#also i just really enjoy coloring her

[hamofjustice]

nemona feels like an obscure blorbo instead of the main rival character from the latest pokemon game because to get to her really good content from people who really get it, you first have to wade through the ocean of yandere pervert obsessive stalker annoying punchable bimbo amazon goddess interpretations of...

... a neurodivergent and possibly disabled high schooler who's desperately trying to make any friends or get any support from her rich neglectful family - while everyone in her school is jealous of their own imagined version of a privileged asshole version of her they made up - who deeply and platonically loves and supports the one new kid who agreed to take the time to get to know and respect her and her special interest without having to hold back her true self

unlike her, it's not great!

kinda feels like she has the same problem in our world that she does in hers.

#(except much hornier) #i hate to say it but i think her skin color has something to do with it #nemona pokemon #nemona #pokemon sv #pokemon scarvio #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon #nemonaposting #dog girl and goku memes are fine i guess #i legitimately cannot google her without a video of someone being cruel to her on purpose and making her visibly sad coming up #i don't think people like that really browse these tags but i hope they're not the reason she was not in the dlc footage at all #and thus may never get more screen time to actually be her best friend's 'rival for life' as promised before the 3 year cycle marches on #you know the dlc about nemona's best friend and 'greatest treasure' transferring to a school about the hardcore battles she's dying without #potentially abandoning her and sending her back to almost square one on having a reason to enjoy life #don't get me started yelling about that again #also i didn't mean platonically in a don't ship them kind of way you should absolutely do that if it lines up with your interpretations #i usually do in fact #just trying to emphasize the contrast between canon and fanart here #opinions of her already start off so low faith just because she's from the 10 fps pokemon game and i'll be real i wish she wasn't #i wish she and her friends were somewhere i could trust that they would be treated respectfully by their copyright holders

[theshadowrealmitself]

Back to the Spiderman au I have where Peter has radioactive venom and accidentally bites Miles when the kid is trying to help him, and because he’s so full of guilt at accidentally doing this to the kid (especially in one of those universes where people absolutely hate the x-men and stuff, being mutated might ruin that person’s life), he takes him under his wing to teach him everything about his new powers and before he knows it, Miles is working alongside him as a new hero

For that au, I’m now thinking about that version of Peter trying to rescue Gwen, and in the end the only thing that can help her is for her to be turned, so he shares his venom, and to Peter it’s this incredibly horrible event where he’s dragged another person into this life of being mutated, but Miles, who is next to him and has never once been unhappy about gaining powers, is like “welcome to the web warriors!!! you’re one of us now!!! :D”

#my incredibly self indulgent spiderman au #originally I was thinking that only Peter gets all his hair changed to red and blue because he’s both born as a mutant #and later turned radioactive #but actually I think it would be fun if every person who gets turned gets their hair changed into their color scheme #miles gets red and also keeps his black hair #what would Gwen get? #if it’s like her ghost spidey alt self maybe white and pink hair? #Spiderman #spider man #spider-man #peter parker #miles morales #Gwen Stacy #I like to imagine that while Peter has all this angst attached to his backstory and being Spidey #Miles is just enjoying every second of it #not to say that Peter doesn’t also enjoy being Spidey #just it’s balanced with the angst #Miles hasn’t really experienced that angst #yet? #I kinda wanna keep him just a happy superhero doing good because it’s the right thing to do without trauma pushing him towards it #y’know?

[qeyond]

First kiss <3

#qeyond sucks #birthdaymassacre #beyond birthday #naomi misora #misora massacre #puts them in my mouth and shakes my head like a dog #GOD I LOVE THEM #played with a line filter and OH MY GOD? love it? hope yall like it too >:3c #okay okay okay but the color gradients!!! i see naomi as a purple and B is red of course #and i really wanted them to both be their own colors and have B's red bleeeeeed into naomi and like slowly take over her purple #UGH god #now why does B even have his eyes open in the last you ask? is it cuz hes just a lil weird guy? well kinda #more so its disbelief that a) someone he admires so much is actually giving him real human affection #and b) well i mean hes reminded every single second of everyday that everyone around him is gonna die so hes making sure shes real and #also not going to fucking die by kissing him or something because for real this guy believes hes just cursed and not human #he gets close to ppl and they die horribly ... cough A cough... #anyway enjoy these as you want either way <3 #death note #art #q art

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[dbssh]

yeah man idk sometimes a reference comes around and i just have to do it. like immediately. 

#seminudity #no nips because i dont likedrawing them also plausible deniability anyways. #red.png #i really enjoyed painting this idk i feel like its not often that i stumble across the exact right body type for her #and i dont really uhmmmm have that good a grasp on how muscles work #also i just really enjoyed the colors i picked i think they look fun #especially on the lighter green i think the more intense colors look nice #i didnt wanna go redo the whole darker sections but ill keep it in mind for next time i suppose #i feel like im finally starting to figure out how i like painting #anyways. uh. yeah thats all i got. #ajaposting

[wickedhawtwexler]

i started watching wednesday and i'm excited to announce that enid is my actual daughter who i raised

#she's bubbly and blonde and colorful and wears fun sweaters. she's just like me but also a teen werewolf. i love her!!! #this is definitely a Show For Teens™ but i don't dislike it #predictably i really enjoy the cello music #i'm also watching while wearing my yellowjackets sweatshirt so christina ricci i hope you know the space ur consuming in my life #m.txt

[piknim]

its not great but its mine

#i deleted all the 3d fluff stuff bc it looked like shit #gotta learn how to do it #but no furries have made tuts on how to do 3d fluff in blender soooooo #when i try to find tuts i just find how to do real looking fur #while i wanna do both i just want to make a simple thing i can play with #ive gotta redo her feet they look like shit and dont move properly in armature mode #hmm also i think the ears need just a little more refining #also her teef dont move with the rest of the model so ive gotta figure that one out #i was gonna color it but its too late for figuring out how to do that rn #tomorrow she'll be colored and posed and hopefully fluffed #uhhhh ig fluff then color then pose #while ive gotten a bit frustrated a few times and kept redoing parts i really enjoy doing this #it takes a long time(this is over a week in the making) its almost fun #i wanna make more

[spearxwind]

(just saw multiverse of madness too) if I *had* to give the movie something positive, its that at least they got a good person for the job in regards to directing the movie more towards the side of horror

(they got sam raimi, creator of the evil dead series, is what I mean xbzjdhjx)

(Multiverse spoilers btw)

Honestly the parts of the movie that actually weren't classic marvel nonsense, like wanda vs the illuminati or the whole ending section with strange in the broken house are actually fucking great

Like this movie could have actually been good if it wasn't about superheroes with the most bizarre crossovers of all time and was more like the first movie where it focused on the magic and the occult. It would have been super interesting otherwise but no, each new marvel movie has to serve as an introduction to the next 5 movies theyre planning on making, and this one especially required you to watch several other movies and several other tv shows to even understand what was happening

#ask #anon #there are some really cool visuals for sure though like. when they actually use color grading properly instead of just cranking saturation #also the woman who plays wanda is SUCH a good actress she did such a fantastic job for such a bad movie #its like watching 2 hours of nonsense for 10 minutes of good parts #honestly tho I actually really enjoyed wanda in general. they did do her justice at least in the second half #when the characters are not infodumping the lore on you for 20 minutes at a time in unnatural conversations #like the scene in the tunnels with her eyes glowing is so good #whatever man. its so insane #Also the ending is silly as fuck I actually laughed

[coffeeastronaut]

Insane to me that 13s finale was so bad like ik i literally quit watching during her run bc it sucked so bad but like. What. we got:

straight up incomprehensible plot with multiple irrelevant or unaddressed plot points beginning and then never getting finished or explained in any way (was was the master Rasputin? why did the plan have to happen in two different time periods? what were those two warring planets? why did we need the cybermen AND the daleks? why did the master use his big doe eyes to hypnotize those people?)

Comprehensible plot points that were botched (matryoshka cyberman, kidnapped energy source alien thing, ai holo doctor, yaz being/becoming the doctor in her own right, the doctor has so many friends forever and thats why shes a winner, master x doctor haties 4ever, yaz wondering if she’ll get left behind like other companions/being worried abt turning into them, dan leaving)

Comprehensible plot points that were stupid as shit (the master needing ace and tegan for the matryoshka.. he couldn’t have just kept it in his pocket? forced regeneration into the master so that he can wreck her reputation for some reason? siesmologists being kidnapped and also he graffitied some paintings (for some reason?) and these things are Clearly Related Duh. master wants to um, be the doctor for some reason? yeah im not touching that one frankly. the doctor suffering zero consequences from forced regeneration only to get laser beamed to death but then shes fine to like get ice cream and chit chat but she is dying. Dont think abt it too much.)

chibby coincidence catastrophe. this cunt loves to not write cause and effect lets just get lucky or slip or trip or fucking whatever. teagan slipping on that ladder so that she can get jumpscared but then it’s fine actually she can just slide away like dark souls, graham just like idk chilling and running into ace in the dalek lave pit, random traitor dalek (who is immediately killed and never relevant again???) just happens to contact the doctor just in time for the other daleks to use it as a trap????

and like on top of all this it had so many moments where you can practically feel chibnall begging the audience to get hype bc look xyz thing is here from previous thing on the show! like w/ the classic companions coming back (and i do love them! But WHERE was the relevancy beyond making yaz uncomfortable bc they both left in bad circumstances. Where was it.), or all of the doctors homies showing up to pilot the tardis with her (you WISH you were the stolen earth you WISH-), or the fugitive doctor (sorry i didnt watch that ep. but i know enough to know it was nothing more then a callback.), or seeing all the other doctors in 13s like dreamscape place or whatever the fuck (and what was the point of that? she just idk says hi guys! and then sits in there and waits? hello?), the companion support group (cute concept! joked abt in fandom for years! but so lame in execution im sorry!), UNIT being involved for some reason (this is the least egregious imo, since it slotted neatly into the plot. however since they didnt do anything other then say hey doc check out these paintings! ahhughh cybermen! it’s still stupid as shit.) ace and graham flirting for some reason???? LIKE WHAT WAS THE POINT HERE. Dan leaving (why didn’t he leave at the end of last episode when he was clearly thinking about it??) like ten minutes into the episode, and the doc is like okay bye! [leaves him homeless on the street] like what horrible pacing that was. And where the hell was ryan? Dan and graham come pick yaz up and ryan is no where to be seen. Maybe he could smell the bad vibes and stayed home. Christ

Yaz especially felt just soooooo botched and shitty. As i said before i quit watching after 13’s first season, but i did catch the last five min of the sea devils and even just there it was. Pretty fucking clear that they were confessing love to one another, but we ~cant be together ever~ (says the cunt whos had countless kinda-sorta-girlfriends and at least one wife!) because itll ~be sad~ (you wish you were tenrose you WISH-).

Her competence at flying the fucking tardis, delegating tasks, planning, and executing on all of it was flawless! that’s an insane level of skill for a companion to have, only ever shown in new who with River Song, and outliers like Doctor-Donna, Bad Wolf Rose, or whatever that was with immortal Clara. To have her do all that, especially with such success… it’s crazy. Usually we only see that level of competence from ex-companions, like Martha, Micky, dimension-hopping Rose, or Sarah Jane.

Both those things said. You’re telling me. The Doctor is regenerating. So. Yaz is just. Gonna go home? What? Not even that the the doctor intentionally abandoned her- although, arguably she did- just. She’s leaving i fucking guess. For no reason? After all that? I understand it’s partially a writing thing and mandip leaving the show or whatever, but like, that was seriously the best you can do? She just dips and goes to a support group?

And that feeds into a greater problem with the episode, the idea that all of this works bc the doctor has all these friends. And then she just like. Leaves. She just dips. Hits the fucking bricks ALONE. and again it’s partially the writer swap i’m sure. But what on Gods Green Fucking Earth. Not to mention it all hinges on her having friends but none of them seem to actually like her or be friends with her. it’s like houseplants instead of characters.

absolutely a shameful end to a shameful run of the show. I really hope that jodie/13 get the chance to come back under better writers in the future for audio dramas or whatever.

in conclusion, tldr, or whatever: jesus christ that shit

SUCKED

#mi #long post #good parts of the ep: im a sucker for high saturation sorry it looks baller. sacha as the master is a delight even if his writing is just #fucking ATROCIOUS he’s nice to look at thanks to costuming for putting him in cute outfits. #it’s hard to fully enjoy his acting when the material really is just. so shit. but i do like his choices and his mannerisms hes fun.ty sacha #umm… colors and sacha… um….. idk i guessthe master’s jokerfied tardis was good. ehhhh #dont get me started on the dt regen . glad to see the man but Hello? Hello? Hello? #erm. i should tag this as a long post. and also as dw so that my friends can filter this but i do NOT want this showing #up in the tags like at all. i dont want to be a prick to ppl who liked it and also i dont want to get killed by doctor who fans who thought #this was baller. sorry to jodie whittaker fans too. im sorry she sucked and i cant tell how much is her and how much is chibnall. augh. #tagged this as long post. sorry to my non-dw mutuals for my long haterism post.

[lettuce-gremlin]

Was talking to my step-mom about my work at the theatre next season and how I'd potentially be picking up more work in addition to the work I'm already signed on to do and she asked if I give myself a rest day in my work week and it's like

No :)

#she cannot be that surprised though this is partly her fault #she made me feel bad for not coming in to work when they tried to call me in on one of my days so... #also don't worry i started color coding my calendars shortly after this #also i didn't actually do anything for this show except props #but next season I'm the equity asm for all four shows so it's gonna be... a lot #props was also a lot but i didn't really jive with it #and despite it not having a set schedule it also didn't work well with my schedule #as i also work a full time job #so if something breaks in a matinee i won't bs able to go look at it or try to fix it until i leave my job around 5 #at which point the next performance starts in... 2-ish hours #so if it's not an easy fix then it's just a lot to deal with #i enjoyed asm-ing before though. i like the routine. the big book #edit: also my step-mom knows full well this is how i put myself through school. she should not be surprised

[daenerys-targaryen]

how is it anyone's business what you decide to post? it's your blog, if anon or anyone else don't like, there's this magical thing called the unfollow button. fucking morons.

Yeah it's not the first time I've gotten asks like that (and won't be the last) and that's exactly what I say, "unfollow!" It really is that simple. It's the entitlement for me. Demanding someone to do something on their own blog bitch you better be joking. It's partially my fault because for the longest time this blog was primarily a taylor swift blog when I first started it, so I gained a lot of my followers that way but I'm also no longer 18 and have more interests than Taylor now. Also I made this blog my primary blog (aka multi fandom) in 2019/2020 so it's been years since I've been purely 100% taylor lol. To say that all my other edits 'fall to the wayside' aka flop is so funny. I have shrek gifsets that have 50k LMAO

#i would say i have more taylor edits that flop than not #and also i don't post gifs FOR notes #clearly i post them to share my interests and it's disheartening if something doesn't get a lot #but i also know going in if i'm posting an obscure fandom or an obscure ship #it most likely won't get a lot of notes #like bates motel for ex. i gifed norma knowing the set wouldn't get a lot of notes because i lOVE HER #does that make any sense #i've mostly been posting stranger things edits the last week or so cause it's FUN #i've been having FUN editing and playing around in photoshop #i've been having fun playing around with mask layers and colors and typogrpahy!!! #and i want to share that growth yk? #sure like i said if something doesn't get a lot of notes i'm like that sucks #but for now i'm really enjoying gifing and it's not going to deter me from posting #just because i don't think it'll get notes #/// that has been the case BEFORE because burnout is legit #but i have a full notes app with ideas of gifsets so i'm having fun regardless if something gets a ton of notes #funnily enough i actually feel pressured to make taylor edits which makes me not want to make them #so jokes on anons they played themselves #anyways didn't mean to ramble on #but as you guys are aware. it happens.

[leenesomewhatdraws]

"Maybe we should consider the possibility of a... runaway"

"How dare you suggest that ?"

--

"Ah... All of a sudden, it feels as though something is crushing my heart"

--

Day 5: Hurt hehe >:)

What's worse in a missing case ? The possibility that a loved one's deceased and you may never find them ? Or that they decided to leave everything behind, including you, without a trace ?

!! I think this one is the one I'm the most proud of for now :)

#blankshippers dni #pla era #submas september #sbmstember #submas #Leene's art tag #i was worried i wouldn't be able to re transcript well the idea I had since school started again and I only just got to do it #but !! im like- super proud of it ♡ #let's enjoy it while it lasts lol #okay but like- how I did Lady Sneaslzr ?? i was anxious abojt not being accurate but beside her height #(which is kinda 'cause of where i wrote the day lmao) #she isn't half bad ! and also-- i really love how i shaded/colored the twins' uniforms !! #i think my favorite thing about their clothes is their clown shoes lol i can just draw blobs and not worry about being accurate lmao #but just in case-- the stuff under emmet's eyes are dark circles; tears and tears track #i didn't want to ruin the drawing so i left it like that but it's good enough anyway #dang it i forgot to write that he's clenching his fists fuck #ah well (shrugs)

[deadsetobsessions]

Damian Wayne was like a duckling. A violent, stab-happy, danger-prone duckling, yes, but a duckling all the same. Which means when Danny almost got stabbed by a sleepy, instinct driven Damian, he was able to wave it off with a laugh. Damian, on the other hand, stared in horror at the butter knife firmly lodged in Danny’s arm.

“PENNYWORTH!” Danny jerked back at Damian’s scream. “RICHARD! FATHER!”

God damn, the kid had a pair of lungs on him. Danny’s wince was interpreted as pain to Damian, who gently grabbed his injured arm and started to pull him towards the kitchen’s marble island.

Danny blinked, non plussed as his hearing picked up a thundering of feet as the present family members scrambled towards Damian’s distress call.

“Wait, Damian, I’m fine. It’s-”

“You have been impaled, you imbecile! Had it been any of the other simpletons, they would have-!”

“Ouch.” Danny put his other hand in mock hurt over his slow-beating heart. He literally doesn’t care about the butter knife. He’s just impressed there was enough force in there to impale him. “Are you calling me names now? After- gasp- stabbing me?”

Before Damian could reply, the beginnings of regret, remorse, and guilt on his face, Alfred, Dick, and Bruce burst into the kitchen.

“What happened?!”

“My word, master Danny!”

“What is it?!”

“I’m fine. It’s like a small stab. Not even a big stab. I’m good.”

Dick paled, seeing Danny’s arm clutched in Damian’s hand.

“That’s- that’s a knife. In your arm. How is that ‘fine’?!”

“What happened.” Bruce asked Damian, gently removing Danny’s arm from Damian’s death clutch.

“I- I did not mean to,” Damian starts, guilt coloring his voice.

“He didn’t,” Danny cuts in. “I startled him and got stabbed for being dumb. I won’t fault him for having a defense mechanism like that, ancient knows what I might do if you guys startled me.”

The awkward silence that settled at his words made Danny twitch awkwardly.

“Uh, so, can I add this knife to my collection? Even if I didn’t get mugged?”

“Danny.”

“Bruce.” Danny stared stubbornly back. With his uninsured hand, he patted Damian on the head. He was going to enjoy the fluffiness before Damian’s guilt was no longer enough to hold him back from snapping at Danny’s hand like a grumpy alligator. Bruce loses, obviously. He’s a teenager who was also an ex-vigilante. Batman’s got nothing on a determined halfa.

“Master Danny, I must insist you refrain from getting stabbed. There is only so much gauze and antiseptic cream in the house.” Alfred returned- huh, when did he leave?- with a med kit.

Danny called bullshit because he knows there’s a whole ass medical bay beneath the manor.

“Sorry.”

“No need to apologize.” Alfred said, promptly beginning the extraction of the butter knife.

“Are you okay?” Dick asked, hovering worriedly. “He- are you…?”

Damian was allowing Danny to ruffle his hair, so…

“Yep, I’m good. This isn’t even on my top thirty most painful stabbings,” and it really wasn’t. That honor was given to the GIW and that one time Jazz accidentally stabbed him with her earrings. “That was pretty impressive, actually. It’s like, a butter knife. The other ones had pointy ends.”

“Do not clump me with those pathetic wastes of spaces. I am naturally superior and would… would never harm you on purpose.” Damian said, getting quiet at the end like he was trying to plead to Danny to believe him.

“Of course not. But- if you want help me keep the knife, you can hit me with a mug, it would technically be a mugging.”

The pun got the desired effect. Damian leaned away with a disgruntled look and Dick stopped hovering as close in order to let out a small cackle.

“Done.”

“You should go get changed, kiddo. We’re going to see Tim’s photography at the Gotham Gallery today.”

“Oh, for real?” Danny patted Damian’s fluffy hair one last time, pushing away from the counter. “Oh, I’ll clean up here first and-”

“That will not be necessary,” Alfred scolded, a mop somehow already in his hands. “Please see to it you are prepared for the day.”

“Thanks, Alfred. Can I keep the knife.”

“Very well.”

“Sweet. See you guys later?” Danny pranced off after seeing the nods.

——

“He’s… he got stabbed a lot. Before us, I mean.” Dick tapped a furious rhythm onto the counter. “Not that we’ve stabbed him until now but even once is concerning for a civilian.”

“He was used to it.” Bruce replied.

“Perhaps we should join Todd in his endeavor and ensure that his worthless tormentors are permanently out of the picture.”

“God, he said top thirty. He was counting.”

Damian silently withdrew a kitchen knife.

“No murder with my quality chef’s knives, Master Damian.”

“Tt.”

“Master Jason follows the same rules. Now, out of the kitchen. I may be old, but I remember the last time master Bruce and master Dick stepped foot in here and I will not have a repeat.”

#danny phantom #danny phantom is a little shit #dc x dp #batman #bruce wayne #jason todd #bamf danny phantom #nightwing #dick grayson #alfred pennyworth #Alfred is ninja #Damian is attached #damian wayne #bruce to the GIW: I don’t kill #behind him: a contingent of his pissed off kids #bruce: but they do #danny dropping trauma and lore in one go: lol #Damian’s way of bonding with people is stabbing #Danny’s used to ghostly violence as a way of being a friendly hello #he sees no issues with being stabbed #everyone else not so much

[holytrickster]

sitting there like has my art gotten better over time or do I just add way too much unnecessary detail now

#but lineart becomes honestly really meditative for me at times especially if im adding texture to something #i will say at least i dont pick such ugly colors anymore. i used to always have reslly bright colors and then i thought it was too much #and overcorrected imo so everything was desaturated and boring #oh i also used to color in the lines for like every single color on the character? idk how to describe it but it was tedious #i like it on other people's art but i dont have the patience and i dont like how it looks when my lines are “cleaner” #sometimes i do miss how i used to not care if what i drew was “cringy” #but i think im coming back out of that considering all i draw is like. gay shit and elves and various iterations of myself and also my ocs #i should redraw some really really old art after what im working on maybe #i almost started working on a redraw of when i drew yavanna in likr 2017-18 but i dont like the design i gave her at all #minus the weird branch ears those were cool #mostly im just frustrated it still takes me hours to draw lol. i dont know why i get insecure about it or about art in general #i guess bc no one in my family really does so they have this idea im good at it #and i wanna grab them and shake them sometimes and explain all the reasons im actually not and all the mistakes i regularly make #i dont know if that makes any sense and i dont know why i struggle to just take the compliment #i guess because i know im not good enough at it for it to be a job? except thats not it either because ive almost always wanted to write #its very dumb and weird. especially considering i dont really draw for other people. i mean i like when people like my art but unless its #for somebody specific im not necessarily going to take it very hard at all if its not to their taste. i just do it because i enjoy it #and because there are things i only know how to express through writing or drawing. and when one doesnt work sometimes its the other #maybe i just get frustrated i cant be good at everything #its not realistic but i always end up wanting to do so many things and getting frustrated when i dont pick them up right away #because OF COURSE i dont #ok where was i going with this #its nearly 2am and my head is pounding again i dont even know what day this makes it. at least a week? #i dont know

[hirookouji]

sorry ive been just dumping art on this blog... but at least im not posting all my wips here

#im this close to posting 4 sailor moon wips lollll #im redrawing that one hq light novel cover #u know the one. #i also have 4 bokuroshou roommate wips. ones fully done. two are being colored. one is like still a rough sketch #i have a couple of kurobas drawings but those might just never be finished #most r studies... i actually have a couple kise and kagami drawings but #studies feel too personal to post. im just learning #i will always post a momoi drawing tho. i enjoyed practicing painting w her! #paintings just so hard. dies. i cant do lineless in my current state #im just really happy to be doing digital art now lol #i love traditional! i really do! its just now i get to do the fun things i always saw digital artists do #i can use color!!! i was never good w mixing colors in painting and now i can just. go plop on color wheel #i still need to learn more and i wish i could take a painting class but #its been so nice to make art again #i actually had a tablet and did krita on my computer like. on and off for several years #but it never felt like i was making art as good as i did w a pencil and paper #the nohebi stageplay selfies were on krita i think that was like my fave and best piece at the time #i just.... havent had the inspiration or time to do art consistently for like two years #and now its here!!! its back!! i love this feeling so much! i missed it! #and even tho i havent drawn much in the past 2 years i still feel like ive improved? or im improving? #and that feeling is so nice... #okay rant over #maybe ill make an art insta or another art sideblog or smth