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[plentyoffandoms]

Green (Part 12) (18+)

Gwi-nam x f/Reader

indicates that oral sex can be performed on a girl

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Just like all my other stories, this has not been proofread, but please enjoy.

Warnings: Some swearing. Oral sex (f receiving) fingering.

Am I late to this fandom? Oh hell, yes, but the show was so good.

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Gwi-nam's POV

It took her a bit longer than I expected to join me for lunch, but I knew she was mad at me.

I get why, but I had to walk away from her. I had to leave her alone in that room because if I didn't, I would have fucked her.

So when she sat beside me, I was stunned, but I didn't show it. I just put my arm over her shoulder and pulled her against my side.

I leaned in to whisper into her ear. "Don't be mad. I am going to make up for it later. Now, you are going to tell your parents you are going to Sun-Hee's after school."

"Fine." I knew she was trying to stay angry, but she knows that I will have her falling apart on my tongue later.

She was quiet as she sat with us. I know she doesn't care for Myeong-hwan. I can see it in her face every single she looks at him, but all he does is smile at her.

Like he is now. He is looking her up and down, and he actually had the nerve to lick his lips.

"So, YN." She looked at him once he said her name. "If you ever want a real man to satisfy you, you know where to find me."

The table laughed as I pretended to laugh. I felt her place her hand on my thigh and squeeze.

"And once you actually have the height of a man, maybe I will come to you, but for now, Gwi-nam is getting the job done." The table was quiet. We all know Myeong-hwan has some slight insecurities about his height.

"You fucking bitch." He started to stand, but the next few words to come out of her mouth had him stopping. "She had fun. Go see her."

"What?"

"Sun-Hee." The name seemed to have an effect on him. He nodded like he knew what she was talking about it and sat down. Still glaring at her.

The bell rang to save us from any further awkward silence. She was about to get up and leave when I placed my hand on hers, which was still on my thigh.

"What are you going to tell your parents?"

"That I am going to Sun-Hee's."

"Good. Now meet me at my car after the last class."

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She actually got to my car before I did. Once we were in the car, I drove us the opposite way from her place. We pulled up in front of my home.

"I didn't expect you to live here." YN said as I took her hand and walked quickly into the condos front foyer.

"You think I am just some poor slum? Nah, baby. Myeong-hwan's Dad isn't the only one with power." I said to her as we stepped into the elevator, and I hit the top floor button, and then I tapped my access card that my Dad and I have.

"You never told me what he does."

"He is a lawyer."

"Oh."

The rest of the elevator ride was silent. The elevator doors opened and we stepped onto the floor.

YN looked up and down, and I could see that she noticed that there were no other doors.

"We own the top two floors." I told her as I opened the door. "This is the very top floor, and it all belongs to me. My Dad has the bottom floor pretty much to himself."

"Will we be seeing him?" I shook my head no.

"He is at some dinner tonight. Won't be home until much later." The air seemed to grow thick around us the further we walked into my home.

I opened the door to my bedroom and stopped aside to let her in. I closed the door and I saw that she had jumped ever so slightly.

She was looking around my room. From the king-size bed to the floor-length closet mirrors, she is just taking it all in.

She was so preoccupied with looking around that she didn't notice that I was now right behind her.

Not until I placed my hands on her hips and leaned down to place a gentle kiss on the side of her neck.

She titled her head slightly, and I could see us in the mirror. Her eyes were closed as she enjoyed me kissing her neck.

"Get on my bed." I bit her neck, leaving another mark.

"Gwi-nam, are we?" I paused my movements and lifted my head. Her eyes were on me as she stopped talking.

"No." Was all I said. I held up her arm and snapped the green one, leaving only four left.

Indicates that oral sex can be performed on a girl.

"Now, I want you naked on my bed, legs spread." She took a step away from me as she started to take her clothes off.

I felt myself grow harder as I watched more and more of her skin show. I was palming myself through my pants, when I felt the weight of my phone. An idea popped into my head.

"I am going to capture this moment. I am going to record us."

YN'S POV:

"Gwi-nam, no." I tried to cover myself as he took his phone out. "This is only for me. Do you really think I am going to let anyone else see this? Fuck no."

I hesitated for a moment. Not fully trusting him to not leak any of this. "On one condition?"

"What?" He asked.

"I record you going down on me."

"That is fine with me, as long as you keep the phone steady. Now get on my bed." I climbed on his massive bed, his phone pointing right at me. I leaned against the headboard with too many pillows behind me, but I didn't dare complain.

Gwi-nam handed me his phone, and I had it pointing straight at him as he got on his bed and started to crawl towards me.

My legs were closed, and I didn't put up a fight as he pried them open. We haven't even started yet, and my breathing was getting heavy.

With the way he was looking at me, how could I not? He never once took his eyes off of me.

Not when he started to kiss the inside of my thighs, nipping and biting here and there along them as he worked his way towards his destination.

I moaned softly when he he started to rub my pussy to get me wetter, if that was even possible. Gwi-nam inserted one finger as he took his first lick.

I cried out his name as he started to finger and lick me. I have never had someone go down on me before, so this is an all new experience.

He inserted two more fingers as his lips wrapped around my clit. He was finger fucking me at a brutal pace, that I dropped the phone as I screamed out his name.

My head was flung back against his headboard. My hands in his hair to keep him from moving, afraid he would keep me from finishing like he did earlier.

I was so close, and he knew it. I actually felt the asshole chuckle as I started to grind against his mouth and fingers.

"Just that YN. Fuck, come on baby, finish on my tongue. I know you are close." He removed his mouth, his finger pace slowed down, but each word was accentuated with a hard thrust of his fingers.

"Look at me, YN." I opened my eyes that I didn't realise I had closed. The moment our eyes connected, he wrapped his lips once more around my clit and sucked hard.

I cried out his name as I came for hopefully not the last time at the hands of his mouth and fingers.

Gwi-nam's POV

The moment she cried out my name, I felt my cock twitch in my own pants and I came. My own eyes closed when I felt her squeeze around my fingers, and I continued to eat her out.

Thank goodness I noticed that she dropped the phone when she was gripping my hair, and I grabbed it with my free hand.

I caught the moment she cried out my name as I made her cum on my fingers and tongue. I caught the after effects it had on her.

Her body was still trembling from the aftershocks of the pleasure I just gave her.

"Gwi-nam, too much." She whined. I was going to say something snarky, but I decided against it when I could see she was becoming uncomfortable.

"Go get cleaned up. Your parents will be wondering where you are."

I didn't need for her to see that she made me cum in my own pants. Then she would think she was the one in charge of this.

Glittery Pink (Part 11) (18+) ♧ Red (Part 13)

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[the-second-tonks]

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[briseise]

you’re gonna carry that weight

#would you beleive i haven’t watched todays episodes at all. oops hope this ages well #briseiseart #bdoubleo100 #life series #limited life #there’s no spoilers i just go crazy over being dead weight and him always going off to be useful #get materials be the guard dog lay down your life so the yellow isn’t angry #im so normal about him. i am

[khaotunq]

TYPECAST: First Kanaphan edition

#first kanaphan #the eclipse #moonlight chicken #blacklist series #wolf series #only friends the series #not me the series #wake up ladies #my gifs #my edits #mine: first kanaphan #mine: typecast #userjamiec #tuserhidden #tuserrowan #tostrangers #idk if any usertags will work bc of how far down they are? but #should i use the edit tags instead of the show names? #i don't wanna use bl source or asian lgbtq~ tags bc they're not all bls #i don't fuckn no how to tag thisssss #i am in DISTRESS #i was about to say presented without further commentary but then i did my alt texts #sorry about that. #i lost my mind making this set btw #nobody's allowed to ask chiara about it #i have khaotung drafted but i have to go download a bunch of episodes to gif some of the characters #u better believe i have typecasts written for a bunch of these boys but lord knows if i'll ever do em #i didn't do kim because 1) i haven't watched the shipper and 2) i just have him described as 'dead' because i think i'm funny #i didn't do f4 or astrophile either bc i haven't watched them and don't intend to

[lord-squiggletits]

I think the key component to my personal reading of post-Delphi Pharma is that he's trying to be a horrible person on purpose. Not "on purpose" in the way that people have free will to exercise their own choices, but in that Pharma's "mad doctor" persona is a performance he puts on to deliberately embrace how much everyone else hates him. Basically, if people already think you're a "bad Autobot" and a horrible doctor who just kills his patients for fun, why try to prove otherwise to people who have already made up their minds about you? Just fully embrace the fact that people see you as an asshole. Don't try to change their minds. Don't plead for their forgiveness or understanding. Just stop caring. If you're going to be remembered as a monster, you might as well be a memorable monster, and eke as much pleasure and hedonism as you can out of it before karma catches up to you and you inevitably crash and burn.

I mean, I guess you could just go the route of "Oh, Pharma was always a fucked up creepy guy and Delphi was just him taking the mask off," but I really don't like that interpretation because, for one, it feels really wrong to take a character like Pharma becoming evil under duress and going, "Oh well clearly he did the things he did because he was evil all along," as if somehow Pharma breaking under blackmail/torture/threat of horrible death was a sign of him having poor moral character. As opposed to, you know, suffering under the very real threat of horrible death for himself and everyone he cares about while being manipulated by a guy who specializes in psychological torture.

The second reason is that it just doesn't make sense to write Pharma as having been evil all along. I mean...

Occam's Razor says that the best argument is the one with the simplest explanation. Doesn't it make way more sense to take Pharma's appearances in flashbacks, his friendship with Ratchet, his stunning medical accomplishments, and the few we see of him speaking kindly/sympathetically (or in the least charitable interpretation, at least professionally) towards his patients and conclude "This guy was just a normal person, if exceptionally talented." Taking all of these flashback appearances at face value and assuming Pharma was being genuine/honest is a way simpler and more logical explanation than trying to argue that Pharma for the past 4 million years was just faking being a good doctor/person. I mean, it's possible within the realm of headcanon, but the fact is Pharma's appearances in the story are so brief that there simply wasn't room in the story for there to be some sort of secret conspiracy/hidden manipulation behind why Pharma acted the way he did in the past.

I just can't help but look at things like Pharma's friendship with Ratchet (himself a good person and usually a fine judge of character) and the fact that even post-Delphi, pretty much every single mention of Pharma comes with some mention of "He was a good doctor for most of his life" or "He was making major headways in research [before he started killing patients]" which implies that even the Autobots themselves see Pharma's villainy as a recent turn in his life compared to how for "most of his life" he "used to be" a good doctor.

And although Pharma doesn't know this, we as the readers (and even other characters like Rung) know about Aequitas technology and the fact that it actually works, so... if Pharma really was an unrepentant murderer, why couldn't he get through the forcefield too? The Aequitas forcefield doesn't require that a person be completely morally pure and free of wrongdoing or else how could Tyrest get through, just that they feel a sense of inner peace and lack feelings of guilt. Pharma has murdered and tortured people by this point, and put on quite a campy and theatrical show of how much he sees it as a fun game, so why then can he not get through?

It circles back to my headcanon at the start of this post that the "mad doctor" persona is just that-- a persona. Delphi/post-Delphi Pharma's laughing madman personality is just so far removed from every flashback we saw of him and everything we can infer based on how other people see/saw him before that, to me, the mad doctor act is (at least in large part, if not fully) a persona that Pharma puts on to put his villainy in the forefront.

To avoid an overly simplistic/ableist take, I don't think Tarn tortured Pharma into turning crazy. To me, it's more like the constant pressure of death by horrific torture, the feeling of martyrdom as Pharma kept secret that he was the only one standing between Delphi and annihilation, the physical isolation of Messatine as well as the emotional separation from Ratchet, being forced to violate his medical oaths (pretty much the only thing Pharma's entire life has been about), etc. All of that combined traumatized Pharma to the point that the only way he could avoid cracking was to just stop caring about all of it. Because at least then, even if he's still murdering patients to save Delphi from a group of sadistic freaks, Pharma doesn't have to feel guilty and sick about doing it. As opposed to the alternatives, which were probably either going off the deep end and killing himself to escape, or confessing to what he did and getting jailed for it.

In that light, Pharma becoming a mad doctor makes sense. It avoids the bad writing tropes of "oh this character who was good his entire life was actually just evil and really good at hiding it" as well as "oh he got tortured and went crazy that's why he's so random and silly and killing people, he's crazy" and instead frames Pharma's evil as something he was forced into, to the point where in order to avoid a full psychological breakdown and keep defending Delphi, he just had to stop caring about the sanctity of life or about what other people might think of him.

Then, of course, the actual Delphi episode happens, and Pharma's own lifelong best friend Ratchet basically spits in his face and sees him as nothing more than a crazy murderer who went rogue from being a good Autobot. Then Pharma gets his hands cut off and left to die on Messatine. At that point, Pharma has not only been mentally/emotionally broken into losing his feelings of compassion, he's received the message loud and clear: He is alone. Everyone hates him. Not even his own best friend likes him any more. No one even cared enough about him to check if he actually died or not. He will only ever be remembered as a doctor who went insane and killed his patients.

So in the light of 1. Having all of your redeeming qualities be squeezed out of you one by one for the sake of survival and 2. Having your reputation and all of your positive relationships be destroyed and 3. People only know/care about you as "that doctor who became evil and killed his patients" rather than the millions of years of good service that came before.

What else is there to do but internalize the fact that you'll forever be seen as a monster and a freak, and embrace it? People already see you as a murderer for that blackmail deal you did, so why not become an actual murderer and just start killing people on a whim? People already see you as an irredeemable monster who puts a stain on the Autobot name, so why beg for their forgiveness when you could just shun them back? You've already become a murderer, a traitor, and a horrible doctor, so what's a few more evil acts added to the pile? It's not like anyone will ever forgive you or love you ever again.

Why care? Why try to hold on to your principles of compassion, kindness, medical ethics, when an entire lifetime of being a good person did nothing to save you from blackmail and then abandonment? Why put yourself through the emotional agony of feeling lonely, guilty, miserable, when you could just... stop caring, and not hurt any more?

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i'm sure the doylist reason for the writing is just that pharma was a designated villain #so since he's a villain and 'crazy' it's fine for everyone even the good guys to treat him like complete trash #i just think from a watsonian perspective taking a sympathetic approach is way more interesting and logically consistent #what i mean is like. from a meta perspective one of the best ways to show that a character is super evil and not worth saving #is when even the good guy heroes. the ones who are supposed to be kind and compassionate and wise. see him as dirt #and this is also kind of a necessity in most plots bc TF is the kind of series that just needs action villains and long-term antagonists #so not every villain is written or has a plot to be made redeemable. and pharma is one of these bc he's not important or a legacy character #so from a doylist (meta) perspective you could read the autobots' disregard of pharma as a sign of #'this guy is not meant to have your sympathy as a reader. pay no attention to him' #but from a watsonian (in universe) perspective it paints a miserable picture of pharma being utterly forsaken by the ppl he served alongsid #and like yeah i'm super autistic about pharma so of course i view him with sympathy but like #the idea of being a loyal and good person for years only to be subjected to a Torment Nexus of #being blackmailed into breaking all of the oaths you held sacred. under threat of you and all your comrades dying horrible torturous deaths #then when your comrades find out about it they focus solely on the 'harvesting organs' and not on the 'blackmail' part #and then you get literally left for dead by your comrades and best friend hating your guts #and then you get rescued by a guy who uses you as a test subject for his evil machine #this is a fucking nightmare scenario like pharma could hardly be suffering more if the author TRIED to make him suffer #and for me it's like. the evil pharma did can't be decontextualized to what drove him to that. as well as the question of like #how easily ppl can write someone off as evil and turn a blind eye to (or even find satisfaction in) their suffering bc theyre evil #and either brought it on themselves or it's just karma paying a visit #like. i feel like if pharma WERE a shitty doctor and a terrible person his whole life then the delphi situation would feel like karma #but the way it's written and the lore retroactively put in makes it feel more pharma getting thrown in a torture carousel #and THEN becoming evil. but then being treated as if he was always evil or was some sort of bad apple #bc like i'm not opposed to LOLing when a villain gets a karmic torture/death related to the wrongs they committed #but in pharma's case it feels less like karma and more like endless torture + being abandoned by ppl who should have been more loyal

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #masato arakawa #ryo aoki #snap sketches #AH jumpscare #i aint drawn aoki or masato (funny as hell i have to distinguish) in forever BYYYYYEE i miss him. i want him to be even more dead #my favorite genre of masato art is aoki killnig him so its my turn to do that. kinda. in spirit #Understandably its always aoki as the aggressor but i wanted to ask myself Can I Flip It #evidently aoki wasnt happy even with all of his power and all.. it makes me wonder how much his self hatred exists in aoki #A LOT EVIDENTLY LMAOOO but im having issues trying to articulate what i mean #aoki is very much a persona Fake Through And Through so sometimes i wonder if aoki ever gets tired of having to act all the time #he's on edge all the time and constantly trying to figure out how to use people instead of just. chilling LMAO GROW UP #he refuses to let himself be genuine and vulnerable with others yet at the same time he wants the love that comes with that #sure his new persona gives him the life he wanted but its gotta be wild to think 'people only like me for what i can do for them' #its hard to accurately describe what i was thinking while drawing these i just know i like rattling masato in a can #there's just so many layers to him it makes my brain itch SOOOO bad #having the love and sincerity he said he always wanted but not being able to see it because of his own self hatred... wild... #relatable... im gonna throw up... he still sucks tho lol...... #ok bye im gonna contemplate drawing something moody cause i guess it's a moody sunday idk sue me

[crystallinemoonlight]

still not over the fact korn murdered porsche and chay's family and then planted some lousy gambler as their guardian who ruined their lives and put them into constant debt that drove porsche to risk his health and life street fighting. it's insane. especially bc in the later episodes arthee showed a scary lack of care towards porsche, calling him naive and stupid, trying to extort him using his dead family, he did not give a shit. people don't just change like that overnight, he didn't just get evil and uncaring, that stuff was already there. and he was picked to look after two traumatized children??

korn must have done that on purpose, either to put porsche in a constantly vulnerable state he could later exploit, or to keep him busy so he'd never have the time or capacity to think too much about his family's past. there's no way he didn't know.

#no bc this drives me MAD #and he tries to be all innocent like ''oh i didn't know'' BULLSHITTTT #YOU PUT THAT MAN THERE YOURSELF #so unfair that with all those dead characters korn is the one who lives at the end #shouldve changed him with chan #chan wouldve actually given us some answers smh #kpts #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #kp the series #porsche kp #korn kp #kpts episode 14 #just some thoughts

[luck-of-the-drawings]

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[leconcombrerit]

Last one for today and I'll stop yelling stuff in the tag but this moment made me go 'uh, maybe he is up and ready to murder people after all'. That face is scary. He looks ready to cry, but more than this, he looks determined and full of anger.

Those boys have no idea what's about to happen to them. And whatever Tan's business is, I'm sure he's got the same unbending will and cold anger. You know, the kind that can simmer for three years without ever losing its intensity.

#come on little show don't betray me #you can surprise us all in any way you'd like but please please #Phee and Tan really have to be down for real business #I need them to go bat for Non #cause no one ever does that for him #he deserves to be saved or avenged #not erased even from conversation like he never existed COME ON PHEE I'M COUNTING ON YOU #dead friend forever #dff the series

[tbhimnoteasyonmyself]

On Tee's Lonely Grief

I've seen people talk about New's and Phee's grief, Pimpa's grief but the gang has never been considered that much on account of their guilt. This episode, however, brings attention to that. Especially in Tee's case. Especially in the scene when he finds Non dead.

And I have to say, I fucking love this scene. So I'm here to tell you why.

PS: For the sake of this post, unlike what's normally my policy, the pictures used will not be edited in any way, shape or form unless stated otherwise. I think it would be taking creative liberties with the photography and it would diminish the validity of my analysis.

So:

Tee finds Non's body upstairs with his uncle's goons (dressed in entirely black outfits which obviously invoke death) very suspiciously looming over it.

So he does what capable and strong Tee, who has to support himself and his father and his uncle's business and now Non (as we saw very clearly this episode) would do: He lashes out. He demands answers. He threatens people. Because that's how he learned to solve his issues.

Yet he gets mostly silence. Arguably, the same exact silence he initially offers the 2 other people grieving Non this episode: New & Phee.

And so he argues with his uncle, makes accusations, mirrors New in the present moment so well it's uncanny.

And then he's alone. Everyone leaves, including Non's body. And now there's no one to perform that idea of a strong ruthless guy to. Now it's just Tee. And the contrast between the act of Tee and Tee is remarkable: one moment he's cold, and the other moment he's completely broken.

So he screams, at the top of his lungs, which is interesting. Because we do see Tee cry but not much. Tee's just not a person who cries. Which, besides being very relatable, is also terrible. Why? Because crying relieves you. It helps you cope, it releases the tension from you, at least a bit. Tee not crying here means this (Non dying), unlike the guilt of what happened before with him and the gang bullying Non

(something he is allowed to shed at least a single poetic tear about) Is a burden he can't be relieved of. At least, not at that moment.

So we watch as Tee screams helplessly. And the environment is so telling. GOD, I FUCKING LOVE THIS SHOW

There's an empty space. Virtually nothing is there with Tee. Because, of course, he's alone in the room, we know this, but he's also alone.

No one else knows this story like Tee does. No one else has been with Non when he was a creative student trying to make a film, when there was life to him in all senses of the word and also saw his dead, lifeless body. No one else has been the cause for both Non's problems and Non's death. No one has liked Non as a friend and cared for him and watched him die without being able to do anything about it. No one in Tee's life knows what he's going through, what it feels like. No one in Tee's life is able to share his grief. And he can't escape it either.

You see that weird ass mirror there? Why is it there? There are curtains around it. But it's not a window. That's odd. But while it makes no sense decoration/architectural-wise, it makes so much sense from the point of view of symbolism.

There's no escape. Even when it really feels like there should be. Because Tee, the guy with all the solutions, should be able to find a solution, shouldn't he? Besides... We come to care so much for him and for Non... So how come there's no solution? Because, we, like these teens do to adults, naively trust the narrative. Of course, there's no solution. We all knew this from the start. We're only here because of this: Non is dead.

So, instead of a way out, a hope for something better than what's going on in that room, we get just more of it. Tee and we alike, have no escape. We're both forced to face that scene, forced to accept it. And Tee, if he dares look for that way out, will only have to face himself.

But interestingly, he never does. Tee never looks at the mirror on the wall. He doesn't even acknowledge it. Which, of course, might be a reflection (pun intended) of how he tries to pass the blame of Non's death to his uncle.

He repeatedly claims he didn't know what would happen, that he wouldn't have brought Non back if he did but... Is that true? As Perth's character (BOMBASTIC SIDE EYE, btw) says:

"You already knew, right?" Because, let's face it, it was obvious. Things could only go poorly for Non if Uncle Joe got his claws on him. Tee had to know that wouldn't end well.

So this scene also tells us that, despite deep down his immense amount of guilt telling him he is guilty of Non's death, Tee doesn't want to acknowledge it. He maintains that position, in fact, nearly all the way until the end of episode Ep.11. where he slightly changes his narrative.

He never planned to.

Right now, he's a new person. One that would not make the same mistakes as in the past but that, despite the changes, is inevitably the one who somewhere in the past did make them.

But back to the scene.

Tee is framed right in front of the blueish-grey curtains and we all know what that means, I do not need to cite the ancient scrolls. But I wanna add that grey is also:

a colour associated with sadness;

seen as a colour of death, as it is literally in greyscale, hence colourless, lifeless AND because it can also be interpreted as a mix of white and black, both of which are mourning clothes colours, depending on the culture;

a reflection of Tee's grey morality because, naturally, while we understand Tee's motivations and background, he did some pretty fucked up things that his good intentions and unhelpful help attempts cannot erase.

And then Tee finds a small paper, written by Non (in vivid blue, properly highlighting not only Non's depression but also Tee's).

And the paper reads: "I'm gonna get out of this place. I'm not a loser." And it hits him even further because Non (at least in Tee's vision, I'll leave Non's death up for debate, I'm sure people will have theories) wanted so bad to be victorious once, to succeed just once. He wanted to get a chance to live normally and it didn't happen.

This, of course, ends up shaping Tee's own path, as he meets White and gets a chance to do things "right" and as he becomes this "new person" and gets away from his uncle. But, in that moment, none of that is relevant because it hasn't happened and Tee cannot know it will, he can only know, with written proof, that he failed. And now Non's dead.

And so, in the last part of this scene, we see a more zoomed-out shot. And Tee's still alone but now we have a more clear vision of just how tiny that space is. And how he's nearly taller than the frame. How his grief is bigger than the space in which it was brought to him. But also how the weight of it, represented by the walls, is nearly crushing him. Another gigantic, and perhaps the biggest of all, responsibility on Tee's shoulders.

Furthermore, as @shannankle has marvellously described and explained in this post about sex scene framing, the framing gives us a level 3 visual gaze which is used to remind us as the audience of just how intimate and profoundly shaping of Tee this moment is: we are not supposed to be here, this moment is Tee's and Tee's alone. Because, of course, he is alone. In all senses. The access we're getting is nearly forbidden. Even to the other characters. Because they don't get to see it, they only hear about it (or we assume they do).

And, to top it all off, the cherry on top of this great scene: all of this happens while Tee is wearing his school uniform. Because, of course, it had to. Because we need to be reminded: this is a teenager. Tee, who's mourning his dead friend whose corpse he just saw and whose death is largely his fault is just a teenager.

#So yes #I might hate that Phee is apparently omniscient #but BY THE UNIVERSE AND ALL OF US IN IT #do I LOVE the care and thought put into the details of this story!!! #it's so good!! #dff #dff the series #dead friend forever the series #dead friend forever #dff meta #dead friend forever meta #dead friend forever ther series meta #dff the series meta #dff tee #tee dff #dead friend forever tee #tee dead friend forever #dff the series tee #tee dff the series

[sarxzu]

i've missed them sm

#i totally went crazy when i hear those pick up lines for the first time #like give us back these good old crazy psycho heads together again and then i can rest in peace #they have been bring me so much joy all these years and mancini took it away from us (thanks for the tv-series of that) #okay rant is over enjoy meme now. #chucky #child's play #tiffany valentine #chiffany #dead by daylight #horror memes #slasher memes

[aliciarose-art]

I’ve been rereading a series that I haven’t read for at least a decade? If anyone remembers the Gone series by Michael Grant? So yeah time to draw some of the characters!

#gone #gone series #michael grant #sam temple #astrid ellison #caine soren #diana ladris #yeah not gonna tag all the characters but you get the idea #this used to be my favourite series! #and now rereading I’m like #i was definitely too young to be reading this omg #4 hours in and 2 kids are dead already #and it’s only gonna get worse

[khaopybara]

Aren't you tired of doing this tradition every year with your mom? I can't say I'm not. What can I do? I don't have anyone yet. Hurry and find one. I can't wait to see who your lover will be. It would be great if it's that easy to find. How hard could it be? You can always be the one who makes a move. It's okay, I can do this with you, right? How many more years can you do this with me? I'll keep doing this with you for as long as I can. We'll see.

NARINTHORN NA as HONGDARUN KANSAMUT and KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as GAIPA in MOONLIGHT CHICKEN Fantasmas, Humbe

#moonlight chicken #th: moonlight chicken #narinthorn na #khaotung thanawat #gaipa #gmmtv series #gmmtv bl #thai bl #thai series #:: mygifs! #we'll pretend all the lines connect #i read online that in thailand sometimes people use purple to mourn their dead hence why this gifset is purple #i can't attest to how true that is since in the same article it said purple is bad luck where i live and i've never heard about that before #anyway mrs hong died on february 12th so this is quite late to mean anything #but march 1st was when ep 7 aired so

[neuroticbookworm]

Y'know, it's funny when you compare how the Western media industry handles a TV show in production and how Thai industry does it.

(I'm mainly talking about Only Friends here but I can see from the other show fandoms that this is how it's generally done, with varying degrees of madness, depending on the popularity of the show)

The West: Nobody can see what we're working on, this is the utmost secret that we shall protect with our lives. No information will leave this production without the explicit permission of at least 10 people. None of the actors are allowed to post ANYTHING, ANYWHERE. If we are "accidentally" papped scouting or shooting it'll be because we want to be seen

Meanwhile, Thailand: Hey you guys wanna see us casting? We're going location scouting today, wanna come along?! How about the fitting? Wanna see the cast interact with each other as the show's characters on social media? Look, we're doing scripts today! Want a sneak peek at the script? Haha we can't do that sorry, maybe one of our cast members will post a picture of it with the contents hidden, aka it's gonna look scratched out by a toddler with a crayon. Heyyyyy good morning, today we're workshopping, here's a video of the main cast reading lines from the actual SCRIPT-

#P'JOJO PLEASE 😩 #at this rate we will all be dead before release day #spare us #only friends #only friends series #only friends the series #force jiratchapong #book kasidet #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #neo trai nimtawat #mark pakin #forcebook #firstkhao #neomark

[books-are-my-life-stuff]

"All I wanted to do... was to have fun at the public pool with my friends." "If that's really it, then...you're a fool, Higurashi... You should have just told us... what you wanted sooner, back then." "If the time comes when I really become a zombie... let's go to the pool together, okay?"

Dedicated to: @apparently-artless

#zom 100 #zom 100: bucket list of the dead #zom 100: zombie ni naru made ni shitai 100 no koto #akira tendo #kanta higurashi #body horror tw #blood tw #my gifs #zom 100 anime spoilers #happy (late) holidays art!! this one is from me to you!! #i wanted to make gifs from this scene because it really moved me #and to match with your gift to me! it's simple but i hope you like it!! #i wanted to tell you that since i watched m.ash.le and reblogged a lot of gifs from mas.hle.verse #it actually motivated me to start making gifs again #i used to be kinda active in gif-making especially for ki.taro series because there are some source blogs who make gifs for it too #but after the series ended and the blogs deactivated i stopped making gifs--that and hardware limitation #seeing art's gifs from m.ash.le series really makes me want to make gifs again now that i have enough time to make some!! #so thank you for all of the motivations!! #regardless whether i follow the series you make gifs of #i always enjoy seeing your gifs in my dashboard!! #hope you have a wonderful holiday and new year!! #idk if you have watched the last episode or not but i've tagged with spoilers just in case you haven't watched it so you can avoid it!! #sorry if i'm accidentally spoiling you from my recent zom 100 gifsets ><

[priapussdick]

this is called critical thinking

#we are putting all our trust in you phi #god help us #dff the series #dead friend forever #watching ep3