7 of Disks. Bottom of Deck is Knight of Wands.

So, for context I'm using The Urban Tarot Deck. I feel like the imagery really helps with this pile. Its a Thoth inspired deck so the names for the cards are a little different. I read Knights as Kings and Princes as Knights.

All right, so right away I feel kind of confined. I don't think you would have had a horrible life or situation but it would not have been all that you needed. You would continue secretly dreaming of the life that you truly want. Whatever that means to you. I say this because the woman on the high priestess card looks very dreamy. Like she stole away and ran herself a bath just to have a few moments of solitude. But with the "knight of cups" right next to her--which is another card that can signify illusions, fantasies, daydreaming--it feels like she's dreaming of what could have been. And what could still be!

I always read this knight of cups as an amateur filmmaker. Someone just starting out, perhaps a little pretentious, but their intentions are in the right place. The fact that its a card that isn't fully mature, like a king of cups for instance, makes it seem tangible. So the woman isn't jumping to the ultimate end goal, but what could reasonably happen. This dream just lives in her head. Something she keeps for herself.

This is supported by the ace of disks (pentacles) and the 7 of disks. The 7 of pentacles can show patience as you wait on your investments or considering whether you invest or not. Aces are new starts. So, you would still be thinking about whatever alternative option you rejected to stay. Maybe you would know its still on the table and that's why you toy with the idea as a contingency plan. You know your growth is being stunted. Honestly for this group I think you were meant to leave. I don't think you would ever have been able to throw away this opportunity.

The king of wands is passionate and action oriented. This is how you would yearn to be. An energy like this cannot be contained. For some of you this may be referring to leaving a family dynamic or hometown behind. Right under the king is the 8 of cups reversed. With the imagery, I'm getting substance abuse problems. Maybe its common where you're from, alcoholism in particular. With it reversed, I think you would want to cut ties once and for all. Like just ghost friends, cousins, maybe even a partner. Like its the sort of thing where there may be all this lore associated with your name back home.

You will see what you could turn out like and decide to just go. For some this could relate to a job too. Maybe you see how the job consumes people around you, people lose relationships, some may get depressed, start drinking. You might have "noped" out of that and decided to carve your own path.

For those resonating with more of a family dynamic, I think you might experience some kind of loss. The kind of loss that acts as the straw that breaks the camel's back. Like I'm hearing "well, if Granny G/GG ain't here anymore, wtf am I doing here?" For others you could experience some kind of deep betrayal like a cheating spouse, a backstabbing best friend. And it will just make you go "fuck it" and choose yourself. You might not even be about all that lovey-dovey crap anyway.

Oracle Message: The oracle cards basically repeated the same message: Imposter Syndrome, Forever a Phoenix, and Emergence. Its literally what I- like look at this: "Sometimes you can't save it. Sometimes you have to take what's left and what lessons you have learned and simply just watch the rest burn to the ground." (Forever a Phoenix) The message of feeling confined comes up as well. The emergence card depicts a butterfly woman emerging from her cocoon. It's giving...I REST MY CASE.

Pile 2

Off the bat: A lot of you could be watching for an academic or professional situations. It reminds me of when I had to choose another school over my first choice. In hindsight, that was the best decision I could have made. I now can truly understand the saying "thank god for unanswered prayers." A move could be significant in someway so maybe some of you relocated or chose to stay where you are.

4-card spread: 9 of Wands, Wheel of Fortune, The Moon, The Hanged Man. Bottom of deck is The Fool.

I immediately started to feel a lot of anxiety. My chest feels kind of tight. If you hadn't left maybe you would have dealt with a lot of anxiety or panic attacks. I feel like the environment would have been stifling. A lot of major arcanas in a spread can sometimes signify stability or a lack of change. So if you are watching for a professional situation (academic counts too), you might not have progressed. This could look like never being given promotions. For others I am getting a combo of work and school like a dance academy or something. In a situation like this may always skip over you when it comes time for assigning solos. There is also a lot of romantic energy coming through but please consider how it resonates for your situation.

I also think something about remaining in whatever this is, would have caused you to doubt yourself. The moon and the wheel of fortune side by side could hint at emotional or mental instability. While I do read the wheel as a positive card, because it is something that is always turning, it can also represent a certain predictable unpredictability. The 9 of wands reinforces the message about being on guard. I think it would have been really exhausting to keep up with this toxicity indefinitely.

If this represents a romantic "third party" situation, the affair would have continued in the same way it was going. This applies regardless of which side of the third party you fall on. So if you were in a relationship with the person already, they would keep cheating. Or you would never be able to relax because you'd always be waiting for the next shoe to drop. Always on the look out for signs they're back to their old ways and never fully being able to trust them. No relationship can thrive in the those circumstances. So it would leave you frozen in this state of constant misery.

For others, if you resonate with being the person they snuck around with or if you were one of the many people they were entertaining, they would have kept that up, unfortunately. You would probably get resentful eventually. You may not even get any kind of title that would hint at some kind of significance to your relationship. They would not show the kind of effort that makes you go, "wow, they really value me and want to make this connection work". Nope, with the wheel and the fool. They would want to continue popping in and out with no thought to how it could throw you off balance. They could ghost. Your self-esteem and ability to ground yourself would really suffer.

This could also apply for situations where cheating wasn't the issue or at least it wasn't the only one. If the other person was rude, or controlling, or just awful, that would have continued. It would be you giving up parts of yourself and your peace to keep things afloat. They would still poster like they are "self-made" and like they're a great person.

Oracle Message: I haven't pulled anything yet but some of you may benefit from meditating. If this is something you have been practicing and wonder if there's any point, there is but the benefits are cumulative. So, you have to stick with it. Same with therapy, fitness journeys, or health journeys. Any kind of self-care. You just gotta be consistent. I am pulling from my affirmation cards deck. I'm going to insert a pic. "Today I am responsible" and "today I am at peace" came out together. My intentions were to read these cards as if they came out reversed. So with that in mind, you would have continued being in a lot drama and back and forth. The situation would be detrimental to your mental health and possibly physical health. Think a partner or friend that uses substances and so it makes it easier for you to get into. You might not get as much joy out of life and work would be unfulfilling. Overall, you would not experience much growth as a person.

Pile 3

Off the bat: I am getting more relationship and love energy. But if you are here for something nonromantic, just change the love stuff to fit your situation. Many of you are here for friends or significant others. For some of you, this reading may not be "that deep." Like perhaps this is just a crush that you moved on from and you're wondering what could have happened with them. Others you might have left a party and you're trying to quash the feelings of FOMO lol. Bubbles from The Powerpuff Girls could be significant for some reason.

4-card spread: 10 of Swords, Ten of Cups, Ace of Swords, King of Pentacles. Bottom of deck is 4 of Cups.

I just want to note that the king of pentacles came out sideways. So if there is a flakey or unreliable person in this situation, they would have let you down. So for some resonating with a party or a gathering, if you wanted to stay because a friend or a crush was there, they might have ended up ditching you anyway. You could have stayed and realized this person was not even available, so perhaps they came with someone else. You might have just ended up bored, in your feelings, and way too drunk.

Next, if this was someone that was breadcrumbing you or kind of one foot in, one foot out, they have the potential to really disappoint you. I say this because of the sideways king of pentacles, ten of swords, 4 of cups, and the 6 of pentacles right under the 4 of cups. So you could have ended up feeling unfulfilled emotionally or practically (e.g. quality time). This other person could be kind of cocky, especially if they have a lot of other friend or dating options.

For others of you, staying could have led to pregnancy or children in some way. So this could be a partner or spouse that you considered staying with. A few examples I am getting: Having a child with this person, staying with them and starting a family, finding out they had a child or family with someone else.

The storyline is kind of splitting at this point. Some of this could resonate or none of it, so trust your gut. There's a group of you where things would not have been that bad. This is only for people who had a decent relationship with the person. Maybe the main issue was that you both weren't mature enough or stable enough to have a baby or a super serious relationship. This pregnancy would make you two very happy and would bring you closer together. Even if you ended up co-parenting, I think it would be okay for the most part.

Now, for the other half of the storyline...it's not such a happy ending. If something told you this person was not reliable enough to have a family with, that was likely the truth. They seem like the sort of person that would seem cool to start. They would act like they are going to step up. Think coming around your family more, being present for first ultrasounds, looking at apartments with you. I do think there would still be an air of detachment though. Unfortunately, this person gives me the vibe that they would just go cold. Like they may start off seeming bored, then escalate to "no call, no show" type of behavior, culminating in them ghosting or being very hard to reach. They aren't as ready as they seem and you would be mostly on your own. Whether this means as a single parent or them letting your relationship fall apart. They could continue posting online with their friends, when you were supposed to go to an open house, or crib shopping, or having your baby shower...you get the idea.

Oracle Message: I am pulling from a non tarot deck. I will insert a picture of the cards. It would be a lot to type out in order to explain properly. 😅You could resonate with certain cards more than others. (OMG you know what I just realized. I was getting Bubbles earlier and isn't that what Summer Walker calls her baby? If you know about her and her relationship drama, that could be more confirmation.) For some of you, you could see "what could have been," reflected in one of your friend's life. Maybe they made the opposite decision than you. The cards talking about fate lead me to believe that maybe things worked out in your best interests. In hindsight, you might be able to see how you dodged a bullet. Perhaps you would have had to sacrifice your goals, boundaries, or self-love. The other person seems really messy. The first, third, and sixth card make me think that. The first card is again making me feel like they could have a group that they run with that probably isn't the best influence. Maybe they have a lot of run-ins with the law. Impulsivity and recklessness could be the norm with this person. Also, it would probably be very hard to trust this person. Specifically, it would be veryy hard to trust they will change. You could have the same conversations and just go around in circles with no results. The trust question makes me think of couples counseling and the card next to it reminds me of individual counseling. You would probably get more out of one-on-one counseling. Whatever decision you made here was the right one.

I've been considering offering personals. I would probably put a quota on certain readings just so we are all "consuming responsibly", so to say. It would also just make me feel more a little more comfy. Boundaries were the main reason I stopped doing readings for anyone besides myself. I need to have my ducks in a row so for now it's just a thought.

Anywhoo 🦉 I've got soo many more readings planned. The last one from the poll will be a classic love reading. I will probably do another poll so keep an eye out for that! 💋

~K

#tarotcommunity #pick a card #tarot #intuitive readings #tarot reading #oracle reading #spirituality #oracle cards #pick a pile #pick a card reading

[kyouka-supremacy]

ooh how about Yosano for the ask game?

Yay Yosano!!! I love her so much <33

Favorite thing about them: Her backstory,,, It's just a masterpiece, for me it's really the peak of bsd's writing. “We don't want your skill. We want that kindness of yours” and “You don't need a skill at all. There's real value in your sadness.” ueueueueueueue. In two chapters it made of a relatively flat character a complex and human one, and we love to see that.

Least favorite thing about them: Nothing, she's great??? I can't think of anything.

Favorite line: There's no line that hits me in particular I can think of, but I really like the emotion / delivery of some of them. This one I like tons:

brOTP: Aaaaahhh I love her I want to see her interact with everyone. Older-sister kind of characters are ALWAYS my favourite. I love her dynamics with Ranpo and I like to think they have this sort of sibling complicity of two people who have known each other for a very long time and love each other deeply. I like her relationship with Fukuzawa, I like how explicitly protective he is of her, I'm glad she has someone she can trust who looks after her and makes her feel loved. (Actually, the Yosano / Fukuzawa relationship makes me emotional. Because Yosano was so deeply traumatized and broken and basically dead when he took her under his wing, and she looks so healthy and confident and serene in the canon timeline, it's basically a miracle; and the only way this could have happened is by having someone who deeply loved and cared for her, someone who kindly guided her through every step of rehabilitation. It moves me a little). I really enjoyed her interactions with Atsushi!! And I like to think Yosano and Kyouka would hang out, I feel like Yosano would be happy to sort of return the favour and help back a little girl who was able to slip out of the darkness just in time; I can see them have this kind of inter generational relationship where they go shopping together and chat about girl things.

OTP: I really like kousano!!! I feel like Yosano deserves her spicy pm love affair too ahah. I think it's got lots of potential for both fluff and angst, and I believe it's a cool relationship to explore for both characters!! I wish they'd meet in canon. When I first watched the anime I was low-key into ranposano, and though I don't feel very strongly about them anymore, I think it's a nice ship nonetheless!

nOTP: Nothing. Really I don't dislike ships pffttt.

Random headcanon: Something I don't think I ever brought up but that I firmly believe in is that whereas all the other ada members live at the ada dorms, Yosano, Ranpo and Fukuzawa have their own house where they live together. Fukuzawa took Ranpo to his home when he adopted him, and then Yosano joined them when they took her in because I mean, there was no way that they could leave her alone, right? So they've always lived together, and they are happy together, they never felt the need to change that. That's the real ada found family for me if there ever was one. Really like deconstructing the idea of nuclear family or of the fact that children can't live with their parents as adults while still being independent. Also it just makes sense? And it's heartwarming to think that Fukuzawa, the lone wolf with no friends of relations, now lives in a happy and lively household.

Unpopular opinion: Yosano existing isn't enough to beat the bsd being sexist allegations, I'm so sorry everyone I wish that was the case.

Song i associate with them: Kilmer by Niru Kajitsu, I just wish I didn't (个_个) There's even a beautiful fanart of Yosano in the style of the Kilmer pv here. Also Fräulein=Biblioteca by nyanyannya, just based on vibes alone (the purple butterflies!!), to mention something a little less depressing lol.

Favorite picture of them:

Favourite panel from the manga:

(Took me like. One hour to pick just one. She's always stunning in Harukawa's art style.)

Favourite illustration:

Favourite illustration in the anime art style:

Favourite Mayoi card:

Send me a character?

#Thank you for the ask I love her!!!! <333 #akiko yosano #bsd #mine #people asks me stuff

[dreamhacker606]

Your Boyfriend Fangame

Alright listen up folks:

I have an idea related to the Your Boyfriend game and our beloved Peter.

For context, recently I found out that the plot of Peter and MC ended up getting really toxic and terrible. Like into territory that just doesn’t seem as characteristic to the Peter we were introduced to in the beginning. I understand that’s the whole point, but I feel like it really could’ve gone better and we could’ve had a choice to fix things or whatever.

Then there’s the issue with Fuboo. I dunno what it is about creators of horror games/comics/etc being child groomers/predators, but it’s becoming too much of a theme nowadays. Y’all can correct me if this is wrong and provide evidence against the accusations. I still feel like my idea will really help bring the YB fandom back up again because goddammit I adore the characters.

Anyways here’s the idea:

We get introduced to the characters as usual like it is in the first chapter. However, rather than the story focusing on Peter, we get the choice to go into other characters as well, such as getting to know our roomie, Lucy, more or getting to hang out with TK. Maybe even cracking the hard exterior of Don.

What I’m saying is…

I want a dating sim.

It would be great! Think about it: we get the chance to romance Peter, our stalker, and maybe help him out in the end. However, we still get the chance to date the other characters if we wanted to if we make the right choices as the MC. Think about it:

Lucy, partygirl and nympho, is actually really shy and sweet when you get to know her more. She loves something nerdy or bookish, like LotR or Classic Novels.

TK becomes more than a best friend/coworker as you hang out more (I feel like he’d be a total hipster into arcade games and antiques ngl).

Don, our landlord daddy, ends up being a real sweetheart and we get to see him crack a smile or laugh if we say the right thing.

This could really work. Also, of course, MC has the choice of being referred to as she/her, he/him, they/them, etc. as well as whatever name they choose.

I’m kind of pulling my ideas from DDLC (Doki Dokie Lit. Club) and The Arcana, but I still feel like it would work.

The only thing we might have issues with is that Fuboo or whoever else created the game might use copyright rules or whatever because it’s be their original idea.

However, I feel like if this is just a fangame and, unfortunately, give credit to a child groomer, this would still work. The credit would just go to the character ideas and game, but the rest would be an original plot.

But Sage, what about the horror aspect of the game?

Well, we can still add that. Maybe Peter, when you date the others, can still be like Monika in DDLC where she kills off the other interests. He doesn’t actually do it but we could make sure we protect TK, Lucy, and/or Don. Peter’s route would just be us dealing with him directly.

Also, if we have good or bad endings, we could still have the horror aspect, like having murder or something.

I just really miss YB content and I hate to know that, once again, a creator couldn’t just be a decent human.

I think that’s all I have for now at least. Please let me know if you’d be interested in working on this. I’d love to help out anyway I can.

Disclaimer: I am (currently) not making the fangame. I will see if I can with the resources I have available, but I’m ngl Apple products are not creator friendly.

Edit:

Ahah so this keeps getting a fair amount of notes. I just have a question: how do I develop a game like this?

#your boyfriend #your boyfriend peter #peter your boyfriend #ddlc #doki doki literature club #the arcana #dating sim #dating game #fuck child groomers #new idea #fresh start #game design #game dev #game developers #game development #new game!

[ofliterarynature]

OCTOBER 2023 WRAP UP

[loved liked ok no thanks (reread) book club* DNF]

The Sunset Years of Agnes Sharp | Conrad’s Fate | Hold Fast Through the Fire | All the White Spaces* | The Game of Courts | (Artificial Condition) | From Below | Creatures of Will and Temper | The Saint of Bright Doors | (All Systems Red) | Over My Dead Body | The Twyford Code | A Conjuring of Light | Small Miracles | A Murderous Relation | Realm of Ash | The Magicians of Caprona | The Hourglass Throne | Raw Dog | Graveminder | The Devil and Winnie Flynn

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I am getting to this SO LATE, forgive me if I don't say a lot because I have forgotten so much. Work has eaten all of my time and energy against my will (should I get a new job? Probably). Anyways.

The Hourglass Throne - Will definitely need to reread this before the next book comes out (even thought they're all pretty well self contained for a series!) because WHAT? I have only half an idea what's going on, and no idea how to feel about the ending. Do I grieve? Not grieve? ??????? I think book 2 is still my favorite, but these books are addictive and a joy to read.

The Magicians of Caprona - I think at this point it's fair to say that I don't think DWJ could write a book that is uninteresting to read, but this is definitely my least favorite of at least the Chrestomanci books so far.

Realm of Ash - book 2 of the Books of Ambha series; I didn't like the first book in this series, why did I continue? Hope, that it would build on the things in the first book that I actually liked, and bring the sisters back together. It was better, I guess, but not in any way that really made me like it. I wish I'd followed my impulse and returned it to the library without listening.

A Murderous Relation - another Veronica Speedwell mystery, reliably enjoyable as always :)

Small Miracles - This was a DELIGHT. This was a fun romp (I'm told) in the vein of Good Omens, but with small stakes - and small miracles. The fallen angel of petty temptations is hired by an angelic friend to help the most sinless (and miserable) mortal have a little fun. But there's more to it than meets the eye, and the case gets tangled up the mortal woman's niece, pretending to be a school counselor, difficult family relationships, rants about chocolate, and inconsiderate siblings who rudely keep picking the same human gender as you. It's sweet, comforting, very queernorm, and a little romantic (f/gf)

A Conjuring of Light - I finished my Shades of Magic reread! Thank god. I was so thoroughly not impressed with books 2 & 3 this time around - they're just one book, divided in two, and I don't think it was divided in the right spot. It's so disappointing that these did not age with me, but you will also have to pry my copies away from me because they're one of the few books I've ever gotten signed in person (and the original covers are just cool). I fully intend to submit myself to the new spinoff series because hope never really dies lol.

The Twyford Code - This was such a strange and delightful book, that I'm not even sure I'm mad about the twist at the ending, I had such a good time reading it. (past me, listening: wow, this would have made such a cool fiction podcast, right? Joke's on me haha). I did honestly think I'd forgotten what this book was about for a bit, but then I was going through some old kid's books from my grandma that were *exactly* like the series in this book, and I had a big AHAH moment that delighted me.

Over My Dead Body - this was my first/nonfiction attempt at jamming in some spooky-ish books before the end of October. Overall, good. I did learn some new facts and there were some interesting parts; but I didn't always appreciate some of the author's commentary, and when it say's "America's Cemeteries," it really only means its urban cemeteries, which was a bit disappointing.

All Systems Red/Artificial Condition - Murderbot, my Beloved. rereading for the new book, and I'm trying my hardest to NOT do it on audiobook this time - and it's really worth it to read it in text, I promise, even if Kevin R Free's voice still echoes in my mind.

The Saint of Bright Doors - this was such a strange and wonderful read, I am so delighted to have read this, I love an unapologetically weird book. The vibe definitely reminds me a bit of The City & The City, or in some ways The Undertaking of Hart and Mercy; except I had other problems with those books and didn't finish them, but I did like this one. I know this won't be everyone's cup of tea, but maybe give it a shot.

Creatures of Will and Temper - another spooky book, and ooh boy could I go on an entire rant, I didn't want to finish this one but felt I had to for reasons. I'll let you look up the plot yourselves, but picture this: Victorian London, two sisters (one who likes swords!), and a whole lot of queer characters I wasn't expecting. I was delighted! Except you gradually learn every single queer character is involved with this club that has made a pact with a demon. What exactly does that mean? Who knows, because the book does not tell you until at least 3/4 of the way through, and we only have the word of the jacket copy and our sainted demon slayer, who is sketchy af the moment we get him alone. Turns out it's a chill demon who doesn't want blood sacrifice, cool cool, but maybe it should have been thought through a little more? Also the main/only successful romance in the book is between a 17 year old girl and a woman who is at minimum in her 30's, explicitly encouraged in part by the demon. hmm. Overall the writing and rest of the story was just ok, and the ending was disgustingly saccharine and just bad. Would strongly not recommend, but if someone wants my copy you're welcome to it. 2 stars.

From Below - another spooky book, and somehow still the most successful even though I didn't like it much. I almost DNF'd this in the first half, and while I wouldn't say I wish i had, I think my time could have been better spent. But really - if you are diving at an untouched ship wreck, that went missing with hundreds of unaccounted passengers and crew, in an area of the ocean entirely inhospitable to life, shouldn't one of the things you expect to find be human bodies??????? I got so worked up, lol, but once the spooky stuff started I had a better time.

The Game of Courts - new Nine World's novella! I love that Victoria takes the time to explore the various characters in her books outside of the main narrative. Getting to learn more about Conju ourside the current story was much appreciated, even if getting to see an outsider POV of earlier Kip was maybe the main draw. Probably not my favorite of the Lays novellas, but worth reading - and maybe a good starting place for those who are new to the series? Now if only I could get myself to read Derring-Do...

All the White Spaces - bookclub pick that got rescheduled to Nov (more time to reread Murderbot tho, so yay me). The description of this - trans guy on an antarctic exploration that goes wrong - sounded interesting, but it was kind of meh for me in the end. For one I was expecting more horror, but the description of "polar gothic" I've seen since really fits better. I also wasn't a fan of the supernatural explanation, and the whole thing felt hopeless from the beginning, once we got a grasp on the *actual* details of the situation, so I didn't quite know what we were here for. Not my cup of tea.

Hold Fast Through the Fire - NeoG book two!!!! This series is turning out to be very akin to the Tarot sequence in that they not perfect books or 5 stars by any means, but are so fun and addictive to read. This series is space opera, post-post-apocalypse where Earth has two colonies, and the series is about a team in the space!coast guard. Getting into the specific plot of this book isn't actually important, but there's a good 50/50 split on plot vs talking about our emotions!!! I love it, it definitely shows some improvement over book 1, even though I don't know that the author has got the POV's quite balanced out. Jenks is lucky I love her because her drama sure does keep taking over (and I cried so hard for her in this one you guys). Would recommend. Did I mention that almost everyone is queer?

Conrad’s Fate - a good book, but this is also the point where I really started questioning the recommended Chrestomanci reading order. I think chronologically it's book 2? And I'd already forgotten so much from The Lives of Christopher Chant, I do not understand and wish I'd read them chronologically. Much more fun than the Magicians of Caprona.

The Sunset Years of Agnes Sharp - I was SO excited when I saw there was a new Leonie Swann being published in english, even if it wasn't the sequel to Three Bags Full (which I read last year and loved). I was even MORE excited when the book opened and was being narrated by the pet tortoise!!! Alas, it was not to last, I did not get another murder novel narrated by an animal. That being said, still pretty good, it reminded me of the Thursday Murder Club (which I liked less), but probably won't be a favorite.

DNF'S - Graveminder and The Devil and Winnie Flynn were both books I own that I tried to fit in for spooky month that did not work out. Winnie Flynn I admit I dropped almost immediately, the vibes were peak bad YA and I wasn't going to torture myself. Graveminder I tried, because I liked the idea, and it wasn't bad per-se, but something about the way it was executed (and the many many POV's) just wasn't working for me. Might fit someone else better though.

Raw Dog I really wanted to like, because the history of hot dogs and a description/ranking of hot dogs are both extremely up my alley - and I did make it 40% in! But there were just a number of factors building up against this - the author's sometimes very (overly?) sharp commentary, my lack of interest in her dysfunctional life, the lack of any comparative rating system for the hot dogs, the food waste, and the sheer number of bodily excretions used as descriptors for the food finally tipped me over the edge. I could have kept listening but I didn't really want to. Perhaps for someone, but not for me.

#book log #wrap up 2023 #2023 #books #booklr #bookblr #neog #hold fast through the fire #chrestomanci #small miracles #olivia atwater #the twyford code #murderbot #victoria goddard #over my dead body #tarot sequence #the sunset years of agnes sharp #the saint of bright doors #creatures of will and temper

[destinymanticor]

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@avomorg @bumblebeeenby

Currently reading:

Well, according to fics, only on AO3 26 pages of subscriptions... ლ(╹◡╹ლ)

But I can mention from AO3 "Fractures"

From Ficbook (!rus), I can only note "Truth is a cave" by chiwich

Oh, if I’m rereading book with infernal detectives (1991) (!rus), which fell into my hands back in 2012-13

I don't really remember the events where I got it from. I just remember that I picked it up on street, for some reason a "garbage bin" pops up in my head, but it definitely doesn't seem to be from it, right (⓿_⓿)???

Favorite color:

if roughly specified, they will be dark green, silver, ~terracotta, and purple

Its hard for me to describe in words, so I'll attach ~approximate pic for colors

i like all colors

except for bright red shades, especially when there is a lot of it or if it is an accent color..... like

that's why I usually not use bright red in the arts, even when draw Kai -- I dim red a bit

oh what is there? ah eah

Last song

well I'm hooked now on (╯▽╰ )

"Dear Wormwood" -- this is pretty related to the end arc for one of my OC now ahah

"You're the Only Thing in Your Way" -- this one for one of those AUs "that I probably donno how write"

"Lemon Demon - Modify" -- its just fun music + funny animation 🔪🔪🔪

Last movie:

Does the Lego Ninjago Movie count? when I watched it for screenshots? I just don't remember the last time I sat down and watched it just for the sake of a movie.

"Ирония судьбы, или С лёгким паром!" in new year i don't count

Sweet/spicy/savory:

I really like sweet, milk chocolate, jelly and various caramels. I also really like sweet and sour things, especially if they cause a reaction like in cartoons, but in reality. But there are few of them, so lemons and kiwis will help me (○｀ 3′○)

I love spicy, of course, jalapeno, chili, and other spicy peppers

not against wasabi and horseradish (although for me they mostly differ in the burn duration and resting speed)

savory doesn’t evoke special feelings, like okay, not insipid and okay ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Currently working on:

A small animation like "into the game". I have the first part sketch-animatic, but it seems to me that with the second part I put too much information for timing

some pictures for 14 february

and a small picture with butterfly 🍋

(ʘ ͜ʖ ʘ) wow how many txt

Tagging:

!!! (☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞ @sunnylighter @sebilini @quiznak-ofgrayskull @howuart @peachyninjago @pixanefan @emisnt2 @tokaywineandcheese @kdragon107

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sorry if you had something like that, I have a worse memory than a goldfish, and the attentiveness like stone ༼ ◕_◕ ༽

#txt #tag game #oc #post

[words-of-wolf]

do you differentiate between being a wolf in a past life from being a werewolf? how's being a wolf and a werewolf different, to you? :O

The fun part is, I mostly don't differentiate!

Being a wolf therian and a werewolf are very deeply intertwined for me. For the longest time, I just called myself a wolf therian, and was mostly okay with that. But the werewolf feelings were always there too. I always thought of myself as a werewolf, I just didn't use the label.

It's... hmm. I'm not werewolfkin, if that makes sense? I'm just a werewolf. And my experiences as a werewolf aren't tied at all to mythological or folklore ideas of that - I'm not some savage beast craving human flesh under the light of the full moon ahah! (Though anyone who is that is valid).

The best way I've found to explain it is that my identity as a wolf is past tense: it's what I was. My identity as a werewolf is present tense: it's what I am now.

The difference is that, what I perceive as wolf experiences are primarily in the form of memories, noema, etc. - deeply meaningful to me, but disconnected from my present life.

My experiences as a werewolf are what happens when those experiences are filtered through a human body, and - most crucially - a human mind.

Internally, my self-perception is that I "should", perhaps, be a wolf... along with all that entails. Including the different senses, the different cognitive abilities, the different instincts.

But what I am now isn't literally wolf. Sometimes that causes me dysphoria. The deepest dysphoria I've felt hasn't related to my body, but my mind - how I think and feel. Even if my soul is wolf, it's operating on human hardware and that has a profound impact on who I am, and even how I experience my wolfhood.

So... I'm a human who is wolf. I'm a wolf person.

But the way that feels most true to articulate my feelings is that I'm just a werewolf. I'm what a werewolf is in real life, in this world. This world's version of werewolves: some guy who doesn't shapeshift, but will get amped up when the moon's right and will absolutely bite you if you piss them off enough.

I'd say, as well, that there's some things I experience as a werewolf that I didn't experience as a wolf - and those things are human experiences, but mixed in with wolf ones. As a werewolf, I'd say my experiences feature anger more prominently, because as a human I sure find a lot to be angry about. So my werewolf self-perception is more keyed towards aggression, but interestingly that part is actually rooted in the human side of being a werewolf, not the animal side. And it mixes together in the sense that a very human anger (like political anger) gets presented in an animal way (wanting to run, snarl, tear things apart, bite, etc.).

Calling myself a werewolf is really deeply euphoric for me. ^u^ Not entirely sure what's in that feeling yet. But I restrained myself from talking about myself in that sense for so many years, because I felt like I shouldn't, it was misleading, wolf therian is more accurate, etc. And at the end of the day that restraint never served me, just kept me from embracing one part of my experiences, and calling myself the word that makes me most happy.

(Pokes that post I made recently about self-indulgence. Seriously. Stop policing yourself, be free).

I think another thing tied up in this is that I wouldn't in this life want to transform into a wolf and live as a wolf forever - that would suck actually. What brings me most comfort is the idea of transformation between wolf, human, and in-between forms. The idea of being able to transform in that way is also super euphoric for me!

And if I was given some chance to permanently change form, ultimately the form I'd opt for is like how people often think of werewolves - something between wolf and human, but in a more wild and animalistic way than a furry-style anthro, and more deeply inhuman than kemonomimi. Something that looks and feels animal, while still having the traits I like about being human (hands with opposable thumbs my beloved).

It's interesting to think about this! Because my wolf therian and werewolf identities are really deeply linked, but they're still distinct to me. But in a way, they feel like two expressions of the same core feeling and experience - wolf therian as a past tense connection to a life I feel I lived as a real, biological wolf; and werewolf as a present tense experience of being wolf as a human, and living a human life as a wolf.

#otherkin #therian #therianthropy #wolf therian #wolfkin

[canon-vi]

Name: Hecate

Age: 16

Height: 157-158

Birthday: 04.07 (fourth of July)

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• she likes luxurious and fluffy dresses, but finds them not comfortable, so she prefers to wear them only at events

• has a special interest in magic

• she believes that care and kindness must be earned, so she does not react strongly to her father’s love, but reaches out to her mother and tries to imitate her

• not interested in the throne, but interested in social events

• " Did I offend you? ... Cry) "

• has a special love for snakes

• to some extent is a yandere

• kills people she doesn’t like by poisoning, but rarely, and especially when that person knows too much

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Hecate's attitude towards the others:

Nightmare:

And they still call him a tyrant? Haha, I'd bet, in every family, the main ones are the wives, right?

Frieda:

Mom is truly magnificent when she speaks in front of people, her charisma knows no bounds

Merciless:

Brother is very weak, he even reminds me of the soft side of our father, ahah, sometimes I have a desire to protect him, as if I were an older sister

Artemis:

Oh, I have a terrible relationship with her, I would prefer to change the topic of conversation.

Alphonse:

Oh, father's guard? He really loves to chat about his daughter, I think for such a listener as a father, he is perfect

Hope:

Oh, I really want this miss to teach me magic or anything related to witchcraft

Dream:

That miss's lover? Well, apparently my sister is very unlucky in her personal life that the Empress wants to marry them, haha

Nim:

The Empress is truly stupid, why kill those who can hypothetically dispel that curse? You never know, a lot of people were killed, someone could definitely

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E. L. A. by @anotherrosesthatfell

#evil lux au

[yostresswritinggirl]

i heard we're talking about voicelines...? in that case, allow me to brainrot a little about possible voicelines for heart!reader

for cyno, his "in general" voiceline would probably be about how he goes on about how much they mean to him and rambles while the traveler just looks at him funny (like "damn this dude is in LOVE")

another one would be when he encounters danger like even thunder perhaps and goes "i hope they're okay rn" or "dw i have experience with this" sjskwkzkkeksm

(this is leaning more towards crack than serious bc i don't have the energy to think properly rn)

tighnari would be "oh? you speak of y/n? they've spent a portion of time before here in gandharva ville. they were a top student of their darshan by the time they graduated, so they have their smarts. though it would be great if they would use those smarts to avoid reckless actions..."

for collei she would talk about how they're someone with a good heart, despite their outward expression may be like they're uninterested. but she continues on saying how she feels like they have some sort of "desperation" going on with them and how it kinda reminded her of her old self (this particular one is pre-2.0)

these voicelines are basically poking fun at reader if you look closely they're such a loser (affectionately)

-cyno lovebot anon

Cyno lovebot anon and Bloom anon be like alchemy, equivalent exchange on brainrots, it's like I have two aranaras on each side of my shoulders feeding me with ideas

Since I'm extra and aiming for the "voiceline master" title, here's my interpretations and adjustments to your ideas <3

(This ask is related to the aftermath of a published story called What The Heart Offers, spoilers ahead if you haven't read it yet)

Heart!Cyno: About Reader

I have heard of similar dilemmas like this before that have been solved by (Y/N), have you tried talking to them? Even with my credentials, their second opinion will always shine a light on a new perspective. It is this consistency that had made every conversation with them worth it, I would not trade those moments for the world... *clears throat* I apologize, I think I let my mouth run for too long.

When It Rains... (after reconciliation)

*whispering to himself* They're not in danger, are they?... Good, that's good.¹

Heart!Tighnari: About Reader

(Y/N)? What's wrong, what happened-? Oh, you were just asking about them. Ahah, please excuse my behavior, it's habit now that whenever their name is mentioned, it usually spells trouble.

Actually, now that I think about it... When's the last time you've seen them?

Heart!Collei: About Reader (before incident 2.0)

I know you might think of them as unapproachable, but I believe they're just in need of company and good friends! They kind of... remind me of myself from the past, perhaps that's why I want to sincerely understand them. I just hope they find what they've been looking for.

You're right they kinda are like a loser omfg ahahahshdgsjw the slander sksksksk here's my rendition I hope you like how they look more loser on this one hahahahaha

Collei about Tighnari and Reader: they may look like bitches but I swear they're good people, you just gotta look twice!!

¹Cyno is talking to the spirit inside of him in this dialogue.

#cyno lovebot anon #exile.goblet #heart!cyno #collei #tighnari #exile.reader #genshin x reader

[zapsoda]

hello chief!! spacecrew fan reporting for duty!! 🫡 what's everybody's reason to leave their former situation and become bounty hunters (and/or joining this particular ship)?

iirc tally left his planet cuz he was "inferior" and dispensable so he just headed out and kip followed him to protecc him but idrk for the rest of them....

ehehe ive actually been thinking about this a lot lately!!! some of the details are subject to change but ill share what ive had in mind thus far

youre basically right about tally and kip, still not settled how they get into the bounty hunting profession specifically but tally left because he was miserable and kip followed bc he loves him (also because he is desperate for adventure ehehe)

roy works a shitty on-site engineer/technician job at a machine rental service which she is entirely overqualified for. she follows technology-related news and tinkers with little contraptions at her family home.

one day she hears about a certain missing android, which catches her attention. there is little precedent for a report like this, and the details released to the public dont make sense. she decided her next project will be finding this little runaway. not to turn it in, just out of sheer curiosity.

um cw for suicide in this next bit i spose

bax is a human, fucking miserable. its not like his life is particularly bad. his family are upper middle class and love him. he does fine in school. he just hit the genetic lottery with mental illness in addition to being a huge egg ahah. when hes around 16 he tries to kill himself.

cw over for the rest of this bit

to his utter chagrin, he wakes up. he wakes up in a strange place, his hair is longer, all his memories are foggy. it must be a hospital, but its no hospital hes ever seen before. for one, there are no other humans. no other earth creatures he recognizes, for that matter.

the nurses and attendants have skin of cold steel. synthetic voices, synthetic faces, synthetic hair.

one of them, he builds a rapport with. this one is strange. instead of being exasperated with baxters constant badgering, quippingz and questioning of the attendants, he is intrigued. he even asks baxter questions in return.

the android begins sneaking baxter little treats. snacks, better food, little toys. in exchange, bax talks his nonexistent ears off during every second of its free time. he nicknames it clam chowder.

this of course, does not go unpunished. this robot has a job to do. codes to abide. their time together is subsequently limited, clam is assigned to a ward on the opposite side of the building. this sucks. clam desperately wants to leave the hospital grounds, see the world, bax doesnt know what he wants other than that he fucking hates being at the hospital and he likes clam, so hell help him at any cost.

they come up with a plan for escape. and they gtfo.

from here, everything gets hazy. my plan is to start with the first mission all 5 of them go on and work backwards, fleshing out the events that actually bring the rest of em together :3

maybe kip is a mailperson who meet roys parents by chance and end up agreeing to track her down for them accidentally, before roping his con artist nephew in, idk!

#ty for the ask!! sorry if i wrote a lot hahahaa #asks #oc stuff