I’m never gonna get over this in Alex’s tv tropes section. Like really? This guy isn’t camp at all and fulfils no gay stereotypes?
Alex is a sassy, judgemental, emotional, pink-loving dancer, he’s stereotypical as hell and that’s great! Because he isn’t just a stereotype, he’s still a three dimensional character. But apparently all it takes to be a straight gay is to not be a walking caricature
Julie likes to borrow people’s clothes as a comfort thing. A visual, sensory, physical reminder that she’s loved and she has a little piece of that person with her sometimes. It helps her feel more grounded and present and it helps when she has bad days.
Before her mom died, it was less about comfort and a little more about being one of her love languages.
She was only friends with Flynn for four months before she ‘stole’ Flynn’s monster slippers for a few days. Now it’s a standard part of their Christmas presents to each other. They get a new pair of slippers and wear them once or twice before swapping for the new year.
Before things went down with Carrie, the three of them had clothes stashed at each other’s houses and weren’t shy about wearing whatever they grabbed first. Julie came to school once when she was 12 wearing Flynn’s cheetah print hat, Carries pink sweatshirt, and her own jeans she’d doodled on.
She borrowed her dads shirts for playing pirate queen when she was little.
But after her mom died it became a little more about keeping the people she loved closer to her. A reminder that they were there and loved her and everything was okay. And she wears her moms clothes sometimes to help her feel a bit closer. Her mom was gone but sometimes, when julie pulled a sweater out from the back of the closet, it still smelled like her moms perfume, and when she wrapped herself up in the warm, soft material it almost felt like being wrapped in her moms arms when she was small. For just a minute, it’s like having her back again. Then the feeling fades and Julies left with a time worn sweater with its fading scent, and it’s still enough, for now. It’s not the same, not at all, but it makes it a little bit easier to get through the day when all she wants to do is crawl back into bed with her head under the pillow and forget the world for the day.
She wears one of Carlos’s hats the entire week he’s gone at baseball camp the first summer after her mom died, reminding herself that it’s fine, and Carlos is fine, and he’ll be home in a week, and everything will be fine.
We already see in canon that she wears a lot of her moms clothes for performances because it helps her to feel closer to her mom. You can’t tell me julie wouldn’t have her own. Eventually she stops wearing her moms clothes for everyday activities, but even years down the road, Julie still incorporates something of her moms into each performance outfit. A dahlia pin, a necklace, a belt, etc.
Slowly as Julie heals and grows, borrowing clothes slowly regains some of the playfullness and affection it had before. It’s still got some of the needing an anchor bit that it had before but it’s not the only thing keeping her afloat anymore.
The first summer after Julie and the Phantoms was formed. Julies summer wardrobe consisted half of her own clothes and half Luke’s cut off shirts because “It’s really fucking hot outside Luke and these are more comfortable than anything else I own.” Luke just about dies a second time the first time he pops into Julie’s room while she’s laying across the foot of her bed, scribbling in her song book, and he sees that she’s wearing a pair of cut offs and his Rush shirt. You would think after the first few times he would be used to it but the boys brain glitches every time. Flynn thinks it’s hilarious.
She falls asleep in the studio one night and walks up warm and content with Reggie’s leather jacket draped over her. The boys are out for the morning and she’s running late so she slips her hands in the sleeves and wears it to school for the day. Luke trips over the air when she walks in that afternoon wearing it because Julie and leather jacket and pretty and adorable. He doesn’t even clock that it’s Reggie’s until Julie is handing it back at the end of the night with a soft smile and a thank you.
Julie wouldn’t dare to borrow Alex’s fanny pack, it’s sacred. No ones really sure exactly what he keeps in there but he always has exactly what they need. Reggie’s convinced it’s magic and Julie almost agrees, but Alex’s pink sweatshirt on the other hand, that’s fair game. It’s softer and cozier than it looks and it becomes julies new favorite thing. Alex is fine with it. Sometimes he grumbles about being cold but he just curls into Willie instead and always cuts her off when she offers it back.
Flynn won’t say it out loud but sometimes she buys clothes that are more Julies style than her own because Julie hates buying new clothes but she loves borrowing (and keeping) them and Julie needs some new, cute clothes in her wardrobe because while her boys may be cute, none of them have good fashion sense. Except for maybe Alex, but his style is more 90’s gay icon which is incredible but not really Julies thing. So flynn gets a new sweater or a dress and wears it a few times, maybe leaves it out when julie comes over or throws an extra jacket in her backpack on days that she knows julie was up late writing with Luke and would likely forget her lunch, a text book and at least a jacket on her mad dash out the door. It’s what Flynn called working the system. Julie got to show her affection and cute clothes, and Flynn got to play stylist. It was the best of both worlds.
A year later, when Carrie wants to talk and apologizes, when they slowly work their way back into a friendship. Julie fishes one of the triple threat shirts she had stashed in the back of her closet that she liked to forget she kept and pulls it on under a hoodie before school that day. Thankfully they’d messed up when they were ordering the shirts and ordered adult sizing instead of youth. So it fit perfectly at 17 where they’d been night shirts at 8. Interestingly enough, Carries also wearing a sweatshirt that day and Julie catches a glimpse the familiar lettering of -antoms on the back of the shirt underneath when they’re changing for PE. The day they both wore something that reminded them of the other without talking about it or showing it off, was the day the tentative part of tentative friendship was finally removed. There’s still some days where old hurts ache a bit more than usual because even small wounds leave scars, and some of the wounds were far from small. Sometimes Carrie starts to mention rose and Julie flinches. Just a bit, it wouldn’t even be super noticeable if they hadn’t known each other that well, if carrie hadn’t spent a year watching Julie flinch every time she opened her mouth. Carrie hates a lot of things about herself, but that one, that one was by far the worst. Not everything can be forgiven, but they can move forward and sometimes that’s enough.
Idk this got super long and idk if it makes sense anymore and I’m too lazy to edit it but JULIE MOLINA IS A CLOTHES THIEF and I love that for her. Also I might fuck around and flesh this out into a fic later when I’m not so slammed with wips.
-Julie wears sweaters 24/7. She just finds them so comfortable and the weather gives her the excuse. (Bonus- Luke loves Julie with sweater paws and finds them adorable on her even though he'd never admit it)
-Flynn has the BEST candles for the season and they wear the most spooky themed outfits they can find.
-Reggie pre-dying would probably get a sugar high and also try to convince the others to dress up and them to go as a group (One time he succeeded and got them to dress as ghosts. So the name of "The Phantoms" is fitting in two ways for them.)
-Luke loves and hates fall. He probably loves jumping in leaves and the general feeling of the holiday but the cold weather means that he can't wear sleevless shirts as often.
-Alex likes to go on walks and look at the changing colors, it calms him (especially when he gets anxious) he loves the colors that the tress turn in to.
-Willie will jump into leaf piles and would wear a lot of sweaters, too. But at the HGC it's much more classy so he doesn't get to go all out but they still love it. (Alex and Willie once went on a date which was just them walking around and having fun. Willie got Alex to jump in leaf piles with him)
-Nick's favorite part of the season is the activies for Halloween. Specifically the pumpkin patch and trick-or-treating. He loves to go with his little sister and dress up with her.
-Carrie likes to bake a lot during these seasons, she'll always have some kind of pumpkin spice food or drink. Her and Flynn have the best movie nights together. (I'm ignoring cannon and going to say they're currently friends and/or girlfriends.)
-Ray plans Halloween movies for the entire month leading up to it. When Carlos and Julie were little he made sure they weren't scary but now that they're a little bit older they watch some scary things.
-Carlos is in love with trick or treating, not so much the dressing up, but the candy.
-Rose made Carlos and Julie's costumes every year. (Julie and Carlos now find Halloween hard sometimes but it gets better as time goes on)
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“I know it’s tough, man,” Reggie said, actually sounding sympathetic. “People say you never forget your first ghost, and maybe that’s true. But I’m sure there’ll be others.”
Who says that? It didn’t matter; Reggie was just trying to make me feel better. “Thanks, Reg,” I said.
After talking about the thing, The necklace is probably how they recognized Bobby so instantly? Like he NEVER took the thing off, even when they were alive. It was something always constantly on him, it took a moment with the eyes , they look so old
(This is the last one of these I’m going to do! Thank you for sending it ☺️)
“My parents hate me,” he said bluntly.
Willie blinked, carefully analysing Alex’s face, trying his best to figure out if it was a joke or not. He came to the conclusion that it was not a joke, judging by the barely perceptible tremor in Alex’s voice and the way his eyes were wiped clean of any emotion, but if it had been a joke then it would most certainly not have been a funny one.
It didn’t make sense in any case. In what universe could anyone hate Alex Mercer? Alex, whose presence was guaranteed to light up any room with all the light and warmth of the brightest star. Alex, who had talent beyond belief that he would never acknowledge because he was sweet and quiet and modest. Alex, who Willie loved more than anything else in this world, his heart skipping a dozen beats every time Alex so much as glanced in his general direction. Only someone without a soul could hate Alex Mercer.
“I’m sure they don’t,” he said quietly. Even as he said it, Willie knew those words wouldn’t help - Alex’s blank face and set jaw told him that much. Sure enough, Alex shook his head resolutely when Willie spoke.
“They do,” he told him. “They hate me. Because I’m gay, because I have anxiety, because I’m in the band… there’s no part of who I am that fits the version of me they’ve thought up, and they hate me for it.”
Gently, Willie took Alex’s hand, fiddling absently with his long fingers.
“Then maybe,” he said slowly, “you shouldn’t spend so much time trying to please them.”
Alex scoffed. “What, so they can just hate me even more?”
“No,” Willie replied. “So you can be happy. Why waste your time trying to satisfy people who are never going to be satisfied by you? Or people who put you down just for existing? I don’t want to tell you what to do, they’re your parents, not mine, but at the very least you should stop holding yourself accountable for things about you they deem less than perfect. Because you’re not, Alex. You’re not less than perfect. You are your own special kind of perfection and there will always be someone out there who loves you for it.”
A small, hopeful smile crept onto Alex’s face. “Really?”
“Yep,” Willie returned, grinning. “And in your case, that person who loves you is me.”
okay so i'm fully blaming @curvesomesunsets and this post specifically because i now have many thoughts head full and also ouch
as stated in the post willie feels the need to be useful, and even though he's afraid of caleb he offers him as a choice to be useful, to be able to helpe because maybe then alex will keep talking to him and that's heartbreaking but also offers up so many possibilietes
first though, i think alex has shown willie throughout the series that they don't need to be useful for him to want to hang out with them, considering all that he says (i would've still followed you as a general admission of his feelings which hey, i wrote a small rant-essay about willex in like january if you want to know why i think that that's a pivotal point in their relationship)
obviously the kind of trauma and issues willie has aren't going to go away because of one thing alex did, and considering he's very obviously feeling incredibly guilty for bringing the boys to caleb, which ended up being harmful and quite nearly killing them, willie now thinks he's gotta make it up by being even more useful (the bus, "i'd do anything for you")
and obviously caleb is at fault for next to everything here, because he's manipulative and straight up a bitch and has harmed willie and had them in his clutches for decades at this point, and willie is too afraid to stand up against him (which is entirely understandable)
so my point is, i really really want to see alex do that for willie. not because willie needs saving or is some damsel in distress, i just think that alex, who willie thinks he's brought bad luck to, pushing himself in front of willie and defending him would mean so so much, and like. it'd be incredibly enjoyable to watch
we know alex is painted as the emotional one but we shouldn't forget the boy was out and proud in a homophobic household in the 90's, so he has the boys obviously but he's also just brave as fuck, and he's passionate about those he loves, and he's a bitch (and i love him so much), so he really should just rip caleb a new one
like. idk how it'd happen but i just wanna see alex defend willie, eyes blazing and so angry at this man who's hurt him, and his friends and willie, and who tried to rob him of the good things in life. and willie behind him, staring at alex and realising that oh, he cares, and it doesn't matter if willie is "useful" or not to alex, he cares just like that
@ kenny ortega, sir please
and more importantly @/netflix you sluts, renew the show
This scene is unironically one of my favourite moments of the entire show. Because the differences in the boys’ reactions are just so interesting to me.
When Caleb mentions that they can be together, Reggie stands completely still and just stares at him with an unchanging expression. He’s completely frozen, to a degree we’ve never seen from Reggie. Every other time we see him get anxious, he ends up playing with something to release some anxious energy, but this time he’s just. Still. It looks like a complete fear response: he’s so nervous that he can’t even fidget.
He’s the most physical with Luke - which appeals to Luke’s love of physical touch. He can’t touch Julie but he can touch anybody else at the club. That combined with the offer of music should have made him incredibly interested, but the only reaction he gives is a minuscule drawing together of his eyebrows. He says himself, it would be cool to play at the club and it was awesome to be seen by lifers, so he’s interested, sure. But the appeal never went deeper than that. At the end of the day, Luke doesn’t care about the club. He’s never gonna do more than be slightly intrigued.
But then there’s Alex. When he realises Willie and their feelings for each other are being used against him, he has a complete postural change. He shifts his weight slightly backwards, putting space between himself and Caleb, and moving closer to the safety that is his friends. He starts in a neutral position but moves to hold his drumsticks in front of him. We see him use drumming and his sticks in general to help his anxiety: he’s literally using his comfort items as a block.
He’s the only one to do such a big physical change. Reggie’s terrified and Luke’s nervous, but Alex is clearly uncomfortable. Because he’s the only one with a genuine connection to the club, he’s the one being forced to choose between people. If he took the deal to be with Willie, he’d never see the boys again. But if he refused and crossed over/got destroyed alongside the guys, he’d lose Willie. The guys have nothing to gain by taking the deal (beyond the obvious), but Alex does. He’s the only one who wants to take the deal. It’s literally a single second but it shows so much about Alex’s uncertainty about his priorities and its so amazing
So @pink-flame has been killing it with the one sentence drabble prompts and this one in particular got my brain whirring in a teensy bit different, crack-lite, way. So with her permission i’m using the original sentence and the first two sentences of her drabble to write it. It’s, of course, longer than a real drabble because i don’t know the meaning of brief, except as underwear. (i’d say that’s my only terrible joke for the day, but i’m kidding nobody😅)
Luke was running, panicked, dream box in hand. When they had figured out that Caleb was possessing that Nick kid, he had hoped that would be the worst of it. He hadn't realized how much worse it could get, that the light behind Julie's eyes could go out as Caleb slid into her mind and took control.
They had been so focused on what Caleb might do to the Phantoms, that him possessing Julie caught them by surprise. But Luke knew something that Caleb didn't. He knew that Julie was kind, compassionate, and a wrecking ball of talent. And on top of all that, she also had zero problem calling people out if they crossed a line, which he was hoping to remind her of in the dumbest way possible. Slowing to a halt in front of the studio, he pulls on the confidence he used to use to sweet-talk his way out of detention when they were alive. Stepping through the door, he holds the dream box up in triumph as three sets of eyes land on him, one unfamiliar from the coldness they directed at him.
"Luke! We thought you went to get something to help Julie!" Alex's eyes have started to bug out.
"Guys, relax. When will we ever get a better opportunity to see the killer lyrics kept locked away in this box?"
“Oohhhh. Julie is going to re-kill you when this is over.” Reggie mumbles.
Luke sets the box down on top of the piano and looks up at Julie's body, which has drifted closer to him. Behind Caleb's cold stare, he sees the beginning of sparks. It takes everything in him to not sigh in relief at the first sign he’s gotten that Julie is still in there. "Is this really what you want to do with the remainder of your freedom, Lucas?"
It doesn't even sound like Julie. The tone crisp and lacking the compassion Luke's used to. "Of course it is! Julie is a killer writer but she refuses to share that with the world!" he hopes he plays up the frustration in his voice convincingly. "She's too insecure. Unwilling to push herself out there and it’s been holding us back.”
Julie’s left hand slowly started to clench during his speech and it doesn’t look like Caleb noticed.
“wha- mph!” Alex slaps his hand over Reggie’s mouth, eyes picking up the clenched fist like Luke had.
“So if you will give me just a second, I’m going to see what I can salvage.” Luke makes a big show of going to open the dream box.
“BOUNDRIES!” Luke can’t help the grin and sigh of relief at the familiar shout. “You guys can’t just going into people’s personal stuff! And Caleb, you can’t just take over random people’s bodies. It’s creepy and weird. Get out, get out, GET OUT!”
Julie’s body stumbles forward but catches itself with the piano, a purple cloud pouring out of her mouth. Caleb appears on the floor, winded and confused. Julie looks up, glaring daggers at Luke.
His smile gets even bigger. “Welcome back, Boss.” Human wrecking ball indeed!
when he’s alive again, the first thing alex feels is the jumpstart of his heart in his chest. he inhales sharply, realizes his toes are cold, and shoots julie an incredulous look. judging by the gasps from luke and reggie next to him in their circle, they’re feeling the same thing.
and julie. she’s just grinning, her irises swirling between an otherworldly purple and her normal brown.
“hi, boys,” she says warmly, rising from her knees to cross the circle and drag all three of them into a hug. “it worked.”
alex can feel a pulse in his chest. he can hear luke and reggie breathing normally again. it worked.
“did it…?” alex starts.
julie brushes a kiss against alex’s cheek as she sits back. “willie’s already alive. outside and waiting on you, goldilocks.”
“you brought us all back,” alex mumbles.
julie smiles. “we all saved each other, alex. go find your guy. bet he’s got a heartbeat worth dying for,” she teases, her nose wrinkling and making alex laugh.
(she’s right. willie’s heartbeat is alex’s new favorite rhythm.)
his first real panic attack is a week later.
they’ve planned a small party to celebrate, and julie and alex agree to be the ones in charge of the shopping. and going through the store is fine, picking out some games and some new outfits for the boys is fine, but.
but then they’re looking for groceries, and everything’s picked over, and so they won’t be able to do an ice cream bar or have the taco sauce ray was raving about.
julie says it’s fine and moves on, but every aisle has a problem, and there’s so many people and the warehouse environment of the store seems to make the noise worse and -
“julie,” alex says, his hands going knuckle white around the cart handle. “jules. julie, I can’t breathe. I can’t….”
to her credit, she hears him right away. immediately, she’s tossing whatever’s in her hand into the cart and stepping toward alex instead, her hands on his arms. “look at me,” she encourages gently, squeezing his wrists. “what would help the most? leaving?”
“we have to get stuff and they don’t have it and…”
“alex, is it too much? Is this store too much right now?”
he thinks he nods, but he doesn’t remember. all he knows is julie’s hand is in his, helping him out of the store and to the parking lot, their cart abandoned inside. she helps him into the passenger seat and then sits in the driver’s seat, turning the air on high and moving a few of the vents in alex’s direction.
“breathe, alex,” she encourages quietly, taking his hand and squeezing it. “you’re doing great. we’re out of the store. it’s quieter here. you can let all of that go.”
when he’s calmer, when julie’s turned down the a/c, alex admits, “i actually kind of forgot what a panic attack felt like. downside to being alive again, I guess.”
“we’ll figure it out,” julie promises. “there’s medications now. there’s therapies to try. we’ll do some research.”
“and all the groceries and shit we didn’t pick up?”
julie smiles. “we’ll just order online. you can relax, goldi.”
alex visibly sinks into the passenger seat and laughs. “order online. maybe the future’s not so bad after all.”
i know a lot of people take the moment where luke is like “oooo you have a crush, i’m happy for you” as like a lalex moment, but pushing that aside i really just think that alex doesn’t want to talk about his crush on willie because he grew up gay in the 1990’s. as confident as he must be to have been able to come out to his friends and family, i’m sure he still has a lot of internalized homophobia. while he knows luke and reggie love and support him no matter what, this could be his first real crush or his first crush he thinks he actually has a shot with and he’s scared of how luke and reggie might react to that.
no but willie thinks he has to be useful to be worth something, to be loved, that's why he decides to bring the boys to caleb. he speaks up about it because he sees how dejected alex and the boys look, and you can just see the moment he goes “oh shit what if i’m not useful to them anymore”.
“i know a ghost that might be able to help you guys” and he’s back in the running, and can spend more time with alex, can continue being useful and won’t be left behind.
and we all know that's 100% caleb's fault. caleb, who seems just like the type of guy to make anything even resembling affection conditional to willie’s success at bringing in new ghosts or whichever other jobs caleb sees fit. caleb, who makes sure to let willie know how sad it would be to see him grow obsolete, so he better keep finding new souls for the club. caleb, who has willie’s soul and tells willie it’s so easy to be rid of somebody that is no longer profitable to the club.
so willie makes sure to keep being useful, even if he wonders if caleb really will help the boys, if it’s such a good idea to tell caleb about them. but it’s better than being useless, better than alex thinking he’s got nothing else to offer.
So some take the ability to make gifs away from me. I just- Luke in this scene is everything. The across the piano move, the stuttering and the way he just straight dives onto the couch without thinking.