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arkhammaid · 1 year

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— ˚₊‧⁺˖ THE MAN, WHO DEEPLY CHERISHES AND LOVES YOU.

fandom. genshin impact

pairing. kamisato ayato x fem!reader

content warnings. angst to fluff, cheating, nightmares, ayato neglecting you but i promise he loves you

word count. 1.1k

notes. ahahahahaha, i'm almost too late, but here is a birthday fic for ayato. i promise i love this man but i couldn't help myself <33 thank you @shiinleaf for proofreading, you're a blessing 🫶

“Have I not loved you enough?”, you ask him with a surprisingly strong voice, after you catch him kissing a noble girl. Her lipstick stains his white collar, leaving marks on his skin. Skin that is normally only touched by you, his fiancée, soon-to-be wife. The girl is still touching him, and he makes no move to lift his hands from her hips. Kamisato Ayato stares at you, his gaze cold and void of any affection he ever held for you. Maybe it was nothing but a farce, a mask he put on, while you started to care about him, even fall for him.

“I see,” you can only murmur, hands clasped in front of you as you bow your head. “In that case, I shall see myself out.” You turn your back towards them, the pair who had exchanged kisses in the darkness of the dimly lit room, and leave.

You don’t break, you don't dare to break, leaving the estate with your head high and a soft smile on your face, as always.

You walk and walk, greet the soldiers of the Kamisato Clan and then…

Then you break. Shoulders shaking, your cries are muffled by your own hand. Pressing your eyes together, you try to forget the picture, the moment when you saw Ayato kissing someone else. You try to forget, as you continue to cry, your heart breaking because who are you kidding? You fell for the Yashiro Commissioner a long time ago, you already gave him your naive little heart and he just broke it.

He shattered it into a thousand pieces and didn’t even care. He didn’t care about your reputation, your future, nor the love you held for him. He broke you and didn’t care at all.

You jolt awake, eyes blinking and adjusting to the dark. Patting the surface you’re laying on, you can make out the familiar shadows of your room. The room Ayato and you share. The bed Ayato and you share. But he’s nowhere to be seen and so you flop back, staring at the ceiling.

Another nightmare. Another nightmare where Ayato cheats on you. Rolling on your right side, you pull your blanket a bit higher and curl in on yourself.

You’ve always hated sleeping alone, always haunted by nightmares with no one to dry your tears after you wake. But it was a common thing that happened and it would happen in the future. Ayato is always busy and often sleeps alone, rarely joining you, and if he does, he’s never there when you wake in the morning.

This is why you’ve always had these specific nightmares. Nightmares where Ayato left you, cheated on you, without any explanation. Your biggest fear, a tiny voice whispering it could be actually true. Just the thought of it makes you tear up again and you feel so stupid. You know Ayato would never do something like this, his honor wouldn’t allow it and still…

Shutting your eyes, you try to sleep again, the place next to you left cold. But you continue to toss, the blankets tangling around your legs, until you decide to search for your fiancée.

It’s late, probably past midnight. The estate is silent and there are no lights lit up, no candles to show you the way to Ayato’s study. And yet it’s easy to find, the only part of the building that is illuminated. The scribbling on paper is the only sound you hear, besides your hesitant steps and labored breathing.

He sits there, as always, at his table full of paper. Still in his usual clothing, his whole mind is focused on the documents in front of him.

You watch how he lifts several papers, compares them, then puts them back, doting down notes before flipping his notebook. The cycle then starts all over again, all while the candles flicker and let the shadows dance across the walls and his oh so beautiful face.

When you finally step into his study, his head snaps up, mouth parting in surprise when he sees you in your light nightdress. Quickly laying down his brush, he stands up.

“Beloved, why aren’t you asleep?,” he asks, frowning in concern as he wraps his arms around you. Sighing, you lean into his chest, closing your eyes with a hum.

“I could ask the same to you,” you mutter back, enjoying the hug. He doesn’t answer, and so a silence falls over the two of you as you stand in the middle of his study.. You enjoy being held like this, his hands rubbing circles over your back and not letting you go.

“Join me in bed,” you say after a while, voice cracking and Ayato stills. He carefully moves his hands towards your shoulders and gently moves away, to get a good view of your face.

“What happened? Normally you never-”

“I had a nightmare.” Ayato’s face crumbles at your words. You can see how he wants to say something, but you won’t let him. Not when you finally have the chance to tell him how much you miss him, how much you want him, even if it’s for something as simple as holding you when you fall asleep.

“I’ve had several nightmares and- and they got worse. I know you’re busy, but please, just tonight-”

“Of course. You should’ve told me sooner. I thought, I-”, Ayato sighs and then shakes his head. Pulling you close to him again, he cradles your head in his hands and murmurs, “I will join you, I would’ve joined you the moment you told me of your request. My dear, you do know that I cherish you?” A hesitant nod is your answer, making him sigh.

“Mayhaps it was my mistake to not voice this more often. You’re my beloved, my wife-to-be and the mother of my future children. You have my heart, you have me, always, no matter how busy I am.” You tighten your arms around him, pressing your face in his chest, anything to not let him know that you’re close to crying. Hearing him call you his beloved, his wife, the mother of his future children— it filled you with happiness. The same happiness that is currently spreading through your whole body, chasing your dark thoughts and nightmares away.

“I love you,” you mumble after a while, voice muffled by his clothing but he hears it nonetheless.

“I love you too, my beloved. Now come, we should both head to bed.”

He takes you by your hand, guiding you through the dark estate, leaving his study and unfinished documents behind. He leaves the role as Yashiro Commissioner and Head of the Kamisato Clan behind him and is now simply Ayato, your fiancée, the man, who deeply cherishes and loves you.

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go-to-the-mirror · 1 year

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Hello, @a-mag-a-day. Apologies for the deception but I rather wanted to make sure you started reading, so I thought it best not to announce myself. I'm assuming you're alone; you always did prefer to read your statements in private. I wouldn't try too hard to stop reading; there's every likelihood you'll just hurt yourself. So just listen. Now, shall we turn the page and try again?

Statement of landscaping-your-mind regarding episode 160 of The Magnus Archives.

Statement begins.

So, from all the stuff I scheduled for today you can probably tell I really like episode 160 of The Magnus Archives, right? Like, good lord, it is... it is a time. (Also, the words were really good (and also there's poetry) so :D incentive!)

Firstly, though, I have to say something. It's not the Watcher's Crown. The Watcher's Crown is the ritual Jonah Magnus attempted years ago. This is unnamed in canon, but Jonny said it could've been called The Magnus Archives.

Secondly... I would like to draw your attention towards the description of the youtube version of this episode. (to paraphrase)

The Magnus Archive discovers that some escapes are a lot easier than others.

Ahahahahaha AHAHAHAAHAHAH WHAT-

I hate this so much. Like, with a burning passion. "The Magnus Archives discovers that some escapes are a lot easier than others" COME TO MY HOME AND KILL ME YOU COWARD! It just hurts, it just... hurts.

He can escape London, but he can't escape his ✨ purpose ✨

You ever think about how The Magnus Archives follows the story of Magnus' Archive? I do. A lot. I haven't even started listening yet, god, this episode am I right?

MARTIN (Joking) Or, (huffed laugh) or it is, and she just cleaned it up really well. (They both make uncomfortable chuckles) ARCHIVIST …Yes. (The Archivist makes an uneasy noise)

THEYRE BOTH SO AWKWARD THEY HAVEN'T TALKED TO A NORMAL HUMAN IN OVER A YEAR

Just their really awkward laughter, oh my godd they're so endearing your honour, I'm so glad this episode and TMA ends at the 5 minute mark (< in denial)

ARCHIVIST Hopefully a long way out there. (soft) But I think we’re okay

THEY ARE IN LOVE YOUR HONOUR

I just love how soft Jon's voice gets around Martin, like, like, eeeee i just love them i love them they're the reason im aro bc i know i will never love someone romantically as much as jmart loves each other /j

MARTIN Oh, n-no, not yet. I was actually gonna head down into the village to go pick something up?

Ooooh yay I get to share my "where are they in scotland" headcanons! I think they're near Dunnet, because it's pretty far north and in the Highland area, and it's also got allegedly the only full time gunshop north of Inverness, and... yknow, it is Daisy's safehouse.

ARCHIVIST Anyway, don’t tell me the phonebox down there doesn’t appeal to your retro aesthetic.

your honour they're lightheartedly teasing each other <3

ARCHIVIST I’ll be fine.

SOFT!

(update im wrtinging with a cat on my lap now hes big. im balancing my computer on my leg.)

MARTIN I assume it’s her attempt at a- a, a varied diet? Eating your greens, you know? ARCHIVIST (Amused) Probably. (reassured) I’m sure it’ll work fine

hhh them <3 it's just like they're so... they're happy. they're so happy, and it's like nothing gold will stay or whatever

they had such a short amount of time

i wish they were ok

MARTIN …I will give you some privacy. Go for a walk. ARCHIVIST (Warmly) Let me know if you see any good cows. MARTIN Obviously I’m going to tell you if I see any good cows.

I'm...

them being happy is almost worse, right. because what once was a surprise we now know will happen, we have to deal with the dread, and it's all bitter now, the happiness is rotten because of what lurks after.

some people can listen to the first five minutes and feel okay, but me?

for me it just hurts.

ARCHIVIST (CONT’D) (Pleasantly) Statement of Hazel Rutter regarding a fire in her childhood home. Original statement given August 9th, 1992. Audio recording by Jonathan Sims, The Archivist. Statement begins.

He sounded so happy... he sounded so happy.

This is the first time he's happy before he reads a statement. He was happy, he was hiding from the police and the hunters and Daisy and Not!Sasha with his boyfriend in Scotland. And then, and then Jonah Magnus comes in and decides to end the world like a bastard.

I don't want to hit play. I don't want to know what comes next. I want to stop listening. I want Jon and Martin to be okay. I want it to be the real statement of Hazel Rutter.

I just want it to be the real statement of Hazel Rutter.

I get it, right, horror tragedy! This was the desired effect. I am supposed to be feeling these emotions. These emotions being very sad. Well done to Jonny, lovely writing. Fantastic! I love TMA with my whole heart. I think that it's fantastic. I don't want to hit play though. I'm here for the characters suffering, I got in through The Hermit Archives, I wanted more of the horror! I am here for suffering! I'm here for the suffering. I'm hitting play.

Statement of Jonah Magnus regarding Jonathan Sims, The Archivist. Statement begins.

He could have just ended the world. Like, the whole... forcing Jon to monologue about all the times he was manipulated into furthering Jonah's plan? That's fucked. That is fucked. Just put the ritual there you slimy piece of shit!

It’s rare that you get the chance to monologue through the voice of another, and you can’t tell me you’re not curious.

*me to my dog, in the "talking to a dog" voice* You wanna kill him too! Hey! You wanna kill him too!

Like, okay, so you're Jon and you're reading this statement and you can't stop, and this bastard says "you can't tell me you're not curious." Tell me that's not going to make him think that if he tried a little harder then he would've been able to stop reading. Tell me that's not going to make him think that a part of him wanted to end the world, and that's why he's still reading. Tell me that's not going to make him blame himself even more.

The only way to ensure I did not suffer the tribulations of what I believed to be an inevitable transformation was to bring it about myself.

He's so bloody arrogant. He puts himself above the entire world. It makes sense, he's from Regency era England, but like, it's still... really awful. Awful person.

Beyond that, I was getting older, and mortality began to weigh more heavily on my mind. How much in this world is done because we fear death, the last and greatest terror?

When I fear death I distract myself, not try to end the world. Like, this guy is just so evil. His only redeeming quality is being funny sometimes.

Everyone dies, Jack Magnet, you just chose to be a bastard about it.

Of course, I had to make sure the location was kept under my control while I worked on revising my plans, and so I moved the organization I had founded to assist in my research down to London, and the Institute as you know it, was born.

Right, so The Magnus Protocol's Magnus Institute was located in Manchester, and I'm not an expert on the geography of the United Kingdom, and basically know nothing about Manchester, bar that it has the... football, I want to say, team Manchester United? I don't know how I know that. But it seems as though Jonah Magnus didn't attempt his ritual, or attempted it some other way in that universe.

You see, the role of Archivist has been part of the Beholding for as far back as my research can go. This isn’t uncommon for the Powers; most of the beliefs around them are guesswork and fallible human interpretation, but there are certain through lines and consistencies that can be spotted, regardless of the trappings.

I wonder what the others are. The Dancer could be one - The Dancer in The Unknowing. I think Jonny said in a QnA, but you know, the author is dead, he's speaking to us posthumously, that The Architect could have been one. Not sure what others. If y'all have any ideas... 👀

More than once I thought she must secretly be of the Hunt; but there was never that sick joy in her, that thrill of predator and prey. She had simply decided that this was her position in life, and went about it with a practicality that even I found disconcerting at times.

Ok, Mr. Jonah "orchestrates twelve traumatising events for this one guy and gets him to end the world" Magnus. He cannot talk, he cannot talk at all. Sure, she sacrificed people, but she wasn't malicious. She did it for a cause. Did she believe she was good? I'm not sure she cared.

Jonah Magnus is just awful for his own self gain.

You see, the thing about the Fears is that they can never be truly separated from each other. When does the fear of sudden violence transition into the panic of hunted prey? When does the mask of the Stranger become the deception of the Spiral? Even those that seem to exist in direct opposition rely on each other for their definition as much as up relies on down. To try and create a world with only the Buried makes as much sense as trying to conceive a world with only down.

Gerry's colour explanation makes a lot of sense if you don't conceive of it as a traditional colour wheel. They're growing out in every direction, they all overlap with each other.

Sure, the fear of The Eye may seem in direct opposition to the fear of The Stranger, but let's take Jon, for instance. Is it not sort of Stranger to have some guy in a coffee shop staring at you with his autistic eyes, a person you don't know, but who definitely knows you?

What about the fear of The Buried and the fear of The Vast. Episode 195 covers that pretty handily. They're all interconnected with all of the others. Separating them makes them easier to understand (and invertedly makes them actually separated), but it isn't them, not truly. They are connected intrinsically.

Even the coffin! The fear of being alone in the dark is a part of the coffin.

Because the thing about the Archivist is that, well, it’s a bit of a misnomer. It might, perhaps, be better named: The Archive. Because you do not administer and preserve the records of fear, Jon. You are a record of fear, both in mind as you walk the shuddering dread of each statement, and in body as the Powers each leave their mark upon you. You are a living chronicle of terror.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about this. The Archivist is something... defined by how they feed their patron, but The Archive is defined by how they've been hurt to bring it into the world. He's not defined by even a person-like role, he's something molded by Jonah Magnus' desires to end the world.

I wrote a little poem about it, which I shall share here, because I am cringe but I am free, unlike Jon. RIP

He's not a person with a name, He's a vessel of destruction, He's not a person who feels pain, It's necessary for production, That he's scarred and marked, By things that lurk in the dark, Believe himself useless, Or it'll be fruitless, And at the end of the day, He's no person, no name, He's a plan that has come to fruition.

Also, he calls himself The Archivist, perhaps viewing himself as... something that hurts others, rather than something that is hurt for a purpose.

I’ll admit, my options were somewhat limited, but my god, when you came to me already marked by the Web, I knew it had to be you. I even held out some small hope you had been sent by the Spider as a sort of implicit blessing on my whole project and, do you know what, I think it was.

"I chose you" "I'll admit, my options were somewhat limited" Mr. Magnet, he was chosen by the web. Jonah's just not afraid to be puppeted.

So, when Jane Prentiss attacked, I watched eagerly, one hand on the gas release from the start.

This line fucked me up. "One hand on the gas release from the start." Just... like it just sticks in my mind. How he held all their lives in the palm of his hand, how he let Sasha die, and Tim get eaten by worms, because he wanted his bloody perfect Archive.

One hand on the gas release from the start, while all of them almost - or did - die(d).

Like, what gets me is how fucked up Jon was afterwards, how he was asking everyone for their statements, shutting them up before they got to the part where they'd mention Jon and Tim getting eaten with worms. What gets me is how Elias was there and Jon was what, looked like a bloody mummy! He didn't have second thoughts when he saw...

He knew everything. He saw everything. He saw how fucked up Jon was over e v e r y t h i n g. (everything)

That's what gets me.

Between the stabbing and at least two desperate flights into its door, you’re marked very deep by the Spiral.

And, you know, the manipulation, the gaslighting, the betrayal. I saw an interesting post on this, but I can't seem to find it. I'll look in the posts I've rbed tagged TMA meta, I'll link it in a reblog if I find it.

Honestly, I had nothing to do with Melanie and her Slaughter adventure, but when I saw the situation, I made sure to trap her here, so whenever her rage bubbled over you were right there, a ready target.

You know after Jon's second kidnapping that could have totally been resolved how Jonah made Jon stand in front of Melanie while she wanted to kill Jonah with a knife, and how it's like oh, right, yeah, use Jon as a bloody meat shield to get her angry at him, make him the scapegoat, that was intentional. It was intentional to destroy everyone in the Archives' interpersonal relationships, and then have Jon. A ready target for hatred and vitriol.

How is Martin, by the way? He looks well. You will keep an eye on him when all this is over, won’t you? He’s earned that.

I think that Jonah Magnus should eat shit and die.

The power of the Ceaseless Watcher flows through you, and the time of our victory is here.

If you replace the Ceaseless Watcher with Determination then it reads like an Undertale save.

* The power of Determination flows through you, and the time of our victory is here.

Don’t worry, Jon. You’ll get used to it here, in the world that we have made.

This also ties in with the above, I hate that he says "our victory" "the world that we have made." Jon didn't consent to this, Jon didn't want this, Jon was made to be an unwilling conduit of the apocolypse and Jonah Magnus is insinuating that he chose it, the victim blaming little prick!

You who watch and know and understand none. You who listen and hear and will not comprehend. You who wait and wait and drink in all that is not yours by right. Come to us in your wholeness. Come to us in your perfection. Bring all that is fear and all that is terror and all that is the awful dread that crawls and chokes and blinds and falls and twists and leaves and hides and weaves and burns and hunts and rips and bleeds and dies! Come to us. I OPEN THE DOOR!

GREAT INCANTATION! 10/10! And it's actually recitable, unlike the TBI one.

ARCHIVIST Look at the sky, Martin. Look at the sky. It’s looking back.

That is a fucking fantastic final line of the episode. All of it, four seasons leading up to this moment. Look at the sky. It's looking back.

Fuck dude!

(The Archivist begins a fractured, delirious, humourless, laugh that does not end)

That laugh.

That laugh is just... haunting. I love it so much. It makes me want to cry. I used to have it saved on my phone and I'd just listen to it over and over and over again and get more and more disturbed and heartbroken.

That laugh. That broken, horrific laugh.

I can't get over it.

And thus ends season 4 of The Magnus Archives. With a broken laugh in front of a window, leading out to the doomed world.

Episode 160 is quite possibly my favourite metaplot episode of The Magnus Archives, the way the whole plan was revealed, the awful manipulations that were exposed... that laugh.

I leave you all to think on this. To think on the Archive née the Archivist née Jonathan Sims, laughing at the world he has unwillingly and unwittingly doomed.

Goodnight, a-mag-a-day, goodnight. /ref

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realhankmccoy · 3 months

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fuckin cracks me up that Americans think of Blood Meridian as postmodernist.... ahahahahaha... this stupid fucking country. there's a lot of them who think it is, too. I guess they didn't notice the Bible literally materialising in it. I guess they never read a Cormac McCarthy interview? I guess they don't know what a western crossed with Stephen King written in a flat modernist style that -- oh how it would displease Harold Bloom, perhaps, to hear it -- clearly has Hemingway in it?

Who reads that book and thinks 'PoMo?'

anyhow at least that idiot who got it wrong tonight -- as he always gets everything wrong -- wrote a few good lines creepin on me before devolving into the standard issue conservative cucked stuff implausible seams showing about pussy (drag is only magical if you're convincing, hunty, and so is straight drag) and trying to use too many big words like Elon does in order to 'sound more intelligent' which obviously doesn't work when these people don't know the reason big words exist and how to use them... like saying you're 'aspirationally Jewish' which is still driving me up the wall... Elon says so much stupid shit.

so yes if that idiot had his shit together and realised he's an idiot and what to fix, i mean 3/8ths of that post was solid and probably his best writing in years, notwithstanding the massive glaring error about Cormac McCarthy, he who is quite comfortable with good vs evil, he who probably votes Republican -- being pomo. I mean what the fuck is Republican pomo anyhow? What would that even be? The whole Republican thing is an infantile longing for order, not the postmodernist project of sewing disorder.

Notwithstanding how it annoys me that I'm an influence on the idiot, for it has never been about control and narcissism with me (the idiot only projected this upon me because that's how Trump is and that's how he, as Trump's cuck, is) I actually don't like influencing anybody, probably because I don't like myself very much and don't need to be seeing any more of myself in the world. It actually just grosses me out and depresses me to see anything inspired by me. 100% of the time I think art inspired by me sucks, and why wouldn't I? I don't even like any of my art. That's not a posture, kids. I can't think of a single thing I've ever written that I'd feel comfortable handing to anybody like it's any good. This isn't some noble thing, either. I just don't like it. I don't like the sound of anything I have made, pretty much. And why would I? Why would I when I was programmed by the parents and the community to know my total insignificance and still am despite occasional moments where they try to make me feel like I have some? The overwhelming --

But whatever, it doesn't really matter as I believe in the Sagan stuff about our insignificance anyhow, at the same time believing in the signficance of everyone and all the small things, which I then have to apply to myself, because leaving yourself out is not objective, and then when I extend that to myself, the whole thing blows up because the forces that drive me don't compute.

Now, there is a sewing of disorder in the Republican as it generates chaos trying to get what it wants -- 'divide and conquer' and i know some awful liberal-ish money conquest women who also think that way.

That's not the same thing tho. That's like, Papa Hemingway with a John Wayne streak.

I really will never quite understand why Harold Bloom hates Stephen King but wets himself for Blood Meridian. It's like a boring Stephen King novel. Sure, I guess it's more formally literary but also you know, more formally boring. The Judge -- I feel like Mike Judge would do better in a Beavis & Butthead film. But Mr. Bloom didn't really watch MTV.

Nope, kids, I just didn't get it. Usually Harold Bloom is somebody I agree with almost across the board, but I just don't get it. Perhaps it's a HETERONORMATIVE THING, much like Tarantino fanboys are.

anyhow i kinda feel bad for that idiot cuck having to find every sticker on the sticker sheet and apply it to itself because it's so typically american these days.

it's so... 'i'm every woman' only it's not succinct, it's just embarrassing, like these americans always trying to elbow on top of each other in their rat race in which they're always a tool, always a derivative, never truly the Boss that they want to be, for their is always a bigger boss, and the biggest boss is Trump.

rather than dabble and wander between the whole sticker set of crowns and swords and cups and pussy and cock, why not just grow a pair of balls and commit to something outré

i mean look at it this way: even somebody who committed wholeheartedly to the entire Princess sticker sheet is more of a man than some idiot who can't figure out which Lucky Charm he feels like today. oh, i remember that age well... sometimes i felt like blue diamons, other times green clovers... and always like green trees, limited.

and there's always man of them to eat again and again

but when i see like a Canadian trans woman commit wholeheartedly to being a 5-yr-old girl, now that takes balls. that takes courage.

you either want to muddy the waters to seem deep, like Nietzsche says, or you want to clarify something or choose a course.

nothing this idiot cuck ever does smacks of courage. it is courage free. they have some good ability to pay attention to television at times, for whatever that's worth. maybe they are best suited for television analysis for geeks into the details of television shows. it's very American, caring a lot about your shows and the details.

hey, credit where due, it's American but i sure don't have the patience to figure out every detail and quote about some crap on tv.

so, yes, there's a toddler with a sticker sheet who wants to be a princess, but a real princess would jump in all the way if she had some balls:

and let us not think this is about emasculation, it's about people who are trying to be a sticker sheet generalist and paste them all onto themselves willy nilly in ways that i only find tragicomic, camp and kitsch

for example why not choose this sticker sheet? the reason is because the idiot cuck has no balls

as a channel-surfer of nuclear suburbia, it's too much sustained focus for the cuck, who is used to using the clicker to go through all the shows... a masculinity crippled by tv, much like Rabbit Angstrom ended up at in middle age

being that i am FUCKING BORED with systemic cucks maybe they can work on that but i doubt they're capable of it any more than they're capable of buying me a steak because

what's a toddler in front of a tv gonna be capable of?

seriously tho who thinks this guy is PoMo at heart?

he's such a conservative western christcuck who is terrified by the pomo world he finds himself in. that's what The Road was all about, kiddos. That's what everything he writes seems to be about. I don't share his terror... I'm liberal and we're not as big of cowards. OH IS AMERICA GOING TO COLLAPSE I'M SO SCARED

youtube

"a comedown of revolving doors"

either you're a chickenshit male or you're a female with far more guts, apparently. Cormac was a chickenshit. Emily Haines was not.

yes, you know, the American conservative is correct here, more correct than Harold Bloom I think.

'conservative pessimism' is what Cormac is i suppose Harold could be described as a conservative pessimist

too -- even as Harold's politics were with the Democrats, certainly he was trying to conserve literature in a sort of you know, different form of conservation -- there's a big difference between a 'conservative' and a 'conservationist', kids.

slip in a little Jesus

i dunno kids, i think there's something that neurotically went wrong with Harold Bloom, maybe frustration with feminism and identity politics and anarchists and deviance, that made his brain glom on to McCarthy a bit too aggressively is my theory cuz it truly has long been probably the main thing about Bloom that i can't get on the same page with... McCarthy enthusiasm

but i was spoiled by all that Stephen King at a young age, you see, and Stephen is far more imaginative and dreamlike than some writer of a fuckin' dark western.

but even... i mean i'm sorry, where's the Literature in McCarthy? Bloom never really seems to explain it. he just goes on and on about the character the Judge and the foreboding and the collapse of western civ... i mean, whatever dude ya never seen those themes before? Themes and ideas aren't discussing the LITTY RAT TURD or whatever ghost in the machine where did it go, where's Cormac LITTY RAT TURD if that's what this is all about? I just did not quite pick up on it, mmkay?

As for that cuck who is incapable of being exactly what i say its incapable of

it should find a sticker set that isn't just the generic all-encompassing one the parents always hand to the kids

and have the balls to go for it

David Bowie committed to different ways of life -- different personas -- for long periods of time -- it wasn't a costume party you flip in and out of like Lady Gaga who didn't understand it, you know?

like, read a book on method acting

i've been through a lot of looks and places and focuses and lifestyles in a lightweight curious fashion, more of a discovery zone than a statement

do you really want to look back on how you played king or bro every other day for years i mean zzzzz what are you a conservative? are you Elvis? Because he played the king as often as you do, princess and he was a Republican.

Bowie played the Goblin King briefly and it was explictly an evil role, portraying royalism as the establishment to be defeated.

Meanwhile there's Gaga in a crown with her Bad Romance posse and fake druggy fake decadence (the counter of albums sold and the ensuing profits is the most honestly thing about that video and what it's all about) which is just pathetic, the garishness of proudly capitalistic -- as proudly capitalistic as Trump

establishmentarian re-enforcement of daddies who owned 24 hotels or whatever thanks Gaga blech

anyhow, any deviance would be a good idea rather than copping from my page and being YET ANOTHER AMERICAN THINKING IF THEY SHOULD DON THAT COWBOY HAT FOR POWER.

how many times on this blog now have i talked about how much this video pissed me off when 'Greater Albania' Bugs Bunny here gets her rodeo on

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Dua Lipa is just more of this push for Warner Brothers to turn music into a Barbie product in the kids' bop aisle at Wal-Mart. Her lyrics don't even gel in this dumb song or her stuck up tone wrecks it... it comes across as totally fake and there being no real 'love' at all which is probably the truth, ain't it? But she sings the lie.

That White Town song she samples is better than her song, and i doubt Bugs Barbie or Lola Bunny Lips or whatever she goes by is capable of gender-bending.

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This is what good music used to be, kids. Chaka Khan gets what adulthood is about -- it's not about rabbit tricks (which are rooted in retaliatory fear of being eradicated and then turn into aggro, which is a pervasive mentally unhealthy and effectually sociopathic and repetitively abusive cowardice and sickness in most americans, from Trump to Swift) and it's not about Trumpian conquest and taking.

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#cormac mccarthy #harold bloom #dua lipa #chaka khan #modernism #westerns #postmodernism #cowboy #cowgirl #cowboys #cowboy culture #Youtube #metric #emily haines #white town

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fantasythetrashywriter · 30 days

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i wanna do all the asks TwT

If i had to narrow down tho 1 8 10 26 and 31 i guess??

KEK AHAHAHAHAHA THAT’S GOOD!!! I’ll do all, cause I want to LOL

Hmmm…comfort character… I guess Mami, I relate to her the most I think. I mean, I hate being alone too…and she loved her parents so much and I love mine a lot too! And honestly, I’d hate myself a lot if I had the opportunity to save a loved one’s life but didn’t use it. I think I relate to Mami the most, and she’s also really sweet.

Lighter.

Uhhh no, I don’t! Don’t want anything to come in…

Ummm…the yeti I think?

Dark brown, almost black! Nothing special about my eyes, honestly…

D-Do what? What did I do?

Scrunchies! I like scrunchies better, though hair-ties are also nice!

I think like, six?

Neither. I don’t like coffee, they taste bitter and weird, blech! Also my parents say I’m too young to drink it and I agree.

Ehhhh…no? I don’t want to kill anyone? Slaughter is an especially bad word…

Writing and singing! I’m not too good at writing though I think I’m okay, and as for singing…not sure how good I am at it hehe… I really like both though!! And I would like to improve on both, especially on writing.

A good day today! Not sure what that means though…

I think like, 2 hours ago?

Yeah, I do! It smells like rain hehe… also it rains a lot in my hometown, so that scent smells like home! Too bad it doesn’t rain much here…

Pffffttt, no! I’m way too young to have children!

No, I’m too young! 😅 I would like to know how to drive though, but my concern is destroying my car…

Umm…neither!

I use Dove shampoo, presently!

If you want! But yeah, I would! Painting nails sounds fun hehe…

Soda? Pop sounds nice too!

I guess my stuff toy, Tundra! There’s also this necklace I have. Also my stuff toy dog, Lucy, she’s been there since before I was born. Oh and a snow globe!

I’m that shy, energetic girl who likes to make friends and avoid conflict. Personality type is ENFP, if anyone’s wondering…

I like it! When it’s too cold though that may not be fun. I got a little sick last time. But generally I like chilly weather! Especially after a rain.

Whatever you want to be doing! Though for me it would be watching the city below (my rooftop’s high up) or just staring at the sky! Or maybe chatting if that’s fine with you!

I do use a lotion, but I forgot its name… -_-

Rebellion’s boat scene. God I loved that scene. I’m fairly certain I replayed MANY scenes from both that movie and the series.

I think 10 hours?

Yeah, I do! Until COVID is officially over heh. It’s for protection!

Depends on the weather, honestly! If it’s hot then I want cold or cool water, if it’s cold then I want hot water!

Nope!

Hmmm…I guess songs by LANY. They have great music!

Ehehehe, nope! I don’t mind my towels LOL

Last adventure? I guess the last time I went to Bahrain. I’m traveling now though, so does this one count?

Better When I’m Dancin by Meghan Trainor. I think I memorized a few other songs too but I forgot which ones… -_-

Arabian Standard Time.

None, so far! I just joined November 2023.

Umm…no. I must’ve known that person since I was a toddler LOL But seriously, no. I don’t have a longtime friend aside from my family members… (yeah, no real life friends who aren’t my family)

Yeah, Likas papaya! It smells nice!

I used to, but now no. I don’t use makeup much! (Only on very special occasions and I don’t like it much)

Yup! I had banana.

Ick, again, I don’t like coffee at all. It’s blech.

Safari for many of my stuff, Google Classroom for my online classes, and Reddit when I’m chatting with two of my online friends!

It’s okay. I like spicy Cheetos and some kimchi sauce. Not too much though, I don’t think I can tolerate spicy stuff too much

No one! I don’t want to kill anyone! Wait does fictional characters count? If so then I would kill that OC from the second chapter of the fanfic, “Tiho Mi Pazi”. Fremde, my GOD, why’d you make such a terrible character (it was on purpose, I know but I HATE her)? No worries, many people want to kill her too…

Yup.

I think The Christmas Chronicles! That was a fun one. Or Jingle Jangle, I loved that one too! Or Klaus. I loved those all!!

Me telling my online friend that my classes would resume on April 1 with a side message from me wondering if Toby Fox would pull a joke on us again.

I have never tried or drank alcohol, I’m WAY too young.

Never tried but NOPE. I’m fairly certain I’d suck at it.

Of course!! That would be so delightful! And I don’t mind, I’d encourage it even!

This was a lot, but I enjoyed answering everything!!! Thanks so much for the ask!! Again, you can ask anything you’re curious about…

Thank you so much for the ask again!!!

#ASKS!!💌#Fantasy talks #This was so fun to answer thank you so much

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Syempre magta-trauma dump na naman ako. Ahahaha. Pasensya.

cw: body shaming, insecurites, starving

Ang lala talaga ng downward spiral pag iniistalk ko ang sarili ko. Inistalk ko kase kanina ig ng pinsan ko (with her permission) tas nasayahan ako kasi andami namin memories don tas yung iba limot ko nang nangyari nga pala. Edi syempre inistalk ko yung sarili ko through my archived posts kase nabitin ako tas naalala ko na bakit ko sila inarchive at bakit di na ako masyado nagpopost ng pics ng sarili ko madalas sa ig. Anlala kasi talaga ng ginain kong weight lalo after pandemic, hindi ko na keri titigan sarili ko sa salamin at super nag-iba rin ang fashion style ko ?? kasi medyo uncomfy na akong makita yung katawan ko. Tapos that one time na nagkaconfidence ako na magshorts at magsleeveless ulit with my friends na matagal kong di nakita eh nabody shame ako nung parents ng isa naming friend. Ahahaha. Bakit daw ako tumaba nang ganito? Di ko raw ba inaalagaan sarili ko? Gusto ko na lang umiyak non at nagjacket na lang ako buong gala namin kase nainsecure talaga ako malala. Saka super obvious kase ng difference ng weight ko pagdating sa aming magkakaibigan kaya di rin maiwasan yung comparisons. Ahahaha. Edi syempre, eto na naman ako nakita ko na naman yung katawan ko dati tas naiiyak ako kase akala ko pre-pandemic eh super taba ko na kaya i would always starve myself nun especially nung 3 months na ako lang sa dorm mag-isa. Tapos when I lost weight, I received a lot of compliments kaya for a time, it really felt good to starve, ewan. Medyo hirap pa rin talaga ako mag-unlearn ng toxic habits whenever I feel imsecure pero I really try my best para wag na i-harm yung sarili ko kase syempre gusto ko rin naman maging better. Pero minsan kasi gusto ko na lang rin sigawan yung mga tao kase di naman nila alam how much courage it took me to eat again comfortably at nang di nagwoworry na baka mag-gain ako lalo. Ahahaha. The pandemic helped me a lot in going back to eating kase before talaga I could go on daaays without eating, eh syempre nung pandemic wala naman akong choice kasi di naman ako papayagan ng parents ko na wag kumain for days. I can only make excuses for a day. Ahahahahaha. Wala lang, gusto ko lang talaga maregain yung confidence ko. Yung 2019 body rin sana pero yung confidence talaga ang top priority ko. Ahahaha. Nasasad lang ako kase di na ako makakeep ng memories unlike before na papicture lang ako nang papicture kahit di ko naman ipopost, eh ngayon wala talaga. Ahahaha. Ni dp ko sa fb di ko na magawang i-public or friends only kasi super naiinsecure na ako. Ewan, iba talaga yung tama ng insecurities ko sakin di ko talaga siya maalis-alis kahit anong gawin ko at kahit anong kumbinsi ko sa sarili ko na tanggapin at mahalin yung sarili, nahihirapan talaga ako to come in terms with my own body. Sobrang love-hate relationship talaga ng everything for me when it comes to myself. Ahahahahaha. Okay, yun lang, babay.

#n #skl #personal

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selkiefinalist · 8 months

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weekly freakout: 9.4 edition

well okay. i think last week i was caught in the grips of existential despair about this fic and honestly, i wasn't wrong about it but this week was a new week and i've made a lot of progress in terms of filling in the blank spots and i'm comfortable moving to editing mode at this point. some scenes are much more lightly sketched than others, and i knew when i made those decisions that my future self would be unhappy with me about it but, you know. what else was i supposed to do? i've never written a fic this long before and i didn't want to commit to too many firm details/key decisions before i knew everything that was going to happen. it's been a really good learning experience - like, 10/10, would draft a fic this way again and not hate myself about it later.

anyway word count will start mattering less to me (i tell myself now ahahahahaha it's such a lie) so i'm going to try to stop tracking it so much as i move into hardcore .v2 mode but it is, in fact, a hard habit to break. so we'll see.

uh if all goes well, hoping to have full .v2 by mid-september and then hoping to find a kind soul to beta the draft before the third draft - i'm guessing this will go .v4 as my fics tend to when editing but i'm STRUGGLING with certain emotional beats/foreshadowing/transitions and having another set of eyes would be very handy. .v2 will be fleshing things out, .v3 will be nuking as much purple prose as i can stand (purple prose my beloved), and .v4 is usually eliminating commas and semicolons and repeat words (god i have used 'haul' so many times in this fic, and the phrase 'salt tang' and probably forty others that i'm not even aware of yet).

current word count: 44,170

here's a li'l sid interchange that i wrote this past week that i am fond of:

“That’s okay, buddy.” Sid slapped his arm. “Some other time. Let’s go dominate that walking trail, eh?”

“You just want to beat my fanny-pack count from yesterday.” Nate had the new high score and it was driving Sid crazy.

“I think there’s a bus tour pulling in,” Sid said, seriously. “We’ve got a good chance of hitting a new record if we can get over there on time.”

#weekly freakout #avert your eyes fth #what is writing?#i don’t know her #hockey rpf

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ruki--mukami · 2 years

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--- After birthday note ---

Just a small thank you note for making Ruki's birthday so special!

I loved the art (your're super talented) and enjoyed every single interaction you posted that day! It's a real pity it is just once a year!

(Ruki, you should thank your Maid for making this day so wonderful! I bet she worked really hard.)

🧩 Thank you so much, Anon!! That really means so much to me to hear others enjoyed all the birthday interactions as well. It took me two days to answer everything, ahaha. I honestly never would've expected that, but I'm elated that so many people would wish Ruki a Happy Birthday. He truly deserves to be happy. Drawing the fan art was also fun for me as well, so thank you for complimenting my art.

Also, his birthday could not be fun without all the people who sent in the asks and generous words to begin with. The OC interactions especially had me overjoyed. It warms my heart to know that so many people care for Ruki in the most loving ways imaginable. As I wrote all the answers, I just picture Ruki with tons of cake that he can't possibly eat by himself, ahahahahaha. I know they're AU's, but still. It truly is a pity it's only once a year, but I hope to make every day on this blog a special one. 🧩

"Hm, I suppose you could've done worse, Admin. Well done. I'll praise your efforts just this once, but don't you make me repeat myself."

🧩 You... You really mean it, Ruki? Oh, that makes me so happy!! I love you so much, Master! Happy Birthday!! Every day with you has brought me so much joy, it's unbelievable... Have you seen my art of you? Here's what Anon was talking about. I had so much fun drawing it, especially the coloring! For some reason I just thought you would look so cool with a glass of... wine— blood... Well, it's up to the viewer's interpretation, really. Personally, I like the blood idea. 🧩

"Good grief... So many balloons. That confetti will be a pain to clean up as well. You truly are a handful, aren't you? The drawing isn't bad. Hm. This birthday will certainly be one to remember, in any case."

🧩 Awww, Ruki!! So many wonderful people love you. Myself included! We know you're cold most of the time, but deep down is an adorable master who deserves all the care and kindness in the world. I hope today—and uhh, yesterday, ahaha—made you really happy. I love you so, so very much, Ruki! And I always will! Here's to many more fun years together and more silly shenanigans! Oh, and more years of being your weird, crazy maid who's not really a maid. 🧩

"Uh huh, sure. Fine. I'll admit it. I appreciate you, Livestock. You were nice enough to give me a drawing for the occasion, so allow me to give you something nice as well. Come closer and you'll find out."

🧩 N-No way... Is this... What I think it is...?! Oh, please! Bite me, Ruki!! Take as much blood as you want! You know, I used to be very anemic, and as much as I hated the feeling, I'd be more than happy to go back to that awful state if you're the reason for it. 🧩

"You... You really are hopeless, aren't you? No one begs for my fangs this desperately. It's as if you've forgotten whose birthday it is."

#diabolik lovers #ruki mukami #mukami ruki #ask #birthday event 2022 #rukijas #the admin speaks #ruki and admin shenanigans #(( sorry i got shameless af at the end ))#(( now i hide again ))

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calyssmarviss · 2 years

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Spoilers for Obi-Wan Kenobi Part III

Saw 1 gif when i woke up and opened tumblr but i didn’t look closely at it and immediately closed the app so I’m like “was it who i think it was or someone else entirely? Does this show actually have hallucinations? Force visions?”

Mhmhmhmhmh last week i was excited now I’m mostly nervous

Nervous for what i have no idea it’s not like any of my favorite characters are in actual danger lol

Recap

It’s kinda funny that Sidious let the Senate continue to exist. My pal Friendpatine was like “I want absolute power but I’m still gonna delegate. I can’t actually micromanage all those systems”

The Tragedy of Anakin Skywalker is that he used to be so hot and now he’s an albino potato in a test tube.

Let’s go

Qui-Gon’s not home bud

Istg if they show us Anakin getting lifted off the bacta I’ll cry

I’m crying

Vader Assembly Line

Sexiest breath in the galaxy

Sexiest lava castle in the galaxy

No but for real, Rogue One was great and it brought us one of the greatest thing in star wars: the lava castle

“Where is he?”

Ah.

Aw he’s got a throne

“The Grand Inquisitor means nothing.”

Reva, you gotta know girl, Anakin doesn’t give a shit about things that are not Obi-Wan.

“Kenobi is all that matters.”

What was i saying?

I wonder if she knows he’s toast under that armor.

Until i know more I’ll headcanon that she had a massive crush on Anakin and what she actually seeks is Vader’s attention.

“Are we almost there? Can you make this thing go any faster?”

How much do you wanna bet that Anakin asked Obi-Wan the same thing like a dozen time when he was his padawan?

“Can’t you use the Force on it or something?”

THAT'S NOT HOW THE FORCE WORKS LEIA

“That’s not how it works.”

*low fives Obi-Wan*

Aw she’s so cute with her blanket

Aw he fixed Lola!

I have so many questions about that!

Like, was it hard to fix? Is fixing droids a thing most people know how to do in the GFFA? Is it a thing that Jedi have to learn? Is it something that Obi-Wan more or less always knew how to do as long as we’ve known him? Is it something he learned to do in the last 10 years because he had to fix his shit himself? Is it something he learned because Anakin?

Nice music.

Actually I’ll stop on this. Their little cargo ship flying over this desolate land… and the music. Idk it just strikes me as - kind of out of the box for Star Wars. Not in a bad way. I love it. And even tho I hate that the franchise went to Disney and haven’t even watched the Mandalorian and the BoBF (feel free to boo me) I’m so glad we’re getting new content outside of the main saga because We Get Shit Like That. More Star Wars but with different flavors if that makes any sense.

Oh so not only did they have to stick to the trade route, they couldn’t even chose the route. That’s a fully automated ship and they had no choice of destination.

OH HELL YEAH HE'S FULLY HAVING ANAKIN HALLUCINATIONS THATS THE SHIT I WANTED TO SEE

(And that’s the gif i saw)

Rip that drawing of a very similar scene i never finished

Fuck I’m so happy tho

Sexy sexy ocean tower

I love everything about that evil base

Big Forsaken vibes in here. Oh I just spoke to the Dark One myself, he promised me Nae’blis.

Freck you weirdass mole you better not be a traitor.

That or he’s gonna die because of them.

Ah. Imperial flag. Snap.

“Absolutely. We like the Empire.”

😂 Leia, baby

She looks a lot like my older sister did when she was little.

They’re looking for a Jedi and don’t even know what he looks like? Lol. The Empire is so efficient.

You know what? The music is kind of giving me Dune vibes actually rn.

Oops. Bad slip up here.

“Sometimes when I look at Luma, I see her mother’s face.”

😬

Lol that Stormtrooper went okay we’re getting into personal stuff now let’s change subject and look at the view.

That wasn’t such a long way after all.

“You knew her. My real mother. Didn’t you?”

😬

“Are you my real father?”

Ahahahahaha

“I wish that I could say I was.”

Don’t say that in front of Anakin bro, he already thought you and Padmé had a thing behind his back.

“Sometimes I try to imagine what he was like.”

And here’s the guy who knows exactly what he was like just in front of you.

“I know that feeling.”

.😭😭😭

“I think I had a brother.”

.😭😭😭

Look it’s Feeling Emo About Baby-Wan Hours back with a vengeance

Sexy laser barrier

Freck how do you have perfect enunciation with that freaky jaw of yours

What’s protocol 23

Nice shot of Obi-Wan being beautiful under his hood, I bet protocol 23 is a full body search

I mean they called for a probe

IT’S BLASTING TIME

Wilhelm Scream

Good night Freck

Bro you could have just went around the barrier

Réinforcements!

Oh I know her. Or maybe not.

Ehehehehe.

Has he? Been informed already? The Force works fast but the Inquisition works faster.

I didn’t know I needed Leia and Obi-Wan adventures in my life but now that I have it

“It’s all automated, no one ever comes in here.”

Sounds a lot like that other guy said when sending them to the freit loading area. Looks like they found a pretty big flaw in the Empire’s system.

Oh, Ned doesn’t have a voice 😔

Oh no, you guys see some of them again, except they’re wearing black now.

QUINLAN WAS HERE

SMUGGLING YOUNGLINGS

that’s sweet

I always forget what happens to that guy, especially since I switched him and Ventress dying in Open Circle.

Sweet of them to interrogate a droid that can’t communicate

Oh that thing he did behind his back with his tool

I love his design, too

Ehehehe he low key looks like a serial killer with his hammer

Leia reading everyone around. Couldn’t read Freck tho 😆 he was turning his back to her most of the time

“Can you teach me how to shoot?”

“When the empire stood for something” when was that can’t recall.

“I can’t imagine Obi-Wan Kenobi doing anything wrong.”

That’s what we all said! This man has never done anything wrong in his life ever.

Well, Tala, welcome to the fanclub. Have you met our president Anakin?

(Also she was exactly the actress i thought she was at first)

YEAH WHAT IS IT BEN

OH MY GOD

WALK WALK FASHION BABY

Fuck he’s going to feel him

I mean Obi-Wan almost passed out

So unless the Dark Side is dampening it on Anakin’s side, he’s going to feel him too. That or Anakin is just that obnoxiously loud in the Force.

Oh yeah he’s got you.

Sexy sexy force choke

This show is so hot

snap

Obi-Wan be like “you girls go I’ll stay and enjoy the show”

“He said not to engage.”

Yeah that’s his guy, don’t touch.

AHAHAHAHAHA

YES

😂😂😂 I can’t

Obi-Wan just went so yeah I’m not gonna engage. I could just see Anakin’s face under there. Like… okay???

(Like what are you doing man I’ve been looking for you for a decade and you don’t even want to rub lightsabers with me?)

Imagine how weird it must be for Obi-Wan tho, under the panic. That’s Anakin, there’s no doubt, because of the Force. But he doesn’t sound like him and he can’t see his face (and even if he could, that’s not the face of his friend anymore, that’s a wrinkled marshmallow).

“What have you become?”

Bro what about a hello first.

“I am what you made me.”

Aaaand he keeps on running away 🙄

I wonder if he’ll scream “nooo” when Obi-Wan gets on the next ship

“He’ll be fine.”

“No he won’t be.”

Well, he’ll be fine physically but Vader has that passive area of psychic damage when it comes to Obi-Wan so you’ll want to check on him afterwards

Asdfghjkl the lightsaber igniting made me jump and also i thought for a sec it was a Galaxy of Heroes notification because i wasn’t watching the screen.

Yeah babes! Rematch!

“The years have made you weak.”

And they made you so ugly. At least Obi-Wan’s still hot.

Fellas is it gay if our light saber blades are touching

“You should have killed me when you had the chance.”

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I bet most of the time he wishes Obi-Wan did.

My neighbor just came asking me for cellophane and ohmygod have i been watching this for two hours already

He’s so dramatic i love him.

Asdfghjkl sick burn

Now i really think the thing Anakin is the most bitter about is his pretty face

“Bring him to me.”

While i like how you say it, Anakin, baby, you could just make him float.

Did she

Relight the fire on purpose????

Oh i didn’t catch that it was Ned picking Obi-Wan i thought he was just fucking burning there had to go back to understand why Vader was like “okay I’m not gonna do shit”

Bro he straight up looks like he’s dissociating standing there

“Okay bye.”

Feel that burn Obi-Wan? It’s called karma.

Leia and the 3rd sister. Not good 😬

#here’s to getting everything I’ve been wanting #HALLUCINATIONS BABY #calyss watches star wars #the obi wan show #obi wan kenobi #star wars spoilers #obikin #(watching with goggles on)#anakin skywalker: human toaster #darth vader #leia organa

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supermanandlois3 · 1 year

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RAAAAAAHHHHHHHGGGRRRRAAAAAAAHHHHH!!

FUCKING PIECE OF ROTTING BULLSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!!!!!

AHAAAHAAAAHAAAAAHHAAAA!! HAHAAAHAAA!!

(You see what this series has done to me.

It's driven me crazy... 0.0)

WHHHHYYY!? WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHHHHHYYYYEEEEE?

FUCK THE WORLD!!!! DX

Update: 3/21/12

I just read the synopsis. Is this for real? Really?

REALLY!?

So, in order to remain safe from some oooh scary angels, Bethany and Xavier go to college!? Oh sure, just blow $100,000 and party and whatnot! I am working my ASS off just to afford the first year! You know what, fuck you!! You are going to college to hide while I am trying to go to college to LEARN and to better my FUCKING LIFE!

GODMOTHERFUCKINGDAMMIT!!!

(sorry, it's that time of the year when I am impatiently waiting to hear from the rest of the colleges I applied to and researching thousands of scholarships. It's a stressful time. -_-)

I am so glad I am not reading this shit. I hope Bethany gets what she's always wanted and gets her wings ripped off so that she can stay with Xavier as a mortal and DIE!! BAHAHAHAHAHA!! XD

Edit: 4/1/12

*stares at cover*

Is... Is this for real? Is this the actual cover?

........

BAHAHAHAHA!! AHAHAHAHAHA!! *snorts* AHAHAHA!!

*falls on the ground and kicks feet in the air* Teeheehee! Oh my god... Ha, ha, heh... That seals it, there is no god damn way I am getting this. I was worried that if the cover was too beautiful that I would have to get it. But this cover...!

*points at cover and laughs more*

Just go away! You are killing me!

Edit: 8/1/12

So I read the first chapter because a friend of mine gave me a link to it. At first, I didn't even want to read it. I had sworn that I would not even glance in this hideous book's direction, that I would plug my ears and sing, "La la la la!" if anyone mentioned it's name.

However, curiosity got the better of me.

UGH.

Yet, in a way, I am glad I read the first chapter. It helped me see what direction the book will go, and I do NOT want to go down the same path with this shit.

So its starts out where Hades left off. There is an earthquake, the ring falls to the floor, and Bethany is preparing to be sent back to Heaven or whatever.

But then the earthquake stops, and everything is honey-dorey.

Are you kidding me!? Hades left us hanging on an "oh-so-intense-moment" where we think something bad is going to happen, then its just ends!? But I suppose I expected this. Ally has a thing for over-dramatizing every little thing when, in reality, nobody gives a flying fuck.

After the little, "Oh it was just a warning tremor from God or whatever, no biggie!" Xavier and Bethany go to the church to get married. I noticed that the writing improved, but I still found myself skipping paragraphs and details here and there. Does the author have to explain every action of the characters and detail of the surroundings? I think I get the picture, Ally. I have imagination, you know!

So Father Mel holds the ceremony, and woohoo, Bethany and Xavier are married. I got up from the computer at that point and asked myself, "Do I dare continue with this atrocity?" I noticed I didn't have much longer to go, so I took a deep breath and continued on reading.

Then it (finally) started to get interesting. A Grim Reaper holding a scythe comes marching into the church. At first, I am all like, "Cool!" since I am a huge fan of Death and the Grim Reaper. I am hopping up and down in my chair, hoping that the Reaper has come to take Bethany or Xavier's soul (or maybe both, since I equally hate them) and exact punishment on them. But then the Grim Reaper turns on Father Mel, basically blaming him that Bethany got married to a mortal. He takes Father Mel's soul, and leaves the real culprits behind.

WHAT THE FUCK!!?

I hate this Grim Reaper! Why did he have to take it out on poor Father Mel!? Bethany is to blame! She started this whole mess!! I JUST DON'T GET IT AAAAAAGRRAAAJNGONDOGNINAISFN!! I WANT HER TO DIIIIIEEEEEE!!

So I am done. I can't... I just can't. Reading that first chapter completely sealed it. Done. Finito! I hate Bethany so much it makes me want to tear my hair out. I despise Xavier with a passion that I did not know I could ever feel. And I can no longer tolerate this stupid, pointless, aggravating, insulting, blasphemous, horrible, atrocious series any longer. This is the reason I no longer carry hope for the YA genre, when books like these get published and idolized, when people with actual talent get dismissed or ignored.

I will not read this... thing... I never will. I already have an ending tot his series, and I am sticking to it.

MY version of the conclusion to this series:

God- You are no longer fit to be my messenger! I strip you of your powers, your wings, and your place in Heaven!

Bethany- Nooooooooooooo!

(She gets banished, her get ripped off, and she is sent back to Earth as a mortal)

Xavier-Beth! What happened!?

Bethany-I am no longer an angel...(sobs briefly)... I am like you now. We can be together, and grow old.

Xavier-We can... Oh, Beth. We will be together till then end.

Bethany-Yes, and we--

(A bus runs over her. After that, she gets trampled by stampeding cows. Then, a group of bicyclists speed over her crumpled body. She dies)

Xavier-Nooooooooo! Why, God, why--!?

(Xavier gets struck by lightning. He dies)

God-That will shut him up. :>

The End

This is a review on Goodreads.com on the book Hates by Alexandra Adornetto

This reviewer gave this book a 1 star just read the review and see how full of hatred she is.

#halo trilogy #alexandra adornetto #angel books #ya fiction #ya romance #paranormal romance

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MINDNOTES #1

HELLO I AM HAVING A GREAT TIME RIGHT NOW AND I AM ON ONE F MY OTHER ANOTHER EPISODES WHERE I AM VERY EXCITED AND ELEVATED AND HAPPY SO I TELL ALL GREAT NOTES OF MY MIND@!!!!!!!

okok so i was just rewatching borat because that movie always makes me laughHAAHH very funny and it makes me smile but then again i wish borat wouldve never went after pamela like WHAT is the point why is it always a love interest as the goddamn goal???? although i found it very funny when he tried to kidnap her very nice! HBHJABHJB!! s os soi ... hm... well i have noticed that my mind has been ac wait acting up LATELY AND BASICALLLLLLYYY i have found out nNO NO i HAVE realized and recognized that my mind has been having trouble making differenence between fictiona nd reals OH MY GOD> fiction and reality. im having trouble deciphering them. like i cant tell the difference sometimes. and what i mean by that, i mean im having trouble with my dreams and reality. i dream of something or a have one of my elaborate day dreams and i think its actually happened. and i know this happens when im tired but i mean i now think of these in the middle of the day and i just take it as the real thing BUT WAIT there is more. basically, sometimes i just receive information from literally no where... i just have the memory like when i think of a dream i had I KNOW it was a dream BUT NOWADAYS i cant tell.. like usually i can tell if that memory is from a dream but now I CANT.. so now i cant really trust myself.. hm.. but anyways.... I WAS THIKING::; GODDAMMIT I HATE HAVING TRICHOTILLOMANIA AND BASICALLY that means i have issues with tearing or RIPPING out my own hair although my issue is a bit more risky due to me ripping out my damn EYE LASHES and so now i fear getting a retinal detachment? i think thats whats its called i cant remember i saw it somewhere OHB AHABHABHJA THERES GREAT THING I MUST SAy and basically me and friend in 4th grade made up are own little slang in wich friction=sex and we thought that was FUNNNNNYYYY AHAHAHAHAHA it still makes me smile mwhheheheheheheh..... hm. ok i think my hyperness is wearing off... aw man.. hm........ well the weather has been nice, huh? NOT! very crappy but i do not care. i was thinking about the future and i thought HEY! what will i bewhen im older? a prostitue? and so that also reminded me that of antinatalism which i very much enjoy!!! it intrigues me very much and basically i think and i probably wait i mean HOLD ON.............................. ok so yeah i may be an antinatalist.... yes ... sounds right... BUT I CANT BE SURE>>> i almost read the entire wikipedia page for it and its all fun but i was reading it in class when we were suppose to be reading something else but what we were assigned was very boring so i just read it instead but i kept falling asleep cuz its 1st hour, duh!!! but i read it previosuly and i was just trying to work my memory again i dunno.. and so like yeah. where do we go when we die?? well i am a realist so obviosuly we go back to the void BUT what if we do go to heaven? hmm.. well i bet its boring.. and hell? must be boring too... but i would also like the idea of reincarnation which i have been thinking of for a very long time since i was a wee lad and i believe it and i always thought of being reborn as a bunny but i really dont want to be reborn again... cuz i dont like living but! im not suicidal, only on sundays.. OH EYAH! that reminds me i was sent to teh counselors office for searching up a gg allin song HAAHAHHA it was so sfunny!!!! s i acted really cocky with the counselor and then i was reminded of my inner misogyny.. and yes.... i did have issues with misogyny.. uh huh... internalized, really. but i am trying not to be such an ass about it. i dont feel like that anyway.. only on sundays. OH YEAH>>>> wait nevermind. hm. what was i talking about.. OH YEAH so i truly believe i was never suppose to be born, so what does jesus or god or whatever do about the children who were accidents? thats right. he does nothing about them... so im kinda alone i guess... WELL IM USED TO THAT!!!! maybe thats why i am not blessed and have been a very unlucky person?? well.. i dunno. i guess yeah. im not very lucky. but im fine with that. AND I DUNNO ABOUT U GUYS but when someone confesses they like you it just disgusts me.. it feels violating.. gives me a horrible sick feeling in me. im saying this because last time i was confessed to which was last year i thought about killing myself for a week straight i think and became really self conscious of myself and i was all like: EWW YUCK HOW>??? i was pissed off for about.. hmm 5 months after the event?? took me a while for myself to become less hostile to that person. now we are good friend but every now and then the feelings come back and i think of killing them.. hey confessor if u see this SORRY!!!! but anyways speaking of killing i have realized.. hmm.. im not as violent as i used to be. you see when i was a very little wee lad i was very much fixated on the idea to kill small animals, and that immediatley gies the m=imp IMPRESSION that i ama sociopath but you are wrong. i think i was just way more disturbed back then. i was like 6-7 years old dont blame me. but when i did get my hands on that bird.. heehhe well i kidnapped it and i dont remember but i did partake in throwng it.. i dont know why. i tried to care for it but it died. i really wanted to squeeze its body and stuff.. glad i didnt. rest in peace little bird. hmm.. but I GUESS i was partake and partook in too and parred with punching my friends sometimes BUT ONLYclose close friends. wich i i do not see anymore. .. . sad.... my friend.. WIAT WIAY i just remebered hat got me to watch borat in the first place!!! it was when i was at the thrift store and i saw him!! my beloved borat and it hought he was sooo cute like a little puppy but father said not to watch it so i was like... oh..okay.... its good though because my virgin eyes could not handle borat in blu-ray quality. NOT! it wasnt a blu-ray. wait i had another idea. its fading..... hm.. well okay.. i think im done. i love the smell of weed... but only the aged smell... its wonderful. ever since kindergarten i was hooked. and thats not an exaggeration.

#sorry i have a lot to say

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qaf, 1x06 notes to self (am I trying to encourage myself to finish this damned story? yes)

"that's them! brian's lesbians!" oh Justin

i've already started skipping all of dr. dave's scenes

So. Brian shows up at Lindsay's place, where Justin is. and instead of ignoring the lad, he's a. flirting via snarky comment, b. throwing stuffed animals at his head when Justin doesn't pay attention to him... c. gets mad when Mel insinuates that justin should find someone else. yeah Brian, you're doing so well at convincing everyone you don't give a shit about this kid

brian being shocked and incredulous about mikey and ted meeting people who don't want to fuck immediately. like, uh oh, my friends are trying to find something else instead of being happy with the status quo, what am I going to do?? (not that he wants to date or whatever, but you can tell Brian's uncomfortable with facing the question of "do I want some kind of deeper relationship other than Mikey?")

lindsay: "you'll have lots of different relationships with lots of interesting people, Justin" ahahahahaha no, nope, this kid imprinted on kinney like a lil duckling, and -- this is the part that no one can believe -- brian kinney imprinted right back. also fuck you, lindsay

<- caught a random David line and he is such a fucking douchebag. sure, brian is being a fucker about David, but (interestingly) not more of a fucker, I don't think, than michael is about justin

lindsday tells Brian, "it's time you were part of the community" and when Brian says he doesn't need to take care of anyone and he doesn't need anyone to take care of him, she says "well, one day you might". fast forward three and a half seasons to 4x01, brian almost cries in front of a whole crowd of friends, family, and random acquaintances who hand him a cheque that saves him from selling his home because of The Stockwell Mess.

so one day, brian, you'll become part of the community. even if you still hate the GLC. and the community will appreciate the fact that you've changed. <3

ahhh, the art show. daphne! daphne being sort of bi? maybe bi?

mel, shoving justin toward other guys. not okay, mel. also, I just realized, Brian's being a shit about Dave here, but Michael is being weird too. not as much of an asshole, but weird

Jenn is so awkward, so not ready for this, and even though I know a lot of people say you have to give your family a chance.... clearly justin had a point about what WOULD happen with his family. jennifer isn't ready, craig (eventually) disowns him

deb and jenn at woody's: deb, you are such a fucker, talking Brian down to jenn... okay, she does say, "I've known Brian since he was fourteen, and I'd say him and Justin are pretty evenly matched."

Contrasting David and Ben just shows how much better Ben is. David reluctantly dances with Emmett but is still jealous; in 3x09, Emmett drags Ben out to the dance floor because Justin and Brian are out there being the greatest reunification since germany <3 and Ben has fun, enjoys it, lets Michael do his jealousy thing

Blake comes back! I forgot. Oh Blake. Ted/Blake have a totally different but just-as-instant connection as brian/justin. the difference (?) is justin and brian are stronger (? not the right word, but something; more determined?) than blake and ted. or at least, ted and blake are both in the middle of their lack-of-coping, while Brian and Justin have more firmly entranced walls and coping skills and don't have to face their shit for a while into the relationship (if... if they ever actually do)

brian having anon sex while staring at justin's portrait! he really did fall for the kid. I always forget how much he really did fall for the kid.

#queer as folk us #qaf #og qaf #brian/justin #britin

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123-noname-321 · 1 year

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Hahahaha I fucking hate myself so so much ahahahahaha I wanna die ahahahaha (guys I’m going insane I’m so fucking UGHHH)

#tw ana thoughts #ana trigger #ana y mia #tw 3d #3at1ng d1s0rd3r #4n4mi4 #tw ed relapse #4n4rexia #an0rexic #disordered eating thoughts #ed but not sheeran #tw ed vent #notprojusttags #anor3x14 #tw ana diary #4norex1a #anorekix #notpro4n4

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Let’s see what happened!

It's a good thing you realize it that what you did was wrong and how Monaca truly manipulated all of you but I do want to ask...

While in Towa City; I found some journal entries by all of you....

Yeah... we figure we write down stuff when we die as kids and when we killed our parents; just to get it out of our system.

*files the pages of the file and pushes it to Masaru* So if you can, can you explain this?

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Memoirs of Masaru Daimon

Uuuwhoaaa! My heart is pouuunding! Haha, I'm lookin' forward to it! Is the paradise ready yet? A world without a single Demon! I can say "weenie" and "poop" all I want! And no one's gonna tell me I'm gonna spoil my appetite by eating candy for dinner! Ahahahahaha!

For the sake of making the bestest possible paradise, I have to be the bestest leader! I'll lead everyone to victory!

That Useless Shitty Brat

I ordered my son to go buy alcohol. I even GAVE HIM THE MONEY. He comes back home EMPTYHANDED. He said something about not having ID or something, whatever. Who cares? I trained the boy. I made him go do it one more time, and he comes back with alcohol. The next day, the cops show up. Apparently the little shit STOLE IT! The brat HUMILIATED me. But I trained him good as soon as the cops left.

I hate my son's face when I'm teaching him a lesson. The smile he forces so that I'll stop hitting him creeps me out. He can't just cry or yell like a regular kid? Shit, I got myself a defective product.

It's my fault

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's all my fault… It's my fault I don't know how to buy alcohol properly. It's my fault that I cough when you smoke. It's my fault, and that's why Dad gets mad at me.

I'm sorry for making you look like the bad guy. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm the one who's at fault and I'm sorry I made you look like the bad guy. Please don't throw me away. Please stay with me. Please keep being my dad.

Diary

No doubt about it, Monaca is the best! As expected of the Mage of the "Warriors of Hope," lead by me. Just trust in Monaca, and even "brainrinsing" is easy as pie! As long as they wear the "Monokuma Head," everyone's our ally!

If this keeps up, the paradise will be completed in no time! And when that happens, I'll bring peace to the entire world next! And then, when I'm leader of the whole world, I'll make sure there's no more pain and fear!

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These were written by you except for the 'Useless Shitty Brat' which... I know it's personal but can you talk about your dad?

Ye-Yeah... I can do that...

My dad was a pretty bad person, Nagisa had told you all that all of us came from bad homes; we know Monaca had it the worse but it's not like we were any better.

My dad's name was 'Hiroshi Daimon', all I knew is that he work for a moving company; he has this truck and he transport stuff around but I'm not sure what it was.

I also notice you seem to hate alcohol and the smell of it; I guess your dad drinks a lot?

Ye-Yeah... he tends to drink, smoke and become violent; often he would throw bottles at me and hit me if I'm too loud...

I-Infact he often say a bunch of stuff too; like if you start to cry your a coward an-and he would bla-blame me for things... I-I just hated when he was drunk or smells like booze or when he smokes!

That sounds awful, your dad seems pretty bad...

Yeah... and the cops weren't much help either, I was stuck dealing with that for most of my life before Monaca suggested we kill ourselves.

#dr #danganronpa #dtfa #despair to future arc #ds:rw #despair side: re write #udg #danganronpa another episode: ultra despair girls #dr:thh #danganronpa: trigger happy havoc #komaru naegi #masaru daimon #sunako inoue #toko fukawa #anonymous #ds ep 6

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