#alcoholic mother

[aljdkskjx]

having an alcoholic parent is like having a fucking toddler but the toddler is 55 years old calling you a cunt and telling you to kill yourself <3

#alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent #alcoholism

[thisseethingcoast]

having an alcoholic parent is like having a fucking toddler but the toddler is 60 years old and will condescend to and demean you even as they're the ones making an ass out of themselves

#alcoholic mother #alcoholism doesn't even cover most of the shit thats wrong with her #she's shallow and manipulative and emotionally immature and a complete trainwreck

[kitttykgs]

now i have to suffer for the next 2 weeks while my mother goes on an anger filled binge drinking psychotic rager 🥰 christmas will be hell like always 🥰 tears and blood will be shed 🥰🥰🥰🥰

#killme #alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent

[baneme]

I always feel like people who say  "but she's your mother..." have to experience a lifetime of abuse (from an alcoholic parent) to understand how it's like. Because she never acted like a mother, she never was one.

Today, I had the worst day since forever because of her. The police was involved and some stranger who called the police. And a small group of people that gathered to watch everything (I actually was surprised when a police officer told my mother to watch her mouth when she started calling me stuff).

And after I went back home, after the police took her, I told some people that it was the last straw and I’m cutting her out of my life completely because I just can’t do this anymore, I really can’t. But of course there was that one person who said “but she’s your mother”.

My mother? All she did was abuse me verbally and physically for 30 years of my life. All she gave me is depression, anxiety, a suicide attempt when I was a teenager and a debt. All she ever cares about is alcohol and her own well being. Nothing ever changed. It got only worse. So yeah, this person can choke on “but she’s your mother”.

sorry I had to say it somewhere because I felt like I was going crazy and I know not many people follow me here. I just had to let it out.

#alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent #alcoholism

[cat-eye-nebula]

I still have nightmares sometimes and the events in the dreams are similar to what happend in my child/teenhood with my functional alcoholic mother. It confuses me because she now is more kind to me and helpful. But back then she was manipulative when drunk, took away my things, almost broke my room door by physical force, yelling, screaming, often gone all night to get drunk with other people. When she was sober she was totally different. I hated it when she came into my room drunk and wanted me to talk about my feelings. It made me so angry inside. I never really talked about my feelings with anyone. Focusing on my hobbies and trying to process trauma somehow. I try to be kind to myself now and doing my research on these topics.

#sharing this just in case someone had similar experiences #nightmare #childhood trauma #functional alcoholism #relationships #alcoholic mother #functioning alcoholic #drug abuse #psychology #attachment trauma

[personwithouthope]

22/12/23

I wish you dead

This version of you, this version that I can't recognize, i wish dead

But you, the one who I loved, the one that I would do anything for, I wish a long and healthy life

although I think this person no longer exist

do you think in the future you will regret? will you fit in my standarts? If I'm being honest, I don't want you in life if you don't.

I wonder if when I become an adult you will change, or maybe my way of thinking will change, I just really hoped, this version of you were dead

Tell me please that in the future you will choose me over alcohol please, because I don't see any reason to live if it's not for you, but not that version of you.

#online journal #daily diary #deep thinking #deep thoughts #just a thought #life #my diary #tumblr diary #personal diary #sad but true #inner thoughts #alcoholic mother #late night thoughts

[one-abuse-survivor]

I'm sorry for telling you this but there's some things I need to get off my chest.

So, two days ago my mother died. I'm 19 and pretty much most of my life she's been a depressed alcoholic just sitting on the sofa/lying in bed (and in the process gave me depression and anxiety) which hurt my entire family. I do consider some/quiet a few of her behaviour abusive and have been in therapy.

Then on Wednesday she had to go to the hospital (which she did not even want to, but I begged her to because her physical state got even worse than usually l, which was already bad, in the two weeks prior, she never liked doctors). Later on we got a call asking my father to come personally. They told him how bad it looked (severe tissue inflammation) and a couple hours later we got another call telling us the news.

There's a lot of conflicting emotions right now. Sadness and emptiness. Regret for not being there. Guilt because maybe if I had pushed her to go the hospital earlier this could have been avoided. But also some I'm not proud of like Anger and contempt. Then there is also hope because this could be the restart me, my older brother and father need after all those years. We're already planning some renovations while also arranging the funeral. Every end is also a new beginning or something like that...

The funeral director suggested writing a letter that could be put inside the urn. It seems like a good idea because there is a lot of thing left unsaid

Hey, nonnie. It's okay—I'm glad I could offer a space for you to verbalise some of your emotions.

This sounds like an incredibly complicated and tough situation. I can't imagine what it must be like to lose an abusive parent to death at such a young age, and I think it's no wonder there are so many emotions going through you right now. Try to allow yourself to feel them all—even the ones you're not proud of. They don't define who you are, and it's okay to pause for a few seconds and allow them to just be when they appear. It's so much better than burying them, in the long run.

Writing down a letter to put inside the urn does sound like a good idea! From personal experience, I know it can be really frustrating and painful to go on with your life wishing you'd said certain things to someone who passed away, and writing a letter does sound like it could ease some of that sort of pain and frustration. If you know for a fact no one will read it, it could be a way to talk about how she made you feel with her abusive behaviours.

Best of luck with everything, nonnie. I really hope this does turn into a new beginning that changes your and your family's lives for the better.

I hope the guilt eases eventually. You couldn't have known how bad it was, and her health was her responsibility, not yours. But it's okay if it takes some time to truly believe that.

Sending a huge virtual hug and all my support your way ❤️

#Ask #Abuse #Abuse tw #Alcoholism tw #Alcohol tw #Abusive mother tw #alcoholic mother #Death tw #parent death tw #Abuser death #Grief tw

[freshdeadpoolboy]

My mom texts me when she is drunk so I call her when I'm high; traumatize your parents back.

#alcoholic mother #stoner thoughts #stoner #narcissistic mother #mother dearest

[chaozeaphoenix]

Last Year's Pride Month Compared To This Year's Pride Month!

Last year's pride month was average for me because I just recently became single and it really made me super depressed. I also had a lot going on that month too. My mum's constant drinking got out of hand to the point where she expected me to pick up her pieces; Every. Single. Day. I didn't do a damn thing right at all even. She kept complaining about me. That was 2021!

This year's Pride Month was okay. I didn't do much and I have been living on my own. It has been a real treat for me to be living on my own and I know within time I will be moving further from home within the next year and a half. Yay! My mum is still drinking, but this time I am not picking up her pieces. I am still single even. One day it will change. I know it will.

#LGBTQIA #LGBTQIA+ #Pride #Queer #Alcoholic Mother #Independent Living

[aljdkskjx]

every single fucking birthday, celebration, christmas, easter, new year. she gets so drunk that nothing about her is recognisable. she looks different. she sounds different. her words are slurred and vitriol. birthday cakes get destroyed. christmas trees are torn apart. baubles smashed. dishes smashed into shards on the ground. doors slammed. shouting. screaming. sorry for being born mother. i didn’t mean to.

#alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent #abusive mother #emotional abuse #is it even abuse? #am i just pathetic

[kierreras]

a tragedy in three acts

THE SUMMER I TURNED PRETTY s2e06 «love fest»

#tsitp spoilers #tsitp #tsitpedit #the summer i turned pretty #belly conklin #jeremiah fisher #conrad fisher #this scene was hilarious #also i though that they would ask jenny's character to buy them alcohol to acknowledge her cameo but well #that would've been so ironic cause she's basically a mother to all of them #mariestuff #queued

[rosemaryyuri]

it's so hilarious how a large chunk of the homestuck fandom actually and genuinely believes everything rose lalonde says about herself and her life. she would be so happy. You think I'm cool, calm, and put together? You think I'm a reliable therapist for my friends? Tell me more.

#it's so funny. they fall for her front and whatever she says about her mother postretcon #(yes mom lalonde WAS abusive and severely neglected her child emotionally and physically to the point rose could not take a genuine gesture #of gift giving as anything other than deeply ironic and spiteful and also actively snuck around the house to avoid interacting with her #mother. not to mention mom lalonde was Drunk All The Time and offered rose alcohol. but yeah sure just believe the 16 year old) #talk tag #rose #sorry i just saw such a take i needed to say something about it or i would Die

[pinkgibbon]

some rdr guys… it’s mostly javier bc he’s my random muse of the month lol

#red dead redemption #I rlly like the Sadie one! #finaly got to chapter 3 in this playthru after f^cking around in chapter 2 for like a month nd a half. so im excited to do missions w her :3 #I didn’t mean for the j&j one to be romantic but idc interpret it however you want #cuz i know everyone and their mother ships them #javier escuella #john marston #tilly jackson #sadie adler #red dead redemption 2 #red dead redemption 1 #oh my god I literally hate tagging this media #rdr #rdr1 #rdr2 #christ alive #alcohol #my art #fanart

[winepresswrath]

I will laugh so hard if it turns out that John is making a sincere effort at being a decent parent and it's such an awful outcome for Gideon that I feel like it's plausible. He's giving off such man who thinks of himself as a good guy confronted with oops baby vibes.

#like he did get babytrapped and in fact attempted baby murdered and he knows he shouldn't make it Gideon's problem so he's trying not to #but she is a walking reminder of his dead besties' murder attempt #just. the way he says no reason to be an asshole to the mother of your child #the way he's like oh no you don't have to swear loyalty to me that's an inappropriate amount of pressure to put on our relationship #very funny under the murderstances #but also these are the words of a dude who felt tremendous contempt for men who whine about child support #and yet!! he's a tremendously vindictive and self centred person. what's a guy to do #he got babytrapped and it wasn't even because they wanted him around! it's because they wanted him gone! #and his kid is the murder weapon! #how is this fair? #very fun intersection of him knowing what the correct answer most in line with his values is #with the bit where he's just wildly unqualified to do that #you've got a #sims playing alcohol abusing vengeful god in the midst of a depressive episode #taking a deep breath and attempting a child centric approach #he's not going to be good at it! #he is also not going to immediately murder her to fuck over his enemies tho so he's still winning #for now!

[frankie-catfish-morales]

Anyways, joe Jonas can go fuck himself

#a fucking liar that’s what he is #Sophie Turner #anti Joe Jonas #I’ve actually hated on Sophie a bit but this is some bs and she doesn’t deserve to be smeared as a bad mother by this alcoholic pos

[personwithouthope]

22/12/11

Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing all of this because of you, my future depends of you, I’m literaly ready to give up of my youth for you but at the same time I’m trying to run away from you.

Let’s be honest, back then I was sure that what I was doing was to run away from you and him but now, I’m not sure

Am I doing this because I want that for my future or am I just running away from you? 

I’m counting the days, how many time do I still have to stand you, how many times I have to go through the same thing over and over again?

you drink, I get mad, I have to ignore you so I don’t get more and more disgusted but ypu go after me, every time. I try to ignore you more but you get mad, yell and call me things 

I’m tired you know, mom?

maybe I am trying to run away cuz’ I cant take this anymore

Am I really ready to sacrifice my life for you? 

“it hurts doesn't it? finding out that the ones who gave you life are so fragile and mortal as all of us?”

#online diary #Diaryposting #parents #alcoholic mother #i want to scape #inner thoughts #late night thoughts #Thoughts #thinking