#aka im just. not doing good artwise today.

[akioshiwarrior]

hi yes i am an ARTIST

#aka im just. not doing good artwise today. #i WANT to draw but when i DO draw it doesn’t look any good #i mean its definitely just because of some stupid self imposed standards #like i expect everything i draw to be PERFECT and logically i KNOW that’s not gonna happen cuz it never happens for anyone #and then i mess up and it feels like the world is crashing down and i question whether or not i can even call myself an artist?? #like yeah!! i know i can!! im making ART that’s literally all being an artist is no matter what the quality of the piece is #but for some reason i hold myself to such a high standard that if a drawing doesn’t look good enough through the entire process #it’s automatically trash #and my monkey brain is just happy making stuff but my dumb human brain keeps criticizing itself and tells monkey brain to stop #and it keeps criticizing itself and my smart human brain is trying to reason with it #and be all ‘all art is good art!! you’re making an effort and that’s what matters!’ #while my STUPID brain says ‘if it exists it’s TRASH’ #anyways #there’s three wolves inside of me fighting #and two of them are rolling around on the ground in depression while the third is just #trying to reason with the other two #congrats if you read all of these tags lol