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Dust Volume Nine, Number 10

Older, but not a bit wiser, the Hives return

Fall comes with its smell of maple in the leaves, its intimations of mortality and, this year, its share of unsettling events—war in the middle east, AI in everything and the murder of our beloved Bandcamp by capitalist privateers. (We are not equating these things by any means.) Like always, we turn to music, the annihilating blare of metal, the agile interplay of improvisation, the well-shaped contours of pop, depending on our individual tastes. We hope you’ll find something to ease your own personal burden in all this as well. Contributors include Bryon Hayes, Bill Meyer, Andrew Forell, Tim Clarke, Jonathan Shaw, Ian Mathers, Alex Johnson, Jennifer Kelly and Ray Garraty.

Due to technical issues we're posting this in two parts, so don't miss the second one.

Ad Hoc — Corpse (Shame File Music / Albert’s Basement)

Ad Hoc was a Melbourne-based improvising unit, an experimental outfit that should have higher prominence. It only took 40-plus years, but Shame File Music and Albert’s Basement are finally spearheading a reissue initiative. Last year saw the arrival of the trio’s sole release, the hypnotic Distance cassette. It disappeared the moment it became available. Corpse documents an unconventional live performance from the group. They prepared their instruments (guitars, an EMS Synthi AKS synth and tape loops) for performance prior to the arrival of the audience and then shut off their amps. When all were seated, the trio turned on the amplifiers and unfurled an aleatoric blast of sound. The resulting music is far removed from the ambient tone clusters of Distance. The first piece shimmers in a way that calls to mind Matthew Bower’s Sunroof project, while the latter piece bathes in guitar noise so thick that it may have influenced The Dead C’s The Operation of the Sonne EP. Ad Hoc have today’s noisemakers beat: Corpse presents itself with a freshness that belies its 1980 provenance.

Bryon Hayes

Axolotl — Abrasive (Souffle Continu)

The French trio Axolotl existed for a few years in the early 1980s, and it reflects the aesthetic concerns of its time. Guitarist Marc Dufourd’s playing betrays some acquaintance with the work of Derek Bailey and Henry Kaiser, and the fibrous tones and agile exchanges between reeds players Jacques Oger and Etienne Brunet recall Evan Parker. All three double on electronics, hand percussion and utterances. These accessories, in combination with the concentration of the album’s 12 tracks, give the music a truculent attitude and just-the-facts brevity that brings to mind punk and post-punk. This may be free improvisation, but it is improvised from a point of view, and it’s that informed attitude that makes the album worth visiting nearly 40 years after its original release.

Bill Meyer

Will Butler + Sister Squares — Self-Titled (Merge)

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Will Butler joins with Sister Squares — multi-instrumentalists Jenny (Butler’s wife) and Julie Shore, Sara Dobbs and drummer/producer Miles Francis — for their debut album. Bouncy, heartland rock garlanded with that 1980s Fairlight and Linn drum sound mixes with touches of art rock as Butler emotes wholehearted. The influence of the 20 years Butler spent with Arcade Fire is inescapable, but it feels like the quintet have also been listening to Billy MacKenzie (“Long Grass”) and Russell Mael (“Arrow of Time”) as well as Springsteen, Mellencamp and company. “Hee Loop” sounds like a mash of Paul Simon and Peter Gabriel. The themes and emotions can be big in that Arcade Fire way that’s equal parts exhilarating and exhausting, but the album works best when the band dial down the melodramatic flourishes as on “Car Crash” and “The Window,” where Butler is right in your ear, tired, disillusioned, real. This is a record I wanted to like both more and less. For every heartfelt moment and interesting musical choice, there’s a cringe-inducing gestural overreach that makes you wince. A bit like his former band but with enough promise to persevere with.

Andrew Forell

Claire Deak — Sotto Voce (Lost Tribe Sound)

Melbourne-based composer Claire Deak’s last release on Lost Tribe Sound was 2020’s The Old Capital, a fantastic collaboration with Tony Dupé. In my Dusted review I said, “There’s so much wonderful stuff going on across these seven songs that it’s a delight to revisit.” As its title suggests, Deak’s solo debut, Sotto Voce, very much sits at the opposite end of the musical spectrum. This is subtle, minimal music that softly arises out of silence and speaks an elusive language. The background to the album’s creation is Deak’s exploration of the work of two women composers from the early baroque era, Francesca Caccini (1587–c.1645) and Barbara Strozzi (1619–1677). The dominant musical elements are strings, harp and voice, with other instruments coloring the edges of these understated, starkly beautiful compositions. Across the album’s 42 minutes the music feels, at times, to be battling the entropy of erasure, struggling to be heard amid the cacophony of these overstimulated times. For that reason alone, it’s necessary to invest your attention and listen closely. The experience is eerie and transportive.

Tim Clarke

Mike Donovan — Meets the Mighty Flashlight (Drag City)

On a musical Venn diagram showing the intersecting circles of garage rock, lo-fi, and psych, Mike Donovan has set up his sandbox. With Sic Alps he veered more noisy and lo-fi; with Peacers he favored a straight-ahead garage-rock sound. On this new record with Mike Fellows, AKA The Mighty Flashlight, Donovan steers in the direction of shambolic psychedelic-pop in the vein of the Olivia Tremor Control. (To anyone who knows and loves OTC, this is obviously a very good thing.) The splashy drums and percussion tracks feel like a gestural afterthought rather than a rhythmic backbone the songs are built around, and Donovan and Fellows steer these songs into some choppy, unexpected waters. Opener “Planet Metley” is the clearest and most successful distillation of their aesthetic, offering up a staggering range of ideas in under four minutes, stopping and starting erratically, the bass roving all over the fretboard. At the other end of the spectrum, “Laurel Lotus Dub” is the kind of experiment that sounds like it was more fun to create that it is to listen back to. Between these two extremes there’s the junkshop boogie of “A Capital Pitch,” which features the hilarious line, “Hanging out on the ramparts with some dickheads in black,” the concise drum-machine and organ instrumental “Amalgam Wagon,” and the plaintive, country-flavored “Whistledown.” Wherever Donovan roams it’s usually worth following, and Meets the Mighty Flashlight is a winning collaboration that fizzes with fun.

Tim Clarke

Everything Falls Apart — Everything Falls Apart (Totalism)

“Somn” means sleep, or more poetically death. It’s the title of six of the seven tracks from Everything Falls Apart, the self-titled album from the duo of Belgian bassist Otto Lindholm (born Cyrille de Haes) and English producer Ross Tones. Those titles (numbered six to 11) and the coda “Wonderfully Desolate” tell you only part of the story of the music the pair produce. Their conversation focuses on the nuance of the Lindholm’s double bass which Tones swathes in electronic effects, stretching notes and motifs into near drones in timbres that rise from the murk like lugubrious sentinels. This is seriously heavy music but the dynamism of the duo’s understanding and interplay distinguishes Everything Falls Apart. Whilst many of the pieces focus on stasis and decay, “Somn 9” is a desert storm with clicking percussion, almost didgeridoo like growls from the bass and screeching electronic noise. On “Somn 11”, deep bowed notes support Lindholm’s move through the registers as if shaking from fitful dreams into the morning light. “Wonderfully Desolate” is comparatively unadorned, a string quartet playing against the end times, shimmers of light through the cracks.

Andrew Forell

False Fed — Let Them Eat Fake (Neurot Recordings)

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Is it accurate to call a band including members of legendary underground acts Amebix (Stig Miller), Nausea (Roy Mayorga) and Broken Bones (Jeff Janiak) a “supergroup”? It might help to note that Janiak has sung for Discharge since 2014, and Mayorga has done a couple stints as drummer for Ministry. All names to conjure with (though a few of us first encountered Mayorga as a teenager back in the 1980s Lehigh Valley hardcore scene, when he drummed for Youthquake; West Catty Playground Building forever, man). In any case, the players have pooled their talents to create this death-rocking, sorta goth, sorta post-punk record, and it’s a lot of grim, grimy fun. Most of the music is mid-tempo, grand and romantic in its gestures, but shot through with a crusty growl in the guitars and production tone. The best songs speed things up a bit; both “The Tyrant Dies” and “The Big Sleep” have compelling momentum, complementing the stakes of songs’ ideas. It's Armagideon Time, people. Here’s your soundtrack, from dudes that know.

Jonathan Shaw

Hauschka— Philanthropy (City Slang)

German composer Volker Bertelmann’s 15th album of prepared piano pieces under the name Hauschka is noticeably warmer than some of his previous works. Joined by Samuli Kosminen on percussion and electronics and cellist Laura Wiek, Hauschka continues his exploration of the rhythmic and timbral possibilities of his instrument. At times almost jaunty, there are echoes of Bertelmann’s previous experiments with melancholic atmospherics but the general tone here is welcoming and optimistic. Kosminen adds subtle effects which frame rather than obscure the piano. There’s a touch of Satie in Hauschka’s playful iconoclastic approach to the piano and his deceptively simple melodies, especially on “Loved Ones” where Wiek’s plangent cello lines sustain and decay over an allusive harmony that speaks both of innocence and experience. At the other end of the spectrum, the closing piece “Noise” builds abstract ambience from repeated piano notes, smears of cello and a quiet wash of effects as if the players are enveloped in a thick damp fog. A lovely album for both fans and newcomers.

Andrew Forell

The Hives — The Death of Randy Fitzsimmons (Disques Hives)

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There are usually going to be some questions when a band comes back with a new record after over a decade, maybe especially so with an act like Swedish garage/punk flamboyants the Hives; can they match the energy of their youth? Are they still willing and able to give us the old thrills? Or have they (and this is usually asked with a small, tasteful shudder of disgust) matured? It doesn’t take very long into first single/first track “Bogus Operandi” for the concerned listener to have reason for a sigh of relief. Anyone who used to (or still does?) blast “Main Offender” or “Hate to Say I Told You So” or “Walk Idiot Walk” should feel the galvanizing charge of a true, Frankensteinian resurrection once the riff hits. And across these not-quite-32 minutes (the brevity is also a promising sign) Howlin’ Pelle Almqvist and the boys kick up exactly the kind of racket you’d want from them, with tracks like “Trapdoor Solution” and “The Bomb” savoring the kind of gleefully dumb fun they’ve always provided (with a nice sideline in some of Almqvist’s deliberately, over-the-top awful narrators on “Two Kinds of Trouble” and “What Did I Ever Do to You?”). They even continue to throw out small, satisfying variations on the classic Hives sound like the brassy swagger of “Stick Up” and the surprisingly heartfelt thrash of “Smoke & Mirrors”. They may have killed off their “sixth member,” but the Hives are otherwise in rude health.

Ian Mathers

Islet — Soft Fascination (Fire)

The Welsh psych-electronic oddballs in Islet are on their fourth full-length now but show no signs of settling down. Soft Fascination is a bonkers mash up of dance pop, art song, hip hop, noise and folk. “Euphoria” floats a feather-light daze, a la Avey Tare, then punctures it the rat-at-tat of snare, the rifle shot rap repartee of Emma Daman Thomas. Gossamer textures of synth weave in and around the main action, snapping tight at intervals, like sails catching a hard wind. The whole thing is butterfly ephemeral with strong wires holding it up, a combination of daydream and architecture. “River Body,” if anything, tips even crazier, with its infectious sing-song, skip-rope vocals, its tootling toy keyboards, its blasts of noise and friction. And what can you make of “Sherry” which bucks and heaves and shouts out “Ay, ay, ay, ay,” like a lost Matias Aguayar cut? “Ay, ay, ay, ay,” indeed.

Jennifer Kelly

Jute Gyte — Unus Mundus Patet (Self-released)

Unus Mundus Patet is not the most dissonant or challenging record Adam Kalmbach has released during his 20-plus-year run under the Jute Gyte moniker. But neither is this black metal for the kvlt trve believers or for the hipster-adjacent sets, be they transcendental or ecstatic or blackgazy. The songs twist and turn in on themselves, always clear in their expressions of complex musical ideas, and also — somehow, someway — listenable and enjoyable. Avant-garde? Sure thing, and likely a much more authentic iteration of that phrase’s meaning than the music many other metal bands churn out under cover of high-minded beard stroking. See the by-turns undulating and fragmenting “Killing a Sword” or the trudging, vertiginous and then utterly thrilling “Philoctetes.” Jute Gyte doesn’t make music for the background, but if you can give these songs your full attention, you’ll be rewarded. Turn it up and open the portal into somewhere much weirder and more marvelous.

Jonathan Shaw

Danny Kamins / Chris Alford / Charles Pagano — The Secret Stop (Musical Eschatology)

Free improvisation may be a little sparser on the ground in the southern USA than it is in Chicago or New York, but The Secret Stop affirms the vigor of those who participate. Guitarist Chris Alford and drummer Charles Pagano play in New Orleans, and Danny Kamins is a saxophonist from Texas; this encounter took place in the Crescent City. As even players in places like the aforementioned northern cities or London will affirm, travel comes with this territory. Their interactions display a capacity to sustain balance when the energy is high and to back off when doing so will transform the music’s tension. Kamins intersperses long, coarse tones with emphatic pops, and Alford evidences a fluent stutter that suggests he’s spent a lot of time studying James “Blood” Ulmer’s sound grammar. Pagano’s cymbal sizzle and mutating not-quite-patterns provide both forward momentum and a framework within which the action occurs.

Bill Meyer

MIKE \ Wiki \ The Alchemist — Faith Is a Rock (ALC)

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The long awaited collaboration between The Alchemist and MIKE took a sudden turn when they took on board another New York rapper Wiki who steals the show here. Both Wiki and MIKE were outcasts recording music in the vein of Earl Sweatshirt, even though MIKE was always a better version of Earl with only possibly a tenth of his fame. Knowing no rest, The Alchemist (that is his fourth collab this year) takes both MCs way out of their comfort zone, refusing to pander to the needs. MIKE and Wiki have to deal with The Alchemist’s fast and thick layered production, and it works for all of them. “Mayors A Cop” is a standout here, and Faith Is a Rock is one strong contender for the tape of the year.

Ray Garraty

Camila Nebbia — Una Ofrenda A La Ausencía (Relative Pitch)

The title translates as An Offering To Absence, which of course raises the question, what’s missing? Camila Nebbia is a multidisciplinary artist who grew up in Buenos Aires, Argentina, but has seems to have spent a fair chunk of time moving around Europe in recent years, and is currently based in Berlin. She has a sizable discography, but this correspondent has not heard most of it, so let’s just focus on the album at hand. Its 16 tracks present three facets of her work — acoustic tenor saxophone, electronically adjusted saxophone and poetry — with the first method best represented. The unaccompanied saxophone performances reveal her mastery of both weight-bearing muscularity and adroit tap-dancing on the far side of the fences that confine conventional tonality. But when she layers long tones and feedback, Nebbia becomes a one-woman orchestra transmitting heavy Penderecki vibes. The one poem included, “Dejo que me lieve” (“I let it lie”), is recited in Spanish, and no translation is offered; perhaps home is what’s not there, so she needs to manifest it creatively?

Bill Meyer

[Continued in Part 2, because Tumblr decided we only get 10 audio links.]

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our-time-is-now · 3 months

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October 13, 2019 (2): Guess!

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You can find more information about the authors, translators, content warning and additional information about the plays in the pinned post on our blog.

Sunday, 1:07 pm

WhatsApp, ok.cool.:

David: Okay, little change of plans. We’re now looking for a two- to three-room apartment, preferably in Moabit and affordable! Would be nice if you could keep an eye out!

Carlos: Huh? Why that? Did you win the lottery and you’re now showing off your money by renting an apartment with living room, bedroom and office room?!

Abdi: Or are you moving in together with Laura again, after all? I thought you were past that topic.

Jonas: Or are you starting your own flatshare?

Matteo: He found the world’s best roommate!

Carlos: Really? Cool! Who is it?

Abdi: A roommate who doesn’t already have an own apartment? That’s not very practical, isn’t it?

Matteo: Noo, the guy’s still living in a flatshare right now but now wants the full David-blast.

Jonas: For real?

Matteo: Yep! ;-)

Carlos: I don’t get it….

Abdi: Are you moving in with Alex? Noo, then he could just move into the loft… huh?

Matteo: :-) :-) :-)

David: Ey, it’s really unbelievable that it’s the two of you who don’t get it, even though only a few days ago you were so in favor of it…

Carlos: In favor of what?! We’re constantly in favor of something…

Jonas: I’m just thinking about whether or not it would be funny to let them guess…

David: lol @ Jonas. Probably - but it’s also a little mean, isn’t it?

Abdi: Hey, come on Brudis, clear it up!

Jonas: Guess!

Carlos: Dude, no, for real now!? You two? Davenzi!? Together!? New apartment?! <3<3<3

Matteo: Otherwise I really would have doubted you, Carlos :-)

Abdi: AWESOME! Yes, great, congratulations! I’ll definitely keep my ears open together with you!

Carlos: Me too!!!! Awesome!!!!

Jonas: Have you asked Linn yet? Doesn’t her dad have connections?

Alex: No time to read up on everything, what did I miss?

David: Oh, right - we’ll go and ask Linn. This morning, we were too busy confessing…

Abdi: @ Alex: Davenzi are moving in together!

Carlos: <3<3<3

Alex: Okay.

Jonas: Okay?

Alex: Doesn’t really surprise me. Congratulations!

Abdi: Ey, you player…. you can’t foresee everything, either!

Alex: Guys, seriously? You’ve said it yourselves, the two of them will stay living together after the three months. You don’t need a crystal ball for that.

Carlos: But it was close. David was already looking for flatshares.

Matteo: He even already had one, actually. Well, he got the okay after we decided it.

Jonas: Decided? The way I knew you two that surely was highly dramatic once again.

Alex: Have to leave again. See you.

Matteo: Byeee Alex

Abdi: Bye, Brudi

Carlos: See you, Brudi

Jonas: Say Hi to Mia

Carlos: So? Spill! How did it happen?

David: Have a good flight, Alex!

Jonas: Oh, right… he’s already coming back today… so good flight from me, as well!

Carlos: Hello?! Details!?

Abdi: I also want details!

David: There aren’t many big details… Matteo and I were supposed to meet and I was late because I was at a flatshare viewing before our meeting, which was a really good viewing. And Matteo was somehow weird… the days before as well and I asked him what was wrong and then he told me that he doesn’t want me to move out…

Carlos: So he simply said: “I don’t want you to move out”!?

David: Why is it that such things are only ever talked about with our relationship!? For example, it would also be nice to learn how Kiki and Carlos greeted each other on Friday evening after being separated for a week, wouldn’t it?

Matteo: Nice try :-*

Carlos: I’ll gladly tell you about it in a lot of detail in a minute, but first we’ll talk about you two.

Matteo: Man, okay, I said that I find it shit that David wants to stick to the stupid plan and that I’m opposed to the plan and that I want us to stay living together and that I don’t care where and how and yeah.

Carlos: Awwww

Matteo: Well

Jonas: Nice Brudi, I’m proud of you!

Matteo: Haha

Jonas: No, really.

Matteo: So how is Kiki doing, Carlos? How was the weekend?

David: @ Jonas: Me too!

Carlos: So far, the weekend was quite nice and if she weren’t in the shower right now, I wouldn’t hang around WhatsApp right now, either… Friday night was a little strange. I think she imagined it to be easier… arriving here, I mean… and at first she didn’t want to admit that all of this overwhelms her quite a bit, I think. New people, new city, new surroundings etc… she acted so weirdly fake as if everything were okay…

David: But a fresh start like that is also hard… if it weren’t for Laura back then… and Kiki really doesn’t have anyone in Halle… did you talk about it?

Abdi: Oh man, poor Kiki…

Jonas: Jep. I think you can plan for everything as much as you want… every fresh start is damn hard. I mean it’s the same for all of us… but at least we still have each other.

Matteo: Oh man, yes, I can really understand that. And Kiki always acts really tough. Could you talk to her?

Carlos: Yes, we talked, I told her that I’m always there or rather only a phone call away and that she’ll surely meet people in uni and so on. She just also misses her girls, but I think Sam will visit her next weekend, unfortunately I don’t have time that weekend. So I hope everything will be okay eventually.

Matteo: Hey, if it helps then we’ll all show up. When’s the next time she’ll be here? Then we could also get the entire crew together or something?

David: Good that you could talk!

Abdi: It probably really takes a bit of time for her to get used to it.

Carlos: Well she’ll only come for a longer period of time over Christmas… that's a really incredibly long time away. Otherwise she’ll really try to make sure to come to Berlin every second or third weekend… she’ll definitely be there for Davenzi’s birthday party! Everyone will be there, then, anyways…

David: Yeah! Happy to hear that!

Jonas: Yes, awesome! That’s not so far away anymore, either… this means we can gift you things for your new apartment… Blender, coffee maker and stuff like that… you should make a list of what you need!

Matteo: First we need an apartment… But Carlos, then let’s make a Christmas party or something like that. We did that in the past… that was nice…

Abdi: Davenzi will simply get kitchen appliances from us… it’s already come this far…

Carlos: Christmas party sounds nice… Kiki also likes Christmas markets.

Matteo: First Christmas market, then party!

Jonas: Luigi, bro, I’m sure you must know what stuff you guys already have and what you don’t have, right? David, you tell us, I’m sure you’re better organized.

David: My first Christmas in Berlin! I’m also in favor of Christmas market AND Christmas party!

Abdi: Maybe you’ll find an apartment by the first of December - then the Christmas party will definitely be held at your place!

Carlos: Or at ours! I’d also love to have a party if the bed is right around the corner!

David: @ Jonas: To be honest, I’m not really too organized yet. The decision is still really new and I didn’t have time to make lists yet ;-) But I’ll have to talk to Laura, anyways… Matteo and I will surely be able to use a lot of stuff from our old apartment…

Jonas: Doesn’t Laura need that herself? Or are you splitting it up?

Matteo: Yeees, at your place, I’m in favor of that!

Abdi: Me too!

Matteo: @ Jonas: Laura will stay at the flatshare and is going to take over my room if we can find a place fast enough… or rather, that’s probably already a made decision, but if not, then we’ll have to shift things around a bit… maybe we’ll have to ask Alex, who’s not aware of anything yet…

Jonas: Haha, I see. But if you shift over Mia to his place, then he surely won’t mind.

Matteo: But Mia might :P

Carlos: Oh, you’ll figure it out. If not, then we have a sofa available…

Jonas: Hanna also has more than one bedroom…

Matteo: Yes, thanks. Everything will work out somehow.

David: You guys really are the best! Thanks, Brudis! But first you all have to keep an eye out for a suitable apartment!

Carlos: Aye, aye, Sir!

Abdi: We’ll do that!

David: <3

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#druck #druck og #matteo florenzi #david schreibner #davenzi #davenzi plays

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starandcloud · 8 months

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Being In Love With Bucky Barnes

Afraid - The Neighbourhood

I wanna be yours - Artic Monkeys

Daddy Issues - The Neighbourhood

Guys My Age - Hey Violet

Under the Influence

BABYDOLL - Ari Abdul

SNAP - Rosa Linn

Glad You Came - The Wanted

YOUTH - Troye Sivan

Must Have Been The Wind - Alec Benjamin

I'm Yours - Isabel LaRosa

Can't Help Falling In Love - Elvis Presley

Snowfal - Oneheart, Reidenshi

The Night We Met - Lord Huron

All The Things She Said - Poppy

Beggin' - Maneskin

Champagne & Sunshine - PLVTINUM, Tarro

Line Without A Hook - Ricky Montgomery

Where Have You Been - Rihanna

So This Is Love - Ilene Woods, Mike Douglas

Him & I - G-Eazy, Halsey

Paper Rings - Taylor Swift

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

Love Story - Taylor Swift

You Were Good To Me - Jeremy Zucker, Chelsea Cutler

Somewhere Only We Know - Keane

Dusk Till Dawn - ZAYN, Sia

Perfect - Ed Sheeran

Rewrite The Stars - Zac Efron, Zendaya

F**kin' Perfect - P!nk

So What P!nk

We Fund Love - In A Hopeless Place

Infinity - Jaymes Young

Shape Of You - Ed Sheeran

Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra

Story Of My Life - One Direction

That's What I like - Bruno Mars

E.T. - Katy Perry

Unconditionally - Katy Perry

Love Me Like You Do - Ellie Goulding

Wildest Dream - Taylor Swift

Mercy - Shawn Mendes

Mr. Loverman - Ricky Montgomery

Dandelions - Ruth B

I Think I'm In Love - Kat Dahlia

Water Fountain - Alec Benjamin

#Bucky Barnes #winter soldier #james bucky barnes #bucky #james buchanan barnes #the winter soldier #marvel mcu #Bucky Playlist #faeriesberries

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gayrainbowl3 · 2 years

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STOP I JUST MADE MYSELF CRY OMG

OK, SO I WATCHED THE BLACK PHONE AND AND I WAS LISTENING TO MY PLAYLIST RN AND "Dancing with your ghost" by Sasha Alex Sloan, CAME ON AND ITS FINNEY'S AND ROBIN'S SONG, NO ONE CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE.

Don't mind me, I'm just gonna go write about this real quick while sobbing my eyes out.

Update: So is 'One Last Time' by Arianna Grande. Currently sobbing.

Update 2: So is SNAP by Rosa Linn. This is not ok; with every song comes another mental breakdown.

#the black phone #finney blake #Robbin #im crying so hard #That was so fast but sad #good gods #robin x finney #might as well add that in there #damn my brain #and heart

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yonicfemcel · 8 months

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anaisperfectsthings · 1 year

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Na Spotify możecie znaleść sporo naprawdę fajnych ana playlist, ale jeśli chcecie stworzyć swoją, a nie macie pomysłów na piosenki, to przybywam z pomocą!🫶

Oto kilka moich ulubionych;

Heather- Conan Gray

Prom Queen- Beach Bunny

Oh Ana- Mother Mother

This Is Gospel- Panic! At The Disco

Never Let Me Down- VIZE, Tom Gregory

Hey Brother- Avicii

Blue Lips- Regina Spektor

Older- Sasha Alex Sloan

Wolves- Selena Gomez, Marshmello

Scars To Your Beautiful- Alessia Cara

Mad at Disney- salem ilese

Don’t Let Me Down- The Chainsmokers

Ignite- Alan Walker & K-391

Dream It Possible- Delacy

The Finał Countdown- Europę

All The Things She Said- t.A.T.u

Closer- The Cainsmokers

Snap- Rosa Linn

The Greatest- Sia

Fight Song- Rachel Platten

Panic Room- Au/Ra

#chudnę #anorex14 #glodowka #nie jedz #beauty #chudajakmotyl #aż do kości #chce byc szczupla

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hallsofvalhalla · 2 years

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🔊 + Faramir and Eomer

Faramir: Into the Fray by Marc Streitenfeld from the soundtrack of The Grey. Also, more angsty, weird, and kind of a stretch: Truth by Alex Ebert and Knockin' on Heaven's Door by Bob Dylan both feel kinda right.

Eomer: Absolutely ridiculous choice but Black Holes (Solid Ground) by The Blue Stones was at the top of my Eomer / Rohirrim playlist and I stand by it. Óró by Seo Linn and Darkin also has the right vibe

#strakhaz #my lotr playlists are 90% soundtracks from other movies so this was tough lmao #asks #<3 thank bb

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lilacsxjoon · 2 years

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화양연화 . . . you're the most beautiful moment in life

❪ PLAYLIST ❫ ! basically my blog playlist where i suggest songs to listen to while reading my stories <33

Heather by Conan Gray

Maniac by Conan Gray

Dancing With Your Ghost by Sasha Alex Sloane

Anymore by JEON SOMI

Welcome to Wonderland by Anson Seabra

To My Youth by BOL4

Can't We Just Leave The Monster Alive? by TOMORROW X TOGETHER

Way Back Home by SHAUN

eight(Prod.&Feat. SUGA of BTS) by IU ft. SUGA

Runaway by AURORA

Pure Imagination by John Borleo

Kidult by SEVENTEEN

Magic Island by TOMORROW X TOGETHER

Second Life by SEVENTEEN

I Like Me Better by Lauv

double take by dhruv

Campfire by SEVENTEEN

Pinwheel by SEVENTEEN

Waste It On Me by Steve Aoki & BTS

YOUTH by Troye Sivan

Look Who's Inside Again by Bo Burnham

All I Want by Olivia Rodrigo

If We Have Each Other by Alec Benjamin

Maps by Maroon 5

Moon by BTS' Jin

Inner Child by BTS' V

Keep Your Head Up Princess by Anson Seabra

see you later (ten years) by Jenna Raine

Older by Alec Benjamin

Older by Sasha Alex Sloan

Paper Rings by Taylor Swift

Santa Tell Me by Ariana Grande

SHOUT OUT by ENHYPEN

Foreshadow by ENHYPEN

Tightrope by Michelle Williams

dimple by BTS

Euphoria by BTS' Jung Kook

Mikrokosmos by BTS

Style by Taylor Swift

Running Up That Hill (A Deal With God) by Kate Bush

BETELGEUSE by Yuuri

Circles by SEVENTEEN

_WORLD by SEVENTEEN

Shadow by SEVENTEEN

The Final Countdown by &AUDITION

Snap by Rosa Linn

TFW (That Feeling When) by ENHYPEN

Hype Boy by NewJeans

Wishlist by TOMORROW X TOGETHER

We Lost The Summer by TOMORROW X TOGETHER

After LIKE by IVE

Cookie by NewJeans

Attention by NewJeans

Sour Grapes by LE SSERAFIM

Master of Puppets by METALLICA

#playlist #lilacsxjoon

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muznew · 2 months

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Junodownload Top Tracks February 2024

DATE CREATED: 2024-03-03 Tracklist : &ME, Rampa, Adam Port, Ali Love - Confusion.mp3 8kicks - Same Thing (Original Mix).mp3 Aaron Klugg - Wish.mp3 Aaron Sevilla, Savage & SHē - Marimba.mp3 ACA (YU) - Break The Floor.mp3 Adriatique, Marino Canal, Delhia De France - Home (Konstantin Sibold Remix).mp3 Agus Pazos - Extra - Original Mix.mp3 Agustin Giri, Last Men On Earth - Intelecto.mp3 Agustin Pengov - Plastic Heart.mp3 Airod - Balaclava (Original Mix).mp3 Ajna (BE) & Samm (BE) - Secundo.mp3 ALADAG - Leicht.mp3 ALADAG - Levent.mp3 ALADAG - My Religion.mp3 Alar, Tube & Berger - Forever Yang (Extended Mix).mp3 Ale Castro, The Checkup - Jan Jam.mp3 Alex Farell, Fin Carroll - Bang Bang.mp3 Alex Heide, Maximillion - Ven Aquí Conmigo.mp3 Alex Tomb, OLING - Sepiaria Linn - OLING Remix.mp3 Alexis Curshé - Down South.mp3 Alfa Romero - 84.mp3 Amvy - Nirvana.mp3 Ander P - Trust.mp3 Andrea Maggino - Another One.mp3 Andrewboy & RAIDON - Sign (Extended Mix).mp3 Andrewboy, Read the full article

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djmusicbest · 2 months

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Junodownload Top Tracks February 2024

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chrancecriber · 8 months

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Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (August 23, 2023)

23:56 Jelly & Fish - Appreciation 23:50 Gary B - Let You In 23:47 Sneaker Pimps - 6 Underground 23:44 Dj Antoine Feat. Ablai - My Corazon (Dj Antoine Vs. Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 23:38 Joris Voorn - Ringo 23:34 Loud Luxury Feat. Morgan St. Jean - Aftertaste 23:29 New Age Kings - Illusion (Instrumental Remix) 23:25 Minnie Riperton - Lovin' You 23:18 Blond:ish Feat. Shawni - Wizard Of Love 23:16 Tiesto - Lay Low 23:11 Croquet Club - Awake 23:05 Banderas - This Is Your Life (Easy Life Mix) 22:59 Blank & Jones With Claudia Brücken - Unknown Treasure 22:56 Armin Van Buuren & Garibay - Phone Down 22:52 Above & Beyond - Out Of Time (Original Mix) 22:48 Blank & Jones - Flowing 22:45 Nora En Pure - Fibonacci 22:42 Alok, Zeeba And Iro - Ocean 22:36 Leftfield - Melt 22:30 Bay Area - Dolphin Rider (Pianodreamsession) 22:23 Monolink - Don't Hold Back 22:20 Alle Farben Feat. Jordan Powers - Different For Us 22:14 Rìfìs Du Sol - Next To Me 22:11 Ec Twins, Oda Loves You - Wonderful Life 22:03 Heather Nova - Aquamarine 21:59 Dvine - Unknown Reality 21:56 Schiller X Ro Nova X Tricia Mcteague - Illuminate 21:51 Two Lanes - Pièces Froides: Ii. Danses De Travers 21:45 Sirius & Nyla - Infinity (Remastered Remix) 21:42 Calvin Harris Feat. Sam Smith - Promises 21:39 Alex Breitling - Lilie 21:33 Hakan Kayis, Furkan Sarikas, Cinar Gedizlioglu - A Night In Alacati (Original Mix) 21:26 Popmode - Moonrise (Original Mix) 21:22 Eelke Kleijn - Midnight Affair (Samaha Slow Edit) 21:20 R3hab & Marnik - Candyman 21:13 Cosmo Klein Feat. Ynot - When Doves Cry (Original Mix) 21:10 Reece Lemonius, Munich Monstrs - Miss You 21:04 Hraach & Armen Miran - Nowhere 20:59 Jens Buchert - 1000 Miles 20:56 Kygo & Tina Turner - What's Love Got To Do With It 20:53 Klingande, Stevie Appleton - Sinner 20:50 Sofi Tukker & John Summit - Sun Came Up (Radio) 20:44 Goldfish - Love Everlasting (Extended Mix) 20:37 Royksopp - Sordid Affair (Maceo Plex Mix) 20:31 Rìfìs Du Sol - Alive (Anyma Remix) 20:26 Victoriya - Nothing Remains 20:23 Robin Schulz Feat. Harloe - All This Love 20:21 Tiësto & Ty Dolla $ign - The Business, Pt. Ii 20:14 Rìfìs Du Sol - On My Knees (Oliver Schories Remix) 20:08 Aim - Cold Water Music 20:06 Sons Of Maria - A Kiss Like This 20:04 Loud Luxury And Frank Walker Feat. Stephen Puth - Like Gold 19:59 Lenny Ibizarre - Smooth Temptation 19:57 Trinix & Ian Urbina - Bad Things 19:49 Audiofly Feat. Fiora - 6 Degrees 19:46 Mike Candys & Jack Holiday - Saltwater (Rework) 19:42 Ac Venture - Rain In Spain (Roberto Sol Remix) 19:36 Benny Royal, Dani Hageman - Tigereye 19:32 Cecilia Krull - Agnus Dei (Benny Benassi & Bb Team Remix) 19:25 Christopher Von Deylen - Opaque 19:22 Sam Feldt, Lucas & Steve Ft. Wulf - Summer On You 19:19 Shapov & Avian Grays Feat. Kifi - Light Up The World 19:16 Thomas Gold Feat. Bright Sparks - Seventeen 19:12 Armin Van Buuren & Garibay Feat. Olaf Blackwood - I Need You 19:09 Robin Schulz Feat. Alida - In Your Eyes 19:05 Tycho - Horizon 18:56 Underworld - 8 Ball 18:51 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Deep Ocean 18:48 Felix Jaehn Feat. Jasmine Thompson - Ain't Nobody 18:45 Robin Schulz & David Guetta - On Repeat 18:41 Brendon Moeller - Emerging 18:38 Pang! - Walking In The Sun 18:35 Vievie - Blue Island 18:29 Good Guy Mikesh Feat. Filburt - Place Of Love (Mp Edit) 18:25 Zero 7 - In The Waiting Line 18:22 Mellowdy - Rise Up 18:19 Sum Wave - Milkyway 18:15 James Bright - Sarabande 18:08 Valeron - Jamal 18:05 Italobrothers - Stay 17:57 Hansi Lang - Perfect Day (Smacs & Patrick Kong Remix) 17:49 Boral Kibil - Never Again (Bobby Deep Mix) 17:44 Ludvig & Stelar - Reflection 17:41 Topic Feat. Nico Santos) - Home (Alle Farben Remix) 17:38 Rosa Linn - Snap 17:34 Jan Blomqvist, Elena Pitoulis - More (Original Mix) 17:31 Nora En Pure - Sign Of The Times 17:27 Jako Diaz & Margret - Mirror 17:24 Quantic - Painting Silhouettes (Original Mix) 17:20 Ck West & Sassi K - C Song 17:17 Chicane - Capricorn (Back Pedal Brakes Remix) 17:11 Marra Kesh Khetama - Sunshine 17:07 Alina Baraz & Galimatias - Fantasy (Felix Jaehn Remix) 17:02 Atb & Anova - Route 66 16:56 Beanfield - Planetary Deadlock 16:54 Famba Feat. Brando & Mkla - Games We Play 16:50 Jaques Raupe, Stereoact, Peter Schilling Feat. Peter Schilling - Terra Titanic 16:44 Lazy Hammbock - Surround Me 16:40 The Alan Parsons Project - Old And Wise 16:37 Daniel Steidtmann - Annecy 16:34 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 16:30 Nora En Pure - World Of Rules 16:23 Tosca - Dave Dudley 16:21 Tiscore - Fire To Smoke 16:15 Beyhude - Terso 16:11 Topic Feat. Nico Santos - Home 16:09 Munich Monstrs - Shine 16:06 Avaion X Vize X Leony - Pieces 16:01 Ohm-g - Hulectric Soul 15:57 Maxim Lany Feat. Freya Alley - Anymore 15:53 James Bright - Siempre 15:47 Anrey - Lost Lands (Extended Mix) 15:44 Audax Feat. Ron Caroll - Falling For You 15:38 Les Negresses Vertes - Face A La Mer 15:34 Schiller - Free The Dragon 15:30 Daniel Steidtmann - Pigeon Lake 15:27 Zhu - Faded 15:22 Rodriguez Jr. & Liset Alea - Amplify 15:19 Blank & Jones Feat. Mick Roach - Magnolia 15:15 Tontario - Late (Original Mix) 15:11 Above & Beyond Feat. Justine Suissa - Little Something 15:06 Deep Dive Corp. Feat. Dennis Le Gree - Water 15:01 The Funky Lowlives - Time To Let Go 14:57 Blank & Jones - High Fly 14:52 Espresso Del Lago - Come On 14:50 Ofenbach & Ella Henderson - Hurricane 14:46 Julian Wassermann - Painfully 14:40 Faro - Dreaming In Orange 14:37 Clément Leroux - Memories 14:34 Morgan Page Feat. Lissie - Firewalk 14:30 Kygo Feat. Sandro Cavazza - Happy Now 14:27 Lost Frequencies & Mathieu Koss - Don't Leave Me 14:23 Nihoni - After Sun 14:20 Sting - Mad About You 14:17 Vize & Leony - Dolly Song (Devil's Cup) 14:10 Worakls - By The Brook 14:05 Simioli, Provenzano, Scarlet - Ain't No Sunshine 13:58 Edx - Conundrum 13:55 Clangusar - I Promised Myself 13:48 Avira & Diana Miro - The Worship (Mark Knight Extended) 13:42 Joachim Pastor & Signum - Something You Need (Extended Mix) 13:37 Jose Padilla - Bosaxi (Touched Mix) 13:30 Röyksopp & Jamie Irrepressible - The Next Day (Mind Against Remix) 13:27 Neptune & Moonnight - I Need A New Love (Original Mix) 13:23 Kygo & Rita Ora - Carry On 13:19 Blank & Jones - Sunny (Summer Vibe Mix) 13:13 Exstra - Comet (Extended Mix) 13:09 Federico Aubele - Salvacion 13:06 Glockenbach - Dirty Dancing 13:03 Mousse T. - Boyfriend (Alle Farben Remix) 13:00 M22 - Good To Be Loved 12:57 Tiësto & Karol G - Don't Be Shy 12:53 Atb - We Belong 12:47 Nora En Pure - Thermal (Extended Mix) 12:44 Agatino Romero - I'm Feeling For You 12:40 Eelke Kleijn - Transmission (Joris Voorn Remix) 12:36 Avira & Kiko Franco Feat. Nathan Nicholson) - Ocean 12:31 Scotty & Wilcox - Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! (Wilcox Extended) 12:26 Gotan Project - Last Tango In Paris 12:22 Sons Of Maria - Elevate 12:19 Martin Trevy Feat. Hedara - Talking To The Silence 12:14 Channel 2 Feat. Tanya - Space Cowboy 12:10 Sum Wave - Malin's Song 12:05 Lstn - Times Of Sorrow 11:59 Fatboy Slim - Praise You (Maribou State Remix) 11:55 Above & Beyond - Is It Love? (1001) (Original Mix) 11:50 Eli Kazah - Return Home 11:48 Lunax - I Like 11:44 Sound Nomaden - The Morning After 11:37 Deep-dive-corp. - Lucsus 11:31 Tebra - Suton 11:29 Tiësto - The Motto 11:25 Madonna - Nothing Really Matters 11:20 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You (Frankey & Sandrino Remix) 11:16 Golden Tone Radio - Glück 11:10 Mic Max - Como El Viento 11:07 Kryder & Natalie Shay - Rapture 11:04 Armin Van Buuren & Avira - Illusion (Mixed) 10:58 Joachim Pastor - Joda (Worakls Remix) 10:54 Lstn - Floral Decor 10:50 The Underdog Project - Summer Jam 10:48 Parov Stelar - Fire 10:44 Ambyion - Motion 10:39 Chromatics - Lady 10:32 John Kah - Carina (Enui Remix) 10:29 Sans Souci - Nanda 10:25 Karen Ramirez - Looking For Love 10:21 Kyla La Grange - Cut Your Teeth 10:16 Mr.da-nos - San Francisco 2k20 10:11 Ancient Astronauts - Until The Stars Go Out 10:03 Blond:ish Feat. Bahramji - Omnipresent 10:00 Matoma Feat. Jonah Kagen - Summer Feeling 09:56 Jones & Brock Feat. Anica - Join Me 09:53 Ck West - Aldebaran 2021 09:48 Blank & Jones - Give It To Me 09:45 York - On The Beach (Kryder & Jenjammin Sax Edit) 09:42 Edx - Ecletric (Mixed) 09:38 Cats On Bricks Feat. Krysta Youngs - Unstoppable (Dj Karsten Kiessling ) 09:36 Mila Feat. Uwe Worlitzer - Teil Von Mir 09:33 Consoul Trainin Feat. Steven Aderinto & Duoviolins - Obsession 09:27 Hendrik T. - Espiral 09:20 Colyn - Lightyears 09:17 Sans Souci - Fenton 09:12 Placebo - Running Up That Hill 09:06 Firtz Kalkbrenner - Golden (Fideles Remix) 09:01 Robin Schulz - Moonlit Sky (With The Void Pacific Choir) 08:58 Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike Vs. Diplo Feat. Deb's Daughter - Hey Baby 08:53 Jens Buchert - Cocoon 08:49 Emmit Fenn - Lost In Space 08:46 Sono - Keep Control (Artbat Remix Edit) 08:37 Blank & Jones - California Sunset 08:31 Parra For Cuva Feat. Anna Naklab - Wicked Games 08:28 Bolier - Another Blue 08:25 Together Alone - Let Go 08:21 Jazzamor - Lovin' You 08:18 Shaun Frank & Takis Feat. Shells - Don't Say I Love You 08:14 P. Lion - Happy Children (Special Remastered ) 08:11 Justin Bieber - What Do You Mean? 08:05 Christopher Von Deylen - Free 07:59 Rodriguez Jr. Feat. Liset Alea - What Is Real 07:55 Rüfüs Du Sol - No Place 07:51 Jean-michel Jarre - Equinoxe, Pt. 5 07:44 Tosca - La Vendeuse Des Chaussures Des Femmes, Pt. 1 07:40 Chicane Feat. Bryan Adams - Don't Give Up 07:37 Majestic & Boney M. - Rasputin 07:33 Blank & Jones - Fallen 07:26 Armen Miran & Hraach - Gravitation 07:23 Christopher Von Deylen - Heliotrope 07:18 Shaun Feat. Conor Maynard - Way Back Home 07:15 Dennis Kruissen Feat. Liza Flume - Another Soul 07:05 Moby - Too Much Change 07:00 La Vita - Smooth Like Silk 06:56 Ac Venture - Penang Waltz (Roberto Sol Remix) 06:54 Rita Ora - You Only Love Me 06:48 Maestro & Cabal - Clifton Bay 06:45 Gestört Aber Geil & Anna Grey - Thank You 06:37 A Forest Mighty Black - Rebirth 06:32 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Always Will 06:28 Nora En Pure - Tantrum 06:22 Massive Attack - Sly 06:15 Blank & Jones - White Light 06:13 Yves V X Bashkar - Halfway (Feat. Twan Ray) 06:06 Aural Float - Still Here 06:01 Valante - Rissa 05:59 Mike Candys, Sb Mont & Salvo - Turned To Dust 05:54 Billy Sizemore - Together 05:51 Zaz - Demain C'est Toi 05:46 Fous De La Mer - Luces 05:42 Schiller - Der Tag...du Bist Erwacht (Mit Jette Von Roth) 05:37 Schiller Feat. Jael - Tired (Live) 05:33 Kadebostany - Save Me 05:27 Monolink - Otherside (Club Mix) 05:20 Dale Anderson Feat. Anil Chawla - Pimento Grove 05:17 El Profesor - Bella Ciao (Hugel Remix) 05:14 Edx - Neptune 05:11 Dvine - Ever After 05:06 Loui & Scibi Feat. Nuwella - Your Love (Ian Tosel Remix) 05:00 Christopher Von Deylen - Euphoria 04:57 Dj Antoine & Deep Vice - When You Want Some Love (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 04:55 Zonderling Feat. Josh Cumbee & Damon Sharpe - Lifetime 04:51 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Daylight Is Falling 04:48 Edx Feat. Jess Ball - Take Me Home 04:43 Afterlife - Solstice (Vocal Mix) 04:40 Hugel - Can't Love Myself (Feat. Mishaal& Lpw) 04:34 The Orb - A Beautiful Day 04:31 Kygo, Paul Mccartney & Michael Jackson - Say Say Say 04:28 Lost Frequencies & Elley Duhé - Back To You 04:24 Bebo Best & The Super Lounge Orchestr - Come As You Are 04:19 Eelke Kleijn - Woodstock 04:15 Sum Wave - Goodbye Earth 04:10 Moca - Kleine Träumerei 04:07 Iossa, Ken Holland - The Seed Feat. Iossa (Original Mix) 04:04 Dj Antoine Feat. Chanin & Jona Xx - Dancing In Tulum 04:01 Vintage Culture And Rooftime - I Will Find 03:58 Fedde Le Grand Feat. Vince Freeman - Devils 03:55 Mount & Emdey - Venus 03:52 Robin Schulz & Marc Scibilia - Unforgettable 03:48 Lstn - Undecided 03:40 Marcel - Departure 03:39 Above & Beyond - Quieter Is Louder (Original Mix) 03:34 Pirra Feat. Lindstrøm & Prins Thomas Remix - Limousine Lies 03:30 Nardis - Sunrise 03:27 Brando - Don't Call Me (Galantis Remix) 03:22 Worakls - Caprice 03:16 Diamans - Perception 03:13 Moli - Cloud No9 (Montmartre Remix) 03:08 Faithless Feat. Nathan Ball & Caleb Femi - I Need Someone 03:02 Jonson - S.c.e.n.e. T.w.o. 02:59 Blank & Jones - Coastline 02:57 Viva La Panda, Finding Molly - Chances 02:52 Buttha - Oceanic (Original Mix) 02:48 Basixx - Stay In Your Sunlight 02:42 Kruder & Dorfmeister - High Noon 02:38 Schiller & Peter Heppner - Leben... I Feel You 02:34 Melokind - Tiefgang 02:31 Regard - Ride It 02:29 Vievie - Sea Roses 02:24 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Sweet Lullaby 02:21 Calvin Harris & Disciples - How Deep Is Your Love 02:18 James Carter & Ofenbach Feat. James Blunt - Can't Forget You 02:15 Magnofield - Lupino 02:09 Velvet Lounge Project - Dimelo Tu (Mix And Magix Remix) 02:07 Kamrad - I Believe 02:04 Nora En Pure - Stop Wasting Time 01:58 Blank & Jones - Coming Home (Afterlife Remix) 01:55 Bernward Koch - Lonely Dream (Solo Piano) 01:51 Lenny Mac Dowell - Summertime 01:48 Rene Rodrigezz & Tristan Henry - Let Me Go 01:45 Sum Wave - Passing Clouds 01:42 Groove Da Praia - Is This Love 01:38 Paul Oakenfold, Bolier, Luis Fonsi - The World Can Wait (Bolier Remix) 01:34 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Helin - Fight Like A Lion 01:31 Hearts & Colors - Lighthouse (Andrelli Remix) 01:27 Trinix - Vision Deluxe 01:24 Hanns Feat. Lu - Chemistry 01:20 Airstream One - Southern Light 01:17 Riva Starr Feat. Imaginary - Ride This Sound 01:13 Pretty Pink Feat. Mark V - Don't Dance 01:10 Sono - Twist In My Sobriety (Sans Souci Remix Edit) 01:03 Le Roy - See The Light Ahead (Extended Mix) 00:58 Deep Dive Corp. - Guitaria 00:52 Lamb - Wonder 00:49 Alan Walker X Hans Zimmer - Time (Alan Walker Remix) 00:44 Rodg - Life Is Life (Chill Mix) 00:38 Anrey - We Are The Mirrors (Extended Mix) 00:31 Hraach Feat. Iveta Mukuchyan - Sarer Jan 00:24 Menachem 26 - Hal (Anatolian Sessions Remix) 00:21 Sum Wave - Backyard Stories 00:17 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Josha Daniel - Oscillations 00:11 Fluff - Silent Life 00:08 Lstn - Sky & Sand 00:04 Above & Beyond Feat. Zoe Johnston - Treasure 00:00 Edx - Missing

#Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge #Chillout #Lounge #Downtempo #Ambient #Trance #Deep House #2023 #August 2023

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September 17, 2019 (4): I’m here… you can let it all out…

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Attention! This play includes transgender topics. For more details see our interjection.

Tuesday, 6:44 pm:

David: *really got the okay to go home during rounds this morning and was super happy* *has planned everything with Alex, Hans and Matteo and then started to pack when his mother arrived, who helped him with the rest - especially with the things that were further up in the wardrobe* *was happy to have her to himself again and made her tell him what she thought of the flatshare, Hans and Linn* *they had a pretty emotional moment where she told him that she’d really like to spend more time with him and that she’d like to come more often* *had just gotten his bearings again when Alex arrived and then he spent half an hour with Alex and his mother before she went back to Lychen* *then had to spend what felt like an eternity waiting for his discharge papers and they were finally able to leave the hospital around 1 pm* *really has some trouble getting out of Alex’ car again and feels a little pathetic that Alex really has to help him with it* *gets his bag and food basket carried by Alex and takes a deep breath when he’s finally at the flatshare and especially in their room* *immediately gets ordered to the bed by Alex, before he disappears to the kitchen to make coffee and a few sandwiches* *uses the time to enjoy that he’s really back in their bed again and sniffs Matteo’s pillow for some time* *then gets up again to unpack his bag, but gets a punishing look from Alex for it when he comes back to the room, therefore goes back to bed, after Alex has arranged the pillows so that he can sit comfortably upright leaning onto them and first has some coffee and sandwiches with him* *then they decide to watch some Netflix and forget the time a little while doing so* *is a little surprised when he suddenly hears the apartment door and when a moment later, Hans is standing in the room and throws himself onto the bed to join them: “Awww, I was so looking forward to having you back! Am I allowed to hug you or does that break something?!”* *grins and sits up a little straighter* Everything’s good - you can hug me carefully… *gets a hug and then follows the conversation between Alex and Hans in amusement, where Hans makes sure that Alex has taken good care of David* *eventually interrupts Hans and assures him again that Alex did everything right and is glad that Hans is finally satisfied* *then hears him tell them that Michi will also be here soon and can see him hesitate, but finally invite Alex to stay for dinner, as well* *talks to Alex some more after Hans has disappeared to the kitchen to start cooking, until Laura comes home, who is really honestly happy to see him, as are Linn and Michi, who eventually come home from work shortly after 6* *gets a little nervous when it’s approaching 7 pm and is quite glad that Linn and Laura disappear to their rooms after they greeted him and that Michi has disappeared to the kitchen to join Hans* *then hears Alex, who also says that he’ll look if Hans still needs help and knows exactly that he only does it to allow Matteo and him time to reunite just the two of them* *eventually can no longer stand being in bed, gets up, sits down on his desk chair and spins back and forth on it* *then finally hears the apartment door and Hans calling loudly from the kitchen: “Oh, my butterfly! You’re right on time! Dinner will be ready in a minute!”*

Matteo: *has rushed from the station to the flatshare so that he can immediately turn back and catch the next train* *runs up the stairs and then throws the apartment door open* *goes inside and can hear and see Hans* Man, Hans, I don’t have time. And what are you doing here anyways? I thought you went to the movies! Oh, whatever… I have to leave again straight away… *doesn’t hear Hans’ answer, because he’s already on his way to his room* *really only wants to quickly grab the letter and leave again* *opens the door and wants to go to the desk* *but stops in his tracks when he sees David sitting there* *feels like his heart has skipped a beat* *can only stare at him* What… how… what are you doing here?

David: *hears Matteo’s reply to Hans and feels his heartbeat speed up a little when the door opens and Matteo comes into the room* *immediately feels like he’s properly back home again only now* *smiles broadly when he sees him and almost feels sorry because he looks a little overwhelmed* *gets up from the desk chair and slightly shrugs one shoulder at his question* *smiles and says quietly* There was a change of plans that I can live with quite well… like being back with you one day sooner… *takes two steps toward him and reaches his arms out for him*

Matteo: *is still staring at him as if he were an hallucination* You were… released? You didn’t run away? *then sees him coming toward him and really realizes only now that he’s really here* *quickly goes the last step and wraps his arms around him* *then laughs quietly* You’re really here… *holds the embrace, but moves his head so that he can kiss him* *immediately kisses him again and then again* *then looks at him and smiles happily* Hey… welcome home…

David: *laughs quietly and then holds his hurting stomach* *confirms* Officially released! I didn’t run! *takes a deep breath when he’s finally in Matteo’s arms and closes his eyes* *squeezes him as close as possible without it hurting* *nods at his realization and murmurs quietly* I wanted to surprise you… *leans toward him when he kisses him and smiles when one kiss turns into three* *holds the third one for a little longer and then returns his gaze happily* *grins slightly* Hey… thanks… *kisses him again briefly and then says quietly* Sorry that you had to stress so much right now… I just couldn’t think of anything else to get you to go to the flatshare instead of the hospital…

Matteo: *laughs slightly* Surprise was successful… *somehow still can’t believe that he’s really here* *runs one hand through his hair but then immediately wraps his arm around him again* *gets another kiss and smiles immediately* *then laughs slightly* It’s okay… it was worth it… *kisses him again and then beams at him* Oh man, you’re really here again… oh, that’s why Hans is here and cooks?

David: *smiles when Matteo says that the surprise was successful and slightly leans his head against his hand when he runs it through his hair* *grins a little when he says that the surprise was worth the stress and murmurs quietly* That’s good then… *laughs briefly and nods* I’m really here… and I’ll stay here… with you… and we can finally fall asleep next to each other again… *sounds wistful* *then nods again* Yes, Hans and Alex were the only ones who knew. Dr. von Fratschen already said during rounds yesterday that maybe I could go home today already. But I didn’t want us to get our hopes up too much and to then be disappointed if it didn’t work out. So I only told Alex and Hans that it might be… *lifts his hand and puts it on his cheek* *tenderly runs his thumb over it and would love to lift it up higher into his hair, but can feel that this doesn’t really work just yet* *leaves his hand on his cheek and tenderly kisses him again* *then leans his forehead against Matteo’s and murmurs quietly* Now we really made it… those two stupid separations…

Matteo: *smiles and nods* Yes, finally falling asleep next to each other and waking up together again… *then nods slightly when he talks, but is more occupied with running his hand along his back and arm and neck and letting it slip back into his hair again* *then leans into David’s hand when he puts it on his cheek* *kisses him back and smiles at his murmurs* We made it… finally… *kisses him again and then looks at him* *asks quietly* And you’re really okay? Not too strenuous? *runs his hand through his hair* What did the doctor say? Bedrest? Oh, and what about the ointment?

David: *humms in agreement and happily when Matteo confirms again that they made it and enjoys Matteo’s touches* *kisses him back and then smiles slightly at his question* *nods* I’m good… due to such a weird caring guy I learned to take some care of myself and to rest when it gets too exhausting… *briefly elbows him and looks at him lovingly* The doctor said just that… listen to my body and not overexert myself. Resting in between… but no firm bedrest… *then sighs when he mentions the ointment and slightly shrugs his shoulders* The ointment is perfect… apparently pretty expensive, that’s why it’s not prescribed and can only be bought privately… but one of the best ointments for wound healing… but I’m only supposed to start with it once the wounds aren’t quite so fresh anymore… that takes some more time… *then hears Hans calling: “I’ll give you three more minutes to make out! Then we’ll eat! Otherwise everything will get cold!”* *grins slightly and sighs* I almost forgot what it’s like to live in a flatshare… *pulls him a little closer again, kisses him and murmurs into the kiss* We still have two minutes and fifty seconds…

Matteo: *laughs a little* Has to be a pretty strong guy… *but then nods when he tells him what the doctor said* Okay, that should be manageable… *grimaces slightly when he tells him about the ointment* Ugh, so it’s a good ointment, to boot? That sucks! *grimaces slightly and then shakes his head* Oh, whatever, if it helps that’s great. You’ll just take it and forget where it came from* *laughs when Hans calls and even more so when David sighs* After three days? Oh come on… *but then gets kissed and grins* 2 minutes 45 seconds… *wraps his arms around him a little tighter and kisses him for longer* *afterwards murmurs quietly* Mi sei mancato *and then kisses him again*

David: *nods mock serious* Yes… a pretty strong cool guy… *laughs quietly when Matteo says the fact that the ointment is good sucks, but stops right afterwards because ouch, and only grins* *nods* I already forgot where it came from… but if it’s empty and if it was good then I’ll still mention that fact to my mother… *then grins a little outraged* Three days!? It was five!!! Well, okay… four and a half… *but then doesn’t want to argue about it any further and instead wants to use the remaining time to kiss Matteo* *is scared for a moment that Matteo squeezes him too tightly when he wraps his arms around him tighter, but then realizes that it’s just right, and relaxes and hugs and kisses him back* *smiles at his words and it takes a moment until he knows how he can answer* *murmurs into the kiss* mi sei mancato anche tu… molto molto mancato… *but then hears from the kitchen: “30 more seconds…”* *calls back* We’re coming! *smiles at Matteo again and then slowly lets go of him*

Matteo: *nods slightly* Yes, your mother will surely be happy… *then laughs slightly* Yes, okay, four… I suppressed that… *then beams when David answers in Italian* You see… a natural. *sighs when Hans calls and quickly kisses David again* Can you even sit on the stools? *reaches for his hand and opens the door* *but then sees that Hans has prepared the living room for dinner* *then also sees Hans and Alex coming from the kitchen with bowls and hears Hans announce: “There you are! David will pick a seat and if it doesn’t work then we’ll move to your room and he can lie down!”* *grins slightly and looks at David to see if that’s ok* Sounds good… *then grins at Alex* Hey… everything good? *only sees him nod and smiles a little*

David: *grins when Matteo says that he’s a natural* Nonsense… I just learn the really important things right at the beginning… *nods at his question about the stools* It’ll work… and if not, then I’ll tell you… *entwines their fingers when Matteo reaches for his hand and smiles slightly, because he thinks it’s cute that Matteo does it for the short way to the kitchen, but then realizes that they only have to go to the living room because Hans has set everything up there* *hears Hans’ words, smiles and sees Laura grin: “He prohibited us from already sitting down so that you’ll have free choice of seating…”* *laughs quietly and shakes his head* You could have sat down… *but then quickly chooses the spot on the couch back by the window, so that everyone else can also sit down* *sees everyone looking at him worried when he grimaces slightly while sitting down and wheezes slightly* Everything’s good… once I’m sitting down it’s okay… only sitting down and getting back up still sucks… *hears Hans sigh: “We’ll get you back on your feet… okay, I’ll serve David so that he doesn’t have to move, for the rest it’s self-service…”* *then sees Michi coming out of Hans’ room with a tray that has legs: “Do you mean that? Oh, hi Matteo…”* *sees Hans beam: “Exactly! Great, thanks!” and sees him unfold the tray and position it above him* *grins* Wow… you really thought of everything… *sees everyone else now sitting down, as well, and beams at everyone* *says a little embarrassed* Nice to be back again…

Matteo: *laughs and shakes his head* Okay, whatever you say… *nods when he says that he’ll tell him* Okay, good. *then grins when they’re standing in the living room and Laura tells them that they weren’t allowed to sit down* I like that… *but then thinks that David also puts himself in the background and plans on not forgetting about it in case they talk about the topic again* *sees David sit down and Michi come in with the tray* Hi Michi… *watches everyone sit down and quickly secures the spot next to David on the couch* *sees Hans serve David and carefully position the plate on his tray and hand him the cutlery* *then hears him announce: “Now everyone may help themselves!”* *laughs when immediately everyone starts bustling noisily to serve themselves* *leans back a little and grabs a pillow, puts it in his lap and puts the plate on the pillow* Thanks, Hans… enjoy!

David: *smiles when Matteo sits down next to him and leans his knee against Matteo’s* *then hears Linn say: “It’s nice that you’re back again… and Matteo, as well…”* *grins slightly* True, he basically wasn’t really here, either… I’m sorry that I stole him from you guys… *hears Michi: “I think everyone here forgives you. It’s normal that you want your loved ones around you when you’re at the hospital…”* *then accepts the plate from Hans and thanks him* *grins when everyone else is throwing themselves at the food and waits until everyone has their food before also saying* Enjoy! And yes, thank you for cooking and getting everyone together and so on… *sees Hans wave it off: “Poppycock, enjoy the food, guys! I’m glad that I have all my sheep together again… only Mia is missing, then we’d be complete.” and hears Michi: “You do realize that David and Laura will move out again once Mia comes back? I feel like you like to suppress that fact…” and Laura: “Oh, speaking of, David! I’m going to check out two apartments this week… if there’s a fit for us, then I’ll send you photos… once you’re fit again then you’ll just join me, okay?”* *is a little surprised that Laura has already started looking for apartments, but should have figured it because it really is sensible* *but still doesn’t really want to deal with the topic and therefore only nods* Okay, we’ll do that… thanks! *hears Hans groan: “Please just let me suppress this topic for as long as possible and stop talking about it…”*

Matteo: *grins slightly at Linn’s words but is mostly preoccupied with eating* *only perks his ears again when Laura says that she has apartments to look at* *can feel a small tug and doesn’t like that one bit* *feels like he and David haven’t really been able to enjoy living together properly because there was always something going on* *doesn’t want them to already look for apartments again* *but doesn’t say anything, of course* *is quite glad when Hans says that he wants to suppress that topic* *looks up and sees that Alex is looking over at him and that he smiles slightly when he looks at him* *then hears him say: “I talked to Mia on the phone yesterday, she told me to say a hearty hi to everyone… maybe we could take a photo for her later. Oh and Hans, she said that she has prepared a package with you know what.”*

David: *is quite glad that Hans says they should stop talking about it, because he doesn’t really want to deal with it just yet, himself* *is therefore relieved when Alex changes the topic and smiles slightly* Tell her hi back… *nods at the photo and then looks at Hans curiously when Alex mentions that Mia is going to send him a package* *can see that everyone else is also looking at him curiously and that Hans is getting a little embarrassed and has to grin* *hears him cover it up by saying: “Oh, how wonderful! We’ll definitely take a photo for her after dinner!”* *then hears Laura: “What is she sending you!?”* *now grins a little wider and says* I’d also like to know that. And why is it only you who gets something and we don’t!? *looks at Alex questioningly, who only shrugs his shoulders: “Don’t ask me, I don’t know anything - I’m only the messenger!”* *slightly lifts his eyebrows and looks back at Hans questioningly, who only says: “Maybe Mia simply loves me more than you guys…”* *sees Linn shake her head seriously: “I don’t think so. Alex comes first, then there’s Hanna, then Kiki, then Amira and Sam on the same level, and then us - also on the same level. I just don’t know on which level the other boys are… maybe I’ll ask Mia…”* *has to chuckle slightly, nods and looks back at Hans questioningly*

Matteo: *smiles slightly when the topic really changes and they’re talking about Mia and Hans and her package for him* *then smiles even more when Linn tries to put people in an order* I don’t think that Mia even has a fixed order… I think she loves all of us, just differently… *sees Linn looking at him, apparently considering it, and then sees her nod: “I like that, yes, I love all of you, just differently.”* *hears Laura choke on her drink and looks over to her in worry* *then hears Alex again: “But I still have one question: Why does it actually only say Laura in the cleaning roster on the kitchen? Did she lose a bet?”* *hears Hans laugh and shake his head: “That was Matteo, no idea why… Laura, do you know why? Did you annoy him?”*

David: *smiles at Matteo’s idea that Mia loves everyone equally but just differently, but can see Alex lifting his eyebrows skeptically* *can somehow also understand that a little* *then hears Linn and smiles even more because that somehow fits her* *briefly looks at Laura when she chokes, but can see that she’s quickly okay on her own again and that she doesn’t need help* *was just about to say that for him, Matteo is definitely in first place, but afterwards probably everyone else, just differently, when Alex asks the question about the cleaning roster* *grins slightly but hears Laura groan: “When I talked to Matteo for the first time back at the neon party, I said that it’s a cool apartment and asked if there’s a cleaning roster… no idea why. Was just smalltalk somehow to start up a conversation with the guy my brother was constantly talking about…”* *groans* Exactly… /constantly/… *hears Hans laugh: “Feel free to admit it, my butterfly-boyfriend… it’s nice…”* *sees him turn to Matteo: “And you figured if she’s asking about the cleaning roster so offensively then she can clean by herself for a month?!”* *hears Alex: “Umm, does that mean that no one really cleaned up here properly in two weeks!?”*

Matteo: *grins slightly at Laura’s answer* Exactly, smalltalk… and what did you think you’d learn about me with this topic? *then also laughs when David immediately complains and nudges him slightly* It’s okay… *then also sees Laura grin again: “Yes, definitely constantly… Laura, this guy was really sooo cool and I was totally stupid… Laura, he has a girlfriend… Laura no, really, there’s nothing going on… Laura, we only ate a sandwich… Laura, I’m really stupid, why did I text him that?”* *bites down on his bottom lip a little* *finds it really a bummer that Laura just says all of this here* *therefore says* Well, I felt the same… I just didn’t have anyone to complain to… well, Hans a little and later the boys… but that’s just what it’s like, right? *sees Hans nod quickly: “Absolutely! If you’re in love then you need someone to let it all out to.”* *presses his lips together when it’s quiet for a moment and then hears Alex say: “You guys do realize that no one answered the cleaning question?”* *laughs slightly and then says* Well, I didn’t clean, I was barely here…

David: *grins slightly at Matteo’s question to Laura, but then looks at her a little warningly when she disagrees with him* *blushes when she really starts and says pleadingly and admonishingly* Laura, stop it… *then gets really embarrassed when she continues and would love to sink into the couch because he’s so embarrassed* *looks at her angrily, but doesn’t want to get into it with her in front of everyone, but still thinks that it’s a no-go and that he urgently has to talk to her* *is grateful to Matteo and Hans that they immediately show solidarity with him, presses his knee a little more against Matteo’s and murmurs at Hans’ words* You should just be careful that you don’t let it out to the wrong people… *finds the silence that arises afterwards pretty uncomfortable and pokes around in his food* *then hears Alex ask about the cleaning roster again and has to chuckle slightly* *is glad that he breaks the silence and nods at Matteo’s words, because he actually barely did anything, either* *hears Hans: “Well, I thought Laura does everything… it said so on the roster…” and Laura: “As if… pfff” and then Linn: “I just cleaned everything a little bit because I didn’t know if it was my turn…”* *then has to grin a little, after all, and hears Michi: “Well at least someone…”* *looks at Linn lovingly and compassionately at the same time* Oh, Linn… *then looks at everyone* Let’s update the cleaning roster… and Linn gets the next two weeks off, because she was the only one who did anything the last two weeks…

Matteo: *looks at Linn in surprise* Thanks, Linn, that’s nice of you… *only sees her smile* *then nods vigorously at David’s words* Yes, I’m also in favor of that… and I can make a new one, I’m the one who messed up the old one… *sees everyone nod and Michi and Alex only grin* *hears Michi say to Alex: “Are you also glad sometimes that you don’t live at a flatshare?”* *hears Alex answer: “I’m especially glad that I have a cleaning lady.”* *laughs slightly* Snob… *sees him shrug: “I can live quite well with that.”* *also shrugs one shoulder and then continues eating*

David: *nods at Matteo’s suggestion* I like that, thanks! *then grins slightly at the exchange of words between Alex and Michi, and also at Matteo’s comment* If I had the money then I’d also have one… *then also continues eating and talks to the other some more* *can feel that the mood between Laura and him is pretty chilly once again, but realizes after some time that he can live with that quite well right now - because he thinks that whatever is bothering or burdening her at the moment doesn’t justify her making him look like a fool in front of everyone* *still plans on talking to her as soon as possible* *then gets ordered by everyone to stay sitting there while the dishes are brought back to the kitchen, and feels a little bad that the others have to do all the work* *afterwards, he sits together with the others for a little longer, leaning against Matteo a little, but notices at some point that it’s getting really exhausting, that he has to lie down and that most of all, he has to take some painkillers* *eventually says quietly* I think I have to go lie down… *sees Hans jump up immediately and take the tray off his lap, where he had put his glass down: “Sure… you really managed quite long… can we do anything else for you? Do you need anything? Something to drink delivered to your bedside? Anything else?”* *smiles and tiredly shakes his head* No, thanks, everything’s good… *looks at Alex* Thanks again for picking me up… and for carrying everything… and for pulling me out of the car… *and to Hans* …and thank you for cooking and catering… *sees both of them wave it off and then lifts himself up off the couch with quite some pain, but tries to not let anything show*

Matteo: *is sitting together with the others, one arm loosely wrapped around David* *then hears him say quietly that he has to lie down* *looks at him proudly and is happy that he is taking care of himself* *smiles slightly when everyone jumps up and when Hans immediately coddles him* *tries to help him with getting up* *grins at Hans* I’ll take over from here… thanks… *then waves at everyone again, especially at Alex* See you… *goes to their room with David and hurries to the bed to throw the blanket back and fluff up the pillow and lean it against the wall* Is it okay like that? Or do you need more pillows? Should I get Hans’ tray for you? Reaching to your side doesn’t really work, does it? I’ll just go get it and also some water… or do you want something else? *doesn’t really notice that he’s doing the same thing Hans just did, but simply wants David to feel comfortable*

David: *grins slightly when Matteo says that he’ll take over from here, also says his goodbyes to everyone and hears Alex say that he’ll also leave now* *goes to their room with Matteo and smiles when he immediately fixes the bed for him* *then has to chuckle despite his tiredness and pain when he starts babbling and offering help just like Hans, and steps toward him* *puts his arms on his hips and looks at him lovingly* *hesitates briefly and then says* I’ll tell you if I need anything, okay? *smiles* The pillows are enough and so is our nightstand… water would be good… *pulls him a little closer toward him and kisses him* *then looks at him again and says quietly* But what I need the most is you… *grins slightly and adds* …and a painkiller…

Matteo: *takes a deep breath when David comes toward him and touches him* *smiles slightly* Yes, please… *then nods* Okay… *realizes that he must have been similarly jittery and overprotective* Sorry… but I… just want you to be okay, alright? *sighs when he says that he needs him* *then laughs slightly at his addition* Okay, water, painkiller, me… I can get all of that… *kisses him quickly and runs a hand through his hair* You go lie down and I’ll get everything, ok? *lets go of him and looks for his bag* *but can’t see it* Did you already unpack your stuff? Where are your painkillers?

David: *looks slightly worried when Matteo takes a deep breath* *doesn’t want him to worry, but knows that the situation isn’t really easy for him, either* *slightly shakes his head when he apologizes, but then nods* I promised to tell you and that I’ll take care of myself, okay? And you’re still allowed to worry… that’s okay… because I know that you can’t just turn it off so easily, anyways. But… everything’s good, okay? *then smiles when he says that he can get all of that and asks with a slight grin* You can get yourself? Very good… *kisses him back and then nods* I’ll just quickly go to the bathroom to brush my teeth and to pee and then I’ll lie down… then I won’t have to get up again… *turns to the door, but then hears Matteo’s question* *points next to the wardrobe where his bag is sitting* I started… until Alex ordered me to lie back down again… the painkillers are in the toiletry bag… *knows that he should slowly discontinue using them and decided to only take one in the morning and at night over the next few days*

Matteo: *nods and smiles slightly at David*s little speech* Okay, everything’s good… and I’ll try to worry less even though I’m allowed to… *grins slightly* *nods when he says that he’ll go to the bathroom* *then sees his bag and goes over to it* Don’t you need the toiletry bag? *sees David grin and nod* *pulls it from the bag* *takes out the painkillers and then hands the bag to David, who disappears to the bathroom* *puts the painkillers on the small shelf next to the bed* *sees the MP3 player that David gave him* *takes it and puts it on the desk, because now he doesn’t need it anymore to fall asleep* *goes to the kitchen and gets a big bottle of water and two glasses* *brings it back to the room* *then goes to the wardrobe and takes out a sleep shirt for David, because they’re up high in the wardrobe* *then kisses David when he comes back in and then also goes to the bathroom*

David: *is already on his way to the door when Matteo asks him about the toiletry bag* *grins, because he’s so out of it, and takes it from him* It was a long day, I can’t think straight anymore… *then disappears to the bathroom, pees, washes himself and brushes his teeth* *thinks about how nice it is to be back here again and feels his heart swell at the thought of finally being able to fall asleep next to Matteo again in a minute* *goes back to Matteo's room after rinsing his mouth and sees that he already prepared everything and that he even got a fresh sleep shirt for him from the wardrobe* *tenderly runs a hand over Matteo’s side when he kisses him, before he also disappears to the bathroom, and murmurs quietly* Thanks… *then takes off his shirt and puts his sleep shirt on with some effort, and steps out of his pants* *then pours water for himself and Matteo into the glasses and finally takes his painkiller before lying down in the bed* *takes a deep breath and feels a tugging and burning in his belly, because sitting up for so long really was pretty exhausting, but can also feel his body slowly relaxing thanks to lying down and the well-known and familiar surroundings* *hopes that the painkiller will kick in soon and waits for Matteo with a smile*

Matteo: *comes back into the room, only wearing boxer shorts* *grins at David and then drops his dirty laundry on the armchair* *pulls his sleep shirt out from under the blanket on his side, and puts it on* *then crawls under the blanket and holds an arm out* Better if you lie down on me than the other way around, right? *sees David nod and smile and feels him lie down on him* *wraps his arm around him and kisses his head* *breathes him in and is suddenly surrounded by the typical David-smell* *thinks that he’s really here, with him, in their bed, sound and healthy and well on is way to getting better* *suddenly feels a wave of tension and stress from the last few days, and actually weeks, falling off of him and suddenly hears himself sob* *doesn’t even know where that’s coming from and quickly swallows hard* *but can already feel tears and buries his face in David’s hair*

David: *can feel his heart skip a beat when Matteo finally joins him, and smiles broadly when he holds his arms out* *humms in agreement and says quietly* I think so… tomorrow, we’ll try it the other way round… *closes the last few centimeters between them and ignores the pain when he has to strain his abdominal muscles to do so, because he knows that he can relax again in a second and even turns a little onto his side, so that he can put an arm down on Matteo’s belly* *takes a deep breath and can feel how happy he is to be back here again… in their room, but especially with Matteo, and how good it feels to know that tonight, there won’t be a night nurse coming in to kick Matteo out* *was just about to close his eyes to enjoy the moment even more when he suddenly hears a sob* *at first thinks that he misheard it, but then hears him swallow and can feel him burying his face in his hair* *can feel everything inside him constrict at the thought that Matteo might really be crying, moves away from him a little and turns his head upward so that he can look at him* *murmurs quietly and comfortingly* Hey… *ignores all the pain and stretches up to kiss his chin* *runs his hand over his stomach, until he reaches Matteo’s cheek and strokes over it* *asks a little insecurely but lovingly* What’s wrong, tesorino?

Matteo: *snuffles slightly and somehow thinks of himself as pretty stupid and silly right now* *then feels David move and quickly wipes over his face* *presses his lips together when he hears his “hey”* *swallows when he feels his hand but can’t look at him* *but then hears his question and looks at him, after all* *wipes over his eyes again but then has to let out another sob, just because David is so great and tender and worried and simply there* I don’t know… *sees his skeptical look* Really… I don’t know… I’m not sad… I *takes a deep breath* I… that somehow has to get out apparently…

David: *sees Matteo wipe over his face and feels a small lump in his throat when he realizes that Matteo really is crying* *is glad when he finally looks at him, after all, and tries a confident little smile to signal him that everything is okay* *tenderly slips his hand a little higher and wipes a tear off his cheek* *then hears him say that he isn’t sad and is at first a little relieved, but then also thinks that it just might have been too much for Matteo over the last few days* *nods slightly when he says that it somehow has to get out and, ignoring the pain, scoots a little upward* *kisses him tenderly on the mouth and says quietly* I’m here… you can let it all out… *tries to pull him a little closer by slipping his hand to the back of his neck, but isn’t really strong enough yet to really support and hold him the way he wants to* *therefore murmurs quietly* Come here…

Matteo: *sighs when he gets kissed* *snuffles pretty loudly when he hears his words and can somehow only nod right now* *still feels weird and somehow floaty but also heavy at the same time* *then rolls a little closer to David when he lifts his hand much too high again* *lightly puts his head against his shoulder, but is careful to not put too much weight onto him* *nudges his nose against his neck but feels like he’s getting his shirt all wet with his tears* *but feels that the crying just won’t stop and that one time, his whole body even shakes* *therefore simply keeps pressing close to David and wraps his arm around him* *thinks that it doesn’t matter anymore, anyways, and that he can just finish crying, whatever the reason*

David: *tenderly strokes over Matteo’s cheek when the tears are still flowing, before he tries to pull him closer* *is glad that Matteo turns toward him and squeezes him a little closer* *lets him cry, strokes his back and kisses his hair* *can feel that he’s also getting a small lump in his throat, simply because this overwhelms him a lot, but swallows it down to be there for Matteo* *can feel his neck and shirt getting wet, but doesn’t care about it at all right now* *is glad and a little proud that Matteo lets it out - whatever the reason for it - that he trusts him, and just hopes that he’ll feel better afterwards* *squeezes him closer when his entire body shakes and quietly murmurs some random words to show him that he’s here* Everything’s okay… *kisses his hair again and whispers quietly* I love you so much… everything’s okay… *thinks that maybe all of the tension from the last few weeks is falling off him right now and realizes only now how much this must have been for him - the move, the Voluntary Year, the weekend seminar, the surgery, worrying about him, commuting to and from the hospital - and that Matteo barely had time to take a breather and to rest* *plans on making sure over the next few days that he can relax a little*

Matteo: *had considered holding back the tears earlier* *but has now given up on that and simply sobs quietly into David’s neck* *can feel and also hear his words* *can also feel that they register with him and that they calm him down, but also that his body apparently isn’t done crying* *but then eventually feels the tears lessening, after all, and the sobbing, as well* *but remains lying down like this and can feel that, miraculously, he really feels better* *he also feels weird because of the crying, but also more relaxed* *sighs slightly and presses a tender kiss against David’s neck before slowly pulling away and looking up at him* *presses his lips together and grimaces slightly because he doesn’t know what to say* *but then sees David’s worried expression and says* I think I’m done…

David: *can feel Matteo’s shaking lessen a little at some point and also that the sobbing lessens* *simply holds him and runs a comforting hand over his back and through his hair* *has forgotten about his own pain for now - maybe the painkiller is also working by now* *eventually hears Matteo sigh and feels a kiss on his neck* *smiles slightly, but gets serious again when he slowly pulls away* *looks at him worried and tenderly strokes a strand of hair off his forehead* *then has to grin slightly when he says that he thinks he’s done and asks a little teasingly* Sure? *then kisses him and sighs quietly* *looks at him lovingly and then says quietly* The last few weeks really were a lot… it probably really just had to get out… *wants to tell him that he should take care of himself and that he has to make sure that it isn’t getting too much for him, but bites back on it for now*

Matteo: *smiles slightly when he asks so teasingly* *thinks that he really loves him very much* *nods* Yes, sure… I’m finished with crying… *then gets kissed and can kiss back better this time* *swallows slightly when he says that the last few weeks really were a lot* *would usually deny it, claim that it was a lot more for David and that he doesn’t know why he’s being so difficult* *but then looks at David and remembers his recording and that he wants to be there for him and thinks that it really should be a give and take in a relationship* *therefore nods slightly* Yes, maybe it really was a little too much… *slowly rolls onto his back again, or rather halfway onto his side and tenderly pulls David close* …still no excuse to lie on your scars… sorry…

David: *smiles when he confirms that he’s sure to have finished crying* *then nods seriously when he confirms that it was a lot and thinks in hindsight that Matteo managed to keep afloat for a really long time and that he probably would have managed it a lot longer if he had to* *growls slightly when he rolls away from him, but scoots after him and positions himself halfway on his shoulder again* *softly hits him on the stomach when he apologizes and says with a slight grin* It wasn’t about me for a change but about you… if I had been in unbearable pain I would have told you… *then looks up at him again and says more seriously* Let’s take it easier again over the next few days… only you and I after work… relaxing and chilling and resting and taking a breather and rest, okay?

Matteo: *laughs slightly when he hits him on the stomach* Yeees, sorry, sorry, okay… *looks down to him when he gets more serious and listens to him* *smiles tenderly and moves his head so that he can kiss him* Sounds fantastic… we’ll do that… *kisses him again and then looks at him tenderly* *smiles slightly and then says quietly* Ti amo, tesorino… *puts his head back again and runs his hand through David’s hair* Let’s sleep, okay? I have to get up earlier tomorrow, but I’ll let you sleep, ok?

David: *grins satisfied when Matteo apologizes, but even more so because he’s laughing again* *is glad that he agrees to take it easier over the next few days, smiles and murmurs quietly* Good… *then kisses him back and quietly sighs into the kiss* *then looks at him to see if everything’s alright again, but can see him smile and smiles back automatically* *then hears his words and can feel it getting warm in his gut and feels his heart do a little jump out of love* *beams and kisses his chin when Matteo runs a hand through his hair* *quietly murmurs against his skin* Ti amo… *humms in agreement to his question and says* Maybe we’ll still see each other… I’m still in the hospital rhythm… *then turns onto his other side with some difficulty and slight pain and reaches out for the lamp on the nightstand to switch it off* *then lies down in a relaxed position and reaches for Matteo’s hand on his stomach* *closes his eyes and grumbles slightly in pleasure* *whispers quietly* It’s so nice to be back with you again…

Matteo: *feels his heart speed up when David says “ti amo”* *then also humms slightly* Yes, well, but that was also pretty early for you… *entwines their fingers when he reaches for his hand and presses a kiss to his head again* *grumbles pleasantly* *then smiles at his words and feels how true it is* *murmurs quietly* So nice… *then scoots into position a little more and pulls the blanket up* Sleep tight, Schreibner…

David: *humms in agreement, because he also found the time at which he was woken up in the hospital unbearably early* *realizes that he’s really pretty groggy and tired but happy and content to be back here again* *tenderly rubs his thumb over the back of Matteo’s hand when he entwines their fingers* *smiles when Matteo agrees and cuddles a little closer to him after he pulled the blanket up* *sighs quietly and then murmurs* Dream of us, Florenzi… *closes his eyes and falls soundly asleep pretty quickly*

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