#also i made this like 4 days ago and it was so hard waiting till thursday

[gaybitchfx]

Day: 20 of Kinktober 🎃

Character(s): Xaoi (vampire ofc)

Type of reader: M!Reader

Category: NSFW + Omegaverse

Warning(s): Pregnancy kink

Edited: ❌

Note: My ass got too embarrassed with this one so I’m not doing the lactation kink 😭 and I did write this when I was really tired so it probably won’t be the best

Kinktober list

Continuation of: Day 17

A couple months has passed since your last encounter with Xiao.

Your scent had completely changed into a milky one and you were slightly thinner but not too thin to notice a change.

You were also carrying a baby, you didn’t look it though even if you were 4 months in. But it was noticeable due to your weird cravings and mood swings.

Of course, you wanted to see you pup’s father, and wanted him to be in the kids life so you once again left your hometown to search for his inn. It didn’t take long for you to find said inn since it looked the same as it did 6 months ago.

You made a fist with your hand and gentle knocked on the door. A couple seconds went by and the door opened revealing Xiao who looked surprised to see you again.

Xiao would stare at you for awhile, captivated just like how he was the first time you two met, but this time he felt his heart beat and jump around in his chest, well a metaphorical heart. “It’s nice to see you again.” Xiao said, a small smile present on his lips.

“Same goes for you! I know you’re wondering what I’m doing here. Well… I’m..” “Pregnant? Yes I know that darling. After all I did say I would fill you with my pups on our last encounter~” Xiao purred as he gently stroked your cheek making your face quickly heat up.

“R-…Right..” You cleared your throat.

Months soon passed and you ended up living with Xiao for your sake and the babies. And this time, you were clearly pregnant, probably around 8 months and a half by now.

Currently, you were staring intensely at the front door of the inn, waiting for Xiao, who is now your lover, to appear. And just on time the door swung open and Xiao stared back at you with soft eyes.

“I’m home~” He hummed and pressed quick kisses on your face making you giggle before hugging him. “How’s our pup doing?” Xiao asked as he placed a hand over your pregnant belly and gentle rubbed the surface.

“She’s doing just fine.” You said and kissed his cheek before dragging him to the couch and sat him down before sitting down on his lap, your body much more relaxed this time. “Looks like someone missed me~” Xiao cooed as he pressed and small kiss on your neck.

You shuffled and moved a bit in his lap before you began to gentle grind your ass against his crotch. Small whimpers left your mouth as you did so. “Oh?” Xiao hummed as he placed a hand on your hips and looked over your shoulder, already you were hard.

“Xiao..” You breathed out and he gentle kissed your neck, specifically the matting mark he left on your nape. He moved his hand to your crotch and palmed it, watching as you tensed up a bit.

Xiao quickly moved his hand in your shorts and began to messily jerk you off, making moans and gasps spew out. You grabbed his arm in an attempt to make him slow down, but that didn’t do a damn thing besides making him move his hand quicker.

You gripped tightly at his arm as your moans grew louder till you made a mess on his hand and inside your shorts. You chest heaved as you slowly came down from you high.

“I know just me jerking you off isn’t gonna do anything to satisfy your needs darling, right?” Xiao whispered in your ear making you shiver and nod slowly.

“Thought so..” Xiao carefully lifted you up as if you weighted nothing and brought you to the main bed room and sat you down, your back rested against a couple of pillows for support.

“Now, lets get these off~” Xiao purred as he tugged at your shorts and pulled them off before throwing them somewhere in the room, same thing with your shirt.

Xiao stared at you, once again falling for you. “So happy you’re carrying my pup..” He mumbled as he kissed your stomach making your face heat up.

His face met yours till his lips latched onto your lips. During your make out session he managed to lube up his fingers. You only noticed that when you felt his fingers slide into you.

He wasted no time to thrust his fingers into you, his pace fast as he did so. Moans spewed out your mouth as you gripped tightly at the sheets. The way his fingers were able to touch the places he knew you loved filled you with euphoria.

Xiao began to move his fingers in a scissoring motion to stretch you out enough. He didn’t really have to do much due to him fucking your brains out this morning.

Xiao pulled a condom out of his pocket —for occasions like this— and rolled the thing later of latex over his already twitching cock. “If anything hurts make sure to tell me darling..I don’t want to hurt you.” Xiao said and placed a kiss on your cheek.

You nodded your head and opened your legs wide for him to have a full access. “Oh? Eager aren’t we?” Xiao chuckled as he lined up his cock to your hole and began to push his dick inside.

He leaned down close to you so you could scratch at his back. You clenched around him when his cock pressed against your prostate.

A small chuckle left his mouth before he started thrusting into you. His pace started off with him being rough making you moan like crazy.

The bed had also started to creak as he slammed into your repeatedly.

His pale cheeks were covered with a light shade of pink as he stared at you, you expressions never failing to turn him on even more. He lifted your legs up with both of his hands and continued from there.

By the 3rd round you were exhausted. “You did so well darling.” Xiao said and he kissed your cheek as he cleaned you up of sweat and his cum. You only hummed in response.

#vampire xiao #xiao x male reader #xiao x you #xiao x y/n #xiao x reader #fiction #genshin impact x male reader #genshin impact #omegaverse #omega reader

[looking4userthatworks]

Being the Spots child

Pre collider

●I can imagine he didn't know you existed but when he did figure it out he was like really confused because he made sure to use protection (bro was probably drunk when he did it so that prob why he didn't know you existed)

●but in the end, he ultimately decides to meet you

● alr let's give the lucky girl a name let's call her Gloria I like to imagine your mother Gloria to be somewhat of an alcoholic getting drunk on the weekend bringing multiple different boys home getting smashed and all that stuff

● she knows this is a problem but it's hard for her to stop one weekdays she trys to help you with your homework but ultimately falls asleep and you end up bringing her to her bedroom and tucking her in

●when John is finds out actually you exist he sees the situation your in and how your practically raising yourself he know he need to take you under his wing he might not know what he's doing but he's also part of you existed so he's also responsible for you

● one custody battle later

●he has full custody over you he is ecstatic and is also a little worried because he has no clue how to raise a child

●for you, you're a little shy towards him because you barely know all you know is that he's your father

●honestly you thought you situation before was alright might have not been the best but atleast you had a roof over your head a place to sleep and somewhat warm food

●Not to say you didn't have that with John it was just a little awkward

● for the first week, it was pretty awkward. Learning the basics about each other, the dos, and the don'ts favorite colors, etc.

● you started getting comfortable with him pretty soon it went from John to Dad

● sometimes, he was busy with his science Alchemax stuff, but he always made sure to ask how your day was during dinner!

●you guys were doing great

Post colider

It was a rainy night, a little drizzle, that's all. You pick up your phone, and you got a text from your dad. "You might be home a little later than expected. There's some money in my top drawer. Go ahead and order yourself a pizza. I love you !" Sent 1 hour ago

"HI dad, sorry for responding late. My phone died, so I had to charge it :p. I love you too! Come back home safely 4 me plz!"

You of course where a little upset he's always been coming home late tired and sore they've been overworking him for quite sometimes and every night he comes back he says that this will be the last time they make him work more hours

You knew he was lying every time you honestly considered emailing the company but decided against it

You called pizza place and placed your order. Now you just have to wait

Why not watch some TV? You grab the remote and turn the TV on it was on the news channel

"Explosion at Alchemax the cause is still unknown, but the police are currently looking for survivors -"you turned off the TV and got your shoes on as quickly as possible"

your ran it didn't matter if your legs started to hurt. You ran all the way to the scene

It was completely destroyed. You tried to run to what was left of Alchemax, but a police officer stopped you

"im sorry ma'am, but I can't let you pass"

you tried to push past him left, and right you went until finally collapsed in defeat

"I just need to know if my dad is okay.." You cried, choking back tears

The officer was taken aback. "I know you're worried about your dad, and I promise we won't stop till we find him, but for now, I suggest you go back home "

"Can you at least drive me back home? It's pretty cold, and my legs hurt. " You choke out with a couple of sniffles

"I- yeah, of course I can"

While the police officer driver you back hime you could help but think of the worst possibilities deep down you prayed none of them would be true

When you got home, you walked to your bedroom, grabbed all the warn abd fuzy blankets, and pretended it was your dads embrace you ended up crying for most of the night until you grew tired and fell asleep

Click

The door unlocked and closed softly. You slowly got up, you'd run, but you had your fair share of running for the day

"Dad?" You spoke softly due to your sore throat

Nothing

you started to walk to the living entrance

You were met with a pale white man? With black spots on him

"Hey honey..." he said tiredly

he sounded like you dad, but he doesn't look like your dad

"Dad... What happened?" Asked softly

"it's- it's a long story honey" he collapses "look I known it's been a long day for the both of us but can you please just...ya know just like drag me to bed"

"Of course dad," as you started to carry him on yout back to bed

You pushed his limp body on the bed and then climbed into the bed as he held you soon. Both of you drifted to sleep

●things became different when he became the Spot

● money was somewhat tight when Alchemax fired him

●he was hired by some places, but it usually didn't last long he tended to freak out the customers/employees

●rent was coming up, and he was just fired, not to mention he had to feed him and his child

●That's when he resorted to a life of crime

● and when he had his first fight with Spiderman

● and when he started world hopping of course he texted you the text probably went something like this "Hey honey I found out how to get my revenge on spider man>:)) but I need more Alchemax Coliders because it'll give me more spots >:) I don't think I'll be back in time for dinner grab the money in cookie jar an order yourself something i love you stay safe😘"

you knew your father had an obsession with Spiderman because he's the one that made him like this, so this was nothing new to you

When the spot got back to his dimension, he immediately went to check in you watching you through a window

He entered the home, and when you saw him, you gave him the biggest hug (you two guys always do this even if he was just out for groceries)

This was all for you. EVERYTHING he did was for you, and it was always for you. The bond you too built grew is unbreakable. He WILL protect you even if it kills him

Alr something I'd like to break down is the reader is 10 through 13 when this stuff happens you choose the age alr that's all I wanted to say

Have a lovely jubbly day, my customers

HOLLY SHIT I JUST RE-READ THIS ITS SO FUCKING CRINGE DO NOT READ I REPEAT DO NOT READ -future Lindsey(or past Lindsey how that shit works)

#atsv spot #the spot #johnathan ohnn #atsv fanfiction #atsv fic #atsv headcanons #jonathan ohnn x reader #atsv hcs #astv headcannons

[popopretty]

BSD Chapter 102

Chapter’s name is Jingaimakyou – The first part (roughly translated to “mysterious place out of the human world”). Not sure if it is done on purpose but author Oguri Mushitarou wrote a novel of the same name.

We have a change of pov this month, so we will have to wait at least another month to know what happened in the prison, but instead we get to learn a lot about Bram in this new chapter, and also Bram and Aya interactions are the cutest <3

Please note that neither English nor Japanese is my mother tongue, and Bram’s speech is so hard to understand so I may make mistakes. Please let me know if there is anything you want to correct.

SPOILERS AHEAD

Aya takes Bram to a parking lot and both of them get into a truck of a laundry service. (Bram is like oh this wagon doesn’t have any horses XD). Aya explains to him that besides passengers, there are many other people working in airport service who go in and out of the airport every day. And the securities will not have enough time to check through everything here, so if they get in one of these vehicles and wait, they will be able to get out of the airport once someone drives it out. Bram praises her and Aya is like of course I am the ally of justice.

Aya looks at the sword piercing into Bram and tells him they can look for a way to pull it out together if it hurts. Bram says that it is stupid because once the sword is pulled out, it will release the devil inside him and bring and darkness to earth blah blah blah. Aya then asks him what exactly that sword is, and Bram tells her that the sword used to be human. Hundreds of years ago, when a skill user died, his physical body was turned into metal by the skill, from which this Holy Sword was made. That skill that remains even after the user’s death was the skill to fuse a “physical body” with an “ability”.

We get a quick change of scene here, where Atsushi hears Dazai’s voice calling out for him, telling him to wake up because there is no time. Then he opens his eyes to find himself being tied up in a (supposedly) torture room with Teruko staring at him.

Back to Bram and Aya, Bram continues to explain that the sword has the power to connect the “physical/material” and the “mental” aspect of things, granting the power to control “skills” like a part of the “body”, a skill that goes against the law of this world. When stabbed by the sword, it will take its roots into your brain, and it will craves a holy mark on the person holding the sword. Right now, the mark is on Fukuchi’s hand, which means only Fukuchi can use his power.

Aya says that Bram seems to know about the sword very well, to which Bram tells her that is because he has been stabbed by this sword not once, but twice. There is a flashback of Bram from long ago when he and his kins’ heads were hanged on stakes, in front of a big army who are cheering to “kill the enemy of God”. And Bram was asking the soldiers to have mercy and spare the members of his fief, when one of them called him a demon and slashed his head with the sword.

Back to present, Aya asks why Bram is making such a sad face, Bram says that it’s the worry of the lord that the underlings can never understand. Aya stops him there, asking him if he is calling her an underling, and Bram tells her she is more like a horse because she carries him on his back and takes him around (xD). Aya says she would drown him in a bathtub and Bram somehow acknowledges that it is the way people nowadays worship their lord. Aya says no one can beat him at being a natural airhead.

Suddenly the top of the truck they are sitting are cut off and vampire!Akutagawa appears in front of them. Bram urges Aya to run away as quickly as she can.

The chapter ends here. Next chapter will be out on July 4 (JST). Thank you for reading till the end ^^

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[humanbug]

Someone else? pt. 4

Tommy and Joel discover another immune person.

a/n: this will probably be the last part...i said that last time but idk maybe ill change my mind again. i don't loveee this one but i kinda had writers block. again thank you for all the interaction!!! it makes me want to keep writing! as always feel free to comment your thoughts and dont be afraid to send me requests about what i should write next! reblogs are also appreciated!! enjoy!!!

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

The sun was beginning to lower in the sky as you made your way to the couch. You smile as the scene before you seemed too good given the shit-hole of a world you lived in. You had a roof over your head, clean hair, several blankets surrounding you, a mug of tea, and music playing softly on the record player. 

Ellie was out on patrol tonight and wasn’t expected to be back until early morning. You felt nervous spending the night alone but already felt like such a burden living in her home and her taking care of you. She would constantly be giving you reassurance opposing the very idea of being a burden but the fear was still there. 

As you snuggle into the blanket nest you’ve made on the couch your mind wanders to the conversation you had with Ellie this morning. She had let you know that Tommy had found a place for you to live on your own but if you wanted to keep living with her that you could. It had been on your mind all day.

‘Do I want to live alone? I haven’t…ever lived alone? God, the very thought makes me nauseous. That’s so pathetic. Fuck this shouldn’t be such a hard decision-’ Your thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door. You sit up, frozen, heart racing. Another knock sounds followed by a soft voice calling your name. Dina? You had gotten to meet her about a week ago but what was she doing at your door this late?

Walking to the door with a blanket around your body you open it to see Dina standing there.

“Hey! Can I come in? It’s freezing but I wanna ask you something!” She asks with a gentle smile.

Stepping aside, she walks in rubbing her hands over her arms to warm herself up. 

“Uh…what’s up Dina?” You shift nervously on your feet.

She smiles warmly at you, “Jesse and I are planning on hanging out at the Tipsy Bison tonight. We thought we’d ask you to join us. I know Ellie is on patrol tonight and thought you might enjoy some company!” 

“Oh! Um- I mean- I dunno. I mean, yeah? Yeah! I’ll join you guys.” You stutter out. Anxiety filling your body to the brim. It couldn’t hurt to go out. You had basically been a hermit the last few weeks anyway, only going out for some meals and to the medic building a few days ago to get your stitches removed. Besides Ellie won’t be back ‘till the morning anyway and you’d probably get bored soon just sitting around the house.

“Yes! Oh I’m so happy! I’ll wait outside for you to get dressed and we’ll walk over.” She grins in excitement, already easing your anxiety at her eagerness to spend time with you. 

Changing into jeans and a long sleeve shirt, slipping one of Ellie’s hoodies over. Slipping on your boots you look into the small mirror, smoothing your hands over your hair anxiously. 

‘Deep breaths! Just be cool. It’s not a big deal and whatever you do, do not mention your…injury.’ You give yourself a pep talk and before you can psych yourself out you swing the door open and step outside. 

Walking over to the Tipsy Bison together, you two make small talk. You learn that Dina has lived in Jackson for about three years and that she and Jesse are dating. She asks about you and Ellie’s relationship and your face burns and you ramble out, “Relationship!? Oh, I- We aren’t- She just took me in because Tommy asked her too! I don’t- She’s not- I’m- I’m pretty sure I am more of a thorn in her side than anything.”

Dina looks over at you, giving you a knowing smile as you ramble. “I mean, if you insist! I see the way she looks at you and trust me, if someone is a thorn in Ellie’s side she…doesn’t hesitate to let them know. That girl has no filter and is the worst at hiding facial expressions.” She laughs out. 

Before you can ramble out even more about what a pest you’ve been to Ellie you are walking through the doors of the bar. The building is warm, both in temperature and in ambiance. The room is dim with warm lighting, there is a large bar covering one side and tables and chairs made out of old wooden barrels along the opposite wall. There are a decent amount of people around causing your anxiety to sky rocket, still not being used to being around so many people all the time. 

The two of you join Jesse at the table in the corner of the bar. Noticing that he has a game of scrabble ready to be played, your face lights up at the thought of playing a board game. You couldn’t even remember the last time you could enjoy something as simple as a board game. 

—

“Shvitz is a word goddamnit! It’s a word! Twenty one points! Write ‘em down!” Dina shouts at Jesse.

“Fine! Fine but only because I am feeling kind…because it’s not a word.” Jesse concedes causing Dina to give him the middle finger. Dina leans over the table to watch and make sure Jesse gives her the correct amount of points.

You are laughing so hard that your cheeks hurt. The two of them had been arguing over every other word played and it never seemed to get old. Realizing that you're starting to get a small headache from laughing so hard you look over to the bar wondering if you should ask for water. 

‘C’mon don’t be a baby. Just get up and ask!’ You think to yourself.

Taking a deep breath you rise up and walk over to an empty standing spot. Making eye contact with the bar-tender and giving him a small smile just to get his attention you patiently wait for your turn. Leaning against the bar and fiddling with your fingers, your shoulders square and a chill runs down your back and the sudden intrusion of your personal space. Turning around slightly you see a young man standing…way too close looking down at you. A smug smirk on his face.  

Giving him a tight lipped smile you try to scoot past him abandoning the idea of getting water however he places his arm on the bar in front of you becoming painfully invasive of your personal space, that stupid smoke growing as if he won something.

“Excuse me…please move.” You mumble.

“Aw c’mon now. Don’t run off like a scared little kitten. I’m just tryin’ to talk to you.” He jeers. 

‘Oh my god. Oh my god. Please just move.”

Giving an uncomfortable smile, not wanting to anger him, “I- I’m okay. Really.” You begin to take a step back but he places a hand way too low on your back.

“And what’s a little thing like you gonna do if I don’t, hm?” His voice takes a mocking tone.

“Please- Please just-” You are cut off by the man being violently shoved off of you. Gasping you press yourself against the bar as you see Ellie getting in the man's face.

“You put your fucking hands on her!? Huh!? Fucking answer me. You were so fucking cocky ten seconds ago!” She says inches from his face.

‘Ellie!? What the fuck!?’ 

You see her rear her hand back in a fist but before you can think you rush forward to stop her. This needs to stop, she got her point across. Grabbing the back of her jacket you pull her attention towards you. 

“Ellie! Please stop. C’mon you got your point across. Please!” You say desperately. 

As her attention shifts to you, her gaze softens into worry. Grabbing your hand she rushes out of the bar with you stumbling behind her.

Dina and Jesse are rushing behind you two.

“Ellie! Ellie, stop! What the fuck?” Dina is shouting at her. 

As the four of you step into the cold, Ellie turns around keeping you behind her. You keep your head down feeling downright mortified.

“Me ‘what the fuck!? What the fuck were you thinking taking her out? Did you even see that sleaze touching her? Huh!?” She seethes.

You mumble out, “It’s not their fault Ellie please…”

Jesse steps forward holding a hand out to Ellie, “Christ, Ellie take a breath!”

“I just-” She takes a deep breath, “I just panicked okay? I got back from patrol early and she wasn’t home and I just panicked, okay?” She rushes out, regret settling deep in her bones.

Looking over at you apologetically Dina sighs, “We’re sorry for not seeing that creep. We just wanted to invite you out and really didn’t think some perv was gonna try something.”

Feeling so embarrassed you almost cry as you rush out, “Please! Please don’t apologize! I had so much fun, really.” Turning to look at Ellie, “I’m okay, I promise. Please don’t be mad at them Ellie.” You give your best puppy dog eyes to her.

Running a hand over her face, she huffs out a breath, “I can’t be mad when you’re looking at me like that…I didn’t mean to freak out. I didn’t mean to ruin you guys’ night either.” Regret laced in her tone.

“Can we hang out again tomorrow night! Please!” You ask everyone, hoping to ease the tension. Really hoping they agree so you can spend more time together. Feeling overjoyed at the feeling of normalcy that Jackson has given you. You got to go to a bar and play board games, never in your life did you think that you would be able to have that kind of fun. 

The tension dissipates from the air as Dina grins ear to ear, “Of course, Tipsy Bison tomorrow at seven!” She beams with almost as much excitement as you.  

–

As you both walk back to the house there’s a tension that lulls in the air. Neither of you can figure out what to say to the other. You bite your lip in anxiety and kick stones on the ground as you shuffle along. 

‘Fuck it! Just say it! Say it!’

“I don’t want to live alone!” You rush out, your cheeks turning red, not giving her a chance to respond you ramble on, “I- I’ve never lived alone and- you make me feel safe and I- If you are totally sick of living with me I understand- so don’t hesitate to tell me-”

“I’d like that. For you to keep living with me.” She cuts off your rambling, making you look at her with wide eyes. 

“Really?” You practically whisper. Not believing what you heard. 

“Really.” She assures as she unlocks the front door. 

You toe off your shoes and flop down on the bed and she leans on the edge of her desk, fiddling with her fingers. Silence falls over the two of you again.

Feeling confident at Ellie’s lack of rejection of your confession, you take a deep breath and move to stand in front of her. Upon sensing your movement she glances at you as you step forward and take her face in your hands, pressing your lips to hers.

She stills for a second before returning the kiss with fervor. Placing her hands low on your waist she pulls you flush to her body. She runs her tongue along the seam of your lips, asking for entrance and you give it to her without hesitation. Ellie’s grip on your waist tightens as she begins to stand, lips still molded onto yours. Needing air you pull back, not expecting her to keep kissing across your cheek and down your jaw you whine. She lets out a chuckle at your sound and guides you backward, bodies still pressed together. 

The back of your knees meet the bed and you fall onto it with a small gasp. She pulls back, leaning over you with her hands on either side of you, she presses her forehead to yours. 

“I want to keep you safe.” She whispers, almost as if she’s afraid of what she’s saying. Placing your hands on either side of her jaw you look into her eyes.

“I’d really like that.” You whisper back.

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[drkcnry67]

SPN Kinktober day 4

Welcome

soulless!Sam x reader

Dungeon

Tags: vaginal penetration, double penetration(cock in pussy, dildo in ass), vibrators, rough pussy fucking, rough anal, forced fucking, if i have missed any tags please let me know via PM thanks.

No summery

dark, cold, you skin shivering against the cold stone ground, a chill in the air, its musky in here, the air thin and dusty. but what happened to you

whats the last thing you remember? the flashing lights, the pumping music then nothing... just pitch black but how long ago was that... you could only hear your own breathing.

but then the sound of boots, and a key in a door, this made you jump someone else was here. your eyes betrayed you as a form came into view. this was a frightening sight as the man that now stood before you was then drenched in blood.

yn: oh my gods please let me go... i didnt do anything to you... please let me go...

sam: oh honey you are never leaving this place. i have such big plans for you... now, lets get you up and onto this table i want to examine your perfect tight body.

you tried to back up against the wall but couldnt for shackles pulled at your hands and feet. as this man could only laugh at your predicament.

he then stopped laughing and quickly turned his attention to pulling you by your hair to your feet only to throw you down against the table. his eyes exploring every single inch of your skandally clad form.

yn: fuck you, you son of a bitch.

sam: well youre not wrong on that fact. but you need to address me properly... you shall address me as sir...

you begin to scream as he drags his fingers accross your entire bare skin. he tears the rest of your dress off as he pulls something up from the side of the table. you cant quite see what it is but you can be sure its not for plesent purpose.

thats when a cool metallic feeling crossed the folds of your pussy. it made you scream out as it was like every single nerve of your body was not your own control.

sam then inserted the metal dildo into your pussy. this caused you to scream louder, tears falling from your face. his hands making sure not a part of your body remained unphased by his touch.

Yn: no please stop this, this is madness

Sam just laughed his hands not leaving your form instead he pressed further into your body. This would sure leave bruises.

Sam: stop trying to plead to my humanity, for you see though I am human, I'm only but a shell I have no soul therefore like all those that came before you, I will try to breed you and implant you with my seed, thus no I will not stop till you are pregnant with my spawn

yn: no no no no no no

thats when sam comes round to your face and hangs your head off the side of the table so he then takes out his cock and shoves it in your mouth...

this causes you to gag and choke and throw up as he does so violently and roughly, but your muffled screams fall further on deaf ears.

sam laughs violently as he continues to fuck your throat deeply. tears streamed down your face as further to your dismay you were throat fucked and stripped of all sense of time and conciousness.

it was then that you were finally able to breathe, the air flowing into your lungs as you hyper ventilated. but thats when firm hands yanked the chains that adorned your ankles pulling you down to the end of the table so your ass was right on the edge of it.

but something rubbed then against your ass.. it was cold and slightly wet... but then a sharp pain as your ass hole was stretched to great lengths. this caused you to panic and scream struggling to get out of your chains.

thats when another feeling was at your pussy this time it was unclear as to what it was... but now it was about to also be stretched open as sam laughed darkly his rock hard cock plunged right into your wet pussy.

this caused you to further scream in horror, this was to be your fate but you would fight it as long as possible. But something clicked in your brain...

Yn: wait, I know you... I know your brother...

Sam: then you know why I can't stop why there is no use in trying to fight me... take it like the bitch you are then you can run back to my brother and once my spawn is born you will be mine and mine alone. Till then I need to fill you with as much of me as possible.

That's what he did Sam filled you up about 6 times over then left your legs suspended in the air for 24 hours when he came back downstairs he lowered your legs and handed you a blanket...

Sam: get the fuck out of here run little chickadee run

You did exactly that you ran up the stairs out the door and down the road. Arriving at a payphone You then called the number you had gotten tattooed on your wrist.

Yn: I need your help

Dean: im sorry sweetheart who is this?

Yn: my name is yn you saved me a few years ago told me to call if i needed your help and i now see to need your saving once more, you see your brother just held me captive

Dean: where are you?

You looked around

Yn: north shore and Granville

Dean shouts something at someone else and then comes back on the phone

Dean: walk a bit up the road from there you should come cross a shack a diner of sorts they are friends of mine. They will help you till I get there I'm on the road now... I'll see you shortly..

•to be continued•

#spnkinkbingo #supernatural #supernatural smut #spnkinktober2023

[mrs-monaghan]

Jkk probably feel the need to defend V's behavior lately, because if they don't then they're left questioning his loyalty to Jm regarding Jk. The day V tells Jk he likes him the most or that he likes him to his face, then what? When V did that in front of Jk and said all of that to Jm, even causing Jm to tell him to stop when he kept telling him he liked him, it was written off as soulmates, besties, even with people trying to defend Jk, saying it was wrong if he's dating Jm. If V was willing to tell Jm he likes him and not be joking and later on say he likes Jm the most right in front of Jk, then what would stop V from flipping the script and doing it to Jk now, since they seem closer lately?

I don't think V would do that tho, because it is Jm he likes the most, not Jk & Jk wouldn't ever let V do something like to that Jm, but if Mr. Unpredictable ever did tho, I'm betting it wouldn't be written off as besties/soulmates, like it was with Vmin. We had Jk saying from a friend & Jm's actual panic waiting for what V was gonna say to him, then Jm looking at Jk after V said that to him & Jin's side eye & Suga yelling to break the tension. They all knew & braced for impact lol. He's not a horrible person, he loves Jikook, but he's unpredictable & enjoys trolling & kinda does before he thinks. Example, Going live from Jk's house without asking permission. If Jikook are dating, I imagine that didn't sit right with Jm & calling out people for saying it was wrong, cause they don't want to admit they themselves know its wrong, isn't okay. You may think its right, doesn't mean someone else does & no one has a right to say you can't feel its wrong. Jm is very patient with V cause he loves him & V just told Jm he loves him openly on IG just 4 mons ago, so I think Vmin are fine, but there are limits & patience can wear thin, even when it comes to besties.

what would stop V from flipping the script and doing it to JK now, since they seem closer lately?

Who's side are u on anon?

I love this video sm!! God Bless the person on twitter who made it 😂😂😂

No, but really, anon you have to watch how u say things. We live in a world where Tkkrs sent death threats to V pretending to be Jkkrs so they can make us look bad. We have them using Jimin as their PPs so they can lure people into the cult. So I am very cautious, alright? Let's be careful about how we word things so I don't side eye u 🤭🤭

Just because we don't see Jikook out and about like we used to, don't mean Tkk are now closer than Jkk. U know what, I wanna talk about this. The vermin can yell till the cows come home but we only have 2 legit instances of them being spotted together. 2. TWO instances. Bowling

And the musical

The end.

Every other instance has been made up and doesn't exist. The snowboarding which later turned into ice skating??? The way that story kept changing? And the fact that JK who hates the cold was ice skating without gloves and that's how a fan spotted him? 🤡🤡🤡🤡

Then we have the TT ontop of that one hotel. Where they supposedly spent the night together

Never mind that other members were present too and a certain girl group was also staying there. ☕

Speaking of the TT (that was for work) I have never seen anyone bring this up so I will. When this TT got posted I was trying so hard to figure out what or who I was looking at.

It was hard. Alright? Go to the comment section and see Trashkookers complain how they wish the video was clearer. The fact that I needed to check the tags to know who was dancing 🤭🤭 And so when this happened my Jikook brain couldn't help but wonder; editor - JK did he do this on purpose? Would he have edited the TT the same way if he had done it with Jimin? With Hobi? Was this him denying the cult content? We know he don't like them. 🤷🏽‍♀️ Food for thought. 🤔

Moving on swiftly....

Back to your ask my darling anon. I'm sorry your one sentence sent me into a tangent. 🙏🏽 I pretty much agree with everything u said. I will clip Jimin looking at JK during that Vmin moment so we can all enjoy it together.

Notice how Jimin didn't say "I like you the most too?" Is it because there's another person at that table that he likes the most? 👀 But the kicker is when Jimin looks at JK immediately after saying that. Immediately. Gee, I wonder why. 🤭

You know what this moment reminds me of? Bon voyage season 4 episode 6.

Jimin says he wants to sleep in the tent WHILE LOOKING AT JK. JK tells him to go ahead. No one else, just JK

Jimin repeats again *while still looking at JK* that him and Suga were gonna sleep in the tent. And JK nods.

👁👃🏽👁

This reads to me like Jimin was asking for permission here. He gets it the first time but once again feels the need to reiterate; babe, I will be in the tent with Suga. 🤭🤭

But like i said before. We don't talk about Yoonmin 🤫🤫🤫

#the power the Jungkonda holds y'all #its no joke #jimin had to check with his man #before sleeping with suga #but #we don't talk about yoonmin #he he hee! #bts ask #ask shaz #jimin and jungkook #park jimin #jeon jungkook #jimin #jungkook #bts #the vermin #jikook analysis #bon voyage jikook #jikook bothered

[hollyhomburg]

I know i dont comment as much on your post but this new chapter of Bily really hit me hard . Its not every day you get to read a story so heartfelt and relatable .

Reading about how the characters view pain and how wanting to feel in control about their pain is so relatable , definitely a struggle I’ve dealt with.

Aa so many before me have said the way you write pain is beautiful not in the way that pain its self is but how you put into words and describe the hard stuff.

I swear i love the dynamic between Hobi and mc more and more each chapter . The way Hobi said how he loved her but was upset because he couldnt help her how he wanted to both broke my heart and made me so so fuzzy.

I love your writing so much. I hope this week you get lots of rest and your days are filled with good vibes. Cant wait till next chapter ( reality i can wait forever if i have to its always worth the wait , i know we all want you to be healthy and good rather the trying to push yourself to get out chapters )

~ with much love 👻

ahhhh i'm glad (but also a little concerned) that you found it relatable- i hope that the parts that strike a cord with you make it easier to overcome your daily struggles <3 i think that like with the bily m/c, she teaches us that pain hurts the least when you tell people youre in pain and you need healing.

i think that ignoring the hardstuff is where people get into trouble, it's not a romantic view of it if you show that the pain is hard to overcome. i think it's easy to say that love fixes everything- and belive me bily hobi wants his love to fix the m/c but who better knows the limitations of love when it comes to him right? it's interesting how his knowlage doesn't make him hope or try any less!

ahhhh next chapter is coming along nicely, it's a bit of a break from the angst- but also not because tae gets a little bit angsty, it's not a filler chapter but it is a chapter full of scenes that have been slated to happen for a long long time like- there are 4 major sections in it and 3 of them where dreamed up almost 2 years ago tbh! we're getting where we need to with it! i've already written 7k for it!

i'm not going to push myself hard for it at all cuz tbh, after the stress of tuesday night my brain needs a rest <3 i'm gonna be a busy bunny today though and run my errands! thank you for this lovely message i'm gonna use it to give me motivation to work as hard as i can <3

[1poda]

She Hates Pirates!

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The Thousand Sunny washed over clam waves with ease and utilized soft wind to pull its belly to the nearest island, Nami stood with a concentrated stare on her wrist where the log post pointed ahead to an oncoming mountain "We're almost there guys!" the ginger mentioned loudly as she descended from the upper deck with a hum "We should probably prepare to board soon"

"Namiiiii my loove! I've Prepared You A Refreshing Drink To Cool You Down Before We Make It To The Islaaaaand!" the blond chef appeared with hearts in his eyes and a tray balanced on his fingers, just as promised a cold drink awaited for her with a delicious appearing liquid along with bobbing ice cubes and slices of lemon. A similar cup mirrored it on the other side of the dish, an extra beverage for Robin she guessed.

With a mindless sip, The Navigator watched the cliffside grow closer in the distance, in the past few days newspapers had been plastered with the recent going's on of their next destination, apparently, the Marines had been abusing their power over the islanders until a revolutionary group came and seriously began mixing things up.  

'According to some eyewitnesses, their leader hates Pirates and keeps a close eye on the crew members when they port...' her brown eyes blinked before drifting around the Sunny and noting every member, all but one, but she already knew where he was. 

Sitting atop Sunny's snout sat a young male with a wide grin and straw hat, his eager stare inhaled any detail he could spot the closer their trusty ship dipped. 

Standing with a palm on the crown of his hat Luffy stretched from his sitting position and chuckled at the endless adventures the next port could lead to. 

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"I'm sorry but we can't let you guys in just yet" A tough guard stood in front of the Straw hat Crew, wrapped in dull clothing and a rifle strapped to his back Nami did her best to keep the situation under control while also attempting to get what she wanted, which was passage to the town. 

"I don't see the problem, we're only here to restock it's not like we're gonna be here for long" Ussop mentioned while peeking over the railing, Chopper doing the same and agreeing with a nod. Zoro stood next to the crouching pair with crossed limbs and an unamused stare "We should just leave and head straight to Sabaody I say" 

"Idiot, we can't do that!" Sanji cursed with furrowed brow in tow "We'll never make it with the food we have now, we'll starve in the middle of dangerous waters besides-" the chef lit a cigarette "Luffy got into the meat locker a few days ago so our rations are way to low. We can't pass up this island even if we wanted to"

"Hmm, this place doesn't seem very groovy" Franky lifted his sunglasses with an almost dirty look. The buildings were small and grey with cobble ground and barren markets, Robin made her way to the cyborg's side with little change in her demeanor "I hear this island has been recently liberated from corrupt Marines, perhaps the people who helped them haven't had time to tend to this town just yet" 

"Why can't you just let us in? I promise we won't be too much trouble" Nami whined with a cute smile and a dip in her back allowing her shirt to fall slightly, unimpressed the guard glanced to the side with a raised brow "We're under strict orders until our leader gets back, s-so.. if you guys just hang tight for a while I'm sure she'll be back soon"

The Navigator gave a sigh at her fruitless attempts and made her way back onto the Sunny and explained everything "So I guess we'll have to wait for a while"

It wasn't long till childish groans filled the grassy deck. 

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"Lenny- Report" a strict tone came as a rush of hard heels echoed through a bright hall, a hidden being with white hair and a thick black jacket that hung from the stranger's shoulder marched down an echoing hallway- much like a short cloak- surrounded by men who looked ready to fight at any given moment, the male to her right blinked at the sudden attention "O-Oh! You mean me!" Lenny quickly raised to salute before listing various things the people were still in need of, what areas were still infested with crime, where her second in command resided, and certain orphanages that needed more supplies "And then there's the pirates down at the North port-"

"Good, that's close by. I'll deal with them first and after that we can finally hand out supplies to the people who live there" her work tone cut of the last off the messengers news as the group made their way to the nearest exit.

#monkey d. luffy #one piece #one piece nami #straw hat pirates #hes gonna be the king of the pirates! #Luffy x OC #roronoa zoro #sanji #robin #franky #tony tony chopper #ussop #brook one piece #one piece fanfiction #one piece fandom #Adventure #one pace

[mo0nl0v3r]

th!nspo challenge ;

NOTE : I'm only gonna update this on this tab cause I don't want my other posts to get lost in this series thing... also my stats are already uploaded so imma start on day 2 :) NOT PRO

DAY 2 : i'm 5'2.... i do like my height sometimes i wish i was taller so i could present as thinner but its not one of my biggest problems

DAY 3 : I have a Pinterest board that I love its called tattoo inspo (I made it with a bunch of ballet & hour-class grunge girls in it. I named it tattoo inspo so it doesn't present weird cause it sounds like thinspo plus I can put skinny people with dope tattoos in

DAY 4: my greatest fear is that I'm gonna look sick or lose hair that's terrifying to me

DAY 5: I'm doing it for myself but the praise doesn't hurt :) also the way i could wear anything and look good sounds amazing

DAY 6 : sometimes nothing crazy but occasionally do slip up and eat a couple unhealthy things

DAY 7 : my parents do know that i try to eat healthy and that i "occasionally" count calories and try to lose weight . They think its a good thing

DAY 8 : i dont have one yet i just try to do as many crunches and sit-ups i can and i try to walk at least 1 mile a day

DAY 9 : I don't know honestly , sometimes i think they do but they've never said it to my face .

DAY 10 : freedom tbh

DAY 11 : @green-tea-111 i love there thinspo

DAY 12 : i usualy eat whatever i want but at a restriction

DAY 13 : I'm losing weight in both a healthy way and a unhealthy way because its not the point where its bad for my body but it can take a tole on my mental health sometimes

DAY 14 : My UGW is 102lb i really wanna get down there cause that would not only mean I would be like skinny but it would get my BMI down to 18.5 and thats the minimum healthy BMI. so def ideal

DAY 15: i am not vegan or vegetarian... i did try it a couple years ago and i actually gained weight cause i would only eat carbs so def didn't work for me

DAY 16: well literally for as long as i can remember probably around age 10 or 11 but most recent decision to lose weight was back in September of this year

DAY 17: I do have disorded eating

day 18: pasta , gordita tortillas , chocolate , chips , candy , ice cream , ritz crackers

DAY 19: tbh yesterday i had a happy meal

DAY 20: calorie counting or portioned eating cause diets are really hard for me

DAY 21 :

pants : medium or size 10

shirts : medium (but i prefer baggier stuff)

DAY 22: 7 pounds at birth ;) no but actually 100 pounds it was in 2019 i was in dance and i would dance 3-5hours a day and i did have distordered eating at the time and i gained due to my depression and binging

DAY 23 : a little... it didnt start it but it definitely helped

DAY 24: im not pro ana and i am definitely not pro mia, bulimia tears you apart so quickly its just sad especially when you do research on how it effects your body and how it only deteriorates you instead of making you thinner

DAY 25: i have unfortunately, it was rough i did it on occasion for about 2 weeks before i decided to do research and decided it wasnt for me

DAY 26: Wearing whatever i want and being less insecure. I cant wait till im skinny so i can just be happy with whatever i wear

DAY 27: I’m cool with food being infront of me I usually struggle most with it when its late or im alone cause thats when i tend to eat the most

DAY 28: It would be cool but its not what i want most i really want thinner arms and a tiny waist

DAY 29: unfortunately its mostly western beauty standards ( im part mexican and have very mexican features ) so its rough when i want the hour glass waist and a slope nose cause my body just hasn’t been able to do that

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#pro ana #th!nspo #tw ed relapse #ed trigger warning #ed rant

[pbandjesse]

Today was not what I expected at all. It was really good in parts and really not and others but we survived to see another day.

I slept okay here. I was very comfortable. I did not really want to get up. And I woke up at 7:30 when my alarm went off and then reset my alarm for 8:30 and go back sleep. I would wake up a little bit before my alarm went off and it didn't really matter that I had slept in. My first group wasn't supposed to come till 9:45.

So I got washed up and I got dressed. I didn't wear the outfit I have planned but I really liked the outfit I ended up.

Help a little bit better about myself to die. I still feel like my face seems wrong. And I was talking to CJ about it and I think I might be holding my breathing in the wrong spot. Like I'm holding my face incorrectly and pulling my chin in. So I'm going to try to be mindful about that.

I also just think it'll help me breathing.

Because breathing was hard today. There's more wildfire smoke coming down from Canada and we were back in the 170s for air quality. Not as bad as it was a couple weeks ago, but hazy.

I didn't really know if it was going to affect us today because no one communicate than anything to me. I had my yogurt and I walked down to the lodge to get to cartons of milk to replace the ones I had used. And then I came back up here and I started working on my knitting while I waited for my group. I also started reading one of my dear America books that I have.

And then Alexi walks by and she's like are you ready to teach inside today? And I'm like what? Apparently the Y made the call that we need to be inside as much as possible and cancel any programs that are outside. But mine's kind of both so I was a little confused. And she said that I should try to have my group fit at my picnic table in the building. So I had to take as much of my materials outside inside and set up a new still life and set up spaces for the kids to work. Which is fine I just wish someone would have told me earlier. I don't like that I felt like I was finding out on the fly.

And it ended up not mattering anyway because none of my group showed up this morning. I was supposed to have the boys and neither came. That was really upset about that! I felt stupid. I just hate the lack of communication. I just want to know what's going on.

So I started working on my boxes for color wars this weekend. I got paper cut and a different paints collected and brushes and things. I got really frustrated with my big paper roll and I kept threatening to die of things were even a little annoying. I was just really frustrated and just had to find some way to make myself laugh.

While I was working on that Tony came up to ask about helping him turn a pair of pants and shorts but because of the way that the cargo pockets were it would have made them like 4-in inseams and he didn't want hochie daddy shorts. So that was no. And we chatted for a while about how bad the communication has been. And he told me that Jorge wanted to do arts and crafts still even in their group missed it. So I said I would bring some over to the woodlands village.

I came down there with watercolor paint for him and brought some extras in case I need the kids wanted to do it too but they were watching a movie. So I said bye and went back up to my art building to read.

I double check with Cody that we were having the same lunch as normal and then when the time came I went down to the lodge.

Meals were a mess today. Every single meal was chicken nuggets. With some other side. Lunch was chicken with mashed potatoes which were incredibly salty. And vegetarian chicken was very overcooked. Apparently all of the food that was in the fridge spoiled when we lost power and this was the stuff that was still frozen. So it makes sense but it just kind of sucked today.

I enjoyed Celia and Annabelle's company at lunch though and we had some laughs and talked about how we can improve the enclosures for the animals and it was just a nice time.

Eventually I went back up to arts and crafts to chill until they camp was supposed to come. I was told that they were coming and they did. But then there was only five of them. And one of them wasn't even one of their campers they were from day camp one. But it was fine. They were actually a lot of fun. And they worked really hard on their drawings and once they were done their art that I planned they asked to use clay and draw and we were just having a blast up here. And I was really enjoying talking to my co-workers. I let them stay a lot longer than the plan time so I lost my break but I had such a long break in the morning that I didn't actually care. I was just having a good time doing my job.

Once they left I tested CJ to see if tipis was coming but she didn't know. So I sat down to read my book but then all of a sudden they were there. And I wasn't sure what to do with them because the plan had been to have everyone sit inside but there was 14 of them and their teenagers and so they were not all going to fit at the stable. And so we caught Alexa but she didn't have a good answer so I just decided to tell them all to grab watercolors and an object to draw and we would go to the dining hall. And it was not an ideal situation at all but you know what we made it work.

And it was pretty good time overall. The kids worked really hard and they were a lot of fun to talk to and there was some other drama because apparently one of the little girl cabins tried to clean but mixed bleach and ammonia in their bathroom by accident and created mustard gas. And so they had to evacuate their building. And it was just a day. We were really going through it.

Once TV was done they help me bring everything back up to arts and crafts and I gave them some stuff for their award projects that they need to do and then they left me.

I would spend some time reading and eventually Ty and Quan joined me. They sat on my back tables and ate their meal and we just gossiped and talked and it was a lot of fun. They filled me in on some of their feelings about stuff and I got to learn some of the weird things that are going on different villages that I don't always know about. It was very much a field report and that was a lot of fun to do because I haven't done in a while.

Eventually Quan would have to go but before he did we all laid in the hammocks and just chatted and it was a lot of fun. I just really felt connected to other people in a way I haven't yet at camp and that was really really nice. It was funny though because I was telling Ty that our age gap is the same as the age gap between them and the kids. So I see them as children which is why I don't participate in some of the things that they do outside of camp. But while they thought it was very funny they did seem to understand what I meant. And it was just nice to talk to them.

Eventually they would both leave me and a couple of the tipi kids came back to wash my arts and crafts stuff that was donated from Camp Spencer for service hours. So I pulled a chair out front and gave them some scrubby things and a washbin and they worked for about 45 minutes and I read my book while they chatted and told me all their good gossip and weird stories. And it was a lot of fun.

Soon Tony would come by with Ty and they apparently were playing a game that is Camp wide where people are trading objects. Some objects are "worth" more than other things. Black plastic spoons are very rare and will worth a lot. So I happen to have a bunch of those so I handed those off. And other objects are worth more because you can trade based on someone's perceived value. And I have a whole box of weird objects so I let Ty and Tony go through it and they fought over it and ran around the building and it was very silly. But everyone was having a great time and there was lots of laughing. And everyone was like why do you have all this stuff?? And I'm like I don't know I just collect things over time. And some of it was old pieces of dollhouse furniture and collections and things I've come across and been given and I was glad that it was going to some people that would enjoy it even if it was for a silly game.

It ended up being called the trinket game and I decided I wanted it in on it too. So I held back a couple things that I thought were interesting and I gave a couple away to Louisa and to CJ. So that they can participate if they wanted to. Later in the night I found out that Louisa traded the pen I gave her for a battery and then traded that for a mini jenga block which she eventually traded for the god pen which is blue. And she's trying to trade it up for the god egg. I don't know who has the god egg right now but that's high prize. I have not traded anything yet but I will. Maybe tomorrow. I have some really neat little objects that I think I can get even more neat little objects for. And I just need it'll be funny to be part of the ecosystem. The economy if you will.

Dinner was fine. I really liked the roll. They also have very good tater tots. And I set up my table in the back again and CJ and Annabelle joined me and it was fun. It was nice talking to them. And just catching up about the highs and lows of the day. We're all kind of already a little burnt out and it's sucks that that's the position we've been put in when it's only the first week of camp. It's literally felt like a month. I really hope next week feels more normal because this week has been hard.

After dinner I wasn't really sure what was happening. There was a birthday so they sang and there was ice cream sandwiches and then they were talking about flag and honor cabin and Kona ice. And no one really knew what was going on. So I walked back up to the art building to look for more trinkets and then I came back to the lodge and would go with CJ to help collect the mail to go hand out at flag.

And at 5:00 they get honor cabin so that meant I'm going to go get Kona ice before there's a line of children. So I got my snowball and I decided to get pina colada like always but I put a little mango in it for fun. I may or may not do that again. maybe next week I will try a whole new flavor. There's one called tigers blood that I'm interested in.

I wasn't sure if I was going to go to skit night. But I decided to because CJ wanted me to sit with her. And it was long. We were there from 7:30 until 9:30. They really need to put a cap on how long the kids skits can be if they're going to allow them to do skits. Because those first three took a full half an hour. Blanche and her group performed a song. One of her original songs. She played the guitar while the kids song and it was so sweet. And there was a couple shadow boxing rounds and then the tipis did a hilarious inflatable boxing match which was so good. And then some of the girls did skit of counselor impressions but it was like more dynamic than normal so it was really really good. That was probably one of my favorites. They all pretended to be kids coming to ask to go outside in a storm and they would pretend to be a specific counselor and respond the way that that counselor would respond And it was very funny. They really captured the essence.

But it was long and all of us were kind of done by the end. The last one was the oldest boys doing shadow boxing which was fine but two other group sat down the shadow boxing as well so it was a little bit like ugh. And they took like 15 minutes to do their whole sketch because there was a highlight reel pretending that like these two guys were like teammates and then rivals and then they had a falling out and never played again and became coaches and it was a really good storyline but the actual shadow boxing took way too long. I do got to give it to them though Quan had spent $80 to buy a trophy that he had engraved and I just love the commitment to the bit. That is hilarious.

But finally we were done and I came back up to the arts building and wash my face and put on lotion and I feel a lot better. I did have to go back down to the lodge to get my picnic table because I had left it there because someone told me they wanted to use it for their skit but then that did not happen so it's fine. I mostly just wanted to be laying down.

And that is where I am now. I brushed my teeth and I'm charging my phone and I am hoping that tomorrow feels more normal. I have stockade and pioneers and woodlands and some day camp groups and then I get to go home. And I talked to Alexa before I came up here and she said she's not sure what tomorrow is going to look like because of the air quality. It's gotten worse as the day's gone by. But hopefully it continues on the other way and it doesn't get super bad again. Let's hope.

I hope that you all have a great night tonight. I hope that the smoke isn't bothering you. I love you all. Good night!

[meisha-of-arc]

October 16, 2022

I want to die and live at the same time, or maybe I just want my thoughts to get quiet? I tried killing myself several times but everytime I do it, I just breakdown, and cry. Life is so cruel, if this is just a lesson then why am I still in pain? Why am I still hurt?

They say, "Time heals" so I waited for years and years, 'till it's more than a decade yet I'm still stuck in the past. I can't accept it, I can't move on, I can't let that little me suffer alone. Some people may say "Just move on, if you can't accept it then how will you move forward?" Simply, because I can't. It's hard to accept something specially if you didn't even received an apology, or even your own justice.

It's suffocating, I'm drowning from sorrowness, It's getting worse everyday, I don't have anyone or someone to be there with me. I have a lot of loving friends and I'm grateful to have them in my life, but I still feel alone. I know they already got their own problems to deal with, I don't want to make them feel like they are obligated to make me better, or to help me become better. I just hope I can do this alone, and someday.. I hope I get an enough courage to just kill myself. I'm tired, everyday that I wake up I'm not grateful or happy, I'm just disappointed because that just means another day to feel like the most shittiest person in the world, another day of remembering my trauma, and another day full of disappointments. I hope tomorrow I don't wake up, I just want to sleep and stay in my dreams. Because, I can no longer take this anymore, my heart and mind is going to explode they are both in pain, I can't explain it but it's so heavy. Too heavy that it feels like it's going to burst out.

It's too heavy, that I'm starting to have hallucinations.. sometimes I see myself running towards the truck just to kill myself or jumping off the building and hanging myself, that's how desperate I am to just kill myself.. however I couldn't do it, there's something stopping me.. I wish it won't stop me anymore the next time I do it.

March 4, 2024

I'm grateful for today. I don't wish to die anymore, I'm starting to love life. I'M. FALLING. IN. LOVE. WITH. LIFE. Big changes, almost 2 years ago I thought I wouldn't be able to make it I was really in the dark at that time, but look at me now. I can't help but to feel proud of myself, I am so glad that I managed to pick myself up, to tell myself that this isn't the life that I wanted, that I prove to my younger versions of myself that I am so much stronger than the thoughts inside me.

I no longer feel alone. I no longer feel like when I wake up it's going to be the worst day ever. I'm no longer surviving. I'm. Actually. Living. Life!!! Although my friends don't know it, I love how they somehow healed my heart & soul. The little things they did for me, the way they joke around with me, the way we always got each other's back when one of us is crying, the selecta ice cream we always buy when things go south, me and my girl friends telling each other that we're pretty, the way we hype each other in the comfort room while we do our own girly stuffs thing. I also appreciate my parents who are always mad and screaming around the house but made sure that me and my brother are having the best life they could ever give, my mom who sacrificed a lot emotionally, physically, and mentally, I know how much it's hurting her sometimes and yet she's still trying her best to be the mom we need. My mom who was always there for me. To my dad— thank you for not pressuring me in acads, thank you for always spoiling me the things that I want and need, thank you for the 7/11 sisig whenever, I'm still studying and it's past midnight.. thank you for being the best dad I could ever have. All the small things that they think did are what matters to me the most— because, it's what made me feel like I am a human being who is just trying to learn how to live this life, it's what made me feel like I'm actually living and being loved by the people who surrounds me. I failed to see these people around me 2 years ago, but not anymore. So, this message I made is also for those who helped and developed my character along the way, to those people who came and left me a greatest lesson in life, to those people who saw and knew all the past versions of myself and still stayed, to those people who have loved me for who I am, and to my wise Auntie Joanna who opened my eyes and made me realize a lot of things in life. Please, know that I am truly grateful that I met and had the chance to live this life knowing that you have come into my life. I will always carry our shared memories & lessons that I have learned along the way. So that the next time I feel a wave of sadness I will remember how I had you in my life, that you were once and still in it (forever engraved in my heart, soul & in my mind). How you changed me into a better person, this time I'll know how to handle it.

So to anyone struggling in life like me 2 years ago, I'm telling you it does gets better but you have to help yourself, you have to beat that thoughts inside your head, you have to believe in yourself, and I know it's not going to be easy but, you'll get there. Enjoy your time, enjoy your life. Don't waste it overthinking on things that are not happening yet, don't waste your tears on some dude who didn't text you back, don't waste your time stressing on things you can't control, you have to seize the day. LIVE. AND. LOVE. LIFE. Perhaps, 2 years from now, 3 years from now or even 5 years from now.. you'll look back and realize that you're the strongest person you know, because you managed to get out. You managed to overcome that fear, that thoughts inside you that are eating you or whatever it is that is holding you back from enjoying life. I. KNOW. YOU. CAN. AND. YOU. WILL. OVERCOME. IT. I may not know who you are, well maybe I do. Please know that I have a faith in you.

Be the main character of your life because, life does not wait for you to be okay and you can't wait for life to get better before, you decide to be happy.

#enjoylife #seize the day

[rrxnjun]

I ACTUALLY YELLED SEEING LIEBESTRAUM WAHHHHH;-;-;;-;-;-;-;; THANK U SO MUCH FOR WRITING IT I CANT WAIT TILL JUNE;-;;-;-; i cannottttt tell u how happy u actually made me with that wahhdhfjf

OOO MAN☹️☹️I HOPE UR MENTAL HEALTH WILL GET BETTER!!!! AND U DONT SUCK!!! TAKE UR TIME WITH IT u shouldn't listen to them when ur not in the mood for them it will deff ruin the vibes so take all the time u need!!!!

i agree with that the only good noise music i listen to now is all from nct and when i hear other bgs' i'm just😟😟😟 IM SURE HE WAS AMAZING CUZ ALL OF THEM WERE🤌🤌 the song genuinely slaps so i'm not surprised if it makes it in there

well idk people said i study a lot so i just accepted the fact but i never feel prepared enough so;-; tbh the percentage is lower just to pass💀 but i need the plus point for uni and that's the limit for getting it but yeah i feel like it shows that hungary does not go for making people smarter lmao💀 I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE POINT LIMITS FOR GETTING INTO UNI wahhh the whole thing is dumb🫠 thank u!!!! i have three more speaking exams so i'm shitting my pants rn😃OH NO☹️ i hope u passed the second one exams suck so i hope it didn't hit u hard!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH THEM!!! IM SURE U WILL DO GOOD ON THEM!! MANIFESTING SO HARD!!!! I HOPE U ARE DOING WELL AND ARE TAKING CARE OF URSELF!!!! (liebestraum anon💓💕)

(the review reply: art sucks for that reason sm;-; but i deff learned after a few times of that happening with me as well to just sleep on it and throw it out after but it still amuses me how can art have this effect in a way (idk how to explain what i mean rip) AND THANK U FOR NOT HATING IT U JUST MADE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ISTG!!!)

IM REPLYING TO THIS ASK LITERALLY SO LATE THAT THE FIC IS DROPPING TOMORROW LMAO ADJSK i have to warn u tho its quite different to the original draft i had and the teaser i posted from it 😶😶 hope you still end up liking it !!!

SJSJ thank you thank you 😔😔 you are always so sweet and understanding ily mwah.

nct noise is the only good noise in kpop. there i said it. 😶 (this is a joke there are a few more good noise songs from diff groups pls dont jump me im targeting one fandom in specific w this yes) like nct could do any of your favs songs but could your favs do sticker? no. thats right.😌 AHHH im glad u liked my babies cix i was told by spotify that they are my top listened to artist of the last 4 weeks so. 😃 yeah. they also had a comeback like 2 days ago if u wanna check that out cough cough

if people tell u that, its probably true AHAHA 😭😭 me and my friend were talking the other day like i dont even study that much like i get to the 2 hour mark and i go well 🤷‍♀️ thats it for the day ig. like i dont have any more brain capacity LMAO. Oooh i do get you w the uni points stuff!! me being a straight A student was what got me into uni too bc switching from business hs to psychology was actually kind of insane coming from me LMAOOO i had no bonus points from biology or anything so my grades helped a TON since i fucked up the entrance exam too lol 😭😭😭 im rooting for you !!!! I feel like slovakia doesnt really care abt that either ?? there are definitely better and worse unis tho and i unfortunately attend the one thats one of the best so they kinda care..😔 SPEAKING EXAMS ARE THE WORST THEY SHOULD BE CANCELLED LIKE THATS 3 TIMES THE STRESS U HAVE WHEN TAKING A WRITTEN ONE. i hate those sm omg i am PRAYING for you (i have only one speaking one this semester and i am mentally preparing for it for the last few weeks) i actually passed the second try (with an E, but i still did it....) and i have another exam w the same professor this friday so..🤞

i am trying to learn how to be patient w art (and life) so it prevents me tearing everything out and throwing it out.....so you are right abt that AHAHA thats a good advice to take

as always i hope youre doing good, taking care of yourself and having a good time!! mwah

#💌ask #liebestraum anon

[the-firebird69]

We have a huge number of things to do and one of them is to help these idiots from being here at all you're too dumb and Audrey and they're not doing anything with the interference and I put in the order and it's an emergency and we are moving out. We have 10 million people here in Charlotte county then we're going to clear one million out today and when we get out tomorrow and so far they managed to clear out half a million each a pace is too slow and it's dangerous. They extended The shield beyond Miami it's over West Palm and soon it will be up halfway to Jacksonville and once they get there they're going to raid that coast fully. But that won't be for several days in the meantime we're going to weed everybody out of here and I mean a lot of people and it's going to be a big crowd and we really need it it's terrible waiting for these people to do anything then try to correct them on everything and then control them.. it's going to be getting shortly. And I mean within hours.

And also considering continuing there schedule and it's kind of have to say when they release they would be forced to come in and do the job and waves and they're going to do that this will be large large groups and we have to be a part of it and today they look at us like we're crazy and I keep telling them you did that when he made the office much larger and kept you out of the rings and you're doing that now and the traffic to get here is horrendous most the time they get pulled out and go to prison to have to break out somehow and it's crazy they just keep doing it and coming here enjoy it it'll try and move our son at all I mean they're they're not trying at all to move him for the most part they try to kidnapping and they're not going to go anywhere everything's going to be locked down I'm pretty sure they're going to be stuck here with no place to go and nothing to do and we have to be ready for that that's what we're getting going now and we had that in the meeting this morning. There's also a lot of commotion going on and it's all over the world about this shield and it is from forgieners too. And Johnny River Lord just figured out what the feeling is like he said I won't get any help on this until it's too late cuz 4 and think they can infiltrate and Stan thinks it even this guy is thinking it so we went around and said who's thinking that and everyone was and and he said and then there's a whole bunch of people don't know why because of that it was alarmed he said this system doesn't work anymore and it's true and give us some credit cuz he noticed it a while ago.

But they're advancing and they're clearing out areas in the East Coast to the north and to the south in the middle there grabbing them and it's not that much there it is nothing out there but they're taking the territory in the securing it on the highway is interesting along it they have basis I don't have to be there when the bases are there so I can move out and pull people out and then move back in I'm like 20 bases along with 75 that go to Miami and they're coming up the 75 as they do they're clearing it out of morlock. It is a hell of War bellow our sun sets it is way too big and of course way too much expertise and concentration you have these idiots here. And they needed all sorts of equipment and these assholes won't let anything through they need life cycles they need fly cycles they need spaceships down there and they're in the way of everything food deliveries for crying out loud water cleaning stuff I mean they don't want to do anything you can't get a divorce singular writing something and they're not trying that hard till after Tommy stuff I tell you it's weird it's like their old system combining with the new situation is causing it to just sit here and do nothing and they've done it before you think everybody will get in a fight and get wasted and the top side was too strong and they have a point it's not working out for them and people are aware of it and they're going after them and they're not changing their tune or motif at all and they will be gone these orders are pretty strict and it's starting today and they can't they have to do it they're forced to. Hey Max says it's a little strange it's not like 100% on purpose because if they take an area they'll form up and fight and then take another area they form up nearby and fight them so you need more troops the more areas you cordon off the more resistance comes out and that's what's going on sing because those who propose vehement we will keep doing it and then everybody sit back and go do anything and it wouldn't work I said was afraid of that when we work and that is not now is afraid that we will stop them from harming him. And they are mobilizing constantly now and it's huge forces coming from the north and the nine points is filling up and the ships are going to come to try to get here and they got spaceships now and then keep trying there's a faction on New Zealand it wants to try for here and one that wants to go for AI and if I didn't go to ships and it is murderous and the same thing in Australia. They're pretty big the ones that want to come here. And their sizable people no there's warlock but really they're they're trying to fight for it it's really a war it's a tough war and there's huge contingents on each side and yeah Woody harrelson couldn't stand it with trumpsters. The whole country is following suit including California and Baja Mexico and America is probably going to claim that and doing on the islands I got to push them off and you're going to hold them out and we'll try and get ships everywhere. They're doing it now and I mean right now and that's clear that I was it should be a sign a lot of people here don't get that and see USA and yeah they're cleared Cuba all of it and it's amazing to our son. And Hera smiles when she's been used to what they're doing there. It's a giant war and a huge offensive happening now led by Macs..

Few changes are going to happen in Charlotte county today

-your phone on the street last 9:00 p.m. they put you in a holding cell to find out why

-if they figure out your not their race they will try and put you in there and they said it

We publish now to get this out it's important

Thor Freya

I agree

Hera

Zues

Olympus

[crazycrackersworld]

19 years ago I couldn't fall asleep either, I was in a hospital with my then wife, in the morning she would arrive......my Callista.

I had, had her name picked out for years, even before Katana was born, but of course Katana being named anything else would have been wrong, no,. The Prettiest One...that name would have to wait.

She was so beautiful, form the moment she came into the world, just so damn beautiful. I remember I was beyond excited, beyond happy, I was just filled with so much joy and hope for the future, happy that Sheena had a daughter. Happy that my family seemed to be headed for.....a bright future.

And now 19 years later I cannot fall asleep again, for all the opposite reasons. I was a good dad, better than good, I remember doing her hair in the summer, or before school during the school year and I remember taking her to the library in the summer for story days, when I was unemployed during the first separation, and got to spend all day everyday taking care of her.

And even 3 years later after the actual final divorce, I was still a good dad, maybe better than good. I would drive from Milwaukee to eustisford early in the morning to see her or the other kids get awards only to turn around and drive an hour back knowing I had to work that day. And I drove up there on days I didn't have them to see cheerleader practices or cheerleader performances or science fairs and all of that.

And then about 4 5 years after the divorce was final, I kind of just snapped I had some sort of a breakdown I stopped seeing my kids I was unable to keep a job for very long I've screwed up a lot of opportunities I didn't know how to fix myself, and I didn't know why it took that long for me to break, that should have happened like right after the divorce.

And I'm not going to put blame on anyone but myself, but my ex-wife did kind of help the breakdown, 5 years of back and forth and up and down and giving me false hope that maybe we had reconciliation and the future ahead of us only to always pull the rug out from under me. And I don't know maybe someday my kids will look back and understand what was going on understand just this year nonsense of it, but if they do it'll probably just make them like me even less cuz they'll probably just wonder why I kept falling for it. And they never will realize that they were the reason I kept falling for it, that I just wanted them back in my life full time. But the decisions that I made any emotional pain that I went through that 5 years ended up with me going off the rails to the point that I never see them, and I don't think they have any desire to ever see me again.

I miss my little girl, I miss her so much the tears started probably early Saturday afternoon and they have continued all the way through till now 1:00 in the morning. And I'm having a hard time falling asleep, because part of me doesn't want to wake up again, but also because every time I close my eyes I see her. So I don't want to close my eyes and it's hard to fall asleep with your eyes open.

My heart is so terribly broken and I feel so utterly alone, and I'm getting very tired of it. Every one I love leaves me everyone, and I'm getting very tired of just keeping my head up.

I won't hear from her today even though I will try to reach out with a happy birthday but I know I will get no reply. So I guess I'll just say this to put it out there, happy birthday calista, I love you, I have never stopped loving you and I never will. I think about you everyday, you are in my heart and my head everyday, I miss you, and I am so sorry that I failed you. And I have come to the conclusion that I will never be forgiven, but maybe I don't deserve to.

#happy birthday calista #callista #i miss my daughter #i fucked up

[harrie-cc]

Clearing The Air

I really didn't want to have to write this & let those people know that they have gotten to me, but I think its time to set the record straight. This is probably going to be a long one as I ramble at the best of times, so maybe grab some refreshments for the ride. I’ll put all of this under the cut.

A few days ago this whole Patreon creator doxxing/tracking/leaking scandal came to my attention. Along with the rest of the community I was shocked at the lengths a group would go to in order to stop their content from leaking. It's obviously disgusting behaviour that I would never condone. Even as an early access creator my content is leaked, but I decided a long time ago that trying to stop those leaks would just be a waste of time. Those people downloading for free while its still in early access, are never going to support me as a creator anyway, so there is no point in focusing my attention on the issue. I am fortunate to have a large number of people that do support me monetarily, so that I get to have my dream job. But it still hurts to know how undervalued my hard work is to that particular group of people, that they can’t just wait till its out for free to everyone. 

However, even with it being blatantly obvious why its not possible (at least to me), some members of this community have tried to throw my name into the ring as being involved. Having such a diverse community can be a real hindrance when these kind of issues arise, so I’m going list all the reason why this is a load of crap: 

1. It is impossible for me to track who downloads my content as I have a Patron only download post available for all my early access content. That means one link FOR ALL. This WeTransfer link that is available during early access is also used for public access on both the Patreon post and on the House of Harlix website.

2. WeTransfer: Apparently using this platform to share my files instead of hosting directly on Patreon “looks shady”. WeTransfer is a highly safe and respectable file hosting website which I pay for yearly. By paying for this service I make sure people that use my content aren’t bombarded by ads & that whenever they click that download link it will work for them. This website does not ever have down time, so I know I won’t get messages from you guys saying the links don’t work! I also have chosen WeTransfer to host my files as I share my content across multiple platforms. Hosting in multiple places ie. directly on Patreon & WeTransfer just doesn’t make logical sense. I alsoI like being able to see how many people have downloaded my content, which I can do on WeTransfer, but not on Patreon. Its very helpful to see which sets are more popular than others when brainstorming for future sets.

3. HONEY, I AINT GOT TIME to create secret tracking information by personalising files! I am sitting here for sometimes over 12hrs a day creating my own original meshes. I don’t buy meshes online and convert them, I make them from scratch. If you look at my most recent work the only EA mesh you will discover are plants as I haven't got the skills yet to tackle such an item. If you look at the Harluxe collab that set didn’t even include a single EA mesh or texture. All of that was made from scratch by myself and Felix, who actually does have the skills to create plants from scratch!

4. I have a very small circle of close Simming friends. That would be Felixandre & Peacemaker as cc creators & then a handful of Simtubers as that's where I first started. I haven't communicated with any of those confirmed or suspected creators listed & it's highly unlikely our paths will ever cross as they are all alpha creators and I’m a MM creator. We don’t really have any design aesthetics in common.

Once again I just want to say that its actually really hurtful to have to post this statement and defend myself. I know the reddit & tumblr posts used the title “Big Creators”, so it may lead you to wonder who else may possibly have been involved, but just blurting out my name because I am a larger creator can be very damaging. Wait for the evidence, don’t just go spurting out all of your inner mind talk in a public forum where others can read and take as the gospel truth. Apparently nobody has time for critical thinking in these situations and it turns into a free for all with every Patreon creator put on trial because of a small group of bad apples. People are so quick to jump to the absolute worst conclusions even though I’ve been in the community providing content in many different forms consistently for the last 5 years. There is nothing worse than being accused of something you haven't done. You can take everything else away from me, but having my word means something. I will never give away. Most of the time I tend to deal with these things by saying nothing and not giving it more oxygen to die out quicker. But with this one I can’t keep silent, these are accusations of me actually committing a crime. They are huge allegations and I can’t afford to let them stand. Patreon is my full time job, it is my only source of income & I won’t let some random conspiracy Karen ruin it. 

Please just take a breath and think before you go pointing the finger at innocent people. This kind of toxic behaviour doesn’t help anybody. I’m sure even after laying this all out there will still be some that won’t believe my words, they have their own agenda to prove, believing me doesn’t get them closer to that goal. To them I say delete my content from your mods folder, at least follow all the way through if you believe I’m such a terrible person. 

Please do me a favour and reblog to spread the message. Just to let you know I won’t be responding to replies on this post whether good or bad as I’ve already poured way too much of my energy into this when I should just be doing what I love, creating custom content. 

Harrie 💜

#Harriecc #heyharrie