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justpked · 4 months

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As someone who has only recently found this blog I understand there was another one that has been deleted. Will any of the info of the old one be re uploaded on this one? Because I see occasionally references to stuff and I'm so confused.

I may, though my mind will have refresh itself about the topic being talked about. I'll be sure to add in some stuff from the old blog, such as a few terminology often used.

One thing in particular was that some individuals have talked about is the beginning of Chapter One. You know, where the part where Entity tells you to 'give in'. MCs now have the option to truly 'give in' and the outcome is... well...

I know I shouldn't like this path, but BOI, do I adore this 'Shian'. Shian in this path has become a fully grown adult, and er... let's say a LOT of things has happened since you've slept, Harbinger.

#ask response #fs: asks #a new path baby #ahaha #i hate myself #but at the same time #i really love this path #for reasons

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prototypelq · 5 months

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I HAVE HALFWAY WROTE A DEFEAT LETTER BUT I HAVE MANAGED TO FINALLY BEAT M19 SOS VERGIL Y E S FINALLY I WILL FREAKIN CRY TEARS OF JOY HERE

#I DID IT I DID IT I DID JT #i ran around like a freakin headless chicken in the end and IT PAYED OFF #oh freakin hell #ahaha now only to repeat this with nero who i haven't touched in about a year now ahahahaha #...st least he has better options for dealing with the clone #game even awarded me with s though there was nowhere near s gameplay to be found #i am a bit overwhelmed now #i am now fully realising Exactly How Far Away from a 'hardcore' gamer i am #can you believe i started the year thinking 'if i go slow and casual at it i think i could take on harder dmc5 difficulties'#i feel ready to go back in time and theottle that idiot #this was...not fun but it also kind of was only because dmc5 gameplay is so good and dante is amazing to play as #and vergil is a great opponent he makes you take the situation seriously but you also learn to start goofing off its great #however i am NOT built for this i am so freakin not built for this boss grind i came through only because i like dmc so much #and i felt like if i could spend even a fraction of my fandom time in the actual game i could be much better at it #there is a number of games I overplayed to the point of starting to hate them and where the frustration overwrote the initial joy i felt #i felt like ive given myself enough time because i started to feel that frustration about dmc5 and i decidedly do NOT want that game #to end up like those i love it and want to enjoy it further so i was ready to concede defeat today #turns out i just had to be a better chicken thats good as nero is next and he is an arguably better for chicken tactic #maybe ill finish this sos run after all i would be glad if i could manage that #also im this close to 3 million and i want the dance taunt at least for dante)))#phew what an evening #mutuals my beloved thank you for constantly cheering me and reading this i can't find the words to express how much i cherish your support #and thank you tumblr for allowing me an entire book in the tags section hellsite my beloved

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cranberrysoap · 11 months

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I have tried to stopped fighting against my natural “rhythm” for art lately and slowly feeling better about taking my time

If it takes me an hour to warmup/reach my first decent sketch of the day (or even multiple sessions/days) so be it !

#irrelevant cran rambles #tho this is probably just can be a common symptom of comparing your wips to others peoples best finished works as is easy to fall into aha #also im sick of inadvertently or subconsciously rushing #we all hate rushed games or rushed films that havent been polished so why is it so easy to fall into the trap of rushing drawings ahaha #*like rushing myself to finish a drawing or rushing to draw Good i guess. but the pressure of rushing myself does the exact opposite lol #its a rambley morning my apologies lol #also drawing however i feel like and not arbitrarily tying myself to my existing ‘style’ feels freeing

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conjectureand-gloom · 4 months

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i fucking hate that they’ve never been with anyone before, but i have

i hate that they can say i’m their first love but they’re not the first person i’ve been with

did i love my previous girlfriend? (if i can even call her that-)

no

akeyla is my “first love”

but they’re not the first person i’ve ever been with and i fucking hate it

#akeyla ml #i genuinely hate myself more and more everyday because of this ahaha #i laugh because otherwise i’ll cry hahahahaha

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chilei-the-hotsauce · 1 year

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all the scars

bald lmao

#ahaha #mainly for myself #so i know where to do which one #ough so many #holding themselves together with spite and hate #my art #wait i need a tag that i can put this kinda stuff in #no wait i have the discord

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figurativepieceoftrash · 3 months

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So tempted to write but then I remember how terrible I feel when the inevitable poor engagement/bad stats hit and I just

Before deciding it's definitely better for my mental health not to 😭

#keep thinking my relationship w/ writing is getting better and then it nosedives again #ik it's a bad look on me but it's seriously so difficult to write when ik everything is gonna bomb 🙃#everyone tells me not to care about stats and I definitely shouldn't but my brain berates me for poor engagement regardless #I try not to compare myself to others but when fandom is so actively communal and opportunities for interaction are inherently linked to #fandom cred/displayed engagement metrics it's really tough 🙃#and then I hate myself for venting ab things bc it probably comes across as so pathetic and self pitying #and yeah it deffo is #but it's very difficult for me to be complacent with mediocrity/failure in my hobbies 🙃🙃🙃#trash talking #personal #vent #ahaha don't look pls I'm experiencing feelings

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laguz · 4 months

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txoman and the wasps (or really any of my ocs) sex lives are private matters.. i really have no right to pry….

#it’s probably weird for me bc my self insert is ruda and i hate ruda x txoman #so therin is where my problem lies i think…#i think the wasp finds txoman sexy but i cant say that myself. does this make sense #youre even allowed to find him sexy but im judging you for it ewww ahaha

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 6 months

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I’m a musician and I recognize the need for practice BUT JESUS FUCKING CHRIST DOES EVERYONE IN THIS HOUSE HAVE TO PRACTICE THEIR INSTRUMENTS AT EVERY HOUR OF THE DAY

I’m trying to get shit done and the constant noise is sucking the life out of me. The man finished the whole upstairs himself for his instruments and didn’t even think of soundproofing for recording purposes. I haven’t even found a place yet and I’m already looking at soundproofing.

#All my instruments are quiet. No I don’t want to plug my kalimba in for everyone including the neighbors to hear.#I don’t use your amplifiers for a reason.#Yes I have earplugs; but one can only use earplugs for so long before they start falling out from the slick of five hours of earwax buildup #and the stupid fucking clock going TICKTOCTICKTOCK I’m going to shoot myself through both eardrums #If I go in my bedroom for any amount of time I get a concerned “What’s wrong? You don’t want to see me anymore. You hate me now? Ahaha.”#“Come out and see us”#And the bedroom is situated directly under the pedal steel guitar so if he’s playing it I can hear the ceiling creak and groan above me #Every time someone tells me “Oh you’re so lucky to live in a house with so much music” I want to SCREAM #It would be one thing if it were just an acoustic guitar for two—three hours a day… you have to understand:#This man is up there sometimes with full backing tracks being played through subwoofers ALL DAY AND NIGHT #the same songs over and over and over again for YEARS with month-long spurts of creativity where he goes up there all day #I’m not being mean; I’m being overstimulated and driven to insanity #This is one of the reasons I’m moving out; but the overstimulation is hindering me from doing what I need to do to move out #This house #This fucking house #It’s a sensory nightmare #vent tw

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spideyskrunkly · 2 years

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Me: It's time to draw one of the fandom's my favorite ships of all time cus if I ship Luz with anyone else, it's totally biphobic for Luz and she only belongs to Amity in which-

Also me: *accidentally draws Hunter instead of Amity* oops

Ik Luz looks weird here, i had a hard time drawing her but I love her so I'll let this slide

*anti-Lunter, DO NOT interact !!! Comments will be blocked and deleted*

#the owl house #luz has two hands #lunter #AHAHA THIS IS A JOKE I LOVE LUMITY #I just hate that Lunter ships get dragged all the time #anyways #this ain't for the haters #this is actually funny because I'm bi myself #flapjack #luz noceda #hunter wittebane

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docholligay · 2 years

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You know my first thought here was: If someone managed to get me this well, if they managed to somehow know something that intimate from my past--and the things being brought to mind here even some of my close friends don’t know--I would be fascinated and a little thrilled. If, that cold, they managed to say something that resonated with me so deeply, not, “She wants you to know she forgives you” or ‘He was always proud of you” or the usual crap (that, admittedly, sometimes people need to hear! If I were smarter and more patient I would love to cold read people into believing their dead loved ones were okay and they were pleased with them and all that I think it would be a public service) but something so specific that somewhere from no one to one other person could possibly know? Suddenly, the world looks different. Things exist that I didn’t believe in. Exciting!

But also, BUT ALSO, I sit here thinking: In the moment, would I be excited? Or would I be angry? Why angry, Holligay, you quite reasonably ask? Well, a small amount of something I would consider deeply emotionally personal has been aired to an entire group, and because I reacted immediately without thinking, because it slapped me like a mackerel to the face, everyone knows it’s true. I don’t think it’s FAIR to be angry, but sometimes by gut reaction to things is not correct or fair, either. I tend to get defensive when I feel my pack against a wall, even if my back is against the wall because I damn well put it there, and even if later I’ll be like, “should have let that one go!” It’s a frustrating but true aspect of my personality that I DEEPLY suspect I will be working on to my last breath.

I literally wanted, in a sense, her to reach out for someone that meant something to me, and then I’d get pissy about it.

So, you know, FAIR LAFAYETTE.