#all bb songs are so. exactly the same AND exactly very boring . sorry !

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

About Dazed, but not the same anon!

I’m so frustrated with those interviews… It always lacks depth, barely scratches the surface. I want to know more, I want more substance. I wish the interviewer would ask better questions or try to push a bit more, it’s just lazy work every time.

Again on this topic about Jungkook wanting to be bigger and cool : while I understand what he means by being bigger, you explained it well, I would also love to know what it’s like for him to be "cool". Does he have a role model in mind? is it about a specific image he wants to achieve? Why is it so important for him? Right now it just sounds a bit shallow and superficial and not a very clear goal that could be reached for. Being bigger as an artist can be objectively quantified, with BB charts sales numbers, radio spins, awards and so on (though we could discuss that…). Being cool, on the other hand, is something that you end up being, almost accidentally? For me it sounds as weird as saying I would like to be seen as a humble person, for eg. You don’t get to define yourself as so, it’s one of those qualities that it’s up to others to determine if you are or not, how can it be something you reach for, especially if you verbalize it so loudly? I don’t think it’s something you can work towards. It’s too subjective, not like you have to tick certain boxes and then that’s it, here you are, a cool guy lol. It’s a consequence of your personality, your actions, not a goal. Or am I being too obtuse? I know I tend to be lol English isn’t my first language so I’m struggling to put my thoughts into words.

I’m just a bit skeptical because the goals he’s setting for himself seem too vague and an easy way to getting lost. It almost sounds like a dead end to me. I’ve always find him cool, and paradoxically now the more he’s saying he wants to be like this bla-bla-bla, the less I’m perceiving him that way. It’s like when a person you admire or your love interest for eg says something and suddenly they start to lose their aura/magic. It’s like a turn off. Sorry, I’m being a bit too harsh. But I guess if his role model is someone like Bieber then it’s only logical I’m losing the plot, that guy is the epitome of a caricature to me, the exact opposite of cool, precisely because it’s so obvious he has tried so hard to be so it looks fake, like a facade. Please Jungkook, you already are cool, what are you talking about 😐

Hey different anon! Yeah, these interviews are always pretty boring. Unless Jungkook or the members develop their thoughts they won't be asked follow up questions. I think the interviewers choose not to push them sometimes, even without the language barrier. RM and Suga often give good interviews where they get asked interesting questions, but perhaps interviewers expect less of the other members? In the sense that they don't know whether to push them or not, so they choose not to?

But the worst part is that this article read like a fic. It was cringe.

Hmm, I get what you mean, but I think Jungkook's "cool" isn't exactly the English "cool". If you know a little of Korean you probably know the word he's using, which he's used to express what he wanted his legacy as BTS to be. He once said he wanted people to look back at BTS and say "they were cool" (or something like that). "Cool" is kind of an all-encompassing word that means good and enjoyable, in a simple, digestible way, and not necessarily smooth, charming, cold, and other ideas related to "coolness". It's like Jungkook just wants people to remember BTS fondly, like it's enough to be an artist that people enjoy in a very simple, comfortable way, even if it's just one song or performance. Rather than iconic, once in a lifetime group, I guess he just wants BTS to be a group people look back on and say "BTS? Oh, I remember them, they were cool". I don't know, it's simple and innocent, and actually not that ambitious?

On the other hand, Jungkook has always talked about wanting to become a cooler performer and show cooler performances. In fact, that's something all idols says. But it still raises the question of what a cooler performer and performance means to him. We know he's usually a bit dissatisfied after he performs and that he feels like he's lacking in many ways. We also know he wants to look sharp, mature, sexy, powerful, and that's surely part of becoming "cooler" - it's like he wants to become his ideal self and be less Jungkook. I remember Jungkook saying he loves the Seven choreo because it's cool, while I personally find it weak and basic. But it's laid back and "sexy", and he thinks that kind of performance is cool.

Jungkook is very hyperactive and kpop is very excessive. It sounds like maybe Jungkook wants to tone it down, make his performances look more approachable and "effortless" (other concepts related to being "cool"). Maybe this all comes down to his maknae image and not wanting it to limit him, or to be perceived that way forever? So Jungkook becoming cooler is becoming someone who can surprise people and put on laid back performances that look effortless? I'm, once again, reminded of Bieber. I think Jungkook very much admires him and thinks he's a cool performer. He mentioned enjoying him at the Grammys although Bieber didn't dance or do anything special. Jungkook is someone who wears his heart on his sleeve, and maybe he wants to be colder, cooler, and not the goofy cutie we see him as. I can relate to that tbh, because I feel stupid sometimes because I'm too smiley and openly emotional.

Maybe it's not shallow, maybe it's coming from a place of insecurity? We know that, despite recent improvements, Jungkook isn't actually a very confident person, but he's trying to become someone he can be proud of - his ideal self - and, to him, that is simply someone "cool". A cool artist, a cool performer, a cool person. Maybe Jungkook doesn't really know how to express the image he has in his head any better than this? But, yeah, I also disagree with what I think his idea of cool is. And just like the ambition to become "bigger", it's not really an attainable goal. You can always climb higher, in theory. Will there ever be a point at which Jungkook feels like he's "cool enough"? It's doubtful.

So, yeah, I get your skepticism about Jungkook wanting to become "cooler" and how that makes him less cool, but it's not really about being pretentious. I think Jungkook really feels like he's lacking and wants to become a cooler artist, in every sense of the word, but I do feel like he's getting stuck on the idea of coolness being sexiness, manliness, nonchalance.

I don't even know if I agreed or disagreed with you haha. What did I even conclude? Not sure, but thanks for the ask!

#ask #bts #jungkook #text #thanks for the ask!

[ezmarie]

hii <3 hope you are having a nice day / afternoon / night, could request a matchup for haikyuu? ( of course if you don't mind )

i'm too excited because i really like how you express yourself in matchups

my pronouns are she/her, i'm bisexual and infp

i am too stubborn and dramatic a person, i acted before thinking, my mood can change very quickly, my love language is words of affirmation and physical contact

i am very dependent, i depend a lot on people, i like it when people tell me their things because i feel that they trust me and it makes me feel happy to be able to help

i never tried this, but i would like to ever see the stars next to someone, and talk about deep talks for hours

i show my love when someone shows me first, i am ashamed to be with many people, when I feel safe and comfortable in an environment i can talk for hours

i am too thoughtful even in the smallest things, i love to watch movies that leave you like the open mouth (for example fight club)

i think one of my main fears is being alone, i am an optimistic person for others but for myself i am too pessimistic

my zodiac sign is aquarius, but I feel more identified with my ascendant who is taurus

something that makes me very happy is to be at night while i drive and listen to music and stick my head outside seeing the whole landscape

in a couple i look for a sense of humor and someone with whom i can talk for hours about conspiracy theories or mystery cases,and something very important for me is to feel safe and comfortable with my partner, that we share the things that bother us and make us feel bad

i think something that always happens to me is that no matter where I am, something always hit me or I fall

i think my type of music is more calm and depressed, one of my songs is little talks (i recommend it, it is beautiful and it reminds me of my comfort characters)

and sparks for coldplay that kind of song is what I like so much

that would be all, sorry for my English is that it is not my first language :((, although I should have asked you this first but how do you feel? even though we don't know each other, you know you have my support, i hope you feel good but if not, things will be fixed (and I know it sounds like typical cliche) but in the end everything will be fixed and never give up on anything <33

OMG HI BB nice to see youuu! I am having a nice day thank you for asking! and PLEASE youre so sweet like that last part brought me to tears I-🥺😭 but I ship you with...daichi!!!

(I said I would and you guys are too compatible sooo😼😌) Daichi is a pretty composed and chill guy which I think is a good match for your personality. Daichi is actually a very comforting and caring person to those he cares about so it’s no surprise that he’ll try and make it as comfortable as possible in your relationship. He knows that way you’ll be able to be yourself without having to worry about anything, which is exactly what he wants, for you to be your authentic self. That’s something he actually really likes in people is when they’re real and not fake, which is one of the many reasons he fell for you in the first place because even if you’re a little shy at first you are yourself. He LOVES when you talk a lot to him because he knows you feel comfortable and safe and that’s all he wants, he also just loves hearing you talk because he adores the sparkle in your eyes when you talk about something you love so passionately, like conspiracies or mysteries. Also, usually daichi is seen as very responsible and mature, but he actually has a lot of childish moments that others just don’t see. That goes along with his sense of humor because he’s very funny but when alone with you he’s just very goofy. That’s because he doesn’t feel like he has to hide himself around you and that’s just one reason he adores you so much.

I feel like daichi loves how stubborn you are, he finds it adorable, funny, and attractive at the same time. He just loves how you don’t give up, whether out of spite or because you just wanna win. Either way I feel you two could both be very stubborn when you want to and it’s hilarious honestly. He really appreciates how you think before you act because it gives you a sense of maturity that he admires. Daichi is a leader so he doesn’t make very many reckless decisions and I think that he likes you aren’t impulsive when it comes to that. It also causes your relationship to be very stable and healthy because you’re thoughtful of the others feelings and what you should do in situations where you might not know. Speaking of thoughtful, he literally thinks you’re an ANGEL (so do I ahjdhs) Like the fact that you’re so considerate and thoughtful of everyone just melts his heart. You always look on the bright side for others and lift them up which he just adores about you. Also with most people daichi isn’t particularly fond of being dramatic, but with you he finds it adorable like everything else about you. It honestly just gives you more character which he loves. Same thing with your dependent nature, he’s totally fine with you being dependent of him because then in that case he can feel like he’s protecting you but with others not so much. He just loves every part of you and he always wants to be able to protect and comfort you.

Scenarios with the two of you:

•you two just sitting on your roof in the middle of the night watching the stars and cuddling while little talks plays quietly from your phone. You two just talked for HOURS on end and the convo never got boring (the heat also died down a little since it was nighttime so the temperature was perfect)

•you two taking a nighttime drive while blasting your favorite music and rolling down your window to feel the breeze. You also stuck your head out the window and he laughed a bit and did the same so you two were just appreciating nature in comfortable silence

•you always fall so one time you tripped and he caught you bridal style and you lowkey got embarrassed but he shook it off and carried you around while playfully joking about how youre clumsy

BAHDHSH I rlly hope you like this i feel like you two would be SO cute together like 🥰🥺 #daichina2021 😼🤚HAHA

#haikyuu!! #haikyuu matchups #sawamura daichi #daichi #my ship has sailed yet again #pls ily #Petals ✿ #agustina ♡

[cassiabaggins]

Where There’s A Will Part Three

A/N: Okay so I said I wasn’t gonna write another chapter for this Friday, but I got inspired, and if I had stopped the executive dysfunction would have ruined everything so it’s 3:23 am and I am sorry and my eyes hurt from looking at my laptop screen even if the brightness is down all the way... :/ I am a fool.... I did cry a lil writing parts of this...

Parts: one, two

Taglist:  @legolaslovely @strictlynofrills @d3-iseefire @i-am-still-bb @fridayfirefly @floralfi

Warnings: slight language

Rating: T

Summary: Will finds out about Fili’s old band

“What are you listening to, kiddo?” Fili asks. Will is sitting crosslegged on the ground, with headphones on, Kili’s iphone in his lap. He doesn’t respond, so Fili reaches down and tugs lightly at the top of the headphones. “Buddy?”

Will looks up at him, pausing the video. “Hi, Dad.”

“Are you holding up okay? Not too bored, right? We don’t have much longer, I’m almost done.”

“Okay!”

“What are you listening to?”

“Kili said you guys had a band when you were younger. He showed me your guys’ songs on YouTube.”

“Oh no,” Fili says.

“You guys were good! Why did you stop?”

“Uh, there was a conflict of interests.”

“What?”

“We had a big fight.”

“Why?”

“I don’t remember buddy, it was a long time ago.”

“How long?”

“I don’t know, something like ten years ago.”

~Ten Years Earlier~

“What are you doing?" Kili asks, dropping his backpack down on the kitchen table. Fili doesn’t even bother to look up from his laptop.

"Take a wild guess."

"Homework?"

"College applications."

"Around here?"

"New York."

"What?! Why?”

“Because that’s where Meghan is applying.”

Kili makes a face. “Ugh. Meghan.”

That makes Fili look up, and he fixes his younger brother with a glare. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“I don’t like Meghan.”

“Yeah? Well, it’s a good thing I’m dating her, and not you.”

Kili crosses his arms over his chest, glaring down at his brother, looking much too petulant for his fifteen years. “You don’t have time for me anymore since you started dating her! She always has to come along to everything, and now you’re gonna move away to go to college with her?! What about me?”

“What about you?” Fili says callously, “my life doesn’t have to revolve around you, you know.”

“Oh, but it can revolve around your girlfriend, huh?”

“God, shut up! Don’t you have homework or a hobby you can do instead of distracting me?”

“I mean, I thought we were gonna practice tonight, but you’re clearly too busy.”

“Clearly. Get lost.”

Kili huffs and gets lost, stomping up the stairs, and Fili hears a bedroom door slam shut, the whine of an amp turning on, and then the house is filled with discordant guitar chords. Fili glares at the ceiling. What a brat. He works for another fifteen minutes, but Kili’s jamming only gets louder until the windows are practically vibrating in their sills. 

“SHUT UP!!!!!” Fili roars, slamming Kili’s bedroom door open. His brother spins around on his desk stool, guitar still on his knee, and makes direct eye contact with him and strums another obnoxious chord. “Are you kidding me?” Fili splutters. “Shut up! I’m trying to work!”

“You aren’t my dad,” Kili says.

“Yeah, if I were Dad, I would have smashed that stupid guitar by now!”

Kili jumps up. “Shut up! Dad liked my playing!”

“No one likes your playing, Kili,” Fili says, knowing perfectly well he’s going too far, and also far too angry to stop. “They’re just being nice.”

“Shut the fuck up!” Kili shouts, “Get out of my room!” He storms over and slams the door in Fili’s face. 

Fili kicks the bottom of the door, mumbling rude things under his breath, and wanders back downstairs.

Mom doesn’t get home until the sun has set. Fili is still at the kitchen table, doing homework now (meaning he’s texting Meghan with his math textbook open in front of him) and eating cereal. It’s quiet upstairs, Kili hasn’t touched his guitar in hours, nor has he emerged from his room. 

“Where’s your brother?” Dis asks, affectionately ruffling Fili’s hair and bending to kiss his head. 

“In his room.”

She sighs. “Again? It’s been almost a year since…” she trails off. “I thought he was back to normal. He went to school, right?”

“Yeah,” Fili says, reluctant to tell his mom that it’s his fault Kili has holed himself up again. “He even went out with friends after classes.”

“That’s good! He’s acting more like himself, then. What happened between then and now?”

Fili shrugs one shoulder noncommitedly. “I dunno. I’m not his dad.”

“Fili,” Dis says, sitting down beside him at the table. “What happened?”

He looks away from her. “He thinks he can dictate where I go to college, now. He hates my girlfriend, hates that I play sports, hates that I have friends other than him… he needs to realize that my life doesn’t revolve around him and his happiness.”

“Oh, sweetie,” Dis murmurs, “he’s just scared of losing you like we lost Dad.”

Fili blows out a breath. “What, so I can’t go to college on the off chance I’ll die or something? That’s not fair!”

“Of course not, love, but you know how Kili is. He’s just clinging to you because he needs stability. He needs a constant.”

“Can’t he cling to you? Or Thorin? Or Frerin? Or literally anyone else?”

“Well, a fifteen year old boy is hardly going to want to tell all the things he’s feeling to his mom, and Thorin is gone all the time, and Frerin… well… he’s not exactly fit for being a dad.”

“Neither am I! I’m seventeen! I have my own damn life! I don’t want to spend it fathering my little brother!”

“You don’t have to father him, Fili. Just be there for him.”

“Well,” Fili glares. “Maybe I don’t want to. I lost my dad, too, you know!” He stands with a jerk, gathering his homework into his arms and storming up to his room.

.

The next day dawns annoyingly bright, and Fili goes to school alone. Kili still hasn’t emerged from his room, and he can’t quite bring himself to care, still simmering with resentment. There’s a baseball game that night, and they crush the opposing team, and Kili isn’t in the bleachers, and Fili almost misses him. Only it's hard to miss your little brother when you have a very pretty girlfriend cheering for you instead. 

.

Three months later, Fili graduates summa cum laude from high school, the top of his class and earns a baseball scholarship to a college in New York, the same college Meghan has chosen for herself. The two of them spend long nights that summer, planning their futures, away from families and responsibilities, doing their own things and becoming their own people. And Fili barely spends any time at all with Kili, and he feels far less guilty than he should. It all comes to a head one day in August.

.

"Fili!" Kili slams open his brother's bedroom door. "Wake up! Guess what?!"

Fili groans and rolls over, glaring at his brother. "What?"

"Guess!" Kili cries, bouncing up and down on the balls of his feet like an excited puppy. "Guess! Guess!"

The older brother sighs, covering his face. "I don't know, Kili, what?"

"I got us a gig!" Kili blurts, "well, potentially. Maybe. They'll pay us and everything, like I showed them the recordings we made last summer and they liked it enough to pay us!"

"A gig? For what? Who?"

"Bombur! At his cafe! You know how he dies live music sometimes! I asked him and he said we could play for their music night next month! Isn't that awesome! We're like, a real band now! With fans and things!"

Fili puts his head in his hands. "Kili, I'm leaving for college at the end of this week."

Kili stops moving. "Since when?"

"Since always! Me and Meghan planned this ages ago, we're heading out on Friday! I can't be here for your 'gig'. I have a life!"

"Were you ever going to tell me? Or were you just gonna leave and never come home?"

"I told you, you didn't listen! Now you're guilting me!"

"You didn't tell me! You're just going! Just like everyone else! What about our band?"

"What about it? It's not even a real band! It's not like we're going to be famous or anything!"

"We could if you practiced once and a while!"

"Oh, so it's my fault?"

"Yeah! You always have something going on! Like a game or homework or a date! You never spend time with me anymore!”

“I have a life, Kili, one that doesn’t revolve around my fifteen year old brother and his inability to make friends beside me!”

“Shut up! I have friends!”

“So hang out with them! Have them be in your band! It was your idea, anyway.”

“I don’t want them to be in our band! It’s ours!”

“Says who? I’m sure Frerin would be happy to take my place!”

“I just want something to share with my brother!” Kili shouts. “Just me and you! I don’t want Frerin to be in it! I want you to!”

“Well, maybe I don’t want to be in the band anymore!” Fili snaps.

“But Dad said…”

“Dad said what?”

“He said we should start a band! It was his idea! Not mine!”

“Yeah, he did, but he’s gone now. I don’t want to be in your band and I don’t want to be your replacement for Dad!”

Kili’s face screws up. “You can’t replace Dad. Dad actually cared about me. Unlike you.”

“Yeah,” Fili says sarcastically, “you got me! I hate you! I always have!” He spits the last part out with a bit more vehemence and sincerity than he means to and Kili catches it, his brown eyes filling with tears. “Oh, you’re gonna cry now?” Fili spits, “real mature.”

“I hate you!” Kili yells. “I hate you, I hate you, I hate you! I never want to see you again!”

“Fine! Me neither!”

“Fine!”

Kili slams the door with a thundering crash and Fili flops back against his pillows, covering his eyes. The back door slams with the same vigor as his bedroom door, and peering out the window he spies Kili sprint across the backyard, hop the fence, and disappear into the woods. There’s a telltale painful burning in the back of Fili’s throat, the kind he always shoves way down because he hates crying so much. Because if he cries he won’t stop. He grabs a shoe off the ground and throws it across the room as hard as he can. It hits his trophy shelf and knocks a few down with a loud clatter.

Fili and Kili don’t talk for the rest of the week. They avoid each other like the plague, and Dis is far too stressed with bills and keeping the garage afloat that she barely even notices. On Friday, Meghan and her parents show up bright and early, and Fili and Frerin load his stuff into the uhaul they rented. Uncle Frerin and Mom are there to see him off, but Thorin is travelling again.

“Where’s your brother?” Meghan asks, tossing her ponytail over her shoulder. Fili shrugs. 

“I dunno.”

“He finally stopped following you around? He’s so needy. It’s a good thing he’s cute.”

Fili fixes her a glare, and she giggles, pressing a kiss to his lips. “Don’t worry, you’re my favorite.”

Dis comes out then, before things get any more interesting, with a soft sided cooler. “I packed you two snacks for the road. I know you guys bought some, too, but this is like sandwiches, so you have actual food. I feel bad I can’t do more

“Don’t worry about it,” Meghan’s dad says, taking the cooler from her. “It’s really no trouble, we were going there anyway and it’s good to have another driver, too.”

“I’d offer to come,” Dis tells them, “but I’m so busy now, and my job…”

Meghan’s mom, a chubby, sweet little woman, laughs and waves her hand. “Oh, don’t worry, hon, it’s no trouble at all. Your position isn’t easy, we’ll see Fili safely there.”

“I’m so glad you two are coming with. When Fili first proposed this idea to me, I was wary. Two eighteen year olds taking a cross country road trip? Fili’s awfully responsible, but he’s not that responsible, you know?”

“I dunno, I think he’d be fine,” Frerin says, knocking Fili’s shoulder with his. “He’d probably only hit a few pedestrians.”

Meghan’s mom laughs again. Fili zones out of the conversation, glancing up absently towards Kili’s bedroom window. He catches sight of his brother’s too long brown hair as he turns away, and debates going up there to say goodbye. To apologize. But then Meghan wraps her arms around his waist and rests her chin on his shoulder and he gets distracted.

They all load into the car, Fili giving his mom one last hug. She reaches up and cups his face. “Be smart, and be safe,” she tell him. “I love you to the moon and back, okay?”

“Okay. I love you, too.”

“Make sure you call me when you arrive safely, okay? And text me if anything goes wrong. If you need to come home, you can, I’ll buy you a plane ticket, no questions asked. I promise.”

“Mom, I’m not gonna make you buy me a plane ticket if I get homesick or something, geez. And I won’t get in trouble. What, do you think I’ll turn into a partier and call you in a few months because I got pregnant or something?”

Dis swats him lightly. “Don’t be ridiculous. Get gone.”

Fili laughs, hugs his mom and uncle one last time, and climbs into the back seat beside Megan. He leans out the window to wave as they pull out of the driveway, looking up to the Kili’s window, just in case. It’s empty, and Fili is left with that burning feeling in the back of his throat once again.

~Present Day~

“Fili!” Kili sprints into the Garage, leaping over Will, who’s seated on the ground near the door, still using his phone to listen to music. Fili looks up from the guts of a chevy truck. 

“Yeah?”

“We got a gig!”

“A gig?”

“Yeah!”

“What’s a gig?” Will asks, wandering over and handing Kili back his iPhone. Kili pockets it, putting his hand on the boy’s head and wobbling him around. “A gig is a live performance for a band.”

Wili giggles, grabbing Kili’s hand. “Like a concert?”

“Yeah, kinda.”

Fili frowns. “I’m sorry, Kili, I’m not following you. At all.”

“I was just talking to Bombur. You know how they have those music nights at his cafe?”

“Yeah, I’m aware.”

“Well, the band for this week’s fell through, and they already have things all planned and they need a band to play and he asked if we could.”

“We haven’t played for an audience in years, though,” Fili says nervously. “Are you sure this is a good idea?”

“C’mon,” Kili wheedles. “It’ll be fun. Mostly just people around town, people we know. It’s highly unlikely we’re gonna be laughed off stage. You can play your cajon and I’ll play my guitar and sing. Like old times.”

“C’mon, Dad!” Will says excitedly, “You’ve gotta! I want to see you play!”

Fili looks down at Will, then at Kili, the both of their brown eyes wide and hopeful, and sighs. “I’m gonna regret this, but fine. Fine.”

Kili whoops excitedly, scooping Will into his arms and spinning him around. “You hear that, little guy? You’re dad and I are a real band now!”

Frerin pops his head out the the office. “Hey! Kili! Get to work! I don’t pay you to mess around!”

“You don’t pay me regardless!” Kili laughs, setting Will down and jogging over to his uncle. “Guess what?”

Will reaches over and takes Fili’s hand. “Can I come to the gig?” he asks.

“We’ll see, kiddo,” Fili says. “We’ll see.”

#fili #kili #will #frerin #dis #thorin oakenshield #where theres a will theres a way #where theres a will #wtawtaw #my writing #fic #fili fic #mechanic fili #mechanic Kili #single dad au #single dad fili #single dad!Fili #single parent au #fili friday

[bangtan-chats-and-memes]

Tagged by @justinjeonseagull thanks bb <3

Rules: Complete the survey and tag five people when you are finished

1. Are you named after someone? No. But my Grandmother on my moms side thinks I’m named after her. In reality my mom just always wanted a daughter named Anna. Sorry Grandma!

2. When was the last time you cried? This morning XD I woke up from a really creepy dream that I was visiting a family friend when he starting acting weird and sexually suggestive, and I felt uncomfortable so I called my parents but they did nothing and the guy let me run out while he “prepared” for me so I ran into a nearby abandoned house and hid in the basement and as I heard him creeping down the stairs to come get me and drag me back I woke up crying. It was a really weird experience I’m not going to lie, and I don’t think I can ever look at that family friend the same way again! XD

3. Do you like your handwriting? I mean it’s functional? I’ve never really had a problem with it and I also just don’t see people’s obsessions with handwriting so I guess I like mine!

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? Filet Anerican AKA that weird orange spreadable lunch meat that no one quite knows for sure which animal it exactly came from.

5. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yeah. I like to believe I am a supportive and kind friend. A friend that will make you feel wanted and cared for, but in the smaller things that I do. But maybe that’s just cuz I like myself.

6. Do you use sarcasm? Yeah. Not as much as I used to though.

7. Do you still have your tonsils? Yup and I still got my wisdom teeth too!

8. Would you bungee jump? I have. So skydiving is next!

9. What is your favorite kind of cereal? Honey Nut Cheerios. Tastes best with warm milk FITE ME. Or just try warming your milk in the morning tastes great. Does make your cereal soggy though so if you can’t stand it I guess you won’t enjoy the sweet sweet taste of warm cereal *Shakes head slowly*

10. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Who does? Also my shoes have zippers soooo

11. Do you think your a strong person? Physically I can carry my own weight. It’s hard for me to run into things I can’t lift. But I don’t work out at all so my limit is probs 100 pounds for a bit. Mentally? Absolutely. 

12. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? Vanilla because I’m a basic bitch.

13. What is the first thing you notice about people? Their clothing. I think I evaluate a lot of a persons character based on the way they dress themselves. But this is only at first.

14. Red or pink? I prefer pink because there are so many shades off it.

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? My forehead for sure. I looked into a forehead reduction surgery and it’s like 7k so like no thanks, but I dunno.  don’t like how far up my hairline is and I can’t hide it with bangs because my face is to long to sport bangs and AHHSAH

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? Well it’s currently 5:13 am so I’m definitely not wearing pants or shoes.. 

17. What is the last thing you ate? Some Pad Thai from a fancy Chinese place yesterday for my brothers birthday.

18. What are you listening to right now? The sound of my industrial sized fan pushing hot air around. But my go to songs right now are the songs on GDs new album. 

19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? I dunno. The one with the most ridiculous name. Laser Lemon. It is decided.

20. Favorite smell? The smell of clean. I prefer it when something doesn’t have an overpowering scent. (Also gasoline and chlorine are forever smells that are just good in small doses)

21. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? Oh let me check…. My sister!

22. Favorite sport to watch? I don’t

23. Hair color? Blonde right now, but usually I’m a medium-light brunette.

24. Eye color? Grey-green-blue

25. Do you wear contacts? But I do wear glasses.

26. Favorite food to eat? I’m not picky anymore. As long as its not pizza or cheese I’ll try it.

27. Scary movies or comedy? I don’t like /scary/ movies, more off-putting documentaries, so I’m going to have to go with comedy. 

28. Last movie you watched? Either Moana or Big Hero 6. Watched them both on my plane ride, I just can’t remember which one I watched first.

29. What color of shirt are you wearing? Once again, 5 am, no shirt. But I am wearing a red robe.

30. Summer or winter? Winter. I love the snow and ice. Makes everything so beautiful.

31. Hugs or kisses? Haven’t had either from anyone besides family, but I guess hugs because I want someone to backhug me SO BAD.

32. What book are you currently reading? I am technically reading My Sister’s Keeper, but I don’t think I’ll continue. It does the whole switch perspectives thing, and I like the main sort of story but I really don’t care about the others motivations. It makes the story boring af, I’d rather just see it from 1 perspective, then make it a “discovering the other perspective” type story. Plus the mom’s character is so unbelievable it’s laughable. No one exists like that in real life. 

33. Who do you miss right now? I don’t really have anyone /to/ miss…

34. What is on your mouse pad? I’m not using one, but I do have a really old Creeper one from my Minecraft days. (I still play from time to time NO SHAME)

35. What is the last TV program you watched? HouseHunters, on the plane again.

36. What is the best sound? The sound of laughter so pure it’s almost silent.

37. Rolling Stones or The Beatles? Well I prefer bugs over inanimate objects. (Don’t kill me I’m only 19 I haven’t listened to either)

38. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? From America all the way to New Zealand. 

39. Do you have a special talent? I am very perceptive and have a good memory and good problem solving skills. It comes in handy as the peacemaking middle child XD.

40. Where were you born? Washington D.C. in a little house in the dead of winter.

OKAY DONE. Should I tag people? I’ll just tag @nycbtslover @0kyulkyung @ask-the-sins and other people that wanna do it!

#tags