#also hi life has been super busy but I'm trying to be more consistent on here again

[ros3ybabes]

Things I Currently Do For Better Health 🎀

Hi lovelies 💗

I try to live my life in alignment with my values, the biggest value being improved quality of life. I like to think I've included a lot of different things into my life to improve overall quality of health and life. So here's a list of things I do that help me with consistent improved health!

*I do not do these things every single day/every single week! Sometimes life happens, as I am a full time employee and a full time college student, so there are times I am too busy or too tired for some things. However, these are things I like to work really hard to consistently implement in my life <3

🩷 Mental (Intelect) Health -

Reading at least 1 chapter of a book, typically self help or productivity focused

Studying a 2nd language! Currently focusing on Japanese but contemplating adding in Spanish as a secondary focus

Consuming informative content! I love podcasts, and I really like watching Ted talks! And of course, the books I read tend to be more non-fiction, just from personal preference

Academics! Keeping up with my school work and academic life keeps me well informed. I'm always learning something new in my classes! I also personally enjoy studying, I lowkey love academic validation!

🩷 Mental (Emotional) Health -

Journaling! I try to follow a guided journal as often throughout the week as I can and I try to do some writing in my normal journal every so often, but honestly I've been a little too busy for journaling

Therapy! I know not everyone has access to a therapist, but I absolutely love being able to talk to a mental health professional at least once a week. My therapist has been the greatest help, especially as things have gotten more stressful in my life.

Rest! It's really important for me to have down time and not feel guilty about taking some rest time for myself. I always make sure I'm in a position to take rest without compromising school work or anything, but I try to have some time during the week where I can just lay in bed and do nothing for a while.

Meditation! This is one I'm still trying to implement, but I used to meditate for 5 to 10 minutes in the morning and it always gave me some mental clarity and ease of kind for the day. Definitely want to pick it back up!

Yoga! So good for mindfulness, finding stillness and relaxation, and overall ease of my being in general. It's like a super peaceful flowy version of stretching, and I'm adding this back into my routine slowly.

🩷 Physical Health -

Exercise! I try to get in movement daily. Some days that's lifting weights in the gym or doing some moderate cardio on the treadmill, and other days that means light cardio from everyday tasks or some mindful stretching and yoga to relax my body after a long day

Sleep! I try to get 6 to 8 hours a night at minimum otherwise I tend to over do the caffiene which only hurts me in the long run. Quality sleep is important for me, it helps me regulate my mood, my energy levels, and my appetite and cravings! The worse and less sleep I get, the crankier and hungrier I tend to be

Nutrition and Hydration! I do not believe in restricting foods, I believe in healthy moderation and healthy substitution. I try to eat a decent amount of protein and fiber, while not restricting or feeling guilt on days I eat a little higher fats or carbs. Balance is key! And water is so important!! It helps my skin, my energy, my hunger signals, everything!

Skincare!! I feel so amazing after a full skincare routine. My morning routine is simple for now, but there's nothing like a good skincare routine to make me feel my best and most confident.

🩷 Miscellaneous-

regular doctor appointments! eye exams, general physician checkups, mental health appointments, dental, all of it! you'll never know what aspect of your health needs some work if you don't keep an eye on it! I look forward to all my appointments as it always gives me insight into my health that I otherwise wouldn't know.

Balance! I work full time, 5 days a week. I go to classes in person 4 days a week plus two online classes for a total of almost 18 credit hours. I'm stressing about finances, insurance, future classes, and my current grades. Therefore, I make sure to find time for the gym, for my skincare routine, for my therapy appointments, and for quality sleep. If I let any aspect of my self care and health slide, I'd be a spiraling mess, and I can't afford to do that to myself, nor do I want to. I deserve self care and rest and good days, and I always like to play an active part in having a good day for myself! Balance is key!

That's all for now, lovelies. My greatest value in my personal life in regards to myself is a high quality of life and I want to ensure I get that! I love working on my health and taking care of myself. I love keeping myself healthy and happy and functioning. We all deserve good health, happiness, and positive days!

til next time, lovelies 💗

#pink aesthetic #pink pilates princess #pink pilates girl #pink blog #that girl energy #that girl #girl blogger #clean girl #coquette girl #girl blogging #girlblog #health #health and fitness #self improvement #self love #self care #self care tips #gymlife #college student #university student #student life #it girl energy #it girl #high value woman #feminine energy #soft feminine #skincare #wonyoung aesthetic #wonyoungism #jang wonyoung

[da-birb-writes-sometimes]

howdy ! i've never been matched up before and saw you were doing them so i'm curious to know who you'd match me with ^-^

i think i'm supposed to give a little description of myself first right ? Here i go

i'd say i'm a really stubborn person who doesn't care about others opinions and walk by my own rhythm but my anxiety has kept me from doing so and made me really shy and introverted , if i asked a friend to describe me they'd probably say anger issues (i've been getting better from them and that makes me really proud) and that i'm a people pleaser, i like helping others even when ik they wouldn't do the same for me ( don't put me in the same room as azul cus ik he'll scam me 😭) my hobbies consist of drawing and listening to music , i really like to try my hand at any type of arts and crafts but if I don't get if right the first time i'll probably give up on it 😅

okay so relationship wise i'm looking for someone extroverted who will make time for me and communicate with me , i'm tired of introverted boys who don't put any effort and don't communicate and just let me do all the work . i just want someone who i feel comfortable with , who ik i can joke with without walking on eggshells around them , someone who can be my bedt friend and lover , I mostly show affection through teasing and joking since i have a hard time talking about my feelings .

for the additional information: i'm an Aries sun , Leo moon , and Sagittarius rising and i'm an intp if that helps

sorry this ended up being way too long and clearly i talked as if i was at a therapy session but i hope you don't mind and find time to do my request,if not please just ignore this 😅

I AM HONOURED TO WRITE YOUR FIRST MATCH-UP! *shoots self-love at you* Oh, here he is!

Kalim Al-Asim

Before everything else, he’s your friend. There to support you in his optimistic, sunshiney, well, Kalim, way. Even before ~da romance~ he is very forward with his feelings and would casually say, “I love you!” But one day everything just came together and he realized that yes, he loves you, and not in a friend way!

Yeah, the two of you are both people-pleasers, but through some growth together, you can both put your foot down and assert yourselves! Kalim will be there to reassure you in anxious situations as well. But he likes seeing you walk to the rhythm of your own drum.

He would giggle and tease you back, albeit his teasing is very lighthearted. He takes the joking like a champ, and you need not to worry about walking on eggshells around him.

Kalim is an open book, he may be busy, but he’ll set aside time for you… or just ditch his duties :D Why would he want to discuss silk prices when he could hang out with his favourite person?!

Even though he would be super excited to see what you created in your sketchbook, he also respects your boundaries. He may ask, but he won’t push. He is your number one supporter though. You don’t like it? Well, Kalim thinks it’s lovely!

Speaking of art, if he so happens to overhear that you want some high end supplies, well, you are now set for life! Kalim would also make you some drawings, or add a post it note on your sketchbook. “This is STUNNING! But not as stunning as you! :D ”

Impromptu dance party! He likes listening to music with you, be it just sitting quietly and moving his head to the rhythm with you, or dancing about and laughing. He would also invite you along to Light Music Club if you ever wanted to see him perform. “This one is for you, my sweet bee!” *queue drum solo*

He would also be there, and be more serious if you wanted to tell him something; be it something small that was bugging you, or something heavy that was weighing you down. He may be cheerful, but he knows when something is on your mind.

"You know, I'm always here if you want to talk, sweet bee."

Hope you like your match-up, Melice! Also, it's an honour to write your first one!

Yes, he calls you his sweet bee; people may think you're "angry" but he just sees a sweet friend trying to live their life. Plus, he also took note that you like the lil fuzzy pollinators, so you are now Sweet Bee!

#twst match ups #dove does match ups #kalim al-asim #melice! #kalim; sweet bee!!!! :D <3 #ALSO I LOVE YOUR ART TAKE THE COMPLIMENTS #mutuals <3 #you best be asleep at the time i'm posting this; i know your time zone melice

[ghostlyheart]

I couldn't sleep last night, so here's a Ghosts university AU I thought about while I stared at the ceiling and slowly descended into madness

Thor and Sass are 5th/6th year seniors who've been friends for years and Just Can't Graduate. Thor is an international student majoring in electrical engineering. He's great at what he does, but has almost blown up the lab on more than one occasion. It's a miracle he's survived being electrocuted so many times. Sass is majoring in English (creative writing concentration) with a minor in Indigenous Studies... plus an extra 3 or 4 minors for good measure. He's putting off his graduation because he's worried about what he's going to do after school and doesn't want to disappoint his dad. Says he doesn't like to get involved in drama but knows Everything about everybody's business.

Isaac is a senior majoring in political science with a minor in theater. He's very involved in student government and is absolutely insufferable about it. Equally pretentious about musicals, students in the department have learned not to let him get worked up about it because he Will argue with you for 45 minutes if you let him.

Hetty is a junior majoring in business management, preparing to take over the Woodstone family business someday (I imagine them being still somewhat influential). She and Isaac are attached at the hip. She's definitely still a bit snobby because of how she was raised, and not the best at interacting with other students, but she's trying. Everyone thinks she paid her way in (she swears the new Woodstone wing of the humanities building is just a coincidence.)

Alberta is a junior majoring in music. She dreams of being famous and has social media where she posts clips of her singing (unfortunately her most consistent commenter is a creepy guy named Todd). She auditions for shows in the theater department, more because she cares about singing/performing than acting. She and Isaac have a friendly rivalry (that used to be not so friendly until they came to more of an understanding).

Flower is a sophomore majoring in women's and gender studies. She's super involved in social justice and activism on campus. Plays basketball with Pete in the intramural league (she's definitely good enough for the competitive level, but they kicked her off the team for smoking weed behind the bleachers during halftime).

Pete is a sophomore majoring in social work (maybe? I'm least sure about him, but I imagine him wanting to do something to help people). Known for pointing confused freshman to the right buildings and paying for people's lunch at the dining hall when they forget their card. He was in the boy scouts for years and still helps out with the local troop. He's good friends with Flower, and he and Jay have been inseparable since they met. They're nerd soulmates.

Trevor is a hotshot freshman majoring in economics. Joins a fraternity right away. A total party animal, but if you watch closely he keeps an eye on people's drinks and makes sure everyone has their coats before they leave. He and Hetty have a class together and everyone thinks they hate each other. No one has caught them during one of their late night "study sessions" yet

Jay is a sophomore majoring in culinary arts. He rooms with Pete, and plays basketball with him and Flower while also running a dnd group on campus. He's still really close to his family and calls his mom every day. Has a crush on the cute new girl...

Sam is a transfer student majoring in journalism. She's a junior, but skipped a year, so she's around Jay's age. Hetty's distant cousin from "that" side of the family, she moved from Ohio to New York after her mom died. Hetty is a bit reluctant at first, but takes Sam under her wing. They're only about a year apart, but Hetty loves to lord her wisdom and life experience over her. Super dorky, excitable, and extroverted, Sam grew up kind of lonely and is just trying to make some friends. She writes for the school newspaper, and uncovers a scandal about the administration that is the catalyst for the gang getting together.

#realizing now this is probably a manifestation of my anxiety about the semester starting again dkjskd #the more I think about it the more I actually want to write it #like I have a shaky idea for a plot with them kind of being like the scooby gang #but I've never written a fic longer than 2000 words so I'm not sure I'm equipped lol #do people still do college AUs? I actually haven't read many #I guess it's kinda cliche but it makes me personally happy so I'm posting this anyway. cringe but free baby #cbs ghosts

[chrisodonline]

I didn't "liveblog" the last ep because...it didn't feel livebloggable. I mean, it did. But it would have just been nothing but grousing, and I'm sure that would've gotten redundant.

The whole ep should've hit more emotionally, but the dialogue was painful in spots. And people were overselling it, making the hokiness so much more obvious. I get these were newer writers, but I also know enough about TV writers' rooms to know there is collaboration in every single episode. I...whatever. The Sam/Kam scenes were THE most (only) solid bits.

And I do not know who the hell was at the wedding planner because I don't know the two people that I saw, especially the one so obsessed with security and not wanting this stranger to call him by his first name yet totally throws caution to the wind and is comfortable making out in a public place. Near the windows.

The only thing I can figure is that Anna was being really weird, and Callen -- already notably on edge and still in work mode -- clocks this and is too weirded out to play along. You could tell he was starting to try, and then Anna was just SO extra he just wanted to poke holes in the persona she was putting on because he didn't get why she was being like this. And I didn't either.

Continuing on the "only thing I can figure" with Anna, is the fact that she's mentioned before about wanting to go full on "normal life." Or what she thinks is "normal" -- seen in magazines, Instagram, etc. She can't completely get out of it as we've seen; she still wants to do something adjacent. But she hangs onto the "normal" because she could only dream about it as an adult. She feels like she missed out on getting to be one of those little girls who dreams about your wedding day and grown up house because she was too busy being Black Widowed, er, Noble Maiden-ed. And the "normalness" she's seeking is so opposite of what she's done or had in the past for that very reason. Yes, the drama and spy jobs were how she met Callen. But it was also consistently what kept them apart time after time. After "Down the Rabbit Hole," I think she really, really was like, "I could lose him" and was so grateful she didn't. She wants to touch the normal that doesn't involve this kind of thing that could keep them apart...permanently.

And Fatima accidentally hits on this. She's frustrated with Callen, and hey, he got to come and have family dinner. She wanted to repay the favor, or so she thought, by helping Anna out with the wedding to give her a decent partner. But Fatima is all Beverly Hills. She's Hollywood. She's the Instagram wedding type. She makes the mistake of selling all this as normal to Anna, and talking about how this is that one special day when you get to just go full-on fancy -- and that's what everyone does! So Anna starts to adopt all of these behaviors, and she wants to play this part. She would NEVER truly allow Arkady to officiate (even if we, the audience, bribed her heavily). But doesn't it sound super sweet and touching to tell the froufrou wedding planner that her father wants to officiate? And the wedding planner reacts just as she thought she would.

Callen's facial reactions the whole time (and well done, COD on this) were such a mix of confusion that gradually started to turn into annoyance. He was not told they were playing this game, a game he really doesn't want to play. And I think he's trying to mess with her so she can see how ridiculous this all is -- at least for her to try to be this person.

So when he starts joking about this entire thing he thinks is a joke, a sitcom that he's watching, and grabs the piece of paper from her she at first replies like a high school girl. And then the minute she lets the aggressive part comes out that has been annoyed for separate reasons with him and trying to be perfectly pleasant in front of the wedding planner, a.k.a. Harbinger of Normalcy, it's the real Anna at the surface. The feisty one that Callen knows is the real her. And once the facade was broken, it was REALLY broken. And Callen was just so relieved that she was "back," he was like, "I guess she's on top of me now, so we might as well make out if this stops us from having to do that dumbass quiz." And then they have to run home. And this whole dumb d-story better not have been done because they needed a way to set up Anna getting accidentally pregnant because they were a little too impulsive that day.

Anyway, this comes after what we got of their relationship in the early part of the season, super healthy conversations that made them seem like the couple the writers always intended them to be -- and not what we had really seen. So, yes, extra frustrating.

But who cares, right?  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Not me. Clearly. That's for sure.

#z rambles on #and then some #ncis la-ter blog #ep: shame #a shameful ep indeed #oops I know that's not what the title referred to #ncis la

[springmagpies]

Book Peeta vs Movie Peeta.

What key point or best qualities of Peeta's that lost in the movie adaptation?

Thank you

@curiouspeetamellark

Hi!!! I am so so so so sorry about how freaking late this reply is. School started again and so I've just been super busy and we all know I don't know how to give a short reply to save my life. But! I finally found a bit of time to reply to these asks!

This one is actually really hard for me because I love movie Peeta with every fiber of my being. Still, there are things that the books allow for that the movies just don't have as much time to cover. And the sheer sweetness and goodness Peeta shows in small moments in the book are what I think is lost in the movie adaptation. What I mean is you can see Peeta's sweetness in the movies, his bravery, his selflessness, his goodness. But something that I think the book captures so well is that Peeta doesn't think about being kind, he just is kind. Like he brings Katniss her favorite type of bread the moment he finds out what it is. She doesn't have to ask, he just does it. He doesn't think twice on the first train ride about helping Haymitch get cleaned up even though he barely knows him because it just seems like the right thing to do. I also think that his sarcasm and sense of humor isn't shown as much in the first film as it is in the book. Peeta in the book is always cracking jokes, but never at anyone's expense, and has a way of making people feel at ease. I think it's more apparent in the second film than in the first, but it is consistent throughout the books because more of those small moments of humor scenes are allowed.

I also wish that they had kept Peeta's father in the movies. We see his abusive mother briefly, but I think having Peeta's father would have helped show where Peeta comes from and the complexity of his home life. Book Peeta loves his family, and yet is never really mentioned as being super close to them. He visits his fathers and he has a decent relationship with his brothers, but there is clearly a strain on all of those relationships because of his mother. Still, meeting Peeta's father gives the audience a bit more insight into why Peeta is who he is. I don't know if I have the right words to say it at the moment, so my apologies, but I guess what I'm kind of trying to get at is Peeta comes from a household that he doesn't want to replicate. This is part of why the environment Peeta strives to create (as well as the overall aura he gives off) is one of safety as well as kindness, a home where understanding, forgiveness, and love come before anything else. Also, seeing Peeta outside the circle of Katniss, her family, and Haymitch--something we don't get in the films--shows why he cares about them so much. Because they support each other, help each other, and support isn't something that Peeta has ever really been given before, but has always wanted to have; and, importantly, has always wanted to give. Also, by meeting his family we can understand a bit more about his relationship to Katniss. For example, his father. We know he loves his father (who he is similar to in many ways and who I think he admires), but that doesn't mean that he wants to follow directly in his footsteps. I think it's hard for Peeta to see his father with his mother and I think this helps show why Peeta gravitates towards Katniss. Because in the Peeta/Katniss relationship they are equals, something his parents never were. Katniss may struggle to voice how she feels at times, but her compassion and empathy for others cannot be doubted and that is something that Peeta notices right away and continually reminds her of. And, like I said before, they are equals in that relationship. They help each other survive. They're honest with each other. And ultimately they care deeply for one another with no strings attached and mutual understanding of what the other has gone through and what they have gone through together. In everything--the Games, the Tour, marriage, parenthood--they're a team.

#the hunger games #peeta mellark #everlark #ask me things #asked #maggie rambles #what? maggie writing too much?! shocking. #long post #yeah this got away from me

[misscrazyfangirl321]

Sanctuary for All, Part 1 Thoughts

*I always forget how different Will is in the pilot compared to the rest of the series. So desperate for someone to take him seriously that he's resorting to rambling to the waitress about his observations.

*Will finding a Russian nesting doll and immediately assuming the family is Russian or Ukranian. Like. Do you know how common those are, my guy?

*Alexi has ADHD confirmed.

*Kinda want to incorporate Joe into The Time Wars, even if it's as a bit part.

*Forever obsessed with the bit where Will narrowly avoids being hit by Ashley on a motorcycle only to IMMEDIATELY get hit by Helen in a car.

*OK but the way Will immediately covered for Magnus. Didn't tell anyone he'd seen the person who hit him or anything. He didn't know who she was, and maybe he didn't even know why he was covering for her, but he knew she was important.

*That's not how lineups work. That's not how any of this works. A lineup consists of more than one person.

*Oh BTW Will's hair was super curly when he was a kid. I choose to believe it still is when he doesn't put four million products in it.

*Eleanor! Hey remember when it was established that Helen Magnus had friends? And hung out with people she saw in her day to day life?

*JOHN AND HIS LOCKET OF HELEN

*John acting almost shy in this scene is painful. Especially knowing what's coming.

*Will desperately trying to convince someone, anyone to listen to him. Also just... The way Joe and Meg really are trying to help Will, in their own ways. They're wrong, but they don't know that.

*Helen is so dramatic, especially in reaching out to Will, and Will just. Doesn't Engage. "Lady, I'm getting soaked here. What do you what?" Just does not let her draw him into the drama.

*Okay but the way he makes her smile, even from the beginning. Her amusement. Her oh, this will be fun.

*One of my favorite things about this episode from a narrative perspective is the way they save the Ashley reveal for so far into it. Through most of the first part, Ashley and Helen are framed as Opposing Forces looking for the boy. (.... Oh hey not like I need another AU, but that would make a great AU.)

*Tbh I really do like Meg. Wish she could have been more of a character.

*Will. Will, what is that book organization? Will.

Will, you're stressing me out.

*EC or not, there's definitely comparisons and contrasts between Meg's relationship with Will and Helen's relationship with Will. (Specifically humor, and also the contrast of Meg thinking he's crazy and him looking at Magnus' business card.)

*Magnus' excitement when Will says he doesn't know why she's looking for the boy is so fun.

*I forgot how HUGE the Sanctuary is from the outside.

*The one time teleporting into an EM shield just bounces him back. Also him laughing as he hits the ground, so fond of Helen... John, you're a DistasterTM.

*"Next time you just want some company, don't give your number out to strangers on the street." Ajdmsjsjdm Helen's sitting here trying to be all dramatic and mysterious, and Will's just like. "I diagnose you with Loneliness." And. He's not totally wrong.

*Ashley knocking out those cops just adds to the perceived contrast. We're so nervous that it looks like she'll get to the kid before Helen.

*Hey wait there's a clock on the wall when Will walks into the Sanctuary lab. We can see what time-WAIT THERE ARE TWO CLOCKS SET FOR DIFFERENT TIMES. ONE SEC. Wait, no, there's at least 3. All different times. Huh.

*Okay it looks like every pillar has a clock set to a different time. Nice detail actually.

*Love that the example for "Other [Abnormals] can't be allowed to run free" shows up multiple times throughout the series running free, including the VERY NEXT EPISODE.

*Flying Person should have been a major character.

*"He's just as unnerved by you." Ajdkfksms Biggie's characterization probably changes more than any other's throughout this show.

*Such a fascinating thing how Helen speaks so highly of Abnormals, but never refers to herself as one unless absolutely necessary. They're valuable, but they're still "Other" to her.

*Why does Ashley sign her texts? Ma'am you're texting your mother. Does she not know your number?

*Obsessed with the fact that it's played as if Helen looks too young to be Ashley's mother, as if Amanda isn't 19 years older than Emilie.

*"What she lacks in refinement, I assure you she makes up for in her field skills." Lines that get painful when you realize how soon Ashley will die.

*Wish there could have been more with Ashley trying to fool Will with stories and Will just shaking his head and laughing.

#i speak #sanctuary #the time wars #sort of

[commander-ralyle]

General update for here. Sorry I haven't been on in a long time. Been trying to get away from scrolling, but got sucked into Facebook scrolling cause the drama video excerpts get me. X'D I am jobless. Have been for awhile. I had a really good job for a few months, but it was a contract one. I got a job for four days before they let me go for "no specific reason" i.e. I am close to being diagnosed with lupus, had to sit down for 5 minutes because I was in a huge amount of pain, ADHD, and hated the fact that nothing in a restaurant was consistent. I started therapy for awhile, but new conditions for my insurance fucked me over with my depression/anxiety and so lost that. I have been on meds and will be for another two months at least before I run out. They have been amazing at helping me control my moods. I am still living with my parents and still hate it. Not as much as I used to, but I'm dealing and still want out. My grandparents now also live on the property. My white privileged boomer trump supporting grandparents by the way. They're not bad so long as you don't mention stuff. They know I'm queer, but just ignore it so could be worse. My brother has been useless emotions/social wise, but is being kind enough to help me financially at times as have been my parents. I'm going to try and start a business this week though with my uncle's help. He got a job with the county that gives him grants that he can help ppl take training with and he's offered it to me as I'm the least successful out of his kids and nieces/nephews which I really appreciate his help. My girlfriend and I are doing amazing and communicating lots. I love her more than I can ever express and appreciate her willingness to talk things out with me. :) She's the light of my life as sappy as that is. <3 :D My cat Chroma is doing pretty well socially now. She doesn't run as much if I'm standing over her. My cockatiel Tristan is as noisy as ever and still not ppl friendly, but I love him and he mimics my tone a lot even if he doesn't talk which is super cute. <3 We have a German Shepard we rescued and I get along with pretty well. Normally I hate petting dogs cause of their smell/fur unless it's with my foot, but I can tolerate petting her with my hands. My therapist just before we stopped recommended walking her and spending time with her to get over my social anxiety. My social anxiety btw is suuuper bad. I can't stand being in large gatherings unless there's a lot of space or I can escape as needed. Eating at tables is fine thankfully as there's plenty of space often times. I'm still addicted to Dr Pepper, but thankfully am not diabetic and managed to get away from being prediabetic. So that's a dodge. Part of the reason I mention all this is I am Indigenous so am more in danger of diabetes and other similar diseases. The lupus might also be from my dad's side of the family which is where I get my Indigenous roots from. The lupus is pretty bad. It explains my fatigue and brain function problems that do interfer with my day to day life. It also has caused a big deteriation in my eyesight often causing pain. It was actually an emergency eyedoctor who was the first to name lupus as a suspect and my doctors at the same location as my therapist were able to have me tested and it was positive. I have not been to a specialist so no meds or official diagnosis yet due to the insurance issues. :( My halfsister who my dad adopted had her second child so that's interesting. I'm still hiding from babysitting cause I know I'm not gonna get paid or appreciated and tbh children that young scare me cause they're fragile, messy, and can be pretty mean. :/ Maybe I can get over it eventually, but for now hiding from getting roped into stuff is easier. I'm not rude/mean to the kids tho obvs. That'd be horrible. Sister is at least trying to be nicer as is my brother since they're starting to see now how fucked up I am emotionally and mentally from all I've gone through cause of things they said or did or that our family said or did. So looking up despite all the setbacks. :)

All in all, life is fucking crazy and never know what you dig up. It's going alright though and mentally I'm still bad, but not as bad as I used fo be. Mainly thanks to the meds tbh. I do miss being more social on various websites, but have had to cut that back a lot. Hopefully can get things going again someday soon. :)

#don't mind me #trigger warning #tw #lots of stuff #long post #my life

[namjooningelsewhere]

Rum and Champagne - Part #1

🖤Pairing- Kim Seokjin X Reader

🖤Summary - You always knew life is going to be hard, But what's even more harder is trying to live with your husband without always facing the urge to bite his head off.

Hes a perfect heir, To one of the biggest companies in the city, He has everything he needs. Money, Power, Insane Good looks and a super model girlfriend. Things change 360 degree when his father puts him a very strange situation, To be married to a brat who dares call him a arrogant prick.

🖤Genre - Angst, Cheating au, CEO au, Enemies to Friends, Friends to lovers, Light Smut, Fluff.

🖤Rating -18+

🖤A/N - @xpeachesncream thanks Nikki ❤ You've been a savior! I don't think I would've have written a word anymore if I wouldn't spoken to you. Thankyou for motivating me. Means a lot, and I'm so thankful to have someone like you to talk to❤ Thankyou❤

You shuffle through the last batch of muffins, placing them neatly arranged in the rack, for the day. You worked as a baker in a small town, which was busy since it was a crowd favorite and everybody could swear on Natalie's baking skill.

Your general day at work consisted of opening the bakery, cleaning up, and getting the orders for the day ready, while also helping Natalie with baking. It wasn't a well-paying job but well enough to keep the minimum amount of food on the table, and also relieving some of the burdens of debt that your mother had conveniently placed on you.

Your mother certainly did not deserve the mother of the year award but you kept doing it for her since she had at least tried being there for you nevertheless except the part it was when she wanted to. She tried being your mother when her latest boyfriend would dump her or she would kick them out. You never exactly knew what it meant to grow up in a normal family, Not trying to be loved.

Looking at your friends, family always seemed a good thing, But when it came to yours it was entirely different. Your father had abandoned your mother when you were in her tummy, deciding never to come back. Maybe your mother grew cold after that. She kept making excuses to not love you and you tried to make excuses to get her to.

It had been tiring after all these years and now you were beginning to give up, It felt shitty but you tried to deal with it rather than dwell on it. There was only one real friend you had for six months, Charlie. A charming old man who moved here, just a while ago. He was a regular at Natalie's which was how you met. It didn't take you long enough to open up to the old man.

It was painful to see him keeping alive the love he and his wife had after she passed. This town was where they started, got married in secret, and cherished a while before he left for the city to start something. She had been a support to him throughout growing with him throughout. He came back when she wasn't around anymore leaving the city behind, Just to live here in their own small house where they had first started building their life.

You shared a different bond with Charlie, For you, he was that one person who you could confide in. And for him, you were one person who would listen to his stories tirelessly and keep a check on him regularly. You made sure to drop by every day helping him with chores around the house, helping him cook, and in the evening sitting by the lake listening to his stories, his family and his two sons, and adorable stories of Trixie, His granddaughter growing up. Charlie had grown more too close to you than your own mother. Sometimes made you wonder if this was how it felt to have a father.

You woke up with a sharp pain in your neck, You had slept in a pretty awkward position and your neck felt like it was about to dismantle itself. Charlie was still sleeping peacefully, the medicines seemed to have done a good job since there were no more coughing fits through the night.

You looked at your watch and it was already way past Charlies time to arrive to pick up his favorite muffins, you looked out but it was still no sign of him. You finished packing the rest of orders, still trying to get hold of Charlie but he wouldn't pick up. It started to worry you since it was very unlikely of him to not drop by to even to say hello. Since the time you had known him, He would always come in with a smiling face to greet you.

You paced behind the counter coming up with different excuses to define his absence but ultimately dismissing it to your own theories. You could feel Natalie's gaze on you as you paced the place down, "You know what, Why don't you go check up on him?" Natalie said holding your hand. "Yeah i think that's a good idea". You said not even wasting a second more to grab your things.

You knocked the door to Charlies house, yelling his name thrice, Missing a response you went around the house to check if he was in the backyard. He wasn't there in the backyard, You moved to the door to see if it was open fortunately it was. You pushed the door calling out his name but there still was no response.

You called out thrice again moving to his kitchen, finding it empty you walked towards his bedroom, You stopped right at the door in shock, Charlie was there sleeping but he didn't look too well. "Charlie, are you okay?" you said touching him slightly. He woke up with a confused look, taking a second to register. "Hey its me April, Are you okay?" you said concerned. You took his hand in yours to only to realize it was burning hot. He had fever.

"Don't worry I'm fine, It will go away. You worry too much child". He said patting your head fondly. "Oh no you're not, Do you have any medicines? You look around to find something. But apart from the bedside table and a wardrobe there was nothing. "I don't know, but i don't think so." He replied trying to remember maybe.

You quickly head to his kitchen to see what you could fix him up instantly. You find some vegetables and quickly get to work to make him some soup. You keep an eye on him if he needs something, You pour a bowl of hot soup and help him lean against the headboard placing a pillow behind.

You place the bowl infront of him, passing him a spoon to drink. You collect your bag and turn to look at the man " Finish the soup, Il go and quickly get some medicine for you okay? He nods his head and you run over to the chemist.

"Come on buddy, Bedtime." You helped him get up and led him to the bed. You handed the medicines and he settled in the bed. "Just call me if you need anything okay, I will be on the couch." He nodded and you made your way to the couch. You had your dinner and laid down on the couch. You looked at the ceiling and started humming your usual tune, Suddenly you hear a loud cough and dashed to Charlie's room to check on him. You helped him drink some water and after he dozed off you settled near his bed in the chair, Incase he needed any help at night.

You made breakfast for him and freshened up and kept it on the table with the medicines beside them. Charlie walked into the room looking much better than he had yesterday. "Morning buddy." You greeted him cheerfully and he smiled back. "Breakfast is ready and the medicines are here. Be sure to take them okay." You picked up your stuff to leave.

"April Thank you. " He looked at you with glossy eyes and you smiled at him. "No worries buddy, Il check back in the afternoon okay." He smiled back and you left with a nod.

You carried around your duties at the bakery till afternoon and left to check up on Charlie. You walked to his house and stopped in your tracks. Two cars stood outside his house. This didn't make sense, What could someone possibly want from him. You walked up to his house in confusion and you stopped at the loud voices in the house.

You entered the house, the voices immediately died down noticing your presence. "Charlie are you okay?" You asked the man who was sitting calmly in his chair while the younger man paced around the room. "I'm okay kid, This is my son Seokjin." He gestured to the man and your mind stopped functioning for a minute. The man seemed to be a living and breathing embodiment of a Greek god. "Seokjin, This is April." The man introduced and you nodded to him and he scoffed. "As if I care." You let the thoughts to the drain, His mouth was definitely in the gutter.

"Dad you need to come back, The board of directors are in panic, You've been missing now for six months, There are only some parts of the chaos I can handle and I've taken it down for six months but it isn't helping anymore." He settled on the couch beside his father and he looked at him helplessly. Charlie shifted in his position and he cleared his throat.

You gasped at his words, You never knew Charlie was a CEO of a conglomerate, For you all had been was a sweet old man who was away here to cherish his wife's memory. You didn't ask, And he never mentioned anything beyond his family.

"I'm stepping down as the CEO, You can take over." Seokjin looked surprised and his expression looked that of a child who got the candy had been denied for so long. You took that the cue to leave, He had his son here, and besides these talks were getting personal. "Charlie, Buddy il drop by some other time. You take care okay." You looked at the Greek god and turned around to leave.

"Why does she call you buddy? Does she even know who you are?" Seokjin scoffed disgust very clearly laced in his tone. You looked at him with stern eyes and give him back a piece of your mind but Charlie beat you to it.

"She very well respects me, son, You don't need to worry." His voice was stern and you looked at him with admiration. "April stay. I need to talk to you." You were confused but you stayed back.

"I have a condition though son. I will step down and you can take over provided you get married." He paused for a moment looking at the shell-shocked expression on Seokjin face and he looked at you once and turned to him again. " To her."

You choked on air and Seokjin looked like he would lose it any minute. "What? Charlie, No" You gather your words but Seokjin's words hit you like a truck.

"You gold-digging bitch, Sweetening up to my father. You sneaky snake." He thundered and rage-filled your head and your vision suddenly turned white. "You pathetic human, How dare you accuse me, For one I didn't know who he was, and second I would never ever need to do something like that you little shit." You seethed and Charlie cleared his throat.

"Seokjin, Apologize now." He thundered and Seokjin looked shocked at his outburst. "I won't." He turned the other way. "Then kiss the position goodbye, son, I will turn in my resignation tomorrow and I would like to see the chaos." He crossed his arms and leaned back in his chair.

"You won't do that." He tried to argue but Charlie was definitely didn't look like he would take any of his shit. "Try me Seokjin. I would like to see the vote of confidence that comes your way, You being next in line is a plus, But the shareholders and the board would have a difference of opinion."

Seokjin looked like a deer caught in headlights and he looked at you like he would just kill you with his glares. "Sorry." He apologized curtly and anybody could tell he was definitely doing a favor to you by saying that pathetic sorry he didn't mean.

"Say that when you mean it you arrogant prick." You shot back at the same time and Charlie chuckled. "I am sorry." It was much better than the first one but you nodded. Engaging in a conversation with him was the least of your concerns.

"I need to speak to you." Seokjin came up to you and gestured to come outside, Charlie nodded and you followed him outside. "Look let's just get married. You go your own way and me on mine." You looked at him with disbelief. "Fuck off." One word that drove him insane and you to the pleasure of satisfaction. You definitely should have said that a long ago.

You left him seething in anger and walked back inside. Seokjin dialed someone. "I am sending you a picture, Get me the information in half an hour."

"Get me whatever you can on the girl, The town isn't big enough to hide away." The man immediately left and Seokjin moved to the house.

"why would you do that?" You asked Charlie, gripping your coffee mug even tighter-looking at Charlie with curious eyes. "Maybe you don't understand now, But that son of mine needs someone to keep him in line, And you kid needs some stability in your life. You don't see that now, But you will one day."

You laughed at his explanation, It was definitely not possible. You had lived here with your mother. Whatever dreams and aspirations you had, You had buried them when you had to quit college for your mother and there was no other way you could afford the fees. Your mother put herself in enough debts which would take away most of your years. But you didn't have the luxury to choose.

You sipped your coffee without a word, You just didn't know what to say anymore. Seokjin was busy on the couch fidgeting on his phone. He was typing away something furiously when suddenly the loud shrill ringing of his phone echoed. He fled to the door like his life depended on it leaving a startled Charlie and you behind.

Seokjin listened patiently to the person on the other end, and he smirked at the information. He definitely knew the way out now. After all, he was about to hit where it would hurt.

"I need to talk to you, Would the lady mind stepping out for a minute please?" You choked on your coffee, Definitely, the world must be coming to an end considering he was dripping with politeness when all did was spit poison from that mouth of his.

You walked behind him and he abruptly stopped making you collide with that awfully broad back. "What the hell?" You groaned massaging your head. He turned at you with an evil smirk on his face which left you confused. "Ten Million." He uttered and you gave him an even more confused look. "Think about it, This will end all your miseries."

"You lost me at think about it. what is this about?" you asked still confused. This man definitely had lost it. You couldn't figure out why he needed to come up with such excuses every now and then. "Okay listen to me very carefully okay." He looked behind your back and making sure Charlie wasn't listening.

"I am at a bit of a crossroad here, I need that position I've been working for it and I am not going to sit there watching it getting it handed over to someone else. What is in it for you, 1? I pay you 10 million, five before getting married and five later. 2. You can clear your mother's debt and start building a life for yourself in the city. 3.You can still pursue your education which you dropped midway.

Try looking at this way, This is just a way out for you." You froze for a second. This man definitely had business in his blood, Laying out options and leaving no room for refusal he had exactly caught your weak spot.

"Look it's too much, But I would need you to be there for a year and a half which is enough to prove myself to the shareholders and the board. I really need you to do this." This was definitely someone else speaking, The arrogant prick was nowhere to be seen, and this person definitely spoke well or the maximum maybe even meant well.

"How long do we need to do the charade?"

"18 months."

" I need to think about this." You replied genuinely and he shrugged his shoulders. "Take your time, It's not like you get paid every day to live with someone as handsome as me."

There the arrogant prick was back.

You stood by the hedge thinking, This was definitely the way out. You weighed the pros and cons and every time the pro's outweighed the cons. You could definitely save some years of hard work and besides you could back to college and you could definitely pick your dream of being an architect. You sighed in irritation. There was this one thing that kept on swimming to the back of your mind, Charlie.

You didn't know how well would this go with him. Wouldn't you be betraying him? The thoughts plagued your mind and you suddenly felt terrible for even thinking about giving in.

An hour later, Logic flew away from your mind and for once you agreed with your brain to be selfish. You couldn't think of a way to come clean to Charlie but you still agreed to the devil on your shoulder.

You walked back to the house and You were met by a grinning Seokjin. He must have guessed. His honey trap had definitely worked. "I take it as a yes." He raised his eyebrows and you nodded your head in a yes. "Not a word to Dad." He looked dead serious and you nodded a yes again.

Charlie sat on the couch reading and he looked at both of you and raised his eyebrows. "We will get married," Seokjin announced and Charlie placed his book aside and looked up at him in doubt.

"I hope you're not threatening her Seokjin, She's like a daughter to me and I will kick your ass if it is so." Seokjin looked at him in disbelief. "I am willing to try if she's ready to keep her claws in check." He pouted and you fought the snarky comment that cropped in your head, instead, you settled on a more subtle one. "Don't worry I will only use those claws when I need to get your head out of your ass." Charlie burst out laughing and he hugged Seokjin and you. It was going to be a tough ride.

"Welcome to the family April." Charlie congratulated and a shiver ran down your spine. Fuck!

You left for Seoul the next morning, Seokjin and you occupied one car and Charlie occupied the second under the excuse of getting to know your future husband better.

Seokjin was on his phone the entire time and you looked out of the window, Mentally putting words in a frame of proper sentences. You gave up on the debate and cleared your throat.

"I need to speak to you." Seokjin looked up from his phone. "Do I have a choice? Go ahead." He twirled the phone in his hand. "We wouldn't be sharing the same living arrangements right?" He scoffed at your words. "No you don't need to glorify those words, You're not sleeping in my bed." You frowned. This man was impossible.

Come to think of it, I have to say something too. Two things, First Even though we are married we don't interfere with each other's personal lives. Steer clear of my personal life basically. I have a girlfriend. Second, we just have to pretend in front of my father that we are trying to be a normal wedded couple like any husband and wife so he doesn't suspect. We are good if we follow these two. I hope that gets into your little head."

You let out a sigh of exasperation "As much as I am least interested in your personal life, Be rest assured that's none of my business anyway and as far as Charlie is concerned I think if we manage not to kill each other for a change will do. And just as much you're helping me out, I believe I'm helping you out too. So if you at least behave like a civilized person, Things can be much easier for both of us.

The remaining of the ride passed by silently and you were more than glad not to engage in any kind of conversation with him.

Seoul really looked like a dream, A big dream. A dream that you too had someday in you, Before you gave up on it and settled for fate. Charlie went ahead to his house and you continued your journey to Seokjin's house, A hell in short.

Seokjin's house was no joke, It was Richie rich amplified. He lived in what seemed to be a very opulent neighborhood with security like nobody's business. His penthouse alone would fit in a few hundred houses of your size. You were definitely going to strain your neck later by just looking up. Everything about him was overwhelming, to say the least. Him, His house, His cockiness everything!

The private elevator opened inside his house and you took a moment to admire the beauty. With tall windows, monotones and sleek designs his penthouse was definitely every architect's dream.

You were greeted by a group of people hollering in his hall. They looked at you and Seokjin and broke out in a fit of hi's and hellos. A tall man walked up to you. He smiled warmly at you and extended a hand which you hesitantly took. "I hear congratulations are in order. I'm Namjoon, Seokjins younger brother" You smiled meekly at him and Seokjin smirked. "Not by choice though."

A pretty lady walked up to you and hugged you, "Hi April. I'm Aaera. Namjoon's wife." You let out a gasp and before you could realize you ended up saying something stupid. "You're so pretty." She laughed and pulled you into a hug again. "You're a gorgeous darling." You were definitely blushing.

Namjoon grabbed your arm gently and introduced you "Guys this is April, Jin's fiancée. A pink-haired man extended his arm smiling sweetly. "I'm Jimin. Nice meeting you pretty lady." You laughed at his compliment. "She's taken you punk. I'm Yoongi by the way" He was definitely handsome. " I'm Taehyung, he's Jungkook, That's Hoseok." A tall man with a dazzling smile introduced everyone else before one of them could speak.

Seokjin looked least interested and carried on his conversation with the others ignoring your presence in the room. You looked at Seokjin and the others and repeating the action twice. This didn't make sense at all. Jimin noticed your frown and nudged you "All okay beautiful?" You nodded. "Just thinking."

Everybody fell silent and looked at you. You suddenly felt conscious. "What are you thinking? Namjoon asked. "All of you are so nice, Even Charlie. How is he such a big arrogant prick?" You ended up blurting out instantly and the entire room roared in laughter. Seokjin went red in record time.

"Oh my god, I like her already." Yoongi giggled. "you've found yourself a perfect match Jin" Hoseok joined in. You were genuinely confused, It was a real question. "Jin listens up, We have the wedding planner flying in in three days and you and April and You need to decide on the arrangements." Seokjin looked ready to burst in flames.

"Cant we have a small wedding?" You squeaked and Seokjin laughed sarcastically. "Out of your mind? Kim Seokjin is getting married. It's going to be the event of the year." Everybody seemed to agree on this but your inner self definitely didn't want such a huge showcase. Especially if this was going to be a marriage of convenience with an expiry date already stamped on it- eighteen months.

"Cant we do this like with just you all and the closest family." Aaera placed a hand on your arm and agreed. Thank god she was one of the nice ones, You definitely liked her. "This might be overwhelming for her Jin, You've already dumped enough on her. Try taking things at her pace." You thanked the gods, Finally, someone understood you.

"Not my fault that she isn't rich, This is going to be huge. She should be thankful that she's even getting to see such luxury. But all she wants to be is an ungrateful bitch" Namjoon and the others gasped at his outburst and you blinked away the tears.

"You know what, this wedding will be the way I want it. I was already thinking I was being selfish but since you're a dick, I make sure it will happen my way." The others in the room let out a sigh and Jin stood up from his place making you look small in front of him. "Try Me" He warned.

"Watch me." You were always up for a good challenge and you definitely weren't letting an arrogant Richie rich walk all over you. You fished your phone out and sent a text. The tension in the room seemed to simmer down a bit and Jin started talking to everybody else again.

"What the hell?" Jin threw his phone on the couch, Shocking everyone. "What happened Hyung?" Jungkook asked. "Ask her, Dad wants us to get married in a private ceremony. You and the immediate family only." He fumed. "You!" He stared daggers at you, earning an evil smirk from you. "I have no intentions to stand in your way, But the least you can do is be civil Seokjin. I'm not letting you get away with that behavior if you can think you can treat me any less."

The tense atmosphere was broken by a cheerful giggle, "Mommy look what I drew." A cute little girl playfully jumped in Aaera's lap and showed her the drawing. You brightened up at the cutie, She was actually a ball of sunshine just like Charlie said. "You must be Trixie?" She looked at you and gave you a sweet smile and your heart was ready to melt into two.

"I'm April. You draw so nice baby." She shies at your compliment and Aaera pats her head. "I have more in there, want to see?" She looks at you with those sweet doe eyes and you look at Aaera, who nods at you with a huge smile. "Sure sweetie." You hold out a finger for her and she takes it gladly before pulling you away leaving a surprised Jin Behind.

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[sirfrogsworth]

Dusting off my quill.

I have a great White Whale of an essay that I really want to write.

My life has just not been very conducive to crafting any long super researched material lately.

My diabetic gastroparesis really screwed up my health for many months. I didn't even know what it was for most of the time. Thought I had a bad ulcer. And while I am managing it with some medication and a very strict diet, it still flares up and makes me sick from time to time.

Combine that with all of the health problems with my parents and trying to figure out how to adapt to a new way of life for our family unit... and writing just went on the backest of burners.

But I have been wanting to write about Elon Musk through all of this. He just keeps pissing me off and I am anxious to write the ultimate takedown of this toxic human being. I want to write an accurate analysis of why he is so awful and what his true motivations are. In essence, he is one of the world's most successful grifters. I want to dissect all of his major grifts and expose exactly why they are huge scams. And I want to explain why he grifts so much even though he probably doesn't have to.

He has a foundation of two legit business ventures. Tesla and SpaceX. If he ran them like a competent CEO, they could actually be the game changing companies he tries to convince people they are now. But even within those two operations, despite having solid products with great profit potential, he injects them with epic amounts of bullshit, mismanagement, and constant broken promises.

He has two things that work and work really well and he's almost brought SpaceX to bankruptcy on several occasions because he can't stop bullshitting and being, well, himself. And if he would have had actual competition in the EV market years back, he probably would have run Tesla into the ground too. People love how Teslas go fast, have incredible range, and are one of the safer options... but the fit and finish of the cars has always been shite. People have excused this because no one else had anything close to offer. But this very year that is starting to change and I'm curious if Tesla is up to having actual competition. And if Elon will screw it up.

Despite epic mismanagement and constant lying, bullshitting, scamming, grifting, overpromising... people still give him lots and lots of money. It is just about the most ridiculous example of toxic capitalism in the modern world.

There are also a lot of things critics of Elon get wrong. I've talked about this several times now. There are areas in which he is an expert. He is not just another billionaire who pays people to make him look smart. He is fairly competent when it comes to the engineering of electric drivetrains. He has a deep understanding of lithium batteries. And he is a bonafide rocket scientist/engineer. Even possibly one of the foremost experts on current rocket technology in the world. (Again, I tried to debunk that fact and was unable to.)

Which makes Elon all the more confounding as a person. How does someone who is capable of such intelligence also consistently display some of the most epic moments of ignorance? I think that is the part of the essay that I will struggle with the most. I have several theories as to how this intelligence/ignorance dichotomy happens in his brain, but I'm not really sure I have completely cracked that nut.

In any case, now that my dad is back home and we are falling into a routine and I feel like I have a lot less chaos in my life, I am considering trying to start my Elon essay. But I have no idea how long it may take me or if I will be able to finish it. I haven't tried to write an essay of this magnitude since before I got sick. Right now I am just trying to collect research. Facts are always a good place to start.

So... I guess wish me luck. I really miss writing things of this nature. When I don't write I feel like I have this giant creative hole in my soul. I need to be creative to keep my sanity. And writing is my best chance of filling that void.

[ladymelisande]

What makes me furious about B*rdugo is her insistence that we're stupid sluts for liking dark manipulative villains. I had an abusive manipulative ex. He was a genius, both intellectually and at people. And hot. He wasn't like she writes Alex. He was human. Leaving him broke me (I'm good now), both because he had my soul in his hands, and because I did love him. There was someone there to love. Not a hollow villain. Also not an immortal dark wizard. How I deal is my business, not hers.

Honestly, yeah, that's what we have been saying with @ainomica while I read the books, if she wanted to show Aleksander being a super intelligent manipulator she completely failed imao. He doesn't read like, I don't know, some JD or Hannibal type of manipulator, he reads like... An idiot, to be honest, definitely not a genius when half of his plans don't make sense?

If he was a good manipulator, why encouraging Alina to come out on her own? Why ever growing her confidence in her powers? He is an amplifier, if he wanted to manipulate her into depending on him... Why not making her believe that everything that made her special came from him? Why not nurturing that dependance? Why letting her make friends inside the palace with people that could certainly tell her bad things about him, like his mother?

Aleksander doesn't even make Alina love him or depend on him, both in the show and in the books, so why is the fandom and Bardugo acting like it was his plan all along? We don't have his POV but in the books it's even more ridiculous because he and Alina barely talk before the first kiss? He mostly avoids her, a manipulator would try to spend every second with her and isolate her but somehow this one... Doesn't?

In the show is even more hilarious because besides the conversation by the fountain (which is a kind of poor attempt of manipulation, to be honest), Aleksander's interactions with Alina are completely platonic on his side before the first kiss (except for when he grabbed her face in the War Room but I don't think that was deliberate because he was really in an emotional situation), which she iniciates. Before that she is the one that catches him in a moment of vulnerability. And overall he seems like a lonely, very stressed man that is trying everything to just save his people.

I swear if Aleksander was the protagonist of that series, it would seem as if Alina was some spy that seduced him and then ran away back with the normies when she got what she wanted lol.

The thing that Aleksander in the books is less an study on a manipulative man and more Bardugo's complete ignorance on how the 'Dark, Older Lover' trope she patronizes us so much about works. She thinks that the Dark, Older Lover should be some kind of representation on how powerful men prey on young girls. Because we are the idiots that can't see these fantasy men are really just Harvey Westein and we need to see that because otherwise liking these fictional men will make us pretty of the likes of him.

But what her little American head doesn't see is that different people like this kind of trope for different reasons, some of us even relate to the villain more and that's why people react strongly when she acts like Aleksander is a mad dog that needs to be put down.

But above all, I think her writing and the fact she refused give to give him a consistent characterization except: evil, handsome, needs to die because heroine has to kill him, tells us a lot of how she will never be able to have full compassion for any male character that has committed bad deeds without some kind of punishment or death. Matthias is another example, the boy is doomed in her narrative because the woman doesn't understand that high stakes in fantasy are high for a reason: so we ask ourselves to be more compassionate in real life for things that are way less than what these characters do.

Bardugo doesn't understand what this means, her reasoning is pretty much the same that an anti has: that the stakes that happen in the story are the same as real life. Every time an anti goes to the inbox of a Darkling fan and screams themselves bloody listing his plans as if they were real things happening to real people like... Bardugo just added the attacks to West Ravka and the Little Palace thinking that would make the Darkling irredeemable, which just shows her complete lack of understanding on how fantasy stakes work.

I mean, Americans are so concerned for women suddenly dating abusive people because they like a hot villain played by Ben Barnes. But I am more concerned by the fact that they suicide bait and 'cancel' people for stupid shit and just act like downright cruel gremlins. I saw Lindsay Ellis get dragged to the mud and having to expose her story of sexual abuse because she tweeted about Raya the Last Dragon being similar to ATLA... Which Honest Trailers did too and never got a single peep about it. And it wasn't even a negative tweet, and yet these little psychos went and digged up her entire Internet history, 13 years, just to get her 'cancelled'.

Imagine living in a era where you condemn someone over a tweet on a fucking Disney movie and then telling people that like a trope that is fundamentally based on compassion and understanding of another human being that they are stupid sluts for liking it. Yeah, no thanks. I think Americans need more redeemed villains in fiction because they clearly can't even forgive stupid shit like a tweet in real life.

#may answers #aleksander morozova #darklina #sorry for the rant nonny #and I am glad you're okay

[lg-secretsx]

Hello! I hope your day or night is going well! I hope you don't mind me asking but I have a question regarding being in a daddy/little relationship. Um I've never officially been in one because it's never really been established but I have spoken to 2 people about being in the dynamic and in both relationships we agree to try it out. One ended about 2 months in and I'm currently in another one or at least I think I am. My point is being in this type of relationship hasn't been what I thought it would be. The first one we go days without talking and it was because he was busy a lot and I also didn't want to be too clingy and send him multiple messages. And I the one I'm currently in started really nice. He would make sure I was going to bed on Time and we talked a lot given our huge time zone differences. But recently we have spoken as much and when we do I feel like it's a one sided conversation. I don't want to be pushy but I just don't know what to do. I want to be understanding and give him his space but I also want his attention. I just feel like maybe I'm the issue which is why they don't want to talk as much? Considering its happening twice now.

I hope it makes sense? And thank you for taking the time to read!

I love your blog by the way! 💛

Hi there! I'm really glad you asked this question because I've had similar concerns recently and I found that talking to a few people in the community & my daddy about it has really helped me figure it out.

First, don't get caught up worrying about if you're the problem or if you don't know how to be in this type of relationship or if there's some kind of pattern. The relationships you're describing are 2 completely different situations with 2 completely different people. Sometimes I try to analyze things in my life to come up with one story that explains it all and you just can't do that because every situation is different.

Keep in mind, though, that there's a honeymoon phase in all relationships, where people are super excited about each other and infatuated and want to talk all the time. It doesn't last forever. And when it fades, if you're really compatible, the relationship will continue, but if you're not compatible, it will probably end (or at least, it should end). And it's more than okay to let it go if that's the case.

The important thing here is that if it does end or if the person does lose interest, it's not because there's something wrong with you or that you're the problem. It's just because you weren't the right match. Even if you're still super into that person, you want to find someone who appreciates the person you are, otherwise they're not actually your person. I think as women we are raised to think we need to be liked by everyone, but we should be taught that it's fine that not everyone will like us, just like we don't have to like everyone else. And that doesn't mean there's something wrong with us.

So the first thing I would want you to think about is whether you think you two are compatible beyond kink. Do you have conversations with each other about your daily lives, jobs/school, friends, interests, families? Or are you always having cute daddy/little convos and just getting infatuated with the dynamic? If there's no foundational compatibility, then it might make sense that things are starting to fade, and that's okay.

On the other hand, if you feel that you two are really compatible, then the problem you're describing has to do with a lack of communication about communication (lol). It sounds like this was an issue in the first relationship, too. Here are some steps you can take:

1. Talk about it. You need to have a conversation with your partner/daddy and be explicit about communication - what do you need to feel connected/loved/attended to? What kind of communication do you need, and how often? What does he need? Get deep about it. Talk about why you need what you do and how it makes you feel. Explain how you feel when there isn't communication. Ask him to share his feelings about texting, calling, etc.

2. Make a plan for communication. For a lot of subs, structure is what gives us security. We don't like not knowing when things will happen or what to expect from our doms. This applies 100% to communication. I think you will find that even if you don't communicate all the time, you will feel more secure if you have a plan in place. If you know he's going to call you at 8 pm, you probably won't feel the need to constantly text him or get his attention. Also, if you set norms around communication, you won't have to wonder if he needs space or if you're being too clingy.

Keep in mind that you will most likely have to compromise. If I had it my way, when my daddy and I are apart we would be texting non-stop throughout the day and have a 2 hour phone call before bed. But he's different, and I have to respect that.

3. Set clear rules and routines. It seems like he was enforcing a bed time for you in the beginning but has since stopped. If you want to really commit to or even just experiment with dd/lg, especially from a distance, it has to be consistent. So you should agree on some rules and routines and let him know that it's important for you that he follows through if he wants to commit to this dynamic with you.

Oof that was super long and I genuinely apologize to anyone who was just trying to scroll past this ask on their dash.

I hope this helps! 💌 Feel free to message me if you want to talk it through any more.

#ask #tips

[rainbowrider1290]

My take on a Genshin Impact Circus AU Part 4 with Noelle as a strongwoman and Amber as a death-defying archery stuntwoman. Their backstories are under the cut!

Noelle:

First off I have a very self-indulgent headcanon that she is ridiculously strong. Like. Can benchpress people. Canonverse or AU.

She used to help out around the circus and she was kind of indifferent to the fact that she was likely going to be a maid. It's a respectable profession. And helping out at her childhood friends' (Kaeya and Diluc) manor as she'd been born into doing seemed like a good job.

How she got into the circus life requires a bit of backstory. Back when they were kids, Kaeya, Diluc, and Noelle would mess around (as kids do) and have little challenges for themselves. Who can run the fastest, who can do the best cartwheel, who can jump the highest, and the like.

Noelle got a little hesitant as she got into her early teens bc she was always told to be ladylike, so she spent one or two of their hangout sessions watching Kaeya and Diluc and talking. One day, however, Kaeya and Diluc are being Teenage Boys and lifting heavy things trying to outlift each other. Noelle has lifted furniture when cleaning up after these two so she figures this one unladylike thing would be okay.

She comes up behind them and just. Picks them both up. On top of the things they were lifting already. Kaeya and Diluc have to take a second and just look at her like "yeah no you are never sitting out of our competitions again"

And so they try other things like cartwheels and tests of courage like who can climb the highest on a tree and things are back to normal.

Skip forward a few years and Crepus dies. There's a huge mystery around it that not even his son's attendants are privy to. The only thing people know is that the sons have been sent away to boarding school. The whole manor is abandoned, all the workers fired.

Noelle for the next few years spends her time working at laundromats, and other odd jobs, but eventually she runs out of luck and suddenly there's too many people and not enough opportunities.

One of her friends from one of her old jobs invites her to go out and see this new circus that happens to be in town. She goes because why not. And wouldn't you know it one of the acts is her childhood friends doing these death-defying stunts that hit her with a wave of nostalgia bc their entire act consists of essentially the song "anything you can do" but with more and more dangerous stunts.

Noelle of course has to say hi, so they catch up and Noelle's lack of work comes up and would you look at that Aether and Lumine happen to have an opening for a maid.

So Noelle settles in, continuing to lift heavy shit to clean under it (Bennett swears up and down he saw her lift a fridge once but he might've been sleep-deprived). She also got into helping Chongyun with the techy stuff so sometimes she'll be at tech rehearsals moving things around and one time a rope holding up a person breaks near Noelle and she. catches it.

Now, one night. One of the acts drops out at the last moment bc injury or last-minute commitment or the like. And it leaves a gap in the show. Everyone else is busy. And panicking bc the circus is still relatively new and they really need to build their rep rn.

They start wondering what kind of last-minute acts they can put together like "what about the gymnasts??" "They all have group routines" "do they have old routines??" "Not polished enough for what we need" and someone somewhere pipes up "man I wish we had a strongman or something" and Diluc and Kaeya immediately whip their heads around to look at each other for like half a second before Kaeya bolts. He finds Noelle doing her usual rounds she's been doing for like a month now and Bennett was right, she is currently under a mini-fridge that she is lifting over her head whilst leaning it against a wall.

Kaeya takes Noelle by the shoulders and just zooms her over to where the commotion is happening and pitches the idea to Aether and Lumine. They're hesitant as hECK bc this is a huge risk they're taking since Noelle isn't even a performer but Diluc pitches that they could literally just scatter really heavy items and have Noelle clean under them and as long as she looks at the audience every once in a while it can be played off as a bit.

Noelle with qUITE the stammer says that she'll try her best but at this time is in need of a moment. She has never performed before. Kaeya and Diluc have to go perform so they leave her with a shoulder squeeze and a thumbs up.

She gets on-stage. She flinches under the lights for a second. She takes a deep breath and focuses on the first thing before her with her best "oh heavens, it's filthy in here", and she gets through the entire act by doing that for every object. So the audience is seeing this seemingly petite young girl lift the equivalent of a hecking car in order to clean under it.

Needless to say, there's roaring applause the second Noelle leaves (which she hears from far away because holy shit I just cleaned for people and they liked it)

This was a bit of a one-time thing and she goes back to her regular maid duties until the circus gets a new strongman by the name "Zhongli".

His style is more about lifting exTREMELY LARGE ROCKS, and breaking them in half whilst giving a history/geology lesson on them.

He quietly observes the maid who he hears fantastical stories of That One Time She Charmed An Audience By Cleaning. He was bewildered at first but saw the merit of it while watching her clean. He immediately decides that this girl has sO MUCH. POTENTIAL that is being wasted by having her work as a maid. He has nothing against maids or their profession, but he invites her to train with him.

Noelle gets hELLA stronger and they come to a conclusion. Noelle performs part-time and is a maid part-time. She doesn't have a particular performance style. She'll sometimes play catch with Zhongli and his big rocks, other times she'll be in the background of performers like Amber in the art lifting some hEAVY SHIT.

She gets along with Chongyun super well bc Chongyun has to make less trips to move his equipment since he's worked with her. She's a blessing for when they have to pack up and move.

Amber:

Amber's story is a little more straightforward. She started out engaged to a suitor. Amber was the kid in kindergarten who was learning about dragons and "idk what everyone else was doing". She's known what she wants for a long time, and what she wants at the moment, is not a relationship.

Throughout her childhood she was a very lonely child. Her family exposed her to lots of academic or ladylike things (do not ask me when this au is set, it's the 1800s and the 1990s at the same time or a suspendes steampunk time) to get her away from the thing she liked most: archery. She'd been exposed to it as a kid and latched on.

This drove a bunch of suitors away, so her family got more desperate and exposed her to more classes and activities to get her away from it. She went "that's easy, I'll just practice at night"

So she does that. She practices at night and underperforms in the coming weeks. It is during this time that her parents (high class ppl) find her a man to marry for some business deal idk.

The man's nice enough. It's just obvious he can only take Amber in small doses, and Amber takes full advantage of this to practice and stay in shape.

How Amber gets into the circus life was essentially running away. She bonds with Eula over this.

So because of all the attempts to make her fit into the ideal lady description, her rebellious streak said "yeah we're going to go as far away from that as possible" and she goes "I'm going to run away with the circus" bc that's what the books she's read say is the most rebellious thing you can do.

She finds THE FIRST circus she sees and begs to be let in. This is the shadiest most sketchy place but Amber sees it as the key to her freedom. She signs a contract.

They treat her like the US treats their students. She barely gets time to practice for performances and she's mostly doing dirty work. When they ask her what she can do she's like "I'm really good at archery" and they go "cool, you're going to be doing that while everything is on fire now. Can you do a handstand"

Essentially they push her and push her and push her to do more and more hazardous things she has to pick up on under the threat of being kicked to the curb.

After a while of this Amber is extremely burned out (pun intended) and as she's packing up after one of her shows, covered in burns but proud bc she hit all her targets without killing anyone, she's approached by a blond foreigner.

Tbh for all she's read, Amber really doesn't consider leaving and this time she can't run away since she's now bound by a contract (not Zhongli's btw in case anyone was wondering).

This foreigner tells her that there's so many ways to improve her situation and that he runs a circus looking for members.

Amber refuses since she's not getting tangled up in another legal mess, but she takes his advice on how to take care of her burns, and improve safety while she's performing.

Skip a few months. She hears word of this mysterious new circus around. Her encounter with who she'll later know as Aether stuck with her, and so she goes. To see whether she could really shoot her arrows without being burned alive.

After a show one night, she tries to get past security and fails repeatedly. She turns to leave and wouldn't you know it there's Aether. And Lumine. Waiting for her once she turns the corner. Amber's biggest concern is her existing contract and when Aether and Lumine say they have a nICE lawyer, Amber sees her next step to freedom.

Aether and Lumine essentially gain custody of Amber (but like for adults) and Amber is. Shocked. She's walked through her new contract of employment clearly and essentially treated like a human being.

And now that she knows things and has more freedom (though still under the watchful eyes of Aether and Lumine to see how she does) her creativity and competitive streak flourish. She decides she actually doesn't hate fire, she just doesn't like when she doesn't know when or where it's coming. And she makes fast friends with the gymnasts, so she ends up incorporating that into her routines. Now she uses her canon goggles to protect her from the burning eyes of prolonged smoke exposure when she uses fire.

When she meets a little pyromanic girl named Klee, she's thrilled that someone this chaotic and sure of herself exists.

#genshin impact #genshin #genshin impact noelle #genshin impact amber #genshin amber #genshin noelle #genshin impact circus au #genshin circus au #circus au #genshin impact fan art #genshin impact fanart #genshin fanart #genshin fan art #genshin noelle fanart #genshin amber fanart #genshin impact headcanons #genshin amber headcanons #genshin noelle headcanons #my art

[dojae-huh]

Two WayV subunits while they are preparing for the whole group comeback made me hope for 127 subunits after they wrap up their repackage promotions. SM even sent XiaoKun on shows and TenYang (+Hendery) will be guesting on variety shows soon. SM is trying to promote WayV in korea with subunits and variety contents before sending WayV to China when their new album drops.

Do said we would get new U combinations, along with 127 comeback and NCT 2021, didn't he. Could he be hinting at all these subunits huh? He said "new" but I want to see some old combinations like Tende and 4 Seasons too. Single releases like XiaoKun and TenYang songs could be manageable time-wise, although I wish for 4 Seasons/Tende full albums and minialbums in the future. We've talked here that 4 Seasons and Tende past songs weren't a huge hit but times have changed. 127 has been gaining more popularity. Maniac and Save aren't comeback songs and their performance on music charts aren't shabby. I hope SM will try again with 127 main vocalists soon.

Fans complained about lack of projects for Hyuck and Jae and now that Hyuck got Maniac, I hope Jae got more musical opportunities too. Sure he could have recorded covers but it's pretty obvious he's not in the mood for it, so I don't wanna push it and complain about cover songs. Jae still consistently talks about singing and has always mentioned it before other kinds of activities so I believe singing is still his biggest passion. Collabs and subunits would be nice, I guess. I also believe he has sung Dear.M OST since the casts were supposed to be on Yoo Hee Yeol's Sketchbook, a pretty popular singing show. Probably a duet with PHS but I doubt fans could listen to it without feeling uneasy even if it were released. Missed opportunity for Jae not just in acting but also in showcasing him to GP as a capable vocalist. 😔

Technically, WayV sub-units are U, however, they were treated as a sub-unit of WayV. Tende and other 127 combinations are labeled as U, despite being in the same unit. Considering WayV needs promotion before the new album and sub-units are doing just that, this naming tactic is understandable.

I'm afraid 2Dong's song is the U we were promised. There is always hope for a Christmas time special... but I'm pessimistic.

Lol, Hyuk was super busy with Dream comeback and all the stuff they prepared (photoshoots, Dream Life, variety shows, radio shows, etc). Hyuk also had his radio YT show.

D.O. did very well in charts and sales. And he won 1st place in a music show. Maybe Jae will choose a similar path, an album of his choice of the genre when he is even more secure in his fame to not do fanservice.

#Ask me away #chain reaction #WayVme

[gayoperatorgunclub]

For the ultimate ship meme, Lion and Doc? I'm sorry, I'm LionDoc trash-

it’s all good!! whenever someone sends in an ask, i get an excuse to talk/write about one of my interests! really, it makes me so happy to be able to create content that people hopefully enjoy!! 💝💝💝

General:

Rate the Ship -   Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs

How long will they last? - until the end of time, babey

How quickly did/will they fall in love? - it was love at first sight but then they started talking i do think it was some form of ~interest~ in one another at first sight, but then all that drama and lack of communication happened so they didn’t really allow themselves to even dream about the possibility of a relationship. HOWEVER! once lion joined rainbow and they talked their shit out like people who know how to cope, there was a period of a few months that is now referred to as The Four Months of Pining™, during which glaz did a lot of paintings where the subject (who usually bears an uncanny resemblance to doc or lion) is staring at something (or someone) longingly. he calls it his french period. when they finally get together, a LOT of money changes hands. and goes straight into sledge’s pocket (he was the only one who bet that it would take them this long). diana gets a brand new collar (handmade), bed (handmade), dish (handmade), and many new toys (some handmade, some store-bought. sledge’s craftsmanship can only get him so far) 

How was their first kiss? - you know how the french are supposed to be super suave and confident??? and how gay people are trying their hardest but they’re just Not Good at things????? (i know these are stereotypes but stay with me). well, with their 5/8 french blood (i hc one of doc’s parents is fully algerian while the other is half french, half algerian), and their 4/4 gay blood, they have an 81.25% chance of success in matters of the heart. sadly, that 18.75% chance of failure came into play during this situation. picture it. doc and lion. romantic, home-cooked dinner. le festin is playing in the background. they’re holding hands over the table. suddenly, doc’s cat goes into labour. all hell breaks loose. lion is getting flashbacks to his son’s birth, so now he’s hyperventilating. doc carries him to the couch and turns on the fan so he can cool off and catch his breath, before carefully moving his cat, Rayie (arabic for gorgeous, pronounced rye-ah) to the living room in his handmade Birthing Box, then grabs a pile of blankets and a heat lamp and situates himself on the ground nearby so he can help her if she needs it. once the kittens are born (they’re twins!! Sadiqi is the boy, and Amirti is the girl!!!) doc makes sure they’re nice and warm and that Rayie is recovering, and gives her pets while she cleans her babies. once the happy family is all settled in for the night, doc walks over to the couch and just. lays down on top of lion. once he’s gotten over the adrenaline of the birth, he takes lion’s face in his hands and says “promise me you’ll be more calm if we ever decide to have kids” and gives him a BIG smooch while lion’s just short-circuiting like “does he know i have a son???? did i forget to mention my son?????? also what about these kittens??? are they not sufficiently childish to count as children????? DOES HE WANT KIDS????? does he want to marry me??????? wait why is he getting so clo-”

Wedding:

Who proposed? - lion. it was the day of their two year anniversary (yes i AM saying they got together the august after outbreak don’t @ me) and they were on vacation at doc’s family’s Secret Beach House. they were vibing on the balcony, watching the sunset, when lion suddenly clears his throat. doc turns to look at him and finds his boyfriend down on one knee, looking like he might flee to Bermuda. he’s reaching for something in his pocket. doc starts laughing. lion, completely misunderstanding his reaction, flushes and stammers out an apology. doc sees this, and immediately stops, though he’s still smiling gleefully as he catches lion by the biceps, then reaches into his own pocket and pulls the ring he was going to give olivier. they exchange rings, giggling like little kids, and spend the rest of the night making out on whatever surfaces are available. 

Who is the best man/men? - for lion? montagne. (his son is the ring bearer and doc’s niece is the flower girl). for doc? rook. he’s so happy he gets to participate in his dad’s wedding

Who is the bride’s maid(s)? - for lion: finka. for doc: twitch

Who did the most planning? - both of them!! do you know how hard they worked to ensure the ceremony was valid in the eyes of both of their religions

Who stressed the most? - s e e  a b o v e

How fancy was the ceremony? - Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big.

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? - lion’s parents. they tried to call him during the reception but doc’s grandma grabbed his phone and started cussing them out, talking about dishonor and how they tried to disown him so they’re not his parents anymore, and besides, his new family absolutely adores him, so really, it’s their loss. once she hangs up, she pulls lion into a hug and he calls her his favorite, if only, grand-mère

Sex:

Who is on top? - who’s topping? lion. but sometimes doc gets bitchy so he gets to set the pace if you know what i mean

Who is the one to instigate things? - they are both lowkey horny 24/7 so 👀👀👀

How healthy is their sex life? - Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are humping each other on the couch right now (only because they do get to see each other fairly often. if one goes on a long mission without the other, once they get back they will bump it up to a 10 real quick)

How kinky are they? - Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head

How long do they normally last? - idk long enough ig. maybe longer if someone feels they’ve been left ~unsatisfied~ they might go a few more rounds ;))

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? - ok it depends on what they’re doing but usually it’s one or two each, but on ~special~ occasions it’s either doc getting edged and denied for hours, OR doc getting forced to come over and over again until he’s begging for something, whether it be more or a goddamn break even he isn’t really sure. either way he’s crying and lion is consistently asking if he needs to safeword and otherwise checking in because they may like it rough but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t care

How rough are they in bed? - Softer than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it.

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? - No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They snuggle and kiss more often than a teen couple on their fifth date to a pillow factory.

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? - unless someone’s hormones and organs get fucked, zero

How many children will they adopt? - probably none?? idk they’ve already got lion’s son and they’re both busy enough with work so

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? - NEITHER!!!!! DISGUSTANG!!!!!!!!!

Who is the stricter parent? - god i wanna say both. like lion and his attachment to rules??? but doc and his Mom Friend energy????? but ig lion BUT HE’S NOT STRICT TO THE POINT HE’S A BUZZKILL OR ANYTHING HE’S JUST RESPONSIBLE (he will NOT allow his husband and son to go vandalize the property of some islamaphobic brits, as much as he agrees with the sentiment) 

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? - doc will only allow vandalism if it’s in the name of righteousness. meaning, he’ll allow their son to spray paint the walls of a goddamn walmart with shit like “eat the rich” and a portrait of robespierre and a guillotine, but it is a HARD NO on defacing places like the library or community center (unless he has a good reason to do so). lion spends his time praying and making sure his son knows which acts of civil disobedience are acceptable and which are distorting their goal 

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? - doc. he (privately) dreams of retiring (eventually) and living out his lifelong dreams of being a househusband. so

Who is the more loved parent? - SHUT THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOW GET OUT OF MY HOUSE IM GONNA BEAT YOUR ASS. but ig lion??? BUT ONLY BECAUSE THEIR SON HAS KNOWN HIM LONGER. doc is half Dad and half Cool Uncle Who Gives Me Spray Paint And Tells Me To Make Myself Heard (to clarify, i know doc is a pacifist, but im kinda projecting my own sentiment of “we’ve tried to be peaceful but you wouldn’t give us the time of day. now that we’ve “acted out” we’ve gotten your attention, and rest assured, things are going to change.” he won’t hurt anybody, he’s just tired of having to be everyone’s “muslim friend” and educating people on things they could google themselves)

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? - it used to be lion out of necessity, but when people started asking about his “wife” he was really torn between telling them that he and his son’s mother separated, but now he has a partner and his son seems very happy about it. when doc finally attends a meeting with lion, people really struggle to hide their shock. a few clunky but well-meaning “we support you”’s and “we’re sorry for everything that’s been going on”’s later, doc has used his charm to make friends with literally everyone. from then on, he is on pta duty on behalf of lion and his ex

Who cried the most at graduation? - lion! his parents purposefully didn’t show at his, so it’s a big deal for him to show his son just how proud he is. doc tears up a little too, but manages to mostly keep it together so he can support lion, who spends most of the day heave-crying about how proud he is into his husband’s shoulder. gustave just pats him on the back and tells him that they’ll run out of donuts if they don’t get to the concession stand soon

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? - doc. civil disobedience, baby!! he has never been caught. lion fears the law after his youth, so he tries to avoid any visits to law enforcement. he also can’t stand to see his son behind bars

Cooking:

Who does the most cooking? - doc. househusband, remember?

Who is the most picky in their food choice? - doc, but only because he can be a bit of a spice supremacist. he has to get his ingredients from these very specific farms and markets or else his great grandmother will begin manifesting in their house to curse them

Who does the grocery shopping? - doc, bc he does NOT trust lion to not just sweep all of the microwave ramen and kraft mac n cheese into the cart then sprint to self-checkout

How often do they bake desserts? - whenever possible. doc and maestro live by the philosophy “don’t do anything halfway” if they’re going to go through the trouble of making a meal, it will have multiple courses. 

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? - doc is more of a salad eater but only for ease of consumption with halal laws. he adores filet mignon

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? - lion! maestro enlists himself as assistant head chef after walking into the base’s kitchen one day to find lion covered in flour and lying facedown on the floor, crying

Who is more likely to suggest going out? - also lion! though he’s memorized doc’s order at all of their favorite restaurants, so he usually just gets take out and puts on a big show of being a “tired housewife who works in the kitchen all day just for this one meal” and setting up the table so it’s all nice and romantic

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidently while cooking? - lion. he tried crème brûlée once. never again 

Chores:

Who cleans the room? - lion. organization is everything to this man. doc helps with laundry and such, but for the most part he leaves organization to lion and his systems (think leslie knope levels of planning and organization)

Who is really against chores? - neither! they both understand that teamwork makes the dream work, baby!!

Who cleans up after the pets? - doc, since lion’s already asked him which color hanger should represent “clothes i can tear off my husband before we fuck” and he needs a Moment

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? - neither. they don’t own a broom

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? - lion because of the deep-seated catholic urge to appear perfect in front of others, and doc because people will gossip, olivier!

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? - lion. he immediately called doc into the room and asked “is this your stash of drug money?” doc, who had been asleep because it was 3 in the morning on a saturday, just stares at him

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? - it is so bold to assume they don’t shower together to “cut costs”

Who takes the dog out for a walk? - lion is known in their neighborhood as the man who walks cats. there is a facebook page where people post pictures of him walking his cats. vigil is an admin

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? - LITERALLY EVERY HOLIDAY GETS DECORATIONS. lion makes his own for the muslim holidays since there really aren’t many “of good quality” in stores. when they first started dating, doc came home to find his house covered in ramadan decorations, and lion standing precariously on a ladder, trying to string up fairy lights while learning how to pronounce important arabic words. needless to say, doc cries

What are their goals for the relationship? - mutual joy and contentment!!!! 

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? - doc. he’s sleepy

Who plays the most pranks? - lion, but they’re stupid ones like replacing certain pictures with danny devito. doc gets back at him by replacing pictures of jesus with ewan mcgregor, and putting yoda into his nativity scene. lion doesn’t notice

#ask #anonymous #r6s doc #r6s lion #doc/lion #ass alert! #could you tell i forgot whether or not lion's ex and son had names #thank you for interacting!

[lovehelpmewrite]

Priorities

Title: Priorities

Pairing: Brian x reader

Summary: You and Brian did have plans but it seems like he has different priorities than you... at least at first.

Word count: 1.1k

Warnings: fluff, kissing, hickies... more fluff?

[A/N]: So this is an answer to this ask from the lovely @not-john-watsons-blog​ and it was really fun to write even though it took a few tries for me to really feel out how i should have everything set up :) i know im not super consistent with requests but i forced myself to sit down and work through this one because i know its been a Minute since i put out content for y’all. ANYWAY i hope you all like it and please feel free to leave feedback!!

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“Ughhhhhh,” I whined, plopping down on Brian’s bed, making him gently bounce from where he sat at the head of it. He had a stack of notes sitting between us and his textbooks littering the floor.

“Come on, you know I have to study,” he reasoned, lightly poking me with the eraser of his pencil. 

“But you’re so… ughhhh,” I groaned again and flopped my arm over my face feigning pain. “You’re really cute and it's ruining my life because I’m thinking about kissing you all the time!” I said exasperatedly. When I dropped my arm back on the bed and turned my head to him dramatically all he did was shake his head and grin, looking back at his book and trying to focus once more.

I groaned again in half frustration, half jest.

"I wait all day-" I started, pushing up on my elbows.

"Oh not this again," Brian muttered back though he was still smiling.

"No! I wait all day! Sit through all my classes, takes notes like a good student, make sure you guys aren't rehearsing or having a gig, drive all the way over here and you- you're studying!" I said in an exasperated tone, though I was struggling to hide my own smile.

Brian shook his head again. "I'm sorry! I know I said I would be free after class today but I didn't know I'd be getting another paper due in three days!" He chuckled. He seemed somewhere between genuinely stressed and trying to keep the joke up.

Feeling guilty now, I pushed myself up to stand again and walked to stand next to him. I slowly slid my arms around him, resting my chin on his shoulder and watching him write for a second. I pressed a small kiss to his shoulder after a moment.

"I'm sorry too bub I didn't mean to make you feel guilty," I apologized softly, pressing my face further into his neck.

He sighed and nuzzled his face against mine. “No it's alright, I get it, I was excited to spend time with you too,” he said quietly, a sad smile coming over his face. He dropped his pen after a moment, bringing his hand up to my head and lightly petting my hair as I kissed his collarbone softly. He laughed for a second as I started lightly sucking a hickey onto his neck. “Is it my under eye circles or my unwashed hair that turns you on?” he laughed.

“Hmmm,” I pretended to be in thought, kissing his neck one more time before moving up to whisper in his ear. “Both. You know how much that tired scientist look gets me going,” I started out able to keep my voice sultry but by the end, I was laughing too. I yelped and laughed even more when he suddenly pulled my arm and had me fall into his lap, holding me there with one hand and trying to tickle me with the other while I squirmed.

“BRIAN NO!” I laughed loudly, screeching and wiggling while his fingers poked at my sides and neck and ribs. 

He slowed down after a moment and was just looking at me as we both caught our breath, getting that look in his eye that made my heart lurch and my hands shake.

“What?” I asked quietly, watching the warmth grow in his eyes, the gentle smile grow on his lips.

He shook his head. “Nothing,” he answered back, just above a whisper before he leaned down and slowly kissed my lips. “Come over here. Want you to lay here while I finish this up and then we can spend the next two whole days together. No homework this time,” he proposed, patting the side of the bed toward the wall.

I smiled and carefully crawled over his blankets and then trying not to disturb his papers, I laid down and moved so my head was resting gently on his thigh. I looked up at him for a second and mirrored his smile. “Alright, back to work. The sooner you get it done the sooner we can actually cuddle and make out,” I grinned cheekily.

“What motivation you’ve given me,” Brian chuckled, picking up his pencil with his right hand and placing his left hand on the side of my head, fingers lightly stroking my hair. 

I fell asleep like that at some point, smooth fingers pushing back my hair from my face and the quiet scratch of pen on paper and the smell of pure Brian surrounding me. 

When I woke up the room was darker and Brian had moved to spoon me from behind, also asleep. He’d brought his blankets up to cover us and all his books were put neatly back into their place across the floor on his desk. The sun seemed to just be setting outside but that wasn’t much of an indicator as to the time because it was getting colder out and the sun was setting earlier and earlier. It didn’t bother me so much though. Worst case, I’d fallen asleep around one in the afternoon and it was nearing four.

I shifted slightly to stretch my spine and felt guilt fill my chest as Brian hummed from behind me, waking up from what was clearly a needed nap. 

“Good morning love,” He greeted, voice hoarse with sleep. He looked at the clock and made a noise. “Or good afternoon.”

I smiled and turned slightly, kissing his chin as he stretched and turned his head up. “You should go back to bed, you need sleep after being so busy all week,” I advised.

He hummed. “But then my beautiful girlfriend might complain about not seeing me for another week. Can’t have that,” he grinned at me sleepily.

“The good news is that there’s this revolutionary concept where two people can sleep at the same time, in the same place… together,” I smiled, enjoying the light banter.

“Oh is there now? I must meet the scientist who discovered this,” he quipped back with a cheeky smile.

I shook my head at him, guiding his chin down and kissing him again. “I’ll make sure to bring them along next time. Your bed fits three right?”

He pretended to be in thought for a moment. “Mmm, better not then,” he said, pulling me closer to him and pressing me back into his warmth. “Just want to spend a day with my love, is that too much to ask?”

I laughed and lightly jabbed him in the ribs with my elbow making him laugh in response.

#i was really gonna make this a friends-to-lovers thing at first but i think an established relationship works better :) #i haven't written Brian very much at all but i love him so much #i hope this works well for him #hes very much a soft baby to me #big cuddles and lovies kinda guy #so yee #i hope y'all like it #wow content?? me??? call an ambulance #brian may #brian may x reader #brian x reader #brian may x reader fluff #brian x reader fluff #brian may fluff #feedback pleathe and thank you #queue the bullshit

[writingandmore]

1/7 Match up for bnha villain and hero? Im going to be honest I'm not good at emotions, relationships or keeping communication. Well I am but it has to be in person. I'm also brutally honest and hate liars. I'm an actor, writer, singer, and I draw a but. I also play videogames but not that often. I always listen to music which consists of rock, heavy metal, alternative rock, and a bit of rap. I'm fairly okay with touching I just have to initiate it otherwise I'll have a panic attack.

I'm clossd off but I don't exactly hide I just let them ask and I tell. I'm interested in psychology and that about it. Nothing has held my fancy for long as I get pretty board real easy. I'm quite forward and confrontational yet I do get scared if it's someone I don't know as I'm fairly weak. I'm also intimidating to some people cause I'm quite smart and I tent to be loud and three it's not easy to know how I'll feel yet it's quite easy to see what emotion I have as I'm expressive

My friend also consider me to be the "Mastermind" or the "final boss" that everyone dies multiple times trying to beat. I'm super understanding unless I feel pissy and just wanna argue. I'm also more giving and caring to those I do care for but alot of the time people leave or i leave so that parts pretty dead and it might come off as I'm forcing myself to be that way. I'm also use to being alone and will get annoyed of they're constantly trying to be there or be around me.

I also don't like when people try and calm me down or make me feel better, as I feel weak and I don't like it, unless I specifically go to them. And tbh I'm not one to even be in a relationship in the first place. I also don't like when people get and calm me down or make me feel better, as I feel weak and I don't like it, unless I specifically go to them. And tbh I'm not one to even be in a relationship in the first place. Also tbh I'm fairly emotionless yet empathetic (weird right.)

And have a really hard time connecting with people so I isolate myself and have been for most of my life. I also get ready when people invade my privacy. I'm sorry chill once you get to know me though and can be considered the tired angry mom friend. Or dad. Whichever I don't really care. Much to people's amazement I'm not an alcoholic or a stoner and I'm pretty against drugs. I also have a very big thing for smell. No not a kink I just like people who smell good.

Not to strong or I'll get a headache. And if my S/O does smell bad I'll gladly run a bath and take a self care of well care for them day. I like to take care of things. Im very good at writing and will write them love letters. Apart from that I've been mostly alone my whole life so loneliness is something I'm very familiar with and used to and it will take a while for to get to a point I do feel like I'm not alone or can rely on them.

I've normally always had a lot of difficulty with people and referring to me as something negative or in a more evil way, generally they didn't mean it in a bad way it normally was how I presented myself, and for a time I believed it. But recently I've found I'm not like that at all and I'm actually quite the opposite. And it still kinda get me down but I am working on deciphering who I am and all.

Villain: Toga!

-Shes quite emotional and would be willing to hold up that part of the relationship. She would expect her s/o to talk to her often, so she would have no qualms about making that happen so you wouldn’t have to worry about it as much.

-Shes very forward with how she is and her interests without feeling any embarrassment or shame, so you would most likely really like how honest she is.

-She loves to sing and does it quite often, even in conversation, so that would be a great common interest for the both of you to enjoy together.

-She loves heavy metal and hardcore music like that. She acts cutesy all the time, but that’s her absolute favorite thing to listen to. You could talk about your favorite artists or songs together!

-She can get a good read on people, especially those she knows best like her partner. She would always be willing to ask you if she detects that there’s something wrong, and would help you work on it.

Hero: Aizawa!

-Aizawa is not clingy and will willing give his s/o as much space as they need without being upset or angered. This would work out great for you two, since you’re a person that needs that kind of relationship.

-Hes pretty much the tired dad of all of his students too, so he’d like an s/o with a similar caring personality, even if it’s hidden from most others.

-Sometimes he lacks in self care for himself-he gets too busy or lacks the motivation to do so after a long day-so you would be really helpful in getting him to relax, and he’d love you a lot for that.

-Love letters will make him so flustered-it night not be noticeable, but he’d keep all of them someone easily accessible so if he’s ever having a bad day he’d take them out and read them if you weren’t around.

-He’d be very confident in you and would boost you up without even realizing it sometimes. He’d refute anything you said that might be self deprecating, and would try his best to get you to see your potential.

#toga himiko #bnha matchup #boku no hero academia #bnha #aizawa shouta