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salemcantupdate · 10 months

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I’m sitting here, thinking about possible ships in Stardew Valley that don’t involve the farmer. I’ve seen quite a few. Of course there’s the canon stuff, aka the married couples and Marnie with Lewis. It’s also canon that Alex says he’s jealous if you get with Haley. Ignoring Clint and Emily because I’m sorry but that’s literally “nice guy creepy incel” getting the girl.

But! I don’t like most of the married couples AND I don’t like Marnie with Lewis. So I’m gonna go on a little exploration here.

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot of Caroline and the Wizard. First of all I absolutely think that Abigail is the Wizard’s kid, but I also don’t think those two actually… like each other? I think it was more of a fling than anything. But low key? Part of me thinks the Wizard and Lewis could be kinda fun, I’ve also seen art of the Razzy with Marlon. Which would be fun! But I do think it’s really cute when Marlon says that Marnie is really pretty. It’s just precious to me.

But BUT, crazy thought

Willy and Razzy mic Dazzle???? HEAR ME OUT HEAR ME OUT

Willy is a traveler! He fishes all over the place!!! He’s gotta have experience with sea monsters and weird magics, and imagine the Wizard requests some specific sea based spells or works with him to help find merpeople OR ensures the seas and skies are calm so that he can sail safely. DO YOU SEE MY VISION???

Cough, so— I’m thinking Willy with Razzmocious and Marnie breaking up with Lewis and Marlon slowly winning her over himself. Caroline though? Honestly don’t think she’s the happiest with Pierre, he’s pretty shit. Low key I like her with Jodi haha. Like Kent isn’t bad, not at all, I just don’t think Jodi loves him. But Caroline and Jodi feel a bit too obvious, so… hear me out… Caroline and Gunther. She regularly visits the library so— gah yeah that’s stupid. Caroline deserves someone who will just cuddle with her and Jodi needs someone who makes her feel alive again. They’ve got different needs. Kent also needs a lot of love and therapy, which I don’t think Jodi can provide. Ok, I’m gonna move on to an easier one I’m dying here.

Sam and Sebastian are so obvious, going insane here. 100% ship them. I’ve seen some people throw Abigail into the mix, but personally I’m not the biggest fan of that. Honestly? I’m kinda into Abigail and Haley—

OK LISTEENNNNN, listen. Abigail’s 14 heart scene… imagine if Haley was there instead of the farmer. It just fits so perfectly. Pretty girlfriend loving buff girlfriend. I THINK ITS CUTE OK LEAVE ME ALONE SOB SOB SOB

Speaking of the girls, I like Maru and Penny together a lot. I just see them around town together all the time and I think it’s super cute haha. Ah shoot, that reminds me of Robin. I do not like Demetrius, personally. Though I suppose there marriage seems to work. I wouldn’t break them apart.

Ok, now on to my hotter tea. Harvey and Shane. Harvey is just so sweet and so loving and so nice and caring and Shane has no experience with that and Harvey gets Shane access to a therapist dhkfhwkd— I think it’s cute. I think it would be really cute if they started hanging out and Shane realized how poorly Harvey ate and started scolding him like “You’re always scolding me but you eat like this?” And just keeps going as he cooks them both a meal and gruffly sets it out for Harvey and—

Sobbing

Ok my other somewhat hot take, Elliott and Alex. The reasoning here might be iffy, but I like the idea of Alex getting with a guy who broadens his range of what masculinity means. I think it would also be cute if Alex slowly gained a love for reading through Elliott. Plus I think Alex could be a magnificent muse given his past. It could be cute.

Oh and my final take is Morris and Pierre should hatefuck

…

ANYWAYS

But yeah, I don’t necessarily ship all these. Like, actively and actually ship them. I might one day, but right now I’m just sitting in my thought stew.

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absolutebl · 1 year

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This Week in BL - PAIN, all the pain you could want

except this is me, I don’t want it... whimper

Dec 2022 Wk 1

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. Organized by which ones (in each category) I’m enjoying the most.

Ongoing Series - Thai

My School President (Fri YT) 2 of 10 - this show is gloriously ridiculous and charming and exactly my preferred kind of BL. Tinn has NO GAME, but man do I love a whipped boy. Anything that harkens this hard to Love Sick gets my vote.

609 Bedtime Story (Fri WeTV) 3 of 11 - It is nice to see Ohm play a character with more animated facial expressions. I’m liking this show a great deal, but I am really not wild about time loops. Crazy to see Stud & Sam on screen together again. Holy Friend Zone flashbacks batman.

Between Us (Sun iQIYI) 5 of 12 - it continues to be great, I continue to worry about the fact that apparently only Taiwanese BL considers therapy a viable option for boys who actually, ya know, NEED it. WATCH ALONG HERE.

Ai Long Nhai (Mon iQIYI) 11 of 12 - More nothing is happening, but the nothing is shirtless again, so I’m good.

Remember Me (Sun Gaga) 9 of 12 - Well, the sweet little BL with Gun & Golf is great. Bummer they only take up 20% of screen time. Golf’s parents are the best. That’s all I got.

I Will Knock You (Fri Gaga) 4 of 12 - it’s boring, what can I say?

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

My Tooth Your Love (Taiwan Fri Viki) 10 of 12 - everything about this show is so stinking cute, even the crumbs are adorbs. So many smiley kisses! (my 2nd fav kiss, the 1st one being a crying kisses, I’m warped). Speaking of, is it just me or is the actor playing Alex 1000% hotter when he smiles? Please no Doom next week, Taiwan? Pretty please?

Oh! My Assistant (Korea Thurs Viki) 3-4 of 8 - Amusingly, I’m referring to it as OhMyAss in my notes. I do love this one, it has such a Japanese feel to it. The episode titles alone are hilarious. Plus, kisses already? Korea? What’s going on? Meanwhile, this is my favorite bisexual awakening in cinematic history. It made me incandescently happy.

Happy Ending Romance (Korea Thurs Gaga & Viki) 5-6 of 8 - Look, I can watch Leo be pensive & moody until the cows come home (and have in half of Vixx’s MVs*) but it is getting a little tiresome here. PLUS: this is a KBL they don’t have a lot of time to waste even on his level of evil beauty. I think this would have worked better as a romance if the Writer had known the Editor in (at least) a friendly way in the past/at school as well - so there was more established dynamic to their instant affection and shacking up. Apart from my qualms around the romance thread, the plot is actually pretty good. It’s very angsty and tense for something so simple, which suits this length of show. *I guess what I am saying is if Korea ever did a remake of KinnPorsche, Leo MUST play Vegas.

Choco Milk Shake (Korea Strongberry Tues YT) 10 of 11 - Pain. Argh. It was cruel to send them back, to all of us. Is there an ep 11, or is that a BTS and this was the end? In which case... in Strongberry I no longer trust. I guess we find out next week how shaken my faith is.

Eternal Yesterday AKA Eien no Kino (Japan Thurs Gaga & Viki) 8fin -Fortunately I have no faith at all in Japan, I expect pain from them. So here’s your final review of this one:

Smart boy in love with zombie incubus, keeps him alive with sex. Japan, king of thirst, gives us both that and PAIN: these 2 are drowning in yearning and loss. Careful with this one - you break it, you bought it, and it'll break you... wide open just to see what color your guts are. After watching, you too might be walking around alone, forgotten, and wondering why no one understands your loss. Not only does it not end happily, it ends hopelessly. That’s an automatic 2/10 from me. No exceptions and NOT RECOMMENDED.

Sure, it may actually be brilliant, but it hurt me and I’m mad about it.

It’s Airing But I’m Not Watching It

War of Y (Thai Gaga) 20 eps - it’s just all too much for me.

2 Moons 3 (Thai Mon ??) 10 eps - Possibly a future binge watch. Rumor is it’s banal.

Love Bill (Vietnam Sat YT) - Bah Vinh is back but I’m too distracted. Also there’s a lot of fund raising stuff going on. I’ll wait and binge.

The Star Always Follow You (Vietnam YT) - same Team RL peeps we have seen before (Sunshine, Stupid)

Till the World Ends (Thai YT) 10 eps - ?

Why You... Y Me? (Thai Weds YT) 10 eps - It's not primarily a BL, but another meta show about BL shipping, with side BLs. @heretherebedork is watching it, ask them about it.

Gossip

Here’s that rumor, by the way.

I refuse to believe it. GMMTV is simply forbidden to do pain, it’s not their brand and I’ll be very mad if they do.

In Case You Missed It

Semantic Error movie (Viki) the repackage did have some nice added footage but I wasn’t wild about some of the new scene cut choices. Still, not substantial enough changes for me to deeply lean one way or the other. I prefer the original but that might just be because that’s how I consumed it first. *shrug*

GAP the series (Sat YT) is a classic office set romance. WATCH IT! It’s GL and this studio needs our support! I’m enjoying it but not chronicling my journey. (Also, the stairs are back.)

Next Week Looks Like This:

Starting December 2022:

Dec 13 - Never Let Me Go from Thailand, GMMTV’s YT, 10 eps - GMMTV’s answer to KinnPorsche this is a mafia, attack dog (whipping boy + bodyguard) suspense BL. I’m delighted to see Pond Phuwin get a crack at something that’s not FUTS. Jojo (3 Will Be Free) is directing, so we know the action parts should be decent.

Dec 15 - The Director Who Buys Me Dinner from Korea, iQIYI - A new production house employee whose director (absolutely perfect in every way except that he seems to have lost his mind) claims to have lived 3 lives and insists that they have to date if they don't want to die.

Dec 16 - Candy Color Paradox AKA Ameiro Paradox from Japan, Gaga, 8 eps - A stakeout throws Onoe, a reporter, together with photographer Kaburagi. Kaburagi's haphazard work style goes against Onoe's ethics. Yet, in joint pursuit of a scandal, the two move from enemies to lovers. Adapted from manga Ameiro Paradox by Natsume Isaku.

Dec 21 - The New Employee AKA The New Recruit AKA Shinib Sawo from Korea, (prob Gaga or Viki) - From WATCHA (Semantic Error) virginal Seung Hyun scores the office internship of his dreams but on his first day at work he gets into it with his cool reserved boss. As you do. Stars Moon Ji Yong (Once Again). Based on Moscareto's web novel of the same name, directed by openly gay & queer activist Kim Jho Gwang Soo (Just Friends?).

Dec 28 - H5: Love in the Future from Taiwan (prob Gaga or Viki) - A cheerful and energetic student from 2000 travels to the future (2022), works as a deliveryman, and meets his first customer, an heir with a domineering personality. Directed by Nancy Chen (HIStory 4, Papa & Daddy).

THIS WEEK’S BEST MOMENTS

Between Us

I love him, your honor. (Ai Long Nhai)

I catching another bad case of side dish addiction syndrome (GameVee in 609 Bedtime Story)

We stan a dorky wingman with an imaginary umbrella trope. (My School Pres)

(last week)

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aghostlybao · 3 years

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filipino!bobby? filipino!bobby.

au where bobby is not trevor (aka trevor is his and carrie’s pa) : modern day edition where alex, luke, and reggie are alive

he’s a second gen immigrant, his mother being philippine-born, making carrie their half-sister.

bobby is protective of his ma (she’s still alive but her and trevor are divorced), because he’s had to witness racism/microaggression directed at his ma.

point above is the common reasons they got into fights as a kid (only increased as they grew up and learnt more about those issues).

bobby’s ma once confronted him about a fight that got him suspended he punched another kid and was considered ‘rude/troublesome’ by his teacher and principal. seeing his ma cry and stress over the whole school situation prompted them to tell her the reason for the fight. the kid had made fun of his ma being a nanny.

^ why he’s the mom friend. they learnt to be independent at a young age to make his ma’s life easier.

bobby was pretty short as a kid, and had a late grow spurt that shook luke cause dude ur voice? hella deep <3

he and his ma are a part of this lil filipino community in l.a. it’s also where he met kayla (who was nearly named princess).

trevor wasn’t immune to the so called l.a. rock n roll lifestyle but he finally decided to get better, starts going to therapy cause he doesn’t want to miss another child of his growing up.

bobby finally met trevor and it wasn’t a great meeting in general. made it clear right off the bat that they didn’t need him in their life cause they were doing ok.

but his ma got sick to the point she needed to be hospitalized, bobby was ready to quit school and not bother with high school at all in favor of finding a full time job. medical bills on top of their monthly ones are expensive. trevor had a heart to heart with bobby “i know how important she is to you but you’re still a kid, bobby. you’re allowed to be selfish, to argue for your wants, it isn’t your job to make your mother’s life easier. she’s not your responsibility.”

those words made them breakdown, it’s perhaps the first time he cried in front of someone (bonus: it’s the first time he and trevor shared a hug) because while bobby undeniably loves his ma, there is still that pressure for him to be more mature than his age, to be well behaved, and excel. the expectation to know everything right off the bat is drilled into his mind. it wasn’t something he shared or spoke about. so trevor telling him that it’s okay to ask for help? prompted him into giving trevor a chance to be a part of their life.

making music with luke and eventually alex and reggie was their way of letting their feelings out. he’s written several songs he hasn’t shared with the band, cause they were more than happy to be dragged along by luke’s energy.

his mother remarried and he began to stay @ trevor’s home more. they still talk and often meet up, occasionally spends the holidays together and has a great relationship with his half-siblings but they can’t deny that living with trevor felt like a big relief.

the arguments/reconciliations/support/the open discussions about their thoughts, and feelings lifted a big weight off his shoulders.

he would take carrie with him to the lil community gatherings he and his ma often attended (she met kayla there) to show her a bit about filipino culture.

bobby, carrie, and kayla would play nanay tatay (filipino clapping game) they still do to this day.

carrie absolutely loves the nights bobby is cooking, more so when he cooks sopas or his version of spaghetti.

the first tagalog word carrie learnt is kuya (brother) and perhaps he cried i mean who wouldn’t when picturing smol carrie asking her kuya for a piggyback or something?

alex, luke, and reggie knows several tagalog phrases/words. they picked it up over the years of friendship (yep, they know how to swear in tagalog and kain na! aka time to eat). consider him surprised when they insisted that they can tell carrie that the food is ready. tbfh they only wanted to hear which of them could shout ‘kain na’ the loudest.

though his pronunciation needs more work, reggie knows more tagalog than luke and alex. bobby doesn’t know what to do with that fact. first thing reggie independently learnt is how to say ‘home is where my horse is’ (my tagalog is rusty af so i won’t even try to translate it but bahay = house/home && kabayo = horse nvm imma give it a go) ang bahay ko ay kung saan ang kabayo ko (???????)

ube flavored ice cream <3

also arcades and basketball are their other hobbies apart from making music

several sunset curve gigs were at filipino festivals like samahan cultural arts festival in san diego/historic filipinotown festival in l.a. (thnx to this they ended up with an international fan base before they even secured a gig @ the orpheum).

this ended up a lot longer than expected but i have no regrets.

#filipino!bobby #bobby jatp #trevor wilson #carrie wilson #julie and the phantoms #jatp #sunset curve #jatp headcanons #jjsmuddledideas

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winged-fool · 3 years

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Summary: Special Agent Alex Manes gets pulled into investigating another murder he knows will scramble his mind, like so many others has done before. But there’s something different about these murders, something that scratches in the back of his mind like an itch he can’t reach. And with the investigation comes the new acquaintance of one Dr. Michael Guerin. Someone who both peaks his interests and causes a cold feeling along his spine in ways he shouldn’t.

Meanwhile Michael wants to get closer to this new agent on the team in any way he can, be it by manipulation, therapy, or feeding him to make sure Alex can’t really leave. His secret is too big not to keep his friends close, and his enemies closer.

AKA this is a Hannibal AU. There will be darkness Inside.

Tags: Minor Maria DeLuca/Michael Guerin, Emotional Manipulation, Blood and Gore, Violence, Hannibal AU, Cannibalism, Manipulation, Graphic Description, Minor gaslighting, Descriptions of murder, Dark, Mentions of past child abuse, Alex Manes' Pack of Emotional Therapy Dogs, Bad Therapy

Our humble contribution to the @rnmbb

The malex Hannibal AU idea was first conceived in September 2019 but was shelved as @el-gilliath and I worked on other projects. It finally got restarted when Tove suggested we submit it for the big bang and from there it was a long and wonderful labor of love. It undoubtedly would not have been completed had it not been for Tove - especially with her incredible patience as I slowly slooooowly wrote my chapters. Thank you so much for being the best writing partner a very stressed girl could ask for 💙 I would have quit ages ago if it weren't for your support.

I'm very proud of how this turned out and grateful to everyone who had to listen to me talk on and on about this.

Many thanks to @tasyfa for the playlist and CD art - if you can, I highly recommend reading while listening to the playlist 💙 you can see her art and playlist here.

Huge love and thanks to @exploring-in-space who probably heard me talk about this only second to Tove and for copyediting and checking the consistency in our writing 💙

Thank you @lambourngb for the beta read 💙

And finally a big thanks to the Finer Things Club for their love and support of all things Hannibal and Malex. This one’s for you guys @nielrian @christchex 💙 💙

#malex #malex fic #rnm bb #my writing

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akane171 · 2 years

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Haha, maybe🤔🤣

*SOFTLY AND NICELY AND ONLY JOKINGLY BLAMES LW* (Never really cause she's WAY too nice to be blamed, but don't tell her i said that��)

Yup, true...At least with the Winchesters they semi-admitted they weren't always perfect or healthy😫

Yeah, now that you say it, it really is strange that there's always alcohol no matter the Time of day🤔😅

Omg, YES, that freaking elevator DIDN'T MAKE ANY SENSE?!! THEY DIDN'T EVEN MAKE A SIDE COMMENT ABOUT IT! But yes, I can only agree on Details over CGI🙈

You're definitely evil and now I kinda wanna get my poor godkid and his even poorer older sister far away and out of your reach😅😭🙈 You literally have no mercy on them, do you? Couldn't you at least have had her time travel to get her father&brother back or sth and no longer be alone anymore?😭

Lol, Same, here have another two high-fives for that😂

If that stereotype was a real person, I'd murder it painfully...😑 I hate it SO much.

The movie had nice animation but it was kinda meh from what I remember😫 Again, I didn't mind NaruHina at all (esp. since she did indeed like him for him before anyone else did), but the movie was kinda pointless and I still dislike the sudden planet/dimension-hopping they introduced at the end of Shippuuden and them being able to breath on the freaking moon is just...what?😅🙈

Jup, same😂 Have them as Bros and Sasuke be fine alone (seriously, that boy should probably go to therapy for at LEAST 20 years before he even thinks of getting into a semi-serious relationship...)

Ohhhh, sounds interesting!🤔 Really made me think of Hunger Games and Assasination Classroom tho, yeah😂

It kinda does and I mean, I had a discussion with a friend once where we did point out that having a bit romance is truly fine cause it's hardly believable that truly EVERY character is aro/ace or too emotionally unavailable, but...Agh, just the ratio of story vs. romance is so fucked up😫

Oh, nononono, I understood that you meant 9am! Sorry, my autocorrect must have changed that to pm and I didn't realize🙈🙈 NO SHAME ON YOU!😭 Ha, zombie😂 You know that Cranberries song? I never have to NOT think of it when I hear that word🤣

YES, EXACTLY! Thank you, FINALLY someone who understands how freaking draining and tiring humans and human interaction are!

Ohhh, that would actually be funny😂 Esp. if Kakashi still used those stupid/brilliant excuses like "I got lost on the road of life" or "I saw a black cat and had to take the long way around cause bad luck" etc😂

I'm still sobbing over Ace... It never was the Same again😫 (Fun Fact: OF COURSE they'd kill one of my two favourite side characters and never show the other (aka Shanks) apart from in openings😫🤦🏻‍♀️ I really need to stop getting emotionally attached to tragic and absent characters😫🤦🏻‍♀️)

Yup, definitely😅 But BEYOND creepy nontheless...🙈

Tokyo Ghoul is just another tragic mass (and to no surprise I once again got attached to the worst character you can get attached to cause you'll spend 99% of the story wondering where he is, what he's doing or if he's even alive🙄😫)

Oh, you gotta watch/read Attack on Titan's S4 Arc! I wasn't TOO into it before but after that time skip shit went down and uff, my heart died a few times (and I still Love the paralells between the two sides and how all characters are proven to be shades of grey instead of the stupid black-white-thinking animes etc like to have these days...) 🤔

XXXXX

....well, I blame her all the time foer a lot of things, @raisedbyfandomwolves i think you can confirm?

Yeah, well, Winchesters were the equals in the show, I think? Both screwed a lot, both hurt each other, and both apologized many times. In SG... I feel there was imbalance. Alex was usually propped, while Kara was treated like teh bad guy. Don't even let me moan how she treated Kara in the two last eps. And nothing was solved.

I mean, yeah, no cameras in the elvator? No one was surprised there was freaking HOLE in the roof? No one was surprised the levator was destroyed? Like? Someone could have died there, and we would not know. Sigh.

MUHAHAHAHAHA. I was thinking about reversing the future and erasing the bad stuff, becasue of some villain messing with their lives, I didn't plan anything that far ^^' I mean, it could end happy or disastrous. I'm pissed off, so ....

Basically, I'm happy i ended my Naruto journey on manga and have seen like 2 shippuden movies, nothing more. Anyway... all naruto movies suck and all are just dumb fillers. Sad facts.

I KNOW. Kishimoto fucked his character and imo, he seriosuly should have died. ... you know, teh same goes for Mon-El, I wish he had died in the end of s2 because as much as I love Chris and his portrayal of Mon Mon, they destroyed almost everything I loved about him and karamel. What we get was... a slap. Not only Kara will never find a partner, but he will also never move on. Fuck this show.

It's good, espeically the first movie. I haven't read manga (just one vol.) but it is super brutal. And I bought the book and it waits for being read... maybe... mext year?

Agreed. it's like no one can create a stroy without romance? That's dumb? And even if there is no romance, if the series is popualr, there you have SHIPPERS swarming everything and talking about only romances and ugh, just shoot me.

Like duh, who didn't hear about Zombie by Cranberries???? One of my fave songs. Seriosuly.

I KNOW. Look, i like a lot of people, I like having them, but jesus christ just leave me a lone for some time, i need to recharge myself? Also, for a long time my best friend was an extravert who totally, TOTALLY, didn't understand my needs of peace and quiet. After she talked about her LOVE LIFE for HOURS I felt drilled like an lemon after lemonade was made.

He and Tobi, if Tobi was Tobi not Madara xD, they would be best pals, I guess?

.... we seriosuly are spiritually conencted, because aside of the fact all my ships are fucked, usually my fave characters are fucked. Or not mentioned ever again. That's a curse. and you are cursed too =='

ehehehehe, black-white characters - that goes for Supergirl too :DDDDDDDD i mean, minus Lena, who is not black, not white, not gray, she's just shit.

Tbh, haven't been into anime and manga for a long time. Still finishing Skip Beat and I'm wondering if it will ever be finished. Same goes for NaNa and DNangel. And Saiyuki. Not mentioning Berserk... sad life of manga fan, huh?

#my fam

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gautierprotectionsquad · 3 years

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Crossover fic: Cut&Run / AFTG. Ty Grady/Zane Garrett. Andrew Minyard/Neil Josten. Trying my best at being canon compliant.

Summary: Ty and Zane work in the Baltimore offices of the FBI. Neil Josten was taken in by the FBI in Baltimore. This crossover was practically handed right to me and the only reason no one has wrote it is bc of the lack of overlap between fandoms. Hope someone enjoys.

The Federal Bureau of Investigation in Baltimore have been after The Butcher for over 10 years. They knew it was Nathan Wesninski but were never able to gather enough evidence to convince. Well, Mr. Wesninski had just returned home from prison and the FBI were ready with a welcome home present just for him. Or at least so they thought.

Ty Grady stood, pointed his gun, ready to shoot while someone shouted "FBI. PUT YOUR HANDS UP" and agents entered the building. Someone was sitting in a chair in front of Nathan Wesninski's house. As he got closer, Ty realized that they were bleeding, another couple steps, realized they were tied to the chair.

He was just a boy. The boy smiled, crazed.

"My name is Nathaniel Wesninski and my father is dead." The boy couldn't stop laughing.

Agents left the building. One of them said "sir, everyone was dead when we walked in. No survivors. Confirmed that one of the bodies was Wesninski's.

Son. Of. A. Bitch.

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"I wasn't even aware Wesninki had a kid," Zane said as he watched Nathaniel through the 2-sided mirror.

"No one did. This is so fucked up. Tortured his own damn kid." Ty couldn't jeep the anger out of his voice. He came in first thing to see how the kid was doing, wanting to know what they’ve gotten out of him so far. They needed this kid. He was the only thing they had to crack down on the rest of the Butcher’s people.

Nathaniel aka Neil Josten had just gotten out of the hospital and was now being interrogated by two fbi agents. The boy was completely covered in bandages covering up burn marks from god knows what and deep cuts all over.

One of the agents left the room. "He's refusing to talk.”

“That man almost killed him but he’s protecting his people now?” Zane asked.

“No. He wants to talk to his team first.”

"Team?" Zane asked

"Neil Josten is the star striker for the Palmetto State Foxes exy team," Ty answered.

"You've got to be kidding me. He's been on TV?"

The other agent spoke. "They've been looking for him. We already called his coach. They're on their way in a discreet van. They'll be here soon."

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His teammates were insane. Every single one of them. The Palmetto State Foxes were famous for being a team filled with problem children that the rest of society gave up on as well as being insanely talented. Every. Single. One of them refused to talk. The only thing they'd say is "Let me see Neil" and nothing else. Ty didn't think they knew anything anyway. It wasn't until a five foot gremlin pulled a knife on one of the agents that they decided to let them all get their way. But not without the knife kid getting handcuffed to his coach.

They put them all in a hotel room and gave them 20 minutes.

Neil agreed to tell them everything as long as Andrew, the knife gremlin, came with and that he not be put in witness protection. Instead, he'll be allowed to live his life as Neil Josten of the Palmetto State Foxes.

"Wait. He doesn't want witness protection?" Zane asked, confused.

"The coach is just as insane as the rest of them. Yeah. Nathaniel would rather play exy." said agent Brown, his hands in the air, angry that Neil had threatened him and gotten what he wanted.

For some reason, it didn't sit right with Ty that Brown was still calling him Nathaniel. Everyone that cared about the kid considered him Neil. Anyway, referring to the kid as Nathaniel Wesninski when his father's name was Nathan Wesninski was confusing as fuck and such a headache for Ty. Neil Josten was easier.

"It's sort of smart. He's a public figure. We can't take him away without everyone knowing what happened. And someone's bound to recognize him from tv. Being so visible makes him easy to find but it's also it's own form of protection. No one can kill him without risking cameras or everyone on the news talking about it."

As if to prove Ty's point, the station they were currently on started talking about Neil Josten, the sports anchors all taking a guess at what happened based only on rumors. Some of them were right, that he was kidnapped, while others were outlandish and, unfortunately for Neil Josten, not nearly as outlandish as the reality. Can't kidnap a public figure without everyone talking about it.

They all took shifts to take notes on Neil's story. It started when he was just 10 years old and it was long and impressive. Even agent Brown stopped giving Neil shit after learning about their choice to keep running rather than staying with another crime family for protection. Andrew sat next to him the whole time, clearly a calming presence for Neil, giving him strength.

Ty and Zane both came into the interrogation room after 3 hours. Zane handed Neil and Andrew some food.

"Looks like we're in the 7th inning stretch" Ty said, hoping to lighten the mood.

"I don't speak baseball," Neil said.

Ty gave Zane a pained look. Zane just smiled.

"Half time, then. Are those in exy?" Ty asked, not able to remove his rude tone.

That resulted in Neil giving a 10 minute long speech about the rules of exy. Zane was probably imagining it but for a second he thought he saw a pained look in Andrew's eyes before he went back to his usual bland expression.

Ty put his hand up. "I'm going to have to stop you there. Breaks over. We should get your story over with. The sooner you finish, the sooner we can all go home."

That shut him up. He sighed, looked at Andrew for support, then continued where he left off. His father had caught up to him and his mother and his mother had stopped to fight back. She was hurt. Bad. But she kept driving until they got to a beach and then died. Neil didn't specify which beach but he told them that he burned the car and then buried her, got rid of all their belongings and evidence and set up his current and final identity. Neil Josten. How he gave up running and just let his father capture him when he threatened his teammates.

Ty felt like he was leaving some things out but it didn't matter. They were getting names, they were going to bring Nathan Wesninski's people down. The kid was a pathological liar forced to spill his whole unfortunate life story. Let him keep a few secrets.

When he got to his father's "birthday present" Ty couldn't stop himself from gagging. Zane grimaced, also grossed out. Especially because Neil said it so casually.

"Don't worry. It was animal blood," he said as if it made everything better. Ty was reminded of Neil's look of delight when he said his father was dead. That kid was going to need some major therapy.

Ty and Zane went home late that night, not even caring if people saw them leaving together. Ty drove one handed, the other hand clasped in Zane's, resting on Zane's thigh. Neither of them spoke, knowing that both of them were thinking about Neil Josten aka Alex Rodriguez aka Johnathan Collins aka Henry West and so on and so forth. A kid that grew up with a serial killer and mobster for a father and the scars to prove it. A kid kept hidden and then forced on the run until he couldn't run anymore.

Ty knew Neil was lying about not knowing where the rest of the money his mother stole from his father was but Ty didn't give a shit. Not like the other agents like Brown would. Let the kid have it.

Finally, Zane spoke up. "So what the fuck is exy?"

Ty chuckled. "Didn't you hear the kid's 10 minute long rant?"

"Those rules don't even make any sense. How is it even physically possible to stop a goal. And what do you mean mouth guards are optional?"

"I'll put a game on when we get home and you'll see. I hear the knife gremlin's insanely talented. Like Olympian level."

Zane lay on the couch while Ty put on a rerun of a Palmetto Foxes exy game, the one right before Neil got kidnapped. Ty plopped down on the top of Zane, making Zane grunt, and got comfortable.

Zane read more about the players on his phone. Seeing that 2 of the foxes, including Andrew Minyard's twin brother, were recovering drug addicts made him a lot more invested in the game.

THE END.

#fanfiction #fanfic #aftg #all for the game #cut & Run #crossover fic #the foxes #the king's men #ty grady #zane garrett #neil josten #andrew minyard #Nathaniel wesninski #romanticsap

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About gramon: i know i read something about them being reconnected with each other in the album 13 recording... so I feel confused🤔 I mean, i would like someone to explain to me how their friendship ended ... i feel like i can never connect the pieces. At times in the 90s, they really seemed to be happy with each other. I see you have a great knowledge about the blur career, so could you explain to me the years when things were good and the years when they hated each other?

Yes! I weirdly do have a lot of info on that thanks to research for fic and just sponging up years of info as a fan and living through 3 reunions lol.

So, from my understanding Gra and Damon were pretty close up until TGE/self titled, when Damon and the rest of the band started to get burnt out and went to Iceland. Damon in particular was having serious issues with Justine, lots of "cheating" was happening in their open relationship in that they were no longer telling each other about their exploits. Damon and Graham spent lots of time away from each other because they'd spent so much time touring together. Graham met Anna (Pepper's mother) at a rock show—I believe. She was quite young than Graham (early 20's) and Damon was concerned about the age difference and protective about Graham (remember how Graham said Damon never liked his girlfriends.)

During 13 Graham and Damon reconnected after Damon's split from Justin, which is where the story of "Tender" comes about. Graham said that he saw Damon hurting deeply from.the breakup and it made he and Gra closer, albeit for a short time.

After 13, Graham and Anna had Pepper and it was in the throes of Graham's worst drinking era. He went into rehab, around when he wrote The Kiss of Morning and Crow Sit on Blood Tree. This was about the time Blur were starting work on Think Tank and Graham took the time off to get rehabilitated. There was some miscommunication (maybe) between the band and Graham about Graham needing personal time. The band had become so distant at that point from burn out that their tie was wearing thin. Graham said some disparaging things in the media about Gorillaz saying he didn't care for it and belittling Damon's project. The band were tired of Graham's bad attitude and antics and Graham was betrayed that Damon and the band weren't there for him or understanding that Graham was struggling with getting sober. That was when the band asked Graham to leave. It was surprising to Graham and he was pretty hurt as it wasn't delivered personally, but rather through the band's manager. But Graham was somewhat relieved also—in interviews he mentioned he was taking care of Pepper and full time being a parent.

In the early to mid-2000's Graham said some scathing things about Damon's "world music" aka Gorillaz and working too much. Also some little jabs at Damon in the media around Magazines and Love Travels. However he responded on the Graham Coxon message boards saying he "missed Damon" and that they were all going through "very serious substance addictions" at the time of the breakup and he "loved Damon and hoped he was safe" (I'm probably misquoting but that's the gist). Graham was also sort of getting his life together, being sober, taking care of Pepper and sharing custody and meeting Essy—his current partner.

It wasn't until Africa Express in 2008 I believe that Graham and Damon spoke again. Graham showed up and famously they both went to get Eccles cake. They both agreed they'd treated each other badly and got back together for the reunion in 2009. Their first public appearance together since break up was the Monkey premiere in 2008. Graham was with Essy at this point, and both he and Damon had kids who became friends (Missy and Pepper).

But even though they were on good terms, after the reunion Graham didn't return Damon's calls and there was still some emotional work that needed to be done. Graham was still anxious and threatening to leave during the second reunion tour in 2012 (pre-TMW post-2009 reunion) or so Alex says in New World Towers. Damon said during TMW tour they'd all finally "gone through therapy" with each other. Graham finishing The Magic Whip was his way of apologizing for his past flakiness to the band and showing he'd gotten serious and grown up a bit. So as far as I know now they have a much better friendship and Damon's mentioned many times how much he loves being able to bike to Graham's house and see him. And how Graham and Justine were two of the most important people in his life.

#a brief but rambling history of gramon from my head lol #gramon #history

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squeeze cheese, pandemics, & you

AKA the pandemic fic that literally everyone asked for

i still cannot believe that i actually wrote this BUT soooo many people asked me for a freaking pandemic fic that i wrote it. it’s crazy, a little messy, and the sass radiating from levi schmitt fuels my cold dead heart.

i’d like to personally thank @odd-birds-and-booksellers @kidneys4karev @choosingmywife and Nat AKA the “jolex mass grave” chat that bullied me into doing this. they’re also the heart and soul of ‘pandemic jo’ and really brought her and her mannerisms to life. cheers to you ladies, this fic is for you!!

and now... without further ado... the pandemic fic that i wrote most of at 10 pm while slightly tipsy (BONUS POINTS: it’s also another fix it fic bc i am traaaaash hehehe)

“Why do we have a nacho cheese dispenser?”

Jo looked up from her place on the couch, eyeing Levi as he stared at the new machinery in the kitchen. She turned her attention back to the soap opera on TV before answering him.

“Are you complaining?”

“No but-”

“Exactly.”

Settling back into the couch, Jo grabbed the bowl of apples that she had covered in nacho cheese earlier. She had developed a nasty online shopping habit since being in lockdown, but figured since she had sold off a good chunk of Alex’s belongings that she deserved to treat herself.

Worried sick that any exposure to the hospital or any of it’s doctors would harm her, Jo had been on a strict self-quarantine since March. Levi, having to choose between his job or place to live, was forced to reside with Jo full time. The past few weeks had been tough on both roommates, but their bond had been strong regardless of their arguments.

“I’m kind of concerned about your online shopping habit,” Levi sat on the other end of the couch from Jo, a plate of nachos in hand. “Between the nacho cheese machine and the ball pit, I have some questions about the vibe you’re trying to create here.”

“Hey I’ve never had a place to myself. I want to have fun! Let loose! Besides in a few months I’ll have to take care of someone else,” Jo patted her small baby bump affectionately. “I’m trying to be a cool mom and the ball pit was the first step.”

Ah yes, Jo’s unexpected pregnancy and the reason she was so paranoid about staying isolated. Three weeks after Alex had officially left, Jo had realized that he left her much more than just hospital shares and their loft. Four home tests later and a shoe thrown across the loft at Levi (“I’m just telling you Jo, false positives are really ra- OW!”) Jo had indeed confirmed her earlier suspicions.

“Well… for your sanity’s sake, I hope your online shopping doesn’t go completely off the rails,” a knock on the door interrupted Levi’s sentence, his eyes trailing to Jo accusingly. “If that’s another Amazon package, you’re going to have some explaining to do.” “Actually, it’s something even better,” Jo rolled her eyes, standing from the couch and grabbing what had been dropped on the doorstep. “It’s takeout! From the Italian place downtown with the really good spicy meatballs! It’s important that we support small businesses during these trying times.” “You sound like a walking capitalism ad,” Levi groaned, moving from the couch to the dining table and sitting across from Jo. “But if it keeps me well fed I can’t complain about that. Oh please tell me you’re not- yup that is squeeze cheese on the meatballs. That’s not right.”

+ “Hey have you seen- Ow! Why the hell did I just sit on knitting needles,” Levi held up the items in question as he stared down Jo. “Are you an 85 year old woman? When and why did you take up knitting?” “So I can make baby sweaters, duh,” Jo rolled her eyes and bit into her toast. “I’m not that great at it yet, but Helen has been teaching me over Skype. She’s an expert, she helped me make a baby hat but it’ll probably fit a baby doll before an actual human baby.”

“Okay wow, umm so many questions,” Levi pulled a chair over to where Jo was sitting, staring at her quizzically before jumping into his questions. “First, what is on your toast? Secondly, Helen as in your ex mother in law? And third, why are you sitting in the ball pit wearing a bucket hat and a bathing suit top?”

To his credit, Levi was asking sensible questions to Jo. She was indeed sitting in the ball pit she had bought online, eating a piece of toast with some questionable toppings and wearing an old pair of Alex’s boxers and a bikini top, a Seattle Seahawks bucket hat thrown carelessly on her head.

“The toast is nutella, swiss cheese, and strawberry jam, it’s like the trailer trash version of what you get at fondue places,” Jo took another bite as if to emphasize her point. “The bathing suit top is because my boobs are huge and won’t fit into my regular bras. Also my baby bump is growing larger by the day so I can’t fit into anything but sweatpants, but it’s way too hot in here for that. The bucket hat is because I was tired of staring at my unwashed hair in the mirror. And yes, Helen and I have become quite good friends and Skype every Tuesday while you go outside to call Helm for an hour and collect hospital gossip. She’s very excited she’s getting another grandchild and has begged me to come and visit once I bear the heir to the Karev name.”

“So you’re keeping your last name? And passing it onto the baby?”

Jo had spent many nights thinking long and hard about what to do with her last name. She had finally decided to change it but when she had found out she was pregnant, she knew that Alex’s side of the family would be the only real family her child would have. And after crying about it over Skype with her former mother in law, Helen had reassured Jo that she would be more than proud if she and her unborn child carried on the Karev name.

“Yes we’re both going to be Karev’s,” Jo sighed, hand coming down to her bare bump. “I don’t need to explain my decisions to you Levi.”

“Well I’m assuming that if you’re going to be staying a Karev that you’re going to tell Alex?”

Not wanting to answer Levi’s very direct question, Jo began to pelt him with the balls from the ball pit until he walked away towards the kitchen. Jo knew that she should pick up the phone and call Alex, that he had already missed so much of his other children growing up that he deserved to be there for everything for this one. But Jo was still angry and upset at Alex for leaving her alone. If he was still here, he’d probably be sitting in the ball pit with her, cracking jokes about her inability to knit.

But he wasn’t, Alex was halfway across the country and Jo couldn’t bring herself to pick up the phone and hear her husband's voice.

“For the last time Levi, I do not need anything from you! Stop asking me! And stop texting Meredith every two minutes!”

Jo walked from the couch to the bed, flopping down onto the surface as she let out a loud sigh. It had been eight weeks since she and Levi had been quarantined together, twelve since she had found out she was pregnant, and seventeen since she had actually fallen pregnant. The constant bouts of morning sickness and mood swings in close quarters with her pseudo friend/ roommate had not been easy, but Levi was being a trooper for his part.

“Come on Jo, Meredith just wants to make sure that you’re okay,” Levi pleaded, sinking down into the couch. “Don’t take her over compensating tendencies out on me.”

For her part, Jo understood where Levi was coming from. She knew that Meredith was over protective of her because of what had happened between her and Alex, but it didn’t mean that the situation bothered Jo any less. She was capable of taking care of herself and the life that was growing inside of her, pandemic be damned.

“Tell Meredith I’m fine and that I’m doing crossword puzzles and going to Zoom therapy sessions once a week,” Jo huffed, hands coming to rest over her eyes as she tried to understand why she had ever thought a one room loft was a good idea. “I don’t need you two hovering over me at all hours of the day.”

A loud banging sounded on the door of the loft, Jo and Levi exchanging looks before Levi scurried to the door to see who was there. The only visitors the two had had in the past few weeks were either Meredith or the grocery delivery guy, neither of which were allowed inside and neither of which pounded their door so loudly.

“Jo! Open the door, I know you’re home,” both Levi and Jo paused at the voice outside the door. Levi, who stood next to the front door, looked to Jo for guidance, but she had no direction to give. “Damn it Jo, open the door. I need to talk to you!” After a nod from Jo, Levi slid the door open, one hand coming up to stop Alex from storming into the loft. The sight of her ex husband for the first time in months made Jo’s stomach flip, her hand coming to cover her mouth so she didn’t scream in shock.

“Sorry, Jo doesn’t let anyone in the loft anymore,” Alex raised an eyebrow towards Levi, his expression angry and ready to challenge him. “Not even Meredith. There’s a pandemic happening, dude.”

Alex rolled his eyes, trailing them towards Jo who stood nervously in the kitchen now. If you knew her well enough, you could tell that her figure had changed in the past few weeks. Her breasts had filled out and her face was fuller because of the slight amount of weight she had put on. Alex couldn’t see from where he stood, but he assumed that her stomach had begun to curve outwards as well.

“Jo, I need to talk to you,” Alex wanted so badly to step closer to his ex wife, but he knew that Schmitt would try to stop him no matter what he did. “Mer called me, can we please talk?” Jo peaked around the corner of the kitchen, eyes taking in Alex’s nervous form. His stubble had grown out, his eyes seeming more tired than usual as they scanned over her body. A subconscious hand floated down to her stomach, Jo shielding her unborn baby from the fight that was about to ensue.

“You can do it from there, Alex,” Jo responded, eyebrows furrowing as she stared Alex down. “You can’t come in unless you’ve quarantined yourself for 14 days and you’ve been tested for COVID-19.”

“Leave it to you to be paranoid during a freaking pandemic,” Alex groaned, one hand coming up to run through his hair. He had driven straight through from Kansas to Washington, only stopping to pee on the side of the road every few hours. “Are you okay? You're…. feeling healthy and what not?” Schmitt, who had been quiet up until then, rolled his eyes in Alex’s direction. After spending every moment of the day with Jo, he knew that the question would piss her off to no end, regardless of who was asking it. He turned to her briefly, noting the pissed off expression on her face, then turned back to Alex.

“Jo is perfectly fine, she has been for the past few months without you,” Levi’s voice was firm and defiant to whatever Alex might counter him with. “And furthermore, I don't think either of us appreciate you showing up here unannounced. We are, may I remind you, in the middle of a pandemic.”

“I’m fine, Alex,” Jo took a step forward, coming further into Alex’s line of sight. Alex’s eyes trailed up and down her body, finally taking in the bump that had appeared on her normally flat stomach. “I do want to talk, I promise, but I can’t risk my health or… or our baby’s health right now. So come back in two weeks and I promise I will talk to you.”

The glare that Alex sends towards Schmitt sends the younger man reeling back, grasping for the door handle as he tries to shut Alex out of the loft. However, the older man’s voice rings through one last time before the door shuts completely. “I’m coming back for you, Jo,” Alex calls out, voice urgent and waiting for his lost love to hear him. “I’m coming back and you can’t stop me.”

Door firmly shut and locked, Levi turned to Jo, who seemed to be brimming with an odd mixture of anger and sadness. She ran her hands through her hair once, finally letting out a scream as she flopped back onto her bed.

“Well shit,” Jo groaned, hand slipping down the cradle her baby bump. “That’s just about the last thing I needed.”

“Did you order breakfast? Because this is delicious.”

Jo stepped out of the bathroom, eyes narrowing as she took in Levi and the huge bag of food in front of him. She hadn’t ordered anything, but since the bag was clearly labeled from her favorite diner, she could only assume where it had come from.

“Pretty sure you know who sent this,” Jo reached into the bag and grabbed a breakfast burrito, unwrapping it and slathering it in Easy Cheese and hot sauce. “I want to be mad about that, but I really can’t. This is the best thing I’ve eaten in awhile.”

“It’s been five days, has he said anything to you,” Levi asked, eyes cautiously floating to Jo. While they’d grown closer in quarantine, the one thing that Jo never wanted to talk about was Alex. Now that he was here though, Levi thought that maybe she would be more open about the subject.

“He’s texted a few times, assured me that he’s staying by himself and that he hasn’t even seen Meredith,” Jo shrugged, one hand coming down to touch her stomach. The once small bump had seemed to balloon in the past week, almost as if her unborn child was trying to show off for their father. “She’s mad at me now, saying that my paranoia is interfering with their friendship. But we haven’t really talked yet.”

To be fair, Alex had been texting Jo a lot since he had showed up at their door and confirmed with his own two eyes that she was pregnant. And if she wasn’t lying straight to Levi’s face currently, she would tell him that she had been texting Alex back. They had talked mostly about the baby, the rest of the world being a subject neither of them wanted to broach. Kansas hadn’t come up either, but Jo had a feeling that maybe everything wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows if Alex hadn’t hesitated in showing up at her door.

“I think it says a lot that he came back, you know,” Levi shrugged as he grabbed a tater tot from the bag and popped it into his mouth. “I mean he said he left for his kids but the first word he hears about you he drives all the way here. That’s a good man for you.” “Well he wouldn’t have had to drive all the way back if he didn’t go there in the first place,” Jo huffed angrily, dropping the rest of her burrito onto the table with a frustrated groan. “I’m going to take a shower.” “You just took one,” Levi countered, a confused look appearing on his face.

“Well unfortunately that’s the only place in this stupid loft that I can sit in silence,” Jo exclaimed, hands coming up in an angry gesture. “If you make it out of here alive it’ll be a miracle, Schmitt.” + “I swear if you don’t back up right now, I’m going to lose my mind!” “Okay but you’re-”

“I told you I’m fine Schmitt, back up!”

The raised voices alarmed Alex as he approached the loft, bringing his keys out to unlock the door instead of knocking. Relieved to find that Jo hadn’t changed the locks, Alex slid the door open and stepped into the loft unnoticed by the bickering roommates.

“I just think if you’re in pain you should go in,” Levi’s hands were held up defensively as he stood in front of Jo. “I’m no expert on pregnancy, but that can’t be a good sign.” “You’re in pain? What’s wrong?” Both Levi and Jo whipped around at the sound of Alex’s voice, the latter holding a hand firmly against her stomach. The glares that she was shooting in his direction didn’t go unnoticed by him, but he brushed it off as he was overwhelmed with worry for Jo. Alex noticed that even in the short time it had been since he had seen her last, Jo’s bump seemed to have grown.

“You shouldn’t be here. I’m fine,” Jo tried to sound convincing but her voice faltered as she winced. “Seriously I’m okay. Stop looking at me like I’m some shelter puppy that’s about to be put down. I can take care of myself, I’ve been doing it for awhile now. And you need to get out of here, you’ve only been quarantined for like a week.”

Despite her best efforts, Jo had exhausted herself scolding Alex and felt breathless almost immediately. Settling her free hand on the arm of the couch, Jo tried to be inconspicuous as she sat down, but both men next to her were watching her closely.

“Where does it hurt,” Alex asked as he sat next to Jo, unfazed by her outburst at him.

“I told you I’m fine!”

“She’s been breathless and clutching her lower right quadrant for about half an hour,” Schmitt offered up, Jo immediately tossing a throw pillow in his direction. “I’m trying to be helpful! You haven’t been in pain this whole entire time.”

“Go be helpful in the bathroom Schmitt! I don’t need both of you hovering around me and I know that he won’t leave,” Jo gestured to Alex vaguely as she took another deep breath, leaning over as she clutched her stomach again. “Go!”

Levi ran off, Jo letting out an aggravated sigh as soon as he left the room. A few tears sprinkled Jo’s cheeks as she rubbed her hand into her stomach.

“I’m fine I just… can’t catch my breath and my stomach has some localized pain,” Jo didn’t fight Alex off when he placed his palm gently next to hers, his larger hand almost covering her whole bump. “I’m okay, I swear I’m fine. The baby’s fine and it’s okay and nothing is wrong.”

As Jo rambled more, her tears began to fall harder, breaths coming in short gasps as she leaned her head against Alex’s shoulder. Doing his best to comfort and assess her at the same time, Alex rubbed his hand gently against her stomach. A few light kicks met his hand, tears threatening to fall as Alex felt his child move for the first time. Once he was satisfied that Jo had calmed down, he spoke up, sure his crooked grin was showing in full force.

“Well, you’re not dying,” Alex chuckled, his fingers moving lightly against Jo’s stomach as he explained what she was feeling. “Baby’s lodged up here, in your rib, and when they kick, they knock the air out of your lungs. I can feel their head down here, which means their legs are stretching out and kicking up towards your diaphragm. That’s why you feel so out of breath. If you’re lucky, I can try and coax them out of their tight spot.”

Jo barely nodded, eyes closed as she continued to lean against Alex and take deep breaths. He moved one hand up to where he felt the baby’s feet and gave a slight push, Jo groaning loudly as they shifted. Alex waited a moment, grinning when he felt a small kick against the lower left side of Jo’s stomach.

“Oh god,” Jo let a gasp out, eyes flying open as she laid her hand over Alex’s. “Oh, I can breathe again! I haven’t been able to breathe since 2 AM. Jesus that feels so much better.”

Alex took Jo in with a sense of awe, observing all of the changes he had missed about her. She had cut her hair short again, the locks just brushing her shoulders, and her cheeks had filled out more. The way she had eased into her pregnancy made him smile, knowing that she had always had a maternal instinct hidden underneath her hard exterior. Alex eyed the chain across Jo’s neck that held two silver rings, but said nothing about it.

“Easy trick, just remember that if they get themselves twisted around again. Your OB didn’t show you that,” Alex watched Jo turn her head towards his shoulder, burying her face and mumbling something incoherent. “I can't hear you when you’re hiding your face like that.”

“I haven’t been to my OB,” Jo muttered, eyes focusing on Alex’s hand that still sat under hers. “Not since I confirmed I was pregnant.”

“You’re a doctor, you know better than that,” Alex knew that Jo would never avoid something this important without a reason, so he didn’t go into a full on rant like he wanted to. “Why haven’t you gone in, Jo?”

“Because I can’t leave the house! I’m so scared that if I leave something will happen to the baby and,” Jo inhaled deeply, her free hand coming up to wipe at her eyes. “This baby is the only thing keeping me sane, it’s the last connection I have to you… and I just can’t risk that. I’ve already hurt too much this year, I don’t need more heartbreak. I’m a doctor, I’ll know if something is wrong and I can go in then. I’m fine here, I don’t need to leave.”

Alex stared at Jo for a long moment before pulling her fully into his embrace. He knew the way he had left her was cruel, but at the time his brain had been so turned around that he couldn’t see another option than breaking the heart of the woman he loved most.

“Izzie is remarried. She… her kids call him dad and he’s uh, he’s a good guy. She said that I can bring the kids here for a few weeks during the summer if I wanted to but I don’t belong in Kansas,” Alex pulled back and looked at Jo, tears streaking down her face and wide eyes staring up at him. “I’m sorry Jo, I know I screwed up and I should’ve just talked to you when I found out but I was so freaked out that I just… ran. But I wanna be here, with you and this baby and I wanna take care of you. It’s always been you, Jo.”

Jo sniffled, both hands running over her face quickly in an effort to dry some of her tears. She fixed Alex with a serious stare, eyes meeting his for the first time that day.

“You have a lot of making up to do. And you’re gonna have to be the one to kick Levi out,” Jo motioned towards the bathroom, where she could hear faint cheers echoing from. “And… if you promise to get me cheesecake afterwards, I will go to see my OB this week.”

“I told you,” Levi strutted out of the bathroom, a satisfied smirk on his face. “That’s a good man you have there.”

“Oh shut up!”

#jolex #alex karev #greys anatomy #jo wilson #jo karev #jo x alex #jolex fanfic #nina writes #jolex fic #grey’s anatomy fanfic

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sanoiro · 4 years

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Lucifer 5x03 - ¡Diablo! - Spoilers & Speculation

Warning! There is always a possibility that certain scenes might have been mixed up under their non-respective episodes.

Written By: Mike Kosta

Directed By: Claudia Yarm

Mike Costa has written/co-written the episodes:

1x10 - Pops

2x09 - Homewrecker

2x15 - Deceptive Little Parasite

3x07/2x21 - Off the Record

3x13 - Til Death Do Us Part

4x05 - Expire Erect

5x03 - ¡Diablo!

Cast: Tom Ellis as Lucifer, Lauren German as Chloe, DB Woodside as Amenadiel, Lesley-Ann Brandt as Maze, Kevin Alejandro as Dan, Scarlett Estevez as Trixie, Rachael Harris as Linda Martin and Aimee Garcia as Ella.

Season 4 Recurring Characters: None Officially Announced Guest Cast:

Dan Andreiu...Skeezy Motel Tenant

Jacob Chattman...Detective Doofus

Ernesto Chaverri...Police officer

Brianne Davis...Detective Dancer

Genevieve Gauss...Officer Cacuzza

Alex Quijano...Diablo

Behind The Scenes Videos:

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Locations

Chloe’s Apartment - Maze & Trixie (There is all a Trixe-Lucifer scene)

Precinct - Dan, Lucifer and Ella. -Before the bracelets-

Pink Motel - Not a murder scene but I believe they question the owner as he is listed in the cast.

Warner Brothers Stars Hallow Set Area - Open Stages:

1) The Murder Scene - Dan, Ella, Lucifer & Chloe

2) Stage III - The room with the clowns. Prior to Halloween WB had built a clown maze for tourists and its workers although they didn’t the usual annual Halloween attraction but it was not the same one. However, I believe it may have been used for this episode nonetheless.

3) Stage Set - Hell set used as a Tv Series Prop although it acts as our actual Hell as well.

When an episode is shot at the lot it means it costs less money to be made still what it saved them on money it cost them on 1-2 days.

This episode is called from us “Diablo: The Tv Series Episode” and we call it that because that’s what it is. There is no AU here but something like 3x02 where you see our leads investigating a case which is related to a show. Now that show is VERY similar to Lucifer. Extremely so but we will talk about that in a bit.

First of all the main themes of this episode is Lucifer’s ongoing instability but also a problem that seems to tie him eventually to Dan. Dan’s issue in my opinion started either in the first episode but is gradually getting worse so in 5x03 Lucifer provides a temporary solution. But is that him or Amenadiel? As we know Chloe and Amenadiel work together for a bit in this episode.

As always in order to unravel this episode we will rely on the case of the week. Where does the murder takes place? At the WB lot actually, so be prepared to see it again like you did back in 3x26 yet that is a different area.

^Aimee on the left

They also shot at night at Stars Hallow Set.

We have some photos from Josh with Aimee and Kevin where you can clearly see that Dan does not wear the bracelet yet. Same goes with Lucifer’s bracelet at the beginning of the episode neither of them wears it and that makes sense.

Let’s talk now about the victim and the theme of the episode again. For some reason the murder is connected to a television show called ‘Diablo’. We know that because there are several hints and downright spoilers about that like the social media posts of some people which will not be posted for obvious reasons.

Diablo as a show has EVERYTHING Lucifer’s life has. Scratch that everything Lucifer as a show had in its first season down right to the… same poster. Yep!

So when I say everything what do I mean? I mean that there are the following characters who take the place of our main leads:

Lucifer = Diablo

Chloe Dacker = Detective Dancer

Maze = Blaze (male)

Dan Espinoza aka Det. Douche = Det. Dooffus

We do not know who else is featured but I would expect Linda, perhaps Trixie and Amenadiel to have their own counterparts.

^ Dancer was originally Chloe’s surname in the Kapinos Pilot do not be surprised is you see Linda being played by a Kim...

Yet who would do that? Who would make a Tv Show that resembles so much Lucifer’s life? My first thought was Ella but then I found a BTS about an Alex Lopez and I assumed he was one of her brothers taking advantage of her workalike stories. Although that may be true then how could anyone know how the actual Hell looks like?

One day I got a glimpse of a woman which I think was Inbar on set. Additionally, at that time, Inbar Lavi posted a few S4 photos which seemed a bit peculiar. Therefore if Inbar was on set and is the person who made the tv series Diablo we are in for a hoot!

If that happens it means that Eve has found her way and she might eventually find her way back to Maze’s life in P2. Of course, that’s a speculation but we can always hope!

The next question is why would our writers do that to Lucifer? Why would they put him through an experience that shows him his work and partnership so obviously to him through a series like Diablo? As we know Lucifer is a bit thick sometimes so for all the characters it would be nice to acknowledge certain dynamics as seen from a show that is, of course, a caricature of the actual actors.

I mean Diablo has frozen tips, Det. Doofus looks downright clueless and Blaze… Blaze is the equivalent of Maze but big… Congrats Eve! If that was you, of course, you made Maze looking butch!

So in that episode, Lucifer needs to come face to face with the facade of his life in Hell but also on Earth and I believe it’s time for him for another breakthrough. The same goes for the rest of the leads.

I stand by the opinion I posted on Twitter that 5x03 as far as I see it is a wake-up call that no matter for how long you keep a costume & a mask on that's not who you are. It's also a point where Lucifer's work & partnership may finally be unveiled for what they truly are. All that while they search for a solution. Yet for what solution do I talk about?

Something is wrong with Dan perhaps even Lucifer but I do believe the origin of the problem is Dan due to Lucifer’s actions back in 5x01. If I had to guess I would say that they need a way to make sure Dan is kept alive that a life source is sustained and that requires a link which I suppose is the bracelet. But that it’s just a temporary solution, the permanent one will come in 5x08 and will have its own consequences!

In any case we do have Lucifer and Chloe going to the Pink Motel for some questioning but then… then it seems like Lucifer disappears for a bit. If my speculation is correct during his recovery the events of 5x04 will happen but that will be explored in the next S&S!

The Pink Hotel is considered a landmark btw.

Let’s say now that half of the episode is almost gone perhaps less, 15 min? And we have Lucifer out of commission or perhaps they search with Dan for what they need. That leads to two different groups working and I do not mean that it will be necessary on the case.

^LUX as Hell it even has poles...

*cough* priest collard male strippers*

On one hand, you have Lucifer and Dan. When Kelly Clarkson visited the penthouse aside from several cool parts of that episode like LUX that is now called HELL in the Diablo series we also had a glimpse of a book…

A book? Again? You may lament like Mum at the end of 2x17. Well yes, a book… an ancient book which it may or may not be related to this episode although I will speculate that it is. For me, that book reminded me the Book of Destiny…

In order to understand what that means I have put some strips from the comics here for you. Lucifer and that book or to put it right Destiny, one of the Endless have had a disagreement about that book before but it didn’t work out that well…

The Book of Destiny as Sandman’s and Lucifer’s comics inform us:

“It contains your life. Every detail of your life. Everything that has happened to you. Everything that will happen one day. The things you have forgotten (ALERT on that one). The things you do not believe.”

Yet the writers have never used a source from the comics without altering it so beware of that. It may be something that is based on that book or carries certain attributes of it.

So let’s assume that that book helps them create the bracelets and thus Dan remains alive for the time being. Also, does that mean that Dan will be exposed to the Devilish truth? If this speculation is correct I do not see how he can avoid it. At the same time learning all about Mom and most importantly Charlotte will do him A LOT of good. Yes, he has been healing in his own terms but whoever has lost someone knows that the pain never goes away it always nags you so I think it will make that pain a bit duller.

^Do not forget that Dan’s office area is full of motivation quotes... Do not be surprised if he is in therapy again in s5...

While Lucifer and Dan are preoccupied we have Chloe and Amenadiel working together I believe somewhat on the case or trying to help Dan. Who knows it might even be Eve - again IF she appears in that episode - who will give the temporary solution they need.

What intrigues me in DB’s photo from that episode is the official one that was released at ET where he is in front of a clown. It looks like a weird scary place, a theme park perhaps or even a set…

We do know that there were two crews and that scenes of the Diablo episode were requiring two crews, I mean would you let an actor near your 40K camera? Nope!

So the circus/clown scene is what interests me most as I have no idea what is going on there… What I do know is that it corresponds with Ella’s shirt. Ella’s shirt has a clown on and it says ‘Big Clown’ and something other underneath yet on the murder scene she wears a light blue shirt.

Additional Info

We have a Scene at the Penthouse which may be connected with the scene of Maze and Trixie at the Decker Household. However! Scarlett almost always shoots more than one episode so it is possible that it might be connected to 5x04. Still we take it as if it is for 5x03.

There is a fight scene with Maze and Lucifer against some people. Still, Ellis’ stuntman also filled in for a different role this time so that might have been for the Diablo show.

Finally, we did have Linda on set and there was a photo from within her house. Scenes from Linda’s house or her office during her sessions with Lucifer are rare so most of the time we do not know they are happening.

A background extra who played a police officer in this episode made it to an actor with lines. Of course now we know that she will have that role up to 5x08 yet we do not know if she will survive the serial killer ordeal of the last two episodes of S5 Part 1…

Additional bts of that episode including the Kelly Clarkson photos etc.

^Did you see Marcus’ honourary tablet?

^And of course the mermaid is back at her rightful place. It was there also in S4 but appeared only at a bts with Inbar. :)

#lucifer spoilers #lucifer speculation #Sanoiro S&S #lucifer 5x03 #Lucifer 5x03 ¡Diablo!#Lucifer Season 5 #Lucifer Season 5 Part 1

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ao3feed-supercorp · 4 years

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I Remember When...

by parum_leo

Kara Zor-El had plummeted to earth years ago but the trauma from the past still plagues Kara's dreams. When Kara Zor-El had become Kara Danvers, she wanted to be... normal. Just like Alex. That meant going to high school, playing sports, and volunteering at an after school program. Oh, and no powers because no one has those here. Except for Kal but she'll leave that job to him. *** Lena Luthor lost her father when her brother started college. That left Lena with her emotionally distant mother and in a boarding school she was isolated at. She fenced, played chess, smiled at the right moments but she felt lost and empty. It didn't used to be like this. She used to be... normal. Now, to make matters even worse, her therapist suggested an after school program at a public school for people who have experienced something traumatic.

AKA High School AU where these ladies get some MUCH NEEDED therapy and how they got to where they are now

Words: 2442, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Supergirl (TV 2015)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, Gen

Characters: Kara Zor-El, Kara Danvers, Lena Luthor, Alex Danvers, J'onn J'onzz | Hank Henshaw, Jeremiah Danvers, Eliza Danvers, James "Jimmy" Olsen, Winn Schott Jr.

Relationships: Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor, Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor/Supergirl, Alex Danvers/Maggie Sawyer

Additional Tags: High School, Slow Burn Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor, And when I say slow burn..., They FINALLY get some GODDAMN help, If Kara and Lena were friends in high school, Jock Kara Danvers, Nerd Lena Luthor, Fluff and Angst, Flashbacks, Lena Luthor Needs a Hug, Kara Danvers Needs a Hug, POV Kara Danvers, POV Lena Luthor

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#supercorp #Kara x Lena #Kara Danvers x Lena Luthor #karlena

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joysmercer · 5 years

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Grey’s Anatomy 16x01 Final Thoughts

First of all, I had to rewatch that episode twice before I finally figured out everything that was going on. It didn’t exactly help that I fast-forwarded every scene with Jaggie/Merluca/Towen the first time around…but yes. Lots to talk about, and lots to complain about in this episode. Let’s get started.

Richard, Catherine, Bailey, and other Insurance-Fraud Matters:

I feel bad for Meredith, Alex, and Richard; they were just trying to do the right thing for the little girl, and yes, the system is broken. However, something about Webber really irked me in this episode. It seemed like he was complaining a lot for no reason. Same goes for Bailey – Webber’s right: he trained her and made her into the doctor she is today, and she didn’t give him a second glance. It will be interesting to see him and Alex working at a new hospital, though.

I didn’t really pay much attention to Meredith. I think her trial will be interesting, but there wouldn’t be a show if she can’t practice medicine, and there are at least 40 episodes left of Grey’s, so her license will definitely not be revoked. I think. Honestly, with KV in charge, we can’t really be sure. As for Deluca, he’s way too cocky and needs to be taken down a peg, in my opinion.

On the other hand, I was very happy to see Catherine’s actions this week. I wish we got to see the scene where Koracick got promoted (and to what, exactly?), but I’m happy she sort-of stood up for her husband as well. She’s right; he deserves much better than making house-calls like it’s 1965 (at the same time, though, Bailey’s right – that was a false-equivalence).

Jackson and Maggie:

To be honest, I didn’t pay much attention to their storyline after I realized that the cool surgeries would be skipped over with “1 Week Later”s.

However, I am very very happy that Maggie came to her senses and they finally ended things. That scene at the table where shes says, “I deserve better than someone who regularly abandons me for…trees” and sometime later, Deluca says, “[you guys are] like siblings”? Iconic. Love that.

Teddy, Owen, and Koracick:

Okay, first of all, how did Koracick find out that Teddy’s leaving him? Also, side note, he deserves so much better than Teddy.

I skipped the rest of the Teddy/Owen scenes. I’ll probably read a recap somewhere later and figure out what I missed.

Link (and Alex and Amelia):

This guy deserves his own section because a) he was a part of two different storylines tonight and b) I love him.

I loved his first scene with Alex! I’m so happy that the show hasn’t forgotten his friendship with Jo either, and it’s nice to see Alex have someone to talk and vent to.

I’m also (mostly) happy with the way his relationship with Amelia progressed. They’re talking things through, she’s not closing-off, and their date was adorable. It’s very healthy and a stark difference from her relationship with Owen. Also, Amelia swooping in to save the day? Fantastic.

Amelia (and Carina and Link):

aka. the pregnancy no one saw coming.

Given her history with pregnancy, along with a lot of other things, I can’t help but feel like this plotline is unnecessary and not-great writing. Let Amelia chill for once, please. Out of all the characters on this show, she deserves the most rest. On the other hand, I could be on board with her and Carina…but Link. I don’t want to see him get hurt. Also, who’s kid is it? Could it even be Owen’s?

It should be an interesting plotline overall, but I’m wary nonetheless.

Jo and Alex:

I wish I had more to say except “I love them,” but honestly, I can’t find the words. I’m happy they’re not just resolving Jo’s issues in one episode, but they’re also not dragging it along unnecessarily. The scene in therapy was so incredibly moving, and the proposal outside was the absolute sweetest.

The only complaint I have is that…what do you mean, Alex file the license?

My favorite lines from their scenes:

“Nobody makes you feel anything. Those are your feelings.”

“Coming to a place like this makes you stronger than most”

“I don’t want an out.” <3 <3 <3

Next Week’s Promo:

I’m looking forward to seeing Link’s full reaction to the pregnancy news, as well as more of Jo and Alex. Alex and Webber’s scenes should be pretty funny too, as they’re stuck in a not-so-great hospital for the time being.

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Mega Spoilers She Ra S4

Under the cut!! Last chance!!

1. Double Trouble

God I love them I love them I love them. As I said on twitter I speculated that Double Trouble was what Catra needed. A friend. Sure, Scorpia was there but she was never gonna recognise Scorpia for who she was and what she meant to Scorpia and true to form, it was only after she realised Scorpia was truly never coming back that she honestly started to miss her. But she was never going to appreciate Scorpia I think because she was too much like Adora. She shows kindness. She shows empathy and love and joy, all the things the Rebellion stands for, all the things Adora left her for and when Scorpia told her she was a bad friend and left her, like Adora did, she became a second Adora in her eyes. Another person who left. Now Double Trouble (who I've been calling Dub, first to save space on my tweets and then it just stuck), they're nothing like Adora. They're treacherous and sneaky and dirty, just like she believes herself to be, like she has to believe herself to be, because otherwise she would have to admit she's worthy of love, friendship, happiness and worthy of Adora, and so Catra feels like she can really be friends with them. She doesn't want to show it because she's still hurting from being burned before but Dub's not having that shit they pick up on it real fast and tease her about having fun. Not even beginning to delve into the genius of using Dub as a narrative device of calling everybody on their bullshit, Dub then finds Catra after her fight with Hordak and gives her the straight facts but what I really liked was they didn't say "I know there's still good in you", they said "you were never cut out to be the bad guy" like that was so smart of them. Dub's thing is that they know everyone, they know how they think and act so they know if they tell Catra she's still good (like Adora keeps saying) her abandonment issues are gonna kick in and she's gonna lose it and lash out. By telling her she wasn't cut out to be a villain, oh man where do I even start?

It's harsh, yes but maybe Catra believes she deserves harsh. If she is told she's still good, that gives hope and she's had too much false hope to ever accept that again

Because Dub can see people for who they really are, they can see Catra has been left too many times. Adora left, Scorpia left, she thought Dub left and they accurately predicted that would break her, Glimmer will return to Bright Moon at some point and I think there might be some reluctant bonding while they're in space, so Dub gave Catra an out. "Everyone else left. You can too." That's what they're really saying, I think.

Putting her down provides a new option for Catra yes, but it's still putting her down. It was mean, true but again, I think it's what Catra believes she deserves right now. And so she resigns. She collapses, defeated and when Glimmer shows up, she says she'd rather die because it's better than leaving, even if it's by her own free will. She's had enough of leaving.

Of course, Catra turns herself right around and trades Hordak in for Horde Prime, pledging her allegiance to a newer, superior, stronger Hordak but she can't unhear what Double said to her. She can't unfeel her feelings, no matter how hard she tries. And that seed will grow and grow in her mind until eventually the time will come where she's gotta make a decision - does she finally leave for herself and shed herself of the Horde or does she continue to play at being the villain, because she knows she doesn't have what it takes to be the hero?

2. Catra

Catra is a princess! Of course she's a princess! The biggest evidence, the cat that can be seen in the corner when Light Hope shows all the princesses to Adora, telling her about the purpose of She-Ra. I have no idea why but the fact Catra's head gear make a metallic sound when it hits the floor when she takes it off somehow made me think it was an heirloom or something, maybe a token of royalty. And if Entrapta doesn't need a Runestone to qualify as a princess, then why can't Catra?! But anyway I think Catra knows she's a princess. She's never going to admit it of course, but she knows. And I think that's where her abandonment issues stem from. The Horde obviously lied to her, like they did to Scorpia and how her family let the Horde have the Black Garnet but Catra is smart, smarter than she gives herself credit for. She figures it out and realises she's been lied to. She doesn't leave, maybe because she's too caught up in her emotions to decide what to do, because she's found someone she can trust in Adora and she doesn't want to leave her, or simply because the easiest thing to do is stay. Whatever the reason, she stays, knowing that her family never actually rejected her but the self-doubt remains and grows. What if they did? What if my family never wanted me? What if they cast me out for something I did? What if they turned me over to the Horde in exchange for keeping their lands safe? And when Adora leaves her, everything she questioned becomes true except the focus shifts from her kingdom and a possibility to her best friend and a certainty.

Along comes Double Trouble. They see she's not a villain. They see she just wants to belong to something. And they put it together too so they plant the seed. What if my family wanted me all along? What if I could leave? Everyone else did. What if I went ahead and did what I want to do instead of what I have to do? And when the time comes for her to decide if she's going to leave and forge her own path, she can decide to head to Adora or seek out her kingdom. If you wanna get really into it, you could say Catra is a representation of her kingdom, like the other princesses are and it gives an insight into what her kingdom might look like and be, culturally. Perfuma controls nature, so she's a very spiritual hippie type person. Frosta is cold and distant (even though she opens up, that's how we meet her). Mermista is uncaring, like the ocean when it kills you and no one will ever know because it is a vast void both above and below the surface I have a fear of the ocean, in case you could not tell. Catra is cunning, proud and vicious. Caring when she wants to be but hostile because she feels she needs to be. Catra's kingdom is probably an outland tribe, not too far off from what the Crimson Waste is like, but with laws and guards and stuff like any other kingdom, shunned from the princess alliance for their unpredictable nature (you might even say the princess alliance left them?) and so have trust issues with princesses. This is why Scorpia was obviously a Princess, because she was so happy and positive all the time like the other princesses but Catra hides it so well because she's naturally mean and calloused. It'd be so dope if Catra was an Anti-Princess, like the Dark Jedi in Star Wars.

Alternatively, she was nice and her kingdom is nice but the Horde rubbed off on her. Either way, Catra's arc ends when she starts to attempt to be good and finding her kingdom might be the first step in doing that. My ideal ending for Catra's character arc, regardless of whether she is a princess or not, is she finds someone or something to help her overcome her PTSD, abandonment issues and anger management problems (I REALLY HOPE IT'S RAZZ) and she joins the Rebellion as a black ops agent, doing infiltration and sabotage missions but she keeps her S4 outfit and everyone just lets her cause they all agree it fucks. (Noelle please give me vigilante black ops Catra but give her therapy first.)

Quick thing I wanted to add before posting after reading back over this - the scene where she removes her head gear and sobs on the floor of the control room. I think she's wondering why she didn't just leave with Adora. Why she didn't just leave to find her real family. Why she didn't just leave to find herself. Why she didn't just leave. And it eats away at her soul every goddamn day she spends in the Fright Zone, but she can't stop now, she's come too far.

3. Glimmer

Oh man. Oh man. This Micah/Glimmer reunion is gonna be HEAVY. Truly, the She-Ra fandom is Atlas. Honestly, I wanna say it was Shadow Weaver that started to turn her into Dark Glimmer but I don't think that was it. This whole season, Shadow Weaver has just been like "bro I am just s. I am just sitting here". She's very literally done nothing wrong. She's just been gardening and giving Glimmer magic lessons. Dub is to blame with that. Their twisting of Glimmer's mind set her on that path and all it took was Adora to disagree with her on one thing and she exploded and thought "if no one will fix it, then I'll do it". Her regret at what she'd done on Horde Prime's ship probably means she'll profusely apologise but that's really all there is to say on that issue. Other that, everything I can say about Glimmer will come to me when she meets Micah.

4. Scorpia

Hell yes my baby. Episode 6 was so good. When I think about Scorpia and Catra's relationship, I think about this line by Alex Hunter AKA HiTop Films on YouTube in one of his Spider-Man essays I forget which one (but you should go watch all of them anyway cause they're all really good and go watch his other stuff and support him on Patreon, if you can) about the relationship between MJ and Harry in the Raimi Spider-Man trilogy:

Maybe Harry (Scorpia) loves her (Catra) the best Harry Osborn COULD love someone, but it's not the love she needs.

It doesn't fit Scorpia and Catra exactly so I'll explain. Obviously Scorpia loves Catra a lot but Catra's not the right person she needs to love, nor does Catra need love herself. She will need it, eventually, but right now Catra needs therapy. She needs help before she needs love and she needs to work out her own issues. That leaves Scorpia with a big heart and no one to fill it with. Ironically it's a robot that helps her realise Catra isn't good for her. It's hard for Scorpia to hear but Emily has to show her that Entrapta was her real friend and they had fun together and what Catra and her have is not fun. Then the next step in moving out of Catra's abusive relationship is the Royal Hall. It's here that Scorpia has to admit to herself that the Horde weren't pleasant, if tough, diplomats who simply negotiated ownership of the Runestone. She doesn't even know any of the members of her family except her grandfather and even then she was too young to remember him and she realises that the Horde eradicated her culture when the colonised the place and she's hurt. She's really and truly broken and to make matters worse, Emily is still trying to tell her that her friend isn't really her friend. It's difficult to face these two massive truths but Scorpia hides her pain. Not to run from it, like Catra, but because she's Scorpia, and Scorpia doesn't give up. So she seeks out the princesses. She knows she's a princess so she hopes she'll find some belonging there and she's right. After some understandable hostility, she's greeted. Not very warmly but still greeted. Her first friend is Perfuma, which I think is so fitting because Perfuma is the princess most like Scorpia, she's all about love and positivity and acceptance so of course she's gonna be the first to treat her with an equal amount of kindness that Scorpia would readily give anyone and everyone else. Frosta is next, the princess who knows what it's like to be an outsider, having shut off her kingdom from the outside world for so long and it's at Bright Moon Scorpia finally gets to give a real hug, not one where people squirm out of her grasp. One where she gets hugged back.

Backtracking a little, when Scorpia said to Emily that Catra has been under a lot of pressure and that's why she's acting this way, I don't think she was making excuses for her behaviour, I think she really notices how close Catra is to snapping completely. Since the moment she realised Adora wasn't coming back to the Horde, Catra has just been completely shit on, episode after episode. Nothing goes right for her and it piles on and on and on and Scorpia's been right beside her this whole time watching it happen. Except Catra doesn't have her optimism, she's got spite and rage so she can't handle it as well as Scorpia and Scorpia knows this so even when she admits Catra was abusive and cruel, she still wants to help, because she is a good person. And good people help others, help those in pain, no matter what.

#she ra #she ra season 4 spoilers #she ra s4 #spop spoilers #catra #double trouble #glimmer #king micah #scorpia #she ra spoilers

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thecoleopterawithana · 5 years

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I Just Believe In Me

AKA John’s Disillusionment

This came about as a desire to unpack a vital component of John’s character that I feel goes detrimentally overlooked in the fandom, as it is a major motivator behind some of his most impactful decisions. It was something I had wanted to get into for a while, but @amoralto ‘s latest post about it finally pushed me into doing it. Please go check out and spread this amazing piece of information.

Note that this post will mainly deal with the breaking of faith. It barely scratches the surface of John as the Dreamer and all the unrealised expectations he weaved throughout his life. With the danger of repeating myself, I’ll probably leave that analysis to a companion post.

As usual, if you want to glimpse into their inner workings, look no further than their music. So, let’s start with the first clear example of John reacting to the hurt and betrayal of failed expectations:

Sexy Sadie, what have you done You made a fool of everyone You made a fool of everyone Sexy Sadie, ooh, what have you done

Sexy Sadie, you broke the rules You laid it down for all to see You laid it down for all to see Sexy Sadie, ooh, you broke the rules

One sunny day the world was waiting for a lover She came along and turned on everyone Sexy Sadie, the greatest of them all

Sexy Sadie, how did you know The world was waiting just for you The world was waiting just for you Sexy Sadie, ooh, how did you know

Sexy Sadie, you'll get yours yet However big you think you are However big you think you are Sexy Sadie, ooh, you'll get yours yet

We gave her everything we owned just to sit at her table Just a smile would lighten everything Sexy Sadie, she's the latest and the greatest of them all

She made a fool of everyone Sexy Sadie

However big you think you are Sexy Sadie

— ‘Sexy Sadie’ from The Beatles (1968). Recorded 19 July - 21 August 1968.

John wrote it as he was leaving India after the Maharishi allegedly made a sexual advance towards the actress Mia Farrow (the story, which came from “Magic” Alex, was doubted by George, Paul or Cynthia).

That was inspired by Maharishi. I wrote it when we had our bags packed and were leaving. It was the last piece I wrote before I left India. I just called him, 'Sexy Sadie,' instead of (sings) 'Maharishi what have you done, you made a fool...' I was just using the situation to write a song, rather calculatingly but also to express what I felt. I was leaving the Maharishi with a bad taste. You know, it seems that my partings are always not as nice as I'd like them to be.

— John Lennon, interview w/ David Sheff (1980).

Donovan, a singer, songwriter and guitarist that was a friend of the Beatles and had accompanied them to Rishikesh, made the following very astute observation:

Psychotherapists call it projection. When difficulties are uncovered, and it’s hard to face them, you project them on to the teacher. In my view, John’s projection had nothing to do with Maharishi and everything to do with his private life. I think John later realised that.

— Donovan, interviewed by Mark Paytress for Mojo: The Butlins of bliss. (September, 2008)

But now, let’s see something made more obvious by the intensity of the moment. Let’s see how John faces the biggest disillusionment of his life; how he wakes up from the Dream.

God is a concept By which we measure Our pain I'll say it again God is a concept By which we measure Our pain

I don't believe in magic I don't believe in I-Ching I don't believe in Bible I don't believe in tarot I don't believe in Hitler I don't believe in Jesus I don't believe in Kennedy I don't believe in Buddha I don't believe in mantra I don't believe in Gita I don't believe in yoga I don't believe in kings I don't believe in Elvis I don't believe in Zimmerman I don't believe in Beatles I just believe in me Yoko and me And that's reality

The dream is over What can I say? The dream is over Yesterday I was the dream weaver But now I'm reborn I was the Walrus But now I'm John And so dear friends You just have to carry on The dream is over

— ‘God’ from John Lennon/Plastic Ono Band (1970). Recorded 26 September - 9 October 1970.

And channelling the anger and resentment born out of the pain and humiliation:

I told you before, stay away from my door Don't give me that brother, brother, brother, brother The freaks on the phone won't leave me alone So don't give me that brother, brother, brother, brother No

I, I found out I, I found out

Now that I showed you what I been through Don't take nobody's word what you can do There ain't no Jesus gonna come from the sky Now that I found out I know I can cry

I, I found out I, I found out

Some of you sitting there with yer cock in yer hand Don't get you nowhere don't make you a man I heard something 'bout my Ma and my Pa They didn't want me so they made me a star

I, I found out I, I found out

Old Hare Krishna got nothing on you Just keep you crazy with nothing to do Keep you occupied with pie in the sky There ain't no Guru who can see through yer eyes

I, I found out I, I found out

I've seen through junkies, I been through it all I've seen religion from Jesus to Paul Don't let them fool you with dope and cocaine No one can harm you, feel yer own pain

I, I found out I, I found this out I, I found out

Oh, oh, oh

— ‘I Found Out’ from John Lennon/Plastic Ono Band (1970). Recorded 27 September 1970.

We can see John lay out a lot of the sentiments expressed in ‘I Found Out’ in the interview that prompted all this analysis in the first place, from the identification of his original source of pain and fear (rejection by his parents and consequent abandonments respectively), to the urging to “feel your own pain” and how that only happens when you cast away the “God” in your life:

BLACKBURN: [Athur Janov’s] ideas seem to have something in common with [R. D.] Laing in that he doesn’t want to reconcile people to their misery, to adjust them to the world, but rather to make them face up to its causes?

JOHN: Well, his thing is to feel the pain that’s accumulated inside you ever since your childhood. I had to do it to really kill off all the religious myths. In the therapy you really feel every painful moment of your life – it’s excruciating, you are forced to realise that your pain, the kind that makes you wake up afraid with your heart pounding, is really yours and not the result of somebody up in the sky. It’s the result of your parents and your environment. As I realised this it all started to fall into place. This therapy forced me to have done with all the Godshit. All of us growing up have come to terms with too much pain. Although we repress it, it’s still there. The worst pain is that of not being wanted, of realising your parents do not need you in the way you need them. When I was a child I experienced moments of not wanting to see the ugliness, not wanting to see not being wanted. This lack of love went into my eyes and into my mind. Janov doesn’t just talk to you about this but makes you feel it – once you’ve allowed yourself to feel again, you do most of the work yourself. When you wake up and your heart is going like the clappers or your back feels strained, or you develop some other hang-up, you should let your mind go to the pain and the pain itself will regurgitate the memory which originally caused you to suppress it in your body. In this way the pain goes to the right channel instead of being repressed again, as it is if you take a pill or a bath, saying, ‘Well, I’ll get over it.’ Most people channel their pain into God or masturbation or some dream of making it. The therapy is like a very slow acid trip which happens naturally in your body. It is hard to talk about, you know, because you feel ‘I am pain’ and it sounds sort of arbitrary, but pain to me now has a different meaning because of having physically felt all these extraordinary repressions. It was like taking gloves off, and feeling your own skin for the first time. It’s a bit of a drag to say so, but I don’t think you can understand this unless you’ve gone through it – though I try to put some of it over on the album. But for me at any rate it was all part of dissolving the Godtrip or father-figure trip. Facing up to reality instead of always looking for some kind of heaven.

— John Lennon, interview w/ Robin Blackburn and Tariq Ali for Red Mole. March 8th-22nd, 1971.

I give my opinion on John’s method of expurging his pain on the reblog of the post itself, if you want to check it out.

Of course, Amoralto ends the post by tagging it with the most perfect, all encapsulating tag:

“Paul is a concept by which we measure our pain”

And if this is not the crux of the matter, I don’t know what is! So let’s unpack this!

First, we have to understand the original quote:

God is a concept by which we measure our pain

I think the Blackburn interview really helps us realise what John was getting at. I can’t say that I’m familiar with theology or the exploration of the purpose of faith, but I see John as addressing how people use God - and all the other things he claims he doesn't believe in anymore - as coping mechanisms for the pain in their lives. The greater the pain, the more you cling to these "distractions" from reality.

Though, this is not simply about distractions, like drugs, sex and success, as a means of escapism. When the despair is overwhelming, you want someone or something you can hand it all over to, and an all-powerful entity to whom you can just turn everything in and absolve yourself of the responsibility. And this Father figure will either make it better and make the pain go away, or it will tell you that there is a grander purpose to the pain, life works in mysterious ways, and it is as it is destined to be.

But the main point here is John's need to hand over responsibility. John hates the responsibility of having choices and thus having to deal with its consequences. He is a naturally passive person.

I think this goes back to his insecurity and lack of self-esteem. It's like he doesn't have the confidence in his own decisions to deal with their possible consequences. I mean, he REACTED rashly, completely at the mercy of his emotions. But then he did everything possible to absolve himself of responsibility in the aftermath. It's somebody else's fault that he's hurting and thus reacting like this, it's somebody else's fault that they don't see how much he's hurting and do nothing about it, it's somebody else's fault if they end up hurt as a result.

Lack of self-love seems to go hand in hand with feeling like a victim of your circumstances. I believe it's the fear, the insecurity, that takes away your notion of agency.

So, if you don't have agency over your life (or don't want to face the trouble of having it), somebody else has to have it. God has agency, as an omnipotent being. Yoko has agency, as John demonstrated by completely capitulating every bit of his decision power to her.

But before that, who was the person in John's life whom he could hand over responsibility for all the life decisions, the one who would take care of everything?

Paul.

Paul was the original and long lasting idol in John's life, which remained past many others, despite John's attempts to cast him away, to burn down the Golden Temple, during the breakup.

Though there's not only the aspect of removal of responsibility to it. It also relates to a matter of identity.

John hated himself as he was, but he was always hoping that if he emulated his idols, his Gods, if he made himself to their image, if he became this external thing that he loved, maybe he would become worthy of love by proxy. That's why he calls himself a chameleon. He's always morphing to reflect his newest fascination, so that he can evolve to something worthy of awe, of Love, too.

Maybe that’s what he is getting at in these verses:

The dream is over Yesterday I was the dream weaver But now I'm reborn I was the Walrus But now I'm John

Because, as we know, “the Walrus was Paul”, which according to John means:

JOHN: And throwing in the line “the Walrus was Paul” just to confuse everybody a bit more. And because I felt slightly guilty because I’d got Yoko, and he’d got nothing, and I was gonna quit. [laughs; bleak] And so I thought ‘Walrus’ has now become [in] meaning, “I am the one.” It didn’t mean that in the song, originally.

He has this desire to just merge identities with that of his chosen idol, so when Paul was his religion, he too was the Walrus. But now he is John.

Well, JohnandYoko.

John was constantly getting caught up with new idols during his lifetime. This new “religion”, this new promise of absolution and relief from his pain, this new better identity he could assume: Elvis & the Rocker, Stu & the Artist, LSD & the Enlightened Prophet, the Maharishi & the Enlightened Student, Yoko & the Revolutionary (also Yoko as the Mother and Brian and Klein as the Father).

But despite his devotions, the pain just didn't disappear and he didn't love himself more (or the love he received just didn't fill the void), and invariably the moment came when he became disillusioned, when his faith was shattered, this isn't the magic solution after all, it's just another lie, another conman. And he tore them down, rebelled against authority, walked away in anger, never looking back. Another fallen idol.

But in all of this, he never quite managed to walk away from Paul. His faith, his love, was never lost completely.

Because Paul was no ordinary God. He was extraordinary, but through his partnership with him, he made John extraordinary too. Together, they were Gods! And I think that’s the big difference; like Paul is keen on reminding us: they were Equal.

And maybe it was this unshakeable fascination, not only with Paul but with the magical thing that was JohnandPaul, that made John truly believe that he and Paul were just destined to be, cosmically connected. Why else would Paul keep standing within him even after the biggest attempt at casting him away imaginable?

Because, like with the others, the moment came when he became disillusioned with this omnipotent figure who was supposed to have all the answers, who John could just merge with and let him take those reins.

Paul could handle the things on the ground so that John could dream in the Universe. But the truly magical thing was that Paul could dream with John in the Universe too, and help him materialize those down on the ground.

He would have John's devotion in return for the removal of the pain, rescue from the fear and above else, the healing of his being with Love.

So when the pain didn't go away, the fear festered, and these annulled any love that he was getting, making him disbelieve it. John started to resent the idol again, became paranoid. Because if it was the idol's responsibility, it was also his fault. He was the one with the agency in this situation, not John. If things aren't getting better it is because of him, because he isn't trying hard enough, because he isn't attentive, because he's thriving while John is going through murder. So he mustn't love John after all. Worse, John is being taken advantage of again, conned by another false promise, stripped of his control, of his hold in his life, just so he could be smothered, buried to be used as a stepping stone.

Of course, in his usual fashion, he completely ignores his own responsibility, his choice, in handing over the reins in the first place. It's easier to just blame Paul for everything.

Instead of listening to his own words and focusing on dealing and expurging his own suffering, he weaponized it. The resentment, born of the pain of broken expectations, morphed into incendiary anger, as he attempted to destroy the thing that had wronged him.

But with Paul, he never quite managed to remove him from his mind. He was always there, in his very soul.

Maybe, despite all the pain and fear, some part of him could recognise the genuineness of Paul's love for him, it's unconditionality. For that was a better love than he received from anyone else in his life.

So, in the same way people around the world keep turning to an omnipotent/omnipresent God as someone they can just give themselves over to, hand over all the responsibility of their choices, in the hopes of being delivered from pain and fear, and being instead graced with Unconditional Love, John keeps holding on to Paul. And the degree to which he holds is a reflection of his despair, his pain. Hence, for John, "Paul is a concept by which we measure our pain".

But Paul is also The One. Paul was the Dream. The Dream was Them.

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Hero (Chapter 7)

aka Kara gets the therapy she deserves...

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“Were you aware during that time?” Percy asked; he had let the topic of the destruction of Krypton lie for now, Kara’s reaction to the loss of her home was intense and defensive to the extreme. It was obvious that this event had been the key trauma that had defined her formative years and had heavily shaped the woman she had become. It was also apparent that Kara had never really allowed herself to face it, choosing instead to bottle it up and push it down.

Percy couldn’t really blame her for being closed off and unwilling to really talk about it; he didn’t want to imagine how he, let alone his young grand-daughter who couldn’t be much younger than Kara had been at the time, would handle the loss of their home planet and being sent to an entirely new world and culture where they were unwelcome by the majority of the population.

He had taken the first step, broached the topic and started to lay the foundations of trust and communication that should hopefully mean that when Kara was ready to really talk about it, she had the tools at her disposal to do so.

With that in mind, Percy had given Kara a few minutes of quiet reflection for her to feel suitably in control again before moving swiftly on and shifting the conversation onto ‘The Phantom Zone’ which had set off alarm bells in the doctor’s head due to how quickly Kara had brushed over it. Twenty-four years of slumber would have taken a toll on any person but Percy had reason to believe it wasn’t as simple as that, that it was in fact far worse than Kara tried to lead him to believe.

“Aware?” Kara repeated, her brow furrowed in confusion as she tried to work out exactly what the therapist was suggesting.

Percy tapped his pen against his pad of paper thoughtfully as he re-worded his question, “Conscious, might be a better word… Were you conscious during your time in the Phantom Zone?��

Kara shifted uncomfortably in her seat, her fingers curling around the edge of her dress and shuffling the material between her fingers. “Uh… no… yes… kind of.” Kara muttered cringing as she whizzed through every available answer but not deeming any of them suitable. “It’s hard to explain.” She finally settled on, her shoulders caving forward in defeat.

Percy frowned at the reply, realising that what might be the main blocker for Kara to confront this particular issue was the lack of appropriate vocabulary. Even though he had spent less than two hours with the blonde it was easy to tell that there was a perfectionist lying beneath the surface, which made her feel self-conscious and afraid of failure. He needed to encourage her that if she couldn’t find the exact right word that it would still be okay, that it didn’t have to be perfect for it to be understood.

“Well, if you’re willing to try, I will endeavour to do my utmost to understand.” Percy affirmed, staring Kara straight in the eye and trying his utmost to convey his sincerity.

Kara didn’t reply immediately, her lips pursed into a thin line in a vain attempt to prevent fumbled words from escaping. Percy continued to wait patiently, refusing to so much as shuffle in his seat even though his slightly wearing joints required movement to prevent them from seizing up. He needed Kara to know that she could take her time, that she could get it wrong and then correct it without being nitpicked for it.

“It was kind of like being asleep but not…” Kara eventually said, her gaze flickering off to the side as she relived memories she probably wished to fully forget. “It was…” Kara huffed out a disconsolate breath, her face scrunching up in concentration. “You know that moment when you’re just starting to wake up, and your body still feels heavy and you don’t quite have full control of your limbs yet?”

“Hypnagogia.” Percy supplied without thinking about it.

Kara’s head jerked back slightly in surprise, taken aback by the word that sounded like a mixture of a cough and a sneeze, “Huh?”

“The state between wakefulness and sleep.” Percy explained.

“Oh right…”, Kara muttered in understanding before raising an eyebrow at the light embarrassed blush spreading across Percy’s face.

“Sorry, I’m a doctor with a love of crosswords, I couldn’t help myself…”, Percy coughed out apologetically, before gesturing with a wave of his hand, “Please continue…”

“Hmmm…” Kara hummed, a flash of a smile appearing at the doctor’s awkwardness before vanishing almost instantly as her mind returned back to the heavy memories that sucked every ounce of joy from her system like a parasite.

When Kara spoke next her voice was soft, yet distant, the tone of voice one might use to lull a small child to sleep. It was rhythmic and level, kind of empty and emotionless so as not to pull someone back from the slumber it was trying so greatly to encourage. “And your mind is also trying to desperately process what’s real and what’s not because you’ve been dreaming vividly and it all felt so real… And now you’re not quite sure who you are or where you are because you’re not in your normal bed and the flash of images you seen when you try to open your eyes look nothing like your bedroom and…” Kara trailed off, lulled into a trance-like state by the memories fuelling her words.

“Aware but not fully conscious?” Percy whispered, not wanting to yank Kara back from her thoughts too harshly, instead trying to guide her back to reality.

Kara blinked slow and heavy, “Something like that…”

Percy took a deep breath, eyeing Kara’s restless fingers as he said carefully, “Twenty-four years of confusion and immobility, many people would struggle to recover from something like that…”

Kara’s eyes suddenly became steely and focused, her expression turning blank and guarded. “I don’t think about it.” Kara replied sharply, her fingers shifting away from the edge of her dress so that she could cross her arms protectively over her chest, but almost immediately she began tapping an arrhythmic pattern on her bicep and her legs vibrated up and down anxiously.

“Are you sure about that?” Percy asked knowingly.

“Yes.” Kara huffed out, her head turning off to one side as she murmured dismissively, “It happened a long time ago.”

Percy hummed neither in agreement nor disagreement, “Whilst there is some truth in the saying ‘time heals all wounds’, I find that that only works if the person is giving the wound the care it requires at the same time.”

Kara frowned and a familiar crease appeared between her eyebrows, “What do you mean?”

“I’m assuming as Supergirl you don’t often need to worry about the long term care or effect of physical injuries?” Percy reasoned; though he tried his utmost not to make assumptions in his line of work, preferring the patient to tell him themselves or having gathered enough evidence to feel certain in his theories, they were often an unfortunate necessity to progress conversations and subsequent treatment.

“No, usually a few hours under a sun-bed sees me back to fully healed.” Kara answered, and Percy momentarily reflected on how quickly she’d become comfortable sharing the details of her secret persona but he then realised with a start that to her it wasn’t a secret persona, it was just who she was. Percy swiftly made a note to explore further the impact that multiple secret identities could have on a person. “I’ve had a few cases where it may be a few days but… that’s about it…”, Kara continued, oblivious to the thoughts and ideas that were whirring away in the background of her therapist’s mind.

It was these distracting thoughts that meant Percy’s attention was lax, leading to him slipping up, the immediate reply tumbling from his mouth and only managing to catch the name at the last possible second, “You must have seen with Le-”

Kara’s sharp inhaled breath was the only outward reaction to the passing, barely there reference to the L-Corp CEO.

“You grew up with a human sibling?” Percy course corrected, beyond grateful that Kara seemed willing and eager to latch onto this switch in focus. “Did Alex ever break a bone or get a particularly nasty scrape when she was younger?”

“Yeah,” Kara nodded, an obvious memory springing to mind by the way her eyes glanced off to the side to aid recall, “when she was learning to ride a motorbike, she had an accident. She wasn’t quite in control and had to veer sharply to avoid hitting a car.” Kara’s expression darkened, a flicker of the fear she had presumably felt at the sight of her sister injured flaring up even after all these years - Percy finally appreciated how deep the bond was between the two sisters. “She had bad grazes all up her leg and had broken her wrist.”

“Right.” Percy nodded, pleased to have a more accessible example to work with, “After falling did Alex leave the injuries as they were?”

“Leave them?” Kara repeated tentatively, confusion apparent in the deep lines across her forehead and around her eyes.

“Did she get up and carry on as if nothing had happened?” Percy asked, adding clarity to his question.

“She wanted to but Eliza and I took her to the hospital.” Kara rolled her eyes affectionately, clearly remembering her sister’s stubborn behaviour with a level of fondoness.

Percy hummed in understanding before continuing with the mental exercise he was guiding Kara through. “Were the grazes presumably cleaned to prevent infection and her arm set in plaster to ensure it healed correctly?”

“Yes.” Kara confirmed easily.

“You could argue that time would have healed those wounds eventually.” Percy pointed out casually.

Kara’s lip curled in obvious disagreement, “Her injury could have gotten infected or her wrist might not have healed properly.”

“Exactly.” Percy said with a proud and comforting smile that he hoped put Kara at ease and made her receptive to what he was about to say. “Just because time does help doesn’t mean it should do everything alone. It doesn’t mean it will heal properly. In some cases time can do more damage, letting it heal into the wrong shape and as such cause more pain trying put it right later on.”

Kara stared at him blankly, absorbing everything what he had told her and working through the example he had given her on her own. Steadily, Kara’s blue eyes went downcast, her body seemed to curl inwards and when she spoke it was a mere whisper of a question, “Did I heal wrong?”

“No,” Percy assured instantly, staring Kara straight in the eye, his voice strong and definitive, “though I think you may have left time to do all the heavy-lifting.”

Kara swallowed thickly, and switched her gaze back to her hands that were tracing seemingly random patterns on the sofa cushions. “Is it going to hurt?” She asked quietly, “Fixing everything much later on?”

Percy sighed, not willingly to lie to his patients in any way, “Did it hurt your sister when they cleaned out the wound on her leg?”

Kara went utterly still for a fraction of a second as her breath caught in her lungs before being expelled as a simple, “Yes.”

#kara danvers #supercorp #Kara finally gets the therapy she needs #supergirl

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Upon request, here is a rec list of bottom Louis fics where Harry andLouis reunite after an extended period of time apart. In some of these fics, they’re in a relationship already when they reunite, but in others, they see each other for the first time in years and have not been in contact during that time apart. As always, these are listed in order from shortest to longest. Happy reading!

1) A Gentleman’s Arrangement | Explicit | 5205 words

Harry has been in the countryside, Louis has been trapped in town awaiting the London season, and three months apart is far, far too long. (Regency AU)

2) Baby Honey | Explicit | 14744 words

When the next great war strikes, all alphas have to ship out. Alex leaves a little more behind than some of the others.

3) 210 Days | Explicit | 16341 words

Harry is in the army and Louis is back in New York. Together, they get through Harry’s six month leave by sending a series of letters back and forth. They’ve done it before, and they can do it again.

4) Howls Like A Beast (You Flower, You Feast) | Explicit | 16775 words

“You don’t love me,” Louis had said, utterly blasé as he callously fractured the heart of a Harry that was just barely eighteen. “I do,” Harry had insisted pleadingly, green eyes already watering. Louis had rolled his eyes, exasperated and flippant in the way only beautiful, young boys could be when faced with the affections of a baby prince. He had run his finger down Harry’s cheek then, had forced him to look into his eyes as he delivered the final blow. “You’ll change your mind once you’ve seen more of the world,” Louis had teased, pressing a brutally delicate kiss onto Harry’s lovely, pure cheek. “Once you’ve been properly defiled.” He had whispered filthily, delighted by the gasp he heard, the frantic pink blush that had rested high on Harry’s cheeks, the power he had felt at knowing he could make the Crown Prince squirm.

5) (Quiet Like A Fight) Fingers Laced Together | Mature | 17480 words

The one where Harry is gifted a hybrid and it’s a whole new world for the both of them.

6) The Oldest Magic Word | Explicit | 18055 words

Louis gets called up to play Seeker for the English National Team and when he gets there, he finds out that Harry Styles, his old school crush, is the Team Healer.

7) Ever Fixed | Mature | 41521 words

Three years ago, Harry was happily married, successfully heading the largest technology company in the world, and raising his young daughter. After he loses nearly everything in the aftermath of his daughter’s lost battle with a rare brain tumor, it may take three strange and yet very familiar visitors – and a man from the therapy group Harry keeps refusing to go to – to get him back on track.

8) Falling Into Place | Explicit | 40754 words

Louis and Harry spend nine years apart but inevitably find their way back to each other.

9) So Much We Didn’t Say | Explicit | 52083 words

Harry’s near fatal accident exposed the cracks in his and Louis’ eleven year marriage. A serious error in judgment by Louis shattered it completely.

10) It’s A Long Way Down | Explicit | 52658 words

It’s June 2013, and the legalization of gay marriage is the most discussed political issue in the country. As a member of parliament Louis Tomlinson has decided to do everything under his power to keep marriage between a man and a woman. Little does he know, a boy with green eyes and pink lips from his past is on a mission to change his mind.

11) I Hunger For Your Beautiful Embrace | Explicit | 57276 words

Legatus Harry is governor of Capua and Dominus of his estate. He governs with a firm and harsh rule and has never been known to be soft. That is until Louis comes into his life. A beautiful slave who creeps into Harry’s house and heart. But in the times of Ancient Rome, when sex, wars, and death are the entertainment of the times, life and love are rare commodities.

12) Don’t Tell the Gods (We Left a Mess) | Explicit | 71556 words

Note: Mentions of Bottom Harry.

After a misunderstanding with Liam’s mother, Louis agrees to accompany his best friend to a family wedding and pretend to be the world’s best boyfriend. But their simple plan goes awry when he learns that Harry, ex-boyfriend/ex-love of Louis’ life, will also be in attendance. (aka: fake!boyfriends with a twist ft. bromance, romance and cake.)

13) Your Name is Tattooed on My Heart | Explicit | 86809 words

Louis is ready to find the love of his life, but first he has to stop falling for the punk rocker next door.

14) Fucking Animals | Explicit | 116686 words

Louis is the frontman of an equal rights-movement, author of a book about beta-omega marriage and the struggles of being born and boxed into a personality you don’t necessarily feel you fit. The notion that an omega must want to be with an alpha or else he or she’s just settling for less, is bullshit.

But, fucking hell.

15) You Drive Me Crazy (But It Feels Alright) | Teen & Up | 102036 words

Note: Mentions of BH.

Bridget Jones’ Diary AU.

16) All I Want | Mature | 289307 words

When Harry and Louis got together it wasn’t under the best circumstances. Louis was taken by another. But go figure that the way they ended up together is the very same way it ended. And Harry left Louis. He left him with a lot more than he thought. A story about how people’s misconceptions almost destroyed a love that went beyond measure.

Check out our other fic rec lists by category here and our full rec list here.

#bottom louis #top harry #fic recs #blp #blp fic recs #reunion

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