#aka responsible and the one w the most sense

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

points at u. how do u play eridan so well!!! hes such a tricky bastard to write for 4 some reason

It's because he's got so many problems and playing him is basically Mental Illness Simulator :') Whipped up a small (that's a lie, it's large and extensive) guide under the cut

ERIDAN DOES NOT HAVE FUN

First most important thing about playing Eridan: THIS BOY DOES NOT DO JOKES. He does NOT DO BITS. He does NOT HAVE FUN. If you check out his logs, pretty much every time he talks to somebody, he has a very clear purpose in mind (usually flirting or grandstanding). One of the few times he does strike up a conversation without a clear goal in mind, it's absolutely disastrous:

CA: fef CA: hey CC: ? CA: glub CC: Glub glub! CC: 38) CA: yeah CA: hm CC: W)(at is it!!! CA: wwhat

He's sooooooo so so so bad at conversation. He doesn't tell jokes. He doesn't know how to lighten the mood. He has no chill. He has no sense of humor. When playing him, if you are making jokes, you are doing it wrong!

The reason for this is because, psychologically, you have to imagine that he is constantly teetering on the edge of a murderous freakout. If he is not, at all times, Being Useful (AKA murderous, sea dweller-y), then Something Bad Will Happen. His entire life is about duty, pressure, responsibility, and, accordingly, at ALL TIMES, he feels an extreme, anxious weight on his shoulders, which makes him incapable of indulging in "frivolous" behavior, like making smalltalk or doing things for fun. In fact, sarcasm and facetiousness are literally considered childish by Alternians, and Equius associates it with lower blood colors:

CT: D --> Humorous insincerity is for pedantic wigglers AG: Pshhhhhhhh, I know! I know you never make jokes. I was the one 8eing sarcastic, you stooge! AG: I was 8eing sarcastic a8out you 8eing sarcastic. Duh. CT: D --> That's because you're a little worse than me

That's why it's also kind of important to make him not really have hobbies. Eridan DOES have interests: he loves wizards and magic, and he's a hipster. HOWEVER, he only ever talks about magic in pursuit of some other goal, like finding a date or winning at a rivalry, AND he's constantly denying his own interest in these things, because they're frivolous, stupid, ridiculous, and deviations from what he "should" be like. He actively distances himself from things that make him happy. In fact, we only know he's a hipster because it's part of his design and Karkat mentions it once - Eridan himself has never talked about it. That's how far he's buried anything that actually brings him joy.

If your Eridan is smiling for ANY REASON, you are DOING IT WRONG!

While we're on the topic, things Eridan is NOT ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN:

History (he only ever talks about history in the vaguest possible terms; I think he is book smart and genuinely knows a lot ABOUT history, but his actual interest in it is middling. He's just expected to be really obsessed with history, especially military history, as a member of the aristocracy, and he reads it in the same way as one doomscrolls on twitter - it's a way for him to self-reinforce his own mental illness and soothe his cognitive dissonance)

Marine life/marine anything (he's TERRIFIED of the ocean, and has spent a few days underwater TOTAL. He knows nothing of the sea.)

Weaponry (he HAS a lot of guns, so he definitely knows how to use and maintain them, but there's a reason he outsources the building of all his doomsday devices. Also, he got a "god weapon" early on in his life, and has kind of just been... using that. He neither has a need to know much about weaponry, nor has ever displayed any particular interest or knowledge. He leaves fully loaded harpoons just lying around on the floor of his house. It's knowledge of necessity, not interest.)

Hunting/Violence/Murder (he's really good at it, he knows a lot about it, he will teach you on request, he will mention it constantly, but he doesn't actually derive any particular joy out of it, especially since we know his thought process after each kill is "that's going to make an orphaned troll very sad. they will be culled soon :/")

Fashion (he has more of an interest than the average Alternian, but it's still not a lot. He dresses up to emulate Dualscar, and his actual clothing choices beyond that are pretty disastrous. Canon Eridan has never shown an interest in fashion. Even if you do want to play him with an interest in fashion, which I think is fine, you have to remember that he deliberately distances himself from anything that brings him joy, so even if he likes fashion, he'll keep that a secret and insist he only does it for utility purposes.)

Pale Romance (just throwing this in there, it's the one quadrant he is *never* shown to pursue. He's tried Feferi and Nepeta in flushed, Sollux, Terezi, and Kanaya in ashen, and Rose and Vriska in pitch. if anything, he goes out of his way to AVOID pale romances, both because he just had a painful pale breakup, and because he freaks out at the implication that he's weak in any way, which pursuing a pale romance would all but be admitting)

The thing that makes playing Eridan so hard, I think, is that he's abjectly fucking miserable, BY CHOICE, and for most RPers, playing a character who's abjectly fucking miserable kind of goes against the appeal of RPing in the first place (that is, having fun). All of the things he says he's really into are things that he either has no interest in, or that actively make his life less enjoyable. All the things he spends all his time thinking about are things that make him feel anxious and hopeless. All the things he actually likes and would have fun with are the things he actively, deliberately, and loudly decries and suppresses.

So that's point 1: Eridan does NOT have fun.

ERIDAN IS AGGRO AS *FUCK*

The next most thing I see that trips people up is that they make Eridan too friendly, usually as an extension of accidentally giving him too much chill. There are two main factors here at play: the first is that he's desperately trying to be a violent, casteist, oppressive, dangerous sea dweller, and outright pushes that image, and the second is that he's really fucking anxious ALL THE TIME, and most peoples' sociability goes down when they feel the cold breath of the reaper on the backs of their necks 24/7.

When looking at the 4 responses to danger - fight, flight, freeze, and fawn - Eridan will overwhelmingly choose "fight," with "fawn" as his secondary option. This makes absolute sense in context: all his trauma comes from its inescapable nature - if he tries to run from his duties, everybody dies; if he freezes up and fails to complete them, everybody dies. Therefore, his only two options are to Fight, and to channel that violent response into completing his duties, and to Fawn, to capitulate to the things that are hurting him - much moreso the former than the latter. Unfortunately, that bleeds over into everything else. Great!

We can see this illustrated really well in his conversations with Kanaya: Eridan does not ask for favors or help, he makes demands:

CA: kan make her talk to me do somethin ... CA: so help me out tell her to talk to me i think she blocked me you got to

ERIDAN: you should of told me about this ERIDAN: if theres goin to be any sort a hope for our race as the prince of hope i demand to be invvolvved ERIDAN: so dont go anywwhere wwithout me got it

The only time he ever really backs off is in confessions, where he's willing to be like "hey, I think we really got something here, don't you think so?", or when talking to Karkat (Karkat is really the only person that Eridan doesn't feel the need to put on airs around, and we can only speculate as to why. It's because they're destined moirails for each other.)

He will also do this for statements that he isn't 100% sure about. If he's going to say something, he is going to ASSERT IT as if it is IMMUTABLE FACT, even if he's immediately disproven. In which case he will admit fault, but then his NEXT wild assumption is the IMMUTABLE FACT.

CA: wwell fine you dont havve to behavve vvillainous if youre bent up on actin against the grain a your nobility or somesuch CA: i can play that role its not like i evver didnt get my gills dirty before TT: Nobility? What are you talking about? CA: wwell arent you TT: No. What gave you that idea? CA: the wway you CA: ok CA: i had a misconclusion about that so my fault CA: obvviously you got rich blood so maybe when you crash landed you wwerent recognized for it by wwhatevver vvehicle upholds the class structure in human society

I feel like he's the type who, if he's genuinely unsure about something, he just won't say it at all. Basically, Eridan is always operating at either 0% or 100%, with almost no in-between. NO CHILL. Given that he only strikes up conversations when he's trying to achieve something from it - whether that's actively getting someone to do something for him, or just trying to assert that magic is fake - he treats every conversation like it' i's a battle, where the prize is whatever it is he's attempting to do, and his conversation partner is an enemy that he has to beat into submission. (Karkat is the only exception. He actually just likes talking to Karkat, and will do more traditional "hey man you wanna talk about your feelings" kind of dialogue with him.)

If your Eridan has chill, you are doing it wrong!

ERIDAN STRUGGLES WITH EMPATHY

This really needs to be qualified: he does HAVE empathy. He DOES care about his friends. But his brain is really cooked, and he has an extremely difficult time actually working up the emotional energy to express or experience it.

He's kind of downright sociopathic, lol:

ERISOLSPRITE: iim of the miind2et that wwhen you havve a rock 2oliid piiece of a22 tiied twwo the dock, you dont bloody wwell tug the knot loo2e and 2hovve the fucker off wwiith the heel a your boot. ERISOLSPRITE: but then another part of me ju2t wwonder2 wwhat the FUCK ii ju2t 2aiid there? liike that wwa2 ju2t 2uch a wweiird 2ociiopathiic thought ii had, ii hone2tly had no iidea howw bad ii could po22iibly feel about my2elf untiil ii BECAME my2elf, iif THAT make2 2en2e.

Like, okay, how do I explain this. His body count is 2000+. He has an EXTREMELY difficult time caring about life or death. He's had to watch kids cry over their dead parents. He has had to kill kids trying to protect their parents, whom he has then had to kill. And he has done this over, and over, and over again, as long as he can remember, to the point where he calls it "all i evver done practically."

Just for the sake of preserving what's left of his sanity, he's had to learn how to not care about that. If he sees someone crying in front of him, it's unlikely to even emotionally register to him as anything beyond "factually, this person is sad." Shit happens, people die. Violence, tragedy, murder, injury, and death are literally daily occurrences to him. For you, the day I killed your lusus was the most important day of your now tragically short life. For me, it was Tuesday.

Vriska is in the same boat, BTW. I think a combination of just being a less sensitive person to start with, the existence of a support network (Equius and Kanaya and Terezi as friends + she was friends with Team Charge before the... incident), and the lack of all the Duty(tm) and Responsibility(tm), helped her cope a bit better, and be better about opening up to people and relying on them for emotional support.

What this means, in terms of playing/writing him, is that his priorities are extremely skewed, and he is genuinely not going to understand things like "maybe I shouldn't tell this land dweller I'm trying to kill all land dwellers," or "maybe this person is sad and I should comfort them," or "maybe my constant talk about murder and death is offputting to other people." Here he is, literally not understanding why insulting and belittling Kanaya has led to her not wanting to help him, as well as not understanding why Vriska might've blocked him:

CA: wwhatEVVER you are so the vvillage twwo wwheel devvice wwhen it comes to auspisticing CA: you cant let a grudge go by you wwont stick your busy stem betwwixt so get wwith the program fussyfangs GA: If Your Slander Werent So Predictable Id Block You Too For Saying That GA: Has It Occurred To You She May Have Blocked You Because You Are Vvery Ovverbearing GA: I Just Said That Aloud Now In Your Silly Accent And Had A Private Moment Of Enjoyment CA: wwho givves a shit wwhy she blocked me or about my fuckin manners come on youvve got a wway wwith her

His brain is constantly running at a fevered 100% full-tilt run; he doesn't have the space, leisure, or energy to spend considering things from the perspective of other people. It leads to weird paradoxes, where he IS considerate of other peoples' feelings, but doesn't actually consider their feelings. After spending almost the ENTIRE conversation with Kanaya belittling her and demanding she be his and Vriska's auspice, he abruptly switches gears:

CA: fine i get it ill step off CA: you dont wwant to be our auspistice cause you dont wwant to get locked into that sort of relation wwith her i can respect that GA: No Thats Not It CA: yeah it is your real feelins run pretty awwful RUDDY methinks evverybody knowws it CA: especially that assblood karkat he and me havve you so pegged about that its upright silly CA: but its cool its totally fine dont wworry ill leavve you alone and givve you a shot

Because he LIKES Kanaya, he REALLY CARES ABOUT Kanaya, he WANTS GOOD THINGS for Kanaya... and yet is entirely, wholly, not taking her feelings into account at all.

BUT! This also applies in reverse! You can make all the death threats and casteist insults and demands towards Eridan as you want, and he won't give a shit aside from his usual grandstanding protests. The only time we ever truly see him offended is when he's genuinely trying to do Jade a favor by giving her the code to his gun, and she calls it a piece of shit and tosses it out with the trash - and even then, he doesn't take THAT much offense. Judge for yourself:

GG: so ill just dump it outside the house with the trash GG: and if it is fated to find my penpal one day then so be it! CA: god damn it CA: its like you people go out of your wway to think a howw to disrespect me GG: maybe you should have been nicer to me! GG: in any case i dont appreciate the spirit in which the gift was given so this is what i will do! CA: fine fuck it wwhat do i care CA: this has been a completely flippin useless exchange as havve they all been wwith your species

After all, he's accustomed to much, much, much worse. His emotional response here is indignation, not even really HURT. Karkat also makes a bunch of genuine death threats towards Eridan, which get entirely written off as "wwitty repartee." He's just really bad at processing hostility! Hostility is very normal to him!

So basically, before letting Eridan engage in any act of empathy or compassion, you have to ask whether or not he's going to recognize that the situation would call for that in the first place, which he is REALLY BAD at identifying. He only asks Karkat if Karkat wants to talk about his feelings after Karkat explicitly says that he's freaking out in every possible way, and without that explicit indication, I don't think Eridan would've even noticed.

If your Eridan has social skills, you are Doing It Wrong!

This also means that, even if Eridan has realized that he needs to act compassionate, he's still going to be really fucking trash at actually providing emotional support. He can't even emotionally support himself, you think he can figure it out for other people?

The most he can do is call it like he sees it - "this is a stupid thing to get worked up over," for example. Or he can jump straight to solutions, like "so what, are you gonna kill that guy?" Being as charitable as humanly possible, he might be able to fire off a "that's rough, buddy" at ABSOLUTE maximum.

ERIDAN KIND OF JUST SEES SLURS AS FACTUAL DESCRIPTORS (AND OTHER GENERAL NOTES FOR HIS SYNTAX AND VOCAB)

And, let's face it, on Alternia, they kind of are. Kanaya doesn't even bother to call him out for calling Karkat an assblood, Terezi and Feferi and Sollux don't bother taking offense to calling Sollux a mustard blood, and Karkat calls himself a gutter blood at one point. Like, even if you're playing/writing an Eridan who's rejected Alternian society, he'll still probably be out here calling people slurs? Things that would be considered hostile from other characters are very much just neutral coming from Eridan. There is no emotional difference to him, calling someone a rustblood or a burgundy, but he's expected to say rustblood because of his sea dweller status, so that's what he goes with.

Also, make some grounded but wild assertions about people and things. This boy loves to Assume. Writing Eridan is a lot of going "ERIDAN DON'T SAY THAT!!!" it's great. Really painful. Highly unrecommended.

He's obviously quite book smart and uses a lot of big vocabulary words. You guys need to have Eridan go on these insane purple-prose rants more often. They're so fun to write and so cringe to post.

CA: yeah go ahead and kiss us off but therell be blood on your hands CA: you could either play along as our auspistice and do a little mediating like you wwere fuckin hatched to CA: or wwatch she and me devvolvve into fuckin full fledged kismesisses the kind like you dont get once in ten thousand swweeps CA: you knoww thats wwhat it wwould be there wwould be rainboww rivvers runnin through star systems and all nebulizin like liquid firewworks CA: it wwill be beautiful and heartbreaking all at once

CA: but the thing is i need a rivval wwho can pose me a challenge CA: and frankly shes not evven fit for holdin my cape anymore CA: at this point i find all her adorable black pixie dabblins to be prime kiddie playtime shit CA: all of her FRAUDULENT MAGICS cannot come close to posin threat to my mastery ovver the TRUEST SCIENCES CA: an wwith my empiricists wwand i servve as the righteous hope that wwill incinerate delusion and the deluded alike CA: my holy fire is the wwhite fury bled from the wwrath-wweary eyes of fifty thousand nonfictional angels CA: and wwhen theyre finished wweepin they wwill boww before their prince GG: wow what are you talking about

For no reason at all. I'm going to post a little Karkat for comparison.

PCG: THE FUNNY THING IS IN THE FUTURE EVERYONE WILL RECOGNIZE ME AS THE UNDISPUTED LEADER, EVEN YOU. PCG: YOU WILL BE STANDING ON THE TIPPYTOES OF YOUR IDIOTIC METAL SHOES, TAKING DELICATE PURCHASE OF MY NUBBY HORNS AND HOISTING YOURSELF OVER MY HEAD TO PUT YOUR SWEATIEST TOUGH GUY SMOOCH UPON MY TWITCHING SPINE LUMP. PCG: IT WILL BE TENDER AND DEFERENTIAL, LIKE A PAUPER KISSING A NOBLE'S RING. PCG: JUST SCROLL DOWN, READ THE LOGS.

Also, notes about his typing quirk:

First, the ww and vv stuff is actively a fake accent he puts on for the #Aesthetic, and his natural way of speaking doesn't include those at all, so it's entirely likely that if you're writing him after he's rejected Alternian society, or if he's trying to be really really emotionally sincere, he wouldn't be bothering with that part of the quirk specifically.

He doesn't ALWAYS drop the G at the end of words ending in -ing. It's frequent and common, but don't feel bad about letting a word end in a g, especially if it would sound or look better (for example, "being a kid and growwing up" doesn't bother to drop the g's at all).

Similarly, he doesn't ALWAYS change "of" to "a," especially preceding a vowel sound. You gotta be careful with when you change this up, because he pretty much only does it when it would make sense spoken aloud.

In phrases like "must have" or "could have," he will often (but not always) change "have" to "of" (so "must of" or "could of").

Dropping the D from the word "and" happens only one time in the entire comic, so it's probably a typo, and if it isn't, it's REALLY REALLY infrequent.

He will sometimes use shorthanded words, like "em" instead of "them" or "ya" instead of "you." I'd say it's occassional, a bit rarer than the G-dropping. He does tend to use "got to" instead of "gotta," however. Again, try saying his lines out loud, to figure out when best to use what.

Given his loquaciousness and clear command of the language, it's likely that this is for Style, but he also doesn't always bother with proper grammar. Places where "[person] and I" would be used are often switched out for "[person] and me," and he might forgo a contraction like "I've" or "we've" and just post the pronoun (for example, "you got to" instead of "you've got to."

He references ocean shit, and ocean anatomy, like his own fins and gills, pretty often! He just doesn't do the puns. Try using "flippin" instead of "fuckin" every now and then, or "glubbin" instead of "talkin," or nautical analogies.

Also throw in some British "bloody"s every so often.

Cusses like a sailor, though, has one of the highest "fuck" counts relative to wordcount out of all the characters (cough like Karkat cough).

HE DOES NOT USE PUNCTUATION. EVER. (Ok, he does use a period once while talking to Terezi in Alterniabound, but I think that that's a mistake because it's literally the only time). This is actually in STARK contrast to other characters that don't generally use punctuation, like Aradia or Nepeta, who will still use ellipses, exclamation points, and question marks. Eridan actively, consciously forgoes using ANY punctuation, EVER, even for questions (which you shouldn't be asking too many of, because Eridan makes DEMANDS).

ERIDAN DOES NOT ANGST

This is another thing that I see a lot. Yes, Eridan thinks that he's worse than everybody. Yes, he deliberately keeps fun things at bay and focuses on things that make him miserable. Yes, he's sad, anxious, emotionally neglected, etc. etc. But I often see this self-loathing played for dramatics - Eridan being withdrawn, quiet, moody, and sad. Or being consumed with guilt and regret, and wishing he didn't have to be a murderer or wasn't forced into the position he was. And that's just not the vibe.

Because Eridan has a lot of pride. He refuses to appear weak, and he has genuinely lost the emotional capacity to feel too guilty about all the killing. Moreover, here's something I often see get overlooked:

He would think of the murders he committed, and the fact that he's so good at murdering, as good things.

It's not only useful, but oftentimes NECESSARY, for somebody on the team to be willing to make those kinds of sacrifices, to be willing to pull the trigger. Very literally, murder kept him and his friends alive long enough to play the game.

There's no universe in which Eridan would denounce killing and violence, because to do so would be to say that he shouldn't have kept his friends alive. Even in a hypothetical golden ending, where everybody survives to the end, Eridan would be the guy on the team who posits murder as a potential solution to problems, reminds people that society is built on sacrifices and suffering, and offers to do the dirty work himself if nobody else has the stomach for it. As much as being the orphaner was DISASTROUS for his mental and emotional well-being, he wouldn't regret the things he did.

And this is reflected in the comic - the rare times he does break down and show that he kind of hates himself, the focus is never on guilt or regret, it's on his perceived shortcomings - calling himself an idiot or pathetic. Because that's what his real insecurity is - he doesn't hate himself because he sees himself as this awful piece of shit, the way Sollux does, he hates himself because he thinks of himself as not good enough, because if he's Not Good Enough, then Something Bad Will Happen.

Remember, his danger response is FIGHT. It's a different paradigm than what most of us are used to, which is why I see his inner turmoil so often represented by him being moody and broody, which he's never really done in the comic. Eridan doesn't get sad, even though he is sad; he gets mad, aggressive, combative. He doesn't wallow; he just keeps swimming.

CA: i got to keep tryin thats howw all the great military masterminds became great through upright persevverance

Again, his response to being insulted is indignation, not hurt. He doesn't sit in his room feeling sorry for himself, he obsesses over genocide and murdering all the land dwellers. His response to seeing the love of his life turn on him with killing intent is to flip out and start killing right back. After being broken up with, his response is to go and pester his friends (and yell at Gamzee a bit) until he can get some emotional support. He doesn't angst, he tries to solve the problem, and, if he can't solve the problem, he starts shooting.

He's awfully violent! If your Eridan is not awfully violent, you're probably doing it wrong!

BUT, ERIDAN LOVES HIS FRIENDS

At his core, however, as tangled up in all of the above as he may be, Eridan loves:

His friends

Wizards

Magic

Probably hipster shit

Happy endings

He is still, after all, a HOPE player. He struggles as hard as he does because he can't give up on the idea that things will get better, eventually. Even if he's struggling in the wrong direction, toward the wrong ideals, and even if emotionally, he's feeling more and more hopeless and closed in, he can't stop himself from trying, and trying, and trying again.

He loves magic. As much as he tries to push it away and calls it stupid and fake and lame at every turn, he still brought his shitty wands onto the meteor. Why does he love magic? It's an extension of his inability to give up. No matter how hopeless the situation, no matter how awful he feels, no matter how unrealistic salvation might seem, if only magic is real, then there's a solution. He wants to be a wizard so badly because wizards can do magic, and magic can overturn reality, and reality is this awful, inescapable nightmare. He is constantly being caught between nihilism and pessimism and hope and belief. In the comic, the nihilism won, but that's the great conflict at the core of his being.

So ummmmm yeah, I hope any of that helps with writing the fish boy at all. Basically, if you aren't constantly cringing while writing the bullshit that comes out of his mouth, you're probably doing it wrong...

#homestuck #eridan ampora

[nakedbibi333]

Hi! How do you get over the fear that things will never change? ive manifested stuff that has a guaranteed "response", aka receiving a nice reply from a prof to an email i sent, or getting concert tickets (since i was on ticketmaster ready to get them), but for "abstract" stuff w no set deadline ive been struggling. i fully believe that things can manifest out of thin air, & telling myself "it will reflect in the 3d", but after persisting for so long im starting to worry it will never happen

Even though you say that you truly believe that you can manifest things out of thin air, it seems that there is a disconnect between what you say and what you actually believe. I think your problem is a lack of faith. You are able to manifest the "easy" or "obvious" things because you are taking some sort of action, which makes it easier for you to believe that it'll happen. You need to work on the belief that things can happen without any type of physical action from you. To be honest, that's the belief that's "hardest" to overcome (in the sense that we are so conditioned to believe that we have to do something in order to get the things we want, that it takes effort to really get past that and have total faith in the law), but also the most important one to focus on. Once you believe that you can manifest without any kind of physical action, you will be able to manifest anything, especially the things you once deemed "impossible." Remember that persisting means you are entering the state of having what you desire again and again, remaining faithful that self has to be expressed. I encourage you to take some time to analyze these beliefs and see if that's what's been holding you back!

#ask

[champagnekenma]

D A N C I N G W I T H T H E S T A R S ✩

<3// pure fluff, gn!reader, timeskip characters.

<3// kozume kenma, sugawara koushi, bokuto kotaro, tendou satori.

<3// lowercase intended, even if this is proofread a million times there may still be mistakes.

->->dance dance dance w/ (some of) the haikyuu boys!

KOZUME KENMA

kenma had gone to the office for a conference, meaning for the first time in weeks, you were able to mess around in his recording studio (aka his home office). he had really expensive equipment, which made sense because his streams and youtube videos were all of a substantially high quality. that's usually why he wouldn't let you run around freely in his studio- not to mention that you were incredibly clumsy.

you walked into the room, turning on the purple lights he installed and sat at his desk. you knew his pc password so you logged onto his account and decided to play a few games he had- making sure not to ruin his progress or, delete his save file of course. after some time you got bored of it.

you then opened his spotify and put his favourite playlist on shuffle. your cat walked in and jumped onto your lap, "hey misty." she ran up your torso as you played around with kenma's pc. that's when you decided to have some fun and open his twitch and pretended to go live.

"what's up bros, it's kodzuken! back with another livestream!" you chuckled as you impersonated your boyfriend. after that, the cat jumped onto the keyboard, "misty no!"

in your fit to get her off, you tripped and hit your hand on the keyboard, changing the current song to a new one. "ow," you sighed, "misty, what if you messed up ken's setup? he'd be so mad at me..."

she meowed in response as you placed her on your lap again. the song that came on was one of your favourites, [song]. you started humming along until you got to your favourite part which is when you stood up and full-on started singing and dancing to it. you twirled around and picked up misty again to dance with her.

that's when the door opened.

"and- AHHHH!" your jumped when you saw the figure standing in the doorway with the most amused look on his face.

"no no, don't stop," kenma snickered. he was holding his phone up to record you. you felt embarrassed as you put misty down and shamefully sat down on the couch. "you're home early..." you mumbled. "yeah, the conference went by very fast luckily," kenma sat down in his desk chair and began fiddling with his keyboard and mouse, "however, as i pulled into the driveway..."

he pushed his chair aside so you could see the screen, "i got notified that 'i' began to stream on my twitch account?"

your heart sank as you began to fully grasp the situation. you had accidentally streamed yourself dancing and acting like a fool to kenma's whole audience. "oh my days, i didn't mean to do that! i'm so sorry! oh, i've made a damn fool of myself!" you panicked as you sped to his side to get a closer look at the monitor.

"don't worry, i enjoyed watching you," he chuckled before turning to his webcam, "did you guys enjoy that?"

you watched as comment after comment whirled down the screen. all of the ones you saw were positive, so that made you feel a little better. "see," kenma grinned, "you're so cute."

"stop..." you looked away bashfully as kenma laughed. "pull up a chair, y/n. join me on stream tonight."

you dragged over a spare chair and sat next to him, "my audience loves you," he leaned in close and whispered, "but not nearly as much as i love you."

"i love you too, ken," you whispered back.

for the next hour, you sat with him and played video games on his stream.

SUGAWARA KOUSHI

you poured fruit punch into the plastic cup as you watched the children dance and play. you were one of the adult chaperones for the sixth grade disco, mainly because your boyfriend worked at the elementary school. you unfortunately had to listen to kids bop versions of the songs you liked. not very pleasant.

"y/n," you felt a hand go around your waist. you looked to see koushi beaming at you. you smiled back and passed him a cup of punch, "thanks, any kids misbehaving?" he asked in-between sips.

"nope, although kaito pushed another student for taking the last grape soda," you explained as you watched the kids. "he's always been a rambunctious scamp, hasn't he?" koushi chuckled as he picked up a bag of crisps from the food table, "care to share, my love?"

"i thought you'd never ask," you spoke sarcastically as you took one out of the bag, "very luxurious..."

a slow dance song came on as the lights changed

"c'mon babe, this is fun!" he then pointed a finger to his chin in thought, "okay, c'mere!". he grabbed your hand and dragged you into the middle of the room.

"koushi- what are you doing?!" you whisper-shouted, looking around at the kids who had formed a circle around you two. a few of the girls started 'ooh'ing whilst the boys were making kissing noises. immaturity is a disease.

koushi then bowed dramatically, "care to dance, sweetheart?". the girls began squealing as he grasped your right hand with his left and held onto your waist with his right. he pulled you close and span with you around the dance circle. "koushi! what if we get in trouble?" you hushedly warned. "what for? we're just dancing," koushi lifted you and whirled around with you in his arms, causing you to shriek joyfully.

"go mr. sugawara! go y/n!" the students cheered. you saw the girls whip out their phones, ready to record their favourite couple slow dance. koushi's students loved you- mainly because you let them call you by your first name and you would bake treats for them for koushi to bring in and hand out. however they really loved you because, ever since you started dating koushi, he became a happier and nicer teacher.

he twirled you around before dipping you. once you were brought back up, he winked at you with a boyish grin on his face. his hands held your own as he pushed you back and pulled you close before turning you around. you continued to slow dance with him as the surrounding students squealed and giggled.

as the song ended, koushi placed a chaste kiss on your forehead. "i love you, y/n," he whispered into your ear. "i love you more, koushi," you lovingly held his hand. you looked towards the crowd to see more squealing and whispering.

"now now, let's be calm now guys," koushi playfully scolded, "remember, no photos or videos should be taken of teachers or their wonderful partners, right?"

"yes, mr. sugawara..." they groaned as he laughed. he jokingly shooed them away, "alrighty then, go dance!"

they cheered and ran off. you laughed as koushi led you back to the snack table. "they're gonna bug you about that for the next week," you smirked. koushi sighed as he drank his warm punch, "i know..." he turned to you with a grin on his face,

"it was worth it though."

BOKUTO KOUTAROU

"bokkun!" the ball went flying over the net as koutarou slammed it onto the other side of the court, "nice one!"

you being the s/o of star player bokuto koutarou, had the privilege of watching MSBY's practices. you watched as miya atsumu set up another ball for koutarou, which in turn, led to him practically soaring through the air to spike it.

"woo! go kou-kou!" you cheered from the bench. koutarou turned to face you and beamed brightly, his hair perking up. you loved cheering him on, simply because he would get so excited and it would help his performance. his teammates often thanked you for your presence.

"thanks, y/n!" hinata grinned as the team walked up to you. "yeah, bokkun always seems ta be at his best when yer here!" miya admitted, "such a frickin' show off!"

"shush tsum-tsum!" koutarou groaned as he shuffled over to you, "ignore him owlie!"

"aw, he calls them 'owlie'!" sakusa mocked to which he replied, "oh, come on omi, not you too!" you chuckled as you watched the humorous display.

however, this time was different. MSBY was struggling in this specific match. they won the first set but lost the second. you could tell koutarou was feeling dejected; he'd always feel discouraged at that point in any match.

during the three minute set changeover, you stood and shamelessly cheered louder than any fan in the stands. "go kou-kou! who's the man?! you the man!". he stared up at you with a pout before a lovestruck expression slowly spread across his face. you then subconsciously began to dance like a cheerleader to the music playing in the background, before blowing him a kiss. his mood lifted instantly and he shot you a determined grin. you returned it with a smirk.

miya hit his head, bringing him back to reality. koutarou quickly apologised as they ran back onto the court. with your praise, koutarou scored them the winning point. you cheered so loud, someone thought you were in trouble.

after they had changed, they met you near the entrance. after fighting past the crowd of fans, you made it to your boyfriend's car. as he pulled off, he placed his left hand on your thigh, driving with his right one.

"i saw that cute lil' dance you did, owlie," he gave you a side glance and a grin, "really gave me the push i needed. thanks!"

"no problem, kou! i love you so much and i love watching you play, so if i can help in any way, i'll be happier than ever," you chuckled, holding the hand that was on your thigh.

"i love you more, y/n. now, always and forever."

TENDOU SATORI

you were bored... painfully bored. unfortunately, he had to work on the day of your eighteen month anniversary. you decided that you couldn't wait for him to come home so, you put on your jacket, grabbed your bag and headed towards the chocolate place that was a few blocks away. as you walked there, you shot him a text.

heyyyyy 'toriii! i'm miss u and i can't wait for u to come homeee :((( so i'm coming to see u. hope it's not a bother :p

surprisingly, within a minute, he had already replied.

y/nnnn hiiiiii. no it's not a bother!! i do not mind at all!!! &lt;333

i actually have a surprise gift for you at the chocolaterie mon paradis. so i'm glad i didn't have to ask you to come ;))

you beamed at the anticipation of what it could be as you started walking faster towards satori's chocolaterie. maybe the surprise would be a new expensive pair of shoes; knowing him it could probably be a whole surprise puppy. you had no clue when it came to satori. he was always so unpredictable, which you loved.

as the cute little building came into your line of vision, you internally squealed because of your excitement as you sped towards the door. as you opened it, you noticed a few customers sitting in the few chairs of the chocolaterie. however, you quickly diverted you attention to the red haired man who was standing behind the counter.

"hey hey, there you are," he cooed as he leaned his elbow against the counter, resting his head on his palm. you chuckled before walking behind the countertop to join him. "hiya 'tori!" he pulled you into a warm hug, arms wrapping around your waist.

"i'm so glad you're here sweetheart. i missed you so much..." he mumbled before having a light bulb moment. he grabbed your wrist and dragged you into the kitchen.

"okay are you ready to be amazed?!" he spoke in a mystical way as he covered your eyes. "yes, i'm ready!" you replied. "okay makio! bring it in!"

you heard wheels scrape across the floor as an object was pushed towards where you were standing. "okay, three... two... one!" his hands were removed from your eyes as makio revealed the chocolatey miniture statue of you and satori standing outside a small house. the position of the fake versions of you were made to look as if they were dancing.

"oh. my. gosh!" you exclaimed, "satori, this is incredible!". he chuckled as you closely inspected the build, "you like it?" he asked. "like it? i love it!"

he grabbed your wrist again and pulled you close to his warm body. he smelled sweet like caramel, cocoa and sugar. you loved that about him; the way he'd come home after a long shift and would cuddle you until you were drunk on the sweet smell he'd carry after making chocolate all day. you especially loved it when he had eaten some of the chocolate that he'd made that day because, it would make his lips taste sweet; this would always make your sleepy make out sessions all the better.

"y'know, i've never properly danced with you before, y/n..." satori closed the minuscule gap between you two before placing a soft kiss on your top lip, "let's give it a whirl, shall we?"

makio turned a slow song and dimmed the lights before she brought a tray of chocolates to the counter outside. you smiled bashfully as you wrapped your available arm around his neck, "we shall."

he placed a hand on your hips as he guided your body to the music. you squealed as he effortlessly lifted you up and spun you around. in the middle of the song, he lifted you again so that your legs wrapped around his waist. he sat you down on one of the surfaces before he lovingly gazed at you, completely enamoured by your being.

"mon amour, you are the most incredible person in the world you know that?" you felt butterflies erupt in your tummy as he whispered in your ear, "happy anniversary, i love you."

"i love you more satori," you smiled back at his grin. "no i love you more!" he argued. before you could refute his claim, he pressed his lips against yours. as he placed loving kisses onto your mouth, you once again smelled the sweet chocolate he had prepared that day. he placed a hand behind your head as he deepened the kisses, causing you to get completely intoxicated by his warm touch. you both had gotten so used to the warm feeling of each other's lips, that you didn't notice that the song was finished and that makio was standing at the door frame, awkwardly waiting for you two to finish before getting the second batch of chocolates for the display.

"mm... oh! sorry 'kio!" satori straightened himself out before helping you back onto the ground. she giggled before continuing her work.

"anyways, y/n...that was fun," he turned back towards you, "i'll never stop loving you."

you smiled bashfully again before returning his words, "i'll never stop loving you too, satori."

he placed a soft kiss to your lips, "now let's eat our chocolatey twins, plus their home!"

you burst out laughing at his absurd comment as you followed him to the statue. you picked up the figure of him and he picked up the figure of you. you gently knocked their heads together as a toast and bit into them.

they tasted absolutely delectable, just like his lips.

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[lossie92]

As promised here's a snippet from A Hand to Reach For aka my "there was only one bed" abo fic.

Rn I'm starting on chapter 3, so it's good progress, consider I was at 2k only 3 days ago. Maybe I can actually finish it soon, who knows...

Hope you enjoy!

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“Tobirama-san?”

“Hm?” Tobirama hummed distractedly in response as he turned his head to glance at Madara. They had decided to stop for a moment to eat something and Tobirama must have spaced out at some point. The other man was sitting only a few paces away from him, an open bento in his lap.

An embarrassed flush crept up Tobirama's cheeks. “I’m sorry. Did you… Do you need something from me, Madara-sama?” He hurried to say, hating how stilted and awkward he sounded.

“No, not really. I just… You haven’t touched your food in a while, is all,” Madara said, indicating the bento in Tobirama’s own lap which was indeed only partially eaten. “Is it not to your liking?”

Tobirama’s cheeks darkened even further, the blush spreading to his neck. Despite changing his own mind about Madara, he was probably on the right track to make the man hate him by being unforgivably rude.

“I… that’s not—” He stumbled over his words for a moment as he instinctively pulled the bento closer. “I was just… I was lost in thought. It’s very good. I, I apologise. I meant no offence.”

Madara blinked at him owlishly, clearly a bit taken aback. “I’m not offended…?” He said, posing it more like a question. “I was just wondering if perhaps I made you something you didn’t enjoy. Hashirama wasn’t the most helpful with your likes and dislikes, I’m afraid.”

If his grip on the bento wasn’t vice-like and if he didn’t absolutely refuse to let even one grain of rice in it go to waste, Tobirama would have surely dropped the box in shock at what Madara had just said.

“You— You made this? For me?”

“Of course I did,” Madara told him as if it was obvious. “I could hardly have you eat a ready meal and those ratios that are usually given out are rather… Well, they are disgusting, is what they are.”

It was of course a fair point. The standard provision packs offered to shinobi going on out-of-village assignments were despicable. Plain, flavourless mush with rice on the side that checked all the proper nutrition boxes at the expense of taste. It was honestly better to skip it and go straight into eating the Akimichi energy bars instead. They did have a bit of a weird aftertaste, but at least they didn’t make anyone actively sick to their stomach. 

Still, avoiding these didn’t exactly answer why Madara had felt the need to cook Tobirama food, never mind something that was tailored to Tobirama’s peculiar palate.

“Why?” Tobirama asked and then hurried on to add, “Not that I don’t appreciate it! Because I do! I just… I don’t understand?”

Madara snorted, clearly amused by Tobirama’s bumbling. “It’s not very complicated,” he said, the corners of his mouth lifting into a barely-there smile, “You are Hashirama’s brother and Jin-chan’s friend. It makes you a member of my pack by default.”

Tobirama’s eyes widened. “Oh. And that’s why you would—?”

“Yeah, pretty much,” Madara confirmed. He seemed awfully nonchalant about this. “It’s part of my protective instincts. Whenever I go on missions with my packmates, I make them food they like, pack the things they could potentially need, make sure they feel well… Helps me stay focused, I suppose.”

Tobirama nodded slowly. “It… makes sense,” he said after a moment. And it did, very much so. Tobirama was just shocked to realise that all of this included him as well.

“And you are alright with it?” Madara asked. “You seem a little—”

“Yes, it’s fine,” Tobirama hurried to say. No matter how surprised he was, he didn’t want Madara to feel bad about doing something so nice. It was just his own insecurity getting in the way, nothing else. “Grilled fish is my favourite, actually. So thank you.”

Madara’s smile widened at that, the expression surprisingly heartwarming. “Ah, I’m glad to hear it,” he said. “Can I ask what else you like?”

“Sure. There’s just… There’s not much?” Tobirama could feel his face warming up in embarrassment. His eating habits had been a subject of jokes in his family for far too long to make him comfortable talking about them. “I just… My cousin, Touka. She likes to say I’m a picky eater and, well, um…”

“She’s onto something?” Madara finished for him, his smile turning into a full-on grin.

Tobirama shrugged. “I don’t know. Maybe? I think I just have strong preferences. I just… I don’t see the reason to eat things I don’t enjoy, so I don’t eat them, that’s all.”

Madara hummed thoughtfully in response. “I get it. Food should be enjoyed. It’s not yet another chore to be completed, is it?” He said before adding, “But now I do need to know what you like to eat, Tobirama-san. The curiosity might just kill me otherwise.”

If Tobirama sniggered at that, it was his own business. 

Who knew Uchiha Madara actually had a sense of humour?

#mdtb #madatobi #tobimada #madara #tobirama #wip #work in progress #there was only one bed au #a/b/o au #naruto #naruto founders #lossie writes

[sometimesanalice]

💘🌈🤍

excited about these!!

Jordan, why did you do this to meeeee? These are like the hardest ones, lololol. You're a MENACE.

💘Is there any posted fic you want to rework/re-edit/re-write?

I didn't realize how long "Have Your Cake and Eat it T(w)o" would take me to write, and there's some finessing that I wish I had had time to do to it, but I was literally stayed up until 3am to get it done and then was still editing it on the deadline date (aka Rooster's birthday). And also, Part 2 of "Like I Can" I would have liked for more of the banter and humor from Part 1 to have made it's way into it.

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

OOF. All of them?? There is always some portion of any given fic that I spend hours moving sentences and words around trying to get to that place where I feel it is most impactful. But one in particular I AGONIZED over was the restaurant scene in Part 3 of "Like I Can" when Bradley shows up, over the series there had been so much build up to when they decide to take a chance on each other and I wanted that moment to not let anyone down. So I spent ages on it trying to get it right. Exploring why she calls him Rooster instead of Bradley when they've known each other for years, and why that moment was THE moment for them and how it couldn't have been earlier. I didn't want it to be unsatisfying to the reader, like "I read this series for what?". So I felt a lot of pressure, but I love how it turned out!

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

I have had such lovely response to most of the things I have posted and I am so grateful to everyone who takes the time to read them! But I think Part 1 of "Give Me Your Hand {Here is My Heart}" and "Days Like This" are two that come to mind. I think they are my two most human stories (if that makes sense?). I am so proud of them, but there are a lot of Big Feelings™️ I explore in them, and maybe that's why they don't have the same kind of draw as the fluffy smutty things do? But I write the things that speak to me, and am always thrilled when people connect to them, I like to think that they find the people who need them when they need them.

✨FanFic Writer Ask Game✨

#oof you got me good with this one! #fic ask game #ask game #inbox💌

[dulcans-actual-wife]

(HUGE SPOILER WARNING as I reference practically everything in the comic at some point in the analyses. I check for updates every 2-3 days so you can assume an update here on the same day as the latest update. And that's on hyperfixations babeeyyyyy 🫠🩷

Please PLease PLEASE contribute your thoughts!! i'd love to hear what you think ^w^)

I will update it as I work on classpecting them and finding speculative crumbs of information and then sorting them into the objective vs. subjective boxes.

EGOIZE KARIAS - PRINCE OF MIND (possible PRINCE OF HOPE) (EGO-IZE. Ego as in he's got a big one. He acts like he's the shit but he's really just a formerly rich manchild that acts on impulse. He retains some traits of the Mind aspect but for the most part destroys it (He left Tahoma with no choice but to lure him in because he refused to listen to her, for example. Same with Meeraz, he said she was talking bullshit). He is a very emotional man, (reminiscent of today's "sassy man apocalypse", but that's just my opinion as a reader) and lashes out like a kid would. Tahoma probably has to have served as his handler at one point.) (fun fact i ship my trollsona w/ him in <3<)

DULCAN THANAS - PAGE OF BLOOD (He is Responsible for Providing MEAT (flesh could be seen as a symbol of Blood). He is also responsible for Cladem's welfare and is very, very poor at it, having dismissed her at multiple points (up until the Cow Massacre, he wasn't receptive to her visions.) But once it happens, he becomes remorseful and apologizes, showing maturity and progress to his character. He DOES have a sense of Responsibility. Unfortunately, he believed her all too late and Cladem has to pay the price, not just his whole herd of cattle and a bunch of chickens minus one. He was mentioned as being "abysmal at talking to people let alone convincing them" (Recruiting people for a Team and Unity are part of the Blood aspect. Dulcan is shit at it but likes to see himself as being a Responsible adult that Knows his shit when he Actually Doesn't.).)

MAYDES "SKERRT" AURATU - HEIR OF BREATH/RAGE (Breath - He shoves off his Responsibility for taking care of his lusus because he is exempt from the Vast Glub's effects. That, and he's Lost in his Own Little World. He insists on being called by a few different aliases to the point that his fake name, Skerrt, is better known than his actual name, Maydes. Again, a sign of detachment from who he is at the Heart of the Matter AKA Maydes Aurata, Heir to Primarian ||'s throne. (A/N: IMHO, he's a little irresponsible shit and overall awful like every other man in the group but that doesn't mean I hate the story or characters, I'm quite passionate about both. I'm just saying he's just poorly behaved and is a bad person which is more of my arbitrary moralizing.) Another thing of note is that he's very rage-inducing for those who don't care for his carelessness and his ancestor wrote shit the wrong way and it led to things having to be written backwards, then flipped.)

TAHBBI DAEZON - ROGUE OF SPACE

KIMAIZ YELDAN - MAID OF TIME (He was treated like a workhorse, Overloaded with DEADLINES until his Internal Clock runs rut. He requires others, namely Amenia and Tahbbi, to buy him some TIME by way of blood transfusions or begging a certain blue cowfucker to back the hoof off for five seconds. He has a cantankerous mood due to being in a constant state of pain and misery due to his AVOIDABLE SITUATION.)

AMENIA LYPTRA - WITCH OF LIFE (She has a very Cheerful Personality in the face of adversity. She keeps Live eels in tanks, presumably to power her technology.)

CLADEM NECHRE - MAGE OF DOOM (Suffers from visions of doom that nobody believes.)

MEERAZ BAYAGA - SEER OF VOID

LOKERE SARONE - KNIGHT OF LIGHT

ELGIZA ?????? - BARD OF RAGE (Her creation, the Purple Doll Girl, causes everyone else misery. Perhaps, she wanted to give the purple girl Hope by making her a body (or a bunch of them...). She was stated as a good doll-maker by Kimaiz and was used as a dubious source of Hope for his regrettable situation.)

TAHOMA FLEURZ - SYLPH OF HOPE

DEJINN SILUDE - THIEF OF HEART (He's seductive, PASSIONATE and is canonically a trendsetter on Primaris ||. The way I interpreted it was he talks in a way that gives some people (Tahbbi again) the impression he's talking in double entendres like he wants something of a dirty nature. (A/N: I initially was made very uncomfortable by him and was a little scared of him. Like, I wanted to breeze through the fucking pages that had Dejinn, he was that upsetting to me. He reminds me too much of sleazy men that manipulate and lie to get what they want. Now I like him but don't like admitting it.) Thieves, like Princes, have inflated egos. He has Devoted Fans that would LITERALLY KILL for him. Also, the way it's phrased (he doesn't have interests but rather PASSIONS, if you incorrectly label them as something else Your Days Are Numbered, his PASSIONS include but are not limited to playing the acoustic guitar, filming and video editing, Network engineering, Jewel collecting and last but not least important SLAM POETRY (Something of note is that one recurring theme in Slam Poetry is IDENTITY-based politics). Dejinn is also stated to be the proud never before seen in trolls: Charisma. He *makes* you like him and if you don't, you're dead meat. From what I could gleam, He has a huge chunk of the Primarian population wrapped around his little finger, including critics and even a few of his teammates (This is a bit of a stretch, but Dulcan starts out seemingly annoyed by Dejinn then switched scripts mid-conversation, being Positive and saying they had a deal.)

#crossmound #cladem nechre #dulcan thanas #dejinn silude #amenia lyptra #meeraz bayaga #Tahbbi Daezon #tahoma Fleurz #lokere sarone #egoize Karias #skerrt auratu #kimaiz yeldan #elgiza

[icarusignite]

Hey author, how are you? I hope your exams went well ☺️👍! I wanted to ask you who is your favorite character in House of the dragon? I can't quite decide. I love Daemon and Rhaenyra. But then there are also viserys and the sweet Luce (aka. Sweet boy) so I wanted to ask who your favorite character in House of the dragon is. What would also interest me is: if you could choose your parents in House of the dragon, who would it be? I would choose Daemon and Rhaenyra directly, I just love them, and I would have cool brothers, half brothers and half sisters....

I tried to send it to you yesterday, but I wasn't sure if it worked because the app crashed the whole time. So if you've already received this from me, I'm sorry

Heyyyy, absolutely love your asks. And you never need to apologize, love, it's all good 💙💙

My exams went lol. We don't talk about how they went, they just went 💀💀. Your exams were in May, right? Best of luck bestie, I hope they go well!!

Hmm, my fav character from House of the Dragon. I find all the characters so incredibly complex and layered that I actually love them all so much. I think my all-time favourite is definitely Rhaenyra. She is just so fascinating and she's been through so much and I just adore her with all my heart. Like I'm aware she's not perfect and that she does questionable things in both the books and show but I just love her so much lol. I support women's rights, but most of all I support women's wrongs, and Imma support ALL that woman's wrongs 🤭🤭

I also find Alicent so fascinating. Young show Alicent is so young and she goes through so so much and my heart aches for her, and even though I don't love all the choices adult Alicent makes, I can't hate her either because she is just a product of her environment and an accumulation of her tragic experiences. It makes sense for her to be the way she is and honestly, I can understand her resentment for Rhaenyra. I mean if I went through what she did, and then I see someone I grew up with get to do whatever she wants without consequences while I have to put up with my shitty 100+ yr old rotting husband while she has like 2 of the hottest dudes in the kingdom, I'd be pretty jealous and resentful too. So yea I just find her so fascinating and I love doing like character analyses on her.

Honourable mentions go to Harwin, we love a king who supports his princess without wanting anything for it. The parallels he draws with Ser Criston Cole (I rlly hate him lol) are so immaculate. Crispy Cole has a huge hissy fit when Rhaenyra doesn't drop the crown and goes to sell oranges with him or something, while Harwin is perfectly content being her side piece. But like on a serious note, his love for Rhaenyra is enough for him and he doesn't need to be formally acknowledged as his boys' father or Rhaenyra's baby daddy. He is just content with the little pieces of her that he gets to have and I think its so tragically beautiful. Also Daemon, my fav war criminal 🫶 I know he's done atrocious things, and he will continue to do so and I will not defend him saying that he didn't do anything wrong lol. I just vibe with him cuz he's incredibly loyal to his family and we love a family man devoted to his wife (I pretend the choking scene did not happen, I'm delulu like that 🤡). Also love Rhaenyra's kiddos. They're so wholesome and sweet. Sweet sweet Luke and responsible Jace. I have so much to say about them oh gosh I've rambled here enough, you asked me my fav character and I went on like 3 different tangents on all my fav characters. But yea, every single one of these characters have such a special place in my heart, i love them all for various reasons, tea black and green both (I fkn hate Otto and Crisoy Cole tho).

Also omg parents, I want Daemon and Rhaenyra tooo for sure. First of all so I can have Jace, Luke, and Joffrey as my brothers cuz that would be soo nice but also can you imagine having Daemon targaryen as your fkn dad. Gosh the power you would hold. I wanna be Daemon and Rhaenyra's babygirl 😭😭 And that entire family unit is so cool, all their kids/half-kids/step-kids are so cool and it would be amazing to be part of that family. Also i think they're a relatively happy family (until the war lol). Like I def wouldn't wanna be Alicent+Viserys's kid lol. Not because I have anything against them (I have issues with Vizzy T but thats a matter for another time), but they're just so dysfunctional lol. That's mommy issues + daddy issues + all sorts of issues waiting to happen lmfao.

Anyways thank you so much for your ask, feel free to send in more, I love rambling about my fav characters and I'd love to hear more from you too. Why do you like your favourite characters? Also I am currently working on your Daeron request so expect that to be out sometime in the next 2 weeks. I started a new job so it got kinda busy rip.

Cheers love 🫶

#house of the dragon #aemond targaryen #alicent hightower #jacaerys velaryon #rhaenyra targaryen #daemon targaryen #game of thrones #hotd #viserys targaryen #helaena targaryen #baela targaryen #rhaena targaryen #otto hightower #criston cole #harwin strong #hotd meta #lucerys velaryon #icarus ignite asks #icarus ignite rambles

[multiplicity-positivity]

OK OK, I have a question but it's kind of complicated and I totally understand if you can't answer it because I think you really need a singlets perspective too, but I'll leave it here anyway!

So, sometimes I have some "thoughts", which can come in the form of sentences or other things, which are totally random and meaningless. I thought this was normal (aka common) and called it "intrusive thoughts" because technically it wasn't coming from me.

But, I've been seeing in the last few days some people explaining that intrusive thoughts are actually thoughts that don't agree with your moral values but still appear out of nowhere, which usually causes some level of discomfort. I realized that my ""intrusive thoughts"" didn't fit into this, because I didn't feel uncomfortable and it wasn't anything that contradicted any moral values of mine.

Then I saw some people explaining that what most call "intrusive thoughts" are actually impulsive thoughts, which are basically thoughts that make you want to do something. Again, it doesn't fit my experience because these thoughts are never driving me to do something, it's more like "what is this [specific media I like]?" appearing out of nowhere while I'm thinking and I'm almost immediately starting to explain to an imaginary listener about this media.

I was questioning myself being a system before, and this has made me more prone to questioning, but I wonder if it's something with ADHD hyperactivity or just a common thing, as it doesn't happen to me very often (or at least I don't repair) and I don't remember hearing a response that came from the same place these thoughts come from, so I don't know if it could actually mean I'm plural or it's just... Some quirk.

Well, my question is basically this: Is this a common experience, are there other more plausible explanations, or is it really an important sign that I can be plural and I shouldn't ignore it?

— Angelly

Hiya, Angelly! So having random, unhinged, or unexpected thoughts that seemingly come out of nowhere isn’t actually a sign of plurality in and of itself. I think it’s a common experience for people to be confronted with a thought they weren’t expecting! :3

Have you ever conjured an image in your mind that’s seemingly random? Like a chicken juggling oranges, or a line of tap dancing frogs, or a sentient, pie-throwing, microwave robot (okay that last one is an Adventure Time reference hehe)? Having unexplained, random thoughts is actually completely normal, and is something that even individual alters within our system experience occasionally!

Especially if you have ADHD or are prone to losing focus, it makes sense for you to experience random thoughts fairly regularly. Even in neurotypical singlets, the mind can wander, and thoughts can pop up spontaneously!!

I’m including a link to an article from Cognition Today about random thoughts, daydreams, and how they occur:

Does this sound more like something you’re going through?

We’d say that only you can ultimately determine whether or not you’re plural, or whether having random thoughts makes you plural. But we will say that having random thoughts that aren’t necessarily intrusive, just unexpected, is totally normal for singlets and individual alters alike!! If it is a quirk, it’s a quirk that comes from being human, or at least a sentient, thinking being!!>w<

💚 Ralsei and 🐢 Kip

#random thoughts #spontaneous thoughts #long post

[wooahaes]

.... ok, layton anon here again (I might just use that as a tag if that's okay? 👉🏻👈🏻)

I literally just typed out a long ass reply and then tumblr decided to crash - but maybe it's a sign to try and keep it shorter (update: i failed)

for the maze runner thing, it was honestly just about the "people appearing one after another without memories" I think aside from that it's very different, especially in terms of general atmosphere. I've read Day 1 too now btw and I loved it sm! I'm really intrigued to see how it continues<3

I hope your meds are safe for you to take and that they help quickly!!

yess him being like shigure would work really well (i also love shigure sm as a unit but that's a different story)

Also imma be honest as well - i'm the same. Birthright is the only one I finished and other than that I'm like almost through with awakening, halfway with echoes and revelations and idek how far with three houses. I think I get too much into strategizing and spend too much time planning out the classes and skills instead of just playing and then I tend to abandon the games for a while...

So since I'm not super deep into the story myself my 3h au isn't that deep. Y/n would take Byleths place, simply because it makes a lot of sense. And then I sorta assigned the units to the houses based on Vibes TM aka Blue Lions - HHU, Black Eagles - Vocal, Golden Deer Tiger - Performance.

I also felt that some characters shared traits or reminded me of members (Linhardt - Han, Ferdinand - Seungkwan, Sylvain - Mingyu, Claude - Hoshi, Ignatz - Hao). But they'd mostly be themselves and not take over the exact role of anyone. I've also have thoughts on classes for some but not for all. I think Woozi would be something along the lines of a General, Han would be a Dark Mage, Hoshi a Hero, Scoups a Swordmaster or Cavalier (or anything else just give the man a sword) and- yeah I think I'll end it here

thanks for letting me share my fire emblem brain rot!! have a good day/night/evening!<3

omg hiii thats absolutely fine!! i didnt want to just assign it to u but thats 100% fine w me!!

its ok i also fail at writing short responses 90% of the time dskfhdsf tumblr crashing during those is awful tho

ooo yeah fair :0 i can def see it!! ive learned a lot abt tmr through posting this fic lmao but im glad you liked day 1!! the fics gonna honestly slow down for a bit purely bc the next 13 parts are each individual members parts and those are honestly just gonna take a hot sec for me to like... be happy w all of them :(

aaa i still havent taken them just bc. anxiety bad! they shouldnt have any bad interactions since they're not a sulfa drug, but anxiety louder, y'know? im waiting until i know family is awake (yes ik its 4 pm shh) in case i need shit

i also love shigure but thats at least slightly bc of my love for m*tt m*rcer as a voice actor sdfhsdkjfh i adore him tho!! thats my beloved!!

i get DEEP in trying to figure out my units tbh i usually end up drafting out my pairings when i play. if awakening + conquest both had the ability to scout out things as easily as u can in birthright + revelations, i would have def beat them by now tbh.

but also i tend to abandon games after a while by accident sdkfhsdfh

i know little abt 3h but i am nodding along and golden tiger makes me happy. its what my man deserves <3

me lookin up these characters and sees ferdinand is confident and hates losing like YEP thats kwannie. i can see a lot of the comparisons u drew!! :0

i can def see general woozi + hero hoshi + swordsmaster cheol + dark mage han!! cheol is getting a sword and thats all i care about actually /j (nah but if i could give him some sort of rally skill, i think he + woozi + hosh would all have one in some shape!! and most likely seok too since booseoksoon leader ykno)

i honestly feel like shua would potentially be a war cleric. can heal you, but can also can Kill.

alternatively for hannie tho he could be thief -> trickster imo?

i honestly feel like vernon miiight either be a cavalier or an archer. its a gut thing tbh i cannot explain otherwise.

u are always welcome to share ur fe brainrot sdkfhsdf this blog is where i share my svt + trsr (+ skz tbh) brainrot now lmao y'all can Always share stuff ur interested in w me!! i hope u also have a good day/night/evening! <3

#wooahaes.ask #layton anon

[streetlights-was-taken]

💭: themes roadmap

I keep forgetting why I set the max chapters for long live the long life, and it tends to increase as I write more (from three chapters it went to I think 9 > 12 > and now 14). so I'm writing a short themes roadmap of the fic with notes on each chapter and story arcs I plan to include. I was also editing the existing chapters to make the story organization clearer, so I might as well document these notes here.

(at the time of writing, I've posted 4 chapters of 14. these notes probably don't make much sense to an outside reader though, since I wrote these mainly as reminders to myself rather than as explantions to the reader.)

themes roadmap:

✔️ Prologue (Chapter 1): venlumi introduction, centered on the theme of hope through venti's pov. sets up the events for act I and epilogue. needs to start with a fairy tale feeling to set up the epilogue later.

✔️ Act I (Chapters 2-4): inazuma rewrite arc centered on the theme of duty through lumine's pov. duty as contrast to hope, and duty through the lens of kokomi and ei being narrative foils to lumine (where kokomi is human but with greater command of bearing responsibility than lumine; and where ei is a god with the same worldview as lumine but lumine is able to surpass her eventually). story needs to set up the following for later chapters: scarabedo meeting, concept of puppets and little palaces, hints about memories, delusions as powers of remnants of old gods, and the twins' history.

📝 Interlude (Chapter 5): centered on the theme of guidance through the different perspectives of "regular people" (mona, xingqiu, and heru). guidance as dictated by fate (mona), as advised by fiction (xingqiu), as condoned by truth (heru). story arc needs to set up all the relevant characters needed for the investigation arc in act II (act I mondstadt characters + scaramouche, cyno, lisa, xingqiu, mona, subject two aka dorian, heru, signora, enjou) and hint at the events leading up to the murder (war in snezhnaya, fire in sumeru, heru's book, the meteors, etc.).

💭 Act II (Chapters 6-8): scarabedo investigation arc centered on the theme of truth through the perspective of albedo (and optionally, most likely, dorian). truth as a conduit or condemnation for meaning and guidance. two investigation lines to show in parallel: the investigation of heru's murder and the missing library book (led by albedo and lisa in the real world), and the investigation of the meteorites and heru's ghost (led by mona and dorian in the dream world). establish scaramouche's ability to enter and exit dreams. both investigations will converge with dorian revealing how everything is related, while albedo goes to the cecilia domain to recreate aether's notes left in heru's book. he should be partially successful before lumine stops him (note: reference the directive set by scaramouche in act I). then the world sleeps and lumine is taken up to celestia. note to self: do NOT make the cyno reveal yet. also, maybe do a double update so the investigation chapters are released simultaneously.

💭 Interlude (Chapter 9): centered on the theme of the past through the perspective of aether. this is just to set up his motivations and presence for the next chapters. to write: his stay in sumeru, meeting the aranara, meeting alice, etc. note to self: figure out what to do with dainsleif...

💭 Act III (Chapters 10-12): scaraventher celestia arc centered on the theme of the future. starts with venti in the dream world (different dream world from act II) before he is pulled out of it by scaramouche. xingqiu and klee are the only two people who don't need to be woken up because they possess aether's items (unknowingly), so they tag along with scaraven to celestia (how do they get there?). final reveal of all the secrets: what celestia in this fic is, who gets to control it, etc. of course, only one person can control the dream, and there's only one character who ever wanted to be a god. note to self: need to work on SO much world building in the fic for this to work. extra note: consider paimon's seelie court and what to do with dain...

💭 Interlude (Chapter 13): optional interlude centered on the theme of meaning through the perspective of scaramouche. maybe some cyno and alice backstory too. meaning bestowed by your creator vs meaning you create for yourself.

💭 Epilogue (Chapter 14): :D you already know where this is going. this is your favorite chapter so you don't need notes for this. just have fun and make the epilogue really long. note to self: remember to write the artifacts!

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story arc themes (guide):

I created this guide back in 2021. some nuances have changed since then, but it still fits as an overarching guide of how I want the story to progress thematically and which characters I want to compare and contrast with each other.

#fic: long live the long life #appendix

[boobchuy]

where are the anne is a dumbass and sasharcy are moronsexuals believers i have an agenda to spread

#amphibia #sashannarcy #anne boonchuy #sasha waybright #marcy wu #polly plantar #sprig plantar #arting #anne is fun to play around w regarding dynamics bc #shes the 'straight man' in most fanon skits #aka responsible and the one w the most sense #but shes also canonically the dumbest and i just think #that thats beautiful of her

[sheepwasfound]

dnf moments caught from within the chaos (every single one)

 march 10th george alt stream

 ***

first video:

00:11:40-00:12:30 "is that george from dreamhunt?"

00:20:37-00:21:10 g:"me and dream argue about the stupidest things"

(many good sap/gogy sibling moments! and then...)

00:26:49 dream joins in secret and george tries to figure it out

00:27:26 dream gives himself away with a chuckle

00:27:55-00:29:00 "i was watching George's stream, i didn't even know you were streaming"

00:34:08-00:34:45 lil uk travel ban talk

00:36:46 g:"'late nights in the middle of june' this is true x2"

00:37:52-00:38:10 1.5 inches elephant still on george's desk

00:40:56-00:41:12 dream chuckling going "george is so salty"

00:49:04 dream hasn't paid george the $1,000 from geoguessr

00:49:50 dream tries to get george to play geoguessr

00:50:18-00:50:45 george tells dream about dreamhunt guy

00:53:37 d:"im on literally negative sleep"

00:55:57 g:"'tell dream you love him' no."

00:56:27-00:57:00 g:"'george you're the hottest piece of ass in dreamhunt' is that true dream?", d:"maybe it is" + "you're such an idiot"

00:57:14-00:57:54 dream tries to think of who in one direction each one of them are, can't choose for george

00:59:12 d:"he's like the most annoying person on the planet" (prob cus he can't focus on chess cus of gogy)

01:17:36 sapnap doesn't reply to george, dream replies immediately

01:19:26-01:19:40 + 01:21:56-01:22:50 talking about george exposing dream for the s*x tiktok

01:24:13 g:"ok i'm gonna go get water. dream, entertain my stream."

01:29:55-01:32:00 george and sapnap argue over servers, simp dream settles it w/ a "coin flip" (rigged)

01:33:40-01:34:50 sapnap waited for dream to wake up for burger day, s:"george wishes he coulda been a part of that"

01:36:12 d:"i was actually writing lyrics this morning"

01:40:37-01:42:12 stonks talk g:"what do i invest in?" d:"me"

(dreamnap moments interval here...)

01:50:14 s:"should i tweet out a picture of your girlfriend george?", d:"it's gonna be like a picture of my yt icon"

01:52:11-01:52:43 d:"'dnf arc'? yeah maybe", g:"is it a joke to you?"

01:52:57-01:53:11 sapnap and dream don't send george good morning texts & it upsets him

01:53:13-01:53:45 george didn't laugh at dream's joke, so dream calls him out for not paying attention

01:53:51 g:"'pretty privilege is real and you have it!' is this true dream?" d:"yeah. yeah"

01:54:13-01:54:55 sapnap accusing george of having a girlfriend, g:“dream, should we just tell them?”

01:59:30-01:59:50 g:“’can you say bleepbleep dream?’ no i can’t say that”, d:”just say it. george.”

02:02:00 g:“’is it true quackity and dream constantly fight for your love?’ it’s true”

02:02:10-02:03:00 d:”we were in our, like, linked arc. except for opposites …attract”

02:03:30 dream starts going through his texts with george

02:04:30 d:”my favorite number is…one second, i’m pulling up my george contact”

02:05:35-02:06:20 dream reads out their texts about waking up at the same time & having s*x

02:06:33-02:08:00 george’s “ayo muffin man” text to dream where he asked if he could make a joke about dream’s cheating drama, d:”you were being a good friend”

02:07:02 g:”we don’t text that much” d:”we text, like, everyday, but…”

02:08:36 first video ends

***

second video:

00:10:35 george shoots dnf on a wall, d:”you’re so dumb”, s:”what?”, d:”george”

00:14:30 g:”dream come baaaaackk”

00:16:22 dream in the bg laughing alone “this text is so funny! this text is amazing” (note: he started going through their texts, like, 20 mins ago)

00:17:25-00:17:58 george’s first text to dream: “hi loser”, sapnap asking about his first text, d:”that’s different”

00:20:38-00:21:00 s:”maybe if you were watching my stream instead of watching george’s all the time” + s:“maybe if you weren’t in your, like, dnf arc all the time”

00:22:40-00:23:15 g:“’george and dream’s brotherly relationship is so iconic’ brotherly?”, d:”someone in chat said ‘the alabama arc’”

00:26:05-00:26:30 pickle dick g:”dick-…dip his hands in the pickle jar”

00:27:05 d:”you’re an idiot george, you’re such a, you’re such a dick”

00:30:29-00:41:45 discussion about covid travel rules and george going to florida, george heatedly going through every possible trick to get there but dream being responsible about it

00:34:00 g:”dream, get me a private jet”

00:34:56 g:”i’ll just stay”, d:”for how long?”, g:”forever.”

00:36:13 gnf charity for private jet and then george will grapple down from a helicopter, d:”you’re such an idiot x2”

00:36:51 g:”i’m not actually joking” + g:”no it’s not impossible!” *checks cost of a private jet*

00:38:20 d:”you need to double it cus you have to go back” g:”i’m not going back. i’m not going back”

00:38:38 about deportation g:”dream, you can just protect me dream, just don’t let them take me away”

00:39:29 about deportation g:”then what if i never go back, what if i just never go back?”

00:40:01 g:”wait i have an idea dream. what if you just married me?” s:”you’re not allowed to marry someone to get them in the country”, g:”well that’s not the only reason”

00:41:13 g:”’sounds like dream doesn’t wanna meet you’ yeah he doesn’t”

00:43:43 g:”to be fair you are in your silly goose arc”, d:”i’m not in any goose arc” *mutual giggling*

00:44:45-00:45:25 discussion about obama escorting george on his private jet

00:47:38 dono:“you visiting dream is not a no, it’s a not yet”

00:50:21 g:”’just admit it, you’re madly in love with dream and you’re using this as an excuse to marry him’ no. this is false”, g:”i’m in my hating dream arc right now” d:”well, i mean … it’s about to be in a different arc though”

00:50:40 finishing each other’s sentences

00:50:50 s:”i wish karl was here.”, s:”at least i would have someone to be like, in love with, jesus”

00:51:29 d:”sapnap third wheel arc” s:”you guys may flirt and stuff, but me and you have physical s*x” d:”oh my goddd, what the hell?! that’s too far!”

00:54:43 sapnap teasing george about being able to cuddle dream, g:”i don’t care, i don’t care”

00:56:27 george teasing sapnap about having a gf again, s:”you have a dream”

00:56:43 g:”should i play geoguessr?” d:”oh, yes!”

00:57:07 d:”i’m exhausted and i’m laying in bed” (but he’s still staying)

(00:58:30 geoguessr starts, they’re tired and argue a lot)

01:00:48 arguing about colors g:”well you’re wrong” d:”maybe- actually maybe i think that’s- actually you’re right”

01:03:27 george was going to do geoguessr with wilbur today, but is too tired now

01:07:55 d:”if you had asked, i would’ve told you” g:”i didn’t wanna ask, i did it myself” *sassy*

01:13:55 george missed dream’s joke and he called him out for it again

01:17:00 g:”i’m not buying a maid dress” d:*silence*

01:20:10 g:“’dream we need your support to get george in a maid dress’ what do you think dream?”, d:*silence*

01:21:53 g:”you know what dream? i trust you”, d:”no, don’t trust me!”

01:22:50 dono:”when you asked dream if you should wear a maid dress, the silence was so loud” d:*silence*

01:23:23 after george makes a dumb voice d:”why are you reading like that?”, d:”i’m about to leave” (spoiler: he doesn’t leave, just stops looking for 30 secs)

01:24:10 g:”what do you mean you’re not even looking?”, g:”why, do you hate me?”, d:”you were being in your annoying arc”

01:34:28 dono:”do you have a song that makes you think of dream?”, d:”probably heat waves”, + george saying he doesn’t think of dream when listening to songs and dream not buying it

01:36:40 dream replying for him that george’s most listened to travis scott song is goosebumps (aka “their song”)

01:39:50 george confirms goosebumps is his most listened to travis scott song

01:42:26 d:”this is the last game im playing with you”, d:”cus i don’t wanna play with you anymore” (spoiler: it’s not the last one)

01:45:52 g:”alright one more”, d:”no i said i’d-…ok fine whatever one more” (spoiler: it’s not just one more)

01:48:46 dream mishears that george is gonna kiss him

01:54:24 g:”alright here’s the last game guys”, d:”you keep saying that, you keep…leading me on”

01:57:02 d:”that was the last one”, g:”no we said we were ending on a win” (no they didn’t) g:”you can’t leeeeeave, you can’t leave! it’s not allowed”

01:58:17 dono:”what is a place you’ve always wanted to go?”, g:”idk”, d:”america”

01:59:27 g:”i just, i was like…aaaaaghhhhlldududu you know?”, d:”yeah, i do know”

02:05:00 d:”alright, i’m gonna head out”, g:”wait, wait just wait”, g:”why are you in your like salty era?”, d:”why are you in your clingy era?”, d:”i think it would make sense if i left when i want to”, g:”alright, well, leave then, see what happens, you’re gonna regret it, that’s all i know”

02:05:30 dream leaves the call but then immediately starts watching george’s stream until he ends (who’s the one in their clingy era?)

02:06:10 george talks about going to bed (dream’s already in bed so they’re synced once again) 

#dreamnotfound #dnf #there are so many amazing moments i saw no one talk about on here pls watch them #yeah i rewatched the whole thing... #now its my bedtime... #btw dream kept staying on call cus he wanted to go to sleep at the same time as george dont talk to me #sheepy #recap #gogy alt #sheepy recap #gogy alt 10.3

[feline-miraculous]

Kwami Swap AU: Fox!Marinette

I’ve been daydreaming a lot since I joined the ML fandom (read: fell obsessively in love with a kids’ cartoon show.) Andddd I may or may not spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about these characters and what makes them them, but the pOINT IS, one day I got thinking about Marinette and the Fox Miraculous. 

Because have we ever seen her use it? Yes. 

Remember Kwamibuster? AKA that time where Marinette effortlessly used the Fox Miraculous to create a multi-layered illusion with four different moving parts (Ladybug, Marinette, the akuma and the Miraculous Ladybug cure.) And she kept up this illusion for at least a minute while Chat Noir and Mme Mendeleiev talked, and she didn’t falter or lose concentration once. 

Firstly... girl, wow. And secondly - that right there is all the proof we ever needed that Marinette makes an epic Mistress of Illusion. Like. This was her first time using the Fox Miraculous, and she pulled off THAT?!! Can we just say, wow. 

But it kind of makes sense, doesn’t it? Because if you consider the qualities that a Fox Miraculous holder would need to be:

creative (in order to summon convincing and realistic illusions)

able to stay focused under pressure (to keep up these illusions mid-fight)

good at multitasking (to stay in control of the illusions and still be aware of her situation)

attention to detail (illusions need to be realistic down to the smallest detail otherwise they won't be convincing)

brave (it takes a lot of courage to change reality and sway the entire course of a battle)

responsible (illusion can be an incredibly dangerous power if misused)

smart (illusion masters must be clever enough to actually come up with their illusions, as well as how to use them to win the fight)

honest (at the end of the day, the illusion master has to restore reality to exactly the way it was without making any selfish changes)

Now let's consider how many of these qualities Marinette has. Creative - we know Marinette is exceptionally creative, right? Her designing and complex plans as Ladybug more than proves that. Able to stay focused under pressure - hell yeah. Once she becomes more confident in her superheroine abilities, there's very little that can distract Ladybug from her mission, right? I'm calling on Kwamibuster as another example of when Marinette was able to keep her concentration going despite being under a lot of stress.

Good at multitasking - same example! Marinette was able to keep tabs on multiple versions of herself as Multimouse without any problems. Almost her whole life, actually, is a great example of multitasking, what with being Ladybug, a designer and class rep. Attention to detail - again, Marinette is a seamstress and a designer. She knows all about how important the little stitches are to sew a complete, functional whole.

Brave and responsible - Ladybug has proved this time and time again, and actually, Marinette has, too, when she stands up to Chloé and becomes class rep. Smart - again, Ladybug's plans are perfect proof of this. (Hi again, Kwamibuster!) It's also canon that Marinette gets good marks, and, you know. Jagged Stone, Gabriel Agreste and Audrey Bourgeois recognised her as exceptional.

Honest - lastly, we know that Marinette canonically hates liars/lying. Yes, she'll do it if it's really necessary (like to protect her identity) but she'll always advocate for the truth if she can. She's more than capable of being deceptive and cunning if she has to (K w a m i b u s t e r !) but she does always restore the truth.

What all of this proves to me is that Marinette would have been an excellent Fox Miraculous holder. Of course she's an incredible Ladybug, but Fox!Marinette? That could've been insane, too.

The idea stuck in my brain, and, well, it just wouldn't leave. So I thought - if Marinette wasn't Ladybug, who would be? Since Ladybug canonically gives the Fox Miraculous to her best, most trusted friend... and since Marinette is the one with the Fox Miraculous here... that leaves the logical conclusion to be Alya for Ladybug!

That choice makes a whole lot of sense, too, and I'll probably do another post about why. But for now: this is my reasoning for why Marinette would make a brilliant Fox Miraculous holder!

And anyway yeah this idea absolutely! won't! leave! my! head! So now I’m making fanart for Fox!Marinette 🦊 Check out the concept sketch here!

I'm completely in love with the idea of Fox!Marinette now, ngl. Also, the Marinette & Trixx dynamic is one that can definitely be interesting to explore, right? Well, I'm definitely going to be back with more for this kwami swap, because honestly, I'm hooked!

#miraculous ladybug #kwami swap #marinette dupain-cheng #trixx #fox!marinette #fox miraculous #rena rouge #volpina #foxglove #ladybug alya au #mine #this au idea has taken over my life now please help #but also #i adore it 😍

[funkymbtifiction]

How do you feel about your tritype being 629? Is "Stockholm Syndrome" a bit too much for a nickname? How do you "find yourself" after relating w people so much all the time?

I'm sorry if this comes off as intrusive or rude, I'm just curious. You do a great job on here, thank you so much for your work

Hah. The rude nickname fits, because 269s are too nice for their own good, and wind up tolerating people who aren't worth their time much longer than any other type. We'd be the kind inclined to try and see the good in our "captors" which explains a LOT about the fictional characters I'm drawn to and how I want to understand even the villains and get annoyed if they are two-dimensional.

I don't really lose myself in other people, being a 6 first. It's more that I feel a constant pressure from my ego types (mostly 2) to do nice things for other people that I don't always want to do. Like, this person doesn't interest me much, but they are eager to talk, and going through a hard time, and it makes me feel guilty not to answer them immediately. That sort of thing. I just automatically think about what other people might need or want and include it as a legitimate part of my decision process. But whenever I do this halfheartedly, it's quite obvious that I'm just doing it out of duty.

Like yesterday, I had a chat with my dad in which he said I wind up doing things out of duty a lot, and when it's optional, it's not always required, that sometimes I should just let go of it. I'm not the caretaker of the world, I'm not here to provide unpaid counseling to all my friends, I don't need to be a workaholic all the time, and I shouldn't feel guilt for doing otherwise. But I can't just shut it off, because those things are hard-wired into me. They're an automatic response. You help whether or not you want to. You keep the peace and be polite and considerate of other people's stupidity. And you rationalize away the reasons to rebel as selfishness.

I also struggle a lot with not always knowing what I want -- or maybe I do, but it's just hidden under a 6 core layer of self-doubt and 9 fixed confusion, like instead of feeling my feelings, I think about my feelings and come up with rational explanations for my feelings. I try to "figure them out" rather than just going inward to sit with them. I look for some sort of explanation for them, when they make no sense to me. AKA, I parted amicably from this person a year ago and now I'm feeling lonely and wondering if I made the right choice, but this can't be just missing them, it's taken too long, is this my 7 wing missing the FUN we had instead of THEM as a person?? That sets off a spiral of THOUGHTS that slips me out of my emotions. I constantly distance myself from emotions to choose to do the rational thing, or the mature thing, or the responsible thing, or the right thing, and they become my focus more than "what I want/what I feel." It probably comes from the double 1 wings, but I'm one of the most dutiful people you will ever meet, and I feel somewhat resentful of the fact that I can't ever slip out of it and just be irresponsible, just abandon things when I lose interest in them, just be selfish without feeling guilt, just make mistakes without berating myself for them, just assume someone else is the problem when things go wrong instead of blaming myself first, etc.

That's where the nickname comes in, because instead of writing ex's off as assholes, 269s continue agonizing for months over "what I did wrong." They are looking for explanations for others' behaviors, they are trying to think the best of them, they are angry about the times their 9 said nothing instead of making a scene or being directly confrontational, they are thinking about the mistakes they made and beating themselves up about it, and they are endlessly cycling through this like a loop that won't shut off, because 6 and 9 play off each other to create a haze of doubting whatever conclusions 6 just came up with, but 6 needs to understand EVERYTHING intellectually, rather than just having a feeling. Feelings you can't trust. Feelings lead you astray. You have to be smart. Logical. Rational. Look for reasons. Explanations. It's exhausting being me.

Me being a 692 is probably the most over-thinking combination of this type, a 269 would be less amenable and a 962 wouldn't over-think to this extent. But your tritype is a public broadcast of everything that's messy and annoying about yourself. Once you really understand what it's doing to you on a daily basis, and how it's controlling you through your automatic reactions, it's less fun to put it on your profile, because just looking at it makes you cringe. "Stockholm Syndrome" is very apt, because it really slaps you across the face with what you're doing that isn't good for you, as reminder to be less passively accepting.

You can't trust an over-positive description of the tritype, because Enneagram doesn't exist to flatter your ego and make you brag about being X, it exists to tear it apart and force you to face yourself. Only when you feel the "deep cringe" can you start working on it.

#question #enneagram #269 #tritype

[beomglocks]

in the middle ; c.yj

summary : it wasn’t supposed to go this far right?

pairing : yeonjun x reader x beomgyu (?)

warnings & other : cheating, angst (?), requested, slightly suggestive???

w/c : 1.4K

to be fair, you didn't know it would go this far.

was it your fault that choi beomgyu was the kindest most charismatic person alive? no. was it your fault you warned him that you were already dating the most possessive and jealous person in the world aka choi yeonjun and he had responded with: "well it's not like we're doing anything."? absolutely not.

what is your fault is the fact that you still went along with it. when beomgyu told you that you both wouldn't be doing anything you knew that was bullshit. he's handsome as fuck and you're slightly attracted to him. hell yeah, something's definitely happening.

you were asleep on beomgyu's bed when you heard it. it seemed to be right next door which is why it shook you from your sleep.

it sounded like a thump, more like something backing up into the wall nearest to your head.

you roll over to inform beomgyu that something or someone was on the other side of the wall disturbing your sleep. whenever you felt even the slightest bit disturbed you knew beomgyu would not hesitate to come to your rescue.

however, when you stretched and rolled over expecting to see the boy who you thought would also be occupying the bed with you, he was nowhere to be found. you frowned immediately. beomgyu was clingy, even in his sleep he would be latching onto you so tight that it was sometimes hard for you to wake up if you needed to use the bathroom.

you don't know if he had even fallen asleep after you since you were so tired from work. it was late and he was already perched up on his bed when you arrived. he had greeted you sweetly and offered for you to take a nap on his bed.

you agreed since none of the other boys seemed to be at the dorm at the time. this was the perfect time to be close to beomgyu without yeonjun questioning it.

how you both managed to get away with it for this long was baffling, not just to you but to beomgyu. he was the one who was mostly around your boyfriend and yet he still composed himself when all three of you were in the same room.

you loved yeonjun, you love him so much it hurts but beomgyu was right there and you'd be damned if you let that go.

the thumping happened again but a bit harsher. you couldn't possibly be expected to sleep at this rate.

you got up from the bed, dragging your feet over to the room which happened to be yeonjun's room. you knocked on the door lightly hoping to get some answers but no one opened it. you heard hushed voices behind the door but that was about it.

"yeonjun? are you in there?" you heard another thump in response and then something crash. your eyes widened, now concerned you turn the door handle to see if he's ok. normally you wouldn't waltz into any of the boys rooms but hearing consistent thumping and now a crash had you concerned.

when you opened the door, what you weren't expecting to see was beomgyu on top of yeonjun on the ground with a fist to the eldest face. "what the hell are you two doing?" you run up to them and try to detach beomgyu from yeonjun. looking around, you can pretty much decipher that a fight had taken place.

yeonjun shoves beomgyu off of him and scrambles to his feet. "i saw you guys you know." he wipes his lip and nods. "you guys were in bed together i can't just let him put his hands on you like that! you're mine".

he faces beomgyu again and they're about to have at it again when you intervene once more.

"yeonjun stop," you grab his arm and make him face you. you didn't feel bad when you cheating on him but damn it why does he have to look so broken right now.

"he wasn't having his way with me or whatever, i was-," you sigh, studying his facial expression. all he does is stare at you waiting for you to continue.

"im sorry, i was cheating on you."

he steps away from you, looking between you and beomgyu in disbelief. "really?" is all he says.

you nod hesitantly, not really knowing what to say that would make the situation better. "give it up yeonjun, she didn't want you anymore that's why she came to me," beomgyu shrugs.

yeonjun clenches his fist and sends it flying towards the other boys face. beomgyu isn't fast enough to dodge it so he ends up stumbling back when he gets hit. "yeonjun what the fuck!" you grab yeonjun and pull him away and you can see the tears going down his face.

"why though..." he mumbles. he tries to go in to kiss you but you move backwards. "yeonjun look, im sorry but i just- i dont know... i guess i just wanted beomgyu too," you say without much emotion.

yeonjun lowers his head in defeat. "you wanted him? you had me though," he grits out. "well what the hell was all this then?" he motions around his room, where ironically, there are some photos of you both hung up and even some gifts you had gotten him. "huh y/n? what the fuck was all this then!?" he slides some pictures off a nearby shelf, sending them crashing onto the floor.

you step back cautiously to make sure you don't mistakenly step on the shattered glass. now there's broken glass separating you from yeonjun and it all feels a little too real to you. "yeonjun calm down!" you scold him in an attempt to get him to chill out. knowing him, it won't work though.

"calm down?" he sucks his teeth and laughs. "you want me to calm down when i gave you so much? you wasted my time!"

you flinch when he sends another picture frame to the ground along with some other miscellaneous items. you feel beomgyu snake his arm around you as some form of protection but you don't feel very protected right now.

yeonjun seems to notice this and he grows visibly angrier and more tears go streaming down his face. "get out," he says to beomgyu.

its silent for a moment as they seem to have some kind of stare off but ultimately beomgyu backs down, being over this already. "i'll be outside," he says forcibly. you watch as he narrowly avoids some glass but shoves yeonjun on the way out.

you can tell it takes everything in yeonjun not to pounce on him. when beomgyu is gone yeonjun turns back to you and sighs in frustration. "i'm so tired. i had to come home to- to this!" he pulls at his hair, unable to process what's going on.

"i said i was sorry ok? i didn't think it would be like this," you say. "what the fuck did you think it'd be like then huh? did you think you could go around being a slut with some other guy's dick up your ass without me knowing? how far did you really think you could take this?!" he starts getting angry again remembering seeing you in bed with beomgyu.

it all made sense to him now. the affectionate touches, the weird glances at practice. he should've seen it coming earlier but unfortunately, he didn't.

"i-" he cuts you off. "what? got some excuse? well, who's next y/n? who next, is it soobin? you been fucking around with soobin too??" he taunts. "yeonjun!" you step over the glass to shove his chest but he doesn't even flinch. he grabs your wrists, using whatever energy he has left to throw you on his bed.

"i hate you so much now," he says as he hovers above you. you look up at him with an apologetic gaze, deciding to stay silent in case he decides to lash out again. he suddenly chuckles, "what? do you seriously think we're gonna do something?" you look away, embarrassed that you actually had a slight anticipation that he would somehow make love to you at that moment.

he shakes his head with a bitter smile, "this isn't like the other times y/n. we usually fight then have angry sex but this isn't what's happening."

"yeonjun i really did like you," you say silently. "that's bullshit," he spits. "i can't believe anything you say and that hurts." he gets up from you, pacing around the room.

"if you really care then just leave. be with beomgyu i don't care but i don't wanna see you anymore. don't ever come around me and don't even think about interacting with me ever again," he sighs. you get up from his bed silently, hesitant about touching him or saying anything.

"bye," you mumble. "whatever," is all he says in response.

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